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They Called Me Gross. Then I Changed Everything. Ep,25 #SM New Movie ๐
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00:05During the months I had a crush on Lucas Reed, the football captain, I tried everything to lose weight.
00:10One day after volleyball practice, I almost passed out from hunger.
00:14Lucas caught my wrist and pulled me into a quiet corner beside the gym.
00:18Can you stop starving yourself?
00:22If anyone makes another joke joke about your body, I'll shut them up.
00:27That was the day I thought Lucas might like me too.
00:30So after our football team won the next game, I walked onto the field.
00:39Lucas, I like you.
00:46What?! Lily Taylor, did you just say you like Lucas?!
00:49A voice carried across the field. For one second, everyone went silent.
00:54No, I'm not going to do something.
00:57Damn, Lucas really is something. Even the fatty has a crush on him.
01:02Lucas! Is that why you keep rejecting girls? You were saving yourself for her?
01:08Are you serious?
01:11My face burned.
01:14I could not say another word.
01:16Then a loud thug cut through the field.
01:19A football shot past my ear and slammed into the ground behind me.
01:23The boys who had been laughing shut up.
01:25Lucas looked down at me.
01:27I just want to know one thing.
01:29What made you think you could confess to me?
01:32Did you think my standards were that low?
01:33My whole body went stiff.
01:36The heat drained from my face.
01:38Don't you think you're kind of gross?
01:39I left the room in a green light up.
01:42I could not take it anymore.
01:44I ran into the restroom and left myself inside a star.
01:50Suddenly, I threw the water off.
01:55Next time, look in a mirror before you embarrass Lucas.
02:00I stood there without moving.
02:02Cold water dripped from my hair onto the floor.
02:06I had been mocked for my body for years.
02:09But Lucas was the first boy who ever defended me.
02:12For a while, I thought my life could be different.
02:17But today, Lucas crushed that dream himself.
02:20I finally understood.
02:22Girls like me did not get exceptions.
02:27The next morning, one of Lucas' friends came over to move his desk.
02:31Lucas said he felt sick after yesterday.
02:34He's taking a few days off.
02:36He asked me to move his seat.
02:40After saying that, he seemed to realize how cruel it sounded.
02:44He met my numb eyes and quickly added,
02:47Not because of you. Don't overthink it.
02:49I blinked hard.
02:51What's the matter, Lily?
02:52Cat caught your tongue?
02:53They don't hate me this much.
02:55I only ate a little more than they did.
02:58Was that really so disgusting?
03:01Three days later, Lucas came back.
03:04He walked into the classroom with his arm around Bella Hart's waist.
03:09Bella was captain of the cheer squad and every guy's dream goal.
03:13And I was Lily Taylor.
03:16A nobody people only remembered when they needed a joke.
03:20Chase could not help whistling.
03:21Damn, Lucas. Finally got yourself a girlfriend?
03:25So is it real or just for show?
03:28Bella pouted like she was offended.
03:30What do you mean?
03:32Do I look like the kind of girl who lets random guys put their hands on my waist?
03:36Lucas lifted his brow lazily.
03:38Lucas did not deny it.
03:40People started cheering and teasing me.
03:42I lowered my head and looked at my workbook.
03:46At least no one cared about what happened that day anymore.
03:49No one had time to laugh at me.
03:50That was already good enough.
03:57After that, I buried myself in school work.
04:00On the next AP calculus test, I beat Ethan Miller, the top student, for the first time.
04:06The moment class ended, Ethan moved his desk beside mine.
04:11Ms. Carter said I keep messing up the written explanations.
04:14She told me to learn from you.
04:16Then he smiled at me.
04:18New seatmate.
04:19Help me out.
04:20It took me a few seconds to realize I had a seatmate again.
04:23I was a little happy, so I quickly pulled out my notebook.
04:27Here.
04:28This is what I use.
04:30Thanks.
04:30When I looked up by accident, I met Lucas's eyes across the room.
04:35He had been watching us for a while.
04:37A second later, he looked away close.
04:40I did not know my confession had disgusted him that much.
04:43So much so that he could not even stand to see me doing okay.
04:47The next morning, Ethan brought me two sausage rolls.
04:50I had just taken them when Lucas walked over with a low laugh.
04:55I didn't know you had such a specific taste, man.
04:59Ethan's face changed.
05:01What do you mean?
05:06Lucas dropped a stack of printed pictures on my desk.
05:10For you.
05:12You like this type, right?
05:15Want me to bring you more tomorrow?
05:20Who the hell said I liked fat girls?
05:24Oh.
05:25I saw you move seats.
05:26I thought you were into her.
05:29Was I wrong?
05:30Lucas's friends laughed with him.
05:36Ethan cursed under his breath.
05:38Then he moved back to his old seat without another word.
05:41From beginning to end, neither of them looked at me.
05:45But every word was about me.
05:48My eyes fell on the picture scattered across the desk.
05:52The sausage rolls in my hands went cold.
