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13 Reasons Why - Season 2 Episode 8
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00:30Seeing Hannah like that, it was surreal
00:34The only thing that can bring a grown man to his knees
00:37I felt privileged, privileged that this fragile little thing would trust me
00:42Before she knew to trust anything else
00:45And that I'd get to spend the rest of my life getting to know her
00:53I'm sorry
00:54No, don't be
00:57It's perfectly fine to be emotional up there today
01:03Okay
01:07I remember he couldn't stop crying that day
01:09He cried more than I did
01:14You were so strong, I think the nurses were more concerned about me
01:17You were scared
01:19We both were
01:23Turns out we were right to be
01:25No, no, don't do that to yourself
01:29Andy, you were an amazing father from day one
01:32Look, it's natural to ask yourselves these questions
01:36But what the jury needs to hear today is how much you loved Hannah
01:39And how much trust you placed in Liberty High School to protect her
01:46Well, there's lots of chatter online about Hannah's tapes
01:50People are worried it's going to affect the trial
01:52Well, I'm not concerned
01:53I mean, it still doesn't serve the school to admit them into evidence any more than it does us
01:57But couldn't it work in our favor to have Hannah's story out there in her own words?
02:03Or will it bias the jury against us?
02:05How?
02:05How could it do that?
02:06To hear what happened to her?
02:08It's a complicated story, Liv
02:35It's a complicated story, Liv
02:36Oh, today is gonna suck
02:43What do you mean?
02:45Because of
02:46I mean, it's like the first day of school or something
02:48But like in some weird alternate universe
02:52Where like everyone's been talking about me for months
02:55Uh, yeah, that's surreal
03:07Hannah was the kind of person that made you want to be better
03:12The kind of person who left an impression on everyone she met
03:20This is weird, right?
03:23Um, yeah?
03:38This is about me, isn't it?
03:42Uh, yeah, must be
03:56Helmet
03:58Hate to say I told you so, but
04:01Or did we just not think this part through?
04:03I'm curious
04:04What happens to Jessica now?
04:06Or Alex?
04:07Or Justin?
04:08Or you?
04:12Clay
04:13Did you not get any of my texts?
04:16Uh, my...
04:17My ringer must be off
04:25Sky?
04:26Hey, hello?
04:28Hey, Justin
04:29I'd say welcome back, but
04:31Kinda shitty timing
04:32What do you mean?
04:34I mean, about the tapes
04:35What about the tapes?
04:37Did Clay not tell you?
04:40Maybe he doesn't even know
04:41No, about what?
04:42They're out
04:43Someone posted them online
04:44Everyone listened all last night
04:46What?
04:46Yes
04:46Are you fucking serious?
04:49Jensen
04:50Did you know about this?
04:56I, um...
04:57Yeah
04:58I, I kinda, I guess I knew
05:00But
05:03I, I gotta go
05:05What?
05:06Jensen?
05:07Hey, Clay
05:08Where the fuck are you going?
05:10Where the fuck are you going?
05:14We're having a meeting
05:15By the way
05:16She always saw the best in people
05:18Even if they couldn't see it themselves
05:20Figure this out
05:21But when she walked through those doors
05:23At Liberty High
05:24That's not the girl they made her out to be
05:26My future is at stake here
05:28What if Harvard finds out?
05:29What happened between you and Hannah?
05:31Shouldn't keep you out of Harvard, Marcus
05:33You don't know that?
05:34This could, this could build my entire life
05:35Wait, look
05:36We'll figure out a strategy when we meet, okay?
05:38Everyone's confirmed
05:40Except
05:41I didn't tell Jessica
05:42I didn't know what to say to her
05:45Tell her that there's somebody out here trying to fuck up our lives
05:49When people looked at Hannah, they saw what they wanted to see
05:53They made assumptions
05:54They spread rumors
05:55Hey, Jess
05:56Hey
05:58What the hell is wrong with everyone today?
06:00Shit
06:00You haven't heard?
06:01Heard what?
06:03Maybe we should get out of here
06:05You wanna skip school?
06:06Why?
06:06What's going on?
06:08Tell me
06:09The tapes
06:10They're out
06:12What?
06:15Oh my god
06:17I know
06:18I'm so sorry
06:19It's so fucked up
06:21When I think of her walking the halls with those kids
06:24Yeah
06:24It's, uh, the ribbon cutter
06:26Those eyes on her
06:27So, like, with a giant pair of scissors and all that?
06:29Wait, how the fuck else?
06:30I see you cut ribbons scatting
06:31What?
06:32I don't know
06:32I've never been to something like this before
06:34It's not that big of a deal
06:35But bring your appetites
06:36My dad promised food trucks
06:37Oh, wow
06:39Hey, you're coming today, right?
06:42What?
