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Gendernauts Eine Reise Durch Die Geschlechter 1999
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00:00:21Nature can be more inventive than
00:00:23culture. In the Enema kingdom there is
00:00:28one species which is utterly fascinating
00:00:30for me because it eliminates the
00:00:33opposition between male and female, the
00:00:36spotted hyena. Female spotted hyenas
00:00:41possess a masculine appearance due to
00:00:44high levels of testosterone in their
00:00:46bloodstream. Testosterone is the male
00:00:49sexual hormone. The clitoris of the
00:00:54female spotted hyena looks like a penis.
00:00:56It serves for intercourse and also as the
00:01:00birth channel. Female spotted hyenas are
00:01:06larger, heavier and more aggressive than
00:01:09the males. Hyenas are organized in clans.
00:01:15They are successful hunters always led by
00:01:19dominant females. In the spotted hyena we
00:01:24find a phenomenon that challenges our
00:01:27perception of the differences between
00:01:29what is male and what is female.
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00:07:03Good luck on your projects.
00:07:05You're beautiful.
00:07:07So are you.
00:07:08I think it's going to be a great movie.
00:07:11He's beautiful.
00:07:12You're beautiful.
00:07:13My kind of guy girl, guy guy person.
00:07:18I've traveled around the world and I've been to a lot of cities, a lot of different countries
00:07:23and I've found that definitely San Francisco is the sex capital of the entire planet.
00:07:29They're more sex artists, sex pioneers, people who have different sexual proclivities here
00:07:38than anywhere.
00:07:48Yes, I have a bird fetish.
00:07:52Yeah.
00:07:54These are the local birds of Marin.
00:08:01And every bird you see with an X is the bird that I've seen.
00:08:06See, birds are like people.
00:08:09You see how many different birds there are?
00:08:12That's how many different kinds of genders there are.
00:08:18Genders take every possible form.
00:08:21We think of them as only two, masculine and feminine, because we've learned to make the
00:08:29others invisible and that, first of all, before we can truly talk about what the other genders
00:08:36are.
00:08:37We have to learn to see them.
00:08:39We have to rediscover vision.
00:08:42We have to re-learn how to see.
00:08:48I got to know Max Valerio in the early 90s.
00:08:52At that time, I made a short film portrait of him.
00:08:56In the film, Max talked about his first steps on the journey from female to male.
00:09:04I was formerly Anita Valerio, born in Heidelberg, Germany, 1957.
00:09:11It was like an explosion in my mind when I realized that I wasn't really a lesbian.
00:09:21I was a transsexual, and I was really a straight man.
00:09:31Basically, what you do is you find a psychologist or a counselor of some kind.
00:09:38After counseling, for at least three months' time, if they decide that you're sincere and
00:09:46that you probably really are a transsexual, they'll write you a letter so that you can
00:09:50obtain male hormones, testosterone.
00:09:54Intramuscular injection, once every two weeks is the standard dosage.
00:09:58What it does is it changes your chemical balance.
00:10:05It changes you chemically into being male.
00:10:09I felt it.
00:10:10I think I started feeling it right away, within three or four hours.
00:10:15It was a very intense experience.
00:10:19The next day, when I woke up, I had so much energy.
00:10:23I couldn't believe all the energy I had.
00:10:25I was just like, oh, my God.
00:10:28You know, I went walking down the street, and I was just like, oh, is this how I feel?
00:10:34Well, it's been seven years now since we filmed the Max portrait in femaleness behavior.
00:10:40And there's definitely been some changes.
00:10:43Well, for one thing, I'm a blonde now.
00:10:48But that's only temporary.
00:10:53And I've had chest surgery.
00:10:55I've had my chest surgery, and I've been even deeper, going deeper into the process in the sense of my
00:11:03consciousness changing and living as male and becoming more of a man in a sense as time has gone on.
00:11:15And I've experienced my values shifting quite a bit, and I'm coming to a deeper understanding of what it means
00:11:25to be male biologically and in this society.
00:11:31And I've been writing.
00:11:34I've been working on a book.
00:11:38For 32 years, I lived inside a woman's body.
00:11:43Although I resisted femaleness on and off throughout my life, I learned to speak the language of women, to pass
00:11:50on scene among them.
00:11:52I was both part of their world and apart from it, alien and peer, feeling male inside, yet living the
00:11:59life of a woman.
00:12:00I learned a lot.
00:12:02What I learned is still with me, even as I transform, even as my emotional mooring shift and my body
00:12:11recreates itself from female to male.
00:12:17Because of the discovery and synthesis of the sex hormones, estrogen and testosterone, I'm able to do more than simply
00:12:25live in the world in the male role.
00:12:27I can actually become chemically, hormonally male and transform physically into a man.
00:12:35My sex drive definitely went up.
00:12:37And it's still very high.
00:12:39Even though, you know, I found that, I mean, you just get used to it after a while.
00:12:43And that's just the way it is.
00:12:45And you also find out you don't always have to give in to your, you know, to this new sex
00:12:50drive.
00:12:52You know, you can, it'll, the feelings will go away if you just ignore them.
00:12:57So you kind of settled into it with time.
00:13:01I'm still attracted to women.
00:13:03You know, I still love women.
00:13:05I mean, in that sense, nothing has changed.
00:13:10We are the furthest, most extreme expression of manipulation of the body.
00:13:18Almost as though that body, that human stretch of flesh, were a piece of plastic or some other nearly synthetic,
00:13:28malleable substance.
00:13:29We restructure our glands, our body fluids, skin, nerves, and genitals.
00:13:39I got the chest surgery finally after six years of binding, which is, you know, that's hell to bind.
00:13:47And finally, I got the surgery in January of 1995.
00:13:54And so, and I'm very pleased.
00:14:02You know, I'm feeling really good about it.
00:14:11My doctor is great.
00:14:12He does free revisions.
00:14:14And we're going to do a little, pick this up a little bit here.
00:14:19And also, you know, maybe do a little bit of a revision on the scar here.
00:14:26But he did a great job, you know, considering.
00:14:31So, you know, I'm very pleased.
00:14:32I just need to start working out.
00:14:38So, you know.
00:14:45I am planning on having bottom surgery, and I can afford it.
00:14:49And, of course, I'm going to be very picky.
00:14:52I'm probably going to go for the simplest, most non-invasive kind of surgery.
00:14:59What's your sport?
00:15:00Which is probably, you know, I'm going to get, you know, I'm going to get balls.
00:15:06I think I'll get big balls.
00:15:07I think you need big balls in a world like this.
00:15:11And, but I'm going to get the most realistic kind, because that's certainly possible.
00:15:17But I think I'm going to get the little dick, which is basically the freeing of the clitoral penis,
00:15:24which has grown quite a bit.
00:15:27And, you know, I'll basically do what I've always been doing for sex,
00:15:31which is, you know, strapping it on, being inventive, using imagination,
00:15:37which has worked well, so.