05:55Before Lucas walked away...
05:57Why would you do this?
06:01What?
06:05Are you that desperate for attention?
06:07Every guy who sits beside you gets the full treatment.
06:14After what Lucas did, everything got worse.
06:17One morning, I found my desk covered in graffiti.
06:21I kept my head down and walked to my locker.
06:24The moment I opened it, a stack of printed pictures slipped out and scattered across the floor.
06:30Students slowed down as they passed and started laughing.
06:33I crouched down and picked up the pictures one by one.
06:37After that, no one wanted to hang out with me anymore.
06:41They were afraid they would become the next target.
06:43During lunch, I sat alone under a tree and took big bites of my food.
06:49Even though I never thought about dieting again.
06:52The only time I had tried to lose weight was because I liked Lucas more than food.
06:57Now, I did not like him anymore.
06:59That Friday, we had volleyball class.
07:03Halfway through class, it started pouring.
07:06Everyone ran toward the gym entrance.
07:08They laughed and screamed while covering their heads.
07:11I followed behind them.
07:12Before I could reach the door, several girls started knocking me back and forth between them.
07:17I lost my balance and fell hard onto the wet court.
07:21My kneecap slid out of place.
07:23The pain was so sharp that I could not sit up.
07:27Then a person stopped beside me.
07:29I grabbed one pant leg without thinking.
07:33I can't stand. Can you help me?
07:35It was Lucas.
07:39No.
07:40Bella laughed beside him.
07:42Maybe if you lost weight, you wouldn't fall so hard.
07:46I was soaked through.
07:48Lucas did not look at me.
07:50He walked past me.
07:51I can't help you.
07:53Rain kept running into my mouth, but my throat still felt dry.
07:58I could only try to push myself up.
08:01Near the gym entrance, I heard people talking.
08:03She doesn't look like she's faking it.
08:05This is too much.
08:06Should we help her?
08:07You like her?
08:08You go.
08:09Who the hell said I liked fat girls?
08:12It took me almost ten minutes to sit up.
08:15I still could not stand.
08:18So I sat quietly in the rain.
08:20I forced myself to think about what grandma might make for dinner.
08:24Otherwise, the pain in my knee and the eyes behind me would break me.
08:28In the end, I got up by myself.
08:31The voices at the gym entrance never stopped.
08:34I did not dare look back.
08:37I limped to the security office and called grandma.
08:41After hearing what happened, grandma decided I needed to get stronger.
08:45From that day on, she planned my meals and made me exercise with her.
08:49If they try to knock you down again, hit back.
08:57I stayed home for two days before going back to school.
09:00That morning, grandma only let me eat one whole wheat egg sandwich.
09:04I felt miserable.
09:05But soon, Ms. Carter walked into the classroom.
09:08Behind her stood a strange transfer student.
09:11Ms. Carter looked around the room.
09:13Her eyes finally stopped at me.
09:15Sebastian Cole, sit beside Lily.
09:17After that, she hurried back to the office.
09:19Sebastian sat in the empty spot beside me.
09:22Neither of us seemed interested in talking.
09:25But Blake could never keep his voice down.
09:27Lucas, look.
09:28This guy is weird.
09:30His whole face is covered.
09:32What, is he disfigured?
09:35Probably.
09:36If he looked good, why would he hide his face?
09:40Ghost boy and chubby Lily.
09:42New couple alert.
09:44Lucas did not react.
09:45He only spun his pen lazily and said nothing.
09:49For almost a month, Sebastian and I barely spoke.
09:53I did not want to talk.
09:54I was afraid the same thing that happened with Ethan would happen again.
09:59Then one afternoon after class, I noticed Sebastian lying across his desk.
10:03After hesitating for a moment, I walked over.
10:06Do you have a stomach ache?
10:10Yeah.
10:15I'll take you to the nurse's office.
10:17Luckily, he did not pull away when I touched him.
10:19He was almost six feet two.
10:22Most of his weight leaned against me.
10:24Good thing I was sturdy.
10:25Otherwise, I would not have been able to hold him up.
10:29The nurse gave him medicine.
10:31Then she asked me to get him some water.
10:34I ran to buy it, then hurried back.
10:36By then, Sebastian was the only one left in the nurse's office.
10:39You dislike me that much and still help me?
10:42That's pretty kind of you, Lily.
10:44I don't dislike you. I thought you hated me, so I didn't talk to you.
10:47Why would I hate you?
10:49Because I'm fat.
10:51I suddenly felt he was probably not disfigured at all.
10:57After that day, Sebastian and I slowly got closer, but he was still strange.
11:02He never took off his mask.
11:04He barely talked to anyone else, but he always ran with me after school.
11:08My body changed, too.
11:10Without noticing it, I had gotten stronger.
11:13Grandma was pleased.
11:14She said I looked healthier now.
11:16I never expected Lucas to be the first person at school to notice.
11:21That afternoon, I sat on the lawn, finishing the low-fat turkey bowl Grandma had packed for me.
