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Season 2: A Different Kind of Summer
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Summer isn't the same. Following the devastating loss of Susannah and a painful breakup with Conrad, Belly feels like the magic of Cousins Beach is gone forever. But when Conrad goes missing and an unexpected threat looms over the beloved beach house, Belly and Jeremiah must reunite to save their sanctuary. Forced into close quarters during a rollercoaster of grief and nostalgia, Belly's feelings begin to shift as she is forced to re-examine the past and decide where her heart truly belongs.
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Description
Summer isn't the same. Following the devastating loss of Susannah and a painful breakup with Conrad, Belly feels like the magic of Cousins Beach is gone forever. But when Conrad goes missing and an unexpected threat looms over the beloved beach house, Belly and Jeremiah must reunite to save their sanctuary. Forced into close quarters during a rollercoaster of grief and nostalgia, Belly's feelings begin to shift as she is forced to re-examine the past and decide where her heart truly belongs.
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#TheSummerITurnedPrettySeason2
#TSITP2
#ItsNotSummerWithoutYou
#SaveTheBeachHouse
#BellyAndJeremiah
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#TaylorAndSteven
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#TeamJere
#GriefAndGrowth
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TVTranscript
00:06Previously on the summer I turned pretty my family has been going to Susanna's beach house and cousins every summer
00:11since I was a baby
00:15Susanna told me that when I was born she knew I was destined for one of her boys
00:19I always hoped it would be Conrad
00:21I wrangled belly an invitation to be a debutante now which one of you is gonna be belly's escort to
00:27the ball
00:27So are you and Jeremiah like the thing you're like basically related. I'm not going with either of you
00:33I am going to find my own date. I don't know what to think about you this summer. You have
00:37new friends. You have a boyfriend
00:38I don't even know who you are anymore
00:40Is that why you threw yourself at my brother so that you could get back at me?
00:44My heart's beating really fast. You're having a panic attack
00:46It's my mom. I know you said you didn't want to do chemo, but I'm not putting myself through treatment
00:51again
00:51I'm gonna tell the kids when we get back to Boston. Why are you acting so different?
00:55I mean something's going on. Just tell me. Ellie, I think about you. I do. You know I do. I
01:01just can't
01:02You're my best friend. There were times I wanted to be more. I was just waiting
01:06I mean, how am I supposed to fully jump into something with Jeremiah if a piece of my heart still
01:11beats for his brother?
01:12Will you go with me to the temple?
01:15Hey, does my mom seem okay to you? I heard your parents talk about it and your mom seemed really
01:18upset. Hey, have you guys seen Jeremiah?
01:26Come on, Adam. We need to talk, all right? It's important. It's about mom. You've known this whole fucking time
01:31you didn't tell me
01:31I told them I'd do the trial. It's going to work.
01:35Ellie, I'm sorry for being so shitty all of a sudden
01:37I mean, you were going through all this alone. I wish you had told me so you didn't have to
01:42No matter what happens next, I will always come back to this place and these people
01:59You live in my dream step
02:02We look at my fantasy
02:05I stay in reality
02:08You live in my dream step
02:112020, 2020, 2020
02:13Vision
02:13Cupid hit me, Cupid hit me with precision
02:17You're back
02:18I'm back
02:25We get it. You guys are into each other
02:29Don't listen to him. You two are perfect together
02:35Can I get a kiss?
02:37And can you make it last forever?
02:40I said I'm about to go to war
02:43And I don't know if I'm gonna see you again
02:48I wasn't in cousins
02:51Conrad and I weren't together
02:53And Susanna was dead
02:55Nothing would ever be the same again
02:57Hey, you dropped this
03:02Conklin
03:03What?
03:04I said you dropped this, Conklin
03:06You're reading The Hunger Games in French
03:09Trying to
03:10I almost know the English version by heart
03:13So it's not that difficult to follow
03:16Very cool
03:18Thanks
03:22Escaping to your dreams
03:23Escaping to your dreams is easier than living with your memories
03:24Escaping to your dreams is easier than living with your memories
03:25It's the being awake that's the hard part
03:36This almost doesn't feel real
03:40How about now?
03:48I can't stop smiling
03:52You know you have the prettiest smile I've ever seen
03:55Your whole face just lights up
03:58I wanted to say that to you also
04:04Uh...
04:05There's something that I...
04:08Need to tell you
04:12I don't even know how
04:13Um...
04:13Okay
04:14What is it?
04:17You figured it out?
04:19Uh...
04:20I, um...
04:22A few days ago
04:24Jeremiah told me that she owns for me
04:32Oh
04:34Wow, okay
04:37So what did you say?
04:43I...
04:43Kissed him a few times
04:54Um...
04:54So...
04:56Um...
04:57So when we both came to pick you and Taylor up from the side of the road
05:00You know, and...
05:01You went with Jay, were you two already...
05:04Yeah
05:07You know, but there were moments this summer where I thought maybe there could be something with you and me
05:10And then...
05:12You know, you'd shut down and get really cold and I get it, I get it
05:15No, I'm sorry, I'm sorry
05:17No...
05:17It's all my fault, anyway
05:20I mean, it's mine too
05:26Do you wanna be with him?
05:30Being with you is all I've ever wanted
05:32Okay, that's great, be with me then
05:35What?
05:36What, is that funny?
05:38No, I'm sorry, it's just weird, I mean...
05:41Everyone in our house knows that I've had a crush on you...
05:43Ever since like...
05:44Wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait, wait
05:46You have a crush on me?
05:47Oh, shut up
05:53Yeah...
