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00:00:14I am a haunted house, and she is the ghost in the attic, turning on lights, stomping
00:00:23on the floor, and making herself known in every reflection I see.
00:00:29She's there, she's always there, to remind me of how lonely the world can be.
00:00:36To remind me that we are all fragile.
00:00:40I am there, with her, up those stairs, sitting in the dark, planning our future together.
00:00:47A future we will never have, a future I will never deserve.
00:00:56I am an exorcist, purging her with pigment.
00:01:17If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
00:01:22One thing?
00:01:24One thing's all I get?
00:01:27One thing's all I get, I don't want to play this game.
00:01:35I want to be President of the United States.
00:01:38That's right.
00:01:39That way I can declare a state anarchy.
00:01:44I want to be a movie star.
00:01:46A big fucking movie star.
00:01:50I live in a big fucking house, make big fucking movies.
00:01:58I want to be the love child of Sid Vicious and Molly Ringwald.
00:02:07I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
00:02:13I want to be God, for the sole purpose of saying, I brought you into this world, don't
00:02:17think for one minute I will take you out.
00:02:23I want the original promise.
00:02:27I want justice for all.
00:02:32I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between, for nothing in return.
00:02:44I want the world in my palm.
00:02:47No cooler than 60 degrees, no warmer than 75, and never a cloud in the sky.
00:02:58I want the perfect kiss, the perfect imperfection, the perfect life.
00:03:09But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
00:03:16And I want her to walk through that door right over there, and order biscuits and gravy.
00:03:28Hi.
00:03:30Hi.
00:03:30Hi.
00:03:31I bet your kids are adorable.
00:03:37Oh, it's okay, I already know what I want.
00:03:39Okay.
00:03:40I'll have the biscuits and gravy, please.
00:03:42Same.
00:03:43Okay, two biscuits and gravy, anything to drink?
00:03:46Coffee's fine.
00:03:46All right.
00:03:47Thanks.
00:03:48Thanks.
00:03:49I'm Brian.
00:03:50Bella.
00:03:51Nice to meet you, Bella.
00:03:54She blew into my life like a storm, uprooting everything I knew to be true, and filling it
00:04:00with so much more.
00:04:02She became everything I never knew I wanted.
00:04:05In a single glance.
00:04:07In a moment.
00:04:09In a straight conversation.
00:04:12In that slight smile that started with the curling of her toes and ended at the corner
00:04:16of her lips.
00:04:18Just before she burst into laughter, she became it.
00:04:25She became perfection.
00:04:32Cool.
00:04:33So.
00:04:34So.
00:04:35Morrissey or The Cure?
00:04:37Uh, The Cure.
00:04:38Yeah.
00:04:39Beatles or Stones?
00:04:40The Stones.
00:04:41King of Pop or King of Rock?
00:04:43King of Rock.
00:04:45Definitely.
00:04:47Well, Elvis is always fascinated.
00:04:49How so?
00:04:50Well, here's this normal guy that accidentally got famous.
00:04:53I mean, he wrote a song that was for his dad, or his uncle, or something like that, for
00:04:58their birthday, and the next thing you know, he's a teen idol.
00:05:02I just, watching his life is like watching a tree grow.
00:05:06And it gets bigger and bigger, and then he ends up swollen and yellow.
00:05:14I don't know, it's like he was on a satellite somewhere in outer space, watching himself, and
00:05:20that's what it did to him.
00:05:22Are you saying that Elvis was an alien?
00:05:26Hello, darling.
00:05:27This is Elvis from the planet Graceland, and I just want to thank you for coming out
00:05:31on a date with me this evening.
00:05:34You know what I like about you?
00:05:36What's that?
00:05:37You're full of shits.
00:05:39I think I just got a little Amish.
00:05:42Oh, I apologize.
00:05:44Sorry about that.
00:05:44You better be.
00:05:48To Elvis.
00:05:49To Elvis.
00:05:51Elvis.
00:05:53Yellow and swollen.
00:05:55How could I have known even then, in a moment of such happiness, the longitude and latitude
00:06:02of my fall from Graceland?
00:06:06Hours went by.
00:06:08Day turns to night, night to day.
00:06:11Small talk turns to talk of dreams and aspirations.
00:06:16First date eyes become the eyes that you take for granted.
00:06:22I hang on every word, she says.
00:06:26And those hours that became days become weeks.
00:06:29And we were married on a Saturday.
00:06:33And those weeks became months.
00:06:36And Cole, our first daughter, was born, sweet as sugar.
00:06:41And those months became a year.
00:06:43And that year became four years.
00:06:45And Sarah, our second daughter, was born.
00:06:49Born sick.
00:06:51And that sickness drove Bella into darkness.
00:06:53And she began to wither and die.
00:06:58And me.
00:07:01I became Elvis.
00:07:03Yellow and swollen.
00:07:05Watching my life unfold from a satellite somewhere in space.
00:07:12Counting the rings of my tree.
00:07:13And forever wondering how this perfect life came to be.
00:07:42I'll be right there, honey.
00:07:43Shelley, let's see!
