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00:00:06you're dead you hear me dead his room was right next to mine

00:00:18my mother my own mom was feeding the enemy blueberry pancakes this was a hostage situation

00:00:25and i was the hostage like nine times in four minutes because he's ruining my life you know

00:00:33what this sounds like right what obsession oh this is happening this is absolutely happening

00:00:39no spin again what's the matter mark scared of your breath yeah

00:00:47relax it was spin the bobble it doesn't mean anything

00:00:53that's all it was stupid drunk meaningless game so why can't i still feel it there are three

00:01:03things you need to know about my life one my mom makes the best grilled cheese on the eastern

00:01:07seaboard two i will die on the hill that empire strike back film who is a six foot golden

00:01:12retreat back from this and made it his personal my summer you're cornered little man surrender

00:01:17or face annihilation you literally used the word annihilation wrong last week on your english

00:01:22final summer started words don't count anymore you're dead i win

00:01:33best of seven it's already best of seven i'm up four to one boys if i find one more dart

00:01:42in

00:01:42the pasta pot you're both grounded until college that was theo i did it clean up

00:01:49both of you and theo your friends arriving in an hour what friend oh yeah didn't i mention

00:01:58beckett's staying next door for the summer his mom rented the call a hand place you didn't mention

00:02:03that you definitely absolutely did not mention that must have slipped my mind beckett hale my

00:02:14brother's best friend the most arrogant and sufferable human being i have ever misfortune

00:02:19of breathing near and he was going to live next door all summer

00:02:32well well little marsh miss me about as much as i'd miss food poisoning your brother's still

00:02:38adorable when he's angry call me cute one more time and i'll key in your car okay great start

00:02:44everyone really feeling the love relax i'm sure we'll be best friends by august i'd rather chew glass

00:02:50careful i'm right next door now nowhere to hide

00:02:58el come swim i'm reading what is this sylvia plane light summer reading give it back come get it

00:03:14you're dead you hear me dead you needed to cool off

00:03:19i was going to survive this summer and i was going to make becklen hall's life a living hell

00:03:33his room was right next to mine

00:03:50morning roomie we're not roommates neighbors then

00:03:53thin walls by the way you talk in your sleep

00:04:01oh beckett you're up early pancakes mrs marsh you're a saint i'd love some call me katherine

00:04:09sweetheart your family this summer he's a stray my family keeps feeding elliot it's fine

00:04:16he's adorable when he's grumpy

00:04:23my mother my own mom was feeding the enemy blueberry pancakes this was a hostage situation

00:04:30and i was the hostage

00:04:35he's everywhere the kitchen the yard the bathroom i went to brush my teeth and his stupid toothbrush

00:04:42was just sitting there next to mine touching mine

00:04:48what a tragedy i'm serious slona it's an invasion you've mentioned him like nine times in four minutes

00:04:56because he's ruining my life you know what this sounds like right

00:05:02what

00:05:04nothing forget it

00:05:06no what does it sound like

00:05:13obsession

00:05:14obsession

00:05:18i'm not that's insane i hate him

00:05:21yeah you've made that super clear

00:05:26all i'm saying is most people who hate someone they just ignore them

00:05:30they don't track their toothbrush placement

00:05:32i need new friends

00:05:39i thought this was our pool day

00:05:41it is

00:05:41beckett's part of our now

00:05:43deal with it little brother

00:05:49did beckett just

00:05:50yep

00:05:57nice form

00:05:58six out of ten

00:06:00nobody asked for your opinion

00:06:02weak splash

00:06:04i can fix that if you want

00:06:06i'd rather drown

00:06:16guys

00:06:16mateo just texted he's throwing a massive party this weekend

00:06:19see you live

00:06:21everyone's invited

00:06:22let's go

00:06:23i told myself the weird feeling in my chest was chlorine burn

00:06:27that's all it was

00:06:28chlorine

00:06:33here's my free proof plan for surviving mateo dance party

00:06:37step one

00:06:37avoid beckett hail

00:06:39step two

00:06:40drink until step one doesn't matter

00:06:42you sure you're good

00:06:44you've been weird all week

00:06:46i'm great

00:06:47i'm fantastic

00:06:47give me that

00:06:51that's

00:06:51not water

00:06:53that's the point

00:06:57so much for scott

00:06:58all right

00:06:58spin the bottle

00:06:59classic rules

00:07:01no chicken out

00:07:04you look like you're about to pass out

00:07:28oh this is happening this is absolutely happening no spin again

00:07:33what's the matter marsh

00:07:35scared

00:07:35of your breath

00:07:36yeah

00:07:39relax

00:07:40it's just a game

00:07:46okay okay guys that's you can stop now

00:07:56it was a game

00:07:58it was nothing

00:07:59elliot

00:08:00hey

00:08:01you good

00:08:03don't

00:08:03don't what

00:08:04don't stand there like

00:08:05like that was nothing

00:08:06it was spin the bauble

00:08:08it doesn't mean anything

00:08:15what the hell

00:08:24it was a game

00:08:25that's all it was

00:08:27stupid

00:08:28drunk

00:08:29meaningless game

00:08:31so why

00:08:33could i still feel it

00:08:42i didn't sleep

00:08:44not really

00:08:45every time i closed my eyes

00:08:47i felt it

00:08:47his mouth

00:08:48the pressure

00:08:49the way the room disappeared

00:08:51then the crack of my fist against his jaw

00:08:54both felt violent

00:08:55both felt necessary

00:09:00my plan was simple

00:09:02stay in this room

00:09:04september

00:09:04maybe october

00:09:06maybe forever

00:09:08elliot honey

00:09:09breakfast

00:09:11beckett made french toast

00:09:13i'm sick

00:09:16you were fine yesterday

00:09:20it hit fast

00:09:22probably terminal

00:09:25elliot james marsh

00:09:27you have five minutes

00:09:40dude these are incredible

00:09:42you should open a restaurant

00:09:44maybe i will

00:09:45call it punched in the face cafe

00:09:47great origin story

00:09:52there he is

00:09:53sit down

00:09:54eat something

00:10:03you're not having beckett's french toast

00:10:05it's life-changing

00:10:06i'm good with cereal

00:10:08yeah cereal's a safe choice

00:10:11low risk

00:10:19beckett

00:10:20do you just lurk in hallways

00:10:22relax

00:10:23i wanted to talk

00:10:26we have nothing to talk about

00:10:30it was a game elliot

00:10:32spin the bottle

00:10:33people kiss

00:10:35the world keeps turning

00:10:37great

00:10:38world's turning

00:10:39move

00:10:43you hit me pretty hard

00:10:44for something that meant nothing

00:10:45it meant nothing

00:10:48then why can't you even look at me

00:10:55i'm looking

00:10:56see

00:10:56nothing

00:10:59you kissed back

00:11:02you're insane

00:11:12i told myself it was research

00:11:14but nobody types that at two in the morning

00:11:17unless something already cracked open

00:11:24worst part

00:11:25it wasn't a kiss

00:11:27it was knowing he couldn't sleep either

00:11:30and some broken part of me was glad

00:11:37step one

00:11:38be so aggressively normal that the universe forgets saturday ever happened