05:53You're it for me, buddy
05:58I don't wanna hurt Jay
05:59Me neither
06:01Look, I'll talk to him
06:03He might not even be that upset, you know?
06:05It's Jer, he never takes anything too seriously
06:07It's not...
06:10It's not like how it is with us
06:16Uh...
06:16I'll talk to him first, I owe him that
06:18Okay
06:40Early morning walk on the beach?
06:44Uh...
06:45Yeah
06:45Yeah
06:46Mm-hmm
06:52I knew it
06:53Knew it
06:57I'm gonna go...
07:05Sit down
07:10So...
07:11Mom...
07:12Just let me change first
07:17All right
07:18Enjoy your summer
07:19All right, enjoy your summer
07:27No, but seriously, it's gonna be wild
07:30It's the best team we've had in years
07:31Oh, I made a seat matching crop tops
07:33They're pink, obviously
07:33And I got a bunch of new knee pads
07:35Ooh, knee pads, Taylor
07:37Show them
07:37Hey, Bells
07:39It's not too late to sign up for volleyball camp, you know
07:41Woo-hoo-hoo-hoo!
07:43Oh, our school is over, bitches!
07:46Woo-hoo!
07:47It's not just loud, Steven
07:48Hey, if I were going to Princeton, I'd be screaming about it too
07:51Thank you, Evelyn
07:53Wait, are you going to Princeton?
07:54That's so cool, I couldn't tell.
07:56Oh, you couldn't tell?
07:58Yo, yo, yo, yo, yo.
07:59Ow, Spike, what's up, man?
08:01What time is a grab party tomorrow, man?
08:03Oh, the band comes on at 10.
08:04I'm dating the singer.
08:05Uh, yeah, the machine gun Kelly wannabe.
08:08I tried to veto him from playing,
08:10but I guess we couldn't find anybody cheaper, huh?
08:12Oh.
08:13Wait, so are you coming to the party?
08:17I don't know.
08:20Belly, Belly, can I talk to you for a minute, please?
08:25I gotta go.
08:27Okay, see you, bye.
08:29Bye. Sorry.
08:31Bye.
08:33Bye.
08:36Belly, I was reviewing your end of term transcripts,
08:39and I couldn't help but notice
08:40that your grades have taken a serious dive.
08:42I mean, you kept an A in French,
08:44but you won't impress colleges with just French.
08:47Is there something going on?
08:48Uh, there's a death in the family.
08:51Oh, I-I'm so sorry to hear that.
08:54But your grades have been dipping all year.
08:56You even got your volleyball captaincy revoked?
08:59Yeah, I-I choked at regionals.
09:02Okay.
09:02Well, have you, um, have you thought about
09:04where you're gonna apply next year?
09:06Um, I mean, I know I'm not getting into an IV,
09:08but there's always Penn State.
09:10Well, that might be a reach at this point.
09:12Without volleyball,
09:13you'll have to focus on less competitive schools.
09:15Have you heard about Finch?
09:18Um, yeah, I know someone who's going there in the fall.
09:21A family friend.
09:22Great.
09:22Well, maybe you can visit them and grab a tour.
09:25I doubt it.
09:28Come in.
09:32Good morning, Bells.
09:34Hey.
09:35Come here.
09:40So, I stayed up all night doing research
09:43on-on the trial my mom agreed to.
09:46And, Belly, I'm-I'm feeling really hopeful.
09:49That's-that's great, Jer.
09:51I mean, I'm so glad that Susanna agreed to do it.
09:54Yeah, I mean, if I'm being honest,
09:56I'm still kind of pissed Conrad never told me
09:58what was going on with her, but...
10:00You know, at least it worked out, right?
10:03Right.
10:04That's kind of why I think
10:06we should tell Conrad about us as soon as possible.
10:10I don't-I don't want any more secrets,
10:11and plus, Steven already knows.
10:14Hmm.
10:18Actually, that...
10:20That's what I wanted to talk to you about.
10:23Okay.
10:24See, um...
10:25The thing is, um...
10:27Last night, I really couldn't sleep all night,
10:31so I went to...
10:34watch the sunrise on the beach.
10:38And Conrad was there, and we just started talking,
10:41and one thing led to another, and-and, um,
10:44and we-we kissed.
10:53You kissed my brother.
10:56I'm sorry.
10:57I didn't think that, you know, like, he...
11:00We-I mean, we wanted to tell you right away, so...
11:03You-you're already a we?
11:04No. No, no. I-I just didn't...
11:07I-I didn't want it to be weird.
11:09Well, yeah, Belly, it is weird, okay?
11:11No, Cher, please. I-I...
11:13No, no, you know what? Actually, it's cool.
11:14It's cool. I get it.
11:15You know, I was just a distraction
11:17to keep you busy while you waited for Conrad.
11:19I'm glad it finally happened for you, Belly.
11:21It's great timing.
11:23It's not like my mom has cancer or anything.
11:24Cher, I didn't want to hurt you.
11:26You're-you're one of my best friends.
11:27No.
11:29No, you don't-you don't get to call me that.
11:33You don't mean that.
11:36I do.
11:37Now, can you please get out?
11:43Just so you know...
11:47he's gonna break your heart.
11:58We should already be in the car!
12:00Coming!
12:07Hey, is this okay?
12:09I swear I left the tickets here.
12:11I thought your dad was meeting us there.
12:13Will you shoot?
12:14I forgot to make the reservation for lunch.
12:16Yeah, I figured, so I did it.
12:17Well, they're not gonna start without me.
12:19We've got time.
