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They Called Me Gross. Then I Changed Everything. Ep,25 #SM New Movie 🔝
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00:05during the months i had a crush on lucas reed the football captain i tried everything to lose weight
00:10one day after volleyball practice i almost passed out from hunger lucas caught my wrist and pulled
00:15me into a quiet corner beside the gym can you stop starving yourself
00:22if anyone makes another joke joke about your body i'll shut them up
00:26that was the day i thought lucas might like me too so after our football team won the next game
00:32i walked onto the field lucas i like you
00:45what lily taylor did you just say you like lucas carried across the field for one second
00:52everyone went silent damn lucas really is something even the fatty has a crush on him
01:02lucas is that why you keep rejecting girls you were saving yourself for her i'm serious
01:11my face burned i could not say another word
01:16then a loud fight the football shot past my ear and slammed into the ground behind me
01:23the boys who had been laughing shut up lucas looked down at me i just want to know one thing
01:29what made you think you could confess to me did you think my standards were that low my whole body
01:34went stiff the heat drained from my face don't you think you're kind of gross
01:39i could not take it anymore i ran into the restaurant and locked myself inside a star
01:50suddenly
01:55next time look in a mirror before you embarrass lucas
02:00i stood there without moving cold water dripped from my hair onto the floor
02:06i had been knocked from my body for years but lucas was the first boy who ever defended me
02:12for a while i thought my life could be different but today lucas crushed that dream himself i finally
02:21understood girls like me did not get exceptions
02:27the next morning one of lucas's friends came over to move his desk lucas said he felt sick after
02:33yesterday he's taking a few days off he asked me to move his seat
02:40after saying that he seemed to realize how cruel it sounded he met my numb eyes and quickly added
02:46not because of you don't overthink it i blinked hard i could not understand why being bigger than
02:52other people hate me this much i only ate a little more than they did was that really so disgusting
03:01three days later lucas came back he walked into the classroom with his arm around bella hart's waist
03:09bella was captain of the cheer squad and every guy's dream girl and i was lily taylor
03:16a nobody people only remembered when they needed a joke chase could not help whistling damn lucas
03:23finally got yourself a girlfriend so is it real or just for show
03:28bella pouted like she was offended what do you mean do i look like the kind of girl who lets
03:33random
03:34guys put their hands on my waist lucas lifted his brow lazily lucas did not deny it people started
03:41cheering and teasing me i lowered my head and looked at my workbook at least no one cared about what
03:47happened that day anymore no one had time to laugh at me that was already good enough
03:57after that i buried myself in schoolwork
04:01on the next ap calculus test i beat ethan miller the top student for the first time
04:06the moment class ended ethan moved his desk beside mine
04:11miss carter said i keep messing up the written explanations she told me to learn from you
04:15then he smiled at me new seat mate help me out it took me a few seconds to realize i
04:22had a seat
04:22mate again i was a little happy so i quickly pulled out my notebook here this is what i use
04:29thanks thanks when i looked up by accident i met lucas's eyes across the room he had been watching
04:36us for a while a second later he looked away first i did not know my confession had disgusted him
04:42that
04:43much so much so that he could not even stand to see me doing okay the next morning ethan brought
04:49me
04:49two sausage rolls i had just taken them when lucas walked over with a low laugh
04:55i didn't know you had such specific taste man ethan's face changed what do you mean
05:06lucas dropped a stack of printed pictures on my desk
05:10for you you like this type right want me to bring you more tomorrow
05:20who the hell said i liked fat girls
05:25oh i saw you move seats i thought you were into her
05:29was i wrong lucas's friends laughed with him
05:36ethan cursed under his breath then he moved back to his old seat without another word
05:42from beginning to end neither of them looked at me but every word was about me