00:11:42step two

00:11:42never think about his mouth again

00:11:44step three

00:11:45there is no step three

00:11:46steps one and two are already impossible

00:11:48hey brianna

00:11:50you do something different with your hair

00:11:51looks amazing

00:11:52got a trim

00:11:54like two weeks ago

00:11:56well it's really working for you

00:12:02is he flirting

00:12:06badly

00:12:06no i mean

00:12:08since when does elliot marsh flirt in the hallway at eight in the morning

00:12:14something happened at that party

00:12:15obviously something happened at that party

00:12:18he punched beckett hale in the face

00:12:20no

00:12:20something else

00:12:24so theo tries to flip the kayak back over

00:12:27right

00:12:27and he just

00:12:28full scorpion into the lake

00:12:30face first

00:12:36you're in a mood today

00:12:38what mood

00:12:39i'm great

00:12:40i'm

00:12:41i'm fantastic

00:12:42exactly

00:12:42that's what's weird

00:12:46you going to griffin's thing this weekend

00:12:48maybe

00:12:50you asking me to go

00:12:52maybe i am

00:12:55what the hell

00:13:03you're a terrible actor elliot

00:13:05back off

00:13:06you keep running from it

00:13:08but i was there

00:13:09you kissed me back

00:13:12oh

00:13:12one more thing

00:13:13that party

00:13:14someone had their phone out

00:13:15i've seen the video

00:13:16you're lying

00:13:18he could have punched me back that night

00:13:20and it would have hurt less than this

00:13:22because a bruise fades

00:13:23but a video

00:13:24a video lives forever

00:13:28yesterday

00:13:29he cornered me in the hallway

00:13:30and said somebody caught that kiss on video

00:13:34you look wrecked

00:13:35like you didn't sleep at all

00:13:36back off

00:13:37i deleted the video

00:13:39it's not going anywhere

00:13:40if that clip gets out

00:13:41we're both screwed

00:13:42i need to ask you something

00:13:45don't do this

00:13:46my ap lit essays

00:13:47do friday

00:13:48and i've got nothing

00:13:49you're good with words

00:13:51help me out

00:13:52just this once

00:13:54you're blackmailing me over an essay

00:13:56i'm not blackmailing you

00:13:58i just

00:13:59i really

00:14:00don't know how to get close to you

00:14:01i just wanted an excuse

00:14:03to talk to you a little longer

00:14:05you're sick

00:14:06with you

00:14:06i've been messed up for a long time

00:14:12he deleted it days ago

00:14:13he had no leverage

00:14:14nothing

00:14:16and i still wrote the essay

00:14:17so is he that good

00:14:19or did i lose this a long time ago

00:14:22he said he wanted my attention

00:14:23the stupid part is

00:14:25he's had it since the day he moved in next door

00:14:38iced americana

00:14:39i don't want to serve you

00:14:40i came to apologize

00:14:42i shouldn't have used the video to scare you

00:14:43i shouldn't have pushed you into stuff you didn't want to do

00:14:45i just

00:14:47i was scared you'd push me away again

00:14:49scared you'd stop talking to me for good

00:14:50you always find the dumbest way to ruin everything

00:14:54i know

00:14:56i'll do better

00:15:00i heard people at school saying you've been doing beckitt's homework

00:15:04he asked and i just didn't say no

00:15:07did he threaten you

00:15:08you don't have to just take that

00:15:11no

00:15:12i agreed to it

00:15:19i'm not writing another thing for you

00:15:20and i'm not letting you drag me around anymore

00:15:23i get it

00:15:24i'm not pushing you

00:15:25i'll wait

00:15:27i'm not worth waiting for

00:15:28yeah you are

00:15:31whatever this was between us

00:15:33it wasn't over

00:15:34but at least the ugliest hardest part of it was finally behind us

00:15:40it had been four days since the parking lot

00:15:42four days since beckett hale said i'm sorry like he meant it and drove away

00:15:46four days of me waiting for the other shoe to drop

00:15:48peace offering

00:15:49oat milk latte

00:15:50two sugars

00:15:50how do you know my order

00:15:52you literally make it for yourself every shift

00:15:54i have eyes

00:15:56this doesn't make it for me

00:15:57this doesn't make us friends

00:15:58didn't say it did

00:16:01but we're not enemies anymore either

00:16:08all right who's in for mario cant losers buy pizza

00:16:10you always pick rainbow road and then act betrayed by it

00:16:13that's slander

00:16:17beck grab a controller man

00:16:20wait are you two actually being civil should i document this don't make it weird declin for once we agree

00:16:45the thing about ceasefires is they're supposed to be temporary

00:16:48a pause before you go back to the world

00:16:50no absolutely not

00:16:52but lying there in the dark smiling like an idiot at a text from becca hale

00:16:55i had this terrible sinking feeling that the war was already over and i'd lost

00:17:04two nights

00:17:05no parents

00:17:07a lake

00:17:08this is literally the reset button we all need

00:17:11or a guaranteed disaster with mosquitoes

00:17:14you're coming

00:17:15non-negotiable

00:17:21yo sloan

00:17:22camping trip

00:17:23beck and i already signed up

00:17:25perfect

00:17:26the whole crew

00:17:27the whole crew

00:17:28including the guy who's been texting until 1 a.m. about his parents divorce

00:17:31the guy i was absolutely categorically not thinking about

00:17:37tent assignments are alphabetical by last name

00:17:40finch and hall

00:17:41marsh and oh

00:17:43also hall we have two marshes

00:17:45theo you're with drake

00:17:46elliott you're with beckett

00:17:48you're kidding

00:17:48the alphabet doesn't kid mr marsh

00:17:52relax i don't snore

00:17:53that is the least of my concerns

00:18:16all right campfire confessions

00:18:19one truth you've never told anyone

00:18:20i'll start

00:18:21i cheated on my driving test

00:18:23parallel parked like garbage

00:18:24smiled at the instructor

00:18:25he passed me anyways

00:18:28i i cried when i was watching a dog food commercial

00:18:31i totally failed my first calculus test and even cooked up a fake grade online