11:27I had just picked up my lunchbox when Lucas suddenly grabbed my wrist.
11:31You're dieting again?
11:33That's none of your business. Lucas, let go.
11:36Lucas pulled me toward the cafeteria.
11:39You get dizzy when you starve yourself. Did you forget? Planning to pass out again?
11:44If you don't let go, I'll bite you.
11:47You really don't know who is good to you?
11:50Drop the act.
11:52After that, I turned and walked back to the classroom.
11:55Sebastian was lying across his desk, alone.
11:59Is your stomach hurting again?
12:02Sebastian slowly lifted his head.
12:05Yeah.
12:06I wanted to buy medicine.
12:09But...
12:10I forgot where the nurse's office was.
12:12I saw you downstairs just now, but...
12:15You were talking to some guy...
12:19So I didn't want to interrupt.
12:22Lily, it hurts.
12:24I'll go buy it for you right now. Wait here.
12:27I'll go with you. That way I can remember the route.
12:36I held his arm and helped him to open his eyes.
12:39When we went downstairs, we ran into Lucas.
12:45Sebastian suddenly lost his balance.
12:47I hurt too much to walk.
12:49Let me rest for a second, okay?
12:50I opened my mouth.
12:52But when he made another soft sound of pain, I could not refuse.
12:57Lucas's eyes turned cold at once.
12:59He had just taken one step toward us when Blake and Bella caught up from behind.
13:04Whoa! Fatty and Ghost Boy, what are you two doing?
13:09What did you call her?
13:10Fatty.
13:12Am I wrong?
13:13Sebastian punched him and he could react.
13:16I rushed between them and shoved Tyler hard.
13:20Run!
13:23Only when we reached the nurse's office did I let out a breath.
13:26Thank you, Sebastian.
13:28But next time, just ignore him.
13:31He won a taekwondo tournament before.
13:33We can't beat him.
13:39But he was bullying you.
13:43Lily, I can't let anyone bully you.
13:51The next day, Blake came to school with bruises all over his face.
13:56If I find out who beat me, I'll kill him.
13:59Forget your face for a second.
14:01I heard some billionaire's kid just transferred to our school from overseas.
14:05Who do you think it is?
14:06I looked up and met Sebastian's clean, calm eyes.
14:10He pointed at a problem on his worksheet.
14:13Then he smiled sincerely.
14:14Lily, can you explain this one to me?
14:18By late spring, graduation was only a month away.
14:22For the graduation showcase, Bella was in charge of costume sizes.
14:26She stood at the front of the classroom with a clipboard and asked everyone.
14:31When she got to me, she looked down at the form.
14:34Lily, should I put you down for XL or XXL?
14:38I looked up for my corrections.
14:40For some reason, I felt embarrassed saying it.
14:44I wear a small.
14:49The classroom went fine.
14:59Everyone turned to look at me.
15:01Their shock told me no one had really noticed the change except Sebastian and Lucas.
15:05After months of eating healthy and walking laps, I had lost a lot of weight.
15:09Holy shit.
15:10Is that Lily?
15:12I told you.
15:12Her face was always pretty.
15:14Just had to lose the weight.
15:15Bella's face turned ugly.
15:17Ethan, who had not spoken to me in a long time, looked stunned too.
15:22That look made me even more uncomfortable.
15:25I was used to people staring at how much I ate, not at my face.
15:30Ethan coughed and turned to Bella.
15:31Isn't the lead singer spot still open?
15:34Maybe Lily should do it this year.
15:35Bella had always been the default lead for school performances.
15:39Bella's smile almost cracks.
15:41Lily's not as tall as me.
15:43I'm not sure she can pull off the dress.
15:45She's prettier than you.
15:47We can buy a different dress.
15:49Blake shot up from his seat.
15:51What the hell is that supposed to mean?
15:53You're defending fat girl now?
15:55She lost some weight and suddenly you like her?
16:00Ethan glanced at me.
16:01His voice dropped.
16:03Why not?
16:05Besides, she might not even look at me now.
16:08Something in that sentence must have hit Lucas.
16:10He suddenly threw the cup in his hand.
16:13The cup shatters against the wall.
16:17The whole room went silent.
16:18Lucas leaned back like nothing had happened.
16:21Sorry.
16:22My hand slipped.
16:23The interruption killed Ethan's mood to keep talking.
16:26When Lucas bent down to pick up the glass,
16:28a shard cut into his palm.
16:30He acted like he did not feel it.
16:32By the time he stopped in front of my desk,
16:34blood was already dripping from his fingers.
16:36His eyes landed on the box of bandages on my desk.
16:39His voice was low.
16:41Can I borrow one?
16:42It won't stop bleeding.
16:43Sebastian gave a soft laugh.
16:47Wow.
16:48You really know how to put on a show.
16:50I looked away from Sebastian.
16:52Then I shook my head at Lucas.
16:58No.
16:59Whether Lucas bled or not had nothing to do with me.