06:43Yeah, no, totally
06:44Yeah, alright
06:48Hey, who did this?
06:50Well, get the fuck back
06:51Hey, relax
06:51It's fine
06:53Well, come on
06:56It's a stupid fucking prank, right?
06:58Dude, that's pretty fucked up
07:00Should we do something?
07:01What would we do?
07:03It's messed up
07:04I'm not worried about it
07:06You wanna call it rape?
07:07Call it rape
07:09She wanted me
07:10Me
07:11She's practically begging you to fuck her
07:13That's rape
07:13And every girl is just
07:14Where the fuck did you get that?
07:17What the hell was that?
07:19Was that you?
07:20Yeah, it was me
07:21What do you want us to do?
07:22Do you want me to go after him?
07:23Yeah
07:24How the fuck did this happen?
07:26Someone posted the tapes online
07:28Last night
07:30Someone?
07:34Anonymously
07:35It's fucked up
07:36Hey, what are you gonna do?
07:39Um
07:41Um
07:43Uh, I, I, um
07:44I just, I need you to think for a minute
07:46I should call my dad
07:55Mom!
07:57Fuckin' let's go
07:58I knew you were a fuckin' pervert
08:02Hey!
08:04Hey you fuckin' assholes, come on!
08:07But even if Hannah couldn't trust her classmates
08:10She should've been able to trust the school itself
08:12Especially since we'd chosen Liberty
08:14Specifically because of their emphasis on safety and support
08:18So, when you enrolled Hannah at the school
08:20Did you ask about their policies regarding bullying?
08:24Explicitly
08:25We let them know that Hannah had some problems at her previous school
08:28Girls being mean, that sort of thing
08:30And we didn't want her to have to go through that again
08:33And when you asked about those policies, what were you told?
08:36They said they had a zero tolerance policy
08:38That they took that kind of thing extremely seriously
08:40And that she was in good hands
08:42But then they just stood back and let everything happen
08:48If the school had just stepped up and paid attention
08:50Then things never would've gone as bad as they did for her
08:54And she'd still be that same happy, hopeful kid she always was
08:59Hang on, did you hear what he said on the last tape?
09:02Okay, but how could she be dating him if you really did it?
09:04Unless she didn't know
09:09Um...
09:10Chloe
09:10Hey
09:13The ribbon cutting today, I might be late
09:15Are you still going?
09:17Yeah
09:18Why wouldn't I be?
09:19Okay
09:21Yeah, well we'll see you later
09:22Okay, bye
09:50Hello
09:51Typically
09:52I'm sorry
09:53I'm sorry
09:53Who's a girl
09:53Who's a girl
09:54Who's a girl
09:54Who's a girl
09:56Who's a girl
09:58Oh, my God.
10:45Here you are.
10:47You know, I was starting to think you were avoiding me today.
10:49What? No.
10:51No, I, uh...
10:53Actually, I got locked in.
10:55I know.
10:57I had to move the chair.
10:59You don't know why.
11:02I kind of do.
11:05Kind of everyone does.
11:07Oh.
11:10Oh.
11:11Well, I understand if you changed your mind about the movies.
11:16I didn't.
11:19Tyler, you promised me a date.
11:20You're not getting out of it that easily.
11:24Well, can't you tell Warren to handle it faster?
11:26It's a shit show around here.
11:29I...
11:30I...
11:31I gotta go.
11:36I heard your confession.
11:39You feeling okay, brother?
11:41You didn't look so good the other day.
11:43You're going down, Bryce.
11:44How do you see that happening, exactly?
11:46Without you going with me.
11:50I will do whatever I have to.
11:53To make you fucking pay.
11:56I'm not going to pay for a goddamn thing, Justin.
11:59I've got a legal team working for me around the clock.
12:02I've got state fucking senators that will talk about what a fine citizen I am.
12:07What have you got?
12:08A junkie mom and a deadbeat dad?
12:11Oh, shit.
12:12Wait, that's right.
12:13You don't even know your dad, do you?
12:16You never met the guy.
12:18You're just a white trash piece of shit, Justin.
12:21Nobody's going to listen to your truth.
12:23Nobody in this world gives a shit about you.
12:26You've got nothing.
12:28And nobody.
12:43Hey, Jess.
12:46Yeah, I'm just...
12:48Yeah, I'm at home.
12:51Yeah, I had to split.
12:54And my mom called me super early.
12:57She got in a fight with meth, Seth, so...
13:06Are you...
13:07Okay?
13:09I mean, you're pretty out of it last night.
13:12I mean, we both were.
13:22Huh?
13:22Uh...
13:23Yeah.
13:25We did.
13:28Do you not...
13:30Do you not remember?
13:35Shit.
13:35Yeah, we were both pretty trashed.
13:38I'm sorry.
13:39I mean...