00:18:35beck your turn

00:18:39after my parents split

00:18:42my dad packed his car on a tuesday

00:18:45didn't say goodbye

00:18:46i sat on on the porch for six hours waiting for him to come back

00:18:51he never did

00:18:58that was the moment i stopped pretending to tend and i felt love

00:19:12every smart instant i had said stay in the tent

00:19:15go to sleep

00:19:16don't follow him into the dark

00:19:20i've never been smart about it

00:19:27there's a moment

00:19:28right before you do something stupid

00:19:30where your brain sends up a flare

00:19:32a warning

00:19:33and you walk toward it anyway

00:19:36you're a loud elliott

00:19:38could hear you from a mile away

00:19:39yeah well you disappeared from the tent at midnight

00:19:42figured you were either sleepwalking or being murdered

00:19:44either way

00:19:45seemed worth checking

00:19:46couldn't sleep

00:19:48get in line

00:19:49what i said back there

00:19:51at the fire

00:19:52about feeling like nobody's first choice

00:19:55you don't have to explain

00:19:56i know i don't have to

00:19:57i wanna

00:19:58my dad left on a tuesday

00:20:00didn't even pick a dramatic day

00:20:01not a holiday

00:20:02not a birthday

00:20:03just a regular nothing tuesday

00:20:04packed a bag

00:20:06kissed my sister's forehead

00:20:07and drove to portland

00:20:07i was at practice

00:20:09he didn't wait

00:20:10that's not about you beckett

00:20:12that's about him

00:20:14everyone says that

00:20:15doesn't make the house less empty

00:20:19my mom hums when she cooks

00:20:21this old fleetwood mech song

00:20:22landslave

00:20:23every single time

00:20:23drives theo insane

00:20:24but sometimes i stand in the hallway

00:20:26just to listen

00:20:26because i don't know

00:20:27it means everything's okay

00:20:28the world's still turning

00:20:29why are you telling me this

00:20:29because you told me about the tuesday

00:20:31felt like i owed you something honest

00:20:33you know what's funny

00:20:34i spent the whole first week

00:20:35trying to make you hate me

00:20:36mission accomplished

00:20:38no

00:20:39i spent the whole first week

00:20:40terrified you'd figure out

00:20:41i was paying attention to you

00:20:42picking fights was easier

00:20:44paying attention how

00:20:49in every way that mattered

00:20:51i don't hate you elliot

00:20:52i never did

00:20:54then what is this

00:20:56i don't know

00:20:59but i'm tired of pretending it's nothing

00:21:01his hand was warm

00:21:02and i thought

00:21:03this is the thing

00:21:04this is what i've been running for

00:21:05not him

00:21:06not the kiss

00:21:07just this

00:21:08the terrifying simple fact

00:21:10that someone's hand could feel

00:21:11like the only place yours

00:21:11was ever supposed to be

00:21:12elliot

00:21:13you out here

00:21:14dorothy's doing a head count

00:21:16yeah

00:21:17i'm coming

00:21:22i walked away

00:21:24but i swear

00:21:25i left something on that rock

00:21:26something i wasn't getting back

00:21:32he hasn't texted

00:21:33not since we got back

00:21:34not a word

00:21:35which is fine

00:21:36totally fine

00:21:37because nothing happened

00:21:38we talked

00:21:39he touched my hand

00:21:40that's

00:21:40that's just what people do

00:21:41by legs at midnight

00:21:42normal

00:21:43completely normal

00:21:58look at him

00:21:59not a care in the world

00:22:01meanwhile i'm over here dissecting a handhold like it's a supreme court case

00:22:06you're glowing

00:22:06i'm sweating it's called humidity

00:22:08no it's called something happened at that campsite and you're going to tell me what

00:22:12nothing happened we roasted marshmallows rowan cried about a dog commercial again standard trip

00:22:15you're doing that thing where your voice goes up half an octave because you're lying

00:22:18my voice doesn't

00:22:19so i'm thinking movie night friday

00:22:21the yates den

00:22:22declan said he'd order pizza

00:22:23i'm in

00:22:24elliot

00:22:30elliot

00:22:31what

00:22:32yeah friday sure

00:22:33you've been weird since the trip

00:22:35i haven't been

00:22:36you have

00:22:36and it's fine if you don't want to talk about it

00:22:39but i'm asking you as your best friend

00:22:41are you okay

00:22:42i'm okay

00:22:44i'm okay

00:22:45i promise

00:22:59i'm so screwed

00:23:26welcome to paradise people

00:23:30no parents

00:23:31no rules

00:23:32no

00:23:32actually there are rules

00:23:33don't break anything mom loves

00:23:35theo invited everyone to birchwood cottage for the weekend

00:23:39and by everyone

00:23:40i mean the one person who's been living rent free in my head since the lake

00:23:56this place is gorgeous dibs on the room with the view

00:23:59they all have views it's a lake house

00:24:02then dibs on the best view

00:24:06all right

00:24:08rooms

00:24:11slona and rowan upstairs left

00:24:14spencer you're on the couch because you lost the bet

00:24:16elliot

00:24:17you're in the back bedroom

00:24:20beckett

00:24:20i'll take me whatever's left

00:24:22back bedroom's got twin beds you two can share

00:24:24cool

00:24:24fine

00:24:26but whatever

00:24:28not fine

00:24:29not whatever

00:24:31not even remotely in the same zip code is fine

00:24:55you've been avoiding me all day

00:25:00i've been ten feet from you for six hours

00:25:02that's the opposite of

00:25:02you know what i mean

00:25:05i don't know how to act around you anymore

00:25:07that's the problem

00:25:10then stop acting

00:25:26you following me

00:25:29you left the bonfire without saying anything

00:25:32theo thinks you're sulking

00:25:34i'm not sulking

00:25:36i'm processing

00:25:37processing what

00:25:38this

00:25:39you

00:25:41the fact that i can't stop thinking about that night at the lake

00:25:43and it's driving me insane because i don't know what it means

00:25:46and i don't know what you want

00:25:47and i

00:25:48can i

00:26:07what are we doing

00:26:08something real

00:26:12i'd spent my whole life building walls

00:26:16and this boy just walked right through them like they were made of smoke

00:26:24here's the thing about kissing someone in a forest at midnight

00:26:27you can't unknow what their mouth feels like

00:26:30trust me

00:26:31i've tried

00:26:32so i did what any rational person would do

00:26:34i researched

00:26:37okay

00:26:37so maybe not that rational

00:26:52you've been staring at that muffin for five minutes

00:26:55i'm thinking

00:26:58dangerous hobby

00:26:59we need to be more careful

00:27:01sloan already thinks something's up

00:27:04sloan thinks everything's up

00:27:06she once accused the lunch lady of running a black market for hall passes