00:15:41One of the advantages, or challenges, or both, of transgender
00:15:47is that the word trans implies a broad spectrum of identities through which we move,
00:15:57and through which we pass, thousands of them, perhaps.
00:16:02And as people conditioned in our society to only see, too, the act of learning to see many
00:16:15is the supreme act, because it is the beginning of the path to discovery of self, of our self, of
00:16:27myself, yourself,
00:16:28of deeply and importantly who we are.
00:16:34And only when we have begun the first steps on that journey can we really start to talk about trans.
00:16:47Georgie Jones and I became good friends.
00:16:51Georgie Jones and I became good friends.
00:16:51Georgie is a gender-variant artist whose work reflects a unique sensibility.
00:17:08The whole media exposure that's happened started out with an article,
00:17:14and the headline was, Why This Woman Is Shaving.
00:17:18And then when you're done, use the arrows to view all the different layouts.
00:17:22If the layout is labeled text.
00:17:24There are things I'm doing with my art that speak a lot more to the more interesting aspects of transsexuality,
00:17:32certainly, than something as mundane as shaving.
00:17:36Three, two, one, smile.
00:17:42Three, two, one, smile.
00:17:45I think the next time somebody asks me if they can take a picture of me shaving, I'll say sure,
00:17:50and would you like to take a picture of me brushing my teeth and cleaning out my toenails as well.
00:17:56Select the picture you want to use for your stamp by touching it.
00:18:01Is this one okay?
00:18:12Welcome to Georgieland.
00:18:15Giveaway art.
00:18:17Art should be also affordable.
00:18:23I had these available at Trend Central for people to take away with them as souvenirs.
00:18:29It's the Trend Central subtext in blue and pink.
00:18:36I've always been interested in writing and always also been a visual artist,
00:18:40and as I started working with computers, it was very easy and very logical
00:18:46and an extension of what I'd already been doing in other mediums.
00:18:50This is a project that was conceived by Xu Li Cheng on the west coast here.
00:18:57Susan Stryker and I are the main collaborators, me as designer and Susan as writer.
00:19:04It's very loosely based on a historical individual, Brandon Tina or Tina Brandon, depending on how you read the story,
00:19:14who was the victim of a rather heinous crime in Nebraska about four years ago.
00:19:20Brandon Tina was, depending on how you read it, a passing woman, a non-op transsexual, a transgendered individual.
00:19:29No one knows because Brandon's dead, so we can't ask.
00:19:37We've chosen to represent Brandon as a multiple fictive individual rather than establishing our viewpoint solidly in any of the
00:19:49camps that say this is what Brandon was.
00:19:55This is the beginning of the Venus Extravaganza interface.
00:19:59In this interface, Brandon meets Venus Extravaganza, the murdered transsexual from Paris' Burning, in a chat room.
00:20:10Brandon is opening in a few months at the Guggenheim Museum in New York.
00:20:22I think when I'm 90, I want to be Quentin Crisp.
00:20:25Well, I think he's fabulous.
00:20:27Reading some of his experiences as the sort of young person whose transgressions couldn't be hidden.
00:20:35You know, I identify very strongly with that and have, you know, a lot of respect for the humor and
00:20:42courage with which he lived his life and became so much Quentin Crisp.
00:20:49And I'd like, if I'm old, to be very much shorty.
00:20:54I think he had the great acompanhation of things in the world, but it was just a little bit of
00:20:55a good place.
00:21:10And he's not gonna be right.
00:21:11It's gonna be a great deal.
00:21:13You've got to be the best.
00:21:14Just a little bit.
00:21:16You're gonna be the best for you.
00:21:17You're gonna be a good slice.
00:21:21You're gonna be the best.
00:21:22You're gonna be the best.
00:21:26Get the point.
00:21:29What's the point?
00:21:32The point is this.
00:21:38I am Jephtable Man.
00:21:45The Jephtable Man forces me to pass.
00:21:54As the B- NFT has been hacked.
00:21:56I can't believe I want you to step the right on the left side.
00:22:06Blah!
00:22:10Blah!
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00:22:15Blah!
00:22:16Blah!
00:22:17Blah!
00:22:23Jump clear.
00:22:56We are taught, most of us, to believe that only a single gender identity is safe, and
00:23:04all other genders are dangerous. So we have one that we are required, pressured, expected
00:23:14to have for life. It's the one, first of all, that matches our physical genitalia. It's
00:23:23the one that matches our society's expectations of what those genitalia are and what they're
00:23:31supposed to do. If we're born with different genitalia, we are changed, usually right at
00:23:39birth, so that we meet the physical expectations, and then we have one gender that matches that.
00:23:48But what the world is really like, really like, is not that at all. In the real world, we have
00:23:55many genders, and we have many identities, and none of our bodies really match any standard
00:24:03of what things should be like.
00:24:10I met Stafford through Geordie. As I got to know Stafford, I was delighted to discover
00:24:16Stafford's down-to-earth approach towards gender.
00:24:21I was talking to my mom. I said something about, you know, what time of the day was I born.
00:24:28She said, oh, you were born 2.30 in the morning, but you came right out. And she said, that's
00:24:33back when you were a girl. I was like, right on, Mom.
00:24:39I grew up in a small town called Gridley, California, about 5,000 people. My dad was a truck driver,
00:24:48Hell's Angels kind of guy. I had four older brothers and a little sister. We just sort of
00:24:56grew up pretty wild and able to run around a lot.
00:25:08Coming from a small town, I knew I needed to get out. I had to get out because I was
00:25:13too
00:25:13queer and I wanted to be a photographer. So I joined the army as a photographer and traveled
00:25:20for five years. Getting out of the army was not a pleasant affair. They sort of tried to
00:25:32persecute me a little bit. I ended up in San Francisco because for queers, it's sort of
00:25:42the Mecca. It's the only place you can be and really be yourself.
00:25:49When I walk down the street, I'm never taken as female, almost to the point where I can wear
00:25:54a T-shirt and have breasts showing. People look at my short hair and the fact that I'm
00:25:59six feet tall and they read that as a secondary sexual characteristic. I guess I have, you know,
00:26:06a female genitalia, but I don't think I have a female body. Between 1987 and 1992, I was doing
00:26:17a lot of fashion shoots. I always got all the androgynous roles and that was a lot of fun.
00:26:27So then I started taking my own photographs and doing some more of my own photography again.
00:26:36I manipulated photos on the computer and then I ran into a fellow who taught me graphic design
00:26:42and typography and brought it all together. This is a site that I came up with a few years ago
00:26:50because I really loved Gertrude Stein and there was nothing on the web at that time.