13:39Yeah, you...
13:41You seemed like you were pretty into it last night.
13:46No, we must have just both passed out after.
13:52Yeah, it was a fucking great party.
14:08What the hell?
14:11I will destroy you.
14:12Hey, back off, man.
14:13Get the fuck off!
14:14Hey!
14:16You took pictures of my sister?
14:17What?
14:18You followed her?
14:19You took fucking pictures of her?
14:20No.
14:21Yeah, it's me.
14:21You took them and you put them in my locker room.
14:23What the fuck is wrong with you?
14:24This isn't me.
14:24I didn't fucking do this.
14:26It's fucking you, isn't it?
14:27What?
14:27First you put the rat in my locker, now this?
14:29What the fuck do you want from me?
14:30You put a rat in your locker room?
14:32Someone's fucking with you, too?
14:33Yeah.
14:33You.
14:34Why?
14:34Because of fucking last night?
14:35No, it's not...
14:36Fuck, dude.
14:37It's gotta be Bryce.
14:38It's fucking Bryce.
14:39He's trying to keep us quiet.
14:40Okay?
14:40It happened to me, too.
14:43It's not me.
14:44I swear.
14:48Zach.
14:51So, come near my sister and I'll murder you.
14:53You hear me?
15:16So, what do you want?
15:17An eighth?
15:18I got a really great hybrid right now.
15:19You know, I need something stronger.
15:23You got any oxy?
15:25Shit, man.
15:26I can get you oxy.
15:27It's bucks, dude.
15:29I got the supply choked off.
15:31Okay, what can I get right now?
15:33I need to get really fucking high,
15:35and I've got 20 bucks.
15:38I got some H.
15:39And if you really want to get blind,
15:41you gotta shoot.
15:42I...
15:44I mean, I don't got works or anything.
15:48I can hook you up.
15:53Mr. Baker, you're currently dating someone
15:55by the name of Valerie Hampton.
15:57Is that correct?
15:59Yes.
16:00My wife and I...
16:03were separated.
16:04Is it not true that you first began dating Miss Hampton
16:07in April of last year?
16:09Prior to Hannah's death
16:10and prior to your separation?
16:13It's not something I'm proud of,
16:14but, yes, we saw each other for about a month,
16:16then I ended it.
16:17We didn't reconnect until after Hannah's death.
16:21After my separation.
16:22But if Hannah was alive
16:24when you first started dating Miss Hampton,
16:26isn't it possible she knew about the affair?
16:27Objection.
16:28Speculation.
16:29Your Honor, it's necessary to establish a timeline
16:31so that we can take into account
16:32all possible effects on Hannah's mental state.
16:35Overruled.
16:36Proceed.
16:37Mr. Baker,
16:37is it not possible
16:39that Hannah knew,
16:41given the timeline,
16:43regardless of whether the two of you ever discussed it?
16:48Unless you...
16:51you did discuss it.
17:05Okay.
17:05Okay.
17:09I'll call you when I can.
17:10I'll call you when I can.
17:39I'll call you when I can.
17:45Hannah?
17:50How could you do that?
17:51I love your mother. I love her with all my heart, I swear to you.
17:54But a marriage, honey, honey, a marriage is a complicated thing.
18:00It's a terrible moment when you realize that your parents aren't perfect.
18:05Don't try and turn this into a life lesson for me.
18:09I'm sorry.
18:11Look, I will end it. I'll end it. Tonight.
18:17And you'll tell Mom. Okay, or I will.
18:34I told my wife about Valerie immediately.
18:38We dealt with it. And afterwards, it wasn't a problem anymore. Hannah knew that.
18:43She also knew that you had cheated on her mother and she committed suicide less than six months afterwards.
18:48No, we moved forward as a family.
18:50Thank you, Mr. Baker. No further questions.
18:52No, her problems were with the school. With us, she was always a happy girl. She was hopeful. She was
18:57upbeat.
19:02Why can't we explain what actually happened? Why can't we make a statement?
19:06It's not the time.
19:07When is the time? Everyone knows what she had to say about it.
19:10You wouldn't want it to sound like you were attacking this girl to the press.
19:13I just don't want people to think I'm hiding from this. I want them to hear my sign.
19:17They will. As soon as you testify. In the meantime, just block out the noise.
19:22Now, let's try and enjoy this damn thing, shall we? We got a lot of eyes on us today.
19:26You have some fans, dear.
19:34We saw the girl. Are we worried about her?
19:37The girlfriend? No. She seems harmless.
19:40No, not that Chloe. She's a trifle. The girl on the tape. At the party?
19:47We don't even know if there was anyone at any party. It's just a story.
19:51Is that the position you're taking or something you truly believe?
19:56These kids, Nora. They want what Bryce has.
20:02You don't think your son could do these kinds of things?