00:27:09i'm serious

00:27:12i know you are

00:27:15bathroom

00:27:16two minutes

00:27:31this is insane

00:27:33yeah

00:27:35that's kind of insane

00:27:44so anyway

00:27:45rowan's convinced the new calc teacher is secretly a

00:27:48what is she doing

00:27:50elliot

00:27:51hey

00:27:52earth

00:27:53to elliot

00:27:56since when do you care who beckett talks to

00:27:58i don't

00:27:59your knuckles are white babe

00:28:04i've got homework

00:28:15hey

00:28:17you disappeared today

00:28:20looked like you were busy

00:28:23kendall

00:28:24that's what this is about

00:28:26this isn't about anything

00:28:28goodnight

00:28:28she means nothing

00:28:29you know that

00:28:30do i

00:28:31because from where i was sitting

00:28:32she had her hands all over you

00:28:33and you didn't seem to mind

00:28:37you're jealous

00:28:39i'm not

00:28:39you are

00:28:41and it's kind of incredible

00:28:43because it means this is real for you too

00:28:47of course it's real

00:28:48that's the whole problem

00:28:50beck

00:28:50you forgot your charger

00:28:52oh hey ell

00:28:53you good

00:28:55great

00:28:57night

00:29:00everyone i cared about

00:29:01was either pulling me closer

00:29:03or pushing me away

00:29:04and i couldn't tell which was worse

00:29:11you're my best friend

00:29:12you're one of the most important people in my life

00:29:14and i'm sorry

00:29:15i'm so sorry

00:29:15but i can't

00:29:16i don't feel that way about you

00:29:17yeah

00:29:19i knew that

00:29:22that doesn't mean

00:29:24i just needed to say it out loud

00:29:26so it would stop eating me alive

00:29:29is there someone else

00:29:34okay

00:29:35he deserved the truth

00:29:37all of it

00:29:38and i gave him silence

00:29:40which was its own kind of answer

00:29:45hey

00:29:47you okay

00:29:50rowan was just here

00:29:53and

00:29:56she told me he's in love with me

00:29:58what did you say

00:29:59what do you think i said

00:30:02i told him i don't feel the same way

00:30:05did you tell him about us

00:30:08no

00:30:09do you want to

00:30:10i don't know what i want

00:30:12i just broke my best friend's heart

00:30:14and i can't even explain why

00:30:16you didn't break anything

00:30:17he was brave enough to tell you the truth

00:30:19that's not your fault

00:30:20he asked if there was someone else

00:30:21and i just stood there

00:30:24elliot

00:30:24he knew

00:30:25he looked at me and he knew

00:30:30come to the window

00:30:36whatever happens

00:30:38i'm right here

00:30:39two boys in separate rooms

00:30:41reaching for each other through glass

00:30:43that's what it felt like

00:30:44being close enough to touch

00:30:46and a whole world in the way

00:30:51it's been five days since rowan told me he loved me

00:30:54five days since i sat there like a statue and let him walk out

00:30:57we haven't spoken

00:30:59not a text

00:31:00not a glance

00:31:02it's like someone cut a limb off and i'm just supposed to keep walking

00:31:07rowan switched lab partners did you know that

00:31:11no

00:31:11he requested brodie sims

00:31:14brodie sims elliot the kid who eats glue

00:31:17he doesn't eat

00:31:18that was one time

00:31:22what happened between you two

00:31:27nothing

00:31:28we just need space

00:31:31space is what you give someone who borrows your hoodie too long

00:31:34this is a crater

00:31:39you okay

00:31:40and then there's that

00:31:46there's nothing

00:31:48sure

00:31:49and i'm the queen of england

00:32:03everyone wants a piece of me and i've got nothing left

00:32:05to give

00:32:06rowan wants an answer i can't give him

00:32:09beckett wants me to be braver than i am

00:32:11and i'm just sitting here trying to remember how to breathe

00:32:19you've been ghosting me

00:32:21i've been dealing with things

00:32:22i know

00:32:24rowan

00:32:24i'm not stupid

00:32:25then you know why i need to

00:32:26what

00:32:27pull back

00:32:28pretend the last two weeks didn't happen

00:32:29i'm not pretending anything

00:32:31i just can't do this right now

00:32:32my best friend is in love with me

00:32:34and i'm sneaking around with his

00:32:36with you

00:32:36and it feels like i'm betraying everyone

00:32:38you're not betraying anyone

00:32:40by being honest about what you want

00:32:42that's easy for you to say

00:32:43you're not the one who watched him cry

00:32:48i'm not your dirty secret elliot

00:32:49and i'm not ready

00:32:50can you understand that

00:32:52i'm not ready

00:32:55okay

00:32:56i hear you

00:32:57but i'm not gonna wait forever

00:33:04mom

00:33:05sit down i'll get the plates

00:33:07i'm fine sweetheart

00:33:08just a tickle

00:33:11katherine

00:33:12the hendersons want us for dinner saturday

00:33:15that sounds lovely

00:33:19mom

00:33:20you okay

00:33:22never better

00:33:24that night i couldn't sleep

00:33:26not because of becky

00:33:27not because of rowan

00:33:30because my mother folded a napkin

00:33:32like she was hiding a grenade

00:33:33and i was too afraid to ask what was on

00:34:02i was too afraid to take a bath

00:34:08your mother and i need to talk to you both i've been having some tests done

00:34:13i didn't want to worry you until we knew for sure it's cancer stage two breast cancer

00:34:21the doctors are optimistic about treatment but i start chemotherapy next week

00:34:27how long have you known a few weeks we wanted to have a plan before a few weeks

00:34:33theo look at me i'm going to fight this i need you boys to know that

00:34:43what's the treatment plan six rounds of chemo then we reassess what are the odds elliot what

00:34:52are the odds dad good they're good sweetheart okay okay good i need a minute

00:35:05you think you know what fear is you think it's the dark or heights or someone finding out your

00:35:11secret it's not it's your mom sitting on a couch telling you her body is trying to kill her

00:35:17and smiling while she does it

00:35:26theo told me

00:35:30you don't have to talk

00:35:35i'm not going anywhere

00:35:42chemo sounds clinical sterile like something that happens in a textbook

00:35:48nobody tells you about the waiting the hours where the clock doesn't move and your brain

