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Temptation Island - Season 7 - Episode 06
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00:16To be continued...
00:42To be continued...
01:00You know, if she wanted other stuff, like, it's hard to act like there's not something there.
01:08It's like our bodies want to make some waves.
01:13Oh, I got that sexy song to switch and crave.
01:19You're a giant.
01:21Oh, my God.
01:37Oh, my God.
01:39Good job.
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04:08i think he needs to really find himself here first but it was so refreshing and like a breath of
04:16fresh
04:16air to hear him actually be emotional yeah i wanna i just wanna hug i feel like you need a
04:23hug really
04:24bad i deserve better i'm not gonna settle i would rather walk away cause i know it's never gonna
04:33change it i know i'm the one to let go but it's cause i finally know my word
04:44are you talking about me i'll tell you that
04:50i know you i know you're talking about me i was talking about you i like sydney a lot and
04:57um
04:57i'm just looking forward to seeing a more of a romantic or potential like physical situation
05:07something's falling into place am i in trouble
05:20you just needed a hug
05:21this could be the one you know you know
05:24the meant to be will be the kind of love that makes it all look easy
05:30this could be the future that we made while starting with today
05:41i was wondering when it was gonna happen but yeah it was great
05:48this love feels like home real real
06:02i'm fucking crying
06:03how are you crying about
06:06did you just kiss me i did i did
06:13i could see myself leaving temptation island with xavier
06:19i'm crying jesus you make me nervous you make me nervous
06:31it hit me my water looks so good
06:33hit me
06:39hi everybody
06:41oh here we go
06:43there he is what's up how are you
06:51hi i snuck up on you hi everybody how are you
06:58so the reason i dropped by is to let you know tonight uh i'm gonna see you at a bonfire
07:06should we say it together yeah tonight you have another bonfire tonight's another bonfire
07:15we're getting down to it and now well the stakes are higher right so you got the rest of the
07:24day
07:24to kind of get your head around that it's not something you should dread it's uh actually there's
07:30a point where you start leaning into it because it's less comfortable to not know than it is to get
07:35the answers that you need right even if it's painful to see it the only way out is through it
07:43i look forward to talking to you guys all right thank you mark thank you you're all right thank
07:49you take it easy on us mark yeah i'll take it as it comes i don't know why i'm like
07:55so anxious
07:55for this one i know like i have like a pit in my stomach that i haven't had i can
08:01just see where
08:01what i've seen could escalate and that's what's freaking me out yeah yeah it gives you like a sick
08:07feeling for sure yeah
08:14i know dude i can't keep doing we're ready for this yeah we've got this and we got each other
08:21yeah most importantly yep look at it one two three bonfire oh god it's the worst cheer i've ever been
08:29a part of
08:43i'm not worried about what jack's gonna see he's gonna see me making out with
08:48preston he's gonna see me going into the haven with preston he's gonna see me and preston having
08:52a sleepover and i can't wait
09:03the first two bonfires they haven't been comparable to some of the other guys but
09:08i think going in every bonfire you're still kind of in your pants since the last bonfire
09:13our light has gone off twice it's going to be a very difficult bonfire for everyone and especially
09:23i think one or two individuals
09:28i feel like it just gets more source every time i'm obviously super stressed to what i'm gonna see
09:33but we're both here to figure out our relationship as a whole and i'm just going to take everything
09:38with a grain of salt and keep my head high
09:56i definitely feel as if what i'm about to see is going to bring emotions of jealousy
10:03i feel like the worst case scenario is seeing sydney do some sexual
10:07shit it's like how you moving that fast i mean no sense
10:15y'all it's up
10:25welcome back to the bonfire by now you know what this is
10:30you're going to see clips of your girlfriend's experience tonight and then we'll talk about it
10:37but tonight we're going to do things a little different
10:44normally you'd watch a single clip of your girlfriend but tonight i'm going to give you a
10:49choice after your first clip you'll have the option to go deeper a second clip
11:00you can choose to watch it if you think that'll help you you can choose not to watch it if
11:05you think
11:06that's something you'd like to avoid it's entirely up to you
11:14we're going to change okay
11:14jack we'll start with you tonight perfect you good i'm good okay let's take a look
11:24All right, let me walk.
11:25All right, that was...
11:26Let me carry you there.
11:36Straight to it, okay?
11:47Are you good?
11:51You just know what to do.
12:02What comes up for you?
12:07Finally, honestly.
12:13I'm not gonna even sit here and act like that doesn't hurt me,
12:15because it does, but I'm glad she did it.
12:19I mean, this is kind of what we both needed
12:22to get out of the toxic cycle we were in.
12:27I find it interesting that your reaction
12:28to a pretty heavy clip is relief.
12:33I mean, it sucks. It hurts.
12:36Like, I don't...
12:37Like, the thought of that is just mind-boggling, but...
12:44And you can understand that she's probably
12:47had her mind boggled as well.
12:49Correct.
12:50That says a lot, too.
12:52Yeah.
12:57Let's run the second one.
12:59Okay.
13:04Did you think coming into this experience
13:06you'd be sleeping in a bed with some...
13:07Nope.
13:07...some girl?