00:26:54Something that Stein wrote just kind of summed up my whole life. She said she was always losing what
00:27:01she had and wanting all the things she saw. She was always being left when she was not leaving
00:27:05others. And then I also do commercial websites for clients. I don't call myself webmaster. I think
00:27:14that's a little too domineering. I call myself webmaven, which I think talks about somebody who knows
00:27:21about the web and is willing to tell you about it. Club Confidential here. We better put it up here.
00:27:29We had a website because we did the club the other day and so we made a website for it.
00:27:36Justin Bond and I
00:27:37took Sunday night and we did this club called Club Confidential. And when you walked in there,
00:27:43you'd be met with paparazzi, with flash bulbs, you know, and your picture would be taken. And then we had
00:27:49somebody there to announce you. So they'd say, ladies and gentlemen, now entering the club, you know,
00:27:58Elvis or Selvis. We became sort of this cult thing. We never announced the club. We never told anybody
00:28:07when we were going to do it. We just did it. It's a very interesting mixed scene. I like to
00:28:13think of it
00:28:13as being something like the American millennial version of what, um, maybe Berlin in the 20s was
00:28:20like. There's a lot of different things going on very simultaneously and without a lot of the
00:28:28boundaries that we put between things, that gay guys go to this club, trans people go to this club,
00:28:34the lesbians go to this club. And we always wanted it to be very open.
00:28:41Good evening and welcome to Club Confidential. We have a wonderful array of talent for you tonight,
00:28:47including some of San Francisco's best gender bendering, mind blowing, um, wild mind talent.
00:28:56And from New York, we have the cream of the New York drag king scene. And for your emcees tonight,
00:29:03and to present this fabulous show to you, we have two-time presidential candidate, San Francisco's
00:29:10supervisor candidate, Joan Jett Black, and Chippor's sister Roma. Please welcome them to the stage tonight.
00:29:26There is nothing hotter than a girl in a suit. There are some hot men in the audience tonight.
00:29:32I know and I love that only in San Francisco the men are women. The best looking men are women.
00:29:38New York, New York, too? Okay. Queer David in the house of strange love. Present.
00:29:45It's fudgy. All right. All right.
00:29:48Fashion gender mixer. All right. Yeah. Yeah. You can play with that some more, baby. Yeah. Oh, okay.
00:29:58Oh, hi, Russell. Oh, Russell's giving us tails. I love the tails.
00:30:02Jordy Jones. Jordy Jones. The little devil. Oh, Jordy, you better whir. Is that top edible?
00:30:11All right.
00:30:15All right, Miss Thing over there. That's bad. Take something off.
00:30:18Trying to instigate nudity in all of it. You know what?
00:30:25Oh, boy. Here we go. I'm going to call all your parents tomorrow and tell them you became
00:30:30We had some Negroes overnight, I think.
00:30:33An all-boy transgender mixer.
00:30:47Okay, right here from New York, we have the myth,
00:30:55from Colum, Casanova.
00:31:23I...
00:31:26am...
00:31:27what I am.
00:31:35I am my own...
00:31:40special creation.
00:31:43I bang my own...
00:31:46some think it's noise, I think it's creepy.
00:31:51I am what I am, and what I am needs no excuses.
00:32:03I'm under the dam, till you can say, hey world, I am what I am.
00:32:33Do you mind, sweetheart?
00:32:34No, you mind.
00:32:36Whatever.
00:32:37No, I want to say a special thank you to Geordie Jones, all right?
00:32:41Now, do you get a good response in New York City when you...
00:32:46New Jerk?
00:32:47New Jerk.
00:32:47New Jerk City?
00:32:49Is that your Giuliani impression?
00:32:51I like that.
00:32:52Oh my God.
00:32:54Hey, we come from the house of Dick.
00:32:55What can I tell you, sweetheart?
00:32:56The house of Dick.
00:32:57Oh my God.
00:33:00Wait, wait, wait.
00:33:01Uh-uh.
00:33:02Uh-uh.
00:33:04No, no.
00:33:05Don't do it, okay?
00:33:07I have small hands, I got small feet, but I'm a Negro.
00:33:10Hey, put that shirt!
00:33:12So this is a photograph of Max?
00:33:14Yeah, Max Wolfe, or Max Wolfe Valerio as he was known then.
00:33:19He was the first person who helped me figure out where to get testosterone.
00:33:24We got it on the gray market, and it was very weird, very risky, and not a good scene at
00:33:32all.
00:33:35We went up to this weird little doctor's office.
00:33:39The doctor was about 80 years old, and he wouldn't let you do your own injections.
00:33:43He wanted that $40 every two weeks to give you your injection, and it was very weird and very backwards.
00:33:53And I'm really glad the transgender clinic started, and Dr. Zevin, and Mark Freeman, and everybody over there.
00:34:09We developed the idea of creating a medical clinic that would reduce the level of discrimination by being welcoming to
00:34:20transgender people,
00:34:23and meeting the needs of transgender people.
00:34:26And pretty early along, we realized that one of the things we'd need to do is prescribe hormones for hormonal
00:34:32reassignment of gender to people.
00:34:35With the encouragement of the administration here, with the encouragement of the Department of Public Health,
00:34:40we were able to start having this clinic one evening a week.
00:34:46When people first come to us, they get laboratory tests drawn, they see a nurse, they get a complete physical
00:34:55at our first visit.
00:34:57We do a complete history, a complete life history and medical history.
00:35:01And then we're able to start hormones.
00:35:06And our only condition for people starting hormones is fairly simple.
00:35:12It's that they are capable of giving informed consent.
00:35:15And by informed consent, we mean that they're mentally capable of understanding the risks that go along with taking hormones,
00:35:25and also of understanding that there may be some limits to the therapy that we offer.
00:35:31We're not a surgical clinic. We don't do surgery. We don't give approval for surgery.
00:35:36What we do is gender reassignment by hormones and complete medical primary care.
00:35:43I've been coming here for two or three years now.
00:35:47And I'm post-op, so it's like I don't need to take as many hormones as some of the other
00:35:53girls.
00:35:55But it's working out real well. It's a really good clinic.
00:35:59I have patients that have come to me telling me I am bigender.
00:36:02I just want to be more androgynous.
00:36:06And I'm a lesbian, but I want to be more dyke.
00:36:12And I don't know medically what is my part there.
00:36:18Socially, I would say, I would probably say, be my guest.
00:36:24Express yourself the way you want to.
00:36:26At the present moment, I see myself as a big experiment.
00:36:33And I think other people see me as a big experiment.
00:36:38Most of my patients are male to female.
00:36:42But I really do enjoy working with the female to male patients.
00:36:47There's a certain bonding that goes on.
00:36:50They, you know, they look to me as another guy and somebody who they can trust.
00:37:00And I'm gay.
00:37:02So I also feel like I come from the same world, the same life that they come from.
00:37:12Although it's become clearer to all of us since we've been working in the clinic that transsexuals are not just
00:37:19homosexuals.
00:37:19It's an entirely different group of people.
00:37:23Cyborgs are us.
