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00:00Oh, fuck, oh, fuck.
00:02Ow!
00:03You and Coco, though.
00:04You know what you gotta do, bro?
00:05Get some cojones.
00:06How's it going?
00:07Back at the villa.
00:08We just slept and woke up.
00:11No, little.
00:12No, we haven't even kissed yet.
00:13TJ's birthday?
00:14Yes.
00:15Edie's thing.
00:16Yes!
00:21I feel like we aren't included in a lot of conversations.
00:23I mean, they're having a group conversation right now
00:25and none of them are asking where we are
00:27or for us to join.
00:30Would you be open to, like, having, like, a conversation
00:32with, like, Pepe and stuff?
00:33He told me lies about TJ.
00:35I can't really, like, see past that.
00:37Why would you want to go to L.A.?
00:39There's a lot of opportunity there.
00:41So just fuck Oklahoma.
01:06Hey.
01:07Hi.
01:07Hi.
01:07Hi, I'm Hannah.
01:08Hey, I'm Paige.
01:09Nice to meet you.
01:10Nice to meet you.
01:11Where is Clark?
01:12I think she's just in the green room right now getting ready.
01:14Okay.
01:15Do you know how much?
01:16I think she said about 20 minutes.
01:18Yeah.
01:18Are you a friend of hers?
01:19Yeah, I am.
01:20I'm here for moral support.
01:22Love that.
01:22But suggestion.
01:24Okay.
01:24I'm going to get some test shots of me and my cat.
01:26You and your cat?
01:27Is this about your cat?
01:28This is Paris.
01:30Oh, hi, Paris.
01:31Clark wanted to get some pictures done to further her modeling career.
01:36So I thought, why not take some pictures of my cat?
01:39I know Clark takes a long time to get ready.
01:41So I think she'll understand.
01:47We're ready for our glamour shot.
01:50She has about 30 seconds of patience.
01:53Okay.
01:53But my mom will kill me if I don't make a Christmas card.
01:55Sounds good.
01:56Are you ready, my superstar?
01:57Come on.
01:58Princess Paris Penelope.
02:00I named her after my idol, Paris Hilton, of course.
02:03Oh, my goodness.
02:04She has an outfit on.
02:06She's like me.
02:06She's a diva.
02:07You know?
02:08Like, she is my little diva.
02:10Would you mind closing us just in case?
02:12Oh, yes.
02:12Yeah.
02:12Absolutely.
02:15Aw.
02:16That scared her.
02:18Parrots.
02:19Oh, my gosh.
02:20Come here.
02:22Parrots.
02:24Stop.
02:25Paris is on the naughty list.
02:27Got her.
02:28Okay.
02:29Okay.
02:29She got a little nervous.
02:32All right.
02:33Gorgeous.
02:34Cute.
02:35Coming a little closer.
02:36Hannah, what the hell going on out here?
02:38I need to make a Christmas card.
02:42It's okay.
02:43Me too.
02:43It's okay.
02:43I take forever.
02:44Wait.
02:44Grab her.
02:45Grab her.
02:45Grab her.
02:47She's had enough.
02:49So, what kind of shoot do you want to do today?
02:51I think when someone visits my social media page, I want, like, a more professional vibe.
02:56Okay.
02:57Woo-hoo.
02:59Gorgeous.
03:02Give us everything.
03:04Yeah, this looks great.
03:08Whoo-hoo!
03:13Do you have management?
03:14Yeah.
03:15Okay.
03:15And how has it been?
03:17I mean, it is hard not being in L.A. because there's so much opportunity here.
03:20Do you want to live here, or?
03:22I'm definitely open to living here,
03:25but I think it's just a thing of weighing out my options.
03:28Doing this photo shoot, you know,
03:30it makes me excited for the opportunities out here in LA,
03:33but in the back of my head, you know,
03:35I remind myself it's definitely gonna make it more difficult
03:39in a long-distance relationship.
03:41Taylor has a ranch, she has the lifestyle figured out,
03:44he knows exactly what it is that he wants to do,
03:46but for me, it's gonna take some figuring out.
03:48I'm just gonna turn one light on over here, sorry.
03:52So when we were in the car on the way to Palm Springs,
03:54and you were saying how last Christmas was not it for you,
03:57not gonna lie, that pissed me off a little bit.
04:00Usually you celebrate Christmas with like,
04:02your family and friends.
04:03Last year I was alone.
04:04Aw, Hannah, I wish I knew you last year.
04:07I know, I was really sad I had a broken arm.
04:09Aw!
04:09I was like, damn, why couldn't I have known Hannah last year?
04:13Last Christmas, I had just gotten in a car accident,
04:16so I was like, kind of bedridden.
04:17And then my family went up to Phoenix.
04:20They had to take like a two-hour drive,
04:22and I was not ready to be in the car yet,
04:23so I just sat on the couch all day and watched Grey's Anatomy.
04:26The holidays are supposed to be fun.
04:27Like, it would be nice to like get the gang together.
04:29I agree.
04:30What if I like, threw a Christmas party?
04:33But Love Island style, like sexy, like the theme.
04:36Me, yes.
04:36Should I do it?
04:37Hell yeah, hell yeah.
04:38Care if Taylor comes in, cause...
04:40Girl.
04:42Has it been weird living with Taylor?
04:44Like, is that your vibe?
04:45Um, no.
04:47No.
04:47I feel like I was okay with spending so much long-term time with him
04:52because he was hurt, but I want to make sure that I have things going for myself.
04:56You need like that security that you can be independent.
04:59Yes.
05:00Since coming out of the villa, Clark has spent like every waking moment with Taylor,
05:04so I think Taylor thinks that Clark's world revolves around him.
05:07And now is the perfect opportunity to branch out and experience more things for her career.
05:12I don't want to be doing wifey things when we're not husband and wife.
05:15No wifey shit at a girlfriend's salary.
05:18Period, queen.
05:19Exactly.
05:20Ha, ha, ha, ha.
05:26I bring the bags, my niece, the ass, yeah, look at that.
05:29Oh, I came, I could, could, came to party, so let's get this thing.
05:33Ha, ha, ha, ha.
05:35Basketball co-champ?
05:36Ha, ha, ha.
05:37What's good with you?
05:38Chilling, fam.
05:39Hi, guys.
05:40Welcome to the yard.
05:40How are you?
05:41Good.
05:41Good.
05:42Come on in.
05:42Let me show you what you're going to be doing today.
05:47Oh, I already see some...
05:48Ha, ha, ha.
05:49Are we... wait.
05:50We're running?
05:52Well, I have an ab cramp.
05:53I'm just going to stretch.
05:58Look who it is.
05:59Oh.
06:01Yo!
06:02Austin!
06:03My boy.
06:05What's my boy?
06:06Look at this guy.