13:14It's a hard watch.
13:16Hmm.
13:18Like, giant?
13:28Fuck this chick, dear.
13:31It's all good, honestly.
13:34I'm not gonna even sit here.
13:35Like, it's so hard to watch,
13:36but I feel like this is, like...
13:38This is just what we needed.
13:40Okay?
13:41Like, truthfully, like, I feel like
13:42I can just finally just be me
13:44and just focus on myself
13:45and really just do my own thing,
13:47and I think I'll get a lot farther in life that way.
13:50Do you think there's any part of you
13:52that when you guys are at a final bonfire
13:54you'd be able to look across from one another
13:56and maybe as a couple find each other again?
14:00I think in a perfect world, uh, yeah.
14:05I mean, I'm a very forgiving person.
14:07If she could be forgiving of what I've done
14:10and we could move on and talk about it,
14:13um...
14:15I mean, I love her to death.
14:17I mean, I would love to be with her,
14:19but I just don't know if that's gonna end up happening.
14:25I get it.
14:26I get it.
14:27And thanks for sharing.
14:28And I'm sorry this was painful to watch.
14:30No, it's okay.
14:33Okay, let's move on.
14:35Cole, you ready?
14:37Yep.
14:38Okay, let's take a look.
14:42I just think, like, energy is just such a big thing.
14:45It is.
14:46When I first started dating Cole,
14:47he was like, I've never heard the term energy.
14:50I was like, that's my life.
14:52Yeah.
14:52You can only meet someone to the depth
14:56like they've met themselves.
14:57That's literally it.
14:58Yeah.
14:59Bradley, I dare you to kiss Scarlett's toe.
15:04You're doing that.
15:05I'm down for that.
15:20I mean, yeah, what she brought up.
15:22I've heard that story from her before.
15:25She's all about energy, the universe, things like that.
15:29I mean, what she's kind of describing to him, I mean, it's not...
15:32It doesn't come off to me as, like, special, though.
15:34She said she wants to, you know, be with me long-term,
15:37but she doesn't have that fiery connection, you know, that she's searching for.
15:43And it hurts because she expressed it.
15:45She had it in a prior relationship that was not good by any means.
15:50And so it hurts.
15:51I crossed every box for her except, at times, that, like, just fiery feeling.
15:57Well, the fiery feeling's a big deal.
15:58For sure.
15:59And that it hurts that she had it with somebody else is a good sign.
16:03Yeah.
16:04That it hurts you to think that somebody else lit the fire lets me know
16:11that there's an emotional part of you you've yet to really examine.
16:18Yeah.
16:19Do you want to see the second clip?
16:25Yeah, let's rip it.
16:27Rip it.
16:28Rip it.
16:33Does this make me look sick?
16:35Yeah.
16:35Yeah, it does.
16:42Your paint's gonna get all over my bikini.
16:47He's like, I see you.
16:50He gets me.
16:51I see what you're going through.
16:52And I'm like, holy fuck, like, I don't have to settle.
16:56Exactly.
17:04I don't like the term, the word she used, settle, obviously.
17:08You know?
17:08I know the kind of man I am and what I, you know, bring to the table in the relationship
17:13and how good I do treat her.
17:14And it sucks to be kind of hurt as, you know, something she'd be settling for.
17:19What is the definition of the man you think you need to be?
17:22I mean, Scarlet and a lot of times in our relationship uses this term masculine energy.
17:27And she says-
17:28In a good way or a bad way?
17:29In a bad way.
17:29She expresses that I don't have it.
17:33I think masculinity is the wrong name for it and it's not fair to you.
17:37Mm-hmm.
17:38Because that's going to send you down.
17:39I'm alpha.
17:40I climb mountains and slay dragons.
17:43You know, I'm that dude, which you are.
17:45Yeah.
17:46I suggest true masculine energy is the courage to be completely vulnerable.
17:52Yeah.
17:56I'm not really sure what else I can do at this point.
17:59Like, I'm just being, I'm just being cold.
18:01A lot of cold is fantastic.
18:04I appreciate it.
18:05I just want to access another level to save your relationship.
18:09Because I believe you love her.
18:11A lot, yeah.
18:14Okay.
18:15Uh, Summit.
18:16Yeah.
18:17Let's, let's get into it.
18:18My, my stomachs.
18:19All right.
18:19Let's take a look.
18:25So, you remember how you said you wanted me to write you those affirmations?
18:28Mm-hmm.
18:29So, I wrote you a couple.
18:32I don't need to change a thing to be amazing.
18:35You're so sweet.
18:37You're literally like the sweetest man ever.
18:39These are things that you should believe within yourself.
18:42I'm made to think that I'm, like, too much or not enough of this and too much of that.
18:48Was that Summit that made you feel the way?
18:50Yeah.
18:51It's just, like, a mind to fuck.
18:54Like, there was a night where I was, like, in his room beside myself and his friends were outside with
19:01some random girls.
19:02And he was, like, I'm gonna go hang out with them.
19:05Left me crying in his room.
19:08Went outside.
19:09I watched him through the window where he was, like, dancing, having so much fun while your girlfriend's sitting upstairs
19:16sobbing.