05:48my eyes fell on the picture scattered across the desk
05:52the sausage rolls in my hands were cold before lucas walked away why would you do this
06:01what
06:05are you that desperate for attention every guy who sits beside you gets the full treatment
06:13after what lucas did everything got worse one morning i found my desk covered in graffiti
06:21i kept my head down and walked to my locker the moment i opened it a stack of printed
06:27pictures slipped out and scattered across the floor students slowed down as they passed and started
06:32laughing i crouched down and picked up the pictures one by one after that no one wanted to hang out
06:40with
06:40me anymore they were afraid they would become the next target during lunch i sat alone under a tree
06:46and took big bites of my food even though i never thought about dieting again the only time i had
06:53tried to lose weight was because i liked lucas more than food now i did not like him anymore that
07:00friday
07:00we had volleyball class halfway through class it started pouring everyone ran toward the gym entrance
07:08they laughed and screamed while covering their heads i followed behind them before i could reach
07:14the door several girls started knocking me back and forth between them i lost my balance and fell
07:19hard onto the wet court my kneecap slid out of place the pain was so sharp that i could not
07:26sit up
07:27then a person stopped beside me i grabbed one pant leg without thinking i can't stand can you help me
07:35it was lucas no bella laughed beside him maybe if you lost weight you wouldn't fall so hard i was
07:46soaked
07:47through lucas did not look at me he walked past me i can't help you rain kept running into my
07:55mouth
07:55but my throat still felt dry i could only try to push myself up near the gym entrance i heard
08:02people
08:03talking she doesn't look like she's faking it this is too much should we help her you like her you
08:09go
08:09who the hell said i liked fat girls it took me almost 10 minutes to sit up i still could
08:16not stand
08:18so i sat quietly in the rain i forced myself to think about what grandma might make for dinner
08:24otherwise the pain in my knee and the eyes behind me would break me in the end i got up
08:30by myself
08:31the voices at the gym entrance never stopped i did not dare look back i limped to the security
08:39office and called grandma after hearing what happened grandma decided i needed to get stronger
08:45from that day on she planned my meals and made me exercise with her if they try to knock you
08:50down again
08:51hit back
08:57i stayed home for two days before going back to school that morning grandma only let me eat one
09:03whole wheat egg sandwich i felt miserable but soon ms carter walked into the classroom behind her stood a
09:09strange transfer student ms carter looked around the room her eyes finally stopped at me sebastian cole
09:16sit beside lily after that she hurried back to the office sebastian sat in the empty spot beside me
09:22neither of us seemed interested in talking but blake could never keep his voice down lucas look this
09:29guy is weird his whole face is covered what is he disfigured probably if he looked good why would he
09:37hide
09:38his face ghost boy and chubby lily new couple alert lucas did not react he only spun his pen lazily
09:47and
09:48said nothing for almost a month sebastian and i barely spoke i did not want to talk i was afraid
09:56the same
09:56thing that happened with ethan would happen again then one afternoon after class i noticed sebastian lying
10:02across his desk after hesitating for a moment i walked over do you have a stomach ache
10:11yeah
10:15i'll take you to the nurse's office luckily he did not pull away when i touched him he was almost
10:20six
10:21feet two most of his weight leaned against me good thing i was sturdy otherwise i would not have been
10:27able to hold him up the nurse gave him medicine then she asked me to get him some water i
10:34ran to buy
10:34it then hurried back by then sebastian was the only one left in the nurse's office you dislike me that
10:40much and still help me that's pretty kind of you lily i don't dislike you i thought you hated me
10:46so i
10:46didn't talk to you why would i hate you because i'm fat i suddenly felt he was probably not disfigured
10:54at all
10:57after that day sebastian and i slowly got closer but he was still strange he never took off his mask
11:03he barely talked to anyone else but he always ran with me after school
11:08my body changed too without noticing it i had gotten stronger grandma was pleased she said i looked