06:09I arrived in the villa the first week.
06:11I came in with the OG crew.
06:16Fuck her up on three.
06:20You're welcome.
06:21Jayden and I left the villa together, coupled up.
06:23Pretty quickly.
06:24I do feel like I was blindsided.
06:27I did send you a message saying, like, if you were planning on dating or hooking up
06:33with other people, if you could just let me know.
06:36And then you didn't.
06:39What you been up to then?
06:40Just been doing more content stuff.
06:45Welcome home, Charles.
06:49So I'm glad that Charlie's in, because, like...
06:52It's easier to do it with somebody on the same way.
06:53Yeah, bro, it's so much easier.
06:55So, like, who you been, like, kicking it, like, post-show and stuff like that?
06:58Yeah, Charlie Jeremiah.
07:01I don't know.
07:02I'm honestly, honestly, it's whenever he has me hold his bags or some shit.
07:06That's usually what it is.
07:07He's like, man, I need an assistant for the day.
07:09Then, like, a lot of the costs of people.
07:11Yeah, Grayson.
07:12Grayson and I kick it pretty often.
07:14She's cool.
07:15Um, what's up with that face?
07:18I don't know.
07:18It's listening.
07:19Mm-hmm.
07:30We're gonna get some food.
07:32We want that guacamole tower right there.
07:34Salsas as well?
07:35Yes.
07:36I'm so excited for us to just be able to, like, sit down and chat.
07:39Mmm.
07:40Yes, yes.
07:41What did y'all do this weekend?
07:42I just recharged.
07:43After that trip, oh, my gosh, that was the best trip, but that was a heavy one.
07:48Yeah.
07:49Actually, honestly, a very, like, beautiful connecting moment for all of us.
07:52Yeah.
07:53And I know we were all feeling kind of in the same boat, you know, feeling a little excluded
07:59in the doubt.
08:00Yeah.
08:01I hope I'll be able to have that conversation with, like, some of the girls like Amaya and
08:04Iris and Hannah, because, like, I enjoy being around them.
08:06We just want y'all to want us.
08:08Right.
08:08Like, you know, we're all grown women, like, you know, we have respect for ourselves and we
08:12respect them, so it's not like we're gonna beg, like, please, like, please hang out with
08:17me.
08:17Yeah, exactly.
08:18I want to spend time with those girls.
08:20Hello, hello, hello.
08:21Hey.
08:22How are you?
08:23You look gorge.
08:28Oh, shit, hold on, hold on.
08:29Hannah texted me.
08:31Salsa tower.
08:31Yeah, I'm about to tear this down, so.
08:33Thank you so much.
08:35Guys, Hannah just texted me.
08:37Come slay with me.
08:38Sexy Christmas Love Island style.
08:40And buy your friends a day or other islanders.
08:42Detail to follow.
08:44Oh.
08:44Oh, shit.
08:45Oh, my God.
08:45Christmas party.
08:48You're...
08:48Say less.
08:50Okay, so you're obviously bringing Chris as your date, aren't you?
08:55Yeah.
08:55Actually, no.
08:56What the hell?
08:57Why you mean?
08:58I'm just kidding.
08:59Oh, I was like, damn.
09:00It was just so dramatic, I needed that.
09:03Um, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, that's my guy.
09:05After Palm Springs, I feel like me and Chris are really on the same page, in a way.
09:10Just having each other to lean on was special.
09:13I felt it so heavily.
09:16He made me feel like he was a safe space.
09:17Chris was even celibate for months.
09:19I mean, I don't know if he's celibate right now, but...
09:22Oh, I know.
09:23Yeah, so I don't...
09:24He's not, like, around being a hoe.
09:26I know Jeremiah and Austin weren't so...
09:28No, no, no, no, no.
09:30Jeremiah, you bringing a date?
09:31Yeah, dating in LA is just tricky, for sure.
09:33You got to find out, like, a library or a coffee spot.
09:35You ever seen, uh, Scott Pilgrim vs. The World?
09:37Yeah.
09:37Like, finding, like, Ramona at the library, like, some shit like that, that's what I want, bro.
09:40So you bringing Grayson?
09:42No, I know he made a face when it came to Grayson.
09:45We're genuinely, like, friends.
09:47Like, we're good friends.
09:48And I don't want to cross that line.
09:50I love Grayson to death.
09:51She's probably the girl I'm closest with.
09:53It's not like we're hooking up every time we're hanging out because the physicality stuff fizzled out.
09:58I more see it as, like, you know, friends with two or three times benefit.
10:04And also, like, I kind of like being a little bit of a hoe, you know what I'm saying?
10:09I don't know if Austin's a hoe, but at least bro's truthful about her shit.
10:12He's saying it, then go ahead, bro. Live your life.
10:15He is Austin a hoe.
10:16No, Austin's a slut.
10:16And, um, you know, we love him for it.
10:18I'm enjoying my time right now.
10:20I'll be 27 in a month.
10:21Maybe we'll reevaluate then.
10:23Come on.
10:24I'm really close with Austin.
10:26I don't know what's going on kind of with us right now.
10:30Wait.
10:31I'm sorry.
10:32But to look out for you, to look out for my girl, um, Austin is also one of my best
10:39friends, too.
10:39Mm-hmm.
10:40Has you not been talking to raves since July?
10:42Are they still talking?
10:44To my knowledge, yes.
10:48Outside of the Islanders, Raven is my only friend here.
10:52I know her from Hawaii.
10:53We both moved out to L.A. together.
10:55She confides in me, anything to do with Austin, because I introduced them.
10:59Mm.
11:00And to my knowledge, they had made things exclusive.
11:04No.
11:14Wait.
11:15We're doing you in Austin.
11:16Mm.
11:17Has you not been talking to raves since July?
11:20Are they still talking?
11:21To my knowledge, they had made things exclusive.
11:26I do know that they met when we got right out of the villa.
11:29I do know that a month later, he told me that he, like, broke things off with her.
11:34Like, they were over.
11:35That was pretty much the last time I ever talked to him about her.
11:39So, I never knew that there was still a relationship going on.
11:42I just know that Rave talks about Austin all the time.
11:46Mm-mm.
11:46Mm-mm.
11:46I just know that you've been around him and his family.
11:49Well, yeah.
11:50I have spent some time with his family.
11:52Oh.
11:52And I know that she has, as well.
11:55Oh!
11:56Ha, ha, ha, ha!
11:59That was not a big mess.
12:01I didn't realize that there was still something going on.
12:03But it's good to know.
12:04And maybe that's a conversation that you can ask him about.
12:07And exclusivity is crazy.
12:08Because I don't want to be speaking for him.
12:10Austin!
12:10Freaking Austin!
12:11What are you doing?
12:13I felt more emotionally connected to Austin.
