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Boyzone No Matter What S01E03 (2025) [Full Movie] [Vertical Drama]Full EP - Full
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00:14You're living in a bubble, you're living in a dream.
00:19I was 18 when we started, catapulted into this superstardom.
00:24Look at us now! Look at us now!
00:27Because I loved what we did for seven years, and now it was being taken from me.
00:32Do boyzones still exist? I don't know.
00:35The world we just lived has disappeared. What is my new world? Who the fuck am I?
00:42Although nothing has been confirmed officially, it's thought Gatelyn...
00:45Everything had changed. Everything had changed.
00:48I should have gone back. I know that I should have gone back.
00:53To get those years would have been everything.
00:57I should have gone back.
00:58I should have gone back.
01:00I should have gone back.
01:00I should have gone back.
01:10I should have gone back.
01:12I should have gone back.
01:13I should have gone back.
01:16I should have gone back.
01:26I should have gone back.
01:27This really sums up how pissed off Shane was with Ronan.
01:33Honestly, all you had to do was talk to me about how you feel about Ronan and off he went.
01:39I was angry at Raul for years and I found myself in this dark world.
01:45It didn't take a lot to upset me and it would come out in any environment, any space, live TV,
01:52to concerts, to interviews.
01:54Do you get upset that I keep saying nasty things about you?
01:57No, you know what, so be it. We're all getting on with our lives.
02:02Floyd's own, I don't think, are going to get back together pretty much.
02:04And if the guys want to get back together, you know, wish them the best. I hope they do well.
02:08We had decided to take a year off and then get back together.
02:14But one year later, I couldn't see it happening.
02:19A bad lemon. Oh, a bald lemon.
02:25What did you all take before you came?
02:29I was getting plenty of work, but it just wasn't fulfilling my dreams, I suppose, my goals.
02:37I really wanted to perform.
02:38I had to get out. I had to find something.
02:40I had to find something that gave me a bit of hope in life.
02:49Growing up, cars are with my life.
02:52My dad working as a car mechanic.
02:55Me, lying under any car, under any bonnet.
02:59It's who I am.
03:01I was blessed with an opportunity to drive in a show called Autosport Show.
03:07The best in the world were there.
03:10And this dickhead.
03:14I came toward in that race.
03:16And from there, I got signed to Ford Motorsport.
03:20When you stand on stage, that energy that you got, I got that from cars.
03:26In Boyzone, I lacked purpose in my own mind.
03:30All of a sudden now, shit, this is your time to shine.
03:46Out of the blue, I got a phone call from Coronation Street.
03:51Out of my comfort zone, to say the least, but nevertheless, I gave it my best shot.
03:57I went into Corrie for two or three episodes.
03:59I ended up staying on and off for ten years.
04:01Drink's over.
04:03Coronation Street gave me an identity.
04:05It gave me belief in myself.
04:07It gave me confidence.
04:08All of a sudden, I was somebody.
04:10That was Keith Duffy.
04:12It wasn't the big one in the back with the broken teeth.
04:14Now, did you watch your pal?
04:16Keith, yeah, I did, yeah.
04:18I thought it was fantastic.
04:19And do you all still keep in touch?
04:21I haven't spoke to Ron in a while, or Mikey.
04:23Just that you're all so busy, you know, doing your own thing.
04:26You know, it's quite hard.
04:28I'd always make time for boys on.
04:31After my solo album, it was very, very difficult.
04:34More difficult than I thought it was going to be.
04:37You know, quit for about a year.
04:39Came back and done some theatre.
04:42I loved doing that, but I just felt it really difficult being on my own.
04:47And, you know, being with four guys who you consider your brothers,
04:51and then just kind of not seeing them for a long time.
04:55None compares to being with the lads.
05:07It was unbelievable there in the noughties.
05:10Madness.
05:12My manager, Louis, at the time is saying,
05:14record company are pushing you.
05:15You've got to make the album.
05:17We know we need it.
05:17We need the album made.
05:19I was very hungry, and I wanted to be great,
05:21and I wanted to have my opportunities, so I kept going.
05:25But it was quantity over quality.
05:27So don't find it.
05:29I'd loads of ideas for him.
05:31As a big middle-of-the-road artist,
05:34he appeals to older women and stuff.
05:36And there's nobody better.
05:39That was his market.
05:40That was his lane.
05:41It just...
05:42He just got it wrong.
05:43He just made the wrong choices.
05:47He didn't even know where the fuck I was.
05:49I opened in Sydney to 10,000 people.
05:51He didn't know I was on tour.
05:54Get ready for another TV phenomenon.
05:56Pop stars The Rivals is coming in autumn.
05:59It's good, it's good.
06:00We are going to get good singers at the end of the day.
06:02Louis became a TV personality.
06:06He was given that chance
06:08because he was the manager of Boyzone.
06:10And that obviously gave Louis an opportunity,
06:12but that took a lot of his time.
06:15I was on the phone to Ronin all the time.
06:17I talked to him every day,
06:19and he always wanted more.
06:21Things start to fall into place,
06:24and you realize Louis's not a great manager.
06:27I gave him multiple opportunities to fix the problems.