20:05Of course not. Jesus, do you?
20:11I know the boy we raised.
20:14Are you sure?
20:24Excuse me?
20:26Excuse me, Mr. and Mrs. Walker.
20:27What did you have to say for yourself and your son?
20:30Excuse us.
20:31Everybody knows what he did to Hannah Baker.
20:33How can you let him be celebrated like this?
20:35You have everything.
20:37You should be ashamed of yourself, Mr. Walker.
20:39The school is at fault. The school.
20:43These are children in their care.
20:47If they know something is wrong, they should take action.
20:57Zach.
20:58Hey.
21:00Did anything happen to you at school today?
21:04Like, but the field looks great.
21:07The news is here.
21:09What an occasion.
21:12We're not staying.
21:15Why not?
21:17Do you know why the news fans are here?
21:20Do you know about the tapes?
21:23I know that she didn't say anything about you that you hadn't already said yourself.
21:27That's not it, movers.
21:28At a time like this, your friend Bryce needs you to stand by him.
21:34Let's go, ma'am.
21:35Zachary Dempsey, if you are not here, what are people going to say?
21:40These kids are going through so much, and parents don't know.
21:59Good afternoon.
22:01I'm Marcus Cole, student body president.
22:08Happy to be here.
22:10Happy to be here today.
22:14Since 1913, Liberty High has been committed to helping students achieve academic excellence
22:18in a safe, supportive environment.
22:24But in recent years, our values have gone to shit.
22:34I'm part of the problem.
22:36I lead a group called Enguidant, which is supposed to be for enlightened guys.
22:43But today I'm officially resigning from that group because I'm a hypocrite.
22:51How can I say that I care about protecting girls when I've been protecting a rapist like Bryce Walker?
23:19Well, our students are playing some sort of prank, one that's in very poor taste, obviously.
23:27But let's move ahead with our program.
23:30What the hell is going on in this school?
23:32The young man clearly felt burdened by something.
23:35He needed to make a confession.
23:36It's blackmail.
23:38It's blackmail.
23:38Someone's got something on it.
23:39We are so thrilled to be here.
23:41Excuse me.
23:42Can we have some quiet, please?
23:45We're thrilled to be here.
23:48Would you please join me?
23:49You know this is all bullshit, right?
23:52It's all lies.
23:53Barry.
23:55Yeah.
23:55Of course.
23:56I know.
23:57For Team Captain Bryce Walker.
24:08I can't believe he actually fucking did it.
24:12Like the fucking puppet masters of the school.
24:15You can get anyone to do anything.
24:21All right.
24:29All right.
24:29You're getting good.
24:30Well, success builds confidence.
24:36Tranking the president.
24:40Pulling the ladies.
24:42And by ladies, I mean my sister.
24:44Kinsey told me you guys are going on a little date this weekend.
24:47I was going to tell you about it.
24:49You know, I just, I don't want it to be weird.
24:51I just want to...
24:52No.
24:52It's all good.
24:53I mean...
24:54I trust you.
24:56And as long as you're not actually some crazy stalker who follows girls around with camera.
25:15Holy shit.
25:18Holy shit.
25:27Hey! Yo, dude. Dude, come look at this.
25:32Did you hit it?
25:43Dude, look at it. It was like...
25:48It's like flying like 30 seconds ago, and now it's just...
25:53I mean...
25:59Parents don't know what happens at school.
26:08Dammit, Clay, pick up the phone. Do you have any idea what you fucking did?
26:12Where the hell are you right now?
26:20What the fuck did you just do?
26:22Hey, look, I came to you for help, and you didn't do shit, man.
26:25They're still blackmailing me. They may even say that.
26:26Who the fuck is they?
26:27I don't know. How do I know?
26:30Look, if that video gets out, man, it's out forever, okay?
26:35And I still have a future.
26:36But for you, the tapes are out.
26:39I didn't say anything that hasn't been said already.
26:42Big mistake. Big fucking mistake.
26:55There are limits to what we can do to help another person, no matter how much we wish there weren't.
27:02We need to take these tapes to the police. We need to get these boys that did this to her.
27:07Noelle, I don't care what she wants.
27:10She's here. I'll call you back.
27:12Yes, I promise. I'll call her.
27:15Hey, Dad.
27:16Hey, baby girl. Let's talk.
27:21What? I don't want to talk.
27:22Honey, your mom and I want to be there for you. Whatever you need.
27:27I'm fine. I just... I have a lot of homework, okay?
27:31Ms. Baker called for you a while ago.
27:38What did she want?
27:40To check in on you, see how you're doing.
27:44I just... I need to be alone, okay?
27:50So there's a limit to what we can do to protect them.
27:55And there are some things you just...
27:57Can't protect them from.
28:00I couldn't be there every time someone judged her.