00:35:53fills the silence with every worst case scenario it can find

00:36:00doctor says she's responding early days but responding

00:36:12i'm fine you're not fine none of us are fine

00:36:22i wanted to say something anything but every sentence i could think of had a trap door in it

00:36:28and i was so tired of falling

00:36:32hey mr marsh theo asked me to bring food said nobody's eaten since breakfast

00:36:45turkey and swiss extra pickles the way you like it

00:37:00you don't have to do this do what the food the driving the hovering i'm not hovering i'm sitting

00:37:07there's ice cream it's a whole different verb she looks so small in that chair the iv bag was bigger

00:37:13than her arm she's tough everyone keeps saying that like tough is a cure

00:37:20it's not a cure but it's not nothing he didn't try to fix it

00:37:25didn't offer platoons or silver linings

00:37:28he just stayed

00:37:32and somehow that was the only thing that didn't make me want to scream

00:37:38i keep thinking about time

00:37:41how much she has how much i've wasted being angry about stupid things

00:37:45you're 17

00:37:46stupid things are kind of our whole deal

00:37:49what if she doesn't

00:37:50hey don't

00:37:51you don't have to be okay right now

00:37:53you don't have to be anything

00:37:55i need you

00:37:57and that terrifies me more than any of it

00:38:00and i'm here simple as that

00:38:08i told myself no one could see us in the dark

00:38:10but the thing about secrets is

00:38:13someone's always watching

00:38:16be ready at 10

00:38:17wear something you don't mind getting dirty

00:38:21that's ominous

00:38:23trust me

00:38:27where are we going

00:38:28starlight pier

00:38:29that's an hour away

00:38:30yeah

00:38:30that's kind of the point

00:38:32if this is some elaborate plan to murder me at least buy me funnel cake first

00:38:37deal

00:38:43pink?

00:38:44really?

00:38:46it's objectively the superior flavor

00:38:49it's the same flavor

00:38:50they're both just sugar

00:38:51and yet you're wrong

00:39:00there it is

00:39:01what?

00:39:02that

00:39:03you're smiling

00:39:04like actually smiling

00:39:06not the sarcastic one you use on everybody else

00:39:11what?

00:39:12are you

00:39:13this is disgusting

00:39:15there's literally a

00:39:28what are you

00:39:30this is disgusting

00:39:33there's literally a

00:39:34what are you doing?

00:39:48yeah

00:39:48one minute

00:39:51we're insane

00:39:52probably

00:39:53probably

00:39:58beck

00:39:58yeah

00:40:00be my boyfriend

00:40:02for real

00:40:05not just whatever this has been

00:40:08I want it to be real

00:40:11took you long enough

00:40:20I walked inside and pressed my back against the door and stood there in the dark like an idiot

00:40:24grinning at the ceiling

00:40:26my mom was sick

00:40:27my best friend could barely look at me

00:40:29my dad and I spoke in monosyllables

00:40:31and somehow

00:40:33impossibly

00:40:33I was happy

00:40:39that should have been my first warning

00:40:46boyfriend

00:40:46he typed it

00:40:48with his actual fingers

00:40:49on purpose

00:40:50and I'm lying here smiling at a screen like a golden retriever who just learned a new word

00:40:59I wrote back mourning with a period

00:41:01because apparently becoming someone's boyfriend turned me into a sociopath who can't use emojis

00:41:08wear the blue hoodie today

00:41:09you look good in it

00:41:14three days since starlight pier

00:41:16three days since I said be my boyfriend like some character in a movie I'd normally make fun of

00:41:21three days of texting under the covers

00:41:23deleting threads

00:41:24and feeling like my chest might actually explode

00:41:39tinted windows

00:41:40this is a school parking lot

00:41:42then stop talking and we'll be faster

00:41:46that's not how logic works

00:41:52you've been staring at me

00:41:53in Calloway's class for 45 minutes

00:41:55I counted

00:41:56I was staring at the clock behind your head

00:42:00the clock's on the other wall

00:42:06I hate you

00:42:08no you don't

00:42:10that's it

00:42:11you're doing it again

00:42:12doing what?

00:42:14smiling

00:42:14at nothing

00:42:15like you've got a secret stash of serotonin

00:42:17the rest of us don't have access to

00:42:19I'm just in a good mood

00:42:20is that a crime now?

00:42:21for you?

00:42:22historically?

00:42:23yes

00:42:24you're seeing someone

00:42:26what?

00:42:27no

00:42:28Elliot Marsh

00:42:29you are a terrible liar

00:42:30and you're wearing a hoodie someone else picked out

00:42:32who is it?

00:42:37there might be

00:42:38someone

00:42:40it's new

00:42:40I'm not ready to talk about it

00:42:42I knew it!

00:42:43keep your voice down

00:42:44is it someone at school?

00:42:46do I know them?

00:42:47Sloanie

00:42:48please

00:42:51okay

00:42:54okay

00:42:55but when you're ready

00:42:56I want details

00:42:59industrial quantities of details

00:43:04the landmark ruling

00:43:05has sparked celebration

00:43:07across the country

00:43:08with same-lex couples

00:43:09lining up at courthouses

00:43:10there it is again

00:43:12every channel

00:43:13like they've got nothing else to report

00:43:15dad

00:43:16it's kind of a big deal

00:43:18it's a circus

00:43:19that's what it is

00:43:20every week

00:43:21another parade

00:43:23another spectacle

00:43:24Richard

00:43:24what?

00:43:25I'm not allowed an opinion

00:43:26at my own table?

00:43:27you're allowed to eat your dinner

00:43:28without editorializing

00:43:31there it is

00:43:32the wall I'd been pretending

00:43:34wasn't there

00:43:34brick by brick

00:43:35comment by comment

00:43:37my father built it

00:43:38and I'd been standing

00:43:39on the wrong my whole life

00:43:40without knowing it

00:43:43you've been quiet all day

00:43:44quieter than usual

00:43:45which is saying something

00:43:47because you never shut up

00:43:48my dad said some stuff last night

00:43:51about people like us

00:43:53what kind of stuff?

00:43:54the kind where you realize

00:43:55the person who's supposed to love you

00:43:57no matter what

00:43:57has conditions

00:43:59fine print

00:44:00yeah

00:44:01I know that playbrook

00:44:02what if he never gets it?

00:44:04what if I tell him

00:44:05and he just

00:44:06looks at me like I'm broken?

00:44:07then he'd be wrong

00:44:09and you'd survive it

00:44:10you're annoyingly hard to kill

00:44:12trust me

00:44:12I've tried

00:44:13what if I'm not ready?

