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A Perfect Life - Unveiling the Illusions of Perfection [Full Movie] [Full Series]Full EP - Full
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00:00:14I am a haunted house, and she is the ghost in the attic, turning on lights, stomping
00:00:23on the floor, and making herself known in every reflection I see.
00:00:29She's there, she's always there, to remind me of how lonely the world can be.
00:00:36To remind me that we are all fragile.
00:00:40I am there, with her, up those stairs, sitting in the dark, planning our future together.
00:00:47A future we will never have, a future I will never deserve.
00:00:56I am an exorcist, purging her with pigment.
00:01:17If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
00:01:22One thing?
00:01:24One thing's all I get?
00:01:27One thing's all I get, I don't want to play this game.
00:01:35I want to be President of the United States.
00:01:38That's right.
00:01:39That way I can declare a state anarchy.
00:01:44I want to be a movie star.
00:01:46A big fucking movie star.
00:01:50I live in a big fucking house, make big fucking movies.
00:01:58I want to be the love child of Sid Vicious and Molly Ringwald.
00:02:07I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
00:02:13I want to be God, for the sole purpose of saying, I brought you into this world, don't
00:02:17think for one minute I will take you out.
00:02:23I want the original promise.
00:02:27I want justice for all.
00:02:32I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between, for nothing in return.
00:02:44I want the world in my palm.
00:02:47No cooler than 60 degrees, no warmer than 75, and never a cloud in the sky.
00:02:58I want the perfect kiss, the perfect imperfection, the perfect life.
00:03:09But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
00:03:16And I want her to walk through that door right over there, and order biscuits and gravy.
00:03:28Hi.
00:03:30Hi.
00:03:30Hi.
00:03:31I bet your kids are adorable.
00:03:37Oh, it's okay, I already know what I want.
00:03:39Okay.
00:03:40I'll have the biscuits and gravy, please.
00:03:42Same.
00:03:43Okay, two biscuits and gravy, anything to drink?
00:03:46Coffee's fine.
00:03:46All right.
00:03:47Thanks.
00:03:48Thanks.
00:03:49I'm Brian.
00:03:50Bella.
00:03:51Nice to meet you, Bella.
00:03:54She blew into my life like a storm, uprooting everything I knew to be true, and filling it
00:04:00with so much more.
00:04:02She became everything I never knew I wanted.
00:04:05In a single glance.
00:04:07In a moment.
00:04:09In a straight conversation.
00:04:12In that slight smile that started with the curling of her toes and ended at the corner
00:04:16of her lips.
00:04:18Just before she burst into laughter, she became it.
00:04:25She became perfection.
00:04:32Cool.
00:04:33So.
00:04:34So.
00:04:35Morrissey or The Cure?
00:04:37Uh, The Cure.
00:04:38Yeah.
00:04:39Beatles or Stones?
00:04:40The Stones.
00:04:41King of Pop or King of Rock?
00:04:43King of Rock.
00:04:45Definitely.
00:04:47Well, Elvis is always fascinated.
00:04:49How so?
00:04:50Well, here's this normal guy that accidentally got famous.
00:04:53I mean, he wrote a song that was for his dad, or his uncle, or something like that, for
00:04:58their birthday, and the next thing you know, he's a teen idol.
00:05:02I just, watching his life is like watching a tree grow.
00:05:06And it gets bigger and bigger, and then he ends up swollen and yellow.
00:05:14I don't know, it's like he was on a satellite somewhere in outer space, watching himself, and
00:05:20that's what it did to him.
00:05:22Are you saying that Elvis was an alien?
00:05:26Hello, darling.
00:05:27This is Elvis from the planet Graceland, and I just want to thank you for coming out
00:05:31on a date with me this evening.
00:05:34You know what I like about you?
00:05:36What's that?
00:05:37You're full of shits.
00:05:39I think I just got a little Amish.
00:05:42Oh, I apologize.
00:05:44Sorry about that.
00:05:44You better be.
00:05:48To Elvis.
00:05:49To Elvis.
00:05:51Elvis.
00:05:53Yellow and swollen.
00:05:55How could I have known even then, in a moment of such happiness, the longitude and latitude
00:06:02of my fall from Graceland?
00:06:06Hours went by.
00:06:08Day turns to night, night to day.
00:06:11Small talk turns to talk of dreams and aspirations.
00:06:16First date eyes become the eyes that you take for granted.
00:06:22I hang on every word, she says.
00:06:26And those hours that became days become weeks.
00:06:29And we were married on a Saturday.
00:06:33And those weeks became months.
00:06:36And Cole, our first daughter, was born, sweet as sugar.
00:06:41And those months became a year.
00:06:43And that year became four years.
00:06:45And Sarah, our second daughter, was born.
00:06:49Born sick.
00:06:51And that sickness drove Bella into darkness.
00:06:53And she began to wither and die.
00:06:58And me.