17:01I did not know why he had to come to me for this.
17:04Lucas did not look surprised.
17:06The color slowly drains from Lucas's face.
17:08When he spoke again, his voice was even softer.
17:11I get it.
17:14In the end, I became the lead singer for the graduation showcase.
17:18After that day, I experienced a lot of firsts.
17:21The first time someone called me pretty on the school subreddit.
17:25The first time a boy asked me out.
17:27The first time so many people were nice to me for no reason.
17:31Boys from other classes even came to our room between periods.
17:34Lily, I accidentally got an extra coffee. You want it?
17:37I refused out of habit.
17:38But Sebastian stopped the boy before he could leave.
17:41Lily, I think my blood sugar is low.
17:44I want the coffee.
17:45But I forgot my wallet.
17:47His calm voice did not sound convincing at all.
17:49It sounded like he was teasing me.
17:50It's okay.
17:51I have cash.
17:53I took out my little wallet and counted out $15 for the boy.
17:58Can I buy it? My friend wants it.
18:00The boy's face twisted.
18:05Being around Sebastian was easy.
18:07Even when more people started showing interest in me,
18:10I still only stayed close to him.
18:13Because of that, rumors about us slowly spread through the school.
18:17Did you hear?
18:18Lily Taylor, the new pretty girl from senior class, has weird taste.
18:21She likes Ghost Boy.
18:22I saw his face once.
18:23He's disfigured.
18:25It's disgusting.
18:26I heard his face is covered in burnt scars.
18:29Sebastian had never taken off his mask or cap in front of anyone.
18:33Even at lunch, he always ate alone.
18:35If not for me, he would not have been dragged into these rumors.
18:39So I started keeping my distance.
18:42Sebastian noticed.
18:43One morning before class, he stayed quiet for a long time.
18:47Then he suddenly said in a low voice,
18:49Lily, you can move your desk away.
18:52I froze and turned to him.
18:55What?
18:58He leaned back in his chair.
19:00His voice sounded tired.
19:02I'm used to being alone.
19:04You don't have to get tied to someone with a bad reputation.
19:08They all say someone ugly and disgusting like me doesn't deserve to be close to you.
19:13So maybe you should sit somewhere.
19:15Who said that?
19:15He said lightly.
19:17It doesn't matter.
19:18At first, Sebastian refused to tell me.
19:21After I asked several times, he finally gave me a few names.
19:25I remembered them.
19:26They were all boys who asked me to come out.
19:30Before, Sebastian had spoken up for me whenever people called me fat.
19:34Now, it was my turn to do something for him.
19:36I found those boys and rejected them again.
19:39This time, I warned them.
19:41If they kept spreading rumors, I would report them for harassment.
19:47When Sebastian found out, he covered his eyes with one hand.
19:51Sebastian's shoulders shake silently.
19:53I guessed he was crying because he was touched.
19:55So I patted his shoulder gently.
19:57No one will say bad things about you anymore.
19:59Don't be scared.
20:01I made a reasonable conclusion.
20:03Sebastian was deeply moved.
20:07Nothing bad happened again before graduation.
20:09The only thing people gossiped about was Lucas and Bella breaking up.
20:14At lunch, Sebastian and I walked ahead.
20:16Behind us, Blake was trying to comfort Lucas.
20:19Don't take it too hard, man.
20:20There'll be someone better.
20:22Lucas walked past me without slowing down.
20:25His shoulder brushed mine.
20:27He looked straight ahead and said casually,
20:29Why would I be upset?
20:31I never liked her anyway.
20:34Sebastian glanced ahead.
20:36Then he smiled faintly.
20:37Lily.
20:39Sounds like there's a dog barking somewhere.
20:44By the time finals ended, I already knew I had done better than usual.
20:48The day after results came out, Ms. Carter asked Rachel to organize one last senior dinner.
20:54When I arrived, I saw Lucas outside the restaurant.
20:57The red spark flickered in the dark.
20:59His eyes stayed on me.
21:01I looked away as if I had not seen him.
21:04I tried to walk around him.
21:05Lucas grabbed my wrist.
21:07He pulled me back until my back hit his chest.
21:14Are you insane?!
21:16He caught my other wrist without even looking.
21:19Lucas looked down at me.
21:20No matter how I beg now, you won't give me another chance, right?
21:23I avoided his eyes.
21:25I don't know what you're talking about.
21:27Don't lie.
21:28Lucas smiled faintly.
21:30You know exactly what I mean.
21:32He pinched my chin and made me face him.
21:36You know, I said I never liked Bella because I wanted you to hear it.
21:39I went quiet. I stopped struggling.
21:41After a long moment, I looked back at him calmly.
21:43Yes, I know.
21:45I also know you liked me a long time ago.
21:48Otherwise, I wouldn't have been stupid enough to confess to you.
21:55The first time I tried to lose weight, I hid it from everyone.
21:58I ate almost nothing.
