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00:00:21You've probably heard my story.
00:00:24Courtney Stodden, the 16-year-old bride who married a 51-year-old actor.
00:00:30Maybe you remember the ridicule, the outrage, the late-night jokes, but what you think you
00:00:36know is what some of the media painted me to be.
00:00:41The true story, the real story, is so much more complicated and much worse.
00:00:54I cannot believe this.
00:00:56What happened, Courtney?
00:00:57I was just, I didn't even look at them.
00:01:00I was just minding my own business and they came at me again.
00:01:03Why am I always in trouble?
00:01:05I'm not the one who starts the fights, Mom.
00:01:07It's okay, it's okay, honey.
00:01:08It's not your fault.
00:01:09Ugh.
00:01:14You know the best way to deal with bullies?
00:01:17Focus on God and the amazing plan he has for you.
00:01:23And you're never going back to that school.
00:01:27Ever?
00:01:29Ever.
00:01:41Want me to do it up?
00:01:43We could do a headband like Audrey Hepburn and Two for the Road to cheer you up.
00:01:47Mom, it's fine.
00:01:48Oh, come on.
00:01:49It's more than fine, my beautiful girl.
00:01:53Daddy!
00:01:53Hey, baby girl.
00:01:56I heard you had a rough day at school.
00:01:59Oh, we are finished with that school.
00:02:01No, no.
00:02:02She's still got to go to school.
00:02:04Well, I'll find something else.
00:02:06Yeah, we can homeschool her.
00:02:07Krista.
00:02:08You're gone.
00:02:09I am the one who's here.
00:02:10Here we go.
00:02:10I am the one who is seeing what these kids do to her every single day.
00:02:14What?
00:02:14You just want me to quit work?
00:02:15Is that what you wanted me to do?
00:02:17Quit.
00:02:24Dear Jesus.
00:02:26Please.
00:02:27I pray that I do everything right so my parents stop fighting and stay together forever.
00:02:32Please.
00:02:43He didn't say goodbye.
00:02:46He'll be back on Friday night.
00:02:48As always.
00:02:51Walk?
00:03:12You know that wasn't your fault, right?
00:03:16We love you very, very much.
00:03:20I know, Mom.
00:03:22We just do it differently.
00:03:25See, it's your daddy's job to protect you, but it's my job to prepare you.
00:03:34Sometimes those things are not.
00:03:36Mom, don't cry.
00:03:39It's okay, baby.
00:03:41I just want so much more for you.
00:03:44For us.
00:03:49Promise me.
00:03:52When you move to Hollywood, you'll get one of those really big houses that has the little
00:03:59baby house in the back.
00:04:01See, the husband and wife live in the big house, but the mother-in-law lives in the small
00:04:05house very close.
00:04:09If you ever move, if you ever leave me, that is what I want.
00:04:18I knew right then and there that it was all up to me.
00:04:22I knew I had to grow up fast and find a way out of ocean shores.
00:04:26I want some more of that.
00:04:28Can I have some more of that?
00:04:30I really like it like that.
00:04:33It's hot like that.
00:04:35I decided to pray on it and you know what?
00:04:38It worked out.
00:04:39Like it always does.
00:04:42Do I know that song?
00:04:44That's my daughter Courtney.
00:04:45She writes her own music.
00:04:47She has such a gift for it.
00:04:49What I wouldn't have given to be able to express myself like that when I was her age.
00:04:54I was just too busy surviving.
00:04:59Courtney, this is Aurora.
00:05:01Hi Courtney.
00:05:02Hi.
00:05:05Have you thought about getting her into modeling?
00:05:08Oh, she has her heart set on music.
00:05:09And she's 12.
00:05:11Teen models are always in demand.
00:05:14I have a friend at an agency.
00:05:16I could introduce you.
00:05:18Just the other word.
00:05:20I'll ask her.
00:05:21Everything in me hoped that modeling would be my golden ticket out of ocean shores.
00:05:26But the moment I said yes, a battle began.
00:05:28A battle between my mother's need to protect me from the world.
00:05:32And her desire to give me the life she always dreamed of.
00:05:36Have faith, Courtney.
00:05:47You're doing great, Courtney.
00:05:49Isn't she?
00:05:57I tell you a secret.
00:05:59Promise not to tell the rest of them.
00:06:03You belong here.
00:06:05You got something special that can't be taught or bought.
00:06:09So just be yourself.
00:06:10Okay?
00:06:11Okay.
00:06:12Okay.
00:06:23Perfect.
00:06:25Great.
00:06:26Oh, very nice.
00:06:27Yes.
00:06:30And they said I might get asked back for the next one too.
00:06:33Mm.
00:06:34Look at our little girl.
00:06:37Honey?
00:06:38Little girl?
00:06:39Tell that to the person that put her in those shorts.
00:06:41The wardrobe lady gave those to me.
00:06:43What do you expect her to wear at the gym?
00:06:45A snowsuit?
00:06:45It works for me, yeah.
00:06:49This is just the beginning.
00:06:51The whole world is going to know her name.
00:06:54I promise you.
00:06:56And they said they want me to compete in pageants.
00:07:01What pageants?
00:07:02The organizers keep calling.
00:07:03They saw her photo, said she'd do really well.
00:07:07Okay.
00:07:08How much is this going to cost us?
00:07:10And I thought you wanted to be a singer.
00:07:13Well, I mean, I can do both.
00:07:15Who wouldn't want to be the next Miss Ocean Shores?
00:07:19Me.
00:07:19Me.
00:07:20I would not want to be the next Miss Ocean Shores.
00:07:34Pageants taught me poise and confidence.
00:07:36They taught me that a winner looks like an adult,
00:07:39even if she's still a child.
00:07:57And a winner stands up straight, puts a smile on her face, and gets out there, no matter what.
