00:00For me, what happened after the first and specifically after the second, I was just convinced that I had cheated
00:06death and I was meant to die and that every day that was, I should be, that's all I could
00:12think about.
00:14So it was the opposite of like, I survived, I feel great.
00:19And it was this like, I'm, I'm not meant to be here.
00:24This is going to come and get me.
00:26Um, and that like, it just, it just cuts you off from being able to engage with the outside world
00:37because you're walking around knowing that your body has failed you, your brain has failed you.
00:46This thing that you know to be where yourself, your perception of yourself lies has failed you and no one
00:53else can see it.
00:56So you've, you become very sensitive.
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