I Am Patrick Swayze 2019

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00:00:01This seems like there's something else I want to say about insecurity. What is it?

00:00:08You know, I think the biggest thing for me about insecurity is I've always been very insecure

00:00:14and had these problems go on in my insides and this tension and this not liking myself stuff.

00:00:21Yet, I've still gone ahead and taken a chance on making a mistake.

00:00:26Most times people stop themselves from going for something in their life because they'll be in the limelight.

00:00:32And what if they blow it? Everybody's going to laugh or ridicule them or whatever.

00:00:39Who cares? I mean, you're only on this planet for so long, you could be dead tomorrow, go for it

00:00:44now, you know?

00:00:53There are certain people that fill up a television screen. Patrick filled up a movie screen.

00:01:00I mean, there's never been anybody quite like Buddy. By the way, I was never able to call him that.

00:01:06He was always Patrick to me. I may be the only person in the world. He'd call me Buddy and

00:01:11I just couldn't, I just couldn't do it.

00:01:14He was passionate and intense about everything. Everything.

00:01:18He was this macho guy, but he truly had the soul of a poet.

00:01:25I think he had a beautiful balance between strength and softness.

00:01:33His vulnerability and then his kind of pure strength.

00:01:38He wasn't a tough guy, even though he was a very tough guy.

00:01:42You know, he's just an open book. And that's again, the best actors are like, here's my heart. You want

00:01:49some?

00:01:50Patrick was super hungry for connection. His heart and my heart got along really well.

00:01:57He spoke to people. He was that kind of guy. He spoke to people. He resonated with an audience.

00:02:03He was a movie star. He had the qualities. Had them all.

00:02:08My mother didn't believe you could truly call yourself an artist unless you were well-rounded in every level of

00:02:12the arts.

00:02:12And my father wanted me to be a cowboy and an athlete. So I decided to be all of them.

00:02:16He was the type of guy that, you know, wanted to make a dance movie, made the best dance movie.

00:02:23You know, wanted to write his own song. The song goes number one.

00:02:26He would tell you almost immediately all of the things that he's done.

00:02:30You were a gymnast and a world-class cowboy roping guy and a ballet dancer. And he was.

00:02:41He had a level of expertise in a lot of different areas.

00:02:46I think always, no matter how much fame you get as an actor, you still wonder if you're good, if

00:02:53you're good enough.

00:02:55Acting is the first thing I've ever found that where you can never be the best, you can never, you

00:02:58know, never reach the end of that challenge.

00:03:00I think that's real important.

00:03:12Where we lived in North Houston when I was growing up was the city limits.

00:03:17Within a few hundred yards behind our house, we were deep into the woods.

00:03:19Even though there were six years between us, I was still like just the kid brother. We were Wally and

00:03:24Beaver.

00:03:26Sounds corny, but I swear to you, I grew up with a superhero in my family.

00:03:32I mean, he was a star and he knew it. You couldn't deny him his natural charisma that he had.

00:03:39We had always had dance in our lives, just kind of something you take for granted.

00:03:43I mean, our mother was quite the diva and quite a well-respected teacher in Houston, founder of the Houston

00:03:49Jazz Ballet Company.

00:03:50Everywhere we went, there was, oh, you're Swayze, like the dancer Swayze.

00:03:55Ballet boy in Texas? Are you kidding me? If you stand out, that's like a really bad thing.

00:04:00Although, I have to say, I think Patrick figured out pretty early in life that, you know what, if I

00:04:06fit in, I'm not going to stand out.

00:04:08Started on a whole process of learning what walking around with a chip on your shoulder means.

00:04:14I'm a ballet dancer, what of it?

00:04:16My brother had his violin in one hand and he had his books in another and these boys confronted him.

00:04:22And I guess he finally got fed up with it.

00:04:24And apparently he took these kids out and never sat down his violin or his books.

00:04:28He did a little sweep with his legs and took both of them out.

00:04:33Now, thank God, by the time I got to school, he kind of laid the groundwork.

00:04:37I had people, mom once said, no, I wouldn't mess with them.

00:04:40The Swayze will kick your ass.

00:04:41And I'm like, oh.

00:04:42You know, even though he came from an arts-driven family, really his mom, they were tough people.

00:04:48His dad told him, he says, if you ever start a fight, I'll kick your ass.

00:04:52And if you never finish one, I'll kick your ass.

00:04:55My dad, Jesse Wayne Swayze, Big Buddy.

00:04:58There was Big Buddy and Little Buddy.

00:05:00My brother was called Little Buddy.

00:05:02Big Buddy and Little Buddy.

00:05:03It was Jesse, but his name was Buddy.

00:05:06And it was kind of a Texas thing.

00:05:08He was a sort of a easy-going cowboy.

00:05:10Very funny.

00:05:11Very sweet.

00:05:12He had that cowboy thing where you walk quiet and carry a big stick.

00:05:17He didn't have to try hard.

00:05:19He just had this easy sensuality about him.

00:05:22This easy masculinity that, actually, Patrick had also.

00:05:28Patrick loved his mother.

00:05:30She drove him a little crazy, but she was the taskmaster that gave him his drive, that gave him his

00:05:36work ethic.

00:05:38Patsy was a force to be reckoned with.

00:05:41She was a force of nature.

00:05:42I took dance lessons when I was little, and I would have been really afraid of her.

00:05:46I think, as a kid, I always felt that you were harder on me than everybody else.

00:05:49I think you always do, you know.

00:05:52And I always did feel like I was competing for your love with your students.

00:05:55I know.

00:05:57But the thing is that I think your own, when you're a teacher, your own children always think, you know,

00:06:03they hear you yelling at other students and they don't think anything about that.

00:06:06They think, well, that kid deserves that.

00:06:07But when you're yelling at you, it's like, that's my mother.

00:06:10She's not supposed to make me behave.

00:06:12Somebody should have made a reality show about her.

00:06:15If she'd have lived a little bit longer into this era, there would have been an 11-season arc of

00:06:21her life.

00:06:23She was a character and just a life force.

00:06:26I mean, clearly, that's where the life force came from.

00:06:29Step, touch, rock, step, heels, heels, heels, heels, heels, heels.

00:06:34You could also just sort of sense that she had all her energy fixated on him, for better or for

00:06:42worse.

00:06:43She actually told me at one point that the reason why she picked the name Patrick Swayze was because she

00:06:50thought it would look good on a marquee.

00:06:52He said his mom always had him in pre-God school.

00:06:57She trained him to be a god, not just excellent.

00:07:09Mom would introduce us.

00:07:11Honey, come meet this new girl.

00:07:13She's starting class today.

00:07:14And this is my son.

00:07:15This is Patrick.

00:07:16He's this, that.

00:07:17And he's a wonderful athlete.

00:07:19And he's gorgeous with the, you know.

00:07:20So yeah, he was doing really well with the women.

00:07:23And knew it.

00:07:23He could walk into a, into a room and all the girls flirting.

00:07:26But then here comes this little quiet blonde.

00:07:29The first time I met Patrick, I was involved with a children's theater group in Houston, Texas.

00:07:34And they had joined forces with his mom's dance school and company.

00:07:40I walked by the doorway.

00:07:41I kind of looked in at the dance class.

00:07:43And she said, come on in.

00:07:44I said, well, you know, I don't really have the money to pay.

00:07:47She goes, that doesn't matter.

00:07:50And actually for like a full year, she taught me free of charge.

00:07:54Here comes Lisa, sort of shy and wouldn't fawn all over him like the other girls.

00:07:58And I think the challenge is what just drove him nuts.

00:08:01He had this kind of reputation of, of this, being this Casanova and this egotistical guy.

00:08:07And, and I was like so quiet, you could almost make up anything about me.

00:08:11You know, there was definitely a spark and something was happening.

00:08:15And first time, uh, Buddy and I danced together was at a school exhibition.

00:08:20We walked out on stage.

00:08:21You'd kind of do your classic intro where you kind of gesture to each other.

00:08:27And it was almost like the whole stage filled with light.

00:08:31Even though it's just like school auditorium lights.

00:08:33But it was like, almost like we were lit.

00:08:36And the moment, uh, I looked in his eyes, it was like, it's, it's everything came alive.

00:08:53And, uh, so, and it was, uh, just kind of, a kind of magic that happened.

00:08:59So part of it was the act of performing.

00:09:02And when, you know, people who are performers know that wonderful magic that happens when you,

00:09:09when the lights come up on you on stage.

00:09:11But so much of it was what we saw in each other.

00:09:15There was something about him when I looked at him, what I saw was pure gold.

00:09:20And, uh, I, I think probably he looked at me and he saw something else than what other people were

00:09:27seeing also.

00:09:32When my brother was in 12th grade, he had a horrific accident in football.

00:09:38His leg broke inward. He completely broke his knee.

00:09:41The doctor had him on the table and his leg would just go from the knee down.

00:09:45He heard his mother crying in the other room.

00:09:48You know, he was lying there in pain and she was sobbing in the other room.

00:09:52He thought he heard her say his life is over.

00:09:55And, uh, he's 18, right?

00:09:57They put him in a full length cast from his hip to his toes for six months.

00:10:02And then when he got the cast off, that leg had atrophied.

00:10:06And, of course, with every pore of his fiber in his being, he was going to overcome that.

00:10:12You could see something just switch, you know, that's became what drove him.

00:10:17Like he was going to show them that they were wrong about him.

00:10:21What had been something we might have taken for granted our whole life became his everything.

00:10:25He came to class every day. Mom didn't have to trick him to come to class.

00:10:28And in like two years, 18 to 20, he became a world-class dancer.

00:10:36Dancing still holds a very close place in my heart.

00:10:40But I ultimately had to quit because I had four complete knee reconstructions, which doesn't work too well as a

00:10:44dancer.

00:10:44You were clumsy or landed on your knees on some of those sort of leaps?

00:10:52First one was football.

00:10:53And then because I couldn't accept the limitation and went ahead and went to New York and danced with ballet

00:10:57companies, I caused four more operations.

00:11:00If you know anything about dancers, it's the hardest thing anyone could ever put their bodies through.

00:11:04And to do it with a crippled knee was just, you know, extraordinary.

00:11:08When he went off to New York, I remember seeing him on stage in Elliott Feld ballet.

00:11:15He was probably at his best at that point with his ballet technique and his lines and his feet were

00:11:23looking good.

00:11:25I thought to myself, there's nothing more beautiful than seeing a masculine man move with such a grace.

00:11:33Buddy had that and, like, almost nobody else did.

00:11:37You know?

00:11:38Not like that.

00:11:43He had star quality and it was like, it's awesome.

00:11:54When I went to New York to dance, I went on scholarship and I was absolutely thrilled because I'm living

00:12:00the dream.

00:12:01Buddy had been in New York for a couple of years.

00:12:04So, uh, he goes, move in with me.

00:12:07We're all going to be bunking in this one bedroom apartment.

00:12:10They were all dancers.

00:12:12The moment I moved in, two people left, like, two days later.

00:12:17I wasn't up here with Buddy alone.

00:12:20You know, I knew there was this thing happening between us, but I was there to dance.

00:12:27I wasn't there to have a romantic relationship.

00:12:32I guess we'd been living together for about a year and, uh, we were in a tickling fight on our

00:12:37loofah couch.

00:12:39And when he stopped and he says, let's do it.

00:12:42Do what?

00:12:44He says, let's get married.

00:12:45I was just, like, absolutely in terror.

00:12:49But Patrick was pretty good at getting his way about things.

00:12:52He could charm a bird out of a tree.

00:12:54He certainly never gives up.