22:00I walked home every day instead of taking the bus.
22:03I wanted to lose weight as fast as possible.
22:05I wanted to wear the dress I had loved for months.
22:09Then I wanted to confess to Lucas.
22:11But Lucas noticed my pale face.
22:13He also noticed my hand pressed against my stomach.
22:15He had been about to leave for basketball with Blake and the others.
22:19I'm fine.
22:21Lucas did not believe me.
22:23He kept insisting on taking me to the hospital.
22:25I had no choice but to tell him I had been dieting.
22:28His frown deepened.
22:30He used the clinic as an excuse and signed us both out of school.
22:34Then he dragged me to lunch.
22:36He walked ahead holding my hand.
22:41His voice was cold.
22:42Why care that much about what people think?
22:45Even starving yourself is fine.
22:47I was so hungry my head felt light.
22:49I barely heard him.
22:50I just nodded without thinking.
22:53Yeah.
22:54Lucas was furious.
22:56His grip on my hand tightened.
22:58But after a long silence, he still gave in.
23:01He held back his anger and said,
23:03Can you stop starving yourself?
23:05If anyone makes another joke about your body, I'll shut them up.
23:09Is that enough?
23:10I smiled a little.
23:12Then I asked quietly.
23:13Don't you think I'm fat?
23:14Like this, I'm kinda ugly, right?
23:17Lucas stopped walking.
23:19He did not let go of my hand.
23:21He turned back and bent slightly.
23:23His eyes were focused.
23:24I looked.
23:26His voice was serious.
23:28You're cute.
23:29Everywhere.
23:31Lucas said it like he was giving an answer in class.
23:33That was the moment my crush on him grew out of control.
23:37I squeezed his hand back.
23:39For the first time, I tried to climb out of my own insecurity.
23:43Then, in the next second, he pushed me right back in.
23:48For a long time after that, I could not get up again.
23:54Lucas's lashes trembled.
23:56His grip on my wrists loosened.
23:58Yes.
23:58He lowered his eyes and gave a bitter smile.
24:01I liked you a long time ago.
24:04But being with you meant everyone would stare, joke, and laugh behind my back.
24:09So you don't get to ask me for another chance now.
24:13His confession came too late.
24:15I turned and walked away.
24:20After a few steps, I heard his voice behind me.
24:23It was low, almost like he was talking to himself.
24:26But I liked you.
24:28More than any of them ever did.
24:31I did not stop.
24:32I took a breath.
24:34Then I pushed open the restaurant door.
24:37Inside, most of our class was already there.
24:40Sebastian had not arrived yet.
24:43Ms. Carter smiled when she saw me.
24:44Lily, you did well.
24:46Come sit.
24:49Bella's face darkened the moment I walked in.
24:51Then she suddenly smiled.
24:54Miss Carter, don't let Lily's grades fool you.
24:57She's not as innocent as she looks.
25:00I looked at her.
25:02What are you talking about?
25:05Come on, Lily.
25:06We've already graduated.
25:08It doesn't matter now.
25:10She was secretly dating someone before finals.
25:13I almost laughed.
25:14Before I could explain, Miss Carter cut in.
25:17Who?
25:18Who is Lily's boyfriend?
25:21Bella smiled wider.
25:24Sebastian Cole.
25:27Bella continued her words.
25:28I mean, Lily acts like such a good girl.
25:31Who knew she had a thing for the weirdest guy in school?
25:34Miss Carter's eyes widened behind her glasses.
25:37Bella looked even more pleased.
25:41He never takes off that mask.
25:43Maybe there is something ugly hiding underneath.
25:48But Lily, you don't have to deny him just because your boyfriend is ugly.
25:51When he gets here, why don't you ask him to take off that mask?
25:57Let everyone see those burn scars.
26:00Compared to her rumor about me dating Sebastian.
26:03I hated her insulting him more.
26:06Bella, have you ever seen scars on Sebastian's face?
26:10She choked.
26:11No, but then you made it up?
26:13Everyone says it.
26:16Everyone also says you only made cheer captain because your mom paid off the coach.
26:21So according to you, that must be true too, right?
26:24Bella panicked at once.
26:26Who the hell said that?
26:28Bella looked around the room.
26:30The restaurant got noisy.
26:32Another group of students crowded around Miss Carter.
26:35Miss Carter, I heard the principal say some billionaire's son was in our class.
26:39Who is it?
26:40Is he hot?
26:41He has to be hot, right?
26:42He's rich!
26:46Miss Carter was pulled in two directions.
26:49The room grew louder and louder.
26:50Then the door opened again.
26:52Everything went quiet.
26:54Everyone looked toward the entrance.
27:07And...
27:07We as lieked.
27:09For a second, the whole room forgot how to breathe.
27:12His features were sharp and clean.
27:13The man was almost too good-looking to be real the girl closest to the door blushed first
27:19um
27:20Are you looking for someone?