28:03Or shamed her.
28:05I didn't always have the answers.
28:07I didn't always know all the right things to say.
28:18After everything that happened at Liberty High...
28:23Well, I think it was just too much for Hannah.
28:26After all that, it was just too much.
28:29And did anyone at Liberty inform you of the issues happening on campus?
28:35The hot or not list being circulated.
28:39The suicidal poem being read aloud.
28:41The anonymous question specifically about suicide.
28:45No. No, they never...
28:48I mean, had they sent out some kind of notification to all the parents, we could have talked to Hannah.
28:53We could have started a conversation, but they never informed us about any of it.
28:58So the administration was either ignorant of the problems under their own roof, or they were aware and did nothing?
29:06Exactly.
29:07Thank you, Mrs. Baker.
29:12Mrs. Baker, were you aware that Hannah knew about your husband's affair?
29:17I...
29:19No, I was not aware, but I...
29:21You never picked up on any signs from her that she may have known, or might have been in distress?
29:31Yes?
29:45Hey, Mom.
29:47Hey, sweetheart.
29:49Are you okay?
29:50Are you?
29:51Your father...
29:52And I just had a little argument, that's all.
29:55Are they serious?
29:59How was school?
30:00School is school...
30:02Here, I, um...
30:04Got you something.
30:08Irises?
30:10They're my favorite.
30:13But what's the occasion?
30:14Nothing, I just saw them in the window on my way home and remembered how much you like irises.
30:19Aw.
30:20I know I never give you anything unless it's, like, Mother's Day or something, but I just wanted to say
30:25thank you for being a great mother every day.
30:29Hannah.
30:30Honey.
30:35You're so thoughtful.
30:43No, I never noticed anything.
30:46So even you didn't notice the signs that Hannah was in distress, and yet you expect the school to have
30:51done so?
30:52Objection. Argumentative.
30:54Withdrawn.
30:54Mrs. Baker, you say that you didn't notice whether Hannah was in distress.
30:59But is there anything in your family history to suggest that Hannah may have had a predisposition to any mental
31:05health problems?
31:06There have been some issues with anxiety on my side of the family, but nothing serious, and Hannah never showed
31:14any signs.
31:15And were any of these issues ever serious enough to require treatment?
31:20Well, yes, I've seen a therapist on and off over the years during stressful periods.
31:25So you've received treatment from a mental health care professional, but you never thought that your daughter might require similar
31:30care?
31:31She was just a child, and again, she never showed any signs.
31:34Did you, or did you not, take Hannah to see a therapist, Mrs. Baker?
31:41No, I never did.
31:51Hey.
31:52Hey.
31:53You made it.
31:54Yeah, I did.
31:56Hi.
32:00It's, it's, it's so good to see you. You look, you look great.
32:04For a person in a mental health facility?
32:07No, no, just for a person in the world who always looks great.
32:13Stop, I'm kidding.
32:15And thank you.
32:17I was, um, really glad you called back.
32:22Oh, I, I just got my phone privileges.
32:24I haven't been dodging you.
32:26Wait, so you just got all those messages at once?
32:28I hope you skip some.
32:29I listen to everyone.
32:30Okay, guys, we're starting yoga in here in a few minutes for whoever's interested and who won't be making fun
32:36of the poses.
32:38Then we've got our small group sessions.
32:40Bring your shared journals or pay the price.
32:46Cool.
32:50This, uh, this place seems really nice.
32:53Come on, I'll give you the VIP tour.
32:57Like, everyone's brain chemistry is different, so I might take them a few tries before they can find the right
33:03combination of meds.
33:06Wait, is this too much right now?
33:09No.
33:10No.
33:10No, no, no, it's, it's just...
33:14Look, are they sure it's bipolar?
33:17I mean, it feels like kind of a blurry line between someone being manic and also just, you know, being
33:23in a really good mood.
33:26Clay, I tried to jerk you off in front of your parents.
33:30I mean, that wasn't just a good mood.
33:34Yeah.
33:36Yeah, yeah, point taken.
33:38That's pretty fucked up.
33:43But the meds and everything.
33:46I mean, what if that all changes you?
33:50I hope it does.
33:53Look, the person that I was, it wasn't really working for me.
33:58Like, the good moods, they could be amazing, but...
34:02I was, like, dancing on the edge of a really high cliff.
34:08And the fall was just really fucking hard and far.
34:18I'm sorry.
34:19Wait.
34:22You know it's not your fault, right?
34:26No, I, I know.
34:30I don't know if you do.
34:44All this time.
34:47How could you keep that from me?
34:48I'm sorry, Olivia.
34:51I thought I fixed it.
34:52I didn't want to make things worse for you or Hannah.
34:55I just wanted to move on.
34:56Clearly.
34:58I didn't know how to talk to you anymore.