00:08:25Yay, well I think you got dog poo in your hair, yeah, yuck, where did you get the dog
00:08:32poo in your hair, oh, here we think we need to wash it out, okay, let's wash it out, all
00:08:43right, here we go, here turn over, lean back, lean back, there we go, no, you want to lean back,
00:08:51but the other way, because if you lean back then I won't get dressed, hold my hands, hold my hands,
00:08:55hold your hands, there we go, oh, that feels good, right, there we go, yay, good girl,
00:09:06there it is, oh, yes, yeah, we can see it, standing on the shoulders of children, innocent eyes that gaze
00:09:14upon the world with wondrous excitement, you will probably never know me, you will probably not remember me,
00:09:23but someday, when you're older, your mother will show you a photograph and tell you my story, a story filled
00:09:32with self-abandoned regret, regret that I will not be there for your report cards, for proms, for graduations, to
00:09:43give you both away at your weddings,
00:09:47I always wanted to be the one to teach you to drive, to navigate life with that same beautiful innocence
00:09:53that fills your youthful spirit today, to hope, to strive, to dream,
00:10:03But you're only three feet tall, and already bigger than me.
00:10:26Good morning, time to get up. My water broke, Brian.
00:10:32Huh?
00:10:32Brian!
00:10:34I just thought I was having a wet dream.
00:10:35Oh, honey. Come on, get up.
00:10:39Who?
00:10:39Hello?
00:10:40Oh, really?
00:10:40Hello, I can't reach you, but come on, get up, get up, get up.
00:10:45Okay.
00:10:45Do this thing, it's coming out. It's coming out, please.
00:10:48Okay.
00:10:48Alright, I'm just trying to keep you from panicking, just a little bit.
00:10:52Alright.
00:10:54Yeah, take your time.
00:10:55Well, I'm trying, look, I can't go to the hospital naked.
00:10:58Why not?
00:10:59That would be awkward.
00:11:00But I'm hurting.
00:11:01Okay.
00:11:03Alright.
00:11:03Speaking of which hospital we're going to?
00:11:05You don't know which hospital we're going to?
00:11:07Yes, I know which hospital.
00:11:09Which hospital are we going to?
00:11:11I don't know, let's go, I got it.
00:11:15Okay.
00:11:16Okay, okay, calm down.
00:11:19Okay.
00:11:25Watch the hose.
00:11:26Something with more water than you.
00:11:28Oh, come on.
00:11:30Reese's, you stay right there.
00:11:32And...
00:11:33Okay.
00:11:38Okay.
00:11:39Oh.
00:11:39Alright.
00:11:40Why is this getting in the car?
00:11:42Oh, God.
00:11:42We're going to have to detail the car after this.
00:11:45Okay.
00:11:46What, dude?
00:11:47Okay.
00:11:48Okay.
00:11:49Alright.
00:11:49You ready?
00:11:50Oh, baby.
00:11:51I'm ready.
00:11:52Um, are you ready?
00:11:54You seem a little frazzled.
00:11:55Yes.
00:11:55I'm frazzled, yes.
00:11:57Just breathe.
00:11:59Okay.
00:11:59Maybe, um, Cole should drive.
00:12:05Cole!
00:12:12Yeah.
00:12:22You are a queen.
00:12:31Oh.
00:12:39It's okay, it's okay.
00:12:42I'm gonna go for a walk.
00:13:11Hello?
00:13:13Are you busy?
00:13:15Ryan, are you okay?
00:13:17I just needed to talk to someone.
00:13:20I'll wait up.
00:13:30Time.
00:13:31It moves so slowly when you have nothing to do but think.
00:13:36To remember the beginning.
00:13:38To dwell on the end.
00:13:41And to be haunted by everything in between.
00:13:44To be haunted by that word.
00:13:48That undefinable word.
00:13:51As undefinable as God.
00:13:53Yet a word I thought I knew intimately.
00:13:58Perfection.
00:13:59The perfect wife.
00:14:01The perfect children.
00:14:03The house.
00:14:04The dog.
00:14:05The job.
00:14:05The two-car garage.
00:14:07The diapers.
00:14:07The joint bank account.
00:14:10Piano recitals.
00:14:12Tap shoes.
00:14:14The American dream.
00:14:16An idea that became an ideal.
00:14:21It's Friday.
00:14:23Is it recycling or yard waste today?
00:14:28Just schools by taking them out.
00:14:29What happened she couldn't help?
00:14:38Have you changed?
00:14:43Have you changed the whole cot?
00:14:46Maybe, the building was gone before.
00:14:47In the car.
00:14:47It's a holiday Daten.
00:14:47Thanks.George,
00:14:48which is the bedroom came the angle. I wasn't
00:14:48going to pull and built there. The bathingあ
00:14:48Be that didn't break even though, What happened a
00:14:53as i was just años?
00:15:14Have you ever stood naked, alone, and out of reach?
00:15:33The way Sarah cries, I can't help her, and the way Bella cries, she doesn't want me
00:15:41to help her, I just want, I know, well I don't, once upon a time maybe, but not anymore,
00:15:56you want too much, no I don't, I only want it to be perfect, well it's not, you never would
00:16:06have started fucking me, I have no idea what it's like to want something that you can't
00:16:17have, what do you want? I want you, and you want her, but you don't want her, you want
00:16:28the idea of her, and what you don't understand Brian, is that you've idealized your life away,
00:16:36but I want you, I don't know what you want, but you don't want me, I'm just another part
00:16:44of the ideal, and I'm not perfect, but you're perfect to me, and that I need time with people,
00:16:54all, but I already know all of this, everything I want, I need her to hold me like she used
00:17:13to, to hold me so close, like we're the same person, like this, like what we have.