00:12:57And, uh, we ended up getting married a month later.

00:13:01It was a big risk because we were both so young.

00:13:04You know, we had some bumps along the way in the beginning, but we were definitely stronger together.

00:13:09That became clear very, very quickly.

00:13:14There's a lot of pride in being a dancer because there's so much that's mind over matter.

00:13:20He had to overcome so much pain all the time, and they did it by mental discipline.

00:13:25And Patrick was a master of that.

00:13:28His years in New York as a dancer were spent on a crippled knee.

00:13:32And then when he starred as Danny Zuko in Grease on Broadway, it was his first professional acting role.

00:13:39And all the 50's stuff, the knee slides across the floor on this badly damaged knee.

00:13:42He was probably smart enough to realize that this was doing some real damage.

00:13:45He did a couple of commercials in New York City.

00:13:48Na-na-na-na-na-na.

00:13:50Na-na-na-na-na-na-na.

00:13:52Na-na-na-na-na-na-na.

00:13:54When the sun goes down And the heat rolls around

00:13:58That's the time I find Got the ribbon on my mind

00:14:02Bob O'Mon, he was a very powerful manager at that time, and he said,

00:14:07Listen, you know, you could stay in New York, but if you really want to get work,

00:14:13Los Angeles is where you need to be.

00:14:16Fast. A lot to look forward to.

00:14:19We kind of thought about it, and we said, Let's take that leap,

00:14:21We packed up our two cats and took a flight to L.A.

00:14:37I remember in the early days when he came out here,

00:14:40he used to drive up to Mulholland

00:14:43and he used to look out over Hollywood

00:14:46and sort of say to himself,

00:14:48I'm going to conquer you.

00:14:50I'm going to conquer you.

00:14:52I think that's something that probably drove him

00:14:54in many areas of his life.

00:14:56And yet there was an insecurity there too.

00:14:58And maybe that's why he had to keep telling himself that.

00:15:01When he moved to California,

00:15:04now he didn't have the dance.

00:15:05He was basically starting out auditioning like everyone else.

00:15:10At that time, you know, I needed a job bad.

00:15:13And I was just looking for any way to make a mark,

00:15:17you know, to get some attention.

00:15:29Such an amazing dancer that carried over into roller skating.

00:15:33I think Skate Town USA was probably not the greatest movie,

00:15:37but his skating is phenomenal.

00:15:40Anybody that could be sexy in roller skates

00:15:43had something because those are big clunkers on your feet.

00:15:46And it's hard to be graceful, and he was.

00:15:49When Patrick comes on to do the solo,

00:15:51he has gum in his mouth and he takes it and he flicks it.

00:15:56In that moment, anybody could tell,

00:16:00oh my God, this sky is it.

00:16:07You could tell from Skate Town USA

00:16:09that Patrick was a star.

00:16:12I knew I had something special.

00:16:14I didn't know how special, but I knew it was special.

00:16:17There's an energy.

00:16:18There's something that happens.

00:16:20There's a chemistry with the camera.

00:16:21There's just something that happens

00:16:23that you either have or you don't have.

00:16:25And he had it so big.

00:16:28I didn't expect what happened out of Skate Town

00:16:30after I did it.

00:16:31Kevin Thomas, the LA Times.

00:16:32He was saying stuff like,

00:16:34not since John Travolta on Saturday Night Fever.

00:16:36No, not since Valentino and the Four Horsemen of Apocalypse

00:16:39has there been such a display of male sexuality on the screen.

00:16:44You don't picture yourself as a sex symbol or anything.

00:16:47So when I saw this happen, I thought, oh, jeez,

00:16:49I'm going to turn into a teen idol.

00:16:52Patrick was very concerned that he would be pigeonholed

00:16:56and not taken seriously as an actor.

00:16:59And he was offered a multi-picture deal at Columbia,

00:17:03which he turned down,

00:17:06which for a young guy starting out was kind of unheard of.

00:17:09I just knew that something bad would happen

00:17:12or I would turn into a teen idol

00:17:14and be a flash in the pan and be out of here

00:17:15in the next five minutes.

00:17:17So I turned it all down

00:17:20and buried myself back into acting classes.

00:17:22You know, he could do those things

00:17:23and be a flash in the pan.

00:17:25And, you know, he wanted a long career.

00:17:29So he's willing to wait.

00:17:32We were, like, totally broke.

00:17:33We had to go to our families

00:17:35and can somebody loan us some money just to get by?

00:17:38Nobody had extra cash.

00:17:39I'm going, OK, this is what it's like really to be broke.

00:17:43But we got carpentry jobs

00:17:46and then finally we're in the middle of this job

00:17:49where part of it is building a dock house

00:17:52for two German shepherds.

00:17:55I'm called to the phone.

00:17:56It's Buddy.

00:17:57Guess where I am?

00:17:59He goes, I said, I don't know.

00:18:01He says, I'm at the DeLorean dealership.

00:18:04I just bought a DeLorean.

00:18:06Oh, by the way, I got this series.

00:18:14We're like, praise from heaven, you know, that he got that.

00:18:18And so he started this series and I finished the doghouse.

00:18:28He had one of the first DeLoreans ever

00:18:30with the gullwing doors.

00:18:34He loved that car so much.

00:18:36In fact, he was driving on the street.

00:18:37He didn't have a seat belt on.

00:18:39I'm like, Buddy, put your seat belt on.

00:18:41You know, what if somebody pulls out in front of you

00:18:44or something?

00:18:44He goes, if something happens to this car,

00:18:46I don't want to live.

00:18:50He was a way of showing my father

00:18:51that he's off and running.

00:18:53His career is going to take off

00:18:54and to the point where he can buy something frivolous.

00:18:57So that was the DeLorean.

00:18:59His dad was so proud.

00:19:01Buddy was in this TV series.

00:19:03He's a big success now, right?

00:19:05We show up and he goes,

00:19:07what are you doing driving up in the kitchen sink?

00:19:10He called it the kitchen sink because it was stainless steel.

00:19:14So...

00:19:15Live the dream today.

00:19:18Pleasing mom and dad was important to my brother.

00:19:21He had mom with the dance and the theater expectations.

00:19:25But dad, who had always kept us grounded,

00:19:28I think it was important for my big brother

00:19:31to show dad that still grounded dad,

00:19:34still a chip off the old block.

00:19:41And my father died very suddenly.

00:19:47Patrick was real quiet when my father died.

00:19:50So he was, like, stunned.

00:19:53Literally, his legs collapsed from underneath him.

00:19:56And he started weeping.

00:19:59My big brother had always identified himself

00:20:01as little buddy.

00:20:02Big buddy, little buddy.

00:20:05Now that my dad was gone,

00:20:07I don't think he knew what to do with it.

00:20:09My father died of a heart attack and being a smoker.

00:20:13And he was a beer drinker.

00:20:14He wasn't bad.

00:20:14I wouldn't...

00:20:15I don't know what you call bad,

00:20:16but there was no denying that cigarettes

00:20:18and alcohol were the cause.

00:20:20I was a man 57 years old dies of a massive heart attack.

00:20:23So how did we react?

00:20:24You know, my older brother started drinking.

00:20:27Instead of going the other way,

00:20:30he sort of went down the path.

00:20:34My father went down.

00:20:35He would have a few drinks himself.

00:20:39So he'd start tearing ass in his DeLorean

00:20:42on the windy streets of Mulholland.

00:20:45He was in a really bad way,

00:20:47and he was dangerous with him driving.

00:20:50And, you know, and of course,

00:20:51it was very upsetting for me

00:20:54to see him hurting himself this way.

00:20:57Everything that he had wanted to accomplish,

00:20:59he didn't know if he even wanted to do it anymore

00:21:01because everything he was doing was for my father.

00:21:04It was like yanking the rug out from under him.

00:21:08More than anything,

00:21:10he wanted his dad to be proud of him.

00:21:11And that was sort of a driving force

00:21:14for the rest of his whole life.

00:21:16And I think probably he felt the responsibility

00:21:19of tending to his career

00:21:21balanced against the responsibility of this void

00:21:24that had come up in his life

00:21:26that was completely unexpected.

00:21:28And how was he going to do that?

00:21:39When I did The Outsiders,

00:21:40I was all 14,

00:21:41and everybody else was a little bit older.

00:21:43And having that anchor point,

00:21:45that connection with Patrick,

00:21:48provided a little safety net for me at that age.

00:21:50It was natural for him.

00:21:51He was a natural leader.

00:21:53But I was so intense then,

00:21:54I can't believe Tom Cruise and Emilio

00:21:57and everybody don't hate my guts.

00:21:58Probably some of them do.

00:22:00But, um, because, you know,

00:22:01I was always just, like, driven.

00:22:03I was just in...

00:22:06You didn't join in the fun,

00:22:07the camaraderie of the...

00:22:09Well, I joined in the camaraderie,

00:22:10but I had to be boss.

00:22:12He might have been the toughest on himself

00:22:13of anybody.

00:22:15He was unbelievably driven.

00:22:17He just wanted to be the biggest badass on the set.

00:22:20That was his thing.

00:22:21And I admire that, man.

00:22:23I so admire that.

00:22:25Today they call it big energy.

00:22:28Because Patrick was so physical,

00:22:30he's such a physical being,

00:22:31he looks like such a badass in that rumble.

00:22:34And we were, like,

00:22:35having to take screen fighting lessons.

00:22:37And, I mean,

00:22:38I'd never thrown a punch on screen, ever.

00:22:42His work ethic,

00:22:44his need to do well,

00:22:48was unprecedented.

00:22:49And that's saying something,

00:22:50because Tom Cruise was in the movie.

00:22:51If you could harness the two of their intensity,

00:22:55you know,

00:22:55we could get off of fossil fuels.

00:23:00When we made The Outsiders,

00:23:02we knew we were making something special,

00:23:04because it was Francis.

00:23:06I mean,

00:23:06he was the biggest director

00:23:08in the world at the time.

00:23:10His body of work was and remains.

00:23:14Maybe the best ever.

00:23:16And he was at the height of his powers.

00:23:18What we didn't know,

00:23:19I don't think,

00:23:20was how,

00:23:21what it would do for our careers.

00:23:22Honestly,

00:23:23we didn't.

00:23:23I know that sounds insane,

00:23:24but we really didn't.

00:23:26I think we thought the movie,

00:23:29frankly,

00:23:29would be bigger than it was.

00:23:30But instead,

00:23:32we were bigger

00:23:34than we thought it would be.

00:23:37At this point,

00:23:38Buddy had had quite a bit of success.

00:23:41You know,

00:23:42both of us are Texans,

00:23:44so it was always our dream

00:23:46to have a ranch.

00:23:48The moment I started making enough money,

00:23:49I bought a ranch,

00:23:50and I got away from Hollywood.

00:23:52As soon as he could,

00:23:53he and Lisa bought five acres

00:23:55right on the edge of L.A.,

00:23:57where his back fence

00:23:58was butt up against

00:23:59the Angeles National Forest.

00:24:01It was like having

00:24:01a million-acre ranch.

00:24:03It was just a dry piece of dirt,

00:24:05some rusted auto parts,

00:24:07tumbleweeds

00:24:08actually blowing through.

00:24:11As he did movies,

00:24:12we made more money.

00:24:13We turned it

00:24:14into our private little paradise.

00:24:17We were able

00:24:18to have our horses there.

00:24:19We started with corrals,

00:24:21then we built a barn,

00:24:24and it all kind of went from there.

00:24:26In a way,

00:24:27this is sort of like

00:24:28this horse stuff,

00:24:30even though it's for me

00:24:31and Lisa, too,

00:24:32and it's, you know,

00:24:34a bit honoring my father,

00:24:35you know,

00:24:35kind of a memorial to him.