00:07:01I became Elvis.
00:07:03Yellow and swollen.
00:07:05Watching my life unfold from a satellite somewhere in space.
00:07:12Counting the rings of my tree.
00:07:13And forever wondering how this perfect life came to be.
00:07:42I'll be right there, honey.
00:07:43Hi, Phoebe.
00:07:56Let's go.
00:08:25yay well I think you got dog poo in your hair yeah yuck where did you get the dog poo
00:08:33in your
00:08:33hair oh here we think we need to wash it out all right here we go here turn over lean
00:08:47back lean back
00:08:49there we go there we go you know you want to lean back but the other way because if you
00:08:53lean back
00:08:53then I won't get dressed hold your hands there we go oh that feels good right there we go
00:09:01yay good girl
00:09:06there it is oh yes standing on the shoulders of children
00:09:12innocent eyes that gaze upon the world with wondrous excitement you will probably never know me
00:09:20you will probably not remember me but someday when you're older your mother will show you
00:09:27a photograph and tell you my story a story filled with self-abandoned regret regret that i will not be
00:09:36there for your report cards for proms for graduations to give you both away at your weddings
00:09:47i always wanted to be the one to teach you to drive to navigate life with that same beautiful innocence
00:09:53that fills your youthful spirit today to hope to strive to dream
00:10:03but you're only three feet tall and already bigger than me
00:10:26good morning time to get up my water broke brian
00:10:32huh brian i just thought i was having a wet dream oh honey come on get up
00:10:38who hello hello i can't reach you come on get up get out of bed feel this thing it's coming
00:10:46out
00:10:46it's coming out please all right i'm just trying to keep you from panicking
00:10:50right all right yeah take your time well i'm trying look i can't go to the hospital naked why not
00:10:59that would be awkward okay all right speaking which hospital we're going you don't know which hospital
00:11:05we're going to yes i know which hospital which hospital are we going to i don't know let's go i
00:11:12got it
00:11:15okay okay okay okay okay okay calm down
00:11:24watch the hose something with more water than you oh come on
00:11:30reese's you stay right there and okay
00:11:36let's get this thank you oh why is this getting in the car oh god we're gonna have to detail
00:11:43the car
00:11:44after this okay okay you ready oh baby i'm ready um are you ready you seem a little frazzled yes
00:11:55i'm
00:11:56frazzled yes just breathe okay maybe um cole should drive
00:12:04cole
00:12:39okay
00:12:39it's okay it's okay i'm gonna go for a walk
00:12:58okay
00:13:13hello are you busy
00:13:15ryan are you okay i just needed to talk to someone
00:13:20i'll wait up thank you
00:13:30time
00:13:32it moves so slowly when you have nothing to do but think
00:13:36to remember the beginning
00:13:39to dwell on the end and to be haunted by everything in between
00:13:44to be haunted by that word that undefinable word
00:13:51is undefinable as god yet a word i thought i knew intimately
00:13:57perfection
00:13:59the perfect wife the perfect children the house the dog the job the two-car garage the diapers the joint
00:14:08bank bank account
00:14:10piano recitals tap shoes the american dream an idea that became an ideal
00:14:20it's friday it's friday is it recycling or yard waste today
00:14:31you
00:14:32uh
00:14:36you
00:14:42I don't know.
00:15:14Have you ever stood naked, alone, and out of reach?
00:15:33The way Sarah cries, I can't help her.
00:15:39And the way Bella cries, she doesn't want me to help her.
00:15:44I just want...
00:15:46I know.
00:15:49Well, I don't.
00:15:52Once upon a time, maybe.
00:15:54But not anymore.
00:15:56You want too much.
00:15:59No, I don't.
00:16:01Oh.
00:16:02I only want it to be perfect.
00:16:04Well, it's not.
00:16:05You never would have started fucking me.
00:16:12I don't need any idea what it's like to want something that you can't have.
00:16:18What do you want?
00:16:20I want you.
00:16:23And you want her.
00:16:25But you don't want her.
00:16:28You want the idea of her.
00:16:30And what you don't understand, Brian,
00:16:32is that you've idealized your life away.
00:16:36But I want you.
00:16:39I don't know what you want.
00:16:41But you don't want me.
00:16:43I'm just another part of the ideal, and I'm not perfect.
00:16:47But you're perfect to me.
00:16:52And that I need time with people.
00:16:55But I already know all of this.
00:16:59Everything I want.
00:17:10I need her to hold me like she used to.
00:17:15To hold me so close like we're the same person.
00:17:18Just like this.
00:17:21Like what we have.
00:17:31We have a dance and a photograph.
00:17:41Kim was right.
00:17:43She had become the band-aid for a wound that would not heal.
00:17:48And no matter how much of her I stripped away,
00:17:51she would never fit into the mold Bella had created.
00:17:54I wish I'd be more alone with you than without you.
00:18:16She was right about a lot of things.