19:17Like, how can you do that to someone you love?
19:20It's, like, sociopathic.
19:30Uh, yeah, I mean, it's right on theme with my last two bonfires.
19:36I'm here to, like, make sure Kaylee's the one.
19:38And it sounds like she's here because she's...
19:40I'm not fulfilling her.
19:43And so it's like we're both just super unsure in the relationship.
19:47And that sucks.
19:48And that's scary.
19:50Feels like pressure, doesn't it?
19:51Yeah, it does.
19:53Do you think you're ready for forever?
19:56Well, that's why I'm here, you know, is to decide if I am ready for forever.
20:00I just don't want to, like, blink and it's all over and I want to squeeze the juice out of
20:05life as much as humanly possible.
20:08And it's scary thinking that, you know, I'm just, like, not tied down.
20:13Tied down is the wrong word.
20:15There's no wrong words.
20:16As a matter of fact, whatever comes out of your mouth first is what we work with.
20:20So just don't edit.
20:21Okay, tied down.
20:23It's just, I like Kaylee every second.
20:26I love Kaylee every second.
20:28That I need is what I'm trying to figure out.
20:30You can't will commitment.
20:36Do you want to see more?
20:41I don't probably want to see it, though.
20:43No.
20:44Okay.
20:46Mikey.
20:47What's up?
20:49What's up?
20:50How are you?
20:51I'm great.
20:52Thanks for asking.
20:52Let's work on you.
20:54Let's take a look.
21:02Goddamn.
21:08Very intimate.
21:11Am I in trouble?
21:15You just needed a hug?
21:23What the fuck?
21:25What the fuck?
21:30What the fuck?
21:32Oh.
21:42Um.
21:49Wow.
21:52Wow.
22:00Wow, my life is, my life is gonna be different, and that's okay, it's okay for my life to
22:07be different.
22:11It's okay.
22:24I thought she, I thought this was, I thought this was it for me.
22:28I thought it was, I thought it was gonna be me and Sydney running into the sunset, and
22:33sometimes you have to go through certain things to know if she's the one.
22:39I don't want to offer false hope, because I don't know how things go, but I can tell
22:45you the only chance you have in life is to keep doing what you're doing to discover more
22:51about you, and at the end when you get to talk to one another, we'll see if that makes
22:56a difference.
22:57Yes, sir.
22:58Do you want to see the other clip?
23:01Let's do it.
23:02You sure?
23:03Positive.
23:05Okay, let's take a look.
23:13I put a big-ass heart on your back.
23:15Hey, that's all I need.
23:16Come on now.
23:17I don't even know what to say about Xavier anymore.
23:19Everything with him feels so natural, everything feels so genuine.
23:23He just makes me feel seen and heard, and I feel like that's all a girl wants in the end.
23:29I'm watching Hillary.
23:35Oh, shit.
23:37Oh, damn.
23:39Okay, here we go.
23:39Okay, here we go.
23:40Okay, here we go.
23:41Okay, here we go.
23:41Okay, here we go.
23:42Okay, here we go.
24:00She's like two weeks ago she sat front row at my sister's wedding
24:04and she sat right next to my mom and she looked my mom in her eyes and said I love
24:08your son
24:09and that's not a woman that would do that to somebody that she loves
24:16I just want you to just be honest with me do you think it
24:20do you think it's time for me to shut that door
24:23I just don't think it's that simple
24:26okay do I think she's experiencing a real connection with somebody
24:30Mikey I think she is
24:34but do I think you shut a door
24:37hell no
24:40when we show up at these final bonfires if you've done the work
24:46you're a different person
24:47yeah
24:49that conversation doesn't resemble the conversations you've had in the past
24:53they're at another level
24:55yeah I'm just finally happy to know what it is
24:58like she's not thinking about the gaining of the trust within the relationship
25:03she's gaining she's gaining something deeper from what I see with somebody else
25:07the thing about this place
25:09you come here saying these are the problems in my relationship
25:15I hate to tell you
25:16it's never what brings you here that's the actual problem
25:19yeah at least I can say I'm growing and learning
25:22and I wish there was a softer easier path for you
25:25yeah me too
25:26this is painful
25:28but it's okay
25:28well it's
25:31it's gonna be okay
25:32there you go
25:34all right gentlemen you've made it through another bonfire
25:37it's a lot to process
25:40god damn
25:40I'm gonna let you go but there are some changes I need to let you know about
25:44when you come back to the villa tonight
25:46the temptation haven will be gone
25:49so what's next
25:52tomorrow you'll have the chance to record a 30 second video message for your girlfriend
25:57now you can choose to do it or you can choose not to do it
26:00it's entirely up to you
26:02okay
26:04and so you know I'm giving the women the exact same choice
26:07which means some of you could receive a message from your girlfriends and some of you may not
26:12the decision will be theirs
26:16all right that's it guys good night
26:18I didn't see
26:21I didn't see this coming
26:26came here in love
26:28but that's not how we're leaving
26:34I'm hurt
26:36I came in here I set my boundaries and I stuck with them
26:40and looks like Sydney fell for temptation
26:43I'm kind of past the tears point of this
26:46because I'm like I got the answers I needed
26:47like it's black and white you can't fake that
26:49words you can you feel me get a little misconstrued
26:52but action
26:54she stood on business
26:56if we leave then there's no turning
27:03yeah I'm feeling hurt
27:05annoyed sad angry
27:08she was telling me not to hurt her little heart and crying
27:11and she's obviously doing things to hurt my heart
27:13and I don't even know if I'm on her fucking mind
27:15when she's going through this process with whatever Bradley
27:19so it's for sure it's tough
27:21my girlfriend called me a sociopath
27:23did she say that word?