35:02I didn't know how to tell you that I needed to...
35:05me...
35:07feel loved and held, and I needed to be needed.
35:11Oh.
35:12Oh, so this is my fault?
35:14It's not your fault.
35:15I'm not blaming you.
35:16I'm blaming us.
35:17We should have communicated.
35:18We should have noticed that our baby girl was suffering.
35:20We should have done something.
35:22Don't you dare.
35:23Okay?
35:24Don't you dare make me feel like I failed my daughter.
35:27Okay?
35:28If we lose this trial, it's your fault.
35:30If we win this trial, it's my fault.
35:31How can you not see that?
35:33How can you not feel that, sitting on that stand?
35:35That's all it took?
35:36This lawyer gets in your head, and then suddenly we're on trial?
35:41I never wanted to go to trial.
35:42I never wanted to, but deep down I thought we had a case.
35:45I believe that the school, the bullies, that monster,
35:48were responsible for our losing Hannah, but we're in this too, Liv.
35:55We're part of it too, Liv.
36:00And if you can't see that now, I don't think you ever will.
36:14I don't want to fight anymore.
36:17I don't want to fight.
36:18I don't want to fight with you, and not in this courtroom.
36:22I think this case is better off without me.
36:30And so are you.
36:45So when do you come home?
36:48The thing is, my mom doesn't want me to go back to Liberty.
36:52She wants me to transfer schools.
36:57Like... like East County?
36:59Like another state.
37:03I'm going to live with my aunt and uncle.
37:05Wait, you...
37:08You're never coming back?
37:11I need to hit the reset button.
37:13The reset button?
37:14To, like, delete everything that came before?
37:16No, not what I mean.
37:18Not delete.
37:20Not you, not our friendship.
37:22But I need to move on.
37:25They're making you do that?
37:26No.
37:28I'm doing it.
37:31I can't keep pretending like I'm okay.
37:34Like I don't need to work to get well.
37:37Like, it's everyone's fault but mine.
37:42I want to live a better life than that.
37:57You're gonna forgive me.
37:58Oh my God, I never could.
38:00I'm just gonna be this one guy you knew one time.
38:08I can let you go and still love you.
38:14I'll always love you.
38:20I'm gonna miss you.
38:23I'm gonna miss you.
38:24I'm gonna miss you too.
38:24I gotta miss you too.
38:34You're probably too much to stay.
38:34I can still love you too.
38:35I'll just walk through you too.
38:35Bye bye.
38:38Bye bye.
38:40Bye bye bye.
38:41Bye bye bye.
38:43Bye bye.
38:44Bye bye bye bye.
38:54You're a good person, Clay, and you can help people.
38:59Just maybe not how you think they need to be helped.
39:23Clay?
39:28Clay!
39:31I need to talk to you.
39:37Clay, why aren't you answering your phone?
39:40Justin. Hey, dickhead, where's Clay?
39:45Justin.
39:50Justin.
39:52Justin. Hey, wake up.
40:00Wake the fuck up. Hey, wake up.
40:02Justin.
40:04Roll over.
40:07Justin!
40:09Justin, I can't rule you!
40:10Fuck!
40:21Fuck!
40:22I'm gonna fucking bite. You died.
40:25Fuck!
40:47We don't always get second chances.
40:51To help people.
40:54To be there.
40:57In the right way.
41:00To love them.
41:06Hi.
41:08My dad said you called.
41:10And I heard what happened in court today.
41:12And I don't know, I just wanted to reach out, you know, to see if there's anything I could do.
41:16I don't know.
41:19Come in.
41:22I think it's a tolerance thing.
41:24I don't know.
41:26I've only ever shot up a couple times.
41:29You could have fucking died.
41:31Like anyone would even care at this point.
41:33Dude, don't joke about that.
41:37Shit.
41:40Sorry.
41:44Hey.
41:45Hey.
41:46Drink this.
42:03Where's the scar?
42:07Oh, it's...
42:08They're scars.
42:10But they're under my hair.
42:12That's why I grew it out.
42:16Yeah, I remember how it used to be.
42:19When you first started at Liberty,
42:22some of the guys were like,
42:24that hair makes him a fag.
42:26But I was like,
42:30that's fucking stupid.
42:33Well, that's super kind of you.
42:38Yeah, well...
42:40Whatever.
42:47You're still in love with Jessica, aren't you?
42:51It doesn't matter.
42:54Look at you.
42:55It clearly does.
43:02What the hell happened?
43:04He shot up, and then he almost choked on his own cuke.
43:07What the fuck is wrong with you, Justin?
43:09You were just clean.
43:10Leave him alone, okay?
43:12What? Now you're defending him?
43:14Yeah, what the hell were you thinking with the tapes, Clay?
43:17Do you have any idea what you did to Jessica?