00:18:19One day you wake up and you realize that everything you ever wanted
00:18:23turned out to be nothing you ever wanted at all.
00:18:27And even the big things become as trivial as a watermelon.
00:18:42Sarah finally fell asleep.
00:18:45I swear this colic is going to kill me.
00:18:47I swear this colic.
00:18:54It tastes like the other one.
00:18:56You smell like cigarettes.
00:18:58Watermelon.
00:19:00Mmm.
00:19:03Mmm.
00:19:05Mmm.
00:19:06Mmm.
00:19:09Mmm.
00:19:11Mmm.
00:19:16Mmm.
00:19:25Morning, sunshine.
00:19:26Hey, beautiful.
00:19:28Hi.
00:19:34Are you doing anything for lunch today?
00:19:36No.
00:19:37Did you want to do something?
00:19:39Well, I was thinking about stopping by.
00:19:43I'd like that.
00:20:02What time did you come in last night?
00:20:06What's that, honey?
00:20:07What time did you come in last night?
00:20:11I don't know.
00:20:11I didn't really look at the clock.
00:20:14I didn't even hear you come in.
00:20:16Really?
00:20:18Well, I gave you a kiss.
00:20:21Good night.
00:20:21You rolled over.
00:20:22I thought I woke you up.
00:20:25No.
00:20:28You know, one of these days I'm going to get a call from Canada.
00:20:32You're going to be missing a sock.
00:20:33You're going to have a new tattoo of a heart and some sailor's name on your ass.
00:20:38And you're going to say, I don't know where I was, but I woke up in a car that wasn't
00:20:43mine
00:20:44with some large man and a unitard offering me a sip of bourbon.
00:21:04You're so sexy when you have your drafting face on.
00:21:07Hey, beautiful.
00:21:08Hey, beautiful.
00:21:10Want to go get some lunch or something?
00:21:11Yeah, I was thinking we could go down to the waterfront, but first I need to use the restroom.
00:21:16Yeah, just at the end of the hall to the left.
00:21:19Well, aren't you forgetting something?
00:21:20And what would that be?
00:21:22Do I have to ask?
00:21:34Hi.
00:21:35Hi.
00:21:37You look good.
00:21:39Oh, thanks.
00:21:39How are you?
00:21:40I'm good.
00:21:41I just stopped by for lunch.
00:21:42I think we're going to go to the waterfront.
00:21:44Did you want to come?
00:21:45I can't.
00:21:46Thanks, though.
00:21:46I've already got plans.
00:21:48That's too bad.
00:21:49We don't hang out enough.
00:21:50I know.
00:21:50We should see each other more often.
00:21:52Oh, that's pretty.
00:21:53What is it?
00:21:55Thanks.
00:21:56I think it's called posh, but it tastes like watermelon.
00:22:01I like it.
00:22:04So how have you been?
00:22:06Good.
00:22:07You know, kids and stuff.
00:22:10Yeah, we've got some clients like that.
00:22:13Well, it's good to see you.
00:22:16I've got to get back to work.
00:22:18Yeah, I get to see you, too.
00:22:47You haven't touched your food.
00:22:59I'm not as hungry as I thought it was.
00:23:10I think she got lipstick.
00:23:12Uh-huh.
00:23:12Yes, she does.
00:23:13Uh-huh.
00:23:14Look, she does.
00:23:16She doesn't have a purple one.
00:23:18Oh, she does?
00:23:19Doesn't she?
00:23:20Yeah.
00:23:20Yeah.
00:23:27Bella?
00:23:28Bella?
00:23:29Are you okay?
00:23:30Yeah.
00:23:30Bella?
00:23:33If you want to talk.
00:23:34Mom, I'm fine.
00:23:35I'm fine.
00:23:37It's okay.
00:23:37I just-
00:23:38Right out here if you need anything.
00:23:39I'm fine.
00:23:40Yeah.
00:24:08Shut up.
00:24:10God.
00:24:16It's gonna be okay.
00:24:18Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:20Everything's gonna be okay.
00:24:36Hey, little angels. How are you doing? What you doing? Putting on a show? Hi. Is mommy cooking?
00:24:47Something smells good. Cookies, baby. Something smells good. How was work? Well, my new client's a little prick though, and
00:25:06that was good. It's nice to see you there for lunch. You should do that morning. Yeah. I'll let you
00:25:13cook.
00:25:13Come on.
00:25:16Come on.
00:25:17Come on.
00:25:20Come on.
00:25:34Come on.
00:25:37Come on.
00:26:07Come on.
00:26:08Come on.
00:26:10Come on.
00:26:13Come on.
00:26:14Come on.
00:26:30Come on.
00:26:32Come on.
00:26:33Come on.
00:26:34Come on.
00:26:35Come on.
00:26:35Come on.
00:26:37Come on.
00:26:39Come on.
00:26:40Oh my god.
00:26:40Bella.