06:32So I went and met him, and I said it to his face.
06:34He just said he didn't want to be a karaoke artist,
06:37and he wanted to record his own songs,
06:39he wanted to write his own songs,
06:40and he wanted to be a proper artist.
06:43I've got one shot in my career,
06:45and he didn't give a fuck.
06:47That shocked me,
06:48the fact that he wasn't happy with the songs.
06:51They were all hits.
06:52Hey, that's what you're in the business for,
06:55having hits.
06:56Just fell on deaf ears.
06:58I always told him the truth.
07:00What was the truth?
07:02You're a lucky fucker.
07:03You know, this is great.
07:05Enjoy it.
07:06And I remember going in and saying,
07:08right, that's it.
07:10And what did you say?
07:11I said, okay.
07:13Nothing I could have done.
07:14I couldn't have changed this one.
07:15It was a divorce.
07:20Battle lines are drawn,
07:21and you did have to pick a side.
07:23I picked Louis.
07:25I knew Westlife were going to be bigger than Boyzone.
07:27It was in my own selfish interest.
07:29But you had to pick somebody,
07:30and Louis made that very clear.
07:34It's this monumental shift in the media.
07:37Just the language in the newspapers changed,
07:40and he was demeaned and diminished.
07:43I called him talentless and different things here and there in the press.
07:48He knew how to hurt me.
07:50Vicious fucking bitchy, vicious, horrible things.
07:55He tried to ruin me and my career.
07:59Do I regret it?
08:01Yeah, a little bit.
08:02Do you think he knows that you regret it?
08:04No, he doesn't know.
08:07It was an incredible show of the strength of somebody who has the media that they think of it.
08:13You are who you are because I made you who you are.
08:19I was with Ronan all the time, you know.
08:22I was there working with him every day,
08:25so it was just inevitable that I would just take over eventually.
08:31Mark Plunkett, thank God for Mark.
08:33I kept my sanity because of Mark.
08:36We had a great time.
08:38Lots of touring, lots of international trips,
08:42lots of TVs all over the world.
08:44You're mad busy because you're promoting your new album.
08:48But the singles out now, this is it.
08:50But there's inevitably going to come to a point where the sales dip slightly.
08:54You know, the hits weren't quite as big as they'd been.
08:58I'm sorry.
09:00I made my third album, my fourth.
09:03And things started to slow down a little bit.
09:07He wasn't having hits.
09:11But he's not having any sense like that.
09:14Oh.
09:15I had done my party trick, and maybe I'd done it a few more times too much,
09:21and I needed to figure out again who I was, you know, where I was.
09:26So my compass kind of went back to north.
09:402006, Gary Oro was putting Take That back together.
09:47So I went along to see the show.
09:51All the fans noticed me.
09:53And the whole place started chanting my name and clapping,
09:57and I was like, I thought I had been completely forgotten about.
10:02So that was quite a surprise.
10:09And then when I seen their show, I was kind of feeling the bug again, you know?
10:18We just slowly but surely got to chat again to each other,
10:22and little kind of whispers here and there.
10:24You know, Stephen would definitely be the one that would be pushing it with them.
10:27This is going to be great.
10:28You know, we have to do this.
10:29And just all spiralled into kind of us having a meeting.
10:32Let's get into a room.
10:34That was all.
10:35That's all.
10:35It was test the water.
10:41I was worried about the boys' reaction.
10:44I hadn't seen them for years.
10:47There was resentment, bitterness.
10:51I was shitting myself going into the room.
10:53Yeah, 100%.
10:53I was nervous as hell.
11:09You know, you could feel there was a lot of scars.
11:12People were unsure, unsure it was going to work,
11:16unsure they wanted to do it at all.
11:19The rage that I had with Ro.
11:21In my mind, when I saw I was going to fucking destroy him,
11:25I was going to abort him.
11:28Very, very, very spiky.
11:30That first moment, walking into the room again.
11:34I was fuming.
11:35And when I saw his face,
11:37I could do nothing but hug the fella.
11:39Oh, I'm just going in.
11:40Oh, you're skinhead.
11:41What's happening?
11:42I'm just going, dude.
11:43Like, I miss you.
11:45That actually gave me a good insight to
11:48it's not always as bad as you think in your mind.
11:52I would just like to apologise
11:54if anything I have said or done in the past seven years
11:56has hurt or affected anybody in a negative or unhappy fashion.
12:02I wasn't the reason the band broke up,
12:03but I was definitely the reason the band didn't get back together before now
12:06and I apologise for that.
12:08I made choices that I'm not proud of.
12:11I left them behind.
12:15For success.
12:18I did have blinkers on.
12:20Yeah.
12:21Didn't end right.
12:22We need to do it right.
12:25I asked him if he thought there was any scope for the band getting back together.
12:29Things haven't always been as good as they are tonight.
12:32It was great going in so successful as an actor,
12:36but every now and again you'd get a surge of memories.
12:38The audience being blown away.
12:43And you go, wow, I'd love just one more chance.
12:46Maybe this could work now if we're all really on the same page.
12:50You know, it was there for the taking.
12:53Personally, you know what I mean, I'd like to do a little something.
12:56I really fucking missed all of you.