12:20I was supposed to iron that shirt for you.
12:22Take it off and I can-
12:23Oh, it-it's handled.
12:24It's handled, see?
12:25I use the starch spray that makes it look real smooth, eh?
12:30Oh, is that for me?
12:37Sweet! A laptop?
12:38Well, who sent this?
12:39What?
12:41Oh, my God.
12:42It's from Susanna.
12:45She must have planned it before.
12:47Classic Beck.
12:49I wish she could have been here.
12:52Yeah, Conrad and Jeremiah, too.
12:54They were busy.
12:56Yeah, sure.
13:04I feel awful.
13:08Brady.
13:09He was so angry at us.
13:12And he has every right to me, honestly.
13:17It's gonna be okay, Billy.
13:19I promise.
13:24How?
13:33I think maybe we should hit pause.
13:38What?
13:40No.
13:42I don't wanna make things harder for you guys than they already are.
13:44You're not.
13:45I promise.
13:46The most important thing right now...
13:49Is that you and Jeremiah are there for each other.
13:52Are there for Susanna.
13:54And I...
13:56Us being together would make that impossible.
13:59Ellie, come on.
14:02I can't do that to him.
14:16I hate that.
14:20Yeah, me too.
14:28Um...
14:34This was always yours.
14:38No matter what happens...
14:41We'll still be infinite.
15:09We should read this.
15:11Later. We should go.
15:13Found them.
15:14Come on.
15:19They say that everything happens for a reason.
15:23Now, who they are exactly is unclear.
15:26Maybe a theologian coined it, or...
15:28I don't know, whoever configured the simulation we're clearly living in.
15:33Maybe it was Rihanna.
15:35No, no, no.
15:36Rihanna can do no wrong.
15:38Definitely not her.
15:41But we've heard it.
15:44Time and time again.
15:45It's supposed to convince us.
15:46You know, that everything had to happen exactly so in order to teach us something about ourselves.
15:52In order...
15:53For us to grow.
15:56And meet our destinies.
16:02I think that's BS.
16:03I'm sorry, Mom.
16:05Sorry.
16:07You know, breakups don't always lead to breakthroughs.
16:10Sometimes a girl dumps you after an awesome summer, and it sucks.
16:15And you learn nothing from it, but you eventually force yourself to move on anyways.
16:24But then, the unthinkable happens.
16:27And you realize it's pointless to think of life that way.
16:29What?
16:30Belly.
16:34Hey, I never see you in here.
16:36Your mom assigned me this room to clean.
16:38It's the easiest since I don't think she sat put in here once to do any writing this summer.
16:44Don't you hire cleaners anyway?
16:46Shh.
16:52I love that necklace on you.
16:56Connie told me everything that happened with the three of you.
17:02I'm sorry.
17:03Don't be sorry.
17:04It's not how I wanted this summer to end.
17:08Especially not.
17:13I just feel like I'm losing everyone.
17:15You're not.
17:17It just takes time.
17:19You'll find your way back to each other eventually.
17:23And this place is always here for you.
17:27Yeah, but you've made every summer here so magical, Susanna.
17:31I mean, what happens?
17:32What happens?
17:34Belly.
17:36You love this place the same way I do.
17:41If anyone can keep the magic going here, it's you.
17:47You're my special girl.
17:53I need to call the cleaners.
17:57Promise me you'll never leave me.
18:00Never.
18:04Because everything just happens.
18:07You know, good things.
18:09Bad things.
18:10All in ways that you never expect.
18:12All in ways that are so completely out of your control that they could just drive you insane.
18:21There are times where it feels like the world is happening to you.
18:25But remember that you are also happening to the world.
18:30So don't wait.
18:32Make what you want happen.
18:34Because tomorrow isn't promised.
18:35So you better make fucking sure that you are living today.
19:03So extra.
19:04Although he did earn it with that speech.
19:06It was good.
19:07Yeah.
19:08Speech kind of pierced my soul.
19:13Don't laugh.
19:14No, no, I'm sorry.
19:15No, I feel like I've been in this nightmare ever since Susanna died.
19:19Maybe it's time to wake up.
19:22Oh, I gotta go find Milo.
19:24He needs my help putting together a look for tonight.
19:26Cool.
19:28Um, do you want to come over after and help me with mine?
19:31No fucking way. Are you coming?
19:33Yeah, yeah.
19:34Really?
19:35And I'm gonna sign up for a varsity volleyball camp too.
19:38Yes!
19:39Oh my god, babe, this party's gonna be insane.
19:41You are going to die when you see Milo play.
19:44No, yeah, I mean you literally might.
19:46Oh man, I could smell him from the podium.
19:47Really?
19:48Oh, I'm sorry. Excuse me.
19:50My man doesn't have that Korean gene that makes you have no body odor.
19:53Okay, all right, come on.
19:54Mom and dad are meeting us at the restaurant.
19:55Bye. Bye. See you later.
19:58It was a great speech.
20:00I know Susanna would have loved it.
20:02Yeah, I know.
20:04You know, I'm glad you guys are coming to the party tonight.
20:08Wow.
20:09I can't believe what I'm hearing.
20:10You really want me and Taylor at your party?
20:13Why, I never said want.
20:14I just...
20:16I just think it's better than moping around at home.
20:20Hey, you should drive.
20:22Really?
20:23I gotta read all the love in my DMs for my speech anyway, so...
20:26Hey, come on.
20:27Hey, come on.
20:32Yo, this is dope. I'm going viral on TikTok.
20:35Is that a good thing?
20:36What, millions of people around the world watching my speech on a loop?