11:15healthier now i never expected lucas to be the first person at school to notice that afternoon i sat
11:23on the lawn finishing the low-fat turkey bowl grandma had packed for me i had just picked up
11:29my lunchbox when lucas suddenly grabbed my wrist you're dieting again that's none of your business
11:35lucas let go lucas pulled me toward the cafeteria you get dizzy when you starve yourself did you forget
11:41planning to pass out again if you don't let go i'll bite you you really don't know who is good
11:48to you
11:50drop the act after that i turned and walked back to the classroom sebastian was lying across his desk
11:57alone is your stomach hurting again sebastian slowly lifted his head yeah i wanted to buy medicine
12:09but i forgot where the nurse's office was i saw you downstairs just now but you were talking to some
12:17guy so i didn't want to interrupt lily it hurts i'll go buy it for you right now wait here
12:27i'll go with you that way i can remember the route
12:36i hold his arms and hugged him to open his eyes when we went downstairs we ran into lucas
12:45sebastian suddenly lost his balance i hurt too much to walk let me rest for a second okay i opened
12:51my
12:51mouth but when he made another soft sound of pain i could not refuse lucas's eyes turned cold at once
13:00he had just taken one step toward us when blake and bella caught up from behind oh fatty and ghost
13:06boy what are you two doing what did you call her fatty am i wrong sebastian punched him react
13:16i rushed between them and shrugged hard run only when we reached the nurse's office did i let out a
13:25breath
13:27thank you sebastian but next time just ignore him he won a taekwondo tournament before we can't beat him
13:39but he was bullying you lily i can't let anyone bully you
13:51the next day blake came to school with bruises all over his face
13:56if i find out who beat me i'll kill him forget your face for a second i heard some billionaires
14:02kid just transferred to our school from overseas who do you think it is i looked up and met sebastian's
14:09clean calm eyes he pointed at a problem on his worksheet then he smiled sincerely lily can you
14:16explain this one to me by late spring graduation was only a month away for the graduation showcase bella
14:24was in charge of costume sizes she stood at the front of the classroom with a clipboard and asked
14:29everyone when she got to me she looked down at the form lily should i put you down for xl
14:37or xxl i looked
14:38up for my corrections for some reason i felt embarrassed saying it i wear a small
14:49the classroom went quiet
14:59everyone turned to look at me their shock told me no one had really noticed the change except
15:04sebastian and lucas after months of eating healthy and walking laps i had lost a lot of weight holy
15:10shit is that lily i told you her face was always pretty just had to lose the weight bella's face
15:16turned
15:16ugly ethan who had not spoken to me in a long time looked stunned too that look made me even
15:23more
15:23uncomfortable i was used to people staring at how much i ate not at my face ethan coughed and turned
15:31to bella isn't the lead singer spot still open maybe lily should do it this year bella had always
15:36been the default lead for school performances bella's smile almost cracks lily's not as tall as me
15:43i'm not sure she can pull off the dress she's prettier than you we can buy a different dress
15:50blake shot up from his seat what the hell is that supposed to mean you're defending fat girl now
15:55she lost some weight and suddenly you like her
16:00ethan glanced at me his voice dropped why not besides she might not even look at me now
16:08something in that sentence must have hit lucas he suddenly threw the cup in his hand the cup shatters
16:14against the wall the whole room went silent lucas leaned back like nothing had happened sorry my hand
16:22slipped the interruption killed ethan's mood to keep talking when lucas bent down to pick up the glass
16:28a shard cut into his palm he acted like he did not feel it by the time he stopped in
16:33front of my desk
16:34blood was already dripping from his fingers his eyes landed on the box of bandages on my desk
16:40his voice was low can i borrow one it won't stop bleeding sebastian gave a soft laugh
16:48wow you really know how to put on a show i looked away from sebastian then i shook my head
16:53at lucas
16:58no whether lucas bled or not had nothing to do with me i did not know why he had to
17:03come to me for