12:16than I have felt with, like, anyone in years, I'd say.
12:21We were spending so much time with each other
12:23that you could have told me you were in a relationship.
12:24You know, that would have cleared things up real fast.
12:27How physical was your relationship with Austin?
12:31I mean, we did have, like, a physical relationship.
12:34We were very affectionate with each other.
12:36If you hang out with someone, like,
12:38you have sex more than, like, you know, a couple times.
12:43He knew me front to back.
12:44I think the guys coming out of the villa are living in a fairy tale land.
12:51Go be a rock star.
12:52I know and love you.
12:53Yeah.
12:54And I know and love Raven.
12:55Exactly.
12:55And I know and love Austin, and that's not okay.
12:57Just try not to get involved with it until...
12:59That's not my business.
13:00Right.
13:01Until I get there.
13:02Because I'm no dumbass.
13:04Like, if I was this girl, I would be a little, like, red.
13:09Oh, this is messy as fuck.
13:11Think that merrily I'm high.
13:12In heaven, the bells start ringing.
13:14Think that merrily the sky.
13:16He's a rebel with angels singing.
13:17I'm still evil up and low.
13:19That's evil best.
13:19You know, big cars are like girls with really big asses.
13:22I kind of don't know what to do with it.
13:27What is this?
13:28Hey.
13:31How you doing?
13:32How you doing?
13:34You too.
13:35See ya.
13:37She's pretty, too.
13:38You're an IRL trollin' it.
13:39It's called being a man child, bro.
13:41You're taking notes.
13:42Yes, sir.
13:46Can I help you find anything?
13:48Yes.
13:48We have some noble fur over here.
13:50Douglas fur.
13:51These are silvertips.
13:52They're quite popular.
13:53What about this one?
13:54No, too big.
13:55I think we have a different opinion on Christmas trees.
13:58I like this one.
13:59Ours.
14:00Be fucking for real.
14:02Wait, what's wrong with it?
14:02It's easy to put ornaments on.
14:04I just love the things that people don't love, typically.
14:09Like me.
14:23Oh my God.
14:25Hell yeah.
14:25Watch out, slow post.
14:27Let me focus.
14:27Hold on.
14:28Let me get to the wall.
14:30It's cold.
14:31My toes are cold.
14:31Yeah, my nose is leaking.
14:32Where am I at?
14:33Did you not hear?
14:34She had to get, like, emergency surgery.
14:35For what?
14:36Like, I think she got, like, part of her intestine.
14:38I think she had to move in.
14:41Because she had told me, like, a couple days ago she was feeling good.
14:44In Palm Springs?
14:44No, like, right when we got back.
14:47That has to be, like, the worst pain ever.
14:49Damn, I didn't even know that.
14:51Amaya texted in our group chat to let us know what was happening.
14:54I wish her nothing but the best and all of the healing energy,
14:57because nobody wants to be alone during the holidays.
15:00We need to bring her, like, flowers and some papayas and some shuffled pasta.
15:05I'm never complaining about anything ever again.
15:07You complain when you wake up with a scratchy cone.
15:09Okay.
15:29Hi, Peppa Girl.
15:31Hi, baby.
15:32How are you?
15:33Oh, my God.
15:34I'm doing way better now.
15:36No, your hair looks fired.
15:38Yes, Babiana.
15:40My bob is activated, baby.
15:42I was, like, in the hospital in L.A., but I'm really happy to be feeling better again.
15:46I fucking hate the hospital, especially when you're, like, not in your city,
15:50and you can't have, like, family come to you.
15:52Like, what is it, if you're comfortable, like, talking about it?
15:55Yeah, no, so basically it's, like, it's Crohn's disease.
15:58So when I get flare-ups, it's, like, my intestines are going into each other, which causes abdominal cramping.
16:05I've been having abdominal pains since November 2024.
16:09After that, my flare-ups was three more times.
16:13Then in the summertime, I had a break.
16:14It snuck back on me like an ex.
16:15I felt like I was going to die earlier tonight, but I am nervous for tomorrow.
16:23So if I have some battle scars in my stomach, they're beauty scars.
16:28It definitely was, like, a very scary moment for me.
16:31I called 911 on my own, and the EMS took me to the hospital in L.A.
16:36But with that time, it was just a reset because I didn't have time to be by myself for the
16:46longest of time.
16:47I've been literally living on a plane.
16:49Whenever I'm home, it's for two to three days, and then, boom, I'm back outside.
16:54I'm back, not back outside, pregnant.
16:55I'm back outside working.
16:56That probably was my body giving up and telling me, like, yo, chill.
17:00It was just, like, a reminder that if you don't have health, you don't have anything.
17:05Because I remember speaking to you, and you were giving me so much advice,
17:08and you're like, bro, don't overwork yourself.
17:10Like, take it slow.
17:11And look what happened.
17:12Last year in the spring, we were filming me on the villa,
17:15and I was admitted to the hospital for, like, five to six days,
17:19and had emergency surgeries on my kidney stones in my kidney.
17:22I have a stent in my kidney.
17:24So it's, like, a tube, basically, that's, like, allowing, like, helping me, like, pee.
17:28Wait, what?
17:29You pee through a pump.
17:31Honestly, like, I appreciate you so much for reaching out.
17:33We were two cents of gangsters.
17:36I told my mom and I told my dad, I was like, maybe I needed that to happen
17:40for me to just really gain my mental stability again
17:43and for me to be grounded.
17:45And in a way, I feel like, I feel blessed that that happened.
17:48If you need any help, you want to go out, have a wine at night.
17:51You know, I know you always are cooking.
17:53So, like, can you come over?
17:54Because I can come over.
17:55Yes, yes, baby.
17:57I'm going to come over and make some food.
17:58Mwah, mwah, mwah, mwah, love you.
18:00Love you.
18:08What's good, man?
18:10How you doing?
18:12Good, how are you, man?
18:12Not too bad.
18:13How's your day been?
18:14I'm suffering right now.
18:15Ho, ho, ho.
18:16Long time no see though, bruh.
18:18No, bro.
18:19Where have I been?
18:19And I've been busy.
18:21I've been working a lot of work, which is in Miami, which is Art Basel,
18:25which I got a lot of great opportunities coming out of that.
18:28And now I'm home, home for the rest of the year.
18:31How was Palm Springs?
18:32Yeah, bro.
18:33I was kind of upset you didn't pull up, bro.
18:34I was excited to see you and shit.
18:36Where was you at?
18:36Bro, I had a whole mess of trouble.
18:39I was supposed to get home from Miami the day before.
18:42Yeah.
18:43Flight got canceled.
18:44So then I just, I got off the plane and just stayed in Miami one more night.
18:47That's good, bro.
18:48I understand.