00:44:15then you're not ready

00:44:16there's no deadline Elliot

00:44:17this isn't a college application

00:44:21seven across

00:44:23unwavering devotion

00:44:25nine letters

00:44:27steadfast

00:44:28look at you

00:44:29my walking to Sarah Vans

00:44:31something's eating at you

00:44:32and don't say nothing

00:44:34because I've been your mother

00:44:35for 17 years

00:44:36and I can hear you thinking

00:44:37from two rooms away

00:44:39mom

00:44:41if I were different

00:44:42from what you expected

00:44:43not bad

00:44:44different

00:44:44just different

00:44:45would that change anything?

00:44:49Elliot James Marsh

00:44:50I loved you

00:44:51before I ever saw your face

00:44:53I loved you

00:44:53when you screamed

00:44:54for 14 hours straight

00:44:55with colic

00:44:56I loved you

00:44:56when you put a frog

00:44:57in Theo's cereal

00:44:58there is nothing

00:44:59you could tell me

00:45:00nothing

00:45:00that would make me

00:45:02love you less

00:45:03even if it's something

00:45:04dad wouldn't understand?

00:45:05your father's understanding

00:45:06is his responsibility

00:45:07not yours

00:45:08you hear me?

00:45:10no matter what

00:45:12always

00:45:17mom

00:45:19I think I'm in love

00:45:20with a boy

00:45:21she couldn't hear me

00:45:22but I heard myself

00:45:23and for the first time

00:45:25the words didn't feel

00:45:26like a confession

00:45:27they felt like the truth

00:45:30Rowan came back

00:45:32not all the way

00:45:33but enough

00:45:34he sits with us again

00:45:35he laughs at the right moments

00:45:38and if his eyes go somewhere

00:45:39far away

00:45:40when Beckett's name comes up

00:45:41nobody mentions him

00:45:43that's the deal we made

00:45:44without saying it out loud

00:45:47you're doing that thing again

00:45:48what thing?

00:45:50the thing where you look like

00:45:51you won the lottery

00:45:51but you're pretending

00:45:52you didn't buy a ticket

00:45:56leave him alone Sloan

00:45:57fine

00:45:58but for the record

00:45:59I'm keeping a tally

00:46:00of every weird smile

00:46:01we're at 14 this week

00:46:03and it's Monday

00:46:10you've been disappearing

00:46:11a lot lately

00:46:11busy with who?