27:22Ms. Carter finally let out a breath and she smiled
27:25You don't recognize him the person you were all talking about is standing right in front of you
27:31Bella's voice
27:34Sebastian Cole the billionaire son what the hell this gorgeous guy is Sebastian the same Sebastian who transferred back from
27:42overseas
27:45And apparently lily's boyfriend
27:50I felt like lightning had struck me on the spot
27:54Sebastian looked a little unfamiliar without the mask then he raised one brow and looked at me
28:01Fine I accept
28:03I stared at him
28:05Except he, the restaurant exploded
28:10No way
28:12That's ghost boy
28:13I knew his eyes were too pretty for him to be ugly
28:16I thought that mask was hiding scars
28:18Are we sure he's not some actor?
28:20The dinner ended in scattered gasps and whispers on the way home
28:25Sebastian answered every question I had at first he wore the mask because he had gotten into a fight before
28:31transferring
28:32The bruises on his face had not healed yet
28:36Later he just got used to wearing it as for why he still took finals after being accepted early
28:42Sebastian looked at me calmly
28:45To go to the same university as you girlfriend
28:48Only then did I remember what miss carter had said at dinner
28:53You misunderstood bellow was just my first relationship
28:56Sebastian's eyes softened
28:59My parents were always working
29:00I grew up with nannies
29:03Once they both missed my birthday
29:06So I ran away from home
29:08I thought someone would notice
29:11No one did
29:14After that I got used to it
29:15He said it like it was nothing
29:17But I still saw the shadow in his eyes
29:20My nose stung
29:22So even rich families could be this cruel
29:25Sebastian noticed my eyes turning red
29:27Don't feel bad
29:28Don't feel bad for me
29:29This is the first time someone chose me and didn't give me up
29:35That's enough
29:41He sounded too used to begging for scraps of love
29:45That made it worse
29:46I pressed my lips together
29:49But the tears still fell
29:51Don't cry Lily
29:55Then he suddenly returned to the earlier topic
29:58By the way
29:59What were you saying I misunderstood?
30:02I froze
30:04The tears hung in my eyes
30:05I blinked fast
30:08After choking on my words twice
30:10I finally said stiffly
30:13Nothing boyfriend
30:16If I denied it now
30:17Sebastian might actually jump into the river
30:20He needed love too much
30:22And I could tell what I felt for him was different
30:25Trying it would not hurt
30:30Sebastian had already been accepted somewhere good
30:32But after I chose my university
30:34He gave up his spot and enrolled with me
30:36His cold, work-obsessed family barely reacted
30:40By the end of summer
30:41I had fully accepted that Sebastian Cole was my boyfriend
30:46He never pushed too far
30:47The most he did was kiss my forehead when he walked me home
30:50Other than being clingy
30:52He had almost no flaws
30:54On the first day of college, reality hit me fast
30:57Out of my three roommates, two ignored me when I said hello
31:01The last one was Bella Hart
31:03Her cheer record had helped her get into the school
31:08Compared to my bad mood, Bella looked almost pleased when she saw me
31:12What a coincidence
31:14Not really
31:16Most students from our high school had stayed in state for college
31:21Running into old classmates on campus was normal
31:23But some coincidences were still annoying
31:29Like that evening when Sebastian and I were eating dinner
31:33He told me Lucas was in his major
31:35I felt depressed for a few seconds
31:37Then I remembered Lucas was good at fighting
31:40I quickly warned Sebastian
31:42Don't get into it with Lucas when you're alone
31:44You can't beat him
31:47If he gives you trouble, call campus security
31:50Sebastian was picking the carrots out of my food
31:52Without looking up, he asked slowly
31:55How do you know I can't beat him?
31:57He had no idea how dangerous Lucas was
32:00This concerned his personal safety
32:03So I put down my fork and said seriously
32:06Don't act tough
32:08He's really good at fighting
32:12I've seen Lucas fight a few times
32:14He barely lost
32:15Maybe I sounded too serious
32:17Sebastian seemed hurt
32:19After a long pause he pushed the food he had picked clean back to me
32:23Then he nodded
32:24Got it
32:25I'm useless
32:26I won't mess with him
32:27I forgot Sebastian was sensitive
32:29My words had hurt him
32:30For the rest of dinner he barely spoke
32:32Even though he was upset
32:34He still quietly peeled shrimp for me
32:36I bit my fork and looked at him carefully
32:38The guilt got worse
32:42After dinner we did what college couples were supposed to do
32:45We went for a walk
32:47From the track to the quiet path by the campus lake
32:50I apologized to Sebastian the whole way
32:54After a long time
32:55He finally softened a little
32:58Lily, comfort me
33:01I am comforting you
33:03Not enough
33:05His breath brushed hot against my ear
33:08Kiss me
33:09Kiss me
33:10Please
33:10His voice was so close that I shivered
33:14My breath hitched
33:16Where?