20:40Yes.
20:41That is a very good thing.
20:44Yeah, I gotta forward this to Khan and Cher, man.
20:49Thank you so much.
20:51Oh, I'm sorry.
20:52Could I get a box for all this?
20:54Yeah, thank you, man.
21:02Happiness is an activity.
21:04Um, okay.
21:07Okay, well, everyone agrees you are the best.
21:10It doesn't say that.
21:11It's so random.
21:11No, it doesn't.
21:12It literally says it right here.
21:13It literally says it right here.
21:14I don't know what you want. You want to see it?
21:15Yeah.
21:15You want to see it?
21:16Look, I don't know what you want from me.
21:17It says it right there.
21:18I know what you're telling you.
21:20We're so proud of you.
21:20Susanna, you're gonna have the time of your life at Princeton, right, Laura?
21:23Yeah, I love college.
21:25That's where I met Susanna.
21:29So, how are things going with your book?
21:31Uh, my publisher is hounding me to do this meet-and-greet event with booksellers.
21:35I said no.
21:38Why?
21:38Because it's not necessary.
21:42Okay.
21:43Uh, well, it's time for me to go get ready for the party.
21:45Mom, mwah. Dad, mwah.
21:48Thank you for lunch.
21:49I'm gonna go with him.
21:49Uh, it was delicious.
21:52All right.
21:53Have fun, kids.
21:54See you at home.
21:55Yep.
22:00So you're not trying to promote your book?
22:03I'm not gonna have schmoozy conversations about Susanna just to get prime placement in bookstores.
22:08Well, you did write a whole book about her. It might feel a little cathartic.
22:12I wrote the book in a fugue state.
22:14I have no interest in dissecting it just to come up with pithy insights on grief.
22:20Okay.
22:23Glad the whole not going to therapy thing is working out for you.
22:33Look, you wrote a beautiful book.
22:38I think Susanna would want you to share it with the world.
22:44She was always my biggest cheerleader.
22:47Guess now I have to be my own.
22:52I'll wear the skirt, but I draw the line at pom-poms.
23:00I am so excited that you're finally here this summer.
23:03Can we do, like, everything that we never got to do together?
23:05Like, parties, pool, mall.
23:07We have to get you a fake ID.
23:10Let's start by figuring out what I'm gonna wear tonight.
23:12Okay.
23:13Okay.
23:17Susanna's earrings?
23:19They're perfect.
23:24Okay.
23:26Since my man is playing tonight, I'm gonna need you to be the super hot friend standing next to his
23:31super hot girlfriend.
23:32Yeah, let's get super hot.
23:34I love it when you agree with me.
23:38Um, I'm thinking this.
23:41That's what you call super hot?
23:43This looks so good on you.
23:45No, no.
23:46I've got to have something better.
23:47Okay.
23:55Mm-mm.
23:58No.
24:08The call came the second week of September.
24:10Three weeks since the last time I'd seen him.
24:13It felt like a dream.
24:15Unreal.
24:21Hey.
24:22Hey.
24:24I, uh, didn't expect to hear from you.
24:27Yeah, is it okay that I'm calling?
24:29I shouldn't have called.
24:29This was dumb.
24:30I'm sorry.
24:30No, no, no, no.
24:31It's okay.
24:33Um...
24:34We're still friends, right?
24:35Yeah, yeah.
24:37We're friends, yeah.
24:38Yeah, and, um...
24:41Friends can talk on the phone.
24:42Yeah, yeah.
24:43Nothing weird about friends talking on the phone.
24:50Uh, so how's, how's college life?
24:53Um, it's cool.
24:55It's cool.
24:56My roommate snores even louder than you do.
24:59Oh, come on.
25:00I don't snore.
25:01Yes, you do.
25:02You a thousand percent do.
25:03I've heard you through the walls for years.
25:05Only when you're really tired, though.
25:10How was school for you?
25:11Ugh, boring.
25:12Painful.
25:13I mean, like, no, no.
25:14Who invented Trigg,
25:16and why do they torture innocent high school students with it?
25:20Can't be that bad.
25:21No, oh, it's, it's bad.
25:23It's, it's, it's really bad.
25:24I mean, I can't keep up with all the letters.
25:27Well, you know, the first thing you gotta do
25:28is determine if it's a right-angle jockey or not.
25:30Bradley, have you seen my, uh, big kettlebell,
25:32the 20-pound one?
25:33Steven, I'm on the phone.
25:34We'll tell Taylor to go to bed.
25:35Hi, Steven.
25:40Hey, Conrad.
25:44It's not in here.
25:45Go away.
25:49Sorry about that.
25:51Okay, um, what were you saying about triangles again?
25:55Uh, so if it's not a right-angle triangle,
25:58uh, we're not gonna worry about it here.
26:00Uh, just...
26:03Okay, if you wanna wear the T-shirt, you know,
26:05we should at least crop it.
26:08It was Conrad's.
26:10You know, every time I think of him,
26:11I still...
26:13get this, like, pain in my chest.
26:16Mm-hmm.
26:17I know.
26:19Sucks, babe.
26:20But eventually, you're gonna have to let him go.
26:23Yeah, I just wish I knew how.
26:26It's like my Meemaw always used to say,
26:27the best way to get over a man
26:29is to get under a new one.
26:37Heading to a grad party?
26:40Yeah, mine.
26:42Me and the guys are throwing it, remember?
26:44Oh, right.
26:45Well, have fun.
26:47And don't drink and drive.
26:48Oh, don't worry.
26:49I promised Steven I'd be the sober driver.