12:59I mean, I think it's just amazing being here.
13:00I mean, it's bad.
13:02It excited me, you know.
13:05I think everyone was kind of, let's do it.
13:08Let's do a tour.
13:09Let's get to see if people are bothered with Boys Zone anymore.
13:22Admission sequence starts.
13:24Bye, Shalom.
13:25Shalom.
13:29Who's idea were those fucking outfits?
13:40Oh my God.
13:42Our first performance in eight years.
13:46We're climbing underneath the stage to go on these trapdoors
13:49to be sprung loaded onto stage.
13:54So nervous going up in that lift
13:55and kind of going, oh my God, I don't know where I'm going.
13:58It's like you're rubbing the headlights.
14:00You get a panic attack.
14:01You get this kind of, oh shit.
14:05And it's amazing.
14:11I remember that excitement.
14:13How we felt in that exact moment with that countdown.
14:17You can feel the breath.
14:19You can feel the energy from a crowd.
14:21And you cannot imagine what that's like.
14:24It's unreal.
14:34Oh man, I'm like using goosebumps.
14:48I couldn't hear the first two songs, to be honest,
14:50because the crowd was so loud.
14:54I'm not there for glory.
14:56I'm there to go, look at all you people
14:59and look at the joy that we can bring you.
15:02Why'd it take me so long just to find you?
15:06Oh man, I was there all alone.
15:12We designed a moment, everybody would get their own little moment.
15:15And I think that's why it felt so different.
15:20I felt a part of the band for the first time.
15:27That my efforts were being appreciated.
15:32That we could now really be a band.
15:37We'd fill each other's spaces without even thinking about it,
15:40without even looking at each other.
15:42If Shane was out far right, you know,
15:44I'd see him starting to move in.
15:46If Mikey was in the middle, he'd move over to fill my space
15:49and you just fill each other's voids.
15:52And it's a real art.
15:57We're back.
15:58We were back.
16:00I just felt, you know, unbelievable.
16:03That was pretty magic, eh?
16:06Getting the band back together.
16:12That reunion tour was huge.
16:14You know, multiple nights in arenas.
16:17Then when they got back together,
16:18they asked me to take over the managing.
16:20I was glad to be involved.
16:22I've been there since day one in the UK.
16:26And, you know, I didn't want anyone else
16:27to carry on writing those chapters.
16:30See, we're the vocal harmony group we are.
16:33We're not a boy band, right?
16:34The plan was then to, you know, work on a new album.
16:37Everyone was in a great place.
16:41We, as a collective now,
16:43had more control over the music.
16:45For the first time,
16:46I was enjoying the music that Boyzone was doing.
16:50It took us 15 years to do that.
16:5507 to 09 were the best years of the band.
16:58We were the most comfortable in our own skin
17:00that we'd ever been.
17:01As soon as I get in a room with them boys,
17:03I'm the silliest fella I was back
17:05when I was 17 years old.
17:07It's just kindergarten kids.
17:09It was absolutely brilliant to be back with those fellas.
17:12Like, nothing had changed.
17:14Like, nothing had changed.
17:16Too far.
17:16Please.
17:17Too far.
17:19Just seemed to share even more laughs
17:22than we had before.
17:24I don't know, just a better understanding of each other.
17:27You've got to get this right.
17:28Come on, come on.
17:29Some people really came into their own.
17:32Steven in particular.
17:33Hey, all of you, a girl.
17:35It was the best version of him I'd ever seen.
17:37The other guys have got girls to dance with.
17:39You've got a bloke.
17:40Yeah.
17:41I'm going to have to be true to myself,
17:42and that's how it turned out.
17:43And I think it works beautifully with the song.
17:46He was looking great.
17:48He had a book going.
17:49He had met someone new.
17:51Andy.
17:52They were just in love and got married.
17:56Very happy.
17:57Everything was going as planned.
17:59Presumably you're going to be working on new music together.
18:01Four singles, a brand new song.
18:02And you have it already?
18:03Yeah, well, we think so.
18:05We had done the better tour.
18:06We had new songs for a new album,
18:08and that brother album is our finest hour.
18:11Everybody was really, really happy and in a good place.
18:14It's a blessing.
18:15Be given a second chance.
18:17And I'm loving every minute of it.
18:31My phone rang.
18:33It was a solicitor by the name of Gerald Keane,
18:37who Boyzone had used in the 90s.
18:40The phone rang, picked it up,
18:43and Gerald Keane says to me,
18:49I'm sorry to tell you
18:55what Stephen has passed away.
18:59And I said, Stephen who?
19:03And he said Stephen Gately.
19:10The Boyzone singer Stephen Gately
19:12has died while on holiday
19:13on the Spanish island of Mallorca
19:15at the age of 33.
19:22I had to call Louie and the guys
19:27and give them the news.
19:31It was late.
19:33We're in the bar, we're drinking.
19:34And as I left the crowd,
19:37Ro's voice came louder in my phone.
19:40He's like,
19:41Steele, Steele, he's gone.
19:42I said,
19:43what, our Stephen?
19:45He said, yeah.
19:46He said, he's gone.
19:48It just wouldn't go in.
19:51What?