00:24:41I'm an old cattleman

00:24:43on the real ground.

00:24:47He had a quarter horse,

00:24:49Cloud,

00:24:50he'd ridden

00:24:51and cut cattle with.

00:24:52Cloud was going to live out

00:24:53his days at the ranch.

00:24:55He had a horse whisperer

00:24:56quality about him.

00:24:59There were several times

00:25:01when Buddy was really upset,

00:25:03maybe he had

00:25:03some disappointment,

00:25:05and he got on Cloud,

00:25:06he packed a little napsack,

00:25:07got on Cloud,

00:25:08and went back

00:25:08in the mountains,

00:25:09slept overnight.

00:25:10It really helped

00:25:11to kind of bring him

00:25:12back down to earth.

00:25:13Being an actor

00:25:14fed something

00:25:16in his soul.

00:25:17He knew he was good at it,

00:25:20but give him

00:25:21his preferences,

00:25:22he would be at home

00:25:24with the horses,

00:25:25working with a tool belt

00:25:27around his waist,

00:25:28working on the ranch,

00:25:30working on the earth.

00:25:32He rented the bulldozer

00:25:33and the backhoes

00:25:34and figured it out,

00:25:35almost flipped the thing.

00:25:36I mean,

00:25:36he learned the hard way

00:25:37how to move dirt.

00:25:38He just came from this place

00:25:40of this grounded,

00:25:42dirt-moving cowboy place.

00:25:50Hi, this is rock and roll

00:25:52on Rancho Bizarre.

00:25:55Patrick was a real homebody.

00:25:57He liked being home.

00:25:59We had everything

00:26:00we needed right there.

00:26:01We didn't need to go anywhere.

00:26:03Are you a cowgirl?

00:26:04He was proud

00:26:05that we were more real

00:26:07and that we didn't live

00:26:08in Beverly Hills.

00:26:10You like horses?

00:26:13He says,

00:26:14we chose to live

00:26:14on a ranch

00:26:15rather than with monkeys

00:26:17in the cage.

00:26:18And that's what

00:26:19going over the hill,

00:26:20what we call

00:26:21going over the hill,

00:26:23is going over

00:26:24to see the monkeys

00:26:25in the cage.

00:26:26I have to tell you,

00:26:28one of my best friends

00:26:29has seen Dirty Dancing,

00:26:31I think, about 20 times.

00:26:33So I want you to say

00:26:34hello to Nancy.

00:26:35Nancy?

00:26:36Yeah.

00:26:36Hi, Nancy,

00:26:37and thanks for seeing us

00:26:38so many times

00:26:38and you're the reason

00:26:39why it's working so well.

00:26:55It's almost unheard of

00:26:57for the woman

00:26:57to be cast

00:26:58before the man.

00:27:00Ever.

00:27:01So I was cast

00:27:02and then there was

00:27:03a bunch of

00:27:05really good actors

00:27:06who had to come

00:27:07and dance with me

00:27:08as part of their

00:27:09screen test.

00:27:10I first met Patrick

00:27:11when we were

00:27:12shooting Red Dawn.

00:27:13We were in New Mexico

00:27:13and I remember

00:27:14Leah Thompson

00:27:15and I were the only girls

00:27:16and it was Tommy Howell,

00:27:18it was Charlie Sheen,

00:27:20it was Patrick,

00:27:21and Patrick was

00:27:22very much,

00:27:23he's very alpha,

00:27:24as you know,

00:27:25as you can maybe imagine.

00:27:26They pulled this prank

00:27:27on me where they,

00:27:29I don't know,

00:27:30they had all of these

00:27:32firecrackers

00:27:32or something,

00:27:34explosions,

00:27:35that they were doing

00:27:36at my door

00:27:37while I was trying

00:27:38to sleep.

00:27:39And so when they told

00:27:40me they were going

00:27:40to cast him,

00:27:41I was like,

00:27:41oh no,

00:27:42not that guy,

00:27:43not that guy,

00:27:44not that guy.

00:27:44I just finished

00:27:45a movie with him

00:27:46and he's like,

00:27:47you know,

00:27:48oh God.

00:27:49It was like that.

00:27:50But as soon as

00:27:52we started dancing

00:27:52together,

00:27:54it was just like,

00:27:55oh.

00:28:06I look in the mirror

00:28:09and all I see

00:28:14there was a feeling

00:28:16of like an easy chair,

00:28:18like a sexy easy chair,

00:28:21like a really hot easy chair.

00:28:23It was just like

00:28:24a really good ride.

00:28:25she'll stop the pain.

00:28:29Living without her,

00:28:32I'd go insane.

00:28:36I feel the breath

00:28:37in my face.

00:28:38He's a professional ballet dancer,

00:28:40which means he knows

00:28:41how to connect

00:28:41through dance

00:28:42and he knows

00:28:43how to take care of

00:28:44the woman

00:28:45in partner dancing

00:28:46because that's

00:28:47what you have to do

00:28:48to be a great dancer

00:28:49as a male dancer.

00:28:50The key,

00:28:51yeah,

00:28:51the key to being

00:28:52a good partner,

00:28:53the man's function

00:28:54is you bring

00:28:54no focus to yourself.

00:28:55Your whole function

00:28:56is to make

00:28:57the woman beautiful,

00:28:58make her flow,

00:28:59make her movement

00:29:01ecstasy and flight,

00:29:03you know?

00:29:04She looks good.

00:29:06Looking back

00:29:07on the movie,

00:29:07I feel like it was

00:29:09and is

00:29:10a feminist movie.

00:29:12This guy

00:29:12is a feminist,

00:29:14you know,

00:29:15Johnny Castle

00:29:15is a feminist.

00:29:16He comes together

00:29:17with me,

00:29:18not me,

00:29:19baby,

00:29:19and he shifts

00:29:21her reality.

00:29:23Baby transforms

00:29:24from being

00:29:25a daddy's girl

00:29:26to a woman

00:29:28who discovers

00:29:29her entire sexuality

00:29:32like in a minute

00:29:33and what happens

00:29:35that lift,

00:29:37it's so,

00:29:38it's such

00:29:39an incredible metaphor

00:29:41for doing the thing

00:29:43that you can't do

00:29:44and me as an actress,

00:29:46I can't do that.

00:29:48I'm too scared,

00:29:49I'm too fearful

00:29:50of hurting myself

00:29:51and he's like,

00:29:52no,

00:29:53you gotta do it.

00:29:58When he had a role

00:29:59where he took care

00:30:00of a woman

00:30:00and he found himself

00:30:04through that love

00:30:05of a woman,

00:30:05it's a universal desire

00:30:07that appeals to women

00:30:09and he was so good

00:30:10at it

00:30:10and you knew

00:30:11that he would

00:30:11take care of you.

00:30:25after Dirty Dancing

00:30:26came out,

00:30:27we got the full extent

00:30:28of what was going on.

00:30:29They waited for hours

00:30:30just to catch a glimpse

00:30:31of him,

00:30:32fanatical fans

00:30:33swayed by Swayze.

00:30:34What makes this man

00:30:35so special?

00:30:36His body.

00:30:38What's his body like?

00:30:39Hot.

00:30:40What do you think

00:30:40of how he looks?

00:30:41He looks pretty good.

00:30:42He looks pretty good,

00:30:43yes.

00:30:44Dirty Dancing

00:30:44has already grossed

00:30:45more than $50 million

00:30:46and the movie

00:30:47is now being released

00:30:48on videocassette.

00:30:49Some people have seen

00:30:50it a hundred times,

00:30:5125,000 copies of your poster

00:30:53were sold out immediately.

00:30:55You couldn't even go

00:30:55see the film,

00:30:56I understand.

00:30:57I almost don't even know

00:30:59how to sort it all out

00:31:00or even maybe

00:31:00don't even want to.

00:31:01Just sort of want

00:31:02to leave it alone

00:31:02and just move on

00:31:03with my life

00:31:03and keep trying

00:31:04to do good work.

00:31:04Grind to the left,

00:31:06grind to the right,

00:31:08you're all dirty

00:31:09dancing tonight

00:31:09in one lesson.

00:31:19Barbara Walters

00:31:20was going to come

00:31:20out to the ranch

00:31:21and he was thrilled

00:31:23to be interviewed

00:31:24by her because

00:31:24she was, you know,

00:31:25she was a wonderful

00:31:26interviewer.

00:31:28But he said to me,

00:31:30what should I expect?

00:31:33I said, expect her

00:31:34to ask you

00:31:35an off-the-wall question

00:31:37that will make you cry.

00:31:39But she didn't ask it

00:31:40for a very long time,

00:31:41so he got really comfortable.

00:31:43Your father died in 1982.

00:31:47This wasn't just something

00:31:48that you could accept.

00:31:56I love that man.

00:31:59His love for his father

00:32:00was all over his face

00:32:01in that moment.

00:32:03I made it after

00:32:04my father died.

00:32:06My passion.

00:32:14that I was going to make

00:32:15that man proud of me

00:32:16until I died.

00:32:17Everything he wanted for me,

00:32:19everything he dreamed about.

00:32:20The moment Patrick

00:32:22became a star

00:32:23was when he did

00:32:25the Barbara Walters show.

00:32:27Not when he did

00:32:28Dirty Dancing.

00:32:29That's when my phone

00:32:30rang off the hook

00:32:31and people all wanted

00:32:33to talk to him,

00:32:34to meet him.

00:32:35I think people loved him

00:32:37on that show,

00:32:38on the Barbara Walters show,

00:32:39because he was a good-looking,

00:32:42athletic guy

00:32:43who cried.

00:32:45They're guys that don't cry.

00:32:48And they love him.

00:32:50They love him

00:32:51because, you know what,

00:32:51there's that guy

00:32:53inside all of them.

00:32:54I always had the dream

00:32:55that I'd buy ranch

00:33:00and he'd run it,

00:33:02you know?

00:33:04There are times

00:33:05with people

00:33:06where you just know

00:33:09for sure

00:33:10that people

00:33:12are going to love them,

00:33:14which is what a star is,

00:33:16right?

00:33:20You know,

00:33:21he'd just come off

00:33:21Dirty Dancing

00:33:22where he was this romantic.

00:33:24guy.

00:33:25He wanted to

00:33:26flip that on its tail.

00:33:32Escort this gentleman

00:33:33to the door.

00:33:34Come on.

00:33:36Dalton in Roadhouse

00:33:37was like a dream

00:33:38come true for him.

00:33:39For a Texas boy

00:33:40going kick ass

00:33:41in a movie,

00:33:42I could only imagine

00:33:43a bunch of guys

00:33:44sit in an audience

00:33:45when they see these things

00:33:46going,

00:33:46I'd love to do that.

00:33:49When Roadhouse

00:33:50happened,

00:33:51it just kind of,

00:33:51hey, we're going to

00:33:52do a movie

00:33:52and it was going

00:33:54to be a lot of fighting.

00:33:55You want to?

00:33:56Oh, yeah.

00:33:58I'd always been involved

00:34:00since a young age,

00:34:01training, fighting,

00:34:02understanding the discipline.

00:34:04Of course,

00:34:04when I was in the military,

00:34:05I fought.

00:34:06I was headway

00:34:07kickboxing champion,

00:34:08NATO.

00:34:08He respected me.

00:34:09He knew what I did.

00:34:10I knew the man

00:34:11studied martial arts,

00:34:12but I also knew

00:34:13he was,

00:34:15and I don't mean

00:34:16no disrespect here.