00:17:31We have a dance, and a photograph.
00:17:41Kim was right, she had become the band-aid for a wound that would not heal, and no matter
00:17:49how much of her I stripped away, she would never fit into the mold Bella had created.
00:18:15She was right about a lot of things. One day you wake up and you realize that everything
00:18:22you ever wanted turned out to be nothing you ever wanted at all, and even the big things
00:18:29become as trivial as watermelon.
00:18:42Sarah finally fell asleep. I swear this colic is going to kill me.
00:18:48I swear this colic is going to kill me. You smell like cigarettes and watermelon.
00:18:59I swear this colic is going to kill me. You smell like that.
00:19:34Are you doing anything for lunch today?
00:19:36No. Did you want to do something?
00:19:39I was thinking about stopping by.
00:19:43I'd like that.
00:20:02What time did you come in last night?
00:20:06What's that, honey?
00:20:07What time did you come in last night?
00:20:11I don't know. I didn't really look at the clock.
00:20:14I didn't even hear you come in.
00:20:16Really?
00:20:18Well, I gave you a kiss. Good night. You rolled over. I thought I woke you up.
00:20:25Nope.
00:20:28You know, one of these days I'm going to get a call from Canada.
00:20:32You're going to be missing a sock.
00:20:33You're going to have a new tattoo of a heart and some sailor's name on your ass.
00:20:38And you're going to say,
00:20:40I don't know where I was, but I woke up in a car that wasn't mine
00:20:44with some large man in a unitard offering me a sip of bourbon.
00:20:51Here's your other sock, sailor.
00:21:04You're so sexy when you have your drafting face on.
00:21:07Hey, beautiful.
00:21:09Want to go get some lunch or something?
00:21:11Yeah, I was thinking we could go down to the waterfront, but first I need to use the restroom.
00:21:16Yeah, just at the end of the hall to the left.
00:21:19Well, aren't you forgetting something?
00:21:20And what would that be?
00:21:22Do I have to ask?
00:21:34Hi.
00:21:35Hi.
00:21:37You look good.
00:21:39Oh, thanks.
00:21:39How are you?
00:21:40I'm good.
00:21:41I just stopped by for lunch.
00:21:42I think we're going to go to the waterfront.
00:21:43Did you want to come?
00:21:45I can't.
00:21:46Thanks, though.
00:21:46I've already got plans.
00:21:48Well, that's too bad.
00:21:48We don't hang out enough.
00:21:50I know.
00:21:50We should see each other more often.
00:21:52Oh, that's pretty.
00:21:53What is it?
00:21:55Thanks.
00:21:55Uh, I think it's called posh, but it tastes like watermelon.
00:21:59Yeah, watermelon.
00:22:01I like it.
00:22:04Watermelon.
00:22:05How have you been?
00:22:06Good.
00:22:07You know, kids and stuff.
00:22:10Watermelon.
00:22:11Yeah, we've got some clients like that.
00:22:13Well, it's good to see you.
00:22:16I've got to get back to work.
00:22:18Yeah, good to see you, too.
00:22:21Watermelon.
00:22:22Watermelon.
00:22:23Oh.
00:22:25Watermelon.
00:22:27Watermelon.
00:22:29Watermelon.
00:22:29Watermelon.
00:22:30Watermelon.
00:22:30Watermelon.
00:22:30Watermelon.
00:22:34Watermelon.
00:22:35Watermelon.
00:22:37Watermelon.
00:22:38Watermelon.
00:22:46Watermelon.
00:22:49Watermelon.
00:22:50Watermelon.
00:22:51Watermelon.
00:22:52Watermelon.
00:22:59Watermelon.
00:23:17Oh, she does, doesn't she?
00:23:21Yeah.
00:23:22Yeah.
00:23:27Bella?
00:23:28Bella?
00:23:29Are you okay?
00:23:30Yeah.
00:23:30Bella?
00:23:32If you want to talk, I'm fine.
00:23:34I'm fine.
00:23:35I'm fine.
00:23:36Fine.
00:23:37It's okay, I just-
00:23:38Right out here if you need anything.
00:23:39I'm fine.
00:23:40Yeah.
00:24:08Shut up.
00:24:10God.
00:24:15Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:18Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:20Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:35Hey, little angels.
00:24:37How are you doing?
00:24:39What you doing? Putting on a show?
00:24:43Hi.
00:24:45You want me cooking?
00:24:47Something smells good.
00:24:49Cooking, baby.
00:24:55Something smells good.
00:25:03How was work?
00:25:04I want my new clients to go to a prick though.
00:25:06And that was good.
00:25:08It's nice to see you there for lunch.
00:25:09Did you do that morning?
00:25:11Yeah.
00:25:12I'll let you go.
00:25:15Come on.
00:25:39I'll let you go.
00:25:41I'll let you go.
00:25:42I'll let you go.
00:25:53I'll let you go.