17:04this lucas did not look surprised the color slowly drains from lucas's face when he spoke again his voice
17:10was even softer i get it
17:14in the end i became the lead singer for the graduation showcase after that day i experienced a lot of
17:20firsts
17:21the first time someone called me pretty on the school subreddit the first time a boy asked me out
17:27the first time so many people were nice to me for no reason boys from other classes even came to
17:33our
17:33room between periods lily i accidentally got an extra coffee you want it i refused out of habit but sebastian
17:39stopped the boy before he could leave lily i think my blood sugar is low i want the coffee but
17:46i forgot my
17:46wallet his calm voice did not sound convincing at all it sounded like he was teasing me it's okay
17:51i have cash i took out my little wallet and counted out fifteen dollars for the boy
17:58can i buy it my friend wants it the boy's face twisted
18:05being around sebastian was easy even when more people started showing interest in me i still only
18:11stayed close to him because of that rumors about us slowly spread through the school
18:17did you hear lily taylor the new pretty girl from senior class has weird taste she likes ghost boy
18:22i saw his face once he's disfigured it's disgusting
18:26i heard his face is covered in burn scars sebastian had never taken off his mask or cap in front
18:32of anyone
18:32even at lunch he always ate alone if not for me he would not have been dragged into these rumors
18:39so i started keeping my distance sebastian noticed one morning before class he stayed quiet for a long
18:46time then he suddenly said in a low voice lily you can move your desk away i froze and turned
18:53to him
18:55what
18:58he leaned back in his chair his voice sounded tired i'm used to being alone
19:04you don't have to get tied to someone with a bad reputation they all say someone ugly and
19:10disgusting like me doesn't deserve to be close to you so maybe you should sit who said that he said
19:16lightly it doesn't matter at first sebastian refused to tell me after i asked several times he finally
19:24gave me a few names i remembered them they were all boys who asked me to come out before sebastian
19:31had
19:31spoken up for me whenever people called me fat now it was my turn to do something for him i
19:37found
19:37those boys and rejected them again this time i warned them if they kept spreading rumors i would
19:44report them for harassment when sebastian found out he covered his eyes with one hand sebastian's
19:51shoulders shake silently i guessed he was crying because he was touched so i patted his shoulder gently
19:57no one will say bad things about you anymore don't be scared i made a reasonable conclusion sebastian
20:03was deeply moved
20:07nothing bad happened again before graduation the only thing people gossiped about was lucas and bella
20:13breaking up at lunch sebastian and i walked ahead behind us blake was trying to comfort lucas
20:19don't take it too hard man
20:20there'll be someone better lucas walked past me without slowing down
20:25his shoulder brushed mine he looked straight ahead and said casually why would i be upset
20:31i never liked her anyway sebastian glanced ahead then he smiled faintly lily
20:39sounds like there's a dog barking somewhere
20:44by the time finals ended i already knew i had done better than usual the day after results
20:50came out miss carter asked rachel to organize one last senior dinner when i arrived i saw lucas
20:56outside the restaurant the red spark flickered in the dark his eyes stayed on me i looked away as
21:02if i had not seen him i tried to walk around him lucas grabbed my wrist he pulled me back
21:08until my back
21:09it is trust
21:14are you insane he caught my other wrist without even looking lucas looked down at me no matter how i
21:21beg now
21:21you won't give me another chance right i avoided his eyes i don't know what you're talking about
21:27don't lie lucas smiled faintly you know exactly what i mean
21:32he pinched my chin and made me face him you know i said i never liked bella because i wanted
21:38you to
21:38hear it i went quiet i stopped struggling after a long moment i looked back at him calmly yes i
21:44know
21:45i also know you liked me a long time ago otherwise i wouldn't have been stupid enough to confess to
21:51you
21:55the first time i tried to lose weight i hid it from everyone i ate almost nothing i walked home
22:01every day instead of taking the bus i wanted to lose weight as fast as possible i wanted to wear