00:08:05I am going to win the pageant today.
00:08:09Going to win the pageant.
00:08:14You look wonderful.
00:08:20You ready?
00:08:21Yeah.
00:08:23They promised winning pageants would open doors for me.
00:08:27The only doors I ever saw open were the ones my mother kicked down.
00:08:31We can't just walk in there.
00:08:33No.
00:08:35Hi.
00:08:36I'm Krista Stodden, and this is my daughter Courtney.
00:08:39Hello.
00:08:40Hi.
00:08:41You may have read today's paper if you weren't already aware.
00:08:45She is our very own Miss Ocean Shores.
00:08:49She is a smart, beautiful, devout Christian with the singing voice of an angel.
00:08:57The very definition of a rising star.
00:09:00And yes, I might be her mother and I might be biased, but look at her.
00:09:04You couldn't ask for a more positive representative of our community.
00:09:10Now, I may not have a degree in television production or management,
00:09:15but even I can see that your television programming completely overlooks the youth market.
00:09:21What you need is a show that highlights the events, businesses, charities,
00:09:27from the point of view of the younger generation.
00:09:31The solution.
00:09:34The Courtney Stodden Show.
00:09:44So, your grand opening is this Friday?
00:09:47Yes, from 10 to 4.
00:09:49And you're offering special discounts that day?
00:09:51We are.
00:09:52Everyone's welcome.
00:09:53You two, of course.
00:09:54Join us for some complimentary champagne.
00:09:56Oh, no.
00:09:57I'm only 15.
00:09:59What?
00:09:59That's Friday, just across from the post office.
00:10:03Come out and support our newest local business.
00:10:05Then next week, join us at Lou's Car Wash as we raise funds for animal rescue.
00:10:11Then we're out.
00:10:15My success was our success.
00:10:20While other kids my age were learning algebra,
00:10:23I was attending an online Christian Academy,
00:10:26making content from MySpace.
00:10:28Courtney, are you doing your homework?
00:10:31Yes!
00:10:33Modeling myself after my favorite Baywatch idols,
00:10:36and watching the Victoria's Secret fashion show for inspiration.
00:10:41Are you doing your homework?
00:10:42Yes!
00:10:57I love your hat.
00:11:04I love your hat.
00:11:05After a while, the Lord spoke to my heart, and I reformed, and said, God help me, God help me,
00:11:11God help me.
00:11:12I love your hat.
00:11:13When the time comes, I know I will make different parenting choices, but I will always defend my child just
00:11:18as fiercely as my mother did.
00:11:20If they have a problem with my daughter, they have a problem with me.
00:11:24Mrs. Stodden, please.
00:11:25That Herrera's girl, the one that got the science scholarship, you do realize her dress was showing just as much?
00:11:30It's really not the same.
00:11:32Isn't it?
00:11:32No, the way your daughter carries herself.
00:11:35I've always taught my daughter to walk into a room like God put her there.
00:11:39I wonder if anyone would complain if I had a son with that much confidence.
00:11:43Please understand, we have several parishioners, specifically men, who I'm sorry to say are dealing with addiction to pornography.
00:11:55May the Lord give them the strength to conquer their demons.
00:12:01We're going to have to ask you and your daughter to worship elsewhere.
00:12:09Courtney, let's go.
00:12:13We'll find a church that actually understands the meaning of grace.
00:12:23And action!
00:12:26Next week we'll be spotlighting Miss Mimi's Oodles and Poodles couture clothing line.
00:12:31Gotta keep those poodles warm.
00:12:33Till next time!
00:12:40Can I talk to you for just a second?
00:12:42Sure.
00:12:44I'm afraid we are not going to continue airing your show.
00:12:47What?
00:12:48Why?
00:12:49Don't you see the good it's doing for the community?
00:12:51Oh, I'm not denying that.
00:12:54You want to know something?
00:12:57Everywhere we go, people recognize Courtney.
00:13:00They come up to us, thank her for how much they love the show.
00:13:05Well, you are right.
00:13:07People do love the show, but mostly men.
00:13:12Women tend to lean strongly in the other direction.
00:13:16We've gotten a lot of calls.
00:13:19You're canceling my daughter's show because women are jealous of her?
00:13:24Well, I don't think that's the issue.
00:13:27Okay.
00:13:29Courtney, let's go.
00:13:31Mm-hmm.
00:13:31We're done.
00:13:43You realize what just happened in there, don't you?
00:13:45My show just got canceled.
00:13:48You just outgrew this town.
00:13:51Do you really think you're going to get a recording deal sitting in there,
00:13:55interviewing some local woman about a new line of poodle sweaters?
00:13:59Probably not.
00:13:59Probably not.
00:14:01But what you have now is loads of on-camera experience and that is what counts.
00:14:09You know what we need?
00:14:11I'm kind of afraid to ask.
00:14:13An investor.
00:14:15Someone who can pay for the vocal coach and the recording studio and the demo
00:14:20and whatever else we need to take your career to the next level.
00:14:23Someone who believes in your God-given talent just as much as I do.
00:14:28And how are we going to find that?
00:14:31Win the day with faith, Courtney.
00:14:33Win the day with faith.
00:14:41When Peter told us that your passion is investing in up-and-coming artists,
00:14:46I just had a feeling you would understand what it would take to nurture a young talent like Courtney.
00:14:53It's not an easy business.
00:14:55Are you sure you're ready for it?
00:14:57I think so.
00:14:59Okay.
00:15:00You know, I've always thought that a vocal coach couldn't hurt.
00:15:02Sure.
00:15:02Even Celine Dion and Beyonce, they had vocal coaches.
00:15:05Yeah.
00:15:06Courtney's a natural, though, of course.
00:15:07Certainly is.