27:24yeah
27:24how is that sociopath?
27:26I wish I had your problems
27:27how am I a sociopath?
27:29like I'm like very endearing and caring
27:32and I treat her like a princess
27:33and I do so much
27:36to try and make that woman happy
27:38and it doesn't work
27:40I don't know what to do
27:43I can't believe she's calling me a sociopath
27:49what hit hardest for me
27:51was just the fact that
27:55when I cheated
27:56she knows how I felt
27:57and
27:59I don't really see that in her
28:01I feel like
28:01she just took everything we've ever done together for granted
28:04and doesn't care
28:05go back to the create
28:06I just want to go home
28:24every bonfire so far
28:25I feel like has been the exact same
28:27I have gotten no clarity and no answer
28:29so I just still really feel like I'm in the dark
28:32what I've wanted from this is the accountability
28:36but so far I haven't seen anything along those lines
28:39so it's really hard
28:41the night will have its way
28:45it's crazy how like your perspective changes as
28:48that's what scares me
28:50yeah
28:50at least I'm not going into this one blindsided
28:52yeah
28:53at least I'm not going into it like
28:56he's gonna cheat
28:58I know he's gonna cheat
29:00like I know what I'm gonna see
29:01yeah
29:01I'm going into this bonfire prepared
29:03I know Jack was the one who set those red lights off
29:06I can't tell y'all what this man's capable of
29:08he's capable of it all
29:21obviously there's a fear that I'm gonna see
29:24something from Summit that I don't want to see
29:26I think I've been just like
29:28working on myself
29:29to improve our relationship
29:31and if I'm not seeing that from him
29:34I'm gonna be really frustrated
29:41honestly I feel like after the first bonfire
29:43you know I stated that I was done with Mikey
29:45and I was
29:46I said that because I wanted to be able to stand on that
29:49but it's always hard going back to these bonfires
29:51you know hearing him talk
29:53hearing him laugh
29:54seeing him smile like
29:56all those things that would usually bring me joy
29:59don't anymore
30:09good to see you all
30:10good to see you
30:12good to see you too
30:12welcome back to the bonfire
30:15you guys have done some amazing work
30:17in the bonfires we've had coming up to today
30:21tonight's gonna be a little different
30:25here's how it's gonna work
30:25you're gonna see a clip
30:26just like we've done before
30:29and we'll talk about it just like we've done before
30:31and then after that
30:33you're gonna have an option
30:35you can choose to see more
30:40a second clip
30:45got it?
30:46got it
30:48we'll start with Kaylee
30:53it feels like I'm sacrificing a lot
30:56yeah
30:56to like be in the relationship with Kaylee
30:59like I just don't really know
31:01what I can do differently
31:02to be like
31:03yeah
31:05appreciated
31:06it's like go out there
31:07and find this like perfect boyfriend
31:09that you keep talking about
31:11yeah
31:11clearly it's not me
31:12right
31:13instead of putting me through this
31:14and trying to change me
31:15and morph me into that
31:15like why are you dating me
31:16if I'm such a shitty boyfriend?
31:17yeah
31:18it's exhausting
31:24okay
31:25okay
31:26he's said that to me many times
31:29it shows me that he is
31:32still in denial of where the relationship is lacking
31:36and he's not learning anything
31:38what have you defined you want
31:40your relationship to be
31:43are you ready for that next level of forever?
31:45is that what you're
31:47that's what you want?
31:48yes
31:48of course
31:50I want someone that wants to be with me
31:52and wants to put in the effort
31:54to make that work
31:55not someone that just
31:56takes the back seat
31:58and wants it to be easy
31:59it looks like he doesn't want to put in that hard work
32:02to make it work
32:04and it makes me wonder like
32:06do you love me enough?
32:08if that's so hard for you
32:10to do the bare minimum
32:14it's not a lot to ask
32:15no
32:17okay
32:19have you seen enough?
32:25I'll see another one
32:28okay
32:29let's watch the next clip
32:57she's good
32:58she's good
32:59oh my god
33:04disrespectful
33:06that is not showing me him making any effort at all
33:10towards the relationship
33:12and that makes you feel how?
33:15makes me feel worthless
33:17hmm
33:18you're not worthless
33:20you're not worthless
33:23you're not worthless
33:25you are a prize
33:27you are somebody's forever
33:30and
33:31you've started the process of
33:33defining it
33:34recognizing it
33:35making space for it
33:37and demanding it
33:37yes
33:38I will demand that
33:42I'm
33:42I'm gonna have a lot of questions for that boy
33:44when I see him
33:45and I did call him a boy for a reason
33:52okay
33:53Cheyenne
33:56you ready?