43:19Yeah, I was trying to get justice for Hannah.
43:21And I'm sorry if it hurt Jessica,
43:24but maybe it's time for her truth to come out, too.
43:26What the fuck gives you the right to decide what needs to come out?
43:31Look.
43:33Look, I've done everything I can.
43:37Everything I can think of to make things right.
43:40But I can't do it alone.
43:45Okay?
43:46Look, I'm sorry about the tapes,
43:48but it's gonna get worse before it gets better.
43:52And I need you guys.
43:55Turn your hands.
43:56There you go. Good hit.
44:01Wow.
44:02You did need to come in.
44:04Yeah, I feel better already.
44:06Well, the night is young.
44:07It could get even better.
44:08Oh, yeah?
44:09Yeah.
44:09What you got in mind?
44:11Oh.
44:12Hey.
44:14Hey, I didn't know you were coming in today.
44:16Lucas.
44:17This is Tony.
44:17Tony, this is Lucas.
44:18Oh, hey, man.
44:19Good to meet you.
44:22Yeah.
44:23Yeah, man.
44:25It's good to meet you, too.
44:28I'll talk to you later.
44:29I should get out of here anyway.
44:30I'm pretty tired.
44:32Hey.
44:34Have we trained together before?
44:36No, I don't, uh...
44:37I don't think so.
44:40Have a good night.
44:45We don't always know...
44:47everything a kid is going through.
44:51Hey, buddy.
44:52We agreed. Door open, yeah?
44:54It was open.
44:55No, it was almost closed.
44:56We agreed 45 degrees open all the time, okay?
44:59But then last month, we negotiated down to 30.
45:02It was at 3.
45:03Just now, so...
45:04Keep it open, alright?
45:06Wait, Dad.
45:07I'm really sorry about last night.
45:10I didn't mean to ruin the party.
45:13Ah, buddy.
45:18You didn't.
45:20And I feel like I owe you an apology.
45:22Cause I...
45:23I think I've been pushing you too hard.
45:26No, I think maybe...
45:28It's a good thing.
45:30Cause today, I like...
45:32I really pushed myself,
45:34and it kinda turned out okay.
45:35That's great.
45:36Yeah, my memory's getting better.
45:40Good.
45:40Well, the doctor didn't say you were stuck, right?
45:43He said...
45:44that your recovery would be unpredictable,
45:47but there's always hope.
45:49Yeah. Yeah.
45:51So, last night with that video game,
45:54it actually started making me remember this other one,
45:56in Desert Duty.
45:58So, I was thinking, um...
46:01just maybe if I play that one again,
46:02it would actually help me remember more.
46:05It's a shooter game, Desert Duty?
46:07Yeah, I know, Dad.
46:08But it's not...
46:09it's not like that.
46:10I just...
46:12There's something that I gotta remember.
46:17Yeah, but...
46:19I don't know.
46:22Yeah, I know.
46:24I get it.
46:26It's probably stupid, anyway.
46:32I should probably get some sleep.
46:34Alright.
46:35Night.
46:36Night.
46:41But kids...
46:42they don't always tell you everything they're feeling.
46:56I'm saying that the house is on fire,
46:59and all I know how to do is write poems.
47:01All I know how to do is arrange flowers
47:03on the table of a burning home.
47:06I am pressing against the frame.
47:07I am chanting the right words.
47:10I am gripping my fists and letting them go.
47:14Wow.
47:17Hannah wrote that?
47:18I must have read it a million times.
47:20The whole time I thought it was about that school.
47:23The suffocating...
47:24Oh, my God, it's right there in front of me.
47:26The burning home.
47:28The flowers.
47:31It was about her dad's affair.
47:34And there she was trying to comfort me
47:36when I should have been the one trying to comfort her.
47:37I mean, why didn't I see it?
47:38Olivia, you can't blame yourself.
47:40This is Andy's fault.
47:41Jackie, please don't tell me how to feel right now.
47:49I'm sorry.
47:50You're right.
47:51No, I'm sorry.
47:52It's just it's more complicated than that.
47:55I didn't mean to overstep.
47:59You know, I think maybe I should head to bed.
48:02No, no.
48:03No, it's been a long day.
48:04Really.
48:05I need to get some rest.
48:07It was nice meeting you, Jessica.
48:22Oh.
48:29You must think I'm an idiot,
48:31wanting to protect a man who doesn't deserve it.
48:35I get it.
48:37I mean, I really get it.
48:41You love him, right?
48:43Despite everything.
48:44And it's crazy, but...
48:46You love him.
48:50I do.
48:53Even though he hurt you so bad.
49:06You know, Jessica, if there's...
49:09If there's anything you ever want to talk about...
49:15Sometimes I think if Hannah would have come to me...
49:20Maybe things would have been different.