00:37:26Cyborgs are the creatures that we have become at the close of the mechanical age.
00:37:32Cyborgs are creatures that are made up of many parts.
00:37:36Cyborgs are creatures that are only partially together.
00:37:40That are always partial.
00:37:42That are continually in motion and in change.
00:37:47That are pieces of this identity and that identity.
00:37:51that are made up of human and machine, of flesh and mechanics and electronics, musculature and hydraulics.
00:38:02The many, many different kinds of person, of identity that we have created and that are creating us.
00:38:29My name is Texas Tomboy.
00:38:34I'm making the symbol that I came up for my name.
00:38:39And based on cattle brands that I've seen, the different symbols really interested me.
00:39:17I moved here from Austin, Texas.
00:39:20I grew up in Houston.
00:39:22And I was born in a little town called Bel Air.
00:39:28This is my apartment, which I've nicknamed the Tenth Planet.
00:39:33When my friends ask where to meet, I tell them the Tenth Planet and they know what I mean.
00:39:40I always liked to be naked as a baby.
00:39:42I really did not like to wear clothes.
00:39:50This is Southern Decadence, which is a kind of a drag Mardi Gras that happens in New Orleans.
00:39:59This is the character, Sterling, that exists only in New Orleans.
00:40:26I came to San Francisco for the Lesbian and Gay Film Festival.
00:40:31I got in to see one show and I was extremely inspired to do my own work.
00:40:38I got into the film school, the Art Institute, on a merit scholarship.
00:40:43I just graduated there.
00:40:46I'm working at Bay Area Video Coalition, which is a fabulous non-profit video post-production facility here in San
00:40:56Francisco.
00:40:58I like learning every aspect of making my own work.
00:41:03And even if it takes a long time to do, I like to do everything.
00:41:37I like learning very much every day in the Test Bachelor.
00:41:37I think it's interesting.
00:41:47I think just my whole life I've really been into adventures and just seeing the planet
00:41:55and running around and being, finding everything really interesting and fun.
00:42:36For more information visit www. concord.com
00:42:52Oh, my God.
00:43:17I have many different kinds of friends.
00:43:21I love to have intergenerational friendships.
00:43:27I like having friends much younger than me and much older than me, the same age, as much
00:43:34of a variation as possible.
00:43:36It was effortless, it was absolute, no fear at all, just excitement.
00:43:43I met Tornado through Texas.
00:43:46Welcome to my home.
00:43:48I fell for Tornado's being so open-minded, warm and playful.
00:43:54She has an important role in Texas's life.
00:43:58And here's my baby Miami, this is the kitchen, this is Miami's home, this is the one rule
00:44:04of the house, is that this is his and we do whatever he wants.
00:44:10Here's my baby Texas.
00:44:12There she is.
00:44:14He is.
00:44:17Come on.
00:44:18Hi Miami.
00:44:23In 1980, I was on a trip with my boyfriend at the time and ran into my first girlfriend.
00:44:31And she, I said, get me out of here.
00:44:35So she takes off with me and I said, you know, I don't have any money.
00:44:40I have five bucks.
00:44:40I have to get back home.
00:44:41And she introduced me to this guy who was a penthouse photographer.
00:44:46And I was like, oh yeah, sure.
00:44:48You know, he would put me up, send me back home.
00:44:50And I thought, this is great.
00:44:51They'll never ever print these photographs because my hair is so short.
00:44:56And they did.
00:44:59Penthouse got me out of Minnesota and got me to New York.
00:45:04Eventually, I got here.
00:45:06I worked in nightclubs and ran the VIP lounges and did all kinds of everything you could possibly
00:45:14do in a nightclub I've done.
00:45:16I did that for many years and became the queen of the nightclub scene in San Francisco.
00:45:23And then I stopped that.
00:45:26But I did a vow of silence about four years ago and quit my whole public persona.
00:45:36Texas!
00:45:38Hi, pumpkin.
00:45:40Oh, same thing you're doing.
00:45:42Come on.
00:45:43Hi.
00:45:44How are you?
00:45:45It's so good to see you.
00:45:46It's great to see you.
00:45:47It's such a fun time.
00:45:47Texas is like an orphan.
00:45:51Where she goes, she creates her family.
00:45:54I needed wheatgrass juice real badly.
00:45:57All right.
00:45:58Texas was raised alone with her mother.
00:46:01And I don't think she really had a big, strong family base.
00:46:08Wherever she is and she's settled, she wants to feel very secure there.
00:46:13And have people that she can depend on no matter what.
00:46:19It's like drinking a pound of vegetables or it's really good for you.
00:46:24Oh, it's manna.
00:46:25It's like direct from the source.
00:46:28I love that.
00:46:29She asked me one day, she goes, will you be my mom?
00:46:33And I was like, yeah, okay, I'll be your mom.
00:46:36And we have a very mother-child relationship right now.
00:46:41Mother-son, mother-daughter, mother-child.
00:46:45Female or male with Texas, I always say she because there's, you know, a huge picture of her pussy on
00:46:51my wall.
00:46:53And she has a womb, which is, you know, the most creative thing in the whole universe.
00:47:01Texas prefers to be called he, I believe, but has never really said it directly to me.
00:47:11I don't think, maybe.
00:47:15A mother should know.
00:47:17I know, a mother should know what kind of child she has.
00:47:21Well, I just say my child.
00:47:24This is Texas, my child.
00:47:26I really don't think in terms of male or female, especially with Texas or with Stafford or with Jordi.
00:47:36You're lots of people.
00:47:37I just see them as they are and who they are and what they are.
00:47:40They're people.
00:47:43And they're pressing the limits.
00:47:49I worry about the testosterone sometimes because it's the mother's prerogative.
00:47:56And because I worry about anybody taking any kind of steroids.
00:48:00I don't know enough about it.
00:48:04We don't know the real long-term effects, what exactly is going to happen.
00:48:12The effect it has on your liver and your spleen and your digestive system and your thyroid and your hypothalamus.
00:48:20I mean, who really knows?
00:48:23I just pray that her body accepts it and doesn't rebel against it in any way.
00:48:34I think what we found is that there is some degree of safety in this.
00:48:44Certainly enough for us to feel comfortable in prescribing these medications.
00:48:49But that we really do need to tell our patients that there's a whole lot of uncertainty.
00:48:54There are kind of new studies of the use of testosterone in women.
00:48:58And I found a few of them linking increased testosterone with breast cancer.
00:49:07And still something like premature to say testosterone therapy can cause breast cancer.
00:49:14But there's some studies that are pointing to that.
00:49:19So that's something to be seen in the future.
00:49:22We did computer searches of the medical literature and medical databases.
00:49:26Wait a minute. There's only four articles here. There's only six articles here.
00:49:30Almost any subject you do, you find 50 articles or 100 articles.
00:49:35And over the years, what I found is when I talk to different physicians,
00:49:41almost everyone has had the same experience of saying,
00:49:44there must be more research than this.