33:57I'm ready
33:58let's take a look
34:00yeah
34:03would you go in there with me?
34:06oh my god
34:08is anyone gonna see us?
34:11that's so messy
34:12let's go
34:14let's hurry up
34:19oh my god
34:23this is so bad Jack
34:26you're crazy
34:27no
34:28are you trying to be?
34:34I'm a bra
34:35Jack
34:36you're crazy
34:47that's Jack
34:48I mean he showed me that since
34:50the first bonfire
34:51so
34:52I'm not surprised that I'm
34:54continuing
34:54to get the same shit from him
34:56this is what I get with him
34:58and
34:58I'm glad that he's showing
34:59the whole world who he is
35:01because
35:01this is Jack
35:03so who's Cheyenne?
35:07I don't know
35:08well what have you learned
35:09so far about you?
35:12um
35:12I've learned
35:16you're the coolest person
35:17I've ever seen
35:18this is a fucking mess
35:19like what?
35:20well the girls make me feel like
35:22I'm like the best person ever
35:23because you are
35:24they made it
35:25yeah
35:25I don't know
35:26I'm realizing that
35:28I am fun
35:29and I can have fun
35:30without Jack
35:32and there's way more out there
35:34besides these three women
35:36supporting you
35:37anybody else in the house
35:38helping you through this?
35:41oh Mark
35:45um
35:46yeah
35:46so I have a
35:47BFF of the house
35:48his name's Preston
35:49and yeah
35:50he's been helping me
35:51get through it
35:51I'm maybe 20 feet from you
35:53but I can feel you
35:54blushing from here
35:55I'm not
35:58okay
35:58I'm not
35:59no yeah
35:59he's just a great guy
36:00he's your BFF
36:01he's my BFF
36:03so I know
36:04you've thought about
36:06not
36:06I think I'm falling in love
36:08with Preston
36:08I want to be with him
36:09I think you've thought about
36:10what would it be like
36:11with a guy like that
36:12so what do you want
36:13in a partner
36:15what have you discovered
36:16that you want
36:17that you're not getting
36:19I want respect
36:20I want my partner
36:21to respect me
36:23and love me
36:24and provide for me
36:26and just make me feel
36:27like I'm the most beautiful
36:28person in the world
36:29I want him to scream
36:30my name from the mountaintops
36:31and make me feel
36:32like I'm worth
36:35more than what Jack does
36:37and I think I'm already
36:40starting to know
36:41that there's other people
36:41out there
36:42that are better than him
36:44so are you done
36:45or you want to see more
36:52I'm good
36:52I've seen everything
36:53that I need to see
36:54Jack has hurt me enough
36:55these clips stick with me
36:57for like the next days after
37:00and I don't want to see anymore
37:01I don't want to see him
37:02period
37:03like I don't
37:05ever
37:05I don't want to see him
37:06ever again
37:07I've seen enough
37:09your decision
37:10I honor your decision
37:12that's my decision
37:14Sydney
37:15you ready
37:16I'm ready
37:17let's take a look
37:31bad news
37:32bad news
37:33you gotta resist temptation
37:35and you gotta
37:37see the temptation
37:38in order
37:38you have to
37:39you have to see
37:40the temptation
37:40in order to resist it
37:41that's real
37:42that's true
37:42that's real
37:43and I feel like
37:44I saw the temptation
37:45and I resisted it
37:48that's good
37:49I'm glad that
37:50he has
37:51you know
37:51respect
37:52in what
37:53our boundaries were
37:54in terms of not touching
37:55but
37:56at the end of the day
37:57it doesn't change anything
37:59could it be
38:00that subconsciously
38:02you were looking
38:02for a reason
38:03to say
38:04I'm done
38:07honestly Mark
38:08not at all
38:08because
38:10he's not being
38:11who I need him to be
38:12the first thing
38:13he said
38:14in the first two days
38:15was
38:15I'm
38:16my biggest fear
38:17is falling for one of you
38:18I'm gonna shoot my shot
38:19with India
38:19and I'm like
38:20whoa
38:21that's not what we came here for
38:22and that's not what you told me
38:23how much of your ability
38:24to say that
38:25has to do with
38:26what you found
38:30so much
38:30let's just start there
38:32the night after
38:34I believe it was
38:34the first bonfire
38:35the guys made us some cards
38:38and
38:38my card
38:39from Xavier
38:40like
38:40you could tell
38:41he had took his time
38:42designing it and everything
38:43and it was a little prize
38:45and I had told him
38:46like I always
38:47I want to be the prize
38:48and it was like
38:49peel here
38:49I peeled it back
38:50and it said
38:51you're the prize
38:52Sidney
38:53oh
38:55so like
38:55seeing that
38:56it's like
38:56thank you
38:58for seeing me
38:58like
38:59Jesus
39:00it's amazing
39:00so now
39:02no pressure on you
39:04but
39:06could this be a real thing
39:09yeah
39:09it definitely could be
39:11a real thing
39:12it could
39:13I would love that
39:13he's a great guy
39:15just exploring our connection
39:17I feel more comfortable
39:19and
39:19it definitely could turn
39:21into something real
39:21alright
39:22let's see where that goes
39:23want to see more
39:32I've seen what I needed to see