22:06the dress i had loved for months then i wanted to confess to lucas but lucas noticed my pale face
22:13he also noticed my hand pressed against my stomach he had been about to leave for basketball with
22:18blake and the others period cramps i'm fine lucas did not believe me he kept insisting on taking me to
22:24the hospital i had no choice but to tell him i had been dieting his frown deepened he used the
22:31clinic
22:31as an excuse and signed us both out of school then he dragged me to lunch he walked ahead holding
22:38my hand
22:41his voice was cold i care that much about what people think even starving yourself is fine i was
22:47so hungry my head felt light i barely heard him i just nodded without thinking yeah lucas was furious
22:55his grip on my hand tightened but after a long silence he still gave in he held back his anger
23:02and said
23:02can you stop starving yourself if anyone makes another joke about your body i'll shut them up
23:09is that enough i smiled a little then i asked quietly don't you think i'm fat like this i'm kind
23:16of ugly
23:16right lucas stopped walking he did not let go of my hand he turned back and bent slightly his eyes
23:24were
23:24focused i looked his voice was serious you're cute everywhere lucas said it like he was giving an
23:32answer in class that was the moment my crush on him grew out of control i squeezed his hand back
23:39for
23:39the first time i tried to climb out of my own insecurity then in the next second he pushed me
23:46right back in
23:48for a long time after that i could not get up again lucas's lashes trembled his grip on my wrists
23:57loosened yes he lowered his eyes and gave a bitter smile i liked you a long time ago but being
24:05with you
24:05meant everyone would stare joke and laugh behind my back so you don't get to ask me for another chance
24:11now
24:13his confession came too late i turned and walked away
24:20after a few steps i heard his voice behind me it was low almost like he was talking to himself
24:26but i
24:27liked you more than any of them ever did i did not stop i took a breath then i pushed
24:35open the
24:36restaurant door inside most of our class was already there sebastian had not arrived yet miss carter smiled
24:44when she saw lily you did well come sit bella's face darkened the moment i walked in then she suddenly
24:52smiled miss carter don't let lily's grades fool you she's not as innocent as she looks
25:00i looked at her what are you talking about come on lily we've already graduated it doesn't matter now
25:10she was secretly dating someone before finals i almost laughed before i could explain miss carter
25:17cutting who who is lily's boyfriend bella smiled wider sebastian cole
25:27bella continued her words i mean lily acts like such a good girl who knew she had a thing for
25:32the
25:32weirdest guy in school miss carter's eyes widened behind her glasses bella looked even more pleased
25:41he never takes off that mask maybe there is something ugly hiding underneath
25:48but lily you don't have to deny him just because your boyfriend is ugly
25:52when he gets here why don't you ask him to take off that mask
25:57let everyone see those burn scars compared to her rumor about me dating sebastian
26:03i hated her insulting him more bella have you ever seen scars on sebastian's face she choked
26:10no but then you made it up everyone says it everyone also says you only made cheer captain because your
26:19mom paid off the coach so according to you that must be true too right bella panicked at once
26:26who the hell said that bella looked around the room the restaurant got noisy another group of
26:33students crowded around miss carter miss carter i heard the principal say some billionaire's son was
26:38in our class who is it is he hot he has to be hot right he's rich
26:46miss carter was coding two directions
26:48the thing grew louder and louder then the door opened again everything went quiet everyone looked toward the
26:59entrance
27:09for a second the whole room forgot how to breathe his features were sharp and clean the man was almost
27:14too good looking to be real the girl closest to the door blushed first um are you looking for
27:21someone miss carter finally let out a breath then she smiled you don't recognize him the person you
27:28were all talking about is standing right in front of you bella's voice cried sebastian cole the
27:36billionaire son what the hell so this gorgeous guy is sebastian the same sebastian who transferred back
27:42from overseas and apparently lily's boyfriend
27:51i felt like lightning had struck me on the spot sebastian looked a little unfamiliar without the mask