49:25Maybe it was too painful for her to talk about it.
49:31Maybe she kept it all in to protect herself.
49:37I'm not good at that.
49:40The more I think about it...
49:43She's really brave.
49:44But honey, we both know...
49:47That didn't work.
49:49Keeping it in...
49:51That's not brave.
49:54Feeling the pain facing it...
49:57That takes courage.
50:00It's okay to let it out.
50:05It's okay.
50:20Not a day passes during this trial.
50:23It's okay.
50:24In the months it took to get here...
50:26That I don't wish I could have wrapped my arms around her...
50:29And told her it would be okay.
50:32But I never had that chance.
50:35Why didn't you tell us he was on drugs?
50:38He was getting better, okay?
50:41Anyway, I didn't even know about the drugs when I first brought him here.
50:43Should we call social services?
50:44No, Dad.
50:45Call social services, he disappears into the system.
50:48He doesn't testify.
50:49Jesus, is that what we care about?
50:50No, I care about keeping the kids safe.
50:52Which is hard to do when they're both fighting against us.
50:54How am I fighting you?
50:55The register called me today, Clay.
50:57Those audio files were watermarked.
50:59You stole them from my computer.
51:01You told me you weren't working on the case.
51:03That's no excuse.
51:04You told Sonia.
51:05About Zach texting Hannah.
51:06That's how they knew everything.
51:08Is that true?
51:09She's a colleague.
51:10I pointed her in a direction.
51:11It's hardly the same thing.
51:13It's worse.
51:14You endangered my job.
51:15My license.
51:16Our livelihood.
51:17You ruined my fucking life.
51:18Jesus, you sound like children.
51:20And there's just one child here.
51:21What is that supposed to mean?
51:23Clay needs us to be his parents now.
51:25I don't need anything from you guys.
51:26Clay, go to your room.
51:28What?
51:29How is that fair?
51:30Go to your goddamn room!
51:32Now!
51:55How can you fix something if you don't know what's broken?
52:01Hannah didn't tell us.
52:07Clay...
52:10No.
52:13You don't talk.
52:14You don't get to say anything.
52:16This is your fucking fault, Hannah.
52:18This mess started with you.
52:20I put out the tapes and that was stupid.
52:22But you made them.
52:24You fucked up people's lives.
52:26I know.
52:27I'm sorry.
52:28Are you?
52:30Are you sorry?
52:31Because that doesn't do a fucking bit of good.
52:33Because you are gone!
52:34You killed yourself!
52:37And you didn't fucking care!
52:38I did!
52:39No!
52:39You didn't!
52:40Or you never would have done it!
52:41I was hurting.
52:43And I didn't think about who I might hurt.
52:45You did.
52:46An evil thing.
52:52Get the fuck out.
53:03I'm sorry.
53:05What so bad?
53:05I've never had to be in.
53:05No.
53:10I need to have a woman...
53:11All that was broken in.
53:14Ae, don't I need to be in.
53:15We had to be in the same way...
53:18No way!
53:19But I know I'm getting nowhere.
53:24The last thing will fall off.
53:26Yesterday had freely helped to pave my way
53:30Oh, there's no one in me now
53:36How come everyone can tell you
53:39Hi, Mom.
53:42You see the torture on my brow
53:45Will it's tonight or in or now
53:48Watch me bleed
53:50I'll be forever
53:54Watch me bleed
53:58For help finding crisis resources, visit 13reasonswhy.info
54:09I'll make no noise, I'll hide my pain
54:12I'll close my eyes, I won't be
54:15I'll lie right back and take the blame
54:18And try to tell myself I'm living
54:22And when it's all instead of thought
54:24Where do I go and do I run
54:27What's left of me or anyone
54:30When we've denied the hurt to you
54:39Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
54:46oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
54:52oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
54:52oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
54:52oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh,
54:53oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
55:03I won't be fighting for my love
55:07But I'm going to be like you
55:09I won't let go beyond anyone
55:13Well, we've been out of our team
55:31Watch me be
55:33Bleed forever
55:36Watch me bleed
55:40Bleed forever
55:42In all the deeds of yesterday
55:46I really have to pave my way
55:49Watch me bleed
55:52Bleed forever
55:54Watch me bleed
55:58Bleed forever
56:00Watch me bleed
56:04Bleed forever
56:06In all the deeds of yesterday
56:10I really have to pave my way
56:31Well done, Ed
56:32Well done
56:43I really have to go ahead and see you soon
56:44I really have to go ahead and see you soon
56:45I really have to go ahead and see you soon
56:45I really have to go ahead and see you soon
56:45I really have to go ahead and see you soon
56:46I really have to go ahead and see you soon
56:48I really have to go ahead and see you soon
56:52I really have to go ahead and see you soon
57:15You
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