33:17Both our voices had gone quiet
33:19Sebastian tugged down the collar of his hoodie
33:22Here
33:23I stood on tiptoe and kissed him
33:26Sebastian held the back of my head
33:29Leave a mark
33:33Let everyone know I'm yours
33:35I followed what he told me to do
33:38I pressed my lips there
33:39Then I bit down lightly
33:44My face burned red
33:46I pushed him away and lowered my head
33:48Done
33:50It felt nice
33:54Next time
33:55Leave a few more
33:56Okay
33:56Wasn't it supposed to go both ways?
33:59Why didn't he kiss me?
34:01I could not bring myself to ask
34:03So I stared at him for a few seconds
34:06Then I shook my head
34:07No
34:09Hopefully he would understand what he had done wrong
34:11And next time he would offer to kiss me too
34:17After college started I joined the volleyball club
34:20At first everything seemed normal
34:22Then I realized coach was strange
34:24Whenever he corrected my posture he stood too close
34:28Lily, raise your arms
34:29He came up behind me
34:31I could almost feel his breath near the back of my neck
34:34I stepped away quietly
34:38You can just tell me what to fix
34:40He did not take the hint
34:42He smiled
34:43But you're too stiff, freshman
34:45Then he suddenly flicked my forehead
34:47Other girls wish I'd helped them myself
34:50During break, Bella sat beside him with her water bottle
34:54She raised her voice just enough for me to hear
34:58Wow, Lily
34:59Coach is so nice to you
35:02If you didn't already had a boyfriend
35:04You could totally consider him
35:05Coach's face changed
35:09Boyfriend? You have a boyfriend?
35:12I looked away from Bella and nodded
35:15Coach stared at me for a few seconds
35:19You have a boyfriend and didn't say anything?
35:23What were you leading me on?
35:27Did you ask?
35:28And honestly, you're not exactly worth leading on
35:31Before he could answer, Bella slammed her bottle down and stood up
35:36Who do you think you're talking to?
35:38Your boyfriend isn't even on his level
35:41He's useless and creepy
35:44Anger shot straight to my head
35:46Before I could think, I walked up to Bella
35:48Then I slapped her heart across the place
35:52I warned you not to insult Sebastian again
35:55Bella froze with one hand on her cheek
35:57You hit me?
35:58The next second she lunged at me
36:01We crashed into each other
36:03All the anger I had swallowed for years finally came out
36:06Three girls finally pulled me away
36:09Coach looked at me coldly
36:11Then he made his decision on the spot
36:15You started it! Stay after practice!
36:19Run drills until I say you're done
36:24Bella dusts herself off and smiles like she has won
36:30Under the evening heat, I stayed on the court and ran drills alone
36:35By the time coach finally let me go, everyone else had already left
36:40I dragged myself back to the dorm
36:43After I showered, I was too tired to move
36:46I was also starving
36:49Then Sebastian called and made me come downstairs
36:52The moment I saw him, I fell into his arms and started complaining
36:57Halfway through, I felt so yoonged that I cried
37:01Sebastian, I'm so hungry
37:02I barely ate anything today
37:05I really want sausage rolls
37:08Sebastian went quiet
37:10Too quiet
37:12He helped me sit on the bench nearby
37:14Then he went to buy food for me
37:17After I finished eating, he checked his phone
37:20His face showed nothing
37:22Go back and rest, Lily
37:24I have something to do
37:25I'll come find you later
37:26I looked at him for two seconds
37:28Then I lowered my eyes
37:29Okay
37:30I'll head back
37:33Then he turned away
37:35But I remembered the message I had accidentally seen on his phone
37:40Sebastian, that asshole from volleyball is at the pool hall
37:43Come over
37:47I quietly followed him
37:49For some reason, I suddenly thought of Blake showing up with bruises back in senior year
37:54Pieces of old memories came together in my head
37:57And they all pointed to one fact
37:59Sebastian had been pretending to be weak this whole time
38:03That guess was confirmed when I stood outside the pool hall
38:06I looked through the glass
38:07Sebastian stood beside a pool table
38:10Coach and three other guys lay scattered across the floor
38:14Sebastian did not have a scratch on him
38:17Sebastian holds a broken pool cue in his hand
38:21The sharp wooden end hovered less than an inch from Coach's eye
38:26Coach
38:30You were interested in my girlfriend?
38:32Coach shook his head hard
38:33No, no
38:35I wasn't
38:37I swear
38:39Sebastian turned the broken pool cue lazily between his fingers
38:43My girlfriend had a rough day
38:46How are you planning to make it up to her?
38:49Coach trembled
38:51What do you want me to do?
38:55Sebastian seemed too bored to answer
38:57He shifted the broken key
39:00The sharp wooden end and his throat pitches calm
39:03Before it could go down
39:05I spoke
39:08Sebastian
39:09My voice was calm
39:11His whole body froze
39:15Until Coach and the others ran out in a panic
39:18Sebastian still did not turn around
39:20I walked over and crouched in front of him
39:22Then I took the broken pool cue out of his hand
39:27Sebastian lowered his hand
39:28His throat moved a few times before he spoke
39:31His voice was hoarse
39:32I'm sorry
39:34I stayed quiet
39:36After a long moment, he asked again
39:39Are you gonna break up with me?