00:49:46After all, we've had 30 years of experience in Europe, Asia, and the United States with this.
00:49:52Very little has been published on this topic.
00:50:01What happened? Hello.
00:50:04Hello.
00:50:05The whole group is here.
00:50:07It's here.
00:50:08Good evening.
00:50:10Hello.
00:50:11Hi, Kim.
00:50:13Good to see you.
00:50:14Hi.
00:50:15Hi.
00:50:16Good to see you.
00:50:17Mwah.
00:50:19I don't know.
00:50:34So?
00:50:35So?
00:50:35Talk to me.
00:50:36How is life?
00:50:37What's happening?
00:50:38Life is great.
00:50:39Yes.
00:50:40The best thing, I think I told you this the other night, that I got this post-doc now at
00:50:44Stanford,
00:50:45the Social Sciences Research Council grant, so I get to spend two years doing nothing but, you know,
00:50:50tranny history in theory.
00:50:52What could be that?
00:50:52Don't have to teach.
00:50:53Don't have to do anything.
00:50:54Don't have to move.
00:51:03She's in Idaho.
00:51:05Oh, she's in Idaho?
00:51:07She's a white supremacist living in a, like, a neo-Nazi, on a slave.
00:51:12No.
00:51:13No, really?
00:51:14Oh, shit.
00:51:15Yeah.
00:51:16Good boy.
00:51:17Nice to see you all.
00:51:20Welcome.
00:51:20Yeah, I'm coming.
00:51:24I'm coming.
00:51:25It's a pleasure .
00:51:26It's a pleasure to meet you.
00:51:27Welcome, St. Louis, thectar.
00:51:29It's great to be here.
00:51:30We are the point.
00:51:34Hi, Susan.
00:51:35How are you?
00:51:36Good.
00:51:38Good.
00:51:38Hi, John.
00:51:39Hi, John.
00:51:40Good.
00:51:40Good, John.
00:51:41I'll try to show all the right.
00:51:43Hi, Susan.
00:52:19I would like to say that within transgenderism that there can be a way of showing the remarkable
00:52:27diversity of human experience and that for me it's been a really powerful way of feeling
00:52:37like I'm in control of my own body, that it's like saying my body belongs to me and I'm
00:52:45going to do with it what I choose to make myself happy.
00:52:50You know, for myself it's like my, I feel like I have the right or the ability to exercise
00:53:00complete control over this flesh here.
00:53:03It's mine, you know.
00:53:04I live here, you know.
00:53:05I don't rent.
00:53:06I'm not borrowing it from someone, you know.
00:53:08It's like I didn't have to pay a damage deposit.
00:53:10It's, you know, it's mine to do with as, you know, I see fit and if I, if I wreck
00:53:17it
00:53:17or ruin it somehow, then that's my responsibility.
00:53:25This is a perfect moment, you know, with the kid, the little boy whose mama doesn't want
00:53:32to cut his hair so she puts a barrette in it, with the transsexual watching one of the biggest
00:53:38drag queens in the history of rock and roll on Sesame Street.
00:53:46This is what gender has come to in the late 20th century.
00:54:07There's so much discrimination against transsexual and transgendered people that if you, you know,
00:54:13feel in your heart of hearts that, you know, even though you were born a woman, you need
00:54:18to live as a man, you know, if you do that for yourself, then maybe you won't be able
00:54:24to find a job.
00:54:25Maybe you'll lose, you know, your lovers.
00:54:28Maybe you'll lose your children.
00:54:30Maybe you'll be subjected to hate violence.
00:54:34Maybe you'll, you know, you'll get into all kinds of horrible situations because this
00:54:38is something that you personally need to do for yourself.
00:54:42And I would just hope that there'll be less of that in the future, that people will be
00:54:51able to, you know, actualize who they are.
00:54:58The transgender sensitivity component started to teach, recruit, and advanced officers at
00:55:06the San Francisco Police Academy about lesbian, gay, bisexual, and transgender sensitivity within
00:55:14the context of domestic violence.
00:55:18The first thing that I do when I teach at the academy is teach them the definition of transgender.
00:55:26The prefix trans meaning to cross and the word gender being the presentation of what we have
00:55:34been taught to perceive as male or female.
00:55:37So transgender literally means to cross gender and anyone who challenges gender or bends gender,
00:55:45including transsexuals, transvestites, drag queens, drag kings, preoperative folk, postoperative
00:55:52folk, all those people go under the umbrella of transgender.
00:55:57Very few municipalities have a protective ordinance for transgender people.
00:56:02San Francisco is one of those few.
00:56:05You cannot, it is not legal to discriminate against transgender people in public accommodations,
00:56:10in employment, in housing, in those basic fundamental things.
00:56:15And I think something like less than five, less than a handful of nations, not states,
00:56:19certainly it's not in any state, but a handful of cities have anything like that kind of protection
00:56:25for transgender people.
00:56:27So if you will, this is the transgender mecca as well.
00:56:33The number of people who are born with the genitalia of more than one sex are far greater than we
00:56:42know
00:56:42because some doctors have been trained to act as gatekeepers for our expectations of the way that gender operates.
00:56:53And so they change what are called ambiguous genitalia in order to make them more recognizable
00:57:00as one of the traditional male or female.
00:57:04If we could see that, if we allowed people to grow up as they were born,
00:57:11we would find that there was a much wider variation of even physical identity than we think there is.
00:57:22We ran into HIDA by accident at the transgender clinic.
00:57:27I found her remarkably attractive and outspoken.
00:57:32So you're doing mostly just primary care?
00:57:36Well, I wanted to try to find my intersex condition, you know,
00:57:40because I do have certain, like, male characteristics, physical characteristics,
00:57:47and they wanted to give me hormones at puberty.
00:57:50So that makes me qualify as intersexed.
00:57:54Okay, let's go.
00:57:57Nice to see you again.
00:57:58Yeah.
00:57:59You can watch every couple of weeks.
00:58:01Intersexed is just the modern term for hermaphrodite.
00:58:04They're really interchangeable.
00:58:06I did always feel different.
00:58:09I didn't really know how to put it into words.
00:58:12I just felt that I wasn't like other women.
00:58:15I felt that I wasn't like my mother or my sister, even the other girls in school.
00:58:22And I felt a little bit like the boys, but I didn't really feel like them either.
00:58:28So I just kind of felt different, you know, for many years.
00:58:33I felt sort of in between sexes, I think, you know, closer to female, but not quite female.
00:58:41I think that that's the best way to describe it, not quite female.
00:58:46I had a lot of problems with the lesbian community when I was first coming out
00:58:51because I never felt accepted no matter what I did.
00:58:55In the beginning, I actually at that time looked extremely,
00:59:00I guess what you could call high femme, you know, extremely feminine.