39:34what I came to the island to see
39:35and
39:37I'm good where I'm at
39:39promise
39:39I'm good where I'm at
39:41alright
39:41that leaves Scarlett
39:44let's see where Cole's at
39:48I feel like she just hasn't got me
39:50you know
39:51and she always prides herself
39:52on my team
39:53I need men like
39:53getting each other's backs
39:55and I'm just like
39:55I don't feel like she has my back right now
39:57I have hers
39:58yeah
40:01it hurts bro
40:02yeah
40:03I just feel like she doesn't care
40:04it just fucking rubs me
40:06the wrong way man
40:10I'm solid with that chick
40:12I have so much to give
40:13so much to offer
40:16my girlfriend's like
40:17I don't just know
40:17if they fucking even see that
40:18yeah
40:20I'm sick of just every night
40:22going to bed
40:22just staring at the fucking
40:23ceiling
40:23can't fall asleep
40:24for like hours
40:25and then
40:26waking up in the morning
40:27food doesn't even look good
40:28like anything
40:29I'm just like
40:29yeah what are we doing
40:30so I can just
40:30take my
40:31hopefully take my mind off it
40:32and I just hope the sun goes down
40:33and I can fall asleep
40:34and wake up next day
40:35just keep ticking off days now
40:46I mean
40:47kind of what I've been saying all along
40:50since being here
40:51like one of the things that has become so clear
40:53when I talk about the missing piece
40:55like that's it
40:56like I just want to see if he can go deeper
40:58and like express to him
41:00that like I have pinpointed
41:01I think this is the root of everything
41:05and like can you meet me there
41:07and then you know
41:08if he can't
41:09then that's the answer
41:09I don't think we'll ever align on it
41:11where does that leave you
41:13I'm confused
41:15because he has so many amazing qualities
41:17that I do love
41:18what do you do
41:20do you give up
41:21lack of depth
41:23for someone that truly just
41:25loves you
41:27with their entire being
41:28or do you have someone that
41:30half ass loves you
41:32but goes deeper
41:33are those our only choices
41:35no
41:36so what you're saying is
41:37there's no one else
41:38who's going to love you
41:39as deeply as that
41:40I mean there probably is
41:42but
41:44I don't want to go looking
41:47then one might argue
41:49that you're playing it
41:50as surface as he appears to be
41:55I think it's just scary
41:57so before I go any further
41:58do you want to see more
42:07okay
42:08I have some thoughts
42:10the thing I get most worried about
42:12in any relationship
42:13is acquiescence
42:15he's
42:16pretty great
42:17yeah
42:18he leaves me feeling
42:21worried every time
42:21he leaves the house
42:22and I can't have a deep
42:23conversation with him
42:24and I'm never sure
42:25if I can trust him
42:26but he's pretty great
42:28and he really
42:29really loves me
42:31yeah
42:32not what I want
42:34so what do you want
42:36I want my soul
42:37to be set on fire
42:40okay
42:42I'm down for that
42:44is cold
42:45the guy
42:45who can set
42:46your soul
42:46on fire
42:51it says a lot
42:52that you don't have
42:52an answer
42:53for that yet
42:54I don't have
42:55the answer
42:57well you've got
42:58some choices
42:58to make
43:02okay you guys
43:02we made it through
43:03another one together
43:03good for you
43:05when you return
43:06to the villa tonight
43:07there's going to be
43:07a little change
43:07okay
43:11the temptation
43:12haven
43:13will be gone
43:14thank the lord
43:16for some of you
43:17it served its purpose
43:19and for others of you
43:20it hasn't served at all
43:21but nonetheless
43:22it's done
43:24so what's next
43:27it's time to decide
43:28if there's something
43:29on your heart
43:32something you want
43:33to share with your
43:34boyfriend
43:35because tomorrow
43:36you'll have the chance
43:38to record a 30 second
43:39video message
43:40for your boyfriend
43:42now you can choose
43:43to do it
43:45or you can choose
43:46not to do it
43:46that decision
43:48is entirely yours
43:50and just so you know
43:51I'll be giving the same
43:52choice to the men
43:54so you may receive
43:55a video clip
43:56or you may not
43:58that decision
43:58will be theirs
44:00I appreciate all
44:01four of you
44:02that's it
44:03thank you
44:04thank you
44:04thank you
44:05good night you guys
44:06good night
44:13I'm just like
44:14really struggling
44:14with the thought
44:15right now
44:16that Cole and I
44:16might not be meant
44:17for one another
44:18I feel like
44:19Bradley and I
44:20communicate without
44:21even speaking
44:22and Cole and I
44:25I mean
44:25we can't even
44:26communicate with words
44:28I know Cole
44:30means well
44:32but some things
44:34you can
44:34you just can't force
44:35and that is
44:38a soulful
44:40connection
44:47like it's just like
44:48you're sitting there
44:49enjoying yourself
44:49like running around
44:51naked having so much
44:52fun
44:53like
44:55I'm just glad
44:56you feel like I
44:57didn't exist