00:15:08Yeah.
00:15:09She could come up to my studio in Monterey, spend a few weeks,
00:15:14and I'll introduce her to all the best people in the biz.
00:15:18She'll be fighting off recording offers in no time.
00:15:23Here's my offer.
00:15:25You're going to take your hand off my daughter right now,
00:15:28and then we're going to walk out of here, and you are never going to contact us again.
00:15:32How does that sound?
00:15:33Let's go.
00:15:36And we're taking these.
00:15:38Put these on his bill, please.
00:15:41Why is everybody so awful?
00:15:45Come here.
00:15:53God will show us the way.
00:16:08I don't want to say you're our last hope, but you know I trust you.
00:16:13Well, I would hope so after, what, 20... how many years?
00:16:19Now, I know you've seen how talented Courtney is, and I know you believe in her just like I do.
00:16:25So, if you have any ideas...
00:16:29Well, I have one.
00:16:34His name is Doug Hutchison.
00:16:37He was in the Green Mile.
00:16:40Remember the prison guard?
00:16:41Dead Man Walking!
00:16:42That's him.
00:16:43Wow!
00:16:45Lost?
00:16:45Law & Order?
00:16:47Eleven seasons on The Guiding Light?
00:16:49I used to love that show.
00:16:51See who this guy has worked with?
00:16:52He knows everybody.
00:16:54I went to a party at his house in L.A.
00:16:57We talked a bit.
00:16:58He teaches an acting program called The Art of Stillness.
00:17:02And he has connections in the music industry, too.
00:17:06This could be a great launching pad for you, Courtney.
00:17:08You could learn a lot.
00:17:10Could change your life.
00:17:11Huh?
00:17:12What do you think?
00:17:14Now, here's the thing.
00:17:15He only takes on a limited number of new students.
00:17:19Courtney, I told him all about you.
00:17:21I showed him your work, your photos, and I think he might be willing to help.
00:17:30I told you God would show us the way.
00:17:33Tim!
00:17:34Tim!
00:17:35My pleasure.
00:17:39After fending off creeps who had no real interest in helping me with my career, Doug Hutchison seemed to be
00:17:45the answer to our prayers.
00:17:47A true Hollywood insider, a professional working actor, and a friend to one of my mom's oldest friends.
00:17:54What should I say?
00:17:57What should I say?
00:17:57Say, hi.
00:17:59Hi.
00:17:59This is Courtney.
00:18:01Courtney.
00:18:02I got your information from Tim Wilson, who told us, me, told me, about your art of stillness.
00:18:18And I would like to know more about it.
00:18:29Okay.
00:18:31Courtney.
00:18:31Great.
00:18:34Perfect.
00:18:36Courtney, I'm very impressed by your portfolio.
00:18:40Of course he is.
00:18:41I'd love to get to know you more and find out how I can help with your career.
00:18:45What should I say?
00:18:45What should I say?
00:18:47Maybe tell him thank you and that you are so grateful for his help.
00:19:11Why don't you come down here to L.A. and we can do some Art of Stillness classes in person?
00:19:19Courtney, you need to tell him to give me a call.
00:19:23She's only 16, Doug.
00:19:26One six.
00:19:28Sixteen.
00:19:29I am not at all comfortable with her coming to L.A. on her own.
00:19:33So I'm not sure how you schedule your Art of Stillness classes, but if you can work with her from
00:19:40Washington, maybe we can set up some times.
00:19:46Okay.
00:19:56What'd he say?
00:19:58Well, I thought you were in your 20s.
00:19:59Tim told him I was 16, didn't he?
00:20:02So what now?
00:20:04He's ready to get to work.
00:20:07Start helping you right away.
00:20:08Really?
00:20:09Yeah!
00:20:10No!
00:20:11No!
00:20:12No!
00:20:12Oh my God!
00:20:17Can we talk about grooming for a second?
00:20:22Not that kind of grooming.
00:20:24The other kind.
00:20:25The kind that leaves permanent scars.
00:20:28The kind that starts off slow.
00:20:30So slow.
00:20:31That you don't even realize it's happening.
00:20:39He's just asking me lots of questions, like what's my favorite color, what three items, what I want on a
00:20:45desert island.
00:20:46He says it's a way to get to know who I am and help him figure out how we can
00:20:49do the Art of Stillness.
00:20:50Print out all of his emails.
00:20:53I want to make sure he's not being inappropriate.
00:20:55Mom, seriously?
00:20:56There are so many.
00:20:57Well, then we're going to need more paper.
00:21:12After months of building trust with me, he started testing the waters.
00:21:16He would walk right up to the line, but be careful not to step over it.
00:21:29What do I think about abortion?
00:21:35He called me his star girl.
00:21:38His angel.
00:21:40I felt special.
00:21:42I felt seen.
00:21:44It wasn't until years later I realized the whole time I was a lobster swimming in a nice warm bath.
00:21:51While the temperature was slowly turned up.
00:21:53And not just on me.
00:21:59How close do you live to Hollywood's line?
00:22:03Oh my god, are you serious?
00:22:12What do you want, star girl?
00:22:15Like, right now?
00:22:18Now, tomorrow, forever.
00:22:21What do you want out of life?
00:22:24I know what I don't want now.
00:22:28Okay, well then tell me that, Angel.
00:22:31I don't really want to do pageants anymore.
00:22:36You don't have to.
00:22:38I'll make sure of it.
00:22:40I have a friend.
00:22:41He's a music producer.
00:22:43Get you in the studio with him, and then we'll bring your whole family to LA.
00:22:47I will handle everything.
00:22:49You don't have to worry about it.
00:22:51You do that for me?
00:22:53Yeah.
00:22:55You know why, don't you?
00:22:58Not really.
00:23:00Cuz I love you.