19:51No, no, no, not our Stephen.
19:53And I hear him screaming.
19:56It's freaking hard.
19:57You still hear it.
20:03You can't breathe.
20:05Your legs got from under you.
20:08It would get through
20:09in little bits
20:10and then it would be complete
20:12just breakdown.
20:18My wall just fell apart.
20:24Numb.
20:31We tried to put a plan together
20:33to get down to see Steele.
20:36Our instinct was
20:37just to get together.
20:38So that force
20:41of companionship
20:42and that force of like,
20:43OK, where are you?
20:44How can I get to you?
20:45What do you need?
20:46I couldn't tell you the journey.
20:48Couldn't tell you anything.
20:49I just know
20:50we got on a fucking plane.
21:00The body of Stephen Gately
21:01was found by police officers.
21:03So far, Gately's family
21:03have made no comments.
21:04What caused Stephen Starr's death
21:05on Saturday
21:06remains unexplained.
21:08Miriam got me on a flight
21:09to Mallorca
21:10the next morning.
21:12I get out there
21:13and it is heaving.
21:18There was press everywhere.
21:20It was crazy
21:21having the boys there.
21:22They just couldn't move.
21:23It was horrible.
21:24It was horrible.
21:26The kind of cesspit
21:27of journalism
21:28that sometimes
21:28it can all descend into.
21:31Paul,
21:31what can you tell us?
21:32What's the latest?
21:33Well, Karen,
21:34there's been quite a lot
21:34of movement here
21:35at the apartment.
21:35This is the apartment
21:36just beyond me here
21:37where Stephen
21:38actually passed away.
21:39Suddenly,
21:40it's immediately like,
21:41get the story.
21:45What has happened?
21:46What has happened?
21:49Nobody really speaking
21:50in the Boys Zone camp
21:51officially yet
21:52but obviously
21:52there's quite a lot
21:53of speculation
21:54behind the scenes.
21:55So then you're starting
21:56to get around the hotels
21:57and what clubs was he in
21:58and trying to put this together?
21:59He was found by police
22:01and taken here
22:01to one of the island's mortuaries.
22:03Although nothing
22:03has been confirmed officially,
22:05it's thought Gately
22:06and his partner
22:07arrived back here.
22:08You know,
22:08we've no idea
22:09what happened to him.
22:10You know,
22:11it's only what we've read
22:12and, you know,
22:13in the press and stuff.
22:14conspiracy theories
22:15are running wild.
22:17All the reporters,
22:17they're exchanging stories.
22:19Well, I heard this
22:19and I heard that.
22:20Lots of innuendo,
22:22lots of chatter
22:23about the circumstances
22:24around his death.
22:25Some of the rubbish
22:26that was written
22:26was just horrible.
22:28The worst for me
22:29was they were saying
22:31it must have been drugs.
22:34I was, like,
22:35screaming inside
22:35because, like,
22:37I knew
22:37there was absolutely
22:38no way.
22:39It was quite incredible,
22:42the most ridiculous articles
22:44that were written.
22:45There was one in particular.
22:47Stephen's sexuality
22:48had led to his death.
22:50If he's gay,
22:52it must mean
22:53that he's got
22:54this incredibly,
22:56you know,
22:57outrageous
22:57hidden lifestyle.
23:00Oh,
23:01he'd been out on a bender
23:02and overdosed on drugs.
23:04We were hearing
23:05everything.
23:07Having known Stephen
23:08for over a decade,
23:11he was the last man
23:12to, you know,
23:13have a hedonistic lifestyle
23:15or a dangerous lifestyle.
23:17It's the first time
23:18I've ever looked
23:18at my own industry,
23:19my own world,
23:20what I'd been part of
23:21and gone,
23:21you scumbags.
23:23My mother
23:26found two men
23:27at the end of her bed
23:28taking pictures
23:30of my parents
23:31as they woke.
23:33Basically broke
23:34into our house
23:35and went up the stairs
23:36and took pictures.
23:40With everything
23:41that was happening,
23:42I was just waiting
23:43for the autopsy report
23:44to confirm
23:45that it was something else
23:46because I knew
23:47it was something else.
23:52Pathologists here
23:53have concluded
23:54that he did not die
23:55as a result
23:55of alcohol
23:56nor drugs.
23:58He had a heart defect
24:00that nobody knew about
24:02because of the heart defect.
24:05His lungs filled
24:06with fluid.
24:08We found out
24:09I have the same heart condition
24:11Stephen has.
24:13Funny how just,
24:14you know,
24:15a little tablet
24:15every day
24:16just sort of
24:17keeps that under control
24:18and if Stephen only knew.
24:21People didn't bother
24:22their arses
24:23to really read up
24:24on what happened.
24:25They just see
24:26the headlines
24:27in the newspapers
24:28and they just assume
24:29that he's overdosed.
24:31Oh, you're in that band
24:32with that dead guy.
24:34Did he kill himself?
24:35I've gone
24:36from naught to ten
24:37in a second
24:38at times.
24:39You want to insult
24:39my brother,
24:40I'll fucking kill you.
24:41You know,
24:42I don't care
24:43how big or strong you are.