26:51Oh, and I ordered you a pizza, okay?
26:53So please eat it.
26:54Don't worry about me.
26:55Go.
26:56All right, I love you.
26:57Bye.
26:57Bye.
26:58Bye.
26:58Be safe.
26:59Bye, love you.
27:00Bye.
27:13Bye.
27:16Oh, my God.
27:20Milo.
27:21Hi.
27:22Thank God you're here.
27:24Come on out.
27:30Oh, my God.
27:32Hey, so I need to be able to see you
27:33when I'm up on stage.
27:34Yeah.
27:34All right, so stay up close.
27:35Okay, yeah.
27:36Yeah?
27:36Mm-hmm.
27:37My boy!
27:38Yeah!
27:40You call this a party?
27:41Where are all the hot ladies, you promised?
27:43Um, we're literally standing right here.
27:46Oh!
27:47Uh, no offense.
27:48I'm into older women.
27:50Personal preference.
27:51Yeah.
27:52Hey, babe, I'm gonna go help the guys finish something.
27:53Okay.
27:54All right.
27:54All right.
27:55All right.
27:56Bye.
28:00Okay.
28:01Well, have fun, everybody.
28:03I gotta go make the rounds, entertain the people.
28:05You know, post shit.
28:07Okay.
28:08Come on, Spike.
28:10You're so cute tonight, you know that?
28:12Come on, let's go get some drinks.
28:13I can't drink.
28:14I'm trying.
28:15Okay.
28:18What?
28:19Oh, my God, but camp is gonna be so much fun.
28:22I bought us all matching PJs.
28:24Oh, you are going to need to buy one more set.
28:27Guess who finally decided to join?
28:29The killer B is gonna have her captaincy back from Donna in, like, no time.
28:33You know what I mean?
28:34Yeah, right?
28:35But Coach Shaw, he's okay with it.
28:37You know, he'll come back.
28:39I actually haven't talked to Coach yet.
28:41I wanted to talk to you guys first.
28:44I mean, after last season, I totally don't blame you if you don't want me back on the team.
28:49Oh, shut up.
28:50You're always one of us.
28:51Yes.
28:52Right answer.
28:53Bump, set, hit, swipe.
28:55That's the way we like to fight.
28:58Come on.
28:59Come on, team.
29:00Let's hear you scream.
29:03Here.
29:04And for you.
29:05There we go.
29:06Oh, my God.
29:09Holy shit.
29:15It's game point, Miss Conklin.
29:17Bye-bye, Conrad.
29:19Hey, you still there?
29:22So, my roommate, Trusky.
29:24Oh, did he sleepwalk in his underwear again?
29:26No, he didn't.
29:27He didn't, thankfully.
29:28But we were talking and it turns out he's a 5G conspiracist.
29:32So, apparently, that guy that Katie was seeing had a girlfriend the whole time.
29:37I mean, it just sucks.
29:38Like, he didn't really seem like the type, you know?
29:47Did you know my dad cheated?
29:51Adam cheated on Susanna?
29:53Yeah, the first time my mom was sick, he had an affair with his secretary, Kaylee.
30:01I found out about it last spring.
30:03Like, the same day, I found out my mom's cancer coming back.
30:09How'd you find out?
30:10Um, I came home early from school one day and heard them fighting.
30:20She was crying so much, Belly.
30:22She...
30:22I've never heard her cry like that before.
30:27So, I left.
30:29I went back out.
30:30I drove around town for two hours and came back and pretended not to know anything.
30:35I'm so sorry.
30:37It sucks that you had to carry that secret for so long.
30:42Yeah, it's just exhausting.
30:44Like, I couldn't turn my brain off.
30:48It was like, if you do that, then this horrible thing is gonna happen.
30:52But if you do this, then, you know, just this catastrophic thing will happen.
30:57Oh, my God, that sounds so stressful.
31:05Oh, God damn it, it's two o'clock.
31:08You said you had practice early. I should let you go?
31:09Oh.
31:12Yeah.
31:14Um, off-season workouts suck.
31:16But, uh, there's a rumor that a college scout from Finch is coming to watch our club team play this
31:21weekend.
31:22And there's a chance Coach might make me captain.
31:24What? That's crazy.
31:26I'll definitely let you go. I didn't know that.
31:30Five more minutes?
31:34Yeah, okay.
31:35Yeah.
31:36I'll do it.
31:37I'm gonna do it.
31:38Yeah.
31:39Oh, yeah.
31:40Yeah.
31:41What are you waiting for?
31:43Good luck.
31:44Good luck.
31:46Good luck.
31:50Wow, you're, uh, really good at operating a keg.
31:55Wow. Hi, Conklin.
31:56Oh, um,
31:58Uh, in Paris, like usual.
32:03Yeah, good.
32:05I didn't know you took French.
32:07Oui.
32:08You want one?
32:09No, no, I'm okay, thanks.
32:10Uh, I'm the DD tonight.
32:14Cheers.
32:14Yeah.
32:17I could spend my life in this sweet surrender.
32:25I could stay lost in this moment forever.
32:32And every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure.
32:40I don't wanna close my eyes.
32:44I don't wanna fall asleep cause I'd miss you, baby.
32:49And I don't wanna miss a thing.
32:51Do you want to know something so romantic?
32:54Milo wrote this song for me.
32:55It's fine.
32:56It's a cover.
32:59You love that song from the movie Armageddon?
33:02Oh.
33:03Well, it's still romantic.
33:05Okay, wait, don't make me beg you for details.
33:07What did you and Cory talk about?
33:10Uh, the book I'm reading.