00:25:54I'll let you go.
00:26:01I'll let you go.
00:26:01I don't know.
00:26:39Oh my god.
00:26:40Bella.
00:26:41Bella.
00:26:42Bella, what the fuck?
00:26:44Oh my god.
00:26:46Bella.
00:26:46Jesus Christ.
00:26:49Oh my god.
00:26:54Oh my god.
00:26:56Oh my god.
00:26:57Oh my god.
00:26:58Oh my god.
00:27:00Uh, um, my wife just cut her wrist.
00:27:03I need an ambulance at 6124 Street.
00:27:06Sir, I need you to calm down.
00:27:08Can you do that for me?
00:27:10Yeah.
00:27:11The ambulance is on its way.
00:27:13I need you to know, sir, is she still breathing?
00:27:18Yeah.
00:27:21I need you to stop the bleeding.
00:27:22Oh my god.
00:27:24Brian?
00:27:25Brian, I need you to apply pressure above the laceration and lift her arm above the level of her heart.
00:27:31Can you do that for me?
00:27:33Yeah, but do I have to put the phone down?
00:27:35That's okay, Brian.
00:27:36Put the phone down.
00:27:37Don't hang up.
00:27:38Don't hang up.
00:27:40Oh god.
00:27:42Oh god.
00:27:42Oh god.
00:27:57Oh my god.
00:28:00Oh my god.
00:28:02Oh my god.
00:28:02Oh my god.
00:28:05Oh my god.
00:28:07Oh my god.
00:28:43Thank you for calling Jennings Architecture.
00:28:46It is currently after hours, but if you have an emergency,
00:28:49you may contact Representative at 555-4868 or stay on the line and leave a message.
00:29:01Hey John, this is Brian.
00:29:06I'm having a family emergency, so I'm just calling to let you know
00:29:09that I won't be to work for a couple days, so I'll probably see you next Monday.
00:29:15Bye.
00:29:46Bella died for 48 seconds.
00:29:50I have been dying ever since.
00:29:54As her heart slowed and stopped, I realized at that very moment something I should have always known.
00:30:02She loved me more than she loved herself.
00:30:07She loved me
00:31:03I remember when I met your mother.
00:31:06She was beautiful.
00:31:10It's not that she's not beautiful.
00:31:12She's gorgeous.
00:31:15It's just...
00:31:18I'm used to her.
00:31:22I don't even...
00:31:29It's like no matter how good I have it,
00:31:31but it's no one's fault.
00:31:36She's fucked up.
00:31:37I don't know.
00:32:03Yeah, this is Brian Sanders, I'm calling to see how my wife's doing.
00:32:07What is her name, please?
00:32:09Bella Sanders?
00:32:25Your wife is in stable condition.
00:32:27She should be released sometime this evening or tomorrow morning.
00:32:32Okay, thank you.
00:32:58She's sleeping, Brian.
00:33:00Okay.
00:33:13She doesn't want to talk yet, Brian.
00:33:16I just want to make sure she's okay.
00:33:18I think it's going to be a long time before she's okay.
00:33:48Hello.
00:33:50Hi, Gary.
00:33:51Is Bella there?
00:33:52We'll call you when she's ready.
00:34:02Hi, Gary.
00:34:07Hi.
00:34:09Hi.
00:34:13Hi.
00:34:14Hi.
00:34:15Hi.
00:34:17Hi.
00:34:18Hi.
00:34:19Hi.
00:34:25Hi.
00:34:27Hi.
00:34:28Hi.
00:34:31Charles.
00:34:31Hold on.
00:34:37What time do you get off tomorrow?
00:34:40Whenever you want.
00:34:43Meet me at Owens Beach around 1.
00:34:47Thank you so much.
00:34:49I'll see you tomorrow.
00:34:53You want to see a call tomorrow?
00:34:56Alright.
00:35:08Hi.
00:35:12Oh.
00:35:14There you go.
00:35:15Hey.
00:35:18How are you doing?
00:35:20Come on.
00:35:22Here you go.
00:35:23There's Daddy.
00:35:24There she is.
00:35:25Hi.
00:35:25Oh, look who's here to see you.
00:35:27Oh, I know.
00:35:29Here, come on.
00:35:30Come on.
00:35:30Here you go.
00:35:31Here, who's excited?
00:35:33Okay.
00:35:34Get this up.
00:35:36I feel like a magician.
00:35:38Okay, you ready?
00:35:39I'll trade you.
00:35:40Okay.
00:35:42There she is.
00:35:46Come on.
00:35:48Come on.
00:35:49Hey.
00:35:52Hold on here.
00:35:55It's good to see you guys.
00:35:58Yeah.
00:36:00So.
00:36:02How have you been?
00:36:03Huh?
00:36:04Oh, she's been.
00:36:06How has she been?
00:36:07Oh.
00:36:09Always doing interesting things.
00:36:12Oh, yeah.
00:36:14Character.
00:36:14Come on.
00:36:15Come on.
00:36:16There you go.
00:36:18Yeah.
00:36:22Oh.
00:36:26Ready?
00:36:38There she is.
00:36:39Come on.
00:36:40Let's get out and see the day, huh?
00:36:43There you go.
00:36:44Hello.