27:57then he raised one brow and looked at me
28:02fine i accept i stared at him except he rest on his feet
28:11no way that's ghost boy i knew his eyes were too pretty for him to be ugly i thought that
28:17mask
28:17was hiding scars are we sure he's not some actor the dinner ended in scattered gasps and whispers
28:24on the way home sebastian answered every question i had
28:27at first he wore the mask because he had gotten into a fight before transferring
28:33the bruises on his face had not healed yet later he just got used to wearing it as for why
28:39he still
28:40took finals after being accepted early sebastian looked at me calmly to go to the same university as
28:47you girlfriend only then did i remember what miss carter had said at dinner you misunderstood bella
28:54this is my first relationship sebastian's eyes softened
28:59my parents were always working i grew up with nannies
29:03once they both missed my birthday
29:06so i ran away from home i thought someone would notice no one did
29:14after that i got used to it he said it like it was nothing but i still saw the shadow
29:19in his eyes
29:20my nose stung so even rich families could be this cruel sebastian noticed my eyes turning red
29:27don't feel bad for me this is the first time someone chose me and didn't give me up
29:35that's enough
29:41he sounded too used to begging for scraps of love
29:45that made it worse i pressed my lips together but the tears still fell
29:51don't cry lily
29:55then he suddenly returned to the earlier topic by the way what were you saying i misunderstood
30:02i froze the tears hung in my eyes i blinked fast
30:08after choking on my words twice i finally said stiffly
30:13nothing boyfriend
30:16if i denied it now sebastian might actually jump into the river
30:20he needed love too much and i could tell what i felt for him was different trying it would not
30:26hurt
30:30sebastian had already been accepted somewhere good but after i chose my university he gave up his spot
30:36and enrolled with me his cold work obsessed family barely reacted by the end of summer i had fully
30:43accepted that sebastian cole was my boyfriend he never pushed too far the most he did was kiss my
30:49forehead when he walked me home other than being clingy he had almost no flaws on the first day of
30:56college reality hit me fast out of my three roommates two ignored me when i said hello the last one
31:02was
31:02bella hart her cheer record had helped her get into the school compared to my bad mood bella looked almost
31:12what a coincidence
31:14not really
31:16most students from our high school had stayed in state for college
31:21running into old classmates on campus was normal but some coincidences were still annoying
31:29like that evening when sebastian and i were eating dinner he told me lucas was in his major
31:35i felt depressed for a few seconds then i remembered lucas was good at fighting i quickly warned sebastian
31:42don't get into it with lucas when you're alone you can't beat him
31:48if he gives you trouble call campus security sebastian was picking the carrots out of my food
31:52without looking up he asked slowly how do you know i can't beat him he had no idea how dangerous
31:59lucas
32:00was this concerned his personal safety so i put down my fork and said seriously don't act tough
32:08he's really good at fighting
32:12i've seen lucas fight a few times he barely lost maybe i sounded too serious sebastian seemed hurt
32:19after a long pause he pushed the food he had picked clean back to me then he nodded
32:24got it i'm useless i won't mess with him i forgot sebastian was sensitive my words had hurt him
32:30for the rest of dinner he barely spoke even though he was upset he still quietly peeled shrimp for me
32:36i bit my fork and looked at him carefully the guilt got worse
32:42after dinner we did what college couples were supposed to do we went for a walk from the track to
32:48the quiet path by the campus lake i apologized to sebastian the whole way after a long time he finally
32:56softened a little lily come for me i am comforting you not enough his breath brushed hot against my ear
33:08kiss me please his voice was so close that i shivered my breath hitched
33:17where both our voices had gone quiet sebastian tugged down the collar of his hoodie here i stood
33:23on tiptoe and kissed him sebastian held the back of my head leave a mark
33:33let everyone know i'm yours i followed what he told me to do
33:38i pressed my lips there then i bit down lightly
33:44my face burned red i pushed him away and lowered my head