00:23:02I just...
00:23:05I just love you.
00:23:06You're my star girl.
00:23:10Aren't you gonna say anything?
00:23:13Me too?
00:23:15Me too what?
00:23:18I...
00:23:18I think I love you too.
00:23:25I will wait for you, and when you are 18, we can be together forever.
00:23:30But until then, I need to tell your mother that we're in love.
00:23:49Mom?
00:23:50Hmm.
00:23:52Doug, he needs to talk to you.
00:23:54Oh.
00:23:58Hello?
00:23:59Hi, Krista.
00:24:01How are you?
00:24:01Well, I'm excited to hear about the plans you all have been making.
00:24:05I hear there's a music producer interested in meeting Courtney.
00:24:11This might come as a shock to you.
00:24:14That I'm in love with your daughter.
00:24:22Doug.
00:24:24I know.
00:24:25I know.
00:24:27I've been paying attention.
00:24:30Reading every single word you have written to Courtney.
00:24:34I can feel your love for her.
00:24:36And the love that she has for you.
00:24:42In her mind, he was my chosen protector.
00:24:47In her mind, Hollywood had told us for years that a big age gap was totally fine, as long as
00:24:55one of them was a celebrity.
00:25:05Oh.
00:25:07If he's gonna get your career off the ground and you're gonna be a Hollywood power couple,
00:25:12it feels like a shame for you to have to wait.
00:25:18In some states, it is legal to get married at 16 with parental consent.
00:25:26If this is what you really want.
00:25:35Yeah.
00:25:37It is.
00:25:41Yeah.
00:25:42Right?
00:25:44It's not gonna happen.
00:25:45Little late for that, Alex.
00:25:47It's been happening for months.
00:25:48What do we know about this guy?
00:25:50Outside the fact he's how much older than me?
00:25:51He loves her.
00:25:53Oh, please.
00:25:53He cares about her and her career.
00:25:56He wants the same things for her that we do.
00:25:58He wants her to be happy.
00:26:00He promised me that he would take care of her and I believe him.
00:26:04It sounds like the decision's already been made.
00:26:06He's coming up here next weekend.
00:26:07I'm still part of this family.
00:26:08If it doesn't feel right.
00:26:10But he doesn't feel right.
00:26:12Please, Daddy.
00:26:13Please just give him a chance.
00:26:15Honey, look.
00:26:18Look me in the eye and tell me this is what you really want.
00:26:25It's what I want.
00:26:45I know.
00:26:45It's okay.
00:26:46He'll come around.
00:26:48He will.
00:26:49Once he sees the two of you.
00:26:52Oh.
00:26:53Okay?
00:26:53I promise you.
00:26:55Promise you.
00:26:56I'll talk to him.
00:26:59I will.
00:27:00I'll talk to him.
00:27:06I'll talk to him.
00:27:07That's...
00:27:07This him?
00:27:13He was old.
00:27:15Much older than the decades-old headshot that I'd be staring at for months.
00:27:19My star girl.
00:27:20This is...
00:27:22And he was short.
00:27:23The sides of his face were bruised from faceless scars that hadn't quite yet healed.
00:27:29Yet, none of it mattered.
00:27:31He had already convinced me that he was my knight in shining armor.
00:27:35And I was all in.
00:27:36And so was my mother.
00:27:40Hi!
00:27:46Welcome!
00:27:48Hello!
00:27:49Hi!
00:27:50Alex.
00:27:50Oh, here.
00:27:51Nice to meet you.
00:27:53Nice to meet you.
00:27:53Uh, Shelby.
00:28:03Hey, Alex.
00:28:05Do you mind if we...
00:28:06Yeah, um...
00:28:07Hey, honey.
00:28:07Would you grab a table for us, please?
00:28:09Oh, of course.
00:28:11What are they talking about?
00:28:13Are you so excited?
00:28:14He is so cute!
00:28:17They were outside for no more than five minutes.
00:28:19I don't know what Doug said to my father, but it must have been one Oscar-worthy performance.
00:28:25What does one man say to another to convince him to hand over his 16-year-old daughter?
00:28:30And I go to the bathroom, and...
00:28:32I'm just overwhelmed by this awful smell.
00:28:38And out walks Tom Hayes.
00:28:42So...
00:28:42Tom Hayes!
00:28:43That's when I realized, you know, listen, all of these big actors, they're just normal human beings.
00:28:50And so, I stopped being nervous from that day forward.
00:28:55Oh, I love this song!
00:28:59Next time, it's gonna be your song playing here.
00:29:02Your song will be playing everywhere.
00:29:06At some point, my dad must have felt he only had two choices.
00:29:11Approve my marriage, or lose me.
00:29:14Either way, he was giving up his little girl.
00:29:21You probably recognize him from the Green Mile.
00:29:24Or a number of other award-winning TV shows and movies.
00:29:26Please!
00:29:27Let's see what they have to say about you now.
00:29:37My star girl.
00:29:39Your purse! Here!
00:29:40You're gonna need your purse.
00:29:43Have fun, you two.
00:30:00My mom has never let me out of the house unsupervised with a boy before.
00:30:05She announced tonight is special.
00:30:07Why is that?
00:30:09Do you want to take those off?
00:30:10Oh, no, no, I gotta...
00:30:14There's something I need to tell you.
00:30:18My career is going really well.
00:30:22But being an actor isn't always...
00:30:26What is it?
00:30:30I only have about $50,000 to win in.
00:30:34What do you mean, only?
00:30:36That's more money than I've ever seen in my life.
00:30:39Is it that you need me to sign something to say that I'm not after your money?
00:30:42Because I totally will.
00:30:45God, I love you.
00:30:47I love you.
00:30:48No, I don't need you to sign anything.
00:30:51Courtney.