00:36:44Hi.
00:36:47There you are, gorgeous.
00:36:52Hello.
00:37:01Thank you so much for bringing the family.
00:37:02It's just the right thing to do.
00:37:07Well, how are you doing?
00:37:09I just want to know if she's okay.
00:37:12She's really hurt, Brian, and I don't think she's okay.
00:37:14I think she's going to forgive you.
00:37:16Well, I can't even forgive myself.
00:37:18I know you love her, and she loves you.
00:37:20You've just made a mistake.
00:37:22She doesn't understand that you understand what you've done.
00:37:26She only knows she's hurting, and it's because of you.
00:37:33I, this is either going to drive you farther apart or bring you closer together, but it's not your choice.
00:37:40It's her choice now.
00:37:43I know.
00:37:45You just have to give her time to decide.
00:37:48It's just hard not being able to see her or talk to her.
00:37:59Thanks for coming out today.
00:38:03It's the right thing to do.
00:38:19My mother has the gift of Catholic guilt, and my dad's going to kick your ass if you've been calling.
00:38:24So how are you doing?
00:38:27If I see a therapist three times a week, the state won't take the kids. How are you?
00:38:32Well, it's over.
00:38:34I told her we're done.
00:38:35It's too late for that part.
00:38:37I know I messed up, and I can't go back.
00:38:42But I'm sorry.
00:38:44I'm so sorry.
00:38:47How could you do this to me?
00:38:49How?
00:38:50When I love you so much?
00:38:54I don't know.
00:38:55I love you so much, Brian.
00:39:05I want a divorce.
00:39:17I don't want to talk about it.
00:39:19I want a divorce.
00:39:20And I want the kids.
00:39:23And the house and the car.
00:39:26And you can keep the dog, okay?
00:39:30Take whatever you want.
00:39:33Could you be out by Friday?
00:39:35If we don't come home soon, Cole's going to know something's wrong.
00:39:38What are you going to tell her when you come home and I'm not here?
00:39:42I'm going to tell her the truth.
00:39:46Okay.
00:39:47She should know.
00:39:54I have to go.
00:39:57Take care of yourself, Brian.
00:39:59Yeah.
00:40:10Okay.
00:40:11I guess this is it for a while.
00:40:31I'm sorry.
00:40:47Die footage from me about anada making fashion.
00:40:48I do this for turn.
00:40:50I can't bet on your TV list.
00:40:52I'm probably not sure what I do.
00:40:52I can't bet on my TV.
00:40:57I could spend time that way.
00:40:58I can't Morgan made my script.
00:40:59If things were okay, you could go a movie.
00:41:04Hello.
00:41:04Hi. Where's Kim?
00:41:07Um, I've only been here for a week. I don't think I've met her yet.
00:41:10Okay, thanks.
00:41:11Oh, Mr. Jennings wanted to just stop by his office and cut it.
00:41:14All right, thank you.
00:41:21I've known you for a long time, and I've never seen you like this.
00:41:26I'm sorry, John. I'm just having problems at home.
00:41:29You've missed 43 days in the past three months.
00:41:34And when you do show up, you smell like alcohol.
00:41:39My wife and I are... I don't even know what we are.
00:41:43Which is why it hurts me to do this, but you're really not leaving me any choice.
00:41:50I understand.
00:41:52And I wish you the best. I really do.
00:41:56Thanks.
00:42:14What I didn't give away, I threw away.
00:42:18I threw it all away.
00:42:20As easily as one throws away the wrapping on a birthday present.
00:42:25I've always been too selfish to understand that it's the wrapping that makes it special.
00:42:31You're fired, he said, in so many words.
00:42:35You're fired from life.
00:42:37For you have failed everyone who has ever loved you.
00:42:41You have failed yourself.
00:42:44And no amount of sorry will make this better.
00:42:47No amount of forgiveness will make me worthy.
00:42:51I deserve the hurt I have caused.
00:42:53And in the end, the last thing I want is to feel better.
00:42:58Senator...
00:43:04Oh.
00:43:07Oh.
00:43:09Oh.
00:43:10Oh.
00:43:13Oh.
00:43:15Oh.
00:43:23Oh.
00:43:25Oh.
00:43:27Security.
00:43:38Excuse me, sir.
00:43:41We've had a few noise complaints,
00:43:43and to top it off, your credit card is going to be fine.
00:43:47So we need to get your stuff out right now.
00:43:51Do you have a jacket you want to bring?
00:43:53That's your jacket.
00:43:56Is this the one?
00:43:57Yeah?
00:43:58Yes.
00:43:59Why don't you put that on?
00:44:00All right.
00:44:01We've got to grab your stuff.
00:44:02What do you want to bring with you?
00:44:08There.
00:44:10Hold on to that.
00:44:13Hold on.
00:44:14Hold on.
00:44:15Just get it.
00:44:16I don't know.
00:44:17Is that all you need?
00:44:18All right.
00:44:19All right.
00:44:20We're gonna go.
00:44:20I don't know.
00:44:34It's okay.
00:44:36I don't know.
00:44:37I didn't see it.
00:44:39It's okay.
00:44:41It's okay.
00:44:41I'm sorry.
00:44:44It was okay.
00:44:49I did not see it.