33:13I'm sorry, you suck at talking to guys.
33:15Okay, I'm rusty and also he's the one who brought it up.
33:19And he spoke to me in French.
33:20Bitch, what?
33:21In French?
33:22Okay, that's so hot.
33:24Like, he sounds obsessed with you.
33:25Yeah, I don't know.
33:27I mean, that combo took so much effort.
33:30Like, is it supposed to be that hard?
33:33I mean, like, look at you and Milo.
33:34You guys just make sense.
33:36I don't wanna close my eyes.
33:39Well, Milo and I are soulmates.
33:41I don't wanna fall asleep cause I miss you, baby.
33:44And I don't wanna miss a thing.
33:47Cause even when I dream of you.
33:50The sweetest dream would never do.
33:53I'd still miss you, baby.
33:55And I don't wanna miss a thing.
34:26Can we forget about the things I said when I was drunk?
34:32I didn't mean to call you that.
34:36I can't remember what was said or what you threw at me.
34:42Please tell me.
34:44Please tell me why.
34:50Belly, I'm in a crowd, sir.
34:52Hold my shirt for a second and make sure no one spills anything on it.
34:54Ew! Stephen, no, I don't want to hold your 20 people.
34:57Woo!
34:59Yeah!
35:00What the hell? Are you okay?
35:03Billy, I'm sorry.
35:05No, yeah, no, I'm good. I'm totally fine.
35:08I'm gonna go get a drink.
35:11Well, you're my sober driver, Belly Bells.
35:14Don't let me down!
35:15Stephen!
35:16It's no surprise to me. I am my own.
35:20I had this weird thought today.
35:25Yeah?
35:27I love your thoughts.
35:28I was thinking if my dad had cheated on my mom,
35:34she probably wouldn't have even cared.
35:37Is that harsh?
35:39No, but you really think Laurel wouldn't have a reaction?
35:42I mean, kinda.
35:43Like, nothing about my dad ever excited her.
35:46You know?
35:47They were, like, never romantic around each other.
35:50And you want to see your parents being romantic?
35:54Maybe.
35:55I mean, I just can't imagine marrying someone who didn't give me fireworks.
36:01You know, like electric jolts every time I saw them.
36:07Were you surprised when you found out your parents were getting divorced?
36:10Uh, yes and no.
36:12I mean, I always thought divorce meant fighting, you know?
36:16And there was none of that.
36:17I mean, they were cold for a little while, but, um...
36:20how everything's kind of back to normal.
36:24In a weird way, that must almost be a little harder to understand.
36:29Exactly.
36:33Oh, wow.
36:35What?
36:36I don't know.
36:38I've just never sent any of this to anyone before.
36:42Me too.
36:47Hey, can I ask you something?
36:49Anything.
36:52Um, how's...
36:53How's Jer?
36:54Is he...
36:54Is he doing okay?
36:55Um, yeah.
36:56Yeah, he seems good.
36:58Why?
36:58I don't know.
36:59I've texted him a few times since summer ended,
37:01and, uh, he never writes back.
37:04Yeah, no.
37:04I mean, he's probably just busy with senior year stuff.
37:07Right, right, right.
37:08Or, you know, it's that he'll never get over what I did
37:10and hold it against me for the rest of our lives.
37:12Belly.
37:13Can't keep mine.
37:14Forget I said anything.
37:23I learned something kind of cool.
37:25Tell me.
37:27Did you know that Venus is an evening star
37:31for 263 days out of the year,
37:33and then it disappears from the sky for 50 days
37:36before returning as a morning star
37:39for another 263 days?
37:41I did not know that.
37:43That is very cool.
37:44And right now it's an evening star.
37:46It's really bright next to the moon.
37:49I'm actually looking at it right now.
37:54It's probably, uh, against the rules to say this,
37:57but, um,
38:00I wish we were looking at it together.
38:06Me too.
38:15And Billy?
38:17Yes, Comet?
38:20I couldn't be with someone
38:21who didn't make me feel electric either.
38:27I had my own worth 7 a day
38:30I said when I've been
38:32I kicked the living shit out of me
38:34Can we forget about the things
38:37I said when I was drunk
38:39I didn't mean to call you that
38:43Yeah
38:48Hey, hey, Conklin.
38:51Hey, long time no see, huh?
38:53Yeah, no, I know, it's been ages, right?
38:55Yeah
38:56Is that seat-taking?
38:58Uh, nope, nope.
38:59I'm right ahead.
39:00Yeah
39:08I wonder if Venus is a morning star
39:10or an evening star tonight.
39:12I think Venus is a planet.
39:14No, actually, uh, ancient astronomers, um,
39:19you know what?
39:20Never mind.
39:21Okay.
39:22It's dumb.
39:24You know, you can hardly see any stars
39:26this close to the city anyway.
39:28There's a lot more by the beach.
39:33I, uh, used to spend every summer
39:35at this beach in Massachusetts.
39:37Hmm.
39:39Are you going this summer?
39:41Uh, no.
39:42No, I'm not.
39:44So then you'll be here for the 4th, huh?
39:46Yeah.
39:47Okay.
39:48Well, my folks are gonna be out of town
39:49and I'll just think about having a few people over.
39:52You and your friends should totally come.
39:54That-that sounds cool.
39:56All right.
39:56Cool.
40:00Come here.
40:02You kind of have something.
40:03Here.
40:04Okay.
40:04Yeah.
40:04No.
40:07Uh, Belly, no, I was just-
40:09Oh, my gosh!