24:44You'd have to kill me
24:45to stop me.
24:47But to hear
24:48that they were now
24:49putting, like,
24:50a name,
24:51you know,
24:51to what he died from
24:52makes it a little bit,
24:54a little bit easier
24:55just because
24:57it was just,
24:58like,
24:59you could breathe again,
25:00you know.
25:09We brought Stephen home.
25:13Margaret Stephen's mum
25:14asked us
25:15to look after
25:16the funeral arrangements.
25:22We didn't like
25:23the idea
25:24of him being alone
25:25in the church
25:27overnight.
25:28He didn't like
25:29the cold.
25:30He didn't like
25:30being alone.
25:32So we offered
25:33to stay the night
25:34with him
25:34in the church
25:35to keep him company.
25:42When everybody else
25:44left and there was just
25:45the five of us,
25:48there was a great sense
25:50of peace,
25:51of unity.
26:00I don't want to say
26:01sadness because,
26:02believe it or not,
26:04we actually had
26:04quite a comedic night
26:07and the usual
26:09joking
26:11that used to go on
26:14in the very early days
26:16when everything
26:19was innocent
26:19and naive.
26:22For that night,
26:24that emerged.
26:27we put easels
26:28all around the church
26:29of pictures of Stephen
26:31and we walked around
26:32looking at the different
26:33pictures,
26:33the different smiles,
26:34the energy in his face
26:36and we talked to him.
26:38We knew what his part
26:39would be.
26:40We all knew it.
26:41We didn't have to say it.
26:42We could feel his voice
26:43and his energy.
26:44And we joked
26:45and we laughed
26:46and we talked
26:46about old stories.
26:48And what a thing
26:49to share
26:49with those boys
26:51and with Steele
26:52those very last moments.
26:54We still had him,
26:55you know,
26:55in some way
26:56we still had him.
26:58Just the five of us
26:59together.
27:00And you hold on
27:01as long as you can.
27:05Yeah.
27:06But morning came around
27:07real fast.
27:16We had a mass,
27:17a special mass
27:18prepared for Stephen.
27:20It was really
27:20only family
27:21and the lads
27:22and friends,
27:23close friends.
27:24And when we turned
27:25up at the church
27:26there was people
27:27lined for miles
27:28and miles.
27:33There was an ocean
27:34of photographers
27:35as well
27:36flashing away
27:37as we were going in.
27:40So,
27:41I went over
27:41to the photographers
27:42and I said
27:43you're welcome to come in.
27:44I said everybody
27:45can come in.
27:45And they all
27:46like sort of
27:47stepped up to come in
27:48and I said
27:49you can leave
27:49your cameras there
27:50and then you can
27:51come in
27:51and pay your respects.
27:54You know,
27:54because he didn't
27:55pay your respect
27:55to him when he was alive.
27:58You know,
28:00none of them
28:01came in.
28:02Yeah.
28:06We can only have so many
28:08in here in the church
28:08and I know we've
28:09so many, many people
28:10outside,
28:10so just thanks to you
28:12for coming along
28:13to share in this
28:14special day
28:15to remember Stephen.
28:17Stephen was a force
28:19to be reckoned with.
28:20A true friend
28:21full of love
28:22and friendship.
28:24He brought colour
28:24to the band
28:26and that band
28:27now simply feels
28:27black and white
28:28without him.
28:30We're going to really
28:31miss you, brother.
28:32We love you.
28:34We always will.
28:43Carrying his coffin
28:45with the other guys,
28:47you could have heard
28:48a pain drop.
28:53and this is on a street
28:54that was the toughest
28:56part to grow up
28:58in Dublin
29:00and the height
29:01of respect
29:02that the people
29:04showed
29:04for this boy
29:06from their neighbourhood.
29:09It broke me.
29:15The love he had
29:16was fucking gorgeous
29:18to witness.
29:20It's a rare thing.
29:21Everybody loved him.
29:24He was a true pop star.
29:26He loved life.
29:28You know,
29:29he paved the way
29:30for so many
29:30to know it was OK.
29:32I mean,
29:34well,
29:34if that's not a legacy,
29:35what is?
29:37When I think of Stephen,
29:39all I can see
29:40is
29:42him being
29:43like four years of age
29:44with his little
29:46t-shirt on
29:47with Miss Piggy
29:47on the front of it.
29:49Very innocent
29:50and shy
29:51and just looking
29:52up,
29:53wanting to give you
29:55his hand
29:55for you
29:56to just take him.
29:57Just so lovable
29:58and kind
29:59and,
30:01you know,
30:03just a lovely person.
30:17It felt better
30:19to be
30:20in each other's company
30:23than not to be.
30:33We decided
30:34that maybe,
30:34you know,
30:34the right thing
30:35to do
30:35and Stephen's
30:36memory
30:36is to keep going.
30:42Shouldn't have.
30:45The dynamic changed
30:46what it felt like
30:47to be in the band.
30:49Sometimes it was hard
30:50just to do the gig.
30:52The three fellas
30:53and one missing.
30:56The void was massive
30:58and it made you feel
30:59so self-conscious.
31:00It made you feel
31:01like we were shit.