00:44:49...
00:44:52...
00:44:53...
00:44:58...
00:45:02...
00:45:03...
00:45:42Oh, Marty just moved to a new venue, that's all.
00:45:46Good work.
00:45:57You know what?
00:46:01I love you, Reese.
00:46:03You know what else?
00:46:05You're too good for this.
00:46:08You want to go home?
00:46:10Come on.
00:46:12Off like a herd of turtles.
00:46:15Come on.
00:46:24I can't believe I let you talk me into this.
00:46:31Well, I know you've heard this story a million times.
00:46:38But, if I don't keep talking, I can't keep walking.
00:46:43So, a million and one.
00:46:47What do you have to say about that, huh?
00:46:50Huh?
00:46:53That's what I thought.
00:46:58Anyway, we drove all day to get to where you were born.
00:47:02Have you ever seen your mother drive?
00:47:04Huh?
00:47:06She's beautiful.
00:47:08She's so serious.
00:47:13I always felt like I was on a mission to make her laugh.
00:47:18I like that feeling of trying to impress somebody.
00:47:22She made me feel that way all the time.
00:47:26Huh.
00:47:28And when she smiled, I swear there was heaven on her lips.
00:47:34But, don't get any ideas.
00:47:37You're too young to start dating there, mister.
00:47:40You're too young for that.
00:47:45Anyway, we get to the farm way out in the boonies.
00:47:52And, I swear the place was odd.
00:47:55It was like a circus.
00:47:58There was kids on unicycles.
00:48:03Goats with eight horns.
00:48:06I think there was even a cat with wings.
00:48:09Ha!
00:48:10Woo-hoo-hoo!
00:48:13Bet you like to play with that.
00:48:15Chase that around the yard all day, huh?
00:48:22Oh, and your mother, she had the best sense of style.
00:48:28She wore dresses from the 50s and little things in her hair.
00:48:39She reminded me of Marilyn Monroe before, well, she was Marilyn Monroe.
00:48:50I think it was the way the wind whipped up her dress.
00:48:56It didn't matter where we went or what we did.
00:49:03I couldn't take my eyes off her.
00:49:09She glowed even when she slept.
00:49:15Have you ever seen The Lion King?
00:49:18I have about 75 times.
00:49:21I have kids.
00:49:24Remember?
00:49:26Remember when James Earl Jones is holding up Simba?
00:49:36Well, that's how it was when I met you.
00:49:42Only, you weren't Simba.
00:49:50You, you were like a peanut butter cup.
00:49:59A fat, chunky, little peanut butter cup.
00:50:08That's how you got her name.
00:50:34Let's just do this tomorrow, buddy, okay?
00:50:38One more.
00:50:39One more.
00:50:44One more.
00:52:30Oh, I missed you.
00:54:36Hey, fuck off.
00:54:38Hey.
00:54:39Hey, what's your problem?
00:54:43I don't have a problem.
00:54:44You walk through here every day, where do you go?
00:54:46I don't know.
00:54:48I don't know.
00:54:48I guess I'm not going anywhere.
00:55:09I don't know.
00:55:13I don't know.
00:55:16I don't know.
00:55:19I don't know.
00:55:20I gotta go.
00:55:21I gotta go.
00:55:22I gotta go.
00:55:22Where the fuck are you gonna go?
00:55:23You got a job interview or something?
00:55:26Oh, gonna be a big shot dental assistant?
00:55:29I don't know.
00:55:30Yeah, fuck you, yeah, yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:55:41Fuck you, you drunk.
00:56:59So is the second and every night that followed.
00:57:04Memories will never keep you warm at night, but they will keep you up, even the good ones.
00:57:14Have you ever held someone so close that you forget which one you are?
00:57:19That you think it's your fingers moving, that it's there, that they finish your words?
00:57:35I can hear your heartbeat in your lips.
00:57:40I think it's your lips that make my heartbeat.
00:57:48Hey, so did you get that job?
00:57:53Jesus Christ, watching you is like watching some pathetic fucking dog shit himself.
00:57:58And then wipe his ass all over the ground and smear it in real good.
00:58:03What you need is an aspirin and a shower.
00:58:11Well, are you going to sit down or what?
00:58:17What is your deal anyway?
00:58:19You ain't supposed to be here.
00:58:22Well, I used to have a wife, kids, a dog, and a house.
00:58:27Jesus Christ, you are a dental assistant.
00:58:31Well, I was an architect.
00:58:34An architect?
00:58:36If you were an architect, you'd know how many floors there were between you and the ground.
00:58:44Let me tell you something, you piece of shit.
00:58:46I used to be a dental hygienist.
00:58:51Being a dental hygienist is a lot like being a shrink.
00:58:55Only most of my clients were numb, kind of like you.
00:58:59Talk to me about being numb.
00:59:02You ever smoke crack?
00:59:06Smoking crack is kind of like waking up Frankenstein's monster.
00:59:10There's a big jolt of electricity.
00:59:12And then he just stumbles around all sad and lonely.
00:59:15So the town folk, they all get together and, you know, get their pitchforks and, you know, they run him
00:59:21out of town or kill him or, fuck, I forget.
00:59:25Killed it.
00:59:27Killed it, thank you very much.