40:10No, I was just-
40:11You had something in your-
40:11I have something in your-
40:12Yeah, yeah.
40:13You know why?
40:13Because I just-
40:14It's grass.
40:15That's right.
40:16Holy shit.
40:16But no, no, no.
40:17I'm totally fine.
40:18I'm just, um, I'm gonna go.
40:19Okay, see ya.
40:20Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
40:21Um, hey, hey, Belly, actually.
40:23Yeah.
40:23Um, could you do me a favor?
40:25Could you put in a good word for me with, uh, your friend Marcy?
40:30Yeah.
40:31With Marcy?
40:32Yes.
40:32Yes.
40:33And you-and you.
40:34That makes sense.
40:34Yeah, I totally will.
40:35You guys-
40:36Cool.
40:37Thank you for this.
40:38Yep.
40:38Okay, bye.
40:48Belly!
40:48Belly, come here.
40:51Hey, sis.
40:52Sis, sis, sis.
40:53Check it out.
40:53Check it out.
40:53Check it out.
40:55Oh!
40:56Oh!
40:56Oh, my God!
40:59I can't believe you did that.
41:01This party sucks.
41:02Dude, it's beer, man.
41:04It'll dry.
41:05Chill.
41:06I'm leaving, okay?
41:08Wait, wait.
41:08Did something happen?
41:09No, nothing happened.
41:11Whatever.
41:11Uh, Steven, can you just get Spike to drive you home, please?
41:14Spike?
41:15No, Spike is drunk.
41:17You-you promised to be my sober ride tonight.
41:19Okay, well, I'm ready to go now.
41:21Okay, well, I'm not.
41:22Great, then can you just call an Uber or something?
41:24Why-why are you being such a buzzkill right now?
41:26Oh, I'm sorry.
41:27Am I ruining your fun night, Mr. Perfect Valedictorian?
41:30Kinda, yeah.
41:31Okay, well, in case you forgot,
41:33which it clearly seems like you did,
41:35Susanna just died,
41:36so I'm a little bit sad,
41:37but please don't let that stop you
41:38from having the time of your life.
41:40Fuck you.
41:41You know, I lost Susanna, too.
41:43Okay, you don't think I'm sad about that?
41:45Oh, what, were you crowd-serving the pain away?
41:47My apologies.
41:47No, you should apologize.
41:49You screwed up and out.
41:50Now everything is weird with Conrad and Jeremiah.
41:53I mean, they won't even text me back anymore because of you.
41:54Okay, guys, wait a second.
41:55That is not my fault.
41:57Isn't it?
41:58Hmm?
41:58I should be celebrating with them tonight,
42:01but they wouldn't come because you made things messy.
42:05You had Jeremiah, and it just wasn't enough.
42:07You had to have Conrad, too.
42:10God, you are so fucking selfish.
42:12Stephen!
42:13What?
42:13Serious?
42:14I had to have Conrad?
42:16Are you kidding?
42:18I was in love, Stephen, like out of my mind in love.
42:21What was I supposed to do?
42:24Belly.
42:26Belly.
42:27Stephen.
42:32Hey.
42:34Stephen is a drunk idiot right now.
42:36Please do not listen to him.
42:37No, he's right.
42:38I mean, I ruined things with both of them,
42:41and then Susanna died,
42:42and I completely ruined her funeral,
42:43and I just, I wish I hadn't started any of it.
42:45No, you don't.
42:46Yes, I do.
42:46No, you don't.
42:47Yes, I do, and I'm so tired of feeling sad all the time,
42:50and I just, I don't think I get to feel better.
42:53You think that right now, but I promise you...
42:55No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
42:57Nothing is promised.
42:58You can't promise anything.
43:00Sorry.
43:01Sorry.
43:02I just, I know you're trying your best.
43:05I don't, I don't expect anyone to understand what I'm, I'm going through right now,
43:09and I think I just have to deal with it alone.
43:18I'm going to go.
43:19Okay, I'll go.
43:20I can come with you.
43:21No, no, no, no.
43:21You stay.
43:22I mean, it's your boyfriend's debut,
43:24and I just, I just need to go to bed.
43:28Okay.
43:30Will you text me when you get home, please?
43:31Yeah.
43:33I love you.
43:33Love you.
43:34I love you.
43:36Love you.
43:43Love you.
43:57Love you.
44:03I got my driver's license last week
44:07Just like we always talked about
44:10Cause you were so excited for me
44:13To finally drive up to your house
44:17But today I drove through the suburbs
44:19Crying because you weren't around
44:26And all my friends are tired
44:29Of hearing how much I miss you
44:33But I kinda feel sorry for them
44:36Cause they'll never know you the way that I do
44:39Yet today I drove through the suburbs
44:42And pictured I was driving home to you
44:49And I know we weren't perfect
44:52But I've never felt this way for no one
44:57And I just can't imagine how you could be so okay
45:05Now that I'm gone
45:08I guess you didn't mean what you wrote in that song about me
45:15Cause you said forever
45:17Now I drive alone past your street
45:22You said forever
45:23Now I drive alone past your street
45:40Hey
45:42Happy almost Halloween
45:44Conrad
45:45I know I'm not supposed to be here
45:47But I'm
45:49Here
45:52I brought candy
45:58Do you want me to go?
45:59No, no, no
46:00Don't wait
46:01Just
46:04What
46:05What are you doing here?