00:59:03And presentation, never wore pants, always wore makeup, had long hair,
00:59:09and had a lot of fun with it.
00:59:10That's what I wanted to do at the time.
00:59:12And that wasn't the thing to do where I was coming out, you know,
00:59:15at the particular college I was at.
00:59:18And it also wasn't the thing to do to have an aggressive sexuality.
00:59:22You know, I mean, I was dying to come out.
00:59:25I mean, I had crushes on girls all of my life, you know, and all through high school.
00:59:32Also, at that time, obviously, I started having sex with women.
00:59:36And that's when it became apparent to me that I was different physically
00:59:41from, well, any women that I encountered.
00:59:47There was a point when I was about 19 where I went through a really big transition around it
00:59:56and felt like I was more male, you know.
01:00:01And then I sort of shifted back.
01:00:03You know, I've kind of been shifting back and forth.
01:00:05And I think now, recently, I finally, not too recently, but a few years ago,
01:00:13I gave up all the female presentation, like the drag as I thought of it,
01:00:19because I realized growing up one thing that I knew was that I chose certain clothing
01:00:25to make my body look more feminine.
01:00:27I knew that there were certain pieces of clothing that if I wore,
01:00:32I wouldn't look that much different from a man.
01:00:37I actually started experimenting with it and, you know, watching men
01:00:43and finding out what it was like to be a man, how men move, how men talk,
01:00:47you know, the energy they throw out.
01:00:49And kind of went through this, like, self-teaching process
01:00:54of, like, learning how to be a man.
01:00:57It was bizarre.
01:00:59It was wild.
01:00:59And I'm starting to write about it, actually,
01:01:01because it was like learning.
01:01:03It was a learned behavior.
01:01:04And I got to the point where I was doing it so well
01:01:07that different guys at this job I was working,
01:01:12they actually thought that I was, like, this super dude.
01:01:16You know, they'd say things like,
01:01:18wow, you have a really big motorcycle and, like, a different woman every day
01:01:22and, like, crazy stuff like that.
01:01:24And I didn't have a different woman every day.
01:01:28But, you know, I had a girlfriend at the time
01:01:31who was really feminine-looking.
01:01:33And I felt like I had, you know, mastered the art
01:01:37and, like, fooled all these people.
01:01:39And it was really fascinating and fun, actually.
01:01:50Now I am trying to shift back
01:01:52and really inhabit the middle ground that I feel is me.
01:01:56I think the middle ground is a place
01:02:00where people aren't sure what you are.
01:02:06Having, you know, traveled more and been around,
01:02:08there's just no other place that I could live as I do.
01:02:12I think, and feel comfortable.
01:02:15Last summer I went to Costa Rica
01:02:17and I couldn't pass as a woman.
01:02:22Like, I was stopped by police.
01:02:24I was cruised constantly by older men.
01:02:27I was sort of harassed as a,
01:02:30what they thought was a young homosexual man.
01:02:33And this was in my bathing suit.
01:02:35Okay, so this is a particularly interesting intersex experience
01:02:39because it couldn't have happened otherwise.
01:02:41You know, I was in my bathing suit
01:02:43and I had on a little top.
01:02:46And that's when it got really scary
01:02:49because even with this little top on,
01:02:52they still thought I was a man.
01:02:53So I thought, oh my God,
01:02:54they must think I'm this flaming fag,
01:02:56like, traipsing around Costa Rica
01:02:58with a little top on.
01:03:00I mean, who wears, no guys wear a top.
01:03:02And it was, you know, it was exciting
01:03:04and it was interesting, it was fun,
01:03:06but I knew it was a limited time period
01:03:08and it's just like I couldn't have,
01:03:10you know, I couldn't have stayed there.
01:03:11And so here, you know, it's like I can be me.
01:03:15That's my main pull to San Francisco
01:03:17and the fact that it's so beautiful.
01:03:23There are men, and I use the term in the cultural sense,
01:03:30men who wish to live as women
01:03:33but who wish to have male genitalia.
01:03:36There are women who wish to live as men
01:03:39but still have female genitalia.
01:03:42There are people who wish to have both genitalia.
01:03:49Annie Sprinkle, I think, probably is best known
01:03:52for having a lover who has both.
01:03:54But there are a lot more people around than that
01:03:59who have the genitalia of both primary sexes.
01:04:10In the 80s, I had an apartment
01:04:12that was very busy with lots of people
01:04:14and we affectionately called it the Sprinkle Salon.
01:04:17It was kind of a laboratory for people
01:04:19to explore gender and sexuality.
01:04:23We had a group of female-to-male transsexuals
01:04:27meet there for about four years
01:04:28and I had a lover, Les Nichols,
01:04:33who was an F2M, very much a pioneer.
01:04:39I made a video called
01:04:40Linda, Les, and Annie,
01:04:42The First Female-to-Male Transsexual Love Story
01:04:45and it was a half-hour docudrama
01:04:48about my lover, Les Nichols.
01:04:51About the night he tried his brand-new
01:04:53surgically constructed penis out
01:04:55for the very first time.
01:04:56In order to make Les erect,
01:04:58he must slide a hard plastic rod
01:05:00into the center of his hollow penis.
01:05:04It was instant erection.
01:05:08I squatted over him,
01:05:11took a deep breath,
01:05:13and lowered myself onto the newborn phallus.
01:05:18It felt fantastic.
01:05:21It really worked.
01:05:24But after just a few strokes,
01:05:27we had to stop.
01:05:28The plastic rod had pushed its way
01:05:31up the hollow center of his tube of flesh
01:05:34and out the head of his cock
01:05:36and through the condom.
01:05:38We had to go into the kitchen
01:05:40and cut an inch off the rod.
01:05:43Thank goodness I owned a small, sharp saw.
01:05:48I imagined a new community emerging
01:05:51of men with cunts
01:05:53who could become a new political force
01:05:56of women taking over the world but as men.
01:06:00I envisioned a new awareness of transgender,
01:06:05of looking beyond a person's gender
01:06:08to the spirit
01:06:09where society would no longer try
01:06:11and mold us into being plain old heterosexuals.
01:06:16And I put the video out.
01:06:20I also had written an article about it
01:06:24which was published in Hustler magazine
01:06:25and included photos of Les and his duo genitalia.
01:06:30And, well, needless to say,
01:06:32there was quite a lot of shock and outrage,
01:06:34particularly from the female-to-male transsexual community
01:06:38who thought we weren't, you know,
01:06:41making the F2Ms look very good.
01:06:44They felt we were too radical
01:06:47and, for example,
01:06:51we showed Les's vagina
01:06:54which most F2Ms wouldn't even want to acknowledge
01:06:57that they had one
01:06:58and Les was very open about having a vagina and a penis.
01:07:02So, anyway, we got a lot of shit
01:07:05but sometimes it's not easy being avant-garde.
01:07:08I have great respect for Les.