00:59:30Anyway, my point is this.
00:59:32You walk around here like fucking Frankenstein's monster.
00:59:35And I see.
00:59:37I can tell you ain't supposed to be here.
00:59:39You're a fucking accident.
00:59:40So I look for my pitchfork.
00:59:43But then I realize I'm not a fucking farmer.
00:59:46What do I need a pitchfork for?
00:59:49But by the time I realize that, you're fucking gone.
00:59:54Just do yourself a favor.
00:59:57Go be an architect.
00:59:59Build yourself some big building that you don't want to jump off of.
01:00:03Or at least be a good drunk.
01:00:06You fucking piece of shit.
01:00:18Yeah.
01:00:19Go fuck yourself, Frankie the Park Fly.
01:00:27Jesus, Paul.
01:00:28You're a fucking embarrassment.
01:00:33Jesus, Paul.
01:00:52You're a fucking embarrassment.
01:01:14Do you mind if I sit and watch you paint?
01:01:16Well, no.
01:01:18Not at all.
01:01:22This has always reminded me of something from a different life.
01:01:26A couple of months ago.
01:01:27Interesting how something so strong can also be so fragile.
01:01:32So are you in school?
01:01:34Third quarter freshman.
01:01:36Well, it's very beautiful.
01:01:40Do you paint?
01:01:42I always wanted to.
01:01:43I was told my wife I'd paint her, but I never did.
01:01:47You're married?
01:01:49No, I'm divorced.
01:01:50I'm sorry.
01:01:52It's okay.
01:01:53It's been a while now.
01:01:54How long?
01:01:57Going on three years.
01:01:59This is too bad.
01:02:02It's all right.
01:02:04Where are you from?
01:02:05Yeah.
01:02:06They must have tourists written all over me.
01:02:09Well, that depends if you ask me to take your picture in front of the space nail or not.
01:02:15I'm from Portland.
01:02:17Really?
01:02:17Yeah.
01:02:18I'm sailing.
01:02:18Right on.
01:02:22Well, I should probably let you get back to your work.
01:02:25That's okay.
01:02:27You don't have to.
01:02:29Thanks, but I need to start looking for some dinner.
01:02:32But good luck to you.
01:02:34You too.
01:02:38...
01:02:43...
01:02:50...
01:03:52I'm just trying to get money to the other person food.
01:03:55Do you have any spare change?
01:03:57Oh, I'm sorry, you don't.
01:03:59It's okay. Thanks anyway.
01:04:02Have a good night.
01:04:03You too.
01:04:20I don't give the homeless money, but I will help you help yourself.
01:04:24You don't have to do this.
01:04:26No, it's okay. I want to.
01:04:28See, you can paint pictures, and that way you don't have to bed.
01:04:32Can I hug you?
01:04:34What?
01:04:36Oh, you're one of the nicest people I've ever met.
01:04:40I hope you get everything you ever want from life.
01:04:44That you know what you have when you have it.
01:04:57Hey.
01:04:59Hey!
01:05:01Here goes Frank, you're the architect.
01:05:05Fuck.
01:05:14You're gonna come over and join me or what?
01:05:25What the fuck are you so happy about?
01:05:28Life goes on.
01:05:33It doesn't matter how much you push it, pull it, remember, or forget.
01:05:38It's indifferent.
01:05:40It just goes on.
01:05:43And I think back to the little things, the things that matter most.
01:05:47The laughter.
01:05:50The wet laughter that hurts in the best way.
01:05:55Her lip-lock eyes across a crowded room.
01:06:00Philosophy over coffee.
01:06:04Explaining why the sky is blue to a child who thinks the world of you.
01:06:08So wide-eyed and full of possibilities.
01:06:12Endless possibilities.
01:06:15When the world was made of magic.
01:06:19Of course unicorns are real.
01:06:23As real as princesses.
01:06:26As real as Bigfoot.
01:06:28As real as you and me.
01:06:32Once, when I was your age, I rode one.
01:06:35I rode one, but the horn is very sharp.
01:06:40That's how I got these scars on my chin, you know?
01:06:46Fly.
01:06:50Fly.
01:06:52Fly.
01:06:54Fly.
01:06:55Fly as I sink.
01:07:22Fly.
01:07:23Fly.
01:07:26Fly.
01:07:30Fly.
01:07:32Fly.
01:07:35Fly.
01:07:35Fly.
01:07:36Fly.
01:07:36Fly.
01:07:40Fly.
01:07:40Fly.
01:07:41Fly.
01:07:57Take a walk with me
01:08:01And let's go find belief
01:08:05I want to see the stars again
01:08:10With the wonder that I had
01:08:13At the age of ten, alone
01:08:17She lost the magic in her eyes
01:08:22I could share the same self
01:08:28Not at all
01:08:34So now I walk alone
01:08:39Once again, I'm on my own
01:08:44She lost the magic she had for me
01:08:52Lost the magic, I'm not complete
01:08:58In each one of us, Peter Pan
01:09:03Elvis Presley, Superman
01:09:08In each one of us, Jacques Cousteau
01:09:13To marvel at the earth and the sea below
01:09:30In each one of us, Jacques Cousteau
01:09:46To marvel at the earth and the sea below
01:10:10Do you remember the first day we met?