33:51felt nice
33:54next time leave a few more okay wasn't it supposed to go both ways why didn't he kiss me
34:01i could not bring myself to ask so i stared at him for a few seconds then i shook my
34:07head
34:08no hopefully he would understand what he had done wrong and next time he would offer to kiss me too
34:17after college started i joined the volleyball club at first everything seemed normal then i realized
34:23coach was strange whenever he corrected my posture he stood too close
34:28billy raise your arms he came up behind me i could almost feel his breath near the back of my
34:34neck
34:34i stepped away quietly
34:38you can just tell me what to fix he did not take the hint he smiled
34:43but you're too stiff freshman then he suddenly flicked my forehead other girls wish i'd helped them
34:49myself during break bella sat beside him with her water bottle she raised her voice just enough
34:55for me to hear wow lily coach is so nice to you if you didn't already had a boyfriend you
35:04could
35:04totally consider him coach's face changed boyfriend you have a boyfriend
35:12i looked away from bella and nodded coach stared at me for a few seconds you have a boyfriend and
35:20didn't
35:20say anything what were you leading me on did you ask and honestly you're not exactly worth leading on
35:31before he could answer bella slammed her bottle down and stood up who do you think you're talking to
35:38your boyfriend isn't even on his level he's useless and creepy anger shot straight to my head
35:45before i could think i walked up to bella then i slapped her hard across the face i warned you
35:53not
35:54to insult sebastian again bella froze with one hand on her cheek you hit me the next second she lunged
36:01at me we crashed into each other all the anger i had swallowed for years finally came out three girls
36:07finally pulled me away coach looked at me coldly then he made his decision on the spot you started it
36:17stay after practice run drills until i say you're done bella dusts herself off and smiles like she has won
36:30under the evening heat i stayed on the court and ran drills alone
36:35by the time coach finally let me go everyone else had already left i dragged myself back to the dorm
36:43after i showered i was too tired to move i was also starving then sebastian called and made me come
36:51downstairs the moment i saw him i fell into his arms and started complaining halfway through i felt so
36:59younged that i cried sebastian i'm so hungry i barely ate anything today i really want sausage rolls
37:08sebastian went quiet too quiet he helped me sit on the bench nearby then he went to buy food for
37:16me
37:17after i finished eating he checked his phone his face showed nothing
37:22go back and rest lily i have something to do i'll come find you later i looked at him for
37:27two
37:27seconds then i lowered my eyes okay i'll head back
37:34then he turned away but i remembered the message i had accidentally seen on his phone
37:40sebastian that asshole from volleyball is at the pool hall come over
37:47i quietly followed him for some reason i suddenly thought of blake showing up with bruises back in
37:53senior year pieces of old memories came together in my head and they all pointed to one fact sebastian
38:00had been pretending to be weak this whole time that guess was confirmed when i stood outside the pool
38:05hall i looked through the glass sebastian stood beside a pool table coach and three other guys lay
38:12scattered across the floor sebastian did not have a scratch on him sebastian holds a broken pool cue in
38:20his hand the sharp wooden end hovered less than an inch from coach's eye coach
38:30you were interested in my girlfriend coach shook his head hard no no i wasn't i swear
38:39sebastian turned the broken pool cue lazily between his fingers my girlfriend had a rough day
38:46how are you planning to make it up to her coach trembled what do you want me to do
38:55sebastian seemed too bored to answer he shifted the broken key
39:00the sharp wooden end in his heart which is calm before it could go down i spoke
39:08sebastian my voice was calm his whole body froze
39:15until coach and the others ran out in a panic sebastian still did not turn around
39:20i walked over and crouched in front of him then i took the broken pool cue out of his hand
39:27sebastian lowered his hand his throat moved a few times before he spoke his voice was hoarse i'm
39:32sorry i stayed quiet after a long moment he asked again are you gonna break up with me
39:41i looked up at once his eyes were red something dark and restless moves in sebastian's eyes