01:07:11I see him as a unique avant-garde artist
01:07:15whose medium is his body,
01:07:18whose subject matter is sex
01:07:21and whose message,
01:07:24as it is tattooed across his chest,
01:07:27is freedom.
01:07:30That video has now become a kind of little classic
01:07:35and, of course, it was the first of its kind
01:07:37and people are starting to see
01:07:40that we're just having fun
01:07:41and being ourselves
01:07:42and being open
01:07:43and we certainly didn't mean any harm.
01:07:49And you know how the tide comes up
01:07:52and the tide goes down,
01:07:54the tide comes up,
01:07:55everything's constantly changing
01:07:58and it's like that with sex and with gender.
01:08:01It's always changing.
01:08:02You're always,
01:08:03sometimes you're a little more male,
01:08:05sometimes you're a little more female,
01:08:06sometimes you want to dress very femme-y,
01:08:12sometimes you want to dress very butch,
01:08:15sometimes you feel aggressive
01:08:18and sometimes you feel passive
01:08:19and sometimes you feel in the middle.
01:08:25So, you see, everything's always changing,
01:08:27like the time,
01:08:28my philosophy for the day.
01:08:33As gender-naughts,
01:08:35we seek through the sea of desire.
01:08:39As with person-naught,
01:08:41we sought through the sea of simple identity.
01:08:44With gender,
01:08:45we're looking through the ways
01:08:47in which we differentiate ourselves
01:08:50from others
01:08:51in terms of a spectrum of desire.
01:08:55I find in my own life
01:08:59and particularly with the experience
01:09:02of transsexuality,
01:09:04but not just with the experience
01:09:06of transsexuality as well,
01:09:08that my desires change as I change.
01:09:12I have a lot of interest from women,
01:09:18but I'm not returning it really
01:09:21at the moment sexually.
01:09:25Recently, I'm mainly attracted to men
01:09:31and boys and also specifically
01:09:34to other transgender people.
01:09:36I find there's something very,
01:09:40very sweet about transsexuals together.
01:09:43I'd like to have my tits snapped.
01:09:49Hopefully, sometime in the next year.
01:09:52There are quite a few doctors
01:09:55who do very good procedures
01:09:57so that when one is finished,
01:09:59one pretty much looks like
01:10:01one has the chest one might have had
01:10:03if one had been born a normal boy
01:10:07and had normal adolescence
01:10:10rather than having a female adolescence
01:10:16and having little protrusions.
01:10:19Not having top surgery can put a damper
01:10:23on homo-sociability.
01:10:27I like it.
01:10:28I don't mind being touched by fags.
01:10:32On the other hand,
01:10:34if someone's hand goes here,
01:10:39it can be a little awkward.
01:10:41I'm muscular enough and small enough
01:10:43that I usually just tense up
01:10:46and hope for the best
01:10:48and nobody's taken their hand away
01:10:50and gone,
01:10:51oh my God, you're a girl.
01:10:53With a conventional phalloplasty,
01:10:55there are all sorts of terrible things
01:10:57that can go wrong.
01:10:59People have ended up
01:11:00completely non-orgasmic, non-functional,
01:11:06which I don't think is worth it
01:11:07to get a dick.
01:11:10And, you know, also I have a dick.
01:11:13It might only be that long,
01:11:14but I've got one.
01:11:16It looks right.
01:11:17It works right.
01:11:20This is a little advertisement
01:11:22I've put together
01:11:23and I've been posting
01:11:25on some of the,
01:11:27some of the fag personal lists
01:11:30that are on the internet.
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01:11:38FTM transsexual queer boy.
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01:11:43Sweet mouth and ass.
01:11:45Vanilla to kink plus.
01:11:48Clean shaven.
01:11:49100% passable.
01:11:515'5", 135 pounds.
01:11:54Compact muscular build.
01:11:56Smooth.
01:11:57Open-minded.
01:11:58HIV negative.
01:12:0036 look 20s.
01:12:02White chestnut coloring artist.
01:12:05Seeking sexy, unusual top men and boys.
01:12:09Solid, strong, aggressive, nice.
01:12:12Color A plus.
01:12:13Especially black and Asian.
01:12:15But very flexible.
01:12:18Power style and brains more important than looks.
01:12:21For sex, dating, or low-key relationship.
01:12:24Fun.
01:12:25No drama.
01:12:29I met Jordy several years ago and we, Jordy started working with me at Club Confidential.
01:12:36And I realized immediately that, that Jordy was somebody who I would really feel bad if that, if that person
01:12:45wasn't in my life.
01:12:46And so I, I coerced him into moving in here.
01:12:50We just sort of naturally evolved where Jordy was interested in something, some work projects that I was interested in.
01:12:58And, and I was interested in some art projects that Jordy was working on.
01:13:02And, and things have evolved so much over the course of years that people have a hard time believing that,
01:13:07that we aren't lovers or that we haven't been lovers because we're such good friends.
01:13:12Oh, what a great party.
01:13:16I was lovers with Tornado for about a year.
01:13:19Tornado is this amazing, gorgeous, gorgeous woman.
01:13:24Oh, nice to see you.
01:13:26Oh, nice to see you.
01:13:27When I first saw Stafford, I thought Stafford was a man.
01:13:31Oh.
01:13:32I was struck initially by the beauty of Stafford.
01:13:36And, and after that, the vulnerability that she left herself open towards me and how she trusted me and, um,
01:13:48I just had such a love for her.
01:13:51When I fall in love with someone, I kind of like fall in love with them and then I'm like,
01:13:56okay, now who is this person?
01:13:58And, and, oh, it's Stafford and like, what, what's this all about?
01:14:04And, and, um, so then I go from there.
01:14:10I think that we all do things in our life to change our appearance or change the person we are.
01:14:16Some people move to new towns and have a totally different personality in a new town.
01:14:21Some people cut their hair.
01:14:23Some people grow a mustache or a beard or shave it off.
01:14:28And their personality changes with that, too.
01:14:31And some people get piercings and tattoos and some people take testosterone.
01:14:40I haven't taken testosterone for over two years now.
01:14:44It just stopped making sense for me.
01:14:48And, um, I don't know if I'll take it again.
01:14:51I don't know if I won't.
01:14:52I will make that decision when I feel like making it.
01:14:55I've never felt male and I've never felt female.
01:14:58And I don't really concern myself with gender.
01:15:02I just let people go the way they will with it.
01:15:06And if they're confused, then I let them be confused.
01:15:09And, you know, I don't really have an answer for them.
01:15:13So, are you a boy or a girl?
01:15:16Yes.
01:15:17You know.
01:15:19Gender confusion is a small price to pay for social progress.
01:15:23They can learn to work around gender.
01:15:25I don't need to learn to work around them to be comfortable.
01:15:29And you don't mind if people call you she or he?
01:15:32I don't really care.
01:15:34As long as they're being nice.