00:26:43What the fuck?
00:26:44Oh my god.
00:26:45Bella.
00:26:46Jesus Christ.
00:26:52Oh my god.
00:26:54Oh my god.
00:26:56Oh my god.
00:26:58Oh my god.
00:27:01Oh my wife just cut her wrist.
00:27:03I need an ambulance at 6124 street.
00:27:06Sir, I need you to calm down.
00:27:08Can you do that for me?
00:27:10Yeah.
00:27:10Yeah.
00:27:11The ambulance is on its way.
00:27:13I need you to know, sir, is she still breathing?
00:27:18Yeah.
00:27:21I need you to stop the bleeding.
00:27:23What did you do, sir?
00:27:24Bryan?
00:27:25Bryan, I need you to apply pressure above the laceration and lift her arm above the level
00:27:31of her heart.
00:27:31Can you do that for me?
00:27:33Yeah, but do I have to put the phone down?
00:27:34That's okay, Bryan.
00:27:36Put the phone down.
00:27:37Oh god.
00:27:37Don't hang up.
00:27:38Don't hang up.
00:27:40Oh god.
00:27:42Oh god.
00:27:43Oh god.
00:27:44Oh.
00:27:45Oh.
00:27:47Oh.
00:27:47Oh.
00:27:57Oh my god.
00:27:59Oh.
00:28:00Oh my god.
00:28:03Oh my god.
00:28:06Oh my god.
00:28:11Oh my god.
00:28:13Oh my god.
00:28:16Oh my god.
00:28:16Oh my god.
00:28:16Oh my god.
00:28:18Oh my god.
00:28:18Oh my god.
00:28:18Oh my god.
00:28:18Oh my god.
00:28:18Oh my god.
00:28:20Oh my god.
00:28:21Oh my god.
00:28:43Thank you for calling Jennings Architecture.
00:28:46It is currently after hours, but if you have an emergency, you may contact a representative
00:28:51at 555-4868, or stay on the line and leave a message.
00:29:01Hey John.
00:29:03Hi, this is Brian.
00:29:06I'm having a family emergency, so I'm just calling to let you know that I won't be into
00:29:11work for a couple of days, so I'll probably see you next Monday.
00:29:15Bye.
00:29:17Bye.
00:29:18Bye.
00:29:18Bye.
00:29:19Bye.
00:29:23Bye.
00:29:35Bye.
00:29:37Bye.
00:29:37Bye.
00:29:53Bye.
00:29:56Bye.
00:30:09Bye.
00:30:15Bye.
00:30:17Bye.
00:30:35Bye.
00:31:03I remember when I met your mother.
00:31:06She was beautiful, it's not that she's not beautiful, she's gorgeous, it's just, I'm used to her, it's like no
00:31:30matter how good I have it, it's no one's fault.
00:31:36She's fucked up.
00:32:07What is her name please?
00:32:09Bella Sanders?
00:32:25Your wife is in stable condition, she should be released sometime this evening or tomorrow morning.
00:32:32Okay, thank you.
00:32:58She's sleeping Brian.
00:33:00Okay.
00:33:13She doesn't want to talk yet Brian.
00:33:16I just want to make sure she's okay.
00:33:18I think it's going to be a long time before she's okay.
00:33:48Hello.
00:33:50Hi Gary, is Bella there?
00:33:52We'll call you when she's ready.
00:34:02Hello.
00:34:26I'm just not ready yet.
00:34:29Can I at least see the girls?
00:34:31Hold on.
00:34:37What time do you get off tomorrow?
00:34:40Whenever you want.
00:34:43Meet me at Owens Beach around 1.
00:34:47Thank you so much.
00:34:49I'll see you tomorrow.
00:34:53You wanna see a call tomorrow?
00:34:56Alright.
00:35:08Hi.
00:35:12Oh.
00:35:13There you go.
00:35:15Hey.
00:35:17How are you doing?
00:35:20Come on.
00:35:23There you go.
00:35:23There's Daddy.
00:35:24There she is.
00:35:25Hi.
00:35:26Oh, look who's here to see you.
00:35:27Oh, I know.
00:35:29Here, come on.
00:35:31Here, who's excited?
00:35:33Okay.
00:35:34Get this up.
00:35:36I feel like a magician.
00:35:38Okay, you ready?
00:35:39I'll trade you.
00:35:40Okay.
00:35:42There she is.
00:35:46Come on.
00:35:48Come on.
00:35:49Hey.
00:35:52Hold on here.
00:35:53Hey.
00:35:55It's good to see you guys.
00:35:58Yeah.
00:36:00So.
00:36:02How have you been?
00:36:03Huh?
00:36:04Oh, she's been.
00:36:06How has she been?
00:36:07Oh.
00:36:09Always doing interesting things.
00:36:12Oh, yeah.
00:36:14Character.
00:36:14Come on.
00:36:15Come on.