18:49Trust me, I saw you go out and swing, bro.
18:51You got to get right, man.
18:53You an athlete for everything but that.
18:56I saw the grass fly.
18:58I didn't see the ball move.
19:03There's a little Christmas party, a little pop up if you want to pull up, bro.
19:07Okay, bet.
19:08If I'm being honest with you, I hope that when I'm not there that there's no cloud hanging
19:12over people's heads about me and hoping we could go into the holiday party and mend
19:17these things so we can be in the same rooms together.
19:19Who all is going to be there?
19:20Everybody's going to show up?
19:21Yeah, everybody should be there.
19:22Okay, bet.
19:23I would like to talk to Iris and TJ because obviously we were all in that triangle relationship
19:29with Iris at the top.
19:30All I want for Christmas is some peace.
19:33Yeah, bro.
19:34We'd love to see you, fam.
19:35Yeah, I'm all full up.
19:36It'll be a good time, bro.
19:51You know, I wanted to bring you out here when it was sunny and whatnot, but I don't control
19:57the weather.
20:08I appreciate it.
20:09Okay.
20:11I wish we could be together every day.
20:14Me too.
20:15You know that's...
20:16Not realistic.
20:18Not having it.
20:21Me and Taylor haven't spent longer than two weeks apart from each other.
20:25I'm definitely excited to have Taylor here for Hannah's party.
20:29Hello.
20:30What up?
20:31Hannah's throwing a Christmas party.
20:34So can you fly in?
20:35Yes, I will be there.
20:37Okay.
20:37As time goes on, the time apart grows and grows and grows.
20:41So it's like, I need more quality time.
20:45How do you like in LA?
20:47I like it a lot.
20:49It does remind me of a bigger Charlotte, obviously.
20:52Like it's very similar.
20:53It's just, there's more people here.
20:55There's more companies and brands here.
20:58More photographers out here.
21:00I think I just want to spend more time like building up my image and exploring the different
21:11ways that that could look.
21:13Making appearances here and there at different brand events.
21:17There's like opportunity for me to do something all the time.
21:20You know?
21:20I feel it.
21:22If Taylor wants to live in Oklahoma, that is a-okay.
21:26But I definitely want to build something for myself.
21:29I can see myself living here.
21:32That's more just speed.
21:33Yeah.
21:34The hustle culture in LA embodies who I am as a person.
21:38I'm always working towards something and wanting to better myself as a person.
21:41Do you like it?
21:43What?
21:43I mean, it's cool periodically, like for a week.
21:47Two weeks?
21:48You might be pushing it.
21:51What don't you like?
21:53I like the quiet life.
21:55I mean, it's pretty chill right here.
21:58I like quietness, peace, my own space.
22:03Okay.
22:05Of course it's sad being apart from each other doing the long distance deals.
22:09You know, we both know we're busy people and we're going to make it a priority to see
22:12each other.
22:13But I definitely feel being compromising.
22:16You know, me wanting to be country, her wanting to be city, and just finding a middle ground.
22:22You think you'll be able to survive with the cost of living here?
22:25With the way you want to live?
22:29Perfect.
22:29Thank you so much.
22:32I appreciate it.
22:35We're going to see.
22:36We're going to figure it out.
22:37I mean, I say go forward.
22:40I'm going to support you regardless.
22:43You know, my eyes ain't moving here.
22:45This ain't my speed, but I got two more years of school.
22:50So, you know, you can have your little time in LA.
22:53My little one-two?
22:54Yeah.
22:54Get it?
22:55One-two years?
22:57Just as long as you happy, I'm happy type of beat.
23:00Period.
23:29You look great.
23:31Sleigh party day!
23:33I have a big snow globe that you can stand in.
23:36You can go inside of me.
23:37Oh shit!
23:38Get in there!
23:39Yay!
23:40I have snow machine.
23:42I have spiked hot chocolate.
23:45I have a kissing booth.
23:47Cookies that are dressed like little islanders.
23:50They have like little boobs.
23:52More boobs than me.
23:54We're going to make sure that no little grinches are stealing my Christmas.
23:58You could write your name on the naughty or nice.
24:00TJ, you're going to be naughty?
24:02No!
24:06You're with the candy cane.
24:08Oh shit!
24:09Buddy the Elm showed up!
24:10How are you?
24:11Iris, how are you?
24:11Good to see you.
24:12Good to see you too.
24:13What up, Po?
24:14You good?
24:16I need a drink.
24:17You want some hot cocoa?
24:19I know you want some cocoa.
24:24Wow!
24:25I feel like I'm back in Love Island.
24:26Hi!
24:27Hi!
24:28Hi!
24:30Hi guys!
24:31Hello!
24:31How are you going?
24:32Hey again!
24:33I can't believe how long it's been since I've seen you.
24:36You look amazing!
24:40Falcon!
24:42Wait, are we wearing the same dress?
24:47Wait, really?
24:48Is it?
24:48No, definitely.
24:48It's not the same?
24:50No, no.
24:50Mine's like bathing suit material.
24:52Chris looks so adorable tonight.
24:55Honestly, I helped him pick it out.
24:57How are you?
24:58I love that.
24:59This is the tallest elf in LA, okay?
25:05J Money!
25:06Jerry!
25:06Wow, Jerry!
25:08You go get food?
25:09I ain't remember, bro.
25:09This is very cute, see?
25:15Andrina!
25:16Oh, and Grayson too.
25:17Yay!
25:19Look!
25:19We're twinning!
25:20We are twinning!
25:21So cute!
25:22I'm so glad at least someone else did the whole Santa thing.
25:25You know when Santa Claus loses his pants in the chimney?
25:28That's like Grayson.
25:30Gorgeous.
25:30I would've matched too.
25:31Yeah?
25:32Oh, your pink panties didn't come in time?
25:34I'm freezing my ass off and at least I got bottoms on.
25:36She definitely probably feels a draft.
25:39Has anyone seen Grayson's pants?
25:41Sit down, Santa.
25:43Do I take your seat, Santa?
25:44No, I can sit on Santa's lap.
25:46Come on, baby.
25:48No.
25:49So Austin and I are kind of going through some weird stuff right now.
25:52Yeah.
25:53He's going to be here, I believe.
25:55So I might have a conversation with him just about some things that I've heard.
26:00And honestly, it probably won't be as big of a deal because you know how I am.
26:03A conversation or like a confrontation?
26:06It's a little of both.
26:07I'll try to keep it light, but I just want you to know like if I'm over there like, ruin
26:12this fucking party.
26:13I don't even care.
26:14Honestly ruin it because I'll be sitting there like, yeah!
26:16Get his ass!
26:17Get his ass!
26:17And then like I find out at brunch that he has a girlfriend.
26:22What?
26:23He has a girlfriend?
26:24Like they're dating.