44:59whenever I ask for
45:01an ounce of more
45:02effort
45:03that's what I met
45:04with
45:04is go find someone
45:06else that can give
45:07you that
45:07and to hear him
45:09still saying that
45:10it's just like
45:11a slap in the face
45:12it's like
45:12when are you
45:13gonna step up
45:17you can keep
45:18your excuses
45:21Mikey's a good person
45:23you know what I'm saying
45:24yeah
45:24in the sense of like
45:25him like
45:26resisting that
45:27but it's like
45:28choose me every
45:28fucking time
45:29yeah
45:29seeing the clips
45:30is like
45:32showing me that
45:33I'm moving on
45:33and that
45:34I don't feel
45:35the same way
45:36I accepted the
45:37bare minimum
45:38for a very long
45:38time
45:40from Mikey
45:40and I want
45:42more for myself
45:44wait do you guys
45:45think he's gonna
45:46send me a video
45:47oh yeah
45:48I think he will
45:50I am realizing
45:52with this experience
45:52that Jack was never
45:53worth my time
45:55I've been looking
45:56for someone
45:57in Jack
45:58that he just
45:59he can't get
46:18I really hope
46:20that I can see
46:20like
46:21some sort of
46:23proof that he
46:24has been
46:25putting in the work
46:26and
46:26digging a little
46:28deeper
46:28I'm tired of feeling
46:30like I'm fighting
46:31for this relationship
46:32so much more
46:32than he is
46:34I still
46:35am holding on
46:36to so much hope
46:36and I still think
46:38that there is
46:40a chance
46:41for this to work
46:43I'm just at
46:44my point
46:44of like
46:45knowing what
46:45my line is
46:46for when
46:46I'm not gonna
46:47go forward
46:49but
46:49that doesn't
46:50stop me
46:51from still
46:51loving him
46:53and
46:54hoping for
46:55the best
46:56okay
47:07baby girl
47:08I love and
47:09miss you
47:10beyond words
47:12not a moment
47:12passes by
47:13where I don't
47:14think of your
47:14big beautiful
47:15blue eyes
47:15and your little
47:16head nestled
47:16up on my chest
47:18this experience
47:19is more emotional
47:20than I ever
47:20could have imagined
47:22the clips I've seen
47:23during the bonfire
47:24make it nearly
47:24unbearable
47:26I'm proud
47:27that I've never
47:27put you down
47:28that's why
47:29it makes it
47:29all the much
47:30harder
47:30to see the way
47:31you speak
47:32of me so poorly
47:34I'm worried
47:34that you're not
47:35proud of the
47:36man I am
47:37I don't care
47:38about our past
47:39I just care
47:39about us
47:40and our future
47:41I just want
47:42us to be happy
47:59I love
48:00Summit so much
48:01but if he's
48:03saying the past
48:03is the past
48:04then I don't
48:05know if he
48:05has fully
48:07you know
48:09realized
48:09like the things
48:11that you have
48:12said and done
48:12to me
48:13will leave
48:14a scar
48:15on me
48:15for the rest
48:16of my life
48:16I want him
48:17to just admit
48:18like
48:21what I did
48:21was in the past
48:24was not right
48:25and I'm gonna
48:25be a better
48:26man now
48:29that's all
48:29I want
48:31like tell me
48:32you're just gonna
48:34be better
48:35things might
48:36not work out
48:37the way
48:37that I had hoped
48:48the weight
48:49of this video
48:50message today
48:50it could make
48:51or break
48:52our relationship
48:53I just want
48:54to be enough
48:54for somebody
48:55but from what
48:56I've been seeing
48:57from the bonfires
48:58I don't love
48:59the things
48:59she's saying
49:00about me
49:00I just don't
49:01get how
49:02it's constructive
49:03I don't get
49:04what we're
49:05working on here
49:06sometimes it feels
49:07like as hard
49:08as it is
49:09the only way
49:10out is out
49:18hi Summit
49:21I have been
49:23seriously taking
49:24this opportunity
49:25to reflect
49:26on myself
49:27and learn
49:27so much
49:28and I have
49:29such a new
49:30outlook on life
49:31and I'm so excited
49:33for you to see
49:33that side of me
49:34but I also
49:36want you to
49:37remember
49:37what we came
49:38here for
49:39this isn't
49:40just about
49:41resisting
49:41temptation
49:43we came here
49:44together
49:44to dig a little
49:46deeper
49:46and realize
49:47why things
49:48aren't working
49:49and figure out
49:50how to make
49:51them work
49:52and so far
49:53I just feel
49:54like I haven't
49:55seen that
49:55from you
49:56I'm so tired
49:58of feeling
49:58like I am
49:59fighting
49:59so much harder
50:01than you are
50:02for this
50:02relationship
50:03to work
50:04and I'm
50:05tired of feeling
50:06like I have
50:06to prove
50:07myself
50:07over and
50:08over again
50:11I need
50:12to see
50:12more from
50:13you
50:14I want
50:15us to come
50:16out of this
50:16as the
50:18amazing
50:18Kalian Summit
50:19that I know
50:20we can be
50:22and that's
50:23not going to
50:23happen if we
50:24don't start
50:24to make
50:25some changes
50:25and I do
50:26not want
50:28this to all
50:28be for nothing
50:48this is just
50:50kind of
50:51you know
50:51some of the
50:52best I felt
50:54I have gotten
50:55clarity
50:55on what I need
50:57to do
50:58the rest