31:02It made you feel
31:03that we weren't,
31:04the audience
31:04just wasn't buying us
31:05anymore,
31:06you know?
31:06Thank you!
31:10We went on and off
31:11over the years
31:12that followed.
31:14Ten years.
31:16Couple of tours.
31:19Never felt the same.
31:21For me it wasn't until he was gone
31:24that I realised
31:24how much
31:25he was the glue
31:27that kept a lot
31:27of the band together.
31:31Whilst
31:31Boysen were still
31:32being successful,
31:33still selling a lot of tickets,
31:35still touring
31:35all over the world,
31:37to me
31:38it felt as if
31:39it was time
31:40to take a break.
31:41but rather than
31:43splitting up
31:43and falling out
31:45announced
31:46the farewell tour.
31:48I'm not saying
31:49anything's flagging
31:50anything
31:50but I'm just
31:51staying.
31:53It got more
31:54and more intense
31:56and
31:56relationships
31:59broke down
31:59within the band.
32:01I spotted
32:02arrogance,
32:03the growth
32:04of ego.
32:07It just became
32:08hard work.
32:09Left, left, left,
32:10left, left, left,
32:11people started
32:12just behaving
32:13fucking badly.
32:17And when that happens
32:19something's gonna give.
32:22It came to a head
32:24in
32:262019.
32:28I saw it all.
32:30I was ready to get
32:30the fuck out of there.
32:33It's when the band imploded.
32:41I was ready for it.
32:42You know what I mean?
32:43Yeah.
32:542019 was a tough tour.
32:56We went everywhere.
33:00I got a sense
33:02that towards the end
33:03people were just
33:04holding on tight,
33:05enjoying the ride,
33:06having fun.
33:07Thank you!
33:08when I can't.
33:12I can't, I can't.
33:13I've got to sing
33:13every day.
33:14I've got to last
33:14two hours on stage
33:15and, you know,
33:16I've got to be able
33:16to perform.
33:17And in Tokyo,
33:19I just felt the piss
33:20was being taken.
33:27If you're coming tonight,
33:28have a great time
33:29because we certainly
33:30are going to have
33:30a fantastic time.
33:32See you later.
33:33I always found
33:34going on stage
33:34a bit of a party anyway.
33:37It's everyone out there
33:38is having a great time.
33:39I needed a great time too.
33:41I mean,
33:41they had been out all day
33:42and they were drinking all day
33:44and, yeah,
33:45it was messy.
33:50We certainly
33:52partied a little harder
33:54than we usually did.
34:04It was the end of the road.
34:09I think that
34:10they interpreted
34:11me as seeing
34:14their carry-on
34:15as infantile.
34:19And that is how I see it.
34:22I'm sure if you talk
34:23to any one of the fans
34:24at any one of those shows,
34:26they'll tell you
34:26that they had
34:27the best night of their lives.
34:28It was the worst.
34:30It was the worst
34:31I had seen
34:32in all of our years.
34:38So I went at them all,
34:40told them how I felt.
34:41It was a tennis match.
34:43From that guy
34:44to that guy
34:45to that guy.
34:45You're not pulling your weight
34:46like I'm pulling my weight.
34:48The job is always done,
34:49you know.
34:50He's done a great job.
34:51And we did our job
34:53the way we did.
34:54You know,
34:54I gave it all
34:56at my detriment.
34:58I gave everything.
34:59To be the lead man
35:00you take on
35:01most of the work.
35:02Don't complain about us
35:03who aren't working
35:04as hard.
35:05We don't have
35:06the opportunity.
35:07It's very different.
35:09You were the dude
35:10who wanted to be
35:10in the front.
35:11So take your fucking role
35:13and do it.
35:14It had reached
35:15a complete stage
35:17of
35:20malignancy.
35:21I had enough.
35:22the next night
35:24there was a clash
35:25between Keith and Mikey
35:26in the dressing room.
35:27There were things
35:28that happened
35:29that were cruel
35:32and
35:33I'm not
35:35going to express
35:36any more than that.
35:37My mother always said
35:38if you haven't got anything
35:39nice to say
35:39don't say anything.
35:42we left Japan.
35:45Some of us
35:46not talking
35:47with each other
35:49and yet we still
35:50had to do
35:51the final
35:53five nights
35:56in the Palladium.
36:04All the venues
36:05we played
36:05however big
36:06the venue
36:06might have been
36:07we always
36:08shared a dressing room.
36:10Always
36:10shared a dressing room.
36:12And when we
36:13turned up
36:13at the Palladium
36:16our names
36:17are on
36:17different doors.
36:19we lasted
36:2025 years
36:21flying on the same plane
36:23in the same cars
36:24in the same room.
36:26And the final
36:27five shows
36:28that we were ever
36:29going to do
36:30we were going to
36:31do it on our own.
36:35We went through
36:36the motions
36:36got through
36:37the five shows.
36:38A very
36:39very big
36:39anti-climax.
36:40There was no
36:42Hollabaloo
36:42there was no
36:43group hug
36:44there was no
36:46well done
36:46there was no one
36:47from the record
36:48company walking
36:49on stage
36:49with a
36:4910 times
36:50platinum disc
36:51and saying
36:51thanks for
36:52everything.