26:25Boyfriend, girlfriend.
26:26Like they're exclusive.
26:27I didn't even know Grayson and Austin were together.
26:30This is the first I'm hearing of all of this, but I don't slut shame around here.
26:34I won't say anything about Austin because I've seen worse.
26:38I'm from Arizona, guys.
26:39Keep going.
26:40It's not a big deal.
26:41But anyways, I just think that like we just need to talk a little.
26:43Austin doesn't have a girlfriend.
26:45No.
26:45Yeah.
26:45And obviously like I never wanted to go there.
26:47Like, because we decided not to do it on camera, but here we are.
26:51I know nothing about Austin and Grayson.
26:53Of course the situation turned to Friends of Benefits.
26:56He's a womanizer.
26:57That hurts.
26:58And I know that hurts.
26:59And I don't want you to think like that you deserve that.
27:03Yeah.
27:03You know?
27:05They're like fucking awkward.
27:06They're like, we're done with this.
27:17Merry Christmas.
27:19Hello, Charlie.
27:20You look great.
27:20Thank you very much for the invite.
27:22You're welcome.
27:23Thank you very much.
27:24I'm so glad I got to see you.
27:26I've been excited as hell to do this.
27:27Austin shows up.
27:29His abs are out.
27:30It kind of looks like he made his own vest.
27:31If I was wearing what Austin was wearing right now, I would be freezing my ass off.
27:36Hey.
27:37Okay, sir.
27:38Whatever, buddy.
27:38I'm rating that.
27:40The cane.
27:41I'm with the cane.
27:42How you doing, man?
27:43I'm Charlie.
27:43Messing me up.
27:44Come here, come here.
27:45Grayson wants some bullshit.
27:46Like what?
27:49Actually, I wish you were there.
27:50Come here.
27:50What was Grayson talking about?
27:52Okay, so she wanted to have a talk tonight.
27:54I've been wanting to have a talk with her because, I mean, there's some stuff we need to get straight.
27:58This is my first event.
28:00You know, seeing everybody is supposed to be a fun night, so the fact that, you know, Grayson doesn't have
28:05any pants on.
28:06It just seems like this serious conversation should wait till, you know, we're both a little more appropriately clothed.
28:13Are you freezing?
28:14Yeah.
28:15Stay strong, brother.
28:16What's up, brother?
28:17Hey.
28:18You ripping some shots or what?
28:20Okay.
28:20Oh, God.
28:25Ho, ho, ho.
28:26What up, baby?
28:27How you doing, Clark?
28:28Hey, good. How are you?
28:29Good to see you.
28:29Oh, that's fluffy.
28:34Oh, my gosh.
28:36Good to see you.
28:38Good to see you.
28:39Damn, how?
28:40Wait, this is real.
28:42What do you mean it's real?
28:43That shit hurts when you touch it.
28:45It's sequins.
29:01Oh, no.
29:02Pepe.
29:02Pepe, Pepe, Pepe, Pepe.
29:03No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no.
29:04Oh, my God.
29:06I really don't know why he would show up tonight.
29:08It's Hannah's party.
29:09Walking in alone, you know what?
29:11Respect to the man.
29:12Shit, I'm happy he came.
29:14Last time me and Pepe were under the same roof, I called him a pussy.
29:17So I'm surprised he wants round two.
29:20Okay.
29:21I've been waiting for this.
29:44Oh, my God.
29:46No, no, no, no.
29:47Hey, what you want me to do?
29:48I just don't want to talk to him.
29:50Okay.
29:50Showing up to my party, though, is crazy.
29:52That is crazy.
29:53That is pretty crazy.
29:54It's crazy.
29:55I wonder who invited him.
29:57No clutches?
29:58Fugging it, bro.
30:00Just knee brace.
30:02No, just knee brace?
30:03That's it?
30:03That's it, bro.
30:05I'm not cool with Pippa at this point because he's nothing but her iris, her TJ.
30:09You go to shake Jeremiah's hand and it's like the TJ incident all over again.
30:13I think he's even gone, eh.
30:15Kind of like a turtleneck.
30:16I'm good, bro.
30:17What's up?
30:18I was hoping that Jeremiah would accept it as just plain respecting, but now I know
30:23the vibe we're on.
30:24I don't want, like, my sugar to see me get mean.
30:28Because I'm, like, so sweet.
30:29No, show him Hurricane Hannah.
30:32Yay!
30:33She's ripping through the party!
30:36Hi, Austin!
30:37Hi.
30:38In the spirit of Christmas, I just hope Austin and I can come to some sort of understanding.
30:45I think that there is, like, a lot of miscommunication going on.
30:48You're the only other eccentrically dressed person like me here.
30:52Yeah.
30:53I'm gonna hear Austin out before I just kick him in the jingle bells.
30:57I'm a sexy elf.
31:00Is it coming?
31:01Is it asking who invited Pippa?
31:03I told him what we were doing.
31:04I said, if you wanna pull up, pull up.
31:06I'm actually shocked that Pippa pulled up, but I'm also proud of him.
31:09And he went through that same experience with all of us, and we shouldn't count him out.
31:13I know that you didn't have any ill intentions.
31:15I'm not trying to be messy.
31:17That's not even how you are.
31:18Maybe he came here to have hard conversations.
31:20That's it.
31:21Maybe he's finally going to own up to some banks.
31:24Yes.
31:25I wanna throw a fucking drink in his face and tell him that he is fucking chopped and unk.
31:30I think Pippa needs to fuck off and get out of my space.
31:33Remember how we were talking about, like, me putting myself out there and, like, you know,
31:37trying to, like, shake hands and make peace and whatever?
31:39Yeah.
31:40I just tried to deal with Jeremiah.
31:41What'd he say?
31:41He was like, nah, I'm good.
31:43He's fucking evil.
31:43They're not gonna do that.
31:44And I'm like, get behind me.
31:45I don't know why not.
31:46Like, as a man, you can't, you're not shaking a man's hand.
31:49They feel their own way, though.
31:51And I feel my way, too.
31:52Like, you're acting like I don't have a reason to feel the way I feel.
31:54They acting like I gotta kiss their ass.
31:57I think you going up to them and be like, yo, we gotta talk.
32:00They would demand much more respect.
32:04But you're gonna have to bite the bullet.
32:05I'm not doing it.
32:07You have to.
32:09I've been in Pepe's shoes.
32:10I know how it is to walk into somewhere where you kinda know a lot of people probably don't
32:14want you there.
32:15Early on, I had the tough conversations.
32:17I put my pride to the side.
32:19So, we'll see how it goes for them.
32:21How are you?
32:22Good, how are you doing?
32:23I'm good.
32:24You cold?
32:24Yeah, it's cold.
32:27Um, respect.
32:28You showing up today.