39:41I looked up at once
39:43His eyes were red
39:45Something dark and restless moves in Sebastian's eyes
39:49He looked nothing like the harmless Sebastian who leaned on me and said his stomach hurt
39:53I sighed and curled my fingers into his palm
39:56Only then did he calm down a little
39:59Of course I'm not breaking up with you over this
40:02I just don't understand why you lied to me
40:06Sebastian wrapped his hand tightly around mine
40:08His smile looked pale and bitter
40:12Because I knew you didn't like me
40:16You only agreed to date me because you felt sorry for me
40:21If I didn't look pitiful enough you would leave
40:23Then I held his face in both hands
40:28Sebastian look at me
40:30I feel sorry for a lot of people
40:33But I don't date them just because they're pitiful
40:36Liking someone isn't charity
40:38It's not something I hand out because someone looks sad
40:41He gripped my hand
40:43His eyes were almost stubborn
40:46You can't lie to me
40:51Sebastian was wound too tight
40:53So I leaned in and kissed him lightly
40:56Fine, if he would not kiss me first, I could do it
41:01If I'm lying, I'll never get to eat sausage rolls again
41:03Sebastian finally relaxed
41:05That night, we walked through the quiet street outside campus
41:10I swung his hand as I walked
41:13Listen, we're actually perfect for each other
41:16You're really good fighting and I'm pretty good too
41:19Today, I basically pinned Bella to the ground
41:22She barely touched me
41:23Her face is going to be swollen for at least a week
41:28Sebastian squeezed my hand
41:30Next time, you don't have to do it
41:33I'll handle them
41:35But Bella is a girl
41:39Sebastian answered without much thought
41:43I'll use a pink bat
41:44I burst it off
41:46Then I stood on TikTok and kissed his cheek loudly
41:51I like you so much Sebastian Cole
41:56Sebastian was not the kind of guy Lucas said he was
41:59He did not only solve problems with violence
42:02Before going after Coach, he had already collected screenshots, messages, statements from other girls
42:09And proof that Bella had cheated her way into her cheer scholarship
42:13Then he submitted everything to the school
42:16The next day, Coach was suspended from the club team
42:20Bella lost her scholarship
42:21She was removed from the cheer program
42:24Everything happened so fast that I could barely believe it
42:27Sebastian met my suspicious eyes
42:29Then he lazily touched my lashes with one finger
42:32My mom graduated from the school
42:34She donated a library three years ago
42:36Right now, she's talking to the school about funding two new dorm buildings
42:41Later, I met Sebastian's mother once on campus
42:44Remembering his lonely childhood, I carefully told her to be nicer to him
42:49That little brat told you we abandoned him?
42:52I nodded sadly
42:54That year, he was only seven years old
42:56We missed one birthday dinner because of work
43:00So he took his father's phone and texted our assistant
43:03Told him to prepare the private rep
43:05He wanted to fly to Melbourne alone
43:08When we caught him, he was afraid his father would punish him
43:12So he hid in the hotel for two days
43:15And told everyone he had run away from home
43:18If the housekeeper hadn't found him eating cake in there
43:21Your boyfriend would still be telling people he survived in the wild
43:24I stared at her
43:25So that was the tragic childhood he told me about
43:31A sudden laugh came from not far away
43:33The mood went cold
43:34Lucas stood under a streetlight, watching me
43:37So now you're into violence?
43:43Just because he beat up a few guys for you, you're obsessed?
43:46Sebastian was still upset about me saying he could not beat Lucas
43:49The second Lucas opened his mouth, Sebastian's face went dark
43:53He started walking toward him
43:56I grabbed his arm in time
43:59Is he even worth fighting?
44:01Lucas is obviously weaker than you
44:03If you fight him, that's basically bullying
44:07You could make him cry without even trying
44:14What if he breaks down and calls the police?
44:18Coward
44:19You couldn't even like someone in public
44:23What makes you think you can compete with me?
44:25Lucas's face darkened
44:27He gave a cold smile and stepped forward
44:29I had no patience left
44:30I pulled the pepper spray from my back
44:32Then I sprayed him straight in the face
44:37No one helped him
44:39He would probably need a while before he could open his eyes again
44:42For a second, the way he stood there in pain reminded me of myself in the rain
44:46Back then, I had sat alone on the court
44:49No one was willing to help me
44:50Now Lucas looked just as helpless
44:53Lucas
44:55Seeing you like this makes me feel like I finally walked out of that rain
44:59I would not choke on that humiliation anymore
45:01I did not need him to suffer exactly the way I had suffered
45:05This was enough
45:06That man's a bit of pain
45:06It was real
45:06I had one
45:06There was a baby
45:06He would want to make a new
45:07Even two
45:07Leap
45:07Ele
45:08You
45:08Are