36:54I just wanted
36:55to get out
36:55of there.
36:58Get away
36:59from that
37:00toxic
37:01environment.
37:03The realisation
37:04came
37:04that this is
37:05the end
37:05of the road.
37:07It's over.
37:21I haven't seen
37:22anybody since
37:23that night.
37:28That's when
37:29I began to
37:30understand
37:31I need to
37:32make some
37:33changes you
37:34know.
37:42I've spent
37:43the last
37:4310 years
37:44saying yes
37:44looking after
37:45everyone else
37:46making sure
37:47everyone else
37:48is alright
37:48but only now
37:49am I saying
37:49no.
37:50No I've got
37:51to think of
37:51me.
37:54So that I
37:54can be here
37:55to watch
37:55my children
37:56grow up.
38:00For me
38:00personally
38:01I wouldn't
38:02be able
38:02to survive
38:03in that
38:03world anymore.
38:04I had to
38:05get out
38:06and I
38:06cannot do
38:07that to
38:07my family
38:08go back
38:08in there.
38:12It's an
38:12addictive
38:12drug.
38:15Because
38:16I took
38:16a back
38:17seat
38:17for such
38:18a long
38:18time
38:18over my
38:19career
38:19I feel
38:20that I
38:21still have
38:21so much
38:21left to
38:22prove
38:22to myself.
38:25It's
38:25a real
38:26head fuck.
38:28We've
38:28all moved
38:29on.
38:30I've got
38:30Westlife
38:31you know
38:32I've had
38:32a great
38:33career
38:33in music
38:34so I'm
38:35happy.
38:37I wouldn't
38:38have changed
38:38anything.
38:39It wasn't
38:40perfect
38:41but it was
38:41perfect for
38:42me.
38:44Am I
38:45done?
38:47I'm gonna
38:48go
38:48I'm gonna
38:48run.
38:54The music
38:55and the
38:55stage
38:57and the
38:57lights
38:57I can
38:58leave that
38:58behind
39:00but the
39:01friendship
39:02I think
39:03is what
39:03it is
39:03more than
39:04anything
39:04else.
39:07As much
39:08as we
39:08had had
39:09enough
39:09of being
39:09around
39:10each
39:10other.
39:10Hello
39:11hello
39:14I
39:14couldn't
39:14bear to
39:15lose
39:15any
39:15of the
39:15boys.
39:16I
39:16hope you
39:16haven't
39:17been here
39:17too long.
39:18All
39:18fucking
39:18morning.
39:19morning.
39:19I
39:19can't put
39:20his
39:20glasses
39:20on.
39:21Too
39:21close.
39:21Too
39:22close.
39:24How are you?
39:25Good to see you.
39:25You look like
39:26Jane,
39:26Elson John.
39:27Oh man
39:27that was
39:27mad.
39:28You're
39:28blind as
39:29a bat.
39:29I have
39:30a lot
39:30of anxiety
39:31and I
39:31feel a
39:32lot
39:32of the
39:32pain.
39:34Stuff
39:34that we've
39:35all gone
39:35through.
39:36But put
39:37me together
39:37with them
39:38and that
39:38doesn't
39:39exist.
39:39Looking
39:39well as
39:40always.
39:40You too.
39:42Where did you get it?
39:46Kindergarten
39:47kids.
39:50As soon as
39:50they walk
39:51in the room
39:51it's like
39:51we've never
39:52left.
39:53No no
39:53here we go
39:53here we go
39:54here we go
39:55my head's
39:55better than yours
39:58it's like
39:59we're frozen
39:59in time.
40:07I wish
40:08them the
40:08absolute best
40:09in their
40:10lives.
40:10I wish
40:10them nothing
40:11but happiness.
40:12I hold
40:12no grudges
40:14no animosity
40:16nothing.
40:18However
40:21I don't
40:22want to
40:22go back.
40:26to how I
40:27felt
40:28for many
40:29years
40:30and to
40:31see them
40:33if it
40:34were for
40:34too long
40:35would remind
40:37me of that
40:38and my
40:39future
40:40is far
40:41too important
40:42to me
40:43to waste
40:44it
40:45looking back
40:46at my
40:47past
40:49but I
40:50wish
40:50everybody
40:50well.