00:36:16There you go.
00:36:18Yeah.
00:36:22Oh.
00:36:26Ready?
00:36:38There she is.
00:36:39Come on.
00:36:40Let's get out and see the day, huh?
00:36:43There you go.
00:36:44Hello.
00:36:44Hi.
00:36:47There you are, gorgeous.
00:37:01Thank you so much for bringing the family.
00:37:02It's just the right thing to do.
00:37:07So, how are you doing?
00:37:09I just want to know if she's okay.
00:37:11She's really hurt, Brian, and I don't think she's going to forgive you.
00:37:16Well, I can't even forgive myself.
00:37:18I know you love her, and she loves you.
00:37:20You've just made a mistake.
00:37:22She doesn't understand that you understand what you've done.
00:37:26She only knows she's hurting, and it's because of you.
00:37:33I...
00:37:34This is either going to drive you farther apart or bring you closer together, but it's not your choice.
00:37:40It's her choice now.
00:37:43I know.
00:37:45You just have to give her time to decide.
00:37:48It's just hard not being able to see her or talk to her.
00:37:59Thanks for coming out today.
00:38:03It's just the right thing to do.
00:38:19My mother has the gift of Catholic guilt, and my dad's going to kick your ass if you've been calling.
00:38:24So, how are you doing?
00:38:27If I see a therapist three times a week, the state won't take the kids.
00:38:31How are you?
00:38:32Well, it's over.
00:38:34I told her we're done.
00:38:35It's too late for that part.
00:38:37I know I messed up, and I can't go back.
00:38:42But I'm sorry.
00:38:44I'm so sorry.
00:38:47How could you do this to me?
00:38:49How?
00:38:50How?
00:38:50When I love you so much.
00:38:53I don't know.
00:38:55I love you so much, Brian.
00:39:05I love you.
00:39:14I want a divorce.
00:39:17Bella.
00:39:17I don't want to talk about it.
00:39:19I want a divorce.
00:39:20And I want the kids.
00:39:23And the house and the car.
00:39:26And you can keep the dog, okay?
00:39:30Take whatever you want.
00:39:33Could you be out by Friday?
00:39:35If we don't come home soon, Cole's going to know something's wrong.
00:39:38What are you going to tell her when you come home and I'm not here?
00:39:42I'm going to tell her the truth.
00:39:46Okay, she should know.
00:39:55I have to go.
00:39:57Take care of yourself, Brian.
00:39:59Yeah.
00:40:01I love you.
00:40:10Okay.
00:40:11I guess this is it for a while.
00:40:12Guess this is it for a while.
00:40:14Okay.
00:40:27I guess this is it for a while.
00:41:04Hello.
00:41:04Hi.
00:41:05Where's Kim?
00:41:07I've only been here for a week.
00:41:08I don't think I've met her yet.
00:41:10Thanks.
00:41:11Oh, Mr. Jennings wanted to just stop by his office and get it.
00:41:14All right.
00:41:21I've known you for a long time, and I've never seen you like this.
00:41:26I'm sorry, John.
00:41:27I'm just having problems at home.
00:41:29You've missed 43 days in the past three months, and when you do show up, you smell like alcohol.
00:41:39My wife and I are... I don't even know what we are.
00:41:43Which is why it hurts me to do this, but you're really not leaving me any choice.
00:41:50I understand.
00:41:52And I wish you the best.
00:41:54I really do.
00:41:56Thanks.
00:42:14What I didn't give away, I threw away.
00:42:18I threw it all away.
00:42:20As easily as one throws away the wrapping on a birthday present.
00:42:25I've always been too selfish to understand that it's the wrapping that makes it special.
00:42:31You're fired, he said, in so many words.
00:42:35You're fired from life.
00:42:37For you have failed everyone who has ever loved you.
00:42:41You've failed yourself.
00:42:44And no amount of sorry will make this better.
00:42:47No amount of forgiveness will make me worthy.
00:42:51I deserve the hurt I have caused.
00:42:53And in the end, the last thing I want is to feel better.
00:43:27I'm here.
00:43:38Excuse me sir, we've had a few noise complaints and to top it off, your credit cards will be closed.
00:43:48So we need to get your stuff out right now.
00:43:51Do you have a jacket you want to bring?
00:43:53Is this your jacket?
00:43:55Is this the one?
00:43:57Yeah?
00:43:58Yes.
00:43:59Why don't you put that on?
00:44:00Alright, we got to grab your stuff.
00:44:02What do you want to bring with you?
00:44:08There.
00:44:10Hold on to that.
00:44:13Hold on.
00:44:14Hold on.
00:44:15Just get it.
00:44:16I don't know.
00:44:17Is that all you need?
00:44:18Alright, we're gonna go.
00:44:24Okay.
00:44:41I'm gonna go.
00:44:44Oh, lovely girl.
00:44:46I'm gonna .
00:44:47Nice.