01:15:35As long as they're, you know, not abusing me.
01:15:38Or using he or she as derogatory.
01:15:42Then I'm fine.
01:15:44Okay.
01:16:01You're going to take the camera?
01:16:14Okay.
01:16:18Okay.
01:16:20Gender as performance is a series of signals that we send to each other.
01:16:28These performances involve personal space or psychological distance, which is the area
01:16:35around you which you tend to include in that which belongs to you.
01:16:40For women, this is smaller than it is for men.
01:16:44Voice tone for the feminine, the rising inflection, for the masculine, the falling inflection.
01:16:51Clothing is optional.
01:16:53How do we change ourselves and those around us by moving from a narrow space to a larger
01:17:04one, to a space of greater psychological distance and eventually winding up in a situation in
01:17:14which your space invades that of the other and you have become unquestionably the space
01:17:22of the male?
01:17:24That is what we are looking for.
01:17:26That is what you must learn to do.
01:17:38Yes.
01:17:41Here we go.
01:17:42A working group.
01:17:47As we begin to understand that the spectrum of identity is much broader and more complex
01:17:56than we had believed it was, we begin to be aware of ourselves in terms of our multiple
01:18:04roles.
01:18:05And then we can begin to name those roles and to begin to identify other people who share
01:18:15those roles in similar ways.
01:18:18So, we discover that we are members of a particular group or tribe and that we find the other people
01:18:28who are members of that tribe and we begin to explore what our similarities are.
01:18:42We have a number of wonderful performers.
01:18:45We have Elvis Hursalvis who will be emceeing and she's been with Club Confidential and been
01:18:50one of our regular performers since the very beginning and we have something very exciting
01:18:56this time.
01:18:56We have Pearl Harbor coming up from Los Angeles and she'll be co-emceeing with Elvis and I'm
01:19:03very excited to see what they'll be doing.
01:19:06We have some wonderful talent.
01:19:07We have Veronica Klaus who is an amazing chanteuse and just put her first CD out.
01:19:35We've never done the club for money, it's always been for the love of doing the club.
01:19:43The crowd has always been as much a part of Club Confidential as the people on stage and sometimes
01:19:49the people on stage are upstaged by our crowd.
01:19:55We've had some performers become kind of intimidated when they saw the audience and we actually had
01:20:01somebody go home to change once and come back.
01:20:03Sometimes I'm Elvis Hursalvis and sometimes I'm Officer Bud Green from the L.A. Club Confidential
01:20:11Patrol.
01:20:12I'm Miss Pearl's parole officer tonight.
01:20:15She's in charge with lewd behavior and possessing of marijuana cigarettes and I'm going to have
01:20:21to take her into custody right about now.
01:20:24If you do a crush on the floor you get a lot of money.
01:20:29And straight from the streets of Los Angeles, ladies and gentlemen, please welcome to the
01:20:35stage.
01:20:36She's too hot for this club.
01:20:39It's Miss Pearl Harbor!
01:20:47Thank you for the warm hand on my big old camp.
01:20:50And now ladies and gentlemen, please go to the stage.
01:20:58Old Spooky Bob Davis in a battle there!
01:21:04E, ah, e, ah, e, ah, e, ah, e, ah, e, ah, e, ah, e, ah, your heart, your blood,
01:21:19your flesh, cry out.
01:21:31Frequently, I'm mistaken for a drag queen, and I, ah, I think people must be crazy to think that I
01:21:38could be mistaken for a drag queen, but, yes, I, I've learned, ah, all of my makeup tips and techniques
01:21:45and hairdos from drag queens, and, ah, we always have a really good time together.
01:22:03I've been to Nagasaki, Hiroshima too, the things I did to them, baby, I can do to you, cause I'm
01:22:10a Fujiyama mama, and I'm just about to blow my top, Fujiyama yama, Fujiyama.
01:22:17Oh, when I start her up today, nobody gonna make me smile.
01:22:29Oh, when I start her up today, I got my Rock the Gold Rocks off.
01:22:39Thank you, Tammy.
01:22:40All right, next up, everybody, is Veronica Clown.
01:22:44Oh, when I start her up today, I know you're here too, dear.
01:22:50You're walking, yeah.
01:22:50I'm gonna feel like I'm your top, dirty, little secret, I want to dance last night.
01:22:58You're a dirty, little secret, I can't be in the same.
01:23:03You're a dirty, little secret, I want to dance last night.
01:23:08Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
01:23:39Possibility
01:23:43My breath is getting heavy
01:23:48Hey, my knees are getting so weak
01:23:54My heart is pounding
01:23:57Hey, and I tremble when I speak
01:24:02My head is getting woozy, yeah
01:24:07Such thoughts I'm entertaining in my mind, yeah
01:24:12Hey, boy, let's get busy
01:24:16Oh, oh, you're so fine
01:24:20I'm waiting for you, creating for you
01:24:26A reality to set you free, yeah
01:24:30Let me come in, let me get down under your skin
01:24:35Think about the possibilities
01:24:38Hey, man, don't think
01:24:42Hey, I got something to give to you
01:24:53You know I've made it all myself
01:24:57I can't stand to see it all
01:25:01Waste away
01:25:02No, just sitting on the shelf
01:25:06Come on now, take me down
01:25:09Wind me up
01:25:11I wanna be
01:25:13You're walkin', talkin', have a lovin' baby
01:25:17Are we gonna have fun?
01:25:21You bet we are
01:25:22Are we all gonna have fun?
01:25:24Join us
01:25:26Join the party
01:25:27Join the identity party
01:25:29Join the excitement
01:25:32The challenge
01:25:34And the stark, terrifying fear
01:25:37Of playing in the boundaries
01:25:40Between identities
01:25:43Oh, thank God we're running out of battery
01:25:45I was afraid
01:25:46I'd never be able to figure out
01:25:48A way out of this
01:25:49And you've given me one
01:25:51Thank you
01:25:52Thank you
01:25:53Thank you
01:26:09Well, come on, boy
01:26:11I'll show you the house of love
01:26:14It's just a little shack
01:26:16On the wrong side of the track
01:26:19It's a house I'm sure that you've heard plenty of
01:26:34Come inside this house
01:26:36You'll never get enough
01:26:38Cause the second you slip inside
01:26:41Your temperature starts to rise
01:26:43And you're a permanent guest
01:26:45In the house of love
01:26:48The house of love
01:26:50It's the place you've always dreamed of
01:26:54You thank the stars above
01:26:55Just come to the house of love
01:27:08At the house of love
01:27:10Just let your passions flow
01:27:13Cause the party never ends
01:27:15And the lights are always low
01:27:18And I'm the lady
01:27:20Of the house of love
01:27:23The house of love
01:27:25It's the place you've always dreamed of
01:27:28You thank the stars above
01:27:30Just come to the house of love
01:27:32You thank the stars above
01:27:39You thank the stars above
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