00:34:18He was a ballet dancer.

00:34:21It was like this

00:34:22unwritten word

00:34:23that was said,

00:34:24I don't want to be

00:34:25his friend.

00:34:25He doesn't want

00:34:26to be my friend.

00:34:27It was a feeling.

00:34:30If anything,

00:34:30it's just something

00:34:31I felt coming off of him.

00:34:32I felt this,

00:34:34and it was interesting.

00:34:35The first night

00:34:36of communication

00:34:37was the first night

00:34:38of the fight.

00:34:39Until then,

00:34:40not one word

00:34:41had been said.

00:34:42They call it action.

00:34:44He throws a kick,

00:34:44and he just barely

00:34:45touched me.

00:34:46When he got back

00:34:47and got in his stance,

00:34:48I just dusted off

00:34:50my shirt.

00:34:51I said,

00:34:51if that's the best

00:34:52kick you've got,

00:34:53this is going to be

00:34:53a lousy fight.

00:34:55Action.

00:34:55He hit me

00:34:57like a freight train.

00:35:00I went off my feet.

00:35:02My butt hit,

00:35:03skipped on the ground.

00:35:04Went about 10 to 12 feet

00:35:05just like,

00:35:05bark, bark.

00:35:06I said,

00:35:07now that's a kick.

00:35:08He said,

00:35:10you liked it,

00:35:11don't you?

00:35:12I says,

00:35:13no,

00:35:14I loved it.

00:35:16He said,

00:35:17good.

00:35:18He said,

00:35:18what do you say

00:35:19we don't cheat

00:35:21the audience

00:35:21for one time?

00:35:26From that point on,

00:35:28we just went at it.

00:35:29That thing about him

00:35:30being a ballet dancer

00:35:31that I mentioned earlier,

00:35:33went right out the window.

00:35:35Prepare to die.

00:35:37You are such a...

00:35:40He did this spinning kick

00:35:41and caught me square

00:35:43and it kind of cracked

00:35:44my eye socket.

00:35:45Open to where you see

00:35:45blood on my eye right here.

00:35:48And it's real.

00:35:50He said,

00:35:50oh man,

00:35:51I didn't mean to do that.

00:35:51I just,

00:35:52the foot got a little high.

00:35:53Okay, fine.

00:35:54When he grabbed me

00:35:55by the hair,

00:35:56I picked up the log

00:35:57and I busted it

00:35:58right across his ribs.

00:35:59It's not in the script.

00:36:00It was a log

00:36:01that was laying

00:36:02on the ground there.

00:36:03You can hear it

00:36:04because he goes

00:36:06like this.

00:36:07Of course,

00:36:08I didn't know

00:36:08he cracked two of his ribs.

00:36:10But he didn't stop.

00:36:11He did not stop.

00:36:13You know,

00:36:13we got up

00:36:13and continued the scene.

00:36:15And when they cut,

00:36:16he comes over,

00:36:17you know,

00:36:17just typical buddy.

00:36:18He reaches over,

00:36:19reaches up,

00:36:20grabs me around the neck

00:36:21with both hands,

00:36:21puts his forehead

00:36:22next to mine.

00:36:23He said,

00:36:23are we even?

00:36:24I said,

00:36:25we're even, man.

00:36:26He said,

00:36:27good.

00:36:27Just want to make sure.

00:36:28He just rolled his head.

00:36:29He said,

00:36:29you got one more?

00:36:31And I did exactly

00:36:32the same thing.

00:36:33I was leaning in

00:36:33and said,

00:36:34yeah,

00:36:34I got one more.

00:36:35Kissed me around the neck.

00:36:37He said,

00:36:38let's go get them,

00:36:38brother.

00:36:39We did one more.

00:36:41It didn't matter

00:36:42how black and blue

00:36:43we were,

00:36:44tired we were.

00:36:45I looked at this man.

00:36:46I said,

00:36:46I love you, man.

00:36:47He said,

00:36:47I love you too.

00:36:48I fell in love

00:36:49with a guy

00:36:51that wasn't afraid

00:36:52that he could take it.

00:36:53I fell in love

00:36:54with a guy

00:36:54that had such passion

00:36:55for what he wanted

00:36:57to do

00:36:57that it meant

00:36:58that much,

00:36:58which allowed me

00:36:59to have it

00:37:01mean that much

00:37:02to me.

00:37:03I won't kill you

00:37:04the old-fashioned way.

00:37:07When you try

00:37:07to describe Roadhouse,

00:37:09it doesn't make

00:37:09any sense at all.

00:37:10It sounds like

00:37:11you just throw

00:37:11a bunch of stuff

00:37:12into a Cuisinart

00:37:14and then just turn it on

00:37:15and then whatever,

00:37:16you know,

00:37:16whatever happens,

00:37:17happens,

00:37:17and that's what the movie is,

00:37:19something for everyone.

00:37:20Hi.

00:37:21Hi.

00:37:22It wasn't like

00:37:22we didn't know

00:37:23we were making

00:37:23this drive-in movie

00:37:24or some people say

00:37:25the best,

00:37:26worst movie of all time

00:37:27or whatever it was.

00:37:29We all ran on the joke,

00:37:30but Patrick

00:37:32never winked

00:37:33at it,

00:37:34ever.

00:37:34Do you enjoy pain?

00:37:36Pain don't hurt.

00:37:38I took my cue

00:37:39from him

00:37:40because I thought,

00:37:40yeah,

00:37:40if I am too cool

00:37:42for school

00:37:42and I'm like

00:37:43kind of,

00:37:44you know,

00:37:45laughing at

00:37:46this whole thing,

00:37:46it's never going

00:37:48to work

00:37:48and it's never

00:37:48going to be the thing

00:37:49that people will love.

00:37:50Do you ever win a fight?

00:37:53Nobody ever wins a fight.

00:37:54Doc and Dalton,

00:37:57it just worked.

00:37:58I don't know,

00:37:58it was one of those things

00:37:59where alchemy

00:38:00was part of it too.

00:38:01It's just two actors

00:38:02who had some

00:38:04chemistry together

00:38:05as well.

00:38:07I think even if we hadn't,

00:38:08Patrick would have

00:38:10found some way

00:38:11to connect with me

00:38:12as an actor

00:38:12and as a person

00:38:13that was,

00:38:13he charmed everyone.

00:38:15He'd find a way in

00:38:17and make you

00:38:17just fall in love

00:38:18with them.

00:38:19I ought to stop

00:38:19telling you what to do.

00:38:22Maybe I ought to kick

00:38:23your ass.

00:38:26Roadhouse was such

00:38:27a kind of a show

00:38:28in some ways,

00:38:29you know,

00:38:31in the most positive sense.

00:38:33But there's a clear line

00:38:35there where you're

00:38:36going to get at the truth

00:38:37and you're going

00:38:37to commit to it.

00:38:39And that's what Patrick did.

00:38:40He committed to it.

00:38:41He committed to the truth

00:38:43of it,

00:38:43to the truth

00:38:44of that character.

00:38:45That draws the audience

00:38:46in.

00:38:47That makes the audience

00:38:47part of it.

00:38:48That makes the audience

00:38:49buy into it.

00:38:51You can leave

00:38:52anytime you want to.

00:38:54He's a kid.

00:38:56I got very close

00:38:57to Patrick

00:38:57during the production

00:38:58of that thing.

00:38:59I think there was

00:39:00a brother relationship

00:39:02there and I think

00:39:03there might even

00:39:03have been a father-son

00:39:04relationship there.

00:39:07And I felt that

00:39:08with Patrick

00:39:10off camera

00:39:11as well as on camera.

00:39:13I love you, Neil.

00:39:16We told each other

00:39:17we loved each other

00:39:18more than once,

00:39:19you know,

00:39:19which is kind of

00:39:20a common phrase,

00:39:21I guess,

00:39:21these days,

00:39:22but I think

00:39:23when you mean it,

00:39:23you mean it,

00:39:24and when you know it,

00:39:25you know it.

00:39:33It was so hard

00:39:35to get Patrick

00:39:36to read scripts.

00:39:37I've always wondered

00:39:37about that,

00:39:38why he wouldn't read.

00:39:40And sometimes I think

00:39:41when you have success,

00:39:42you don't want

00:39:43to make a mistake.

00:39:44When Ghost came in,

00:39:45I said to him,

00:39:45you have to read it.

00:39:47And he said,

00:39:47what's it about?

00:39:48I said, I'm not

00:39:48going to tell you.

00:39:49Finally, after about

00:39:50two months,

00:39:51he sat down,

00:39:52he didn't get up.

00:39:54I was sitting in the

00:39:55bedroom and he walked

00:39:55in, he had tears

00:39:56in his eyes.

00:39:57And he says,

00:39:57I have to do this movie.

00:39:59So he was pitched

00:40:00to the director

00:40:01and the producers.

00:40:03And they're like,

00:40:04ah.

00:40:06So they talk them

00:40:09into doing a screening

00:40:10of Roadhouse.

00:40:12Movie finishes,

00:40:14Jerry Zucker stands up,

00:40:15the director,

00:40:16and announces to everyone,

00:40:17no way on God's green earth

00:40:19will Patrick Swayze

00:40:20ever do this movie.

00:40:22I must have made

00:40:2350 calls so that they

00:40:25would at least meet him

00:40:26for Ghost.

00:40:29Patrick was frustrated

00:40:30sometimes because people

00:40:32did not take him seriously,

00:40:34which was what he wanted

00:40:35more than anything.

00:40:37Patrick manages

00:40:38to get a reading.

00:40:39They read practically

00:40:40the whole script.

00:40:41They got to the final scene.

00:40:43Everybody in the office

00:40:44is crying.

00:40:45He has tears.

00:40:47The casting director

00:40:48reading with him

00:40:49is crying.

00:40:50You know,

00:40:51and he just got them.

00:40:52He just got them.

00:40:53And if that was it,

00:40:54he got the part.

00:40:56Pretty much every part

00:40:57that he really wanted,

00:40:58he had to really fight for.

00:41:00Whenever anything good

00:41:02in my life happens,

00:41:03I'm just afraid

00:41:04I'm going to lose it.

00:41:06I love you.

00:41:08I really love you.

00:41:12Ditto.

00:41:14When I think of Patrick,

00:41:15I think of gentility.

00:41:17He was just this kind

00:41:18of very sweet,

00:41:20kind of like a regular guy.

00:41:23And I'm like,

00:41:23you know,

00:41:24people are going

00:41:24kind of crazy.

00:41:26I'm not like exactly

00:41:26like what it is like that.

00:41:29And then we had a scene

00:41:30where he took his shirt off.

00:41:31And I was like,

00:41:32oh, okay, got it.

00:41:34Got the,

00:41:35like I'm connecting

00:41:36all the dots now.

00:41:41This kind of quiet,

00:41:43almost very,

00:41:44you know,

00:41:45mild-mannered person.

00:41:47Like it's the contradiction

00:41:48of this

00:41:51extremely dynamic,

00:41:53physical person.

00:41:54You know,

00:41:55it was a really interesting

00:41:57part of, I think,

00:41:58who,

00:41:58who he is.

00:42:00I do remember

00:42:02a great need

00:42:03to work

00:42:04extremely hard

00:42:05to counter

00:42:06the perception

00:42:08of him being,

00:42:09you know,

00:42:10like a hunky guy

00:42:11or, you know,

00:42:13just his physicality.

00:42:15It's almost like he,

00:42:16a feeling that,

00:42:16to be taken seriously,

00:42:18that he really needed

00:42:19to work harder.

00:42:21It's kind of just

00:42:22getting in there

00:42:23hands-on.