46:06Um
46:08I wanted to see you
46:10So
46:11Yeah, yeah
46:12Um
46:13You know, but I thought
46:14Right, no, I know
46:15I know you
46:17You were worried about Jared
46:18But look, I had a chance to talk to him
46:20And he's doing really good
46:22Actually
46:22He's, um
46:23Doing on dates, you know
46:26He's been on this high
46:27Ever since he got made Homecoming King
46:28That's great
46:29So, um
46:31He's over
46:32Yeah
46:35I think he is
46:40Ellie, I don't think I could ever get over you
46:46I mean, I'm not
46:47I'm here
46:50But whenever I talk to you
46:51I'm just happy
46:53And I gotta say
46:54Standing in front of you right now
46:55It's torture
46:56Not being able to kiss you
47:27Belly, we need to talk
47:28I'm kind of tired
47:30Sit down
47:40You didn't eat
47:41Your guidance counselor emailed me
47:44I didn't know you lost your volleyball captaincy
47:46Or that your grades were so bad
47:48Yeah, I'm sorry
47:49I'm not getting into Princeton like Steven
47:51That's not what I'm saying
47:53You can do better than this
47:55I'm really disappointed in you
47:57Sorry, Mom
47:58You know, Susanna died, remember?
47:59You don't get to use Susanna's death as an excuse
48:01This whole year has been hard for me, too
48:04You were barely here
48:06And I don't blame you for being there for Susanna and the boys
48:09They needed you
48:10But you can't blame me either for things that happened because you were away
48:13This isn't about blame
48:15This is about you and the choices you made
48:18It's about taking responsibility for yourself
48:20Even when things are hard
48:22Life keeps going
48:23You can't just give up
48:25You want to talk about taking responsibility
48:27You won't even promote your book because you refuse to talk about Susanna
48:32You can't just suddenly be concerned about volleyball when you haven't gone to a single one of my games this
48:37year
48:38I waited all year for you to step up and be a parent
48:41You gave up way before I did
48:55You have to do that at every stop and it's kicking up my gag reflex
48:59If you'd rather walk, we can let you out right here
49:03I'd probably be safer, honestly
49:04Hey, you don't got to worry, man
49:07I'm fully sober
49:09Fucking belly, man
49:11Taking my car and leaving me straight into my own party
49:14Who does that?
49:15Hmm, I don't know
49:17Who yells at their own sister in front of everyone for being sad?
49:20She yelled at me first
49:21So mature of you, Steven
49:24How about you try some compassion next time, asshole?
49:27Aren't you supposed to, like, come together and grieve?
49:31Life cannot be separated from death
49:34Wow
49:35So helpful
49:36Man, thank you
49:38Milo's very in touch with his emotions
49:40That's what makes him a great musician
49:42Aw, thanks, babe
49:45You know
49:46I actually have a record label interested in Siamese
49:50What?
49:51Yeah, check it out
49:52Cancel culture records
49:57Babe
49:58They only have one post
50:00Yeah, that's what's so punk about it
50:02Yeah, dude
50:03Congrats, man
50:05Congrats
50:07That was me, man
50:26My darling Steven
50:29Congratulations on your graduation
50:31This is the start of what is sure to be an exceptional journey
50:35I wish I could be there to watch you shine
50:38But you have an extraordinary mom who will be with you every step of the way
50:44Remember
50:45The world is not only happening to you
50:48But you are happening to the world
50:51And don't forget to enjoy the ride
50:53Love, Susanna
51:21Yeah
51:21Hey, I know it's late
51:22But about the bookseller event
51:26I changed my mind
51:27I'll do it
51:34I knew I'd lose Susanna eventually
51:39I just didn't know I'd end up losing all of them
51:44In my memory
51:45The three of them will always be entwined
51:47Forever linked
51:49There can't be one without the others
51:55I still remember
51:57The look on your face
51:59Now
51:59They're all gone
52:01The darkness
52:02At 158
52:04The words that you whispered
52:07For just us to know
52:09You told me you loved me
52:11So why did you go
52:14Away
52:23Away
52:24Away
52:25Away
52:26Away
52:27Away
52:44Just like our lives
52:50Ellie?
52:52Hi, Jeremiah. I'm so glad.
52:54Are you with Conrad?
52:57Uh, no. Why would I be with Conrad?
52:59I don't know. I just thought maybe you guys would...
53:01Jared, what is going on?
53:07Conrad's gone.
53:09Wait, what do you mean, gone?
53:12He's not answering my texts or picking up my calls.
53:15Since when?
53:16Yesterday.
53:18I mean, isn't he in the middle of finals?
53:19Maybe he pulled in all night or at the library.
53:21No, no, I don't think so.
53:23Apparently, he told this from me that everything is fucked
53:25and then he just took off.
53:28I think I'm going to go to Brown in the morning
53:29and see if I can track him down.
53:31I'll never get Susanna back.
53:33But I can't let Jeremiah and Conrad go too.
53:36Okay.
53:39But I'm coming with you.
53:45I saw you dancing in a crowded room
53:50You look so happy when I'm not with you
53:54But then you saw me guard you by surprise
53:58A single teardrop falling from your eye
54:02I don't know why I run away
54:10I'll make you cry when I run away
54:18Take me back cause I wanna stay
54:22Save your tears for another
54:26Save your tears for another day
54:33Save your tears for another day
54:38Save your tears for another day
54:43Run away
54:45Run away
54:47Run away
54:58Save your tears for another
55:07Save your tears for another day
55:15Save your tears for another day
55:18Save your tears for another day
55:23Save your tears for another day
55:23Save your tears for another day
55:27Save your tears for another day
55:29Save your tears for another day
55:31Save your tears for another day
55:32Save your tears for another day
55:32Save your tears for another day
55:32Save your tears for another day
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