32:30Of course.
32:31I know it's a lot.
32:32I think you've got some conversations to have.
32:34No.
32:35No?
32:36I don't like that.
32:37It's weird.
32:38We're supposed to hear each other out.
32:39But, like, nobody wants to hear my side of it.
32:41So, it's like...
32:42Can I say something harsh?
32:43Yeah, go for it.
32:45I think that if you leave here today without having those conversations,
32:51that's you tucking your tail between your legs, and that's cowardly.
32:55Coming here for a second time, even though the first time turned out a certain way with
32:59Hannah saying I'm a pussy, and then coming here now, I took the risk.
33:04Okay.
33:05But you've got two feet in right now, and you just need to keep taking those steps.
33:10I really, really, really encourage you.
33:14Be that man.
33:15Now or never.
33:17I don't know if that's fully what Pepe wanted to hear.
33:20But I really do believe in accountability.
33:24And I hope that Pepe came to own up to where he went wrong.
33:29Otherwise, Pepe, you might be in some trouble.
33:33Cheers to him.
33:34Great night.
33:35Happy holidays to all our fans.
33:36Happy holidays.
33:38Yeah, baby.
33:40How many fucking cookies is that?
33:42I mean, you've got to slow down.
33:44You've had, like, five cookies.
33:45At the end of the day, I know Austin will always hear me out.
33:48But right now, Austin's distracted by the ginger boobs.
33:52He's on my leg, yes.
33:54Austin, put down the cookies.
33:55We need to talk.
33:56Excuse me.
33:58What have you been preaching?
33:59What you been preaching?
33:59All December.
34:00What have you been preaching?
34:00Don't know.
34:02Mistletoe.
34:03I found some!
34:04Let's go find some mistletoe.
34:06Oh, no.
34:07Wait.
34:08Wait, what?
34:10Oh, my stinky little stinky.
34:12You hella silly.
34:14And I feel like this is the perfect time.
34:15Is it?
34:16Coco is gorgeous, bro.
34:19Like, she looking all, ugh, ugh.
34:22Mood is right.
34:23Time is right.
34:29So you don't want to have a special moment for the mistletoe?
34:32I think you want a special moment.
34:35Boy's been pushing the mistletoe thing for, I mean, like, since Thanksgiving.
34:39I'm like, okay.
34:41We have some mistletoe.
34:53I just wanted our first guest to be a little more intimate, a little more private.
34:56But he wanted so bad.
34:58Here.
34:58Yay!
35:00Woo!
35:02Oh, nah.
35:03See y'all doing it, huh?
35:05Yeah, silly.
35:07Yeah.
35:09I noticed we're being very conservative with our kisses after we made out with 17 million
35:14men this summer.
35:22Come on, guys.
35:24Give us a little more.
35:25They shared a first kiss.
35:28Honestly, I was really surprised that you invited me to this.
35:30Like, it made me pretty happy.
35:32Well, you know, we're probably gonna have to talk at some point.
35:34Hey, y'all.
35:35Obviously, he's not cool with anybody here.
35:37So I think that that would take a lot for him to step into a place like this.
35:43And he has expressed that he wants to have conversations.
35:47If he does want to have a conversation, he needs to take accountability for all the
35:50lies.
35:51Absolutely.
35:52But wait, can I play devil's advocate for a second?
35:54No.
35:55I'll fucking go up to this bitch ass.
35:56No, TJ.
35:56TJ.
35:57We're going together.
35:59I'm gonna let him know all the bullshit and lies he said about me.
36:02I got receipts.
36:03I got text messages.
36:04I got screenshots.
36:05I feel like I studied for an exam and I'm walking in to ace this test.
36:09Yo, Pep.
36:10What's up, bro?
36:11How you doing?
36:12I think we got some shit to speak about.
36:13What?
36:14What you doing?
36:14Yeah.
36:15Wanna speak here?
36:16Wherever you want.
36:16We can all sit in for this conversation.
36:18I'm gonna be honest with you.
36:19Can I speak with him if that's okay with you?
36:21No.
36:21He's my boyfriend.
36:22Okay.
36:23What did you, uh, what you wanna talk about?
36:26Um, I just wanna know why the fuck you're lying on my name, bro.
36:42Well, I, what did I say about your name?
36:48Okay, so, you told her that I told you that she cheated on you with me in Koreatown that
36:53night.
36:54You got caught.
36:54I never once told her.
36:56Yes, you did.
36:57Wanna see the text?
36:58There's a text message.
37:00Iris, and you sucked TJ's dick and went to see him without-
37:03That is not me.
37:04Okay.
37:04And here's number two.
37:06Pull up your phone with the actual-
37:07My battery's up.
37:08Yo, can we get a charger?
37:09For real?
37:10Can we get a charger?
37:11He said that when her and TJ met up, TJ told him that Iris sucked his dick.
37:17And that's why it was a cheating scandal.
37:18But that never happened, so TJ's like, why did you say this?
37:21And then also, he told Iris that Grayson and TJ had sex.
37:26Which didn't happen.
37:27Which didn't happen.
37:28These lies are tallying up.
37:29Oh, to be a fly on the wall in that conversation.
37:33TJ, all I gotta say is, you better work, bitch.
37:38I just said you know TJ.
37:39And then you said, number one, he said otherwise.
37:42And he didn't say that.
37:42He said otherwise.
37:44I wasn't talking about you.
37:45Who were you talking about, bro?
37:46I heard a lot of things from that night.
37:48And I don't know of any of this truth.
37:50You told her that I had sex with Grayson.
37:52Did you say that?
37:52Somebody told me that you hooked up with a couple of people at a party.
37:56Was telling her.
37:56I was like, look, I heard that he's doing his thing.
37:58He's having a good time.
38:00And that's it.
38:01I'm not gonna let you just sit here and gaslight us.
38:03And try to make us believe that you're telling the truth right now.
38:05Sorry, and I'm making her upset.
38:07You wanna know why I'm upset?
38:08It's because you went on a podcast and you said that I had a cheating scandal.
38:11Word for word, cheating scandal.
38:12We got off the island and she had a cheating scandal.
38:18Did I know that you guys were meeting up together that night?
38:20Yes.
38:21You knew.
38:21I'll show you the text.
38:22I'll show you the text.
38:23I told you, don't text him.
38:25Either talk to him in person or call him.
38:27So you knew.
38:27But I didn't know you went that night.
38:29That's what I'm saying.
38:29I didn't know you went that night.
38:32Did you tell Pepe that he were going straight from the airport to meet up with TJ?
38:38Yeah.
38:39I think I told Pepe.
38:42What did I tell him?
38:43I think I told him in the villa.
38:44From what I understand, he feels like he supported me in that situation with the scandal.