00:42:24And obviously,

00:42:26in one of our

00:42:27most well-known scenes,

00:42:28it wasn't for real,

00:42:29literally hands-on.

00:42:39What are you doing?

00:42:42I couldn't sleep.

00:42:44With the pottery scene,

00:42:46I think that there,

00:42:47you know,

00:42:48something within

00:42:49his dance background

00:42:52that I think

00:42:53also gave him

00:42:54a particular

00:42:56perception

00:42:57and how to

00:42:58approach that,

00:42:59that had a sense

00:43:01of a dance

00:43:02in a way

00:43:03to it.

00:43:06Oh, no.

00:43:07I hope it wasn't

00:43:09a masterpiece.

00:43:10The movement of it

00:43:11was

00:43:13so erotic

00:43:14and beautiful

00:43:15and probably

00:43:16more than

00:43:17they imagined

00:43:19even with what

00:43:20was written

00:43:20on the page.

00:43:21I can definitely

00:43:23say that,

00:43:24you know,

00:43:25his appreciation

00:43:26and his openness

00:43:28was a wonderful

00:43:31attribute to have

00:43:32in a partner.

00:43:34This story

00:43:36in particular

00:43:36really required

00:43:38a depth

00:43:39of vulnerability.

00:43:40I know certainly

00:43:41for me

00:43:43and I think

00:43:43for Patrick

00:43:45that without

00:43:47that being believable,

00:43:49I don't know

00:43:49if the movie

00:43:49would have worked.

00:43:52I think Ghost

00:43:52is his best movie.

00:43:54I think it's

00:43:55his best movie.

00:43:56Patrick was able

00:43:56to use what was

00:43:57really special to him,

00:43:59maybe other than

00:44:00Dirty Dancing,

00:44:00which is another one

00:44:01which I can't imagine

00:44:02anybody else doing.

00:44:03Seeing that sort of,

00:44:05like,

00:44:06rough guy

00:44:06give that big,

00:44:07dude,

00:44:08that speech he gives

00:44:08to her at the end,

00:44:09are you kidding me?

00:44:10Are you kidding me?

00:44:12That's one of those

00:44:13things that you can

00:44:13pull up on YouTube,

00:44:15having never even

00:44:16seen the movie,

00:44:18and pull that up

00:44:19and watch that,

00:44:20and it's just...

00:44:22I love you, Molly.

00:44:26I've always loved you.

00:44:35Ditto.

00:44:40He had something

00:44:41about him

00:44:41that was very

00:44:43rugged,

00:44:44somebody who's

00:44:45not afraid

00:44:45to get their hands dirty,

00:44:47but that also

00:44:48had that

00:44:49beautiful,

00:44:50gentle,

00:44:51you know,

00:44:52sensuous ability

00:44:53to move

00:44:54and to touch.

00:44:57To have the ability

00:44:58to be a true

00:44:59man's man

00:45:00and also have

00:45:02that appeal

00:45:03to women,

00:45:04it's kind of rare.

00:45:05When someone

00:45:06walks in a room

00:45:08and everybody

00:45:09and everybody

00:45:09looks at you,

00:45:10people think

00:45:11you're handsome,

00:45:12you kind of know

00:45:13you have something

00:45:14going for you,

00:45:15but did he think

00:45:16he was going to be

00:45:17the sexiest man

00:45:19in the world

00:45:19on the cover

00:45:20of People magazine?

00:45:21No.

00:45:22I don't think he did.

00:45:27Patrick is so

00:45:28misunderstood

00:45:29in the fact

00:45:30that people say

00:45:31he's this sexy guy.

00:45:32Patrick is one

00:45:33great, big, huge heart.

00:45:36That's what

00:45:37Patrick Swayze is.

00:45:38It's funny

00:45:39because when you're

00:45:40with a person,

00:45:41you don't think

00:45:41about them

00:45:42as being attractive.

00:45:43It kind of goes away

00:45:44because you're just

00:45:45seeing the person.

00:45:46Every once in a while

00:45:47I'll look over

00:45:47and I'll go,

00:45:48oh, he's really

00:45:50good looking.

00:45:51He had such

00:45:52a unique combination.

00:45:54First of all,

00:45:55he had a great mullet.

00:46:09He loved his hair.

00:46:11As you may know,

00:46:13he loved his hair.

00:46:14Getting out of the house,

00:46:16he took more time

00:46:16getting ready than me.

00:46:17Okay?

00:46:18That's saying something.

00:46:20His jeans had to be

00:46:21just right on movies.

00:46:23He'd have a new pair

00:46:24of jeans

00:46:24and the waist

00:46:25had to be perfect

00:46:26and they altered

00:46:28his jeans for him.

00:46:29There's some advantages

00:46:30to being so good looking

00:46:31for sure.

00:46:32So,

00:46:33and he wasn't

00:46:34complaining about that.

00:46:41In retrospect,

00:46:42I look back

00:46:43and he took

00:46:45a lot of time.

00:46:46He was a full-time job.

00:46:49He needed a lot.

00:46:57You want to talk

00:46:58about a movie star.

00:47:00So,

00:47:00this is my sister Lisa

00:47:02and this is Patrick

00:47:03and we were taking photos

00:47:05this day, right?

00:47:06The photographer

00:47:07sends her the picture

00:47:08so she frames it

00:47:08and puts it

00:47:09on her desk at work.

00:47:12And people go,

00:47:14that's so cool

00:47:15that when you went

00:47:16to visit your sister

00:47:16in Hollywood

00:47:17that you got

00:47:18to take a picture

00:47:18with a cutout

00:47:19of Patrick's waisted

00:47:21because he's so beautiful

00:47:22and perfect, right?

00:47:24Like,

00:47:25that's how he looks.

00:47:30Put me down.

00:47:32We know each other.

00:47:34Bodhi was a tough one

00:47:35because he'd not

00:47:37played a villain before

00:47:39and he wasn't sure

00:47:41how that would go

00:47:42with his fans.

00:47:43Who's the guy?

00:47:44You replacing me?

00:47:45Bodhi and Patrick

00:47:46both led

00:47:47with their heart

00:47:48with what they want

00:47:50the world to be.

00:47:52Not what the world is,

00:47:53but what they want it to be.

00:47:54This was never

00:47:55about money for us.

00:47:56It was about us

00:47:57against the system.

00:47:58That system

00:47:59that kills

00:48:00the human spirit.

00:48:01We stand for something.

00:48:03To those dead souls

00:48:04inching along the freeways

00:48:06in their metal coffins,

00:48:07we show them

00:48:08that the human spirit

00:48:10is still alive.

00:48:11You get to a point

00:48:12in your life

00:48:12you realize

00:48:13I create the world.

00:48:14I create it.

00:48:16So it is

00:48:17what I want it to be.

00:48:22Have you skydived

00:48:24before this?

00:48:24No.

00:48:25My little brother's

00:48:26on a four-man competition team

00:48:28and he's been trying

00:48:28to get me to do it

00:48:29for a while.

00:48:30And I hadn't had a chance

00:48:32so the movie came up

00:48:33and gave me the excuse

00:48:34to start jumping out

00:48:35of a perfectly good airplane.

00:48:37I had over

00:48:38a thousand skydives

00:48:39when he booked

00:48:40Point Break

00:48:41and we were doing

00:48:42practice jumps.

00:48:44He just loved it.

00:48:46He went every morning

00:48:47before work.

00:48:49Every single morning.

00:48:50Can you imagine?

00:48:50You have to get up

00:48:51at four o'clock

00:48:52in the morning

00:48:52to go do that.

00:48:53I knew that the studios

00:48:55would have a stroke

00:48:56if they actually knew

00:48:57what he was doing.

00:48:58That made me nervous.

00:49:05The studio had sent him

00:49:07a letter, cease and desist.

00:49:09The lawyers had stopped him

00:49:11from skydiving.

00:49:13I was the one

00:49:14that had to deal with it

00:49:15but you know

00:49:15the less I knew

00:49:16the better off I was.

00:49:18He was just so taken

00:49:19with something being real,

00:49:22unauthentic,

00:49:22that he put himself

00:49:24in precarious situations.

00:49:26My brother had them promise

00:49:28that at the end

00:49:29of principal photography

00:49:30when he's done

00:49:31with his obligations,

00:49:33dialogue, so forth,

00:49:34I want to go back,

00:49:35get the king air

00:49:37and he went back

00:49:38and duplicated

00:49:39all the scenes

00:49:40that Jake Lombard

00:49:41had shot

00:49:43and replaced them

00:49:44with the actor.

00:49:45And that's never done.

00:49:46You never replace

00:49:47stunt scenes

00:49:48filmed in the can.

00:49:50Let's come back

00:49:51and reshoot them

00:49:51with the actor.

00:49:52Oh my God,

00:49:53this is better.

00:49:54That's him.

00:49:55coming out of a plane

00:49:56and it's in the movie.

00:49:58Why?

00:49:58Because it mattered.

00:49:59Other people

00:50:00will sit there

00:50:00and say,

00:50:01I got a guy who did it.

00:50:02He did a beautiful job.

00:50:03That's not good enough.

00:50:05Would everybody do that?

00:50:06Not a chance in hell.

00:50:08Adios, amigo!

00:50:14Before Tom Cruise

00:50:15was jumping out

00:50:16of his halo jumps,

00:50:19Patrick was doing it

00:50:20in Point Break.

00:50:21And for my money,

00:50:22it's a better shot.

00:50:23And if you don't think

00:50:24Tom hasn't remembered

00:50:25all these years

00:50:26that Patrick did it,

00:50:28then you are mistaken.

00:50:30And you do not know

00:50:31who you're dealing with

00:50:32from one outsider

00:50:33to another.

00:50:34I would say Patrick

00:50:35was probably one

00:50:35of the top,

00:50:37top guys

00:50:38that all the stuntmen

00:50:39knew that he could

00:50:40do anything.

00:50:41That he was an athlete

00:50:42that was capable

00:50:44of doing whatever

00:50:45they wanted him to do.

00:50:47And for him,

00:50:48it wasn't about ego.

00:50:50He liked doing it.

00:50:52When you do the kind

00:50:53of stuff he did

00:50:54in films,

00:50:55you pay the price.

00:50:56You pay a price for it.

00:50:58He was willing

00:50:59to pay the price

00:50:59to do what he could do.

00:51:01I often wondered

00:51:02how he could put himself

00:51:04through what he did.

00:51:04He had to be

00:51:07in a lot of physical pain.

00:51:08Even back when

00:51:09we were doing Roadhouse,

00:51:11he was already living

00:51:12with extreme pain.

00:51:15Because of his propensity

00:51:17for doing his own stunts,

00:51:19we used to roll into town

00:51:20and I would always

00:51:21make sure that I had

00:51:22the telephone number

00:51:22of the best orthopedic

00:51:23specialist in the town

00:51:24wherever we went.

00:51:26He would never be denied

00:51:27and he would do it

00:51:29no matter what the stakes.

00:51:31You know,

00:51:32whether he had shoes on

00:51:33or a shirt or whatever,

00:51:34he was going to do it.

00:51:35That was part of the code.

00:51:37That was part of being a man.

00:51:38That was part of doing

00:51:39your job.

00:51:40He would have made

00:51:41a great stuntman

00:51:43with a cut in pay.

00:51:47I re-evaluated my career

00:51:48out of internal need

00:51:50as opposed to career need

00:51:51because, like,

00:51:52you're right,

00:51:53after Ghost,

00:51:53I had tons and tons

00:51:54of offers coming in

00:51:55and all different kinds

00:51:56of films.