00:30:53You're my star girl.
00:30:55You're my angel.
00:30:57Nothing like this has ever happened to me before.
00:31:01I can't believe our love story is coming true.
00:31:07Will you marry me?
00:31:09Yes!
00:31:14Oh, my God!
00:31:19No, no, no.
00:31:23What...
00:31:26Oh.
00:31:27Ha ha, ha, ha!
00:31:34Oh!
00:31:34Oh!...
00:32:02I'm going to make the pageant.
00:32:03Here's what I remember most about my wedding day.
00:32:06Do not step on the carpet.
00:32:08It was against the law for me to step even one toe on the carpet.
00:32:12The gambling area of the hotel before the age of 21.
00:32:16I couldn't touch a slot machine.
00:32:18I couldn't order a Mai Tai.
00:32:20But at 16 years old, it was totally okay for me to get married.
00:32:24I just needed the consent of a parent.
00:32:32The whole day I was numb.
00:32:35Like I was a passenger on a train that was going way too fast.
00:32:39And there was nothing I could do about it.
00:32:41I now pronounce you husband and wife.
00:32:45You may kiss the brow.
00:33:07I'm getting it.
00:33:09I'm so nervous.
00:33:10I'm so nervous.
00:33:12I'm so nervous.
00:33:34I was ashamed of my 16-year-old body.
00:33:37I looked like a child because I was.
00:33:40I looked nothing like the women I idolized.
00:33:43And now, on our wedding night, there was no way of hiding it.
00:34:01Here's my star, girl.
00:34:04It's really beautiful. I didn't know you could play like that.
00:34:10There's a lot you don't know about me.
00:34:17There's a lot you don't know about me.
00:34:19You ready?
00:34:19There's a lot you don't know about me.
00:34:45There's a lot you don't know about me.
00:35:08There you are, Mrs. Hutcheson.
00:35:31I closed my eyes and waited for it to be over.
00:35:36There was one thing to be married, but quite another to consummate it.
00:35:48All I knew about the birds and the bees was what the church taught me, that if I couldn't
00:35:52find evidence of my innocence on the sheets, then I'm a horrible person and I'm going straight
00:35:58to hell.
00:36:00I didn't even know what I was looking for, and then I found it.
00:36:08Doug!
00:36:10Doug!
00:36:11Oh, God.
00:36:13Thank you, Jesus.
00:36:15I'm not going to help.
00:36:17Doug!
00:36:19Come here.
00:36:19I'm going to help.
00:36:21Doug!
00:36:22Come here.
00:36:22Come here.
00:36:24I know.
00:36:25Come here.
00:36:27Come here.
00:36:30Come here.
00:36:30My ticket to heaven.
00:36:32Proof, or so I believe, that I was good enough for him.
00:36:35Well, there.
00:36:38At last, I was ready to be the good little wife.
00:36:42But my nightmare had only just begun.
00:36:44I dreamed of being an old Hollywood wife like June Cleaver.
00:36:50Perfect dress, perfect hair, perfect house, perfect life.
00:36:54My husband had other ideas.
00:36:55Courtney!
00:36:58Courtney!
00:36:59Don't forget to do the dishes.
00:37:02Okay!
00:37:18We are coming!
00:37:22Hey, what is it?
00:37:25Hey, wait, wait, tell me what.
00:37:29It's my brother.
00:37:32What is, is he okay?
00:37:35Oh my God, look.
00:37:37I've lost my whole family over this.
00:37:41Us.
00:37:42They don't understand our love.
00:37:45None of them do.
00:37:51It's okay.
00:37:53We have each other.
00:37:57You're my angel.
00:38:00You're my star girl.
00:38:11You approve, sir?
00:38:14Absolutely, I do.
00:38:21This is our family now.
00:38:24Just you and me.
00:38:26Is this us?
00:38:27Let's forget about everybody else and have the perfect night.
00:38:33I want to show off my angel to the whole world.
00:38:39I want to take care of you.
00:38:41And if I can get the rights to this book and produce the movie myself, I will have so much
00:38:48more control over the final product.
00:38:50Now, my vision for the lead character may not be...
00:38:54I love it here.
00:39:01Don't you ever interrupt me when I'm speaking.
00:39:05Until that moment, he'd never been anything but sweet and gentle with me.
00:39:11His kindness faded and something else crept in.
00:39:15This wasn't the man I fell in love with.
00:39:18The man that I married.
00:39:29Which one are you?
00:39:32School girl A or school girl B?
00:39:35School girl B?
00:39:40School girl B?
00:39:41Which one do you want me to be?
00:39:45I want you to be the bad girl.
00:39:50Okay.
00:39:52Go on, take it.
00:39:56Go get ready.
00:40:09I learned to be a good wife.
00:40:11Any career aspirations I had were put on the back burner.
00:40:41Go get ready.
00:40:42Hi.
00:40:45Yeah, yeah, I'm fine.
00:40:47Everything's...
00:40:51No, I just...
00:40:53Just need my mom.
00:40:54I promise.
00:40:56I promise.
00:40:58I promise.
00:41:06I promise.
00:41:24I promise.
00:41:28I promise.
00:41:31I promise.
00:41:34I promise.
00:42:03I promise.
00:42:05I promise.
00:42:05And there's room enough in this house for two celebrities.
00:42:08Tell him.
00:42:09Or I'll tell him.
00:42:10Well, your career isn't gonna launch itself.
00:42:13Can we go shopping while you're here?
00:42:16Of course.
00:42:18Oh, I can't wait to hear about all the Hollywood parties you're going to.
00:42:22And all of the fabulous outfits you get to wear.
00:42:25And the Walk of Fame.
00:42:26Absolutely.
00:42:28Hmm.
00:42:31Everything else okay?