38:51Pepe was actually the one that said, I'm happy with whatever you choose to do.
38:55And he said, you should actually go meet up with him in person.
38:59You wanna squash this all?
38:59We look.
39:00Apologize.
39:01Literally just apologize.
39:02So what are you trying to prove right now?
39:04Hold on.
39:04The next day out at the villa, I wanted to make sure that there was not going to be any
39:07backlash.
39:08Because were you not nervous about it?
39:10When like TMZ posted that on Twitter.
39:12Yeah.
39:12I mean like it's the first time in my life I've ever been like.
39:14Right.
39:14And so I'm over here.
39:15Exactly.
39:16Anyone would be nervous.
39:18Of course.
39:18And so I'm trying to make sure that okay, if she's nervous, I don't want you to like.
39:22So yeah, even though I didn't know that you went physically.
39:25You did.
39:25No.
39:25I promise you.
39:26I know you're telling me I didn't know.
39:27I didn't know.
39:28This is stupid.
39:29I didn't.
39:29I think the best thing to do.
39:32There's a whole lot of shit bro.
39:34Like we literally just showed you text messages of you trying to tell her that I told you she cheated
39:37on you and me.
39:38Like, let's not skip over that bro.
39:41I just showed you that.
39:41She said, I think tonight or tomorrow I'm going to talk to TJ and Hannah at some point, whatever, whatever.
39:46I said up to you.
39:47So we kept going.
39:48Okay.
39:49You knew.
39:50So listen.
39:50Hold on, hold on.
39:52I'm going to walk away from this.
39:53You can.
39:54I'm going to.
39:54Hold on.
39:55I'm going to tell you.
39:56I'm sorry for everything I have.
39:58You don't deserve anything.
39:59I don't deserve anything.
40:00I don't think anybody deserves shit.
40:01Okay.
40:02I'm going to tell you.
40:03I'm sorry that you thought that I said anything bad about you.
40:06I hope you guys are happy.
40:08And I really, I truly do.
40:10Okay.
40:10And that's literally all I have to say.
40:12That's all I came here to say.
40:15I'm going to walk away from this.
40:16All right.
40:17Because like, this is too much.
40:19Yeah.
40:20I feel like Pepe's apology was fake and I think he's just doing it to save face.
40:24I don't think that his apology is genuine.
40:27It's, I just want to be done with this.
40:31Yeah.
40:31I just like, I can't fucking do this.
40:33Like this is stressful as fuck.
40:35I just don't want to do this anymore.
40:40We were pretty close in the villa.
40:42I don't know where.
40:43You know, and I'm honestly hurt because like, I really thought we were fucking close, bro.
40:47You played the fuck out of me in the villa.
40:48That's crazy.
40:49You played the fuck out of me.
40:52I fucking hate this.
40:57It's going to be fine.
40:59It's a man thing.
41:00It's like their ego.
41:01It's like, obviously, they're going to hack it out.
41:02It's like, let it go.
41:03Let it fucking go.
41:04Like, just be done.
41:05Good riddance, bro.
41:06Like, get the fuck out of here now.
41:07Yeah.
41:08I think that he just needs to leave.
41:11Iris is very overwhelmed.
41:13Pepe showing up really put a damper on our moods and she doesn't want to be in the middle
41:17of it anymore.
41:42I don't think there was one point in the whole conversation where he was like, I fucked
41:45up.
41:45I take accountability.
41:46And I'm like, cut the fucking bullshit.
41:48You had all this time to reach out to everybody, but you wait until we're on camera.
41:51We're filming this show.
41:53Bullshit.
41:54I did whatever I could do.
41:56I told them I'm sorry.
41:57I told them that.
41:58I hope they are happy together.
42:00But let's be honest.
42:01I wish she had like understood how I felt as well.
42:04You know, especially going back to like her and TJ TMZ night.
42:07I felt like that betrayal, it is what it is.
42:12Iris is telling me I knew she was going to go to TJ.
42:14That's fucking insane.
42:15Everybody's just lying.
42:22Cheers.
42:23Is that water?
42:24No, this is actually a tequila shot.
42:26Really?
42:27Yeah, I knew that it is.
42:28Not what I love about this time of year.
42:31Understand me.
42:32I'm so happy when my family's here.
42:34But all the reasons.
42:35Hey, y'all.
42:36What?
42:36Oh, Lord have mercy.
42:37Hey, what is going on?
42:38What?
42:39When anybody says, hey, y'all, it's serious.
42:41I'm just like the bros out to Oklahoma, man.
42:43Yeah, please.
42:44Oh, really?
42:45Please, bro.
42:46How about the bradders?
42:47We'll chill, ride some horses.
42:49Yeah.
42:50I rode a horse once in my life, never again though.
42:52Taylor's a professional and he got hurt.
42:54So what the fuck I look like doing it, bro?
42:57Hey, you ready?
42:59Yeah.
43:00Look at him a stallion.
43:03I want the guys to come to Oklahoma just to be able to see my world.
43:06I think they think it's just boring.
43:08And so when they see it, they'll be like, ah, I see why you don't want to leave.
43:11Like, this shit hurts.
43:12Hell yeah.
43:13Hey, you remember the tits and grits stories, Charlie?
43:15Titties.
43:16Tits and grits.
43:16Austin will go to the strip club for breakfast.
43:19What the fuck is tits and grits?
43:20That sounds very awesome.
43:21It's a brunch strip club.
43:23Austin, Austin.
43:23Tell me about tits and grits.
43:24Tell me about tits and grits.
43:25Tits and grits.
43:28All right.
43:29Grayson wants to talk to me.
43:31I'm getting out of here.
43:33Can everybody hear me?
43:35Can we go over by the snow globe?
43:37I want to have a speech.
43:39Okay.
43:42A year ago, I spent Christmas alone and I was sad.
43:46Six months ago, I met my best friends and I met my person and I'm happy.
43:52Christmas is really important to me.
43:54I want to rewrite traditions for myself.
43:55I want to make memories and I've never had a white Christmas before.
44:00So, I thought why not bring a white Christmas to L.A.
44:06And...
44:09Give it a second.
44:15Oh my God.
44:16Let's go!
44:20Let's go!
44:21Let's go!
44:22Can we get a little stronger?
44:24Come here!
44:27Come here, baby.
44:28Come here.
44:29Come here, baby.
44:30Come here.
44:30Come stand in the snow.
44:34They get soap, so don't eat it.
44:36This is my first Christmas, like, really being in love.
44:40And I got my white Christmas.
44:42And I think the holidays are such a cute and fun time.
44:45Yeah, hey, babe, wait.
44:47Look at this!
44:48Bo fiddle, baby.
44:48Let's go!
44:50No, no, no, no, no, no!
44:53No, no, no!
44:53Hey!
44:54Hey!