00:45:42Oh, party just moved to a new venue, that's all.
00:45:57You know what?
00:46:01I love you, Reese.
00:46:03You know what else?
00:46:05You're too good for this.
00:46:08You wanna go home?
00:46:10Come on.
00:46:12Off like a herd of turtles.
00:46:15Come on.
00:46:24I can't believe I let you talk me into this.
00:46:31Well, I know you've heard this story a million times.
00:46:38But, if I don't keep talking, I can't keep walking.
00:46:44So, a million and one.
00:46:47What do you have to say about that, huh?
00:46:51Huh?
00:46:53That's what I thought.
00:46:58Anyway, we drove all day to get to where you were born.
00:47:02Have you ever seen your mother drive?
00:47:04Huh?
00:47:06She's beautiful.
00:47:08She's so serious.
00:47:13I always felt like I was on a mission to make her laugh.
00:47:18I like that feeling of trying to impress somebody.
00:47:22She made me feel that way all the time.
00:47:26Huh.
00:47:28And when she smiled, I swear there was heaven on her lips.
00:47:32She's so serious.
00:47:34But don't get any ideas.
00:47:37You're too young to start dating there, mister.
00:47:40You're too young for that.
00:47:45Anyway, we get to the farm way out in the boonies.
00:47:52And I swear the place was odd.
00:47:55It was like a circus.
00:47:58There was kids on unicycles.
00:48:03Goats with eight horns.
00:48:06I think there was even a cat with wings.
00:48:10Woo-hoo-hoo!
00:48:13I thought you liked to play with that.
00:48:15Chase that around the yard all day, huh?
00:48:22And your mother, she had the best sense of style.
00:48:28She wore dresses from the 50s.
00:48:31And little things in her hair.
00:48:39She reminded me of Marilyn Monroe before...
00:48:44Well, she was Marilyn Monroe.
00:48:50I think it was the way the wind whipped up her dress.
00:48:56It didn't matter where we went or what we did.
00:49:03I couldn't take my eyes off her.
00:49:09She glowed even when she slept.
00:49:15Have you ever seen The Lion King?
00:49:17Yeah.
00:49:19I have about 75 times.
00:49:21I have kids.
00:49:24Remember?
00:49:26Remember when James Earl Jones is holding up Simba?
00:49:37Well, that's how it was when I met you.
00:49:42Only you weren't Simba.
00:49:47You...
00:49:51You were like a peanut butter cup.
00:49:58A fat, chunky little peanut butter cup.
00:50:08That's how you got your name.
00:50:34Let's just do this tomorrow, buddy, okay?
00:50:38One more.
00:50:39One more.
00:54:36Hey, fuck off.
00:54:38Hey.
00:54:39Hey, what's your problem?
00:54:43I don't have a problem.
00:54:44You walk through here every day, where do you go?
00:54:46I don't know.
00:54:48I don't know.
00:54:48I guess I'm not going anywhere.
00:54:49Quit being a pathetic fuck and say hi every once in a while, huh?
00:54:54Well, you're gonna sit down and ain't fucking church.
00:54:59I'm a piece of shit, you're a piece of shit, I'm a piece of shit, I'm a piece of shit,
00:55:01I'm a piece of shit, Paul.
00:55:01I'm Terry.
00:55:02I'm Terry.
00:55:02This is my friend, Vodka.
00:55:03Who the fuck are you?
00:55:05Brian.
00:55:08Hey, hey, hey, hey, man.
00:55:10Hey, hey, hey, you're a guy, when I'm the guy, I'm a piece of shit, you're a piece of shit.
00:55:10Hey, hey, waitress, can I get a napkin for my friend here?
00:55:12Don't sleep at all.
00:55:14My child righteous and you're stagnant cunt.
00:55:19Hey.
00:55:21Where the fuck are you gonna go?
00:55:23You got a job interview or something?
00:55:26Oh, gonna be a big shot dental assistant?
00:55:29Yeah, fuck you, you drunk.
00:55:52You got a job interview or something?
00:55:53Yeah, you got a job interview.
00:56:00Oh, yeah.