00:42:33How do you like being an old married lady?
00:42:35Hmm.
00:42:39Hmm.
00:42:40Hmm.
00:42:42Hmm.
00:42:42hmm.
00:43:06Hmm.
00:43:11Hmm.
00:43:12Hmm.
00:43:12You have to understand, Courtney, men have hormonal cycles a lot like women do.
00:43:21You remember what it was like with your dad?
00:43:23He would get angry over the silliest things.
00:43:26That's what men do.
00:43:29They can't help him.
00:43:31So the best thing that we can do and that you can do for Doug is to be patient.
00:43:39Trust God and know that everything is going to be okay.
00:43:45Okay.
00:43:47You're right.
00:43:48Mm-hmm.
00:44:24Slut.
00:44:33Good morning.
00:44:36Good morning.
00:44:37What is happening?
00:44:40Looks like the world found out about our wedding, star girl.
00:44:44What?
00:44:44No.
00:44:45Why?
00:44:46Mom?
00:44:48Mom!
00:44:52Mom?
00:44:54Courtney!
00:44:55You're everywhere!
00:44:57Look.
00:44:58The Green Mile actor Doug Hutchison, 51, married 16-year-old aspiring singer Courtney Stodden in Las Vegas.
00:45:07Look how pretty you are.
00:45:08Why do they care about this?
00:45:10And how do they know where we live?
00:45:12Well, Doug's a celebrity.
00:45:13And now you are, too.
00:45:15They're sending me hate mail.
00:45:16Oh, look.
00:45:17This site picked it up.
00:45:18And this one.
00:45:20And this one.
00:45:21Oh, this is a new one.
00:45:22Oh, can you believe?
00:45:25Wow.
00:45:27This is insane.
00:45:28At the time, I never asked, how did this happen?
00:45:32How did details about my private life become public?
00:45:35It's not like I married an actor with a recognizable name and somebody spotted the marriage registration.
00:45:41No.
00:45:42The story leaked because somebody wanted it to.
00:45:45Maybe I never asked who did it because the answer would have broken me.
00:45:50Well, I hope that you would, you could reconsider.
00:45:53Maybe, okay, look, look, look, look, look.
00:45:56Maybe when things calm down.
00:46:00Yeah, think.
00:46:05Yep.
00:46:07Thank, yeah, thank you.
00:46:12What happened?
00:46:15My agent, my manager, workahead coming up.
00:46:19It's gone.
00:46:21It's all gone.
00:46:22Why?
00:46:22They knew you got married.
00:46:24Of course they did.
00:46:25But you didn't tell them my age.
00:46:29This isn't right.
00:46:31You would not believe how this is blowing up.
00:46:37Stripping at 12, married at 16, whore, how much for an hour?
00:46:42Mom, this is bad.
00:46:44No, don't you worry.
00:46:45In Hollywood, all publicity is good publicity.
00:46:48No, please stop.
00:46:50My career is over.
00:46:51You understand that, right?
00:46:5225-year career?
00:46:54Done!
00:46:57This will all blow over and people will forget.
00:47:02In the meantime, you're the hottest couple in town.
00:47:05He's...
00:47:05What?
00:47:06He's gone.
00:47:07What do I do?
00:47:08You're a celebrity.
00:47:09Should I go...
00:47:09No, leave him.
00:47:10Yeah, this is great.
00:47:12Great.
00:47:12You're a star.
00:47:13Yeah.
00:47:22Overnight, I'd gone from June Cleaver to the world's punching bag.
00:47:27Some media decided who I was and the world believed them.
00:47:31The lie was more entertaining, more profitable for them than the truth.
00:47:36That's how freak shows work.
00:47:39Why are people so mean?
00:47:41Ignore it.
00:47:43Don't worry about that.
00:47:49Whoa, hey.
00:47:51Whoa, whoa, whoa.
00:47:52Slow down.
00:47:52Slow down.
00:47:53Look, no.
00:47:54Yeah, it sounds good.
00:47:56But let me review the offer and get back to you.
00:48:00Yeah.
00:48:03Yep.
00:48:04Yep, thank you.
00:48:08Who was that?
00:48:12Another late night offer.
00:48:15I don't...
00:48:16I don't want to do this.
00:48:18I don't want to sit there and smile on TV while the whole world laughs at us.
00:48:23How else do you think we're going to make money now?
00:48:45I mean, I just, I don't know.
00:48:47I just love him.
00:48:49And, you know, age is just a number.
00:48:53And, yeah, I really, I really believe that.
00:48:59The focus was almost entirely on me.
00:49:02Not Doug.
00:49:03Me.
00:49:05A-list celebrity slut-shaming a minor.
00:49:07Telling me to kill myself.
00:49:09You know what nobody was asking?
00:49:11Why is it still legal for 16-year-olds to get married in the first place?
00:49:15And as young as 13 in some states.
00:49:18It's called child marriage for a reason.
00:49:21But sure, let's make a joke about it on late night TV.
00:49:25I'm worried about you, Courtney.
00:49:28I don't have to tell you, there are some awful people out there just waiting to take advantage of you.
00:49:34I wish I was there to keep you safe.
00:49:37Me too, Mom.
00:49:39Me too.
00:49:41I'm serious, Courtney.
00:49:44Maybe I should be your manager.
00:49:48My momager?
00:49:51What sounded like an absurd idea suddenly made the most sense to me.
00:50:01What's Daddy going to do without you for a while?
00:50:03I only saw him on the weekends anyway.
00:50:07Yeah, but still.
00:50:10He'll be fine.
00:50:12He always is.
00:50:21What about the event on Thursday?
00:50:25The one in Century City pays more.
00:50:30Wow.
00:50:31That is going to be a long day.
00:50:36But who needs sleep anyway?