00:51:58But I was having

00:51:59a very, very difficult time

00:52:00finding anything

00:52:01that matched up

00:52:03with what my insides

00:52:04were telling me to do.

00:52:08When Patrick got

00:52:10City of Joy,

00:52:10he was really happy

00:52:12because it had

00:52:13a prestigious director,

00:52:15Roland Jaffe.

00:52:16It wasn't based

00:52:18on his look.

00:52:19It was based

00:52:19on acting.

00:52:21It was a really big deal

00:52:22to get that

00:52:23instead of another

00:52:24action movie.

00:52:25I'm just very excited

00:52:26that I got the chance

00:52:28to get to this place

00:52:30and get to this level

00:52:31of movie.

00:52:31It's sort of like

00:52:32life after sex symbol,

00:52:33you know?

00:52:34I first met Patrick.

00:52:35He came to my office

00:52:36at the time.

00:52:37The staff was in a pitch

00:52:39of excitement,

00:52:40particularly the female staff.

00:52:41What walked through the door

00:52:42was this immensely likable

00:52:44sort of,

00:52:45well, sort of surf bum,

00:52:47really,

00:52:47but with an extraordinarily

00:52:49open kind of curiosity.

00:52:51I mean, very quickly,

00:52:52I forgot I was talking

00:52:53to Patrick Swayze

00:52:54and I felt I was talking

00:52:56to somebody

00:52:57who really, really wanted

00:52:59to know what did

00:53:00this story mean.

00:53:01There were aspects of Patrick

00:53:02which I felt

00:53:03in that meeting.

00:53:04This was somebody

00:53:04searching for a way

00:53:07of escaping being

00:53:08what everybody

00:53:09was telling him

00:53:09he wanted to be

00:53:11and that became a theme

00:53:12and he was struggling

00:53:13to find the him

00:53:14inside that.

00:53:16He was one of these

00:53:17actors also

00:53:18that brought his work

00:53:19home with him.

00:53:20He lived in it.

00:53:21He would have a hard time

00:53:22dropping the role

00:53:23after he left the set

00:53:24which was really tough

00:53:26on him.

00:53:26The thing with City of Joy

00:53:29that broke my heart

00:53:31was it wasn't received

00:53:33in the United States

00:53:34the way he thought

00:53:35what it was going to be

00:53:36and he was incredibly

00:53:37disappointed.

00:53:40Hollywood as a whole

00:53:41saw him as a bona fide

00:53:43star who could make money

00:53:45but I think that they

00:53:46to some degree

00:53:47still wanted him

00:53:47to be that guy.

00:53:50You know,

00:53:50the sexiest man alive.

00:53:52I don't know

00:53:52that they wanted him

00:53:53to be the actor.

00:53:55He wanted to be

00:53:56the actor.

00:53:58You don't decide

00:53:59what the world

00:54:00thinks of you

00:54:01or sees you

00:54:01or the place

00:54:02that the world

00:54:02puts you in.

00:54:03Even if you

00:54:04in your heart

00:54:04have this other

00:54:06I'm an artist

00:54:06you know

00:54:07I'm a seeker

00:54:09I'm kind of like

00:54:10a hippie

00:54:11by the way

00:54:12of the rodeo

00:54:12or whatever

00:54:13you know

00:54:14that's the piece

00:54:15that was always

00:54:16missing for him

00:54:17I think

00:54:17that acceptance

00:54:18as an artist

00:54:19being the star

00:54:20and being a character

00:54:21it was

00:54:22would have been

00:54:23a better place

00:54:24for him to move

00:54:24and I remember

00:54:25talking to him

00:54:25about that

00:54:27and

00:54:29that he didn't feel

00:54:30that that was

00:54:30going to be a choice

00:54:31that he could make

00:54:32that it would be

00:54:33made for him

00:54:34that he

00:54:35that he

00:54:35wasn't looked at

00:54:36as an actor

00:54:37like that

00:54:38but he was looked

00:54:39at as a movie star

00:54:39and movie stars

00:54:40don't always get

00:54:41to do those parts

00:54:42and he was

00:54:43absolutely right.

00:54:44Oh I think

00:54:45when you're carrying

00:54:45the big ball

00:54:46that you know

00:54:47it's a lot

00:54:48different game

00:54:50I'm happy

00:54:51to hold the horses

00:54:52so to speak

00:54:53you know.

00:55:14When he filmed

00:55:15Red Dawn

00:55:15back in the day

00:55:16he fell in love

00:55:17with the mountains

00:55:18of New Mexico

00:55:19and he vowed

00:55:19to come back

00:55:20someday

00:55:20I don't think

00:55:21he knew

00:55:21that he was

00:55:22going to come back

00:55:22and buy the mountain

00:55:23but he did.

00:55:26I think he thought

00:55:27that that's

00:55:28where he would retire

00:55:32you know

00:55:32eventually

00:55:33when he walked

00:55:33away from

00:55:34the movie business

00:55:34that's what

00:55:36would have

00:55:36brought him

00:55:37solace

00:55:46I think

00:55:47that was

00:55:48his birthright

00:55:49somehow

00:55:49he loved

00:55:50the outdoor

00:55:51he had a lasso

00:55:52he had a robe

00:55:54he had

00:55:54all the equipment

00:55:55he had

00:55:56I think

00:55:56he had a tent

00:55:57he loved

00:55:58all that

00:56:00at one point

00:56:01he said

00:56:01you know what

00:56:02he says

00:56:03you know what

00:56:03I think

00:56:04I'm a cowboy

00:56:06you know

00:56:07I think

00:56:08that's who

00:56:09I really am

00:56:09I think

00:56:11being a cowboy

00:56:11speaks to a lot

00:56:12of us

00:56:13it's that man

00:56:14alone

00:56:15it's that man

00:56:16in nature

00:56:17you know

00:56:18that man

00:56:19against the elements

00:56:20man against himself

00:56:21in some ways

00:56:24which clearly

00:56:26maybe it spoke

00:56:27of Patrick

00:56:34Buddy's connection

00:56:35to the New Mexico

00:56:37ranch

00:56:38fulfilled

00:56:39a dream

00:56:39of his father's

00:56:40which would become

00:56:41the oldest son's

00:56:42dream as well

00:56:43living off the land

00:56:44producing something

00:56:45from the land

00:56:46what people

00:56:47didn't often see

00:56:48was the quiet

00:56:49side of my brother

00:56:49the cowboy

00:56:50who didn't need

00:56:51accolades

00:56:52didn't need

00:56:52the attention

00:56:53he was more

00:56:54that than he was

00:56:55anything anyone saw

00:56:56in the Hollywood side

00:56:58I don't think

00:56:59he was happiest

00:56:59when he was

00:57:00when he was having

00:57:01to deal with

00:57:02the Hollywood machine

00:57:03and you know

00:57:04he shied away

00:57:04from most parties

00:57:06and stuff

00:57:07and there were times

00:57:07I would say to him

00:57:08I'm sorry

00:57:08but you've got to go

00:57:09to this

00:57:10you can't just

00:57:11go to work

00:57:12and then retreat

00:57:13you can't

00:57:14your fans need

00:57:15to see you

00:57:15if you're going

00:57:16to remain popular

00:57:19when you're chopping

00:57:19wood and carrying

00:57:20water

00:57:21there's a connection

00:57:23to the earth

00:57:23that you have

00:57:24that's not quite there

00:57:25when you're standing

00:57:26in line

00:57:26at Starbucks

00:57:28and I think

00:57:29he knew that

00:57:30and he wanted

00:57:31to be connected

00:57:33I think that

00:57:34if he could figure out

00:57:35a way to pay his bills

00:57:36he would sit at

00:57:37New Mexico

00:57:39and be a cowboy

00:57:44Patrick very much

00:57:45wanted to be a father

00:57:46I think

00:57:46because he wanted

00:57:47to be as good

00:57:48a father

00:57:49to his child

00:57:50as his dad

00:57:50had been to him

00:57:53you could tell

00:57:54he would have been

00:57:54a great dad

00:57:55just as an uncle

00:57:57you could just see it

00:57:58you could just see

00:57:59what an amazing dad

00:58:00he would be

00:58:02hey okay

00:58:03blow it out

00:58:04blow it out

00:58:05let me answer

00:58:08what was that

00:58:11both of us

00:58:12loved kids

00:58:13and always intended

00:58:14to have kids

00:58:15and I did become

00:58:17pregnant

00:58:17but I had a miscarriage

00:58:19and that was

00:58:20very

00:58:21who knew

00:58:22that miscarriages

00:58:23were

00:58:24as painful

00:58:25as they are

00:58:27emotionally painful

00:58:28and

00:58:30you know

00:58:31it was

00:58:32very heartbreaking

00:58:33he

00:58:34would have never

00:58:35wanted Lisa

00:58:36to feel bad

00:58:36for having miscarriages

00:58:38but it crushed him

00:58:39so they tried

00:58:41I had been

00:58:42seeing acupuncturists

00:58:44for a long time

00:58:45and then all of a sudden

00:58:46I was

00:58:46too old

00:58:47I probably should have

00:58:49been better informed

00:58:49about how to go about it

00:58:51but anyway

00:58:51I may have wasted

00:58:52some time

00:58:53but

00:58:53you know

00:58:54I said you know

00:58:56how would you feel

00:58:57about adopting

00:58:58you know

00:58:59he

00:59:01got very teary eyed

00:59:03and

00:59:04you know

00:59:05he said

00:59:06I want to have

00:59:07children with you

00:59:13so

00:59:13when he and Lisa

00:59:14lost that baby

00:59:15it was crushing

00:59:15he would have been

00:59:16a great dad

00:59:18he was daddy

00:59:18to all the animals

00:59:20on the ranch

00:59:21you know

00:59:21those were like

00:59:22our kids

00:59:23there's a lot of love

00:59:24to give

00:59:24and it's wonderful

00:59:26to have

00:59:28all these wonderful

00:59:29little beings

00:59:30around to give it to

00:59:31so

00:59:31that's where I went

00:59:36the role that Lisa

00:59:38played for Buddy

00:59:39was very important

00:59:40she certainly pushed him

00:59:42to not be frightened

00:59:44of looking into himself

00:59:45she was a very creative

00:59:46force for him

00:59:47I think

00:59:47they were amazingly bonded

00:59:48I mean beautifully bonded

00:59:50and he loved that relationship

00:59:53this was two human beings

00:59:54who really really shared

00:59:56a profound depth

00:59:58about who they both were

00:59:59and you could feel that

01:00:03I think inside Buddy

01:00:05there always was

01:00:06a kind of lonely core

01:00:08I think there really was

01:00:09I think very very few people

01:00:12knew just how deep that was

01:00:14I'm sure Lisa did

01:00:15and I think Lisa helped fill that

01:00:17and I think some of his

01:00:18closest friends did

01:00:20and I think they knew

01:00:21that they helped fill that

01:00:22but fundamentally inside Buddy

01:00:26there was an innate loneliness

01:00:27and I think that's where

01:00:30his art came from

01:00:31oh please

01:00:34I guess it's all on account

01:00:36of what you really are

01:00:37because Bobby Ray told me

01:00:39what you really are

01:00:42he did?