40:53For me
40:54one of the
40:55biggest regrets
40:56is that
40:57I clashed
40:57a lot
40:58with Mikey
40:59and me
41:00and him
41:00were very
41:00very alike
41:01the amount
41:02of time
41:03that we
41:03didn't get
41:04on
41:04that took
41:05its toll
41:05on me
41:06as a
41:06human being
41:07you know
41:07what I
41:07mean
41:07but that's
41:09you can't
41:09get those
41:10years back
41:11it didn't
41:12have to
41:12be that
41:12way
41:14if
41:14we
41:15all
41:16had
41:16have had
41:17better
41:18skills
41:19at
41:20understanding
41:21each other
41:22better
41:22we're boys
41:24and we're
41:25men
41:25and we
41:26don't talk
41:27like that
41:27it was never
41:28in me to
41:29go
41:29oh lads
41:29I don't
41:30feel great
41:31today
41:31it doesn't
41:32exist in
41:32a man's
41:33world
41:33I wish
41:34it had
41:34I have
41:35parked all
41:36of that
41:36emotion
41:37but we
41:37were kids
41:38Ro
41:38we were
41:39kids
41:39I was
41:39incredibly
41:40insecure
41:41and Ro
41:42I think
41:42we all
41:43were
41:43you know
41:43what I
41:43mean
41:43they were
41:44fundamental
41:45years
41:45of growth
41:47mostly
41:47mental
41:48mental
41:52there's
41:53nothing
41:54more
41:54therapeutic
41:55than
41:56reminiscing
41:57about
41:57the best
41:58times
41:58of your
41:58life
41:59it
42:00reminds
42:00you
42:00of
42:00how
42:01lucky
42:01you
42:01have
42:01been
42:01the
42:02RDS show
42:03the first
42:03biggest
42:04show
42:04back
42:04in
42:04the
42:04RDS
42:04I'm
42:05looking
42:05back
42:05at
42:05that
42:06you
42:06know
42:06the
42:06song
42:06that
42:06I used
42:07to do
42:07when I
42:07pulled
42:07my
42:07trousers
42:07off
42:08it's
42:08hard
42:09to
42:09fathom
42:09do
42:10you
42:10know
42:10what
42:10mean
42:10can
42:10you
42:11remember
42:11the
42:11times
42:11with
42:12steel
42:12fucking
42:12catapult
42:13that
42:14slingshot
42:15I remember
42:16being in
42:16Kuala Lumpur
42:17and I didn't
42:17know if that
42:17was South
42:18America
42:18or Asia
42:18you and I
42:19with our
42:20ghetto blaster
42:20listening to
42:21Bleeding
42:21Enya
42:22you know
42:22in 94
42:23or 95
42:23don't tell
42:24any
42:24hip hop
42:24man
42:25hip hop
42:31I am so
42:32grateful
42:33for all
42:34that I
42:34have endured
42:36and experienced
42:37good and
42:38bad
42:38because it's
42:39brought me
42:40to be
42:40the man
42:41I am
42:42today
42:45every single
42:45day
42:46I have
42:46something
42:47to do
42:47with music
42:49waking up
42:50with
42:50a spring
42:52in my
42:52step
42:54the guy
42:55before I
42:56joined
42:56Boyzone
42:57was slim
42:58healthy
42:59fit
43:00full of
43:01vitality
43:02full of
43:02confidence
43:03full of
43:04passion
43:08that's
43:08the guy
43:08that's
43:09returning
43:13there's
43:14a great
43:14sense
43:14of
43:16liberation
43:19ready
43:19lovely
43:21how's
43:22been
43:22I think
43:25we'll
43:25always be
43:26what
43:26we always
43:27are
43:29and that's
43:30brothers in
43:31arms
43:34boys who
43:34grew up on
43:35the fucking
43:35north side of
43:36Dublin
43:37that got
43:38catapulted
43:38around the
43:39world
43:41there could
43:42have been
43:42you know
43:44a million
43:44other lads in
43:45Ireland that
43:45got in that
43:46band
43:47but I don't
43:48think they
43:48would have
43:49been as
43:49fucked up
43:50as the
43:50five of
43:51us were
43:52and that's
43:53what made
43:53us brilliant
43:56when you
43:57think about
43:57it
43:57starting off
43:58playing in
43:58front of
43:5925 people
44:00on the
44:00back of
44:01a truck
44:01to
44:02play into
44:03100,000
44:03people in
44:04Hyde Park
44:05how amazing
44:06was that
44:07it's a hell
44:08of a ride
44:09success
44:11and all
44:12of the good
44:12times
44:14really do
44:15outweigh
44:15all the bad
44:16times
44:18these boys
44:19are my boys
44:20and I will
44:21love them
44:21forever in
44:22the day
44:24and when
44:24we're together
44:25Stephen Gately
44:26is alive again
44:27and that's
44:28what's the
44:28most special
44:29part
44:31we did
44:32have a
44:32great laugh
44:36and it's
44:36like looking
44:37back at a
44:37picture
44:39saying
44:39this is
44:40amazing
44:46that's our
44:46story
44:46it was a
44:47good one
44:52they came to
44:53you and asked
44:53you should we
44:54get back together
44:54and do a
44:54reunion show
44:55what would you
44:56say
44:58well
44:59well that's a
45:00question
45:04look I'll be
45:05lying to you
45:05if I said
45:06there isn't a
45:07spark of
45:08excitement in
45:09my mind
45:10people as far
45:11as the eye
45:11can see
45:12and the roar
45:13of the crowd
45:13that
45:14yeah I would
45:16love to
45:16experience that
45:17again
45:17who wouldn't
45:20but there's so
45:21much more
45:22going on
45:22backstage
45:23so perhaps
45:24leave well
45:25enough alone
45:28or
45:29maybe
45:31I know
45:31I said
45:31I'll never
45:32go on tour
45:32again
45:32but they
45:33stayed there
45:33going on tour
45:34I'm not
45:35getting left
45:35behind
45:35you're mad
45:36who knows
45:37you're mad
46:05you're mad
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