00:50:49Most of the offers coming in were just for me.
00:50:52Doug didn't like that.
00:50:53He and my mom handled the bookings.
00:50:55He handled the money.
00:50:57At 16, I was the breadwinner for all three of us.
00:51:00All right, thank you all.
00:51:02Thank you so much.
00:51:02That's enough.
00:51:04They'll only pay you if you stay for an hour.
00:51:07Then you need to go straight to the party on sunset.
00:51:09And at some point, you need to take a photo with this, preferably, at the Malibu event.
00:51:14Got it.
00:51:15Lipstick.
00:51:16Malibu.
00:51:17Didn't you ever teach your daughter how to clean up after herself?
00:51:20She's a teenager.
00:51:22What did you expect?
00:51:27Oh, Courtney.
00:51:28Is that really what you're wearing?
00:51:30I mean, he's already labeled me a slut.
00:51:33So that is what they will get.
00:51:38Come on, baby, come on, play with me.
00:51:43There's something special about you, dare I say, unique.
00:51:47Must be magic in your makeup, yeah, you're so sweet.
00:51:50Follow me as I run into the night.
00:51:53Lay down, carefree, baby, let's ride.
00:51:56We'll hit the streets, top top, cruising downtown.
00:51:59About to roll up, and then we roll out.
00:52:03I am the one you should be looking at.
00:52:05Nobody else.
00:52:06I wasn't talking to anyone, I swear.
00:52:09I gave up everything for you.
00:52:11My family, my career, everything.
00:52:14And the least you could do, the absolute bare minimum,
00:52:18is show me the respect that I deserve.
00:52:21I was with you the whole time.
00:52:23Shut up!
00:52:46I did what I was told every single day.
00:52:50I was afraid to say no.
00:52:52At 16 years old, sedatives and alcohol were my best friends.
00:52:57I hid the truth from my mother.
00:53:00I didn't want to disappoint her.
00:53:03But in the middle of the night, I was free.
00:53:06I'd just walk and walk.
00:53:08Nobody knew me.
00:53:09Nobody wanted a thing from me.
00:53:11I'd find a place where I was safe.
00:53:13And I'd hide.
00:53:14Like a rat.
00:53:16And I'd pray.
00:53:17Even if I was no longer sure anybody was listening.
00:53:27What's going on?
00:53:31Tell her, Krista.
00:53:36Go ahead, tell her.
00:53:37I...
00:53:41No.
00:53:43I can't be a part of this.
00:53:45No.
00:53:48What did you do?
00:53:50You shouldn't trust her.
00:53:52She's my mother.
00:53:55She's in love with me.
00:53:58What?
00:54:02There's no way.
00:54:03Go ahead.
00:54:04Go ask her.
00:54:05She wouldn't do that to me.
00:54:07She wouldn't do that to my dad.
00:54:09You sure about that?
00:54:12Oh, my God.
00:54:13If you do.
00:54:14No, of course not.
00:54:16What, she actually said?
00:54:17I'm in love with you?
00:54:17No, she said that she's becoming emotional.
00:54:20She's emotionally attached.
00:54:21You're her son-in-law.
00:54:23Of course she's emotionally attached.
00:54:24You're seriously going to keep trusting your career to her?
00:54:27She doesn't have your best interest at heart.
00:54:29She wants your fame, your husband, your money.
00:54:33She wants your life.
00:54:36God, can't you see what's going on?
00:54:39She's the problem, not me.
00:54:40I'm the one who loves you.
00:54:42I'm the one who's here to protect you.
00:54:44I'm the one who's here to look out for you.
00:54:46No one else is going to do that for you, Angel.
00:54:49It's not just me.
00:55:02I want to support you.
00:55:04You know that.
00:55:06I just think it may be healthier for all of us
00:55:09if we're not sharing the same space.
00:55:11Mom, please.
00:55:15I am still here as your mom and your manager.
00:55:18I just cannot be here.
00:55:23I love you.
00:55:25Don't ever let him convince you that's not true.
00:55:32I'll never really know everything.
00:55:35But what I do know is that Doug was a master
00:55:38at making me believe he was the only person I could trust.
00:55:42The only voice that mattered.
00:55:44And so we slipped back into his version of normal.
00:55:47But whenever I could break free, I did.
00:55:50And the more I tried to live, the more it drove him crazy.
00:55:54Look!
00:55:56Look!
00:56:08You could have looked away, or you could...
00:56:11I don't know.
00:56:12Held up your wedding ring and said,
00:56:13I'm married!
00:56:15They're doing like what?
00:56:16Like a dozen cameras at you?
00:56:18You seriously think I want to go on radar tomorrow
00:56:21and see pictures of some guy with his arm around my wife?
00:56:24Tell me, what man would be okay with that?
00:56:26What man would be okay with that?
00:56:32I better not see one picture of that guy's face.
00:56:34Not one!
00:56:35Yo, man, shut up!
00:56:43I hope you never forget,
00:56:45because I sure as hell won't be able to for the rest of my life.
00:56:49That I gave up everything for you.
00:56:54Everything.
00:56:55What I want to know is,
00:56:59where's my thank you, star girl?
00:57:21What?
00:57:27Read it.
00:57:40Big brother?
00:57:42Celebrity big brother, UK edition.
00:57:45They want you.
00:57:47The money's pretty good.
00:57:49Yeah, and you're going to let me go to the UK?
00:57:53Okay?
00:57:53That's it.
00:57:54I'm going with you.
00:58:22Despite everything,
00:58:24I was terrified to be away from him.
00:58:27Terrified.
00:58:28Call it Stockholm Syndrome if you like.
00:58:31But the moment I stepped through the Celebrity Big Brother door, it felt like a gift.
00:58:36It was summer camp and college and a holiday with friends all rolled into one.