01:10:18Let's go find belief
01:10:25Belief
01:10:26Belief
01:10:32I want to see the stars again
01:10:41The stars again
01:10:45With the wonder that I had
01:11:01I remember lying on your chest
01:11:03And talking for hours
01:11:11And then we remembered we were lying on the bathroom floor
01:11:15I just thought we had a shower again
01:11:29I just thought we had a shower again
01:11:30So I walk alone
01:11:37Once again
01:11:38Once again
01:11:40I'm on my own
01:11:43She lost the magic
01:11:47She had for me
01:11:52In her eyes
01:11:57We no longer
01:12:01Share the sky
01:12:05Oh no
01:12:08Oh no
01:12:10Not at all
01:12:17Not at all
01:12:21Sometimes I can't help
01:12:23I wonder
01:12:25Maybe we forget each other every time you look away
01:12:33I see you
01:12:35You are beautiful
01:12:40In each one of us
01:12:44Peter Pan
01:12:47Elvis Presley
01:12:51Superman
01:12:52Superman
01:12:54Superman
01:12:55In each one of us
01:12:56Jacques Cousteau
01:13:01To marvel at the earth
01:13:03In the sea below
01:13:06Well I
01:13:08I just need someone
01:13:10Who understands
01:13:13The little boy
01:13:18Inside the man
01:13:21I just need someone
01:13:25Who understands
01:13:29Part of me lives
01:13:32In our dreamland
01:13:50I remember
01:13:53I remember
01:13:54I remember
01:13:55She thought
01:13:56But I can't forget
01:14:00Once you asked me
01:14:01Once you asked me if I had ever stood naked in front of anyone
01:14:05Alone
01:14:05And out of reach
01:14:08I took off my clothes and backed away from you
01:14:11You simply asked me my middle name and told me to put my clothes back on
01:14:18I am standing naked and raw for you now Bella
01:14:22Not to beg forgiveness
01:14:24But to beg that you find happiness
01:14:28The kind of happiness I can never give you
01:14:32And if you should see the unrecognizable me on the street
01:14:37Don't look down
01:14:39Don't look back
01:14:42And I will grant you the same respect
01:14:47Ain't you guys got a home to go to?
01:14:49Yeah
01:14:51I was thinking about maybe getting a wife
01:14:53Shitting out some kids
01:14:55Being an architect
01:14:57Will you marry me?
01:15:00Shut up you fucking drunk
01:15:03Do you ever leave the bench?
01:15:07What do they decorate you guys at Christmas time?
01:15:13Yes?
01:15:14No?
01:15:17Okay, well I'm going to go get a cup of coffee if you want to join me
01:15:27Come on sweetheart
01:15:29Daddy wants some breakfast
01:15:32Lupe
01:16:02Yeah
01:16:02You're gonna go to bed
01:16:03Okay
01:16:03I'm Debra
01:16:03I'm just telling you
01:16:06Hey dude
01:16:08You're best at the time
01:16:09I can't do that
01:16:09You can't do that
01:16:10You can't do it
01:16:10I can't do it
01:16:11I can't do it
01:16:11I can't do it
01:16:11I can't do it
01:16:11At least
01:16:11Any beer
01:16:11Back to no
01:16:12I don't know if this is all I was waiting for.
01:16:15And I don't care, I still see some trouble.
01:16:17But she is.
01:16:19I have more range than when I spoke more.
01:16:23Just piss me off.
01:16:42If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
01:16:47One thing is all I get?
01:16:50If one is all I get, I don't want to play this movie.
01:16:54Pussy.
01:16:56I want to be President of the United States.
01:16:58That's right.
01:17:00That way I can declare a state anarchy.
01:17:05I want to be a movie star.
01:17:07A big fucking movie star.
01:17:10Live in a big fucking house.
01:17:13Make big fucking movies.
01:17:17I want to be the love child to sit vicious in Molly Ringwald.
01:17:25I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
01:17:32I want to be God for the sole purpose of saying,
01:17:35I brought you into this world, don't think for one minute I will take you out.
01:17:41I want the original promise.
01:17:44I want justice for all.
01:17:47I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between.
01:17:54For nothing in return.
01:17:58I want the world in my palm.
01:18:01No cooler than 60 degrees.
01:18:04No warmer than 75.
01:18:07And never a cloud in the sky.
01:18:11I want the perfect kiss.
01:18:14The perfect imperfection.
01:18:18The perfect life.
01:18:21But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
01:18:26And I want her to walk through that door right over there.
01:18:30And order biscuits and gravy.
01:18:35You're a pathetic fuck.
01:18:39Thanks.
01:18:40Not you, him.
01:18:43Jesus, that was beautiful.
01:18:45Life, peace, but I am loving the same way.
01:18:50Christopher McNeil.
01:18:50Not you, my dear.
01:18:51Not you, too.
01:18:56And asking for questions.
01:18:59Oh no, you're a poor bitch.
01:19:01You've been missing.
01:19:01You're a poor bitch.
01:19:02You're a bad bitch.
01:19:06You're a bad bitch.
01:19:07You're a bad bitch.
01:19:09I love you.
01:19:11I love you.
01:19:12I love you.
01:19:14I love you.
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