44:55I'm just why and I'm not hiding.
44:59I'm just terrified of my mind babe.
45:06It's so insecure and I don't know what it's for.
45:12I'm just lying, I'm not hiding
45:17Hello.
45:18I'll get a vanilla latte.
45:20Yeah, please.
45:21Oh, for here.
45:24Hello, hello.
45:26Hi.
45:27You look nice.
45:28You look nice, I was going to say.
45:29I like the dress.
45:31I like the dress.
45:33Is it a long drive for you?
45:34Yeah, a long haul.
45:36What did you get?
45:38A latte.
45:42The one thing I'm nervous about
45:44is that Austin tries really hard not to hurt me,
45:46so I don't want him to tell me what I want to hear
45:49or fabricate anything.
45:51I need him to stand on business.
45:52Like, I need the full scoop right now
45:55so we can all understand what the hell is going on.
45:57So?
45:59Do you want to just get into it?
46:01We can get into it, yeah.
46:16Um, so, like, obviously we've talked here and there,
46:23but every time we've talked, it's been, like,
46:25high emotion, like, high pressure.
46:29And in the beginning,
46:32I basically said that I was trying my best to, like,
46:37be open and get to know the people, right?
46:39This all started because I said,
46:41I care about Austin.
46:43I have a connection with Austin,
46:44so it's tough for me to try to be open
46:49when that's, like, in the back of my mind.
46:50And I told you I went to brunch with Bella,
46:54Andrina, and Coco.
46:56And you got brought up in the conversation.
47:00Bella said, Austin, like, he has a girlfriend.
47:05News to me, but continue.
47:07Right.
47:07Yeah.
47:07News to me as well.
47:08You're telling me you're not ready for commitment,
47:10which is okay,
47:10but then I'm hearing you're in a commitment,
47:12which just kind of felt like a lie at the time.
47:14No, I gained 100% in this deal.
47:16And, yeah, so, it also hurt me, duh.
47:18Like, I was like, ugh.
47:19And if you would have just told me I'm seeing someone,
47:22I would have been like, oh, okay, like, good for you.
47:24The thing is, I'm definitely not seeing anyone
47:27seriously like that.
47:28That's why I was like...
47:29It's just weird, because it's like,
47:30why is her, like, best friend?
47:33Like, why would Bella be telling me that?
47:36I don't know why Bella would be telling me that.
47:38Yes, I've spent a lot of time with Raven.
47:40See, this is where Bella is completely off.
47:43She's not there.
47:44She knows what Raven tells her.
47:46I can't thank you so much.
47:47Thank you, you're welcome.
47:47I can't control what Raven tells Bella.
47:50Like, I really can't.
47:51And plus, she knows, too.
47:53Like, I've told you, I'm kind of in a little bit of a hoe.
47:56Like, and, like, it's been...
47:57I've said that multiple times.
47:59One thing with Grayson is I'm very honest and upfront.
48:02And I told her, you know, I'm not in a place
48:05to be in a relationship or anything.
48:07So that's why I am a little bit taken aside
48:09that she's so, like, heartbroken.
48:12And also, the fact is, Grayson and I talk so much
48:16that it's like you would know if I was in a relationship.
48:20Like, you would know this.
48:21Like, there would be no possible way for you not to know.
48:24Like, you talk to my sisters.
48:25You talk to my mom.
48:27Like, bro, that's not on a romantic level.
48:29That's like, man, you're my fucking friend.
48:31My family loves you.
48:32Like...
48:33Austin, you seriously think that that wasn't romantic at all?
48:36I...
48:36No, I don't get...
48:38I don't pick up a romantic vibe.
48:40Of course, if you wanted to interpret it like that...
48:43No, Grayson, I've been so...
48:44I'm sorry.
48:45I'm trying not to...
48:45I'm sorry because...
48:47Like, I'm sorry.
48:47It's blowing my mind that you're sitting here and saying it.
48:49You're acting like there was, like,
48:50literally nothing between us at all.
48:53Every time that we've hung out, though,
48:55it hasn't been a romantic time that we've hung out.
48:59Like, that's what I...
49:00That's what I'm not understanding.
49:00Okay, just because we're, like, not hooking up
49:02doesn't mean it's not, like, romantic to me.
49:04I go to dinner with Charlie, too.
49:06You know what I mean?
49:07But you don't touch Charlie.
49:10Sorry, Tina.
49:11You know what I mean?
49:12Like, we obviously are affectionate with each other.
49:15But that's why the dynamic of the friendship has to change
49:17because I can't do that to myself.
49:18You understand there are feelings involved.
49:20No, I understand that.
49:20You're acting like you've got no feelings involved.
49:22Of course I have feelings in...
49:23Like, there's feelings there.
49:26Come on.
49:27I come from a small, little, southern town.
49:30And in my town,
49:31when you go and meet the family,
49:33that means something.
49:34So, like, honestly, it kind of hurts.
49:36I'm not trying to chain you to a fence post.
49:39I'm not asking you to sit around or play around.
49:41I've never said...
49:42I wouldn't want to start something
49:43if I know that, like,
49:45I couldn't put my all into it.
49:46I can't be open and try to move on
49:49if I'm spending all of my time onto you.
49:53So, moving forward,
49:54I can't do that anymore
49:56because I have to make space for somebody else.
49:58I feel bad because I know Grayson wants to be loved
50:02and to care about someone
50:04and someone to care about her.
50:05I mean, she's a great girl.
50:06She'll find her person.
50:08I know she will.
50:09It's just, right now, it's not me.
50:11I genuinely, like, do love you, Grayson.
50:14Like, I have so much love for you.
50:18It makes me sad because I, you know...
50:21Fuck.
50:22You had to cry and I hurt you.
50:28Why are you making it so hard?
50:30Like, it's just because I'm not ready, man.
50:32I get it, and that's fine.
50:34Like, I'm just...
50:34I don't want to hurt you.
50:35It hurts me even seeing you cry right now.
50:38I just have a hard time going to that place.
50:43I understand that.
50:44That's why I get emotional,
50:45because I just...
50:47I see sometimes you struggle.
50:49It hurts me.
50:50I want to be there for you,
50:51and I know that I can't be in a way
50:53that I wish I could be.
50:58I'm always going to be there for you regardless.
51:01I'm always going to be there for you, too.
51:03No matter what.
51:07Next time on Love Iron Beyond the Velas.
51:11I am going to surprise him.
51:13I love that.
51:14Oh, my God.
51:16Yeah, bro.
51:16You saw what we did, yeah.
51:18I'm about to break this horse.
51:20Are you happy?
51:21Are you proud of me?
51:24If I say the wrong thing
51:25with the wrong tone
51:26or the wrong word,
51:27like, she turned into Courtney real quick.
51:32What the hell?
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