00:46:14homework

00:46:15riveting stuff

00:46:30nobody tells you

00:46:31secret dating

00:46:32turns every public room

00:46:34into a performance

00:47:03elliot that's not what this looks like

00:47:05don't

00:47:06we're done

00:47:12elliot

00:47:14elliot

00:47:15you saw one second

00:47:17and turned it into the whole story

00:47:18no

00:47:20I saw enough

00:47:25I can't keep doing this

00:47:26in secret

00:47:27and pretending

00:47:27it doesn't break me

00:47:29I wasn't hiding you

00:47:32I was trying to protect you

00:47:34please

00:47:35please believe

00:47:36inside was the flat lake stone

00:47:38from Lakeview Haven

00:47:39I wanted him to know

00:47:40I remembered the night

00:47:42everything changed

00:47:47got you

00:47:50after Beckett's birthday

00:47:52I did what I do best

00:47:53I disappeared

00:47:53not physically

00:47:54I still showed up

00:47:55made lattes

00:47:56visited mom at St. Andrews

00:47:58smiled when Theo talked

00:47:59but the version of me

00:48:00that existed

00:48:00for the last few weeks

00:48:01the one who believed

00:48:02in something

00:48:03gone

00:48:03we're not open

00:48:04for another 10

00:48:07you won't answer your phone

00:48:09nothing to say

00:48:11elliot

00:48:12she kissed me

00:48:13I didn't

00:48:15I know what I saw

00:48:16you saw one second

00:48:18you left before the other 59

00:48:19where I shoved her off

00:48:20and looked for you

00:48:21doesn't matter

00:48:22how can it not matter

00:48:23because I can't do this

00:48:24the sneaking

00:48:25the lying

00:48:26the watching someone else

00:48:28put their mouth on you

00:48:29while I stand there

00:48:29pretending I don't care

00:48:30I'm done

00:48:31you're scared

00:48:32that's not the same as done

00:48:34get out

00:48:34I'm working

00:48:43you look like death's

00:48:45understudy

00:48:46charming

00:48:48Beckett looks worse

00:48:49if that helps

00:48:50it doesn't

00:48:54what happened at his birthday

00:48:55and don't say nothing

00:48:56Theo's been weird

00:48:58Beckett's a ghost

00:48:58and you've got that face

00:48:59you make when you're

00:49:00about to implode

00:49:00we had a fight

00:49:01it's over

00:49:02the fight or the

00:49:03whatever you two were

00:49:05both

00:49:18dude

00:49:18have you seen the

00:49:19whisper board

00:49:44Birchwood Cottage

00:49:46the forest

00:49:46someone was there

00:49:48someone saw us

00:49:52every nightmare I ever had

00:49:54about being found out

00:49:55none of them

00:49:56were this quiet

00:49:56in my head

00:49:58there was always screaming

00:49:59but the real thing

00:50:00the real thing

00:50:02is just your phone

00:50:02buzzing in the dark

00:50:03while the whole world

00:50:04reads your secret

00:50:10you don't have to go today

00:50:14yeah I do

00:50:16Elliot

00:50:16if I hide they win

00:50:18you taught me that

00:50:19then you walk in there

00:50:20like you own the place

00:50:21because you do

00:50:22the photo had been up for 18 hours

00:50:24412 comments

00:50:25last I checked

00:50:25I stopped checking

00:50:26around midnight

00:50:27when someone wrote

00:50:27burn in hell

00:50:28with a smiling face

00:50:29the Ashford whisper board

00:50:30doesn't sleep

00:50:30neither did I

00:50:42we're walking you

00:50:44to every class today

00:50:44non-negotiable

00:50:46anyone gives you trouble

00:50:47I'll handle it

00:50:50you don't have to

00:50:51shut up

00:50:52yes we do

00:51:04hey

00:51:09Theo

00:51:09my brother

00:51:10my little brother

00:51:11and you couldn't tell me

00:51:13I wanted to

00:51:14he wasn't ready

00:51:15that's not your call

00:51:16you're supposed to be

00:51:17my best friend

00:51:18I am your best friend

00:51:19best friends don't sneak

00:51:21around with your family

00:51:22behind your back

00:51:24you're right

00:51:25I'm sorry

00:51:26he's 17 Beck

00:51:27he's my kid brother

00:51:28and the whole school

00:51:29is tearing him apart

00:51:30and I didn't even know

00:51:30he needed for protecting

00:51:32break it up

00:51:33both of you

00:51:34principal Hargreft's office

00:51:36now

00:51:41is it true

00:51:44yes

00:51:45the hail boy

00:51:47his name is Beckett

00:51:51he needs time

00:51:52that's all

00:51:54what if time

00:51:55isn't enough

00:51:55then that's his loss

00:51:59I don't care

00:52:00who you love

00:52:02you're my brother

00:52:02always

00:52:07my phone buzzed

00:52:08in my pocket

00:52:09I didn't check it

00:52:10until midnight

00:52:11one text from Rowan

00:52:12I'm sorry I disappeared

00:52:13can we talk

00:52:17can I come in

00:52:27I need to ask you something

00:52:29and I need you

00:52:29to be honest with me

00:52:31you already know

00:52:32the answer

00:52:32I want to hear it

00:52:33from you

00:52:35yeah dad

00:52:36it's true

00:52:37I'm Beckler

00:52:37and I were together

00:52:38are together

00:52:39I don't even know anymore

00:52:42how long

00:52:44months

00:52:49I don't understand it

00:52:50I'm not going to pretend I do

00:52:51that's not the same

00:52:52it's okay

00:52:52no

00:52:53it's not

00:52:57you're still my son

00:52:59I just

00:52:59I need time

00:53:05you walked out of that room

00:53:07you just left him sitting there

00:53:09I said I needed time

00:53:10that's

00:53:10time

00:53:11told you the most terrifying truth of his life

00:53:14and you gave him your back

00:53:17I don't know how to do this Karth

00:53:18I wasn't raised for this

00:53:20neither was he

00:53:21and he's 17

00:53:22and he's doing it anyway

00:53:22I am lying in this bed

00:53:24fighting for every day I get

00:53:25and I will not spend

00:53:26a single one of them

00:53:27watching you make that boy

00:53:27feel like he's broken

00:53:28what do you want me to do

00:53:29go back upstairs

00:53:30and this time

00:53:32stay

00:53:37scoot over

00:53:44you punched him

00:53:45he deserved it

00:53:47he didn't

00:53:48I was angry

00:53:48not at you

00:53:49at I don't know

00:53:50at finding out

00:53:51from a picture on a screen

00:53:52instead of from my brother's mouth

00:53:53I wanted to tell you

00:53:53I was terrified

00:53:54of me

00:53:55of losing you

00:53:57listen to me

00:53:58I don't care who you love

00:53:59you're my brother

00:53:59that's the only thing

00:54:00that's never gonna change

00:54:01always L

00:54:07the world didn't end

00:54:08it just rearranged

00:54:10and somewhere in the wreckage

00:54:12I could almost see a shape

00:54:14something that looked like

00:54:15it might hold

00:54:17okay

00:54:18okay then

00:54:31don't you dare look at me

00:54:32like that

00:54:33like what

00:54:34like I'm already gone

00:54:36I need you to do something

00:54:37for me

00:54:38and I need you not to fall apart

00:54:40while you do it

00:54:45name it

00:54:48there's a razor in the top drawer

00:54:49the one your father uses

00:54:50for his neck

00:54:52I'd rather choose this

00:54:53than watch it happen to me

00:55:02you sure you don't want Theo to

00:55:04I want you

00:55:05you've always been my brave one

00:55:07even when you don't know it

00:55:11if I mess this up

00:55:12you're telling everyone

00:55:12dad did it

00:55:15deal

00:55:28you used to sing that

00:55:30when I couldn't sleep

00:55:32still works

00:55:33you're still here

00:55:34well

00:55:36you're beautiful mom

00:55:37I look like a baby bird

00:55:39the fiercest baby bird

00:55:40I've ever seen

00:55:44my brave brave boy

00:55:49thanks for meeting me

00:55:51you said you wanted to talk

00:55:54I disappeared on you

00:55:55right when everything

00:55:56was falling apart

00:55:57your mom

00:55:57the outing

00:55:58all of it

00:55:58and I just

00:55:59vanished

00:56:00yeah

00:56:01you did

00:56:03I was jealous

00:56:04and hurt

00:56:05and I told my

00:56:06that made it okay

00:56:07to bail on my best friend

00:56:08it didn't