01:00:43yeah

01:00:44you're a career girl

01:00:48oh yes

01:00:50I wanted to play that part

01:00:52I shaved my legs for that part

01:00:54ready or not

01:00:56here comes mama

01:00:57I got an Azedina Laya

01:00:59skirt

01:01:01for that part

01:01:03I got a Jane Fonda

01:01:04China Syndrome

01:01:06era red wig

01:01:08I stopped traffic

01:01:09walking down the street

01:01:11in front of the audition place

01:01:13in New York City

01:01:14literally

01:01:16people have been saying

01:01:17I'm feminine

01:01:17and pretty

01:01:18pretty boy

01:01:19this is a lock

01:01:20this is a lock

01:01:22for me

01:01:24didn't get the part

01:01:26Swayze gets the part

01:01:31that was the one time

01:01:32I was probably like

01:01:33damn him

01:01:35over 30 actors

01:01:37read for that role

01:01:38but they couldn't be

01:01:39a woman

01:01:40Patrick

01:01:40because of his dance training

01:01:42he could actually

01:01:43put on the clothes

01:01:45and he could become

01:01:46that person

01:01:47here we go please

01:01:49here we go

01:02:03I remember watching Patrick

01:02:05and thinking

01:02:06yeah

01:02:07that's so good

01:02:08so good

01:02:10you know

01:02:11it's one thing

01:02:11playing the macho man

01:02:12and doing all the stuff

01:02:13but when you get to look deep

01:02:16and see

01:02:17something

01:02:19gentler

01:02:20for lack of a better word

01:02:22something at the heart

01:02:24of the man

01:02:24then

01:02:26there's a great value there

01:02:27and I will say

01:02:30my name

01:02:31is Miss Vida Boheme

01:02:33go ahead girl

01:02:34and your approval

01:02:35is not needed

01:02:37that's right

01:02:37approval neither desired

01:02:38nor required

01:02:39but I

01:02:40will take

01:02:42your acceptance

01:02:43all right

01:02:44and me too

01:02:45and me too

01:02:46well everybody

01:02:46can see you tonight

01:02:47across the country

01:02:48to Wong Fu

01:02:49best of luck to you

01:02:50thank you

01:02:51I thought it was great

01:02:52and Gene Siskel says

01:02:53you're probably going to get

01:02:53an Oscar nomination

01:02:54out of it

01:02:54I don't like to hear that

01:02:55I know you don't want to hear it

01:02:56but it should make you feel

01:02:57pumped yourself up

01:02:58it does feel good

01:02:59the acknowledgement is nice

01:03:00good to see you

01:03:00thanks

01:03:01good luck

01:03:09but he often

01:03:11is described as having

01:03:12this sunny disposition

01:03:13you know

01:03:14he'd be out there

01:03:14and he'd be bubbly

01:03:16and fun

01:03:17and this and that

01:03:19and then he

01:03:19as soon as he's by himself

01:03:21and alone

01:03:22he would just crash

01:03:23I have these demons

01:03:24that run around

01:03:25in my insides

01:03:25I've done everything

01:03:26in the world

01:03:27thinking I'm going to

01:03:28get rid of them

01:03:28and someday I'm going

01:03:29to have happy

01:03:30and the shortness of breath

01:03:32will go away

01:03:32and I don't know

01:03:35if it ever will

01:03:35I remember

01:03:37I did some reading

01:03:38and I came up

01:03:39with this thing

01:03:39called bipolar 2 disorder

01:03:41and I talked to my brother

01:03:42Patrick about it

01:03:43and we both agreed

01:03:45wow that sounds

01:03:45just like us

01:03:46I've given up on happy

01:03:50but I'm happy

01:03:51you know

01:03:51I'm

01:03:53there are a lot of people

01:03:54who have alcohol problems

01:03:56that actually have

01:03:57some emotional

01:04:00and mental problems

01:04:01going on with them

01:04:02and they used

01:04:03alcohol to mask it

01:04:05Patrick would have

01:04:07problems with alcohol

01:04:08off and on

01:04:09he'd go through

01:04:10long periods

01:04:12where it would get

01:04:12really really bad

01:04:13and then he would

01:04:15you know

01:04:16kind of white knuckle it

01:04:18and get sober

01:04:18and not drink for a while

01:04:20and then

01:04:21it starts sliding

01:04:24down the slope again

01:04:40we could always take this

01:04:42out later right

01:04:43absolutely

01:04:44well you know

01:04:52it

01:04:52you know

01:04:53he

01:04:53he didn't stop drinking

01:04:54and

01:04:57it was

01:04:58it was bad

01:04:58and I know

01:04:59I write in

01:05:00in the book

01:05:01you know

01:05:01that

01:05:04that I

01:05:05had moved out

01:05:06for a year

01:05:06you know

01:05:07because it got to a point

01:05:08where I was like

01:05:09you know

01:05:09someone's going to die here

01:05:10it's either going to be him

01:05:11or it's going to be me

01:05:18I don't think I ever said

01:05:19why are you drinking

01:05:20would have been a stupid question

01:05:23I would have said

01:05:24I wish you weren't drinking

01:05:25I wish you would go to rehab

01:05:26I wish you would get healthy

01:05:28I wish you would be the star

01:05:30that you were meant to be

01:05:31I was still over there

01:05:32every day

01:05:33you know

01:05:34and I still loved him

01:05:35you know

01:05:37and uh

01:05:39but it was

01:05:40you know

01:05:41it's very hard

01:05:42to

01:05:42watch someone

01:05:44destroy themselves

01:05:45you know

01:05:52anybody who's

01:05:53lived with

01:05:54someone who has

01:05:55a terrible problem

01:05:56like that

01:05:57it's unbelievably painful

01:05:59and I would cry

01:06:01every day

01:06:02I would cry

01:06:03every day

01:06:04and I'd

01:06:04hold on to the ranch

01:06:06and I'd have to stop

01:06:07the car

01:06:08and cry

01:06:09before I walked

01:06:10in the house

01:06:10and you know

01:06:11I'd smell this breath

01:06:12and it'd wake me up

01:06:13and I'd start crying

01:06:14and

01:06:16I think I sat

01:06:18almost half the night

01:06:20on the steps

01:06:20of the dance studio

01:06:21crying

01:06:22you know

01:06:23and I

01:06:23you know

01:06:24it was horrible

01:06:25though

01:06:26because

01:06:27you're like

01:06:29this day

01:06:30was killing me

01:06:31but to leave

01:06:32would have killed me too

01:06:33you know

01:06:36that was a

01:06:37that was a really

01:06:38a low point

01:06:39you know

01:06:40it was a low point

01:06:41we had a therapist

01:06:42come in

01:06:42she addressed our

01:06:44relationship

01:06:45and about loving

01:06:46each other

01:06:47and

01:06:50and there was

01:06:51something in what

01:06:52she said

01:06:53that

01:06:54uh

01:06:56buddy looked over

01:07:02in me

01:07:03and he's

01:07:03he

01:07:04it's like

01:07:04for the first time

01:07:05in years

01:07:05he saw me

01:07:07and I know

01:07:08he saw how much

01:07:09I loved him

01:07:11I saw in his eyes

01:07:12he wished

01:07:13that all the bad stuff

01:07:14would go away

01:07:15that's what he wanted

01:07:17we recognized

01:07:18each other again

01:07:20and

01:07:21what we had always

01:07:22seen in each other

01:07:25we had so many

01:07:26challenging things

01:07:27to deal with

01:07:28but underneath

01:07:30were still

01:07:30the same people

01:07:32and

01:07:34things

01:07:34went from

01:07:35horrible

01:07:36to the best

01:07:38they've ever been

01:07:40no seriously

01:07:41miraculous

01:07:42miraculous

01:07:43uh

01:07:44turn around

01:07:46and

01:07:46uh

01:07:47we were the happiest

01:07:49we are

01:07:49we had ever been

01:07:50it's like

01:07:51we finally gained

01:07:52the wisdom

01:07:53to

01:07:55have what we want

01:07:56to know

01:07:57and know how to have it

01:07:59and I have to say

01:08:00I was really appreciative

01:08:01that that change had come

01:08:03uh

01:08:05before we found out

01:08:06he was sick

01:08:06because if

01:08:07I'd stayed with him

01:08:09if things were bad

01:08:10and I'd stay with him

01:08:11after he found out

01:08:12he would have thought

01:08:13that I was pitying him

01:08:15and uh

01:08:17whereas

01:08:17uh

01:08:19when he went to

01:08:20face that cancer

01:08:21he knew

01:08:23you know

01:08:23I was there

01:08:24because I loved him

01:08:24that much

01:08:33some tough news

01:08:35this morning

01:08:35about actor

01:08:36Patrick Swayze

01:08:37a much loved actor

01:08:39star of the hit films

01:08:40Dirty Dancing

01:08:40and Ghost

01:08:41he has been diagnosed

01:08:43with pancreatic cancer

01:08:45his representative

01:08:46says he is continuing

01:08:47with his life

01:08:48continuing with his work

01:08:49and his optimism

01:08:51I was in his kitchen

01:08:54and there was a

01:08:55speakerphone

01:08:55and the doctor

01:08:56with no bedside manner

01:08:58at all

01:08:59they just spit it out

01:09:00your cancer has indeed

01:09:01metastasized

01:09:02it's in your liver

01:09:03and uh

01:09:03in your lungs

01:09:04and uh

01:09:05he just kind of

01:09:07clenched his jaw

01:09:08and then he left the room

01:09:09for a second

01:09:09then he came back in

01:09:11in like 30 seconds

01:09:13I mean

01:09:13he went out

01:09:14and had a little moment

01:09:15and he came back in

01:09:15even though

01:09:16he supposedly had the cancer

01:09:18that no one's gonna

01:09:18recover from

01:09:20I said to him

01:09:22I said

01:09:22I

01:09:23okay 5%

01:09:25I've seen you be

01:09:26in the top 5%

01:09:27in everything you've ever done

01:09:28why not now

01:09:29he goes

01:09:29damn right

01:09:30he was just

01:09:31so physical

01:09:33you know

01:09:33when you're a master

01:09:34of your body physically

01:09:35I think

01:09:36you think

01:09:38you

01:09:39are larger

01:09:40than

01:09:41any disease

01:09:42or any

01:09:44emotional problem

01:09:45or mental problem

01:09:48so

01:09:49when it hit him

01:09:49it hit me hard

01:09:50you know

01:09:51it really

01:09:53really hit me hard

01:09:55you know

01:09:56he always played heroes

01:09:57in his movies

01:09:58you know

01:09:59the cape and the sword

01:10:00and the horse

01:10:02and

01:10:03but he showed himself

01:10:04to be a really

01:10:05really truly a hero

01:10:09I just saw

01:10:10the most incredible

01:10:11man

01:10:14it was the best

01:10:15of himself

01:10:16that I saw

01:10:21some of us

01:10:22were thinking

01:10:22it's time to go

01:10:23buy an island

01:10:24somewhere

01:10:24big brother

01:10:25and just do

01:10:26whatever you want

01:10:27but no

01:10:28he goes to Chicago

01:10:29where it was

01:10:30six below

01:10:30in the dead of winter

01:10:32and he does this series

01:10:33about a FBI agent

01:10:35hey

01:10:36those things

01:10:37will kill you

01:10:38don't just stand there

01:10:39pop the trunk

01:10:40it wasn't denial

01:10:42it takes me back

01:10:42to when he said

01:10:43I don't know how to die

01:10:44I'm just gonna

01:10:44live until I stop

01:10:47when I heard

01:10:48that he was going

01:10:49to continue working

01:10:50I thought

01:10:50if anything

01:10:51is going to help

01:10:51this guy

01:10:52or maybe even

01:10:53save him

01:10:53with the help

01:10:54of medicine

01:10:55it's to continue