39:49he looked nothing like the harmless sebastian who leaned on me and said his stomach hurt
39:53i sighed and curled my fingers into his palm only then did he calm down a little of course i'm
40:00not
40:00breaking up with you over this i just don't understand why you lied to me sebastian wrapped
40:06his hand tightly around mine his smile looked pale and bitter because i knew you didn't like me
40:16you only agreed to date me because you felt sorry for me
40:21if i didn't look pitiful enough you would leave then i held his face in both hands
40:28sebastian look at me
40:30i feel sorry for a lot of people but i don't date them just because they're pitiful
40:36liking someone isn't charity it's not something i hand out because someone looks sad
40:41he gripped my hand his eyes were almost stubborn you can't lie to me
40:51sebastian was wound too tight so i leaned in and kissed him lightly fine if he would not kiss me
40:58first
40:59i could do it if i'm lying i'll never get to eat sausage rolls again sebastian finally relaxed that night
41:06we walked through the quiet street outside campus i swung his hand as i walked listen
41:14we're actually perfect for each other you're really good fighting and i'm pretty good too
41:19today i basically pinned bella to the ground she barely touched me her face is gonna be swollen for
41:25at least a week sebastian squeezed my hand next time you don't have to do it i'll handle them
41:36but bella is a girl sebastian answered without much thought
41:43i'll use a pink bat i burst it then i stood on tiptoe and kissed his cheek loudly
41:51i like you so much sebastian cole
41:56sebastian was not the kind of guy lucas said he was
41:59he did not only solve problems with violence before going after coach he had already collected
42:05screenshots messages statements from other girls and proof that bella had cheated her way into her
42:12cheer scholarship then he submitted everything to the school the next day coach was suspended from the
42:19club team bella lost her scholarship she was removed from the cheer program everything happened so fast
42:26that i could barely believe it sebastian met my suspicious eyes then he lazily touched my lashes
42:31with one finger my mom graduated from the school she donated a library three years ago right now she's
42:37talking to the school about funding two new dorm buildings later i met sebastian's mother once on campus
42:44remembering his lonely childhood i carefully told her to be nicer to him
42:49that little brat told you we abandoned him i nodded sadly that year he was only seven years old
42:56we missed one birthday dinner because of work so he took his father's phone and texted our assistant
43:03told him to prepare the private rept he wanted to fly to melbourne alone when we caught him he was
43:09afraid his father would punish him so he hid in the hotel for two days and told everyone he had
43:16run away
43:16from home if the housekeeper hadn't found him eating cake in there your boyfriend would still be
43:22telling people he survived in the wild i stared at her so that was the tragic childhood he told me
43:28about
43:31a sudden laugh came from not far away the mood went cold lucas stood under a streetlight watching me
43:37so now you're into violence
43:43just because he beat up a few guys for you you're obsessed sebastian was still upset about me saying
43:48he could not beat lucas the second lucas opened his mouth sebastian's face went dark he started walking
43:55toward him i grabbed his arm in time is he even worth fighting lucas is obviously weaker than you
44:03if you fight him that's basically bullying you could make him cry without even trying
44:14what if he breaks down and calls the police coward you couldn't even like someone in public
44:23what makes you think you can compete with me lucas's face darkened he gave a cold smile and stepped
44:28forward i had no patience left i pulled the pepper spray from my back then i sprayed him straight in
44:34the face no one helped him he would probably need a while before he could open his eyes again for
44:42a
44:43second the way he stood there in pain reminded me of myself in the rain back then i had sat
44:48alone on
44:48the court no one was willing to help me now lucas looked just as helpless lucas seeing you like this
44:56makes me feel like i finally walked out of that rain i would not choke on that humiliation anymore
45:01i did not need him to suffer exactly the way i had suffered this was enough
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