50:58of this
50:58process
50:59I need
51:00to better
51:01myself
51:01for her
51:02and for me
51:03and if at
51:04the end
51:05we like
51:06the people
51:06we've become
51:09then we're
51:10going to be
51:10perfect and
51:11happy and live
51:11together forever
51:12and get a
51:13wiener dog
51:13and move in
51:13together
51:14if we don't
51:16like how
51:17we've changed
51:17and who we've
51:18become
51:20we cut ties
51:21right there
51:21and then we
51:22move on
51:29I mean I'm
51:30pretty anxious
51:31obviously there's
51:31a lot on the
51:31line like I
51:32love this girl
51:33and so I
51:33hope in the
51:34video it's
51:35nothing like
51:35wishy-washy
51:36it's like
51:36definitely get
51:37some insight
51:37into where
51:38her head's at
51:38I mean I've
51:39never felt
51:40this far from
51:40her you know
51:42ever I think
51:43if she really
51:43loves me and
51:44she wants to
51:44be with me
51:46yeah this video
51:47message from her
51:48needs to really
51:49portray that
51:58Cole I want
52:00to start this
52:01by saying
52:02everything I
52:02say I say
52:04with love
52:05I truly wish
52:07coming into
52:08this that we
52:09had not set
52:09such strict
52:11boundaries
52:11I feel that
52:14you've been so
52:15hyper fixated
52:16on the no
52:17cheating
52:18that you're
52:19actually missing
52:20the big picture
52:21this is a huge
52:22opportunity for
52:23growth
52:23you know I
52:25have been
52:26expressing for
52:26months that I
52:27feel that we
52:28are lacking in
52:29trust and
52:30transparency and
52:31communication and
52:32in depth I just
52:34feel let down to
52:36see that there has
52:37been no inner work
52:38there's been no
52:39accountability
52:40there's been no
52:42depth in your
52:43journey here I am
52:47getting to know
52:47people and through
52:48getting to know
52:49these people I'm
52:50getting to know
52:51myself we can't
52:52leave here as a
52:54couple if we leave
52:55the same way that we
52:56arrived so please put
52:58in the effort know I'm
53:00doing the same and I
53:02love you
53:06I don't want to look back
53:08and wonder why and it
53:12hurts like hell to know
53:14how hard we try I was
53:16hoping her message would
53:17be a little more
53:17heartfelt more like I
53:19miss you at the end of
53:21the day it's like I'm a
53:21good guy I treat you
53:22well I love you like what
53:24else am I supposed to do
53:25you know like I bring a
53:27lot to the table
53:27let's not stay let's
53:31just stay here and make
53:34believe that we're okay
53:38here
53:41Cole and I both deserve
53:43to feel fully fulfilled
53:46the last few days I have
53:48had a lot more clarity I
53:51would love if we came
53:54back together and like
53:55there was all of this
53:57depth and growth but I
53:59just don't know how
54:02much could have
54:02actually changed
54:13hi mom was precious
54:14angel this process has
54:16been one of the hardest
54:17things I've ever gone
54:18through emotionally and
54:19I just want you to know
54:20there's been so much
54:21depth and growth in this
54:22experience and I can't
54:22wait to show you I miss
54:24you so much I want you
54:26to know that my loyalty
54:27lies with you and your
54:29most precious heart has
54:29always been top of mind
54:30and all the decisions
54:31that I've made I've seen
54:34some things in the
54:34bonfire that have
54:35definitely caused some
54:36pain and suffering and
54:37confusion to me but just
54:39know how much I love you
54:40and how much I want us I'm
54:42just miss your scent I
54:43miss your smell I miss your
54:45touch I just see us in our
54:47kitchen right now listening
54:47to our favorite Schneider
54:48Twain song dancing around
54:50home for a walk snuggling in
54:52bed with our little ankle
54:53wrap I love you so much I
54:55can't wait to see you soon
54:56always Cole
54:57I'm losing control you played
55:01your role didn't take it you
55:04stole this part of me we never
55:08fit the mold this love won't
55:10grow old cause we laid it to
55:13rest where hearts don't be
55:15seeing Cole and just hearing his
55:19voice it actually broke my heart
55:24he obviously still really wants
55:27this meanwhile like I've realized
55:30what is truly missing oh god
55:35are you okay oh my god I don't
55:39know I think like the reality of
55:42everything is setting in and like I
55:46truly don't know I don't know
55:48what's next and I think that that
55:49just like hurts my heart I'm scared
55:53I'm not getting things right of who I
55:58really am on the inside what if hell
56:04I feel sick denying myself if you
56:10looked sad just makes me feel like
56:19this back and forth there's too many
56:23doors has anyone found what they're
56:27looking for
56:28and I I want to feel free
56:37but the more that I try a part of me
56:42does cause being alive always feels
56:46like it's killing me
56:53cause being alive always feels like
56:57it's killing me
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