01:10:56doing the thing

01:10:57that he does

01:10:58which is

01:10:59you know

01:10:59work

01:11:00he was going to

01:11:01fight it

01:11:02and it's what he did

01:11:03it's what he loved to do

01:11:06you know

01:11:06he was an artist

01:11:07he was a performer

01:11:09you want to keep going

01:11:10you don't want to give it up

01:11:11you want to try

01:11:12to do something better

01:11:13maybe he was trying

01:11:14to do something better

01:11:15you know

01:11:15before it was done

01:11:17talk about tough

01:11:19fighting pancreatic cancer

01:11:20working 14

01:11:2116 hour days

01:11:22getting chemo

01:11:24on the weekends

01:11:25you know the greatest

01:11:26word you could say

01:11:26to buddy is

01:11:27you can't do it

01:11:29because the second

01:11:29you say

01:11:30you can't do it

01:11:31I will not be denied

01:11:32the ability

01:11:33or the opportunity

01:11:34or the chance

01:11:35to meet

01:11:36dance

01:11:37ride

01:11:38jump

01:11:38climb

01:11:40bring together

01:11:41give to people

01:11:43I will not be denied

01:11:44that opportunity

01:11:45no one will deny me

01:11:47that opportunity

01:11:48giving

01:11:49of himself

01:11:50and his heart

01:11:51and his passion

01:11:52was paramount

01:11:53I mean just

01:11:53absolute paramount

01:11:54he was great

01:11:56in The Beast

01:11:56whenever an actor

01:11:58is wearing

01:11:58on them

01:11:59their own struggles

01:12:02it's unbelievably compelling

01:12:04I don't wish

01:12:05those kind of struggles

01:12:06on people

01:12:07and at the end

01:12:08of the day

01:12:08it's not worth it

01:12:09just to give

01:12:09a good performance

01:12:10but that said

01:12:11it was so clear

01:12:13what was going on

01:12:14and it just made him

01:12:17riveting

01:12:18this was just courage

01:12:19this was raw courage

01:12:21of somebody

01:12:21who knew

01:12:22they were going

01:12:22to die

01:12:23but wasn't making

01:12:24an issue of it

01:12:25in a strange way

01:12:25was coming down

01:12:26for breakfast

01:12:26was living his life

01:12:28as much as possible

01:12:29he said

01:12:30and I just got the feeling

01:12:31that part of him

01:12:32had found a spiritual home

01:12:33somewhere

01:12:33and wasn't frightened

01:12:35and that sounded

01:12:36very much to me

01:12:36like

01:12:38the real buddy

01:12:39the real Patrick Swayze

01:12:41he was offered

01:12:43this protocol

01:12:44where

01:12:44they're taking

01:12:45120 people

01:12:46and trying out

01:12:47a new med

01:12:47I think he really

01:12:49believed

01:12:49he could be

01:12:50in that top

01:12:50top 5%

01:12:52there was an interview

01:12:52where he was

01:12:53at LAX

01:12:54I think he was going

01:12:54to Chicago

01:12:55to work

01:12:56and he told someone

01:12:57he said

01:12:57I'm a miracle dude

01:12:58I'm a miracle dude

01:12:59yeah

01:12:59I don't know why

01:13:01and I saw it

01:13:02and I said

01:13:03he believes it

01:13:03you know

01:13:05and then when I saw him

01:13:06three months later

01:13:07and he had dropped

01:13:0750 pounds

01:13:08in Chicago

01:13:09it was evident

01:13:10that the miracle

01:13:12was starting

01:13:12to fail us

01:13:16and he saw me

01:13:17through the crowd

01:13:18and stopped

01:13:20shooting and everything

01:13:22to run to me

01:13:22and we embraced

01:13:24and I'll never forget

01:13:25hugging him

01:13:26and oh god

01:13:27it was like

01:13:28he collapsed in

01:13:29and my brother

01:13:30he was my big brother

01:13:35but he finished

01:13:36the series

01:13:39actually the last episode

01:13:40of the series

01:13:41I directed

01:13:43in spite of being ill

01:13:45he moved mountains

01:13:47to try and be

01:13:48on the set for me

01:13:50and

01:13:54he was so supportive

01:13:57he really wanted

01:13:58that for me

01:14:00and of course

01:14:00it was important

01:14:01to me

01:14:01because I felt

01:14:02like

01:14:03yeah

01:14:04if

01:14:04I did lose

01:14:06him

01:14:06that

01:14:07it showed me

01:14:09I could still

01:14:09have a life

01:14:10you know

01:14:11he did everything

01:14:12to be there for me

01:14:13during that time

01:14:15and

01:14:15and I really knew

01:14:17that he was

01:14:18trying to give me

01:14:20a gift

01:14:20which he did

01:14:29and now

01:14:30please welcome

01:14:31Patrick Swayze

01:14:50this was an important

01:14:51event

01:14:52and he flew back

01:14:53from the beast

01:14:54to shoot it

01:14:55in LA

01:14:56and walked on stage

01:14:58he got a standing

01:14:59ovation

01:15:03I keep dreaming

01:15:04of a future

01:15:07a future

01:15:08with a long

01:15:09and healthy life

01:15:10a life not lived

01:15:12in the shadow

01:15:12of cancer

01:15:13but in the light

01:15:15I dream that

01:15:16everyone diagnosed

01:15:17will be fortunate

01:15:18enough to have hope

01:15:19that every human

01:15:20being lost to cancer

01:15:21isn't gone

01:15:23but is standing

01:15:24here with us tonight

01:15:25together we can

01:15:26make the world

01:15:27where cancer

01:15:28no longer means

01:15:29living with fear

01:15:30without hope

01:15:31or worse

01:15:33tonight I stand

01:15:35here

01:15:35another individual

01:15:37living with cancer

01:15:38who asks that

01:15:39we not wait

01:15:39any longer

01:15:40and I ask

01:15:42only one thing

01:15:42of you

01:15:43will you stand

01:15:44up with me

01:15:46will you stand

01:15:47up to cancer

01:15:48so we'll be

01:15:49right over there

01:15:50waiting for your

01:15:51call

01:15:54the phone lines

01:15:55flooded

01:15:55immediately

01:15:56so it was

01:15:57it was really

01:15:58good that he

01:15:58did that

01:15:59we had heard

01:16:00that from

01:16:01that he had

01:16:02inspired people

01:16:03all over

01:16:04and then you'd

01:16:04read that so

01:16:05and so is

01:16:06rallying and

01:16:07this and that

01:16:07so I think

01:16:09I think it

01:16:10encouraged a lot

01:16:11of people

01:16:11but unfortunately

01:16:12if you know

01:16:12anything about

01:16:13pancreatic cancer

01:16:13it just didn't

01:16:17didn't take

01:16:18didn't last long

01:16:25when we knew

01:16:26it was getting

01:16:26to the end

01:16:27I said

01:16:28let's just

01:16:28hit it

01:16:29with everything

01:16:30we've got

01:16:32and on

01:16:33Monday

01:16:33if he hasn't

01:16:34improved

01:16:35then we'll

01:16:37stop

01:16:38and he hadn't

01:16:39improved

01:16:39and so

01:16:40we need to

01:16:41go home

01:16:42and I think

01:16:43he would want

01:16:43to be home

01:16:44and somehow

01:16:46we managed to

01:16:47get him there

01:16:47he was not

01:16:49cognizant

01:16:49you know

01:16:50and that was

01:16:50a buildup

01:16:51of the toxins

01:16:53in his body

01:16:53at that point

01:16:56and

01:16:59our security

01:17:00guy

01:17:00was afraid

01:17:02he wouldn't

01:17:02even make

01:17:02it home

01:17:03I said

01:17:03no

01:17:03I knew

01:17:04in my gut

01:17:04he was going

01:17:05to make it

01:17:05home

01:17:06it was really

01:17:07happening

01:17:07because there's

01:17:08part of me

01:17:10you know

01:17:10you just want

01:17:11to believe

01:17:11that he's

01:17:12going to

01:17:12wake up

01:17:13tomorrow

01:17:13or there's

01:17:14a cure

01:17:14that's

01:17:15going to

01:17:15pop up

01:17:16it was

01:17:23clear to me

01:17:24that when

01:17:24he left

01:17:25his body

01:17:25he had

01:17:25completely

01:17:26used it

01:17:26up

01:17:27and it

01:17:28was

01:17:30worthless

01:17:30to him

01:17:32it was

01:17:33not serving

01:17:33him anymore

01:17:37and after

01:17:37he died

01:17:38I had

01:17:39there were

01:17:39some beautiful

01:17:39white roses

01:17:40and I put

01:17:40this white

01:17:41rose on

01:17:42his chest

01:17:43beautiful

01:17:44perfect

01:17:44white rose

01:17:45and there

01:17:45was this

01:17:46amulet

01:17:46that he

01:17:47loved

01:17:48from kind

01:17:49of

01:17:51all these

01:17:51coral bees

01:17:52and then

01:17:53this

01:17:53bead of

01:17:53stuff

01:17:53with this

01:17:54big crystal

01:17:55and he

01:17:55thought

01:17:55this

01:17:56very

01:17:56tribal

01:17:56magical

01:17:57thing

01:17:58and I

01:17:58hung

01:17:59that

01:17:59on the

01:17:59bed

01:17:59above

01:17:59his

01:18:00head

01:18:01and

01:18:04our

01:18:05guy

01:18:06who took

01:18:06care

01:18:06of our

01:18:06horses

01:18:07brought

01:18:07this

01:18:08winding

01:18:09silvery

01:18:09white

01:18:09stallion

01:18:17I

01:18:17was

01:18:17in the

01:18:17bedroom

01:18:18and

01:18:18you

01:18:19couldn't

01:18:19help

01:18:19but see

01:18:20this

01:18:20huge

01:18:20white

01:18:21stallion

01:18:21and then

01:18:22Lucio

01:18:23the ranch

01:18:24foreman

01:18:25was leading

01:18:25him

01:18:26he had

01:18:27the horse

01:18:27do a bow

01:18:29did a bow

01:18:30sort of

01:18:32last bow

01:18:32to my

01:18:33brother

01:18:38I think it was

01:18:39beautiful

01:19:28The world is a great place with him.

01:19:30It's a better place having had him.

01:19:36And he is missed every day.

01:19:38For me, it was like a light went out.

01:19:41He was such a bright light, but you know what, again, just take the love with you, and he

01:19:48knows how I feel.

01:19:49Who he'll be for us is still sort of gelling.

01:19:52I don't feel that we've decided yet, because I think we have decided that we underestimated

01:19:57him.

01:19:59I don't think he really knew that people cared for him as much as they did.

01:20:05I don't know how he couldn't, because everybody was, you know, buddy, hey, you know.

01:20:12It was sad to see someone so full of life go so early.

01:20:19I think his sweetness really did carry over with everyone that had an opportunity to

01:20:26work with him.

01:20:28When he was a gentleman, that's not just the word, you know what I mean?

01:20:32It speaks of his heart.

01:20:34It speaks of his integrity.

01:20:37It speaks of his honesty.

01:20:39What you saw in his films is really who he is.

01:20:43So when you watch a Patrick Swayze movie, you know that's really Patrick Swayze, because

01:20:47it's just how he worked.

01:20:48And it, it was contagious.

01:20:53What he accomplished in his life with the part of our consciousness that he occupied,

01:21:00very, very, very, very, very few people get to accomplish.

01:21:06I can't think of anybody today that comes close to ticking all of the boxes that he did.

01:21:15What do you want them to know about you?

01:21:17That I'm a good actor, that I'm someone to be reckoned with, that I can give people something

01:21:22through my work that they see, you know, they make their lives lighter for a moment or inspired

01:21:26or passionate about who they are and feeling good about themselves.

01:21:30And I can definitely swing my butt.

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