00:19I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
00:32I don't know.
01:02They have really good drinks.
01:03I've been going there for a little bit.
01:16Did you want a drink?
01:19Gimlet's.
01:19Oh my god, let the gimlet's go.
01:21Just try mine.
01:23I'm a mean bartender.
01:53Sorry.
01:54These are killing me.
01:55Beauty is pain.
01:57You should have seen the shoes I almost walked out of here in.
02:00I would not have made it.
02:01I dated this girl for a while who wore my stuff all the time.
02:05I think you told me about her.
02:06She stole your black jeans.
02:07Yes, that bitch.
02:10By the way, this is amazing.
02:13I'm eating my words.
02:15Not to be that girl, but I told you so.
02:19You know, when I saw you?
02:22Sorry, go ahead.
02:22Sorry, no.
02:23What were you saying?
02:24I was...
02:25Go ahead.
02:26I was just going to ask if you wanted to...
02:31Do you want to watch a movie?
02:33Oh, yeah, definitely.
02:36One problem.
02:37I don't know what channel it's on.
02:40Wait a minute.
02:42Change of plans.
02:47Race me?
02:48You are so on.
02:53Yes!
02:54What was that?
02:59I'm going to go pee.
03:01We are doing that level again.
03:03If you say so.
03:05All right, don't start it.
03:34Hey, would you like to...
03:35What's going on?
03:37Sorry.
03:38It's getting kind of late and I still got to catch my bus.
03:42So...
03:42Yeah.
03:44Um...
03:45Is everything okay?
03:46Yeah.
03:47Yeah, everything is fine.
03:49Just...
03:49Because if I did something, you can tell me.
03:52No.
03:53No, Miles, I had so much fun tonight.
03:55I just have this, um...
04:00Sorry.
04:01I'll get out of here.
04:03No!
04:04No!
04:05I mean, if you want, but you can tell me if something happened.
04:13It's dumb.
04:16That's okay.
04:29This game.
04:33The summer my brother died.
04:36It was, like, all we did together.
04:40And just now, I can just picture us sitting there in the basement.
04:44And I can see him so clearly.
04:47Like, the shirt he liked to wear.
04:51And his broken glasses.
04:55And it just hit me.
05:00I'll never get to do that with him again.
05:04And that's...
05:06I don't know.
05:08That's not dumb.
05:11It's kind of dumb.
05:12I know what you mean, though.
05:14I mean, I don't want to compare, like, your real grief to my disaster breakup, but I know that feeling
05:20of,
05:20Wow, I really miss this person and suddenly I'm never going to see them.
05:25Yeah.
05:26I know that's not the same.
05:31Grief is grief.
05:32You sound like my therapist.
05:35Uh-oh.
05:36No, just like how she's always talking about losing people and getting over it.
05:41What does she say about it?
05:43Getting over it?
05:45Oh, well, she tells me to think of it as a ball in a box.
05:49So there's the ball, and that's the grief, like, the loss or the death.
05:54And over time, it will get smaller, but life is always going to throw something into it.
05:59Like, a picture of the two of you are video games, and it's going to hit the ball.
06:04And the ball is going to start bouncing back and forth, and it's going to make you emotional and crazy.
06:09Not that you're crazy.
06:10That's not what I mean.
06:11But, like, so there's a ball in the box, right?
06:15There's the ball.
06:16This is not a good explanation.
06:17No, I get it.
06:18My dead brother is a ball.
06:21No, no, no, no, no, no, no.
06:23My dead brother is just this ball that's bouncing around.
06:26No, this is not what I mean.
06:28It was an example.
06:30Maybe he was a baseball.
06:32He loved baseball.
06:35I get it.
06:37It's a good metaphor for how people never really leave us.
06:42Even after they leave us.
06:48Are you okay?
06:50Me?
06:51With your disaster breakup.
06:55That grief ball.
06:56Oh, yeah.
06:59Does dating shake up that box?
07:03No.
07:05Yeah, but that's okay.
07:07What happened?
07:09My last serious relationship just suddenly ended.
07:14She...
07:19I looked through her phone, and I know you're not supposed to do that, but we were together
07:23for four years.
07:24We were going to get married, and we worked together, and I was on her phone, and this text
07:28message just popped up, and it was her ex, and it wasn't a, hey, where's my bag?
07:35It was a...
07:39Oh.
07:39Yeah.
07:40Yeah.
07:40Wow.
07:41Yeah.
07:41Um, so I confronted her, and she was like, I'm sorry, I'm ending it, I'm ending it.
07:47And next thing I know, I come home, and she's just gone.
07:53And she took her things, and left a letter, and that was it.
08:01I'm sorry.
08:02It's okay.
08:04It's...
08:05It's been a while.
08:07I'm over it.
08:08Or, I'm getting over it.
08:10I just...
08:11I just left this piece inside of me that was like, why wasn't I enough?
08:20She must have had bad taste.
08:28You know, for the last year, my therapist has been encouraging me to go on dates, practice
08:34or whatever, get used to it, and I really did not want to do it, but I started talking
08:44to you, and I was like, oh no, I'm gonna have to do this, I really like her.
08:54That's why we didn't meet for so long.
08:58I think it was good for us.
09:00I don't know if you can tell, because I'm really good at hiding it, but I could be pretty
09:04closed off when I first meet someone.
09:06It helped, knowing you so well.
09:10Do you still want to go?
09:12No.
09:15No.
09:26No.
09:28No.
09:31No.
09:33No, no.
09:56Morning. Morning. It's early.
10:01Can you stay for coffee? I got all day.
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