00:56:04Yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:56:05Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:56:14Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
00:56:43The taste of used food subsides as the flickering streetlights create a rhythmic dance of muted
00:56:49shadows i stuff my coat with newspapers i will never read the first night was cold so was the second
00:57:01and every night that followed memories will never keep you warm at night
00:57:08but they will keep you up even the good ones have you ever held someone so close that you forget
00:57:17which one you are that you think it's your fingers moving that it's there
00:57:26that they finish your words
00:57:34i can hear your heart beating your lips
00:57:40i think it's your lips that make my heart
00:57:48hey so did you get that job
00:57:53jesus christ watching you is like watching some pathetic dog shit himself and then wipe his ass all
00:57:59over the ground and smear it in real good what you need is an aspirin and a shower
00:58:11well are you gonna sit down or what
00:58:17what is your deal anyway you ain't supposed to be here
00:58:22well i used to have a wife and kids a dog and a house jesus christ you are a dental
00:58:29assistant
00:58:31well i was an architect
00:58:34an architect if you were an architect you'd know how many floors there were between you and the ground
00:58:44let me tell you something you're a piece of shit i used to be a dental hygienist
00:58:51being a dental hygienist is a lot like being a shrink
00:58:55only most of my clients were numb kind of like you talk to me about being
00:59:02you have a smoke crack
00:59:06smoking crack is kind of like waking up frankenstein's monster
00:59:10there's a big jolt of electricity and then he just stumbles around all sad and lonely
00:59:15so the town folk they all get together and you know get their pitchforks and
00:59:20they run him out of town or kill him or fuck i forget
00:59:25killed it
00:59:27killed it thank you very much anyway my point is this
00:59:32you walk around here like fucking frankenstein's monster
00:59:36and i see i can tell you ain't supposed to be here you're a fucking accident
00:59:40so i look for my pitchfork but then i realize i'm not a fucking farmer what do i need a
00:59:46pitchfork for
00:59:49but by the time i realize that you're fucking gone
00:59:54just do yourself a favor go be an architect build yourself some big building that you don't want
01:00:02to jump off of or at least be a good drunk you fucking piece of shit
01:00:14thank you
01:00:18yeah go fuck yourself frankie the park fly
01:00:26jesus paul you're a fucking embarrassment
01:00:38i
01:00:38i
01:00:48i
01:00:49i
01:00:52i
01:00:53i
01:00:53i
01:01:14Do you mind if I sit and watch you paint?
01:01:17No, not at all.
01:01:22This has always reminded me of something from a different life.
01:01:26A couple of months ago.
01:01:27Interesting how something so strong can also be so fragile.
01:01:32So are you in school?
01:01:34Third quarter freshman.
01:01:36Well, it's very beautiful.
01:01:40Do you paint?
01:01:42I always wanted to.
01:01:43I was told my wife I'd paint her, but I never did.
01:01:47You're married?
01:01:49No, I'm divorced.
01:01:50I'm sorry.
01:01:52It's okay. It's been a while now.
01:01:55How long?
01:01:57Going on three years.
01:01:59This is too bad.
01:02:02It's all right.
01:02:04Where are you from?
01:02:05Yeah.
01:02:06They must have tourists written all over me.
01:02:09Well, that depends if you ask me to take your picture in front of the space nail or not.
01:02:15I'm from Portland.
01:02:17Really?
01:02:17Yeah.
01:02:18From Salem?
01:02:18Right on.
01:02:22Well, I should probably let you get back to your work.
01:02:26That's okay.
01:02:27You don't have to.
01:02:29Thanks, but I need to start looking for some dinner.
01:02:32But good luck to you.
01:02:34You too.
01:02:35Good luck to you.
01:02:35Oh, go.
01:04:57Hey.
01:04:59Hey.
01:05:01Here goes Frank, you're the architect.
01:05:05Fuck.
01:05:14You gonna come over and join me or what?
01:05:25What the fuck are you so happy about?
01:05:29Life goes on.
01:05:33It doesn't matter how much you push it, pull it, remember or forget.
01:05:38It's indifferent.
01:05:40It just goes on.
01:05:43And I think back to the little things, the things that matter most.
01:05:47The laughter.
01:05:50The wet laughter that hurts in the best way.
01:05:55Her lip-lock eyes across a crowded room.
01:06:00Philosophy over coffee.
01:06:04Explaining why the sky is blue to a child who thinks the world of you.
01:06:08So wide-eyed and full of possibilities.
01:06:12Endless possibilities.
01:06:15When the world was made of magic.
01:06:19Of course unicorns are real.
01:06:23As real as princesses.
01:06:26As real as Bigfoot.
01:06:28As real as you and me.
01:06:32Once when I was your age, I rode one.
01:06:35I rode one but the horn is very sharp.
01:06:40That's how I got these scars on my chin, you know?
01:06:42No.
01:06:47Fly.
01:06:50Fly.
01:06:54Fly as I sink.
01:07:14Fly.
01:07:15Fly.
01:07:15Fly with the구나 mai.
01:07:42Fly as the
01:07:57Take a walk with me
01:08:01And let's go find belief
01:08:06I want to see the stars again
01:08:09With the wonder that I had
01:08:13At the age of ten, alone
01:08:17She lost the magic in her eyes
01:08:22I could share the same self
01:08:28Not at all
01:08:34So now I walk alone
01:08:39Once again, I'm on my own
01:08:44She lost the magic she had for me
01:08:52Lost the magic, I'm not complete
01:08:58In each one of us, Peter Pan
01:09:03Elvis Presley, Superman
01:09:08In each one of us, Jacques Cousteau
01:09:13To marvel at the earth and the sea below
01:09:30In each one of us, Jacques Cousteau
01:09:46To marvel at the earth and the sea below
01:10:10Do you remember the first day we met?