00:56:11I can't give you

00:56:13what you want Rowan

00:56:13that hasn't changed

00:56:16I know

00:56:16I'm not asking

00:56:17for that anymore

00:56:18I'm asking if there's

00:56:19still room for me

00:56:20as your friend

00:56:21just that

00:56:24you're buying next time

00:56:28yeah

00:56:29okay

00:56:30yeah

00:56:31some days break you

00:56:33open so wide

00:56:34you're sure nothing

00:56:35will ever fit back together

00:56:37but then someone

00:56:38shaves her head

00:56:39and calls you brave

00:56:40someone says

00:56:41I'm sorry

00:56:42and means it

00:56:43someone leaves flowers

00:56:44and asks for nothing

00:56:49after everything

00:56:50the outing

00:56:51the fallout

00:56:52dad's silence

00:56:53mom's fight

00:56:54I told myself

00:56:55the kindest thing

00:56:56I do to do

00:56:56was cut the wire

00:56:57for both of us

00:56:59I wasn't being brave

00:57:00I was being a coward

00:57:02dressed up as a martyr

00:57:03but I couldn't tell

00:57:04the difference anymore

00:57:15you texted

00:57:17yeah

00:57:19I wasn't sure

00:57:20you would again

00:57:21ever

00:57:22I need to say something

00:57:23and I need you to let me finish

00:57:24okay

00:57:24this

00:57:25us

00:57:25it's destroying

00:57:26everything it touches

00:57:27you lost your birthday

00:57:28to a scene

00:57:29I got outed

00:57:30Theo punched you

00:57:30my dad can barely look at me

00:57:31your mom's not your problem

00:57:33she's right though

00:57:34everyone around us gets hurt

00:57:36so what are you saying

00:57:36I'm saying we stop

00:57:38for real this time

00:57:39no more sneaking around

00:57:41no more pretending

00:57:42we can just

00:57:42no

00:57:43Beckett

00:57:44no

00:57:45you don't get to decide

00:57:46this alone

00:57:47not after everything

00:57:48I'm trying to protect you

00:57:50I don't want your protection

00:57:53I want you

00:57:56I can't be the reason

00:57:57something else goes wrong

00:57:58then stop running

00:58:00and let something go right

00:58:03Elliot

00:58:04Elliot

00:58:05go home

00:58:06look at me

00:58:07look at me

00:58:20no

00:58:21no

00:58:22no

00:58:22stay with me

00:58:24Beckett

00:58:24with me

00:58:25stay with me

00:58:25don't you dare

00:58:26somebody help

00:58:28please

00:58:31you idiot

00:58:32you stupid

00:58:33beautiful idiot

00:58:34I'm here

00:58:35I'm right here

00:58:40he said he didn't want

00:58:42my protection

00:58:42so he gave me

00:58:44his instead

00:58:48they won't tell me anything

00:58:49he's not my family

00:58:51he's not my

00:58:52anything

00:58:53according to the paperwork

00:58:54I'm just the boy

00:58:55covered in his blood

00:58:58hey

00:58:59look at me

00:59:00he's in surgery

00:59:01that's good

00:59:02that means there's

00:59:02they're fighting for him

00:59:03he pushed me

00:59:03he just

00:59:04I was walking away

00:59:05and he pushed me

00:59:05out of the road

00:59:06I know

00:59:06I was leaving him

00:59:07Theo

00:59:07that's why we were

00:59:08in the street

00:59:08I was ending it

00:59:09and he

00:59:15where is my son

00:59:17where is he

00:59:21Beckett

00:59:22Beckett Hale

00:59:22he was brought in

00:59:23a car

00:59:24hit him

00:59:24where is he

00:59:26you

00:59:26what happened

00:59:27what did you do

00:59:28my son is in surgery

00:59:30because of you

00:59:30whatever this thing is

00:59:31between you

00:59:32whatever you dragged him into

00:59:33that's not fair

00:59:34Beckett pushed Elliot

00:59:35out of the way of a car

00:59:36he saved his life

00:59:37and they lose his

00:59:37I want him away from my son

00:59:39do you understand

00:59:40away

00:59:44he's out of surgery

00:59:45there's significant swelling

00:59:46traumatic brain injury

00:59:48the next 72 hours

00:59:50are critical

00:59:51is he conscious

00:59:52no

00:59:54he's in a coma

00:59:56we won't know

00:59:57the extent of the damage

01:00:0472 hours

01:00:05he's strong

01:00:06you know he is

01:00:26you absolute idiot

01:00:28you stupid

01:00:30reckless

01:00:30beautiful idiot

01:00:31you don't get to leave me

01:00:33you hear me

01:00:34you don't get to say

01:00:35I love you for the first time

01:00:37and then die

01:00:38that's not how this works

01:00:45excuse me

01:00:46you can't be in here

01:00:47sir

01:00:49sir

01:00:52you can't be in here

01:00:53sir

01:00:59please

01:00:59just let me stay

01:01:02they told me to go home

01:01:03but home was in that room

01:01:05unconscious

01:01:06with a machine breathing for him

01:01:15three months

01:01:1692 days

01:01:17since the intersection

01:01:19since the rain

01:01:20since his blood

01:01:21on my hands

01:01:23people say time heals

01:01:24people are liars

01:01:27time just teaches you

01:01:29how to function

01:01:29while broken

01:01:41breakfast

01:01:42had some

01:01:43liar

01:01:45liar

01:01:46sit

01:01:53your color's coming back

01:01:56I should know

01:01:57I've been monitoring

01:01:58my own

01:01:58like a paint swab

01:01:59how was yesterday's

01:02:00blood work

01:02:01Dr. Reeves used the word

01:02:02animative

01:02:03I told him I'd accept

01:02:04nothing less than

01:02:05miraculous

01:02:07you're carrying too much

01:02:08sweetheart

01:02:09you know that right

01:02:10I'm fine

01:02:11you're 17

01:02:13fine isn't supposed

01:02:14to look like this

01:02:22you eat today

01:02:24why does everyone

01:02:25keep asking me that

01:02:26because you look like

01:02:27a Victorian ghost

01:02:28and I care about you

01:02:29quiz me on calculator

01:02:32hey

01:02:33hey

01:02:33any updates

01:02:35same

01:02:35stable

01:02:36Lorraine won't return

01:02:37my calls

01:02:38Theo

01:02:38he visits

01:02:40Beckard's awake more

01:02:41now apparently

01:02:41physical therapy

01:02:42started last week

01:02:43but the restraining

01:02:44order's still active

01:02:45so I get everything

01:02:46second hand

01:02:46that's not fair

01:02:47none of this is fair

01:02:50Elliot

01:02:51sit down a minute

01:02:55I went to that

01:02:56meeting again

01:02:57the one at the community

01:02:58the P Blake meeting

01:02:59there was a father there

01:03:00his son's about your age

01:03:02he said something that

01:03:03stuck with me

01:03:05he said he spent

01:03:06two years mourning

01:03:06a version of his kid

01:03:07that never existed

01:03:09and by the time he stopped

01:03:10he'd almost lost

01:03:11the real one

01:03:12I don't want to be

01:03:13that father Elliot

01:03:14I'm not good at this

01:03:15but I'm trying

01:03:18I know dad

01:03:21Elliot

01:03:23he's awake

01:03:24like really awake

01:03:25talking

01:03:25sitting up

01:03:26you said that last week

01:03:28no

01:03:28listen to me

01:03:29he grabbed my arm today

01:03:30and said exact words

01:03:31where's Elliot

01:03:32tell him to come

01:03:34the restraining order

01:03:35screw the restraining order

01:03:36Theo

01:03:37he asked for you

01:03:38he's been asking for you

01:03:40Lorraine can file

01:03:40whatever she wants

01:03:41you need to be there

01:03:43then let them arrest me

01:03:4692 days of being good

01:03:49of following rules

01:03:50of dying quietly

01:03:52enough

01:04:01there

01:04:02almost presentable

01:04:03hey

01:04:04you okay

01:04:05yeah

01:04:06I'm okay

01:04:07I'm sorry

01:04:08I made you wait so long

01:04:09don't be

01:04:11I'd wait forever

01:04:12he was the last person

01:04:13I ever wanted to fall for

01:04:15the arrogant

01:04:17insufferable

01:04:17beautiful Elliot

01:04:18who moved in next door

01:04:19and ruined my entire summer

01:04:21he made me furious

01:04:22he made me brave

01:04:24he loved me

01:04:25even when I couldn't

01:04:26love myself

01:04:34the person I hated

01:04:35more than anyone

01:04:36in the world

01:04:37became the one

01:04:37I couldn't live without

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