00:58:41All the things you miss out on when you're married at 16.
00:58:45And I realized that I could be happy without him.
00:59:07Oh, I miss you, baby.
00:59:09Yeah.
00:59:11How are you?
00:59:12Good.
00:59:19I don't love you anymore.
00:59:24What?
00:59:27I don't love you anymore.
00:59:32You don't mean that.
00:59:33I do.
00:59:34You don't mean that.
00:59:36I love you more than anyone I've ever loved or ever will love in this world.
00:59:42Do you really?
00:59:43Or is that just a role that you're playing?
00:59:46You are.
00:59:47Courtney, you're breaking my heart.
00:59:51And you think I'm acting?
00:59:54This is real.
00:59:56This is real.
00:59:57This is forever.
00:59:59Not anymore.
01:00:00You're just upset because you're losing your prize.
01:00:03Please.
01:00:03You're tired.
01:00:05It's the jet lag.
01:00:06We'll go back to bed and in a few hours we'll wake up and everything will go back to the
01:00:10way it was.
01:00:10We could go to counseling.
01:00:12Please.
01:00:12We are a team.
01:00:14You're my angel, please.
01:00:16Our story does not end like this.
01:00:20I moved into the guest room until I could figure out where to go.
01:00:24Our standoff began.
01:00:26We avoided each other for months.
01:00:29But it was better than the alternative.
01:00:41Every night, I tried to make up for my lost teenage years.
01:00:46Why the hell are you bitches dancing?
01:00:48Here.
01:00:50Okay.
01:00:53To what?
01:00:54Love.
01:00:55And hate.
01:00:57To both.
01:00:57Love and hate.
01:00:58Shut up and drink.
01:01:04Let's go.
01:01:05Let's go.
01:01:14Let's go.
01:01:23Courtney, Courtney, Courtney, where's Doug?
01:01:25I don't know.
01:01:26I don't care.
01:01:27Where are we going now?
01:01:29To bed.
01:01:30I'm done.
01:01:31Me too.
01:01:31We'll take you home.
01:01:32No, I don't want to go home.
01:01:34No.
01:01:36Hey, what's happening today?
01:01:37I know of a place on Laurel Canyon.
01:01:40No.
01:01:42We love you.
01:01:42We love you.
01:01:44You good?
01:01:44Let's go.
01:01:45Okay.
01:01:47Hi.
01:01:48Hi.
01:01:50Hi.
01:01:51Hi.
01:01:52Hi.
01:01:52My motorcycle over there.
01:01:53Party.
01:01:55I was 19, naive, and stupid.
01:01:58But I was in control of my own life for the first time.
01:02:04Doesn't quite know what to do with my courage.
01:02:08He's playing with it.
01:02:11I'd feel better if you were out of there.
01:02:13No.
01:02:13It's fine for now.
01:02:16Until I figure things out.
01:02:21I was dead.
01:02:25You know your dad and I hadn't been happy for a long time.
01:02:30I know.
01:02:34It's for the best.
01:02:36And he'll see that too.
01:02:38Eventually.
01:02:39It's my fault.
01:02:41If you hadn't moved out here to help me, then...
01:02:48We could spend our whole lives dwelling on the what-ifs.
01:02:54Or we could trust that God has a bigger plan for us.
01:03:12I was cautious about what I told her.
01:03:15stories leaked online about things only she would know.
01:03:18I suspected it was her way of trying to protect me by publicly shaming Doug.
01:03:23But, at that moment, he wasn't the one I needed to be protected from.
01:03:52I was shocked that he was the other way.
01:03:56He was the one I needed to be protected from the house.
01:03:58I was shocked.
01:03:58I was shocked.
01:03:59how do you know Marty um actually I I don't I came here with my friend Carolyn
01:04:06I think she left about ten minutes ago I'm looking for oh yeah ladies room
01:04:12yeah it's down the hall and uh yeah I'll show you no I didn't think this is the
01:04:18kind of party they could just get my heels off and run up the stairs surprise
01:04:23give it a half hour okay and uh here you go not a sound got it half the people
01:04:37downstairs owe their careers to me a couple of them their lives you go ahead
01:04:40and try and tell anybody about this see what happens
01:05:04oh
01:05:05oh
01:05:06oh
01:05:06oh
01:05:06oh
01:05:07oh
01:05:07I don't know.
01:05:44What?
01:05:47What did you expect?
01:05:52This is what happens when you're not with me.
01:05:56When I'm not there to protect you.
01:06:00Look, if you're looking for somebody else to save you,
01:06:05I promise you.
01:06:09There is nobody else.
01:06:20I married him.
01:06:24Again.
01:06:31I know.
01:06:34It gets worse.
01:06:37After we got remarried, Doug started pulling the strings again.
01:06:42Isolating me from everyone I loved, including my mother.
01:06:47Right in a time when I needed her the most.
01:06:50So now I'm the problem?
01:06:53It's always me, isn't it?
01:06:55You need to wake up.
01:06:56Your mother's not booking these jobs for you.
01:06:59She's busy trying to launch her own career.
01:07:02But you are too stupid to see it.
01:07:04Open the door!
01:07:07If you cared about our marriage at all, you would fire her.
01:07:14I'm the one who should be managing your career.
01:07:16I'm the one looking out for you.
01:07:18I'm the one, the only one, who loves you.
01:07:24He won.
01:07:26I fired my mom.
01:07:28She quit.
01:07:29What difference does it make?
01:07:31All that mattered is that he'd successfully isolated me from my family.
01:07:35I was his.
01:07:38I was alone.
01:07:40My mother was completely missing from my life.
01:07:44Just when I was about to become one myself.
01:07:54I thought you said you couldn't get me pregnant.
01:07:59Oh.
01:08:01Are we going