01:10:18Let's go find belief
01:10:25Belief
01:10:26Belief
01:10:32I want to see the stars again
01:11:00I remember lying on your chest and talking for hours
01:11:11And then we remembered we was lying on the bathroom floor
01:11:15So we had a shower again
01:11:29So I walk alone
01:11:36Once again
01:11:40I'm on my own
01:11:42I'm on my own
01:11:43She lost the magic
01:11:47She had for me
01:11:52In her eyes
01:11:57We no longer
01:12:01Share the sky
01:12:05Oh no
01:12:08Oh no
01:12:10Not at all
01:12:17Not at all
01:12:22Sometimes I can't help but wonder
01:12:25Maybe we forget each other every time you look away
01:12:33I see you
01:12:35You are beautiful
01:12:40In each one of us
01:12:43Peter Pan
01:12:47Elvis Presley
01:12:51Superman
01:12:54In each one of us
01:12:56Jacques Cousteau
01:12:59To marvel at the earth and the sea below
01:13:06Well
01:13:07I just need someone
01:13:10Who understands
01:13:13The little boy
01:13:18Inside the man
01:13:21I just need someone
01:13:24Who understands
01:13:28Part of me lives
01:13:32In our dreamland
01:13:50I remember
01:13:53I remember
01:13:54She thought
01:13:56But I can't forget
01:14:00Once you asked me
01:14:01If I had ever stood naked
01:14:03In front of anyone
01:14:05Alone
01:14:05And out of reach
01:14:08I took off my clothes
01:14:09And backed away from you
01:14:11You simply asked me
01:14:12My middle name
01:14:13And told me to put my clothes
01:14:15Back on
01:14:18I am standing naked
01:14:19I am standing naked
01:14:20And raw
01:14:20For you now
01:14:21Bella
01:14:22Not to beg forgiveness
01:14:25But to beg that you find happiness
01:14:28The kind of happiness
01:14:29I can never give you
01:14:32And if you should see
01:14:33The unrecognizable me on the street
01:14:36Don't look down
01:14:39Don't look back
01:14:42And I will grant you the same respect
01:14:47Ain't you guys got a home to go to?
01:14:49Yeah
01:14:51I was thinking about
01:14:52Maybe getting a wife
01:14:53Shitting out some kids
01:14:56Being an architect
01:14:57Will you marry me?
01:15:00Shut up you fucking drunk
01:15:03Do you ever leave the bench?
01:15:07What do they decorate you guys
01:15:09At Christmas time?
01:15:13Yes
01:15:14No
01:15:17Okay
01:15:17Well I am going to go get a cup of coffee
01:15:19If you want to join me
01:15:27Come on sweetheart
01:15:29Daddy wants some breakfast
01:15:32Lupe
01:16:01Daddy
01:16:06So we'll see where that comes from.
01:16:20I have more range when I've spoken more.
01:16:23Just piss me off.
01:16:42If there was one thing you could change about your life, what would it be?
01:16:47One thing is all I get?
01:16:50If one is all I get, I don't want to play this.
01:16:54Pussy.
01:16:56I want to be President of the United States. That's right.
01:17:00That way I can declare a state anarchy.
01:17:05I want to be a movie star.
01:17:07A big fucking movie star.
01:17:10Live in a big fucking house.
01:17:13Make big fucking movies.
01:17:17I want to be the love child to sit vicious in Molly Ringwald.
01:17:25I want to sit up all night in an all night diner and order nothing.
01:17:32I want to be God.
01:17:33The sole purpose of saying, I brought you into this world.
01:17:36Don't think for one minute I will take you out.
01:17:41I want the original promise.
01:17:44I want justice for all.
01:17:47I want love, hate, ups and downs, and everything in between.
01:17:54For nothing in return.
01:17:58I want the world in my palm.
01:18:01No cooler than 60 degrees.
01:18:04No warmer than 75.
01:18:07And never a cloud in the sky.
01:18:11I want the perfect kiss.
01:18:14The perfect imperfection.
01:18:18The perfect life.
01:18:21But more than anything, I want someone who wants what I want.
01:18:26And I want her to walk through that door right over there.
01:18:30And order biscuits and gravy.
01:18:35You're a pathetic fuck.
01:18:39Thanks.
01:18:40Not you, him.
01:18:43Jesus, that was beautiful.
01:18:45That was great.
01:18:46Okay.
01:18:50Okay.
01:18:51Okay.
01:18:52Let's not go too big.
01:18:53Okay.
01:18:54No.
01:18:56Okay.
01:18:57I'm going to go ahead.
01:18:59Okay.
01:19:03We're going to go ahead.
01:19:14I'm going to go down here.
01:19:15I'm going to go ahead.
01:19:15I'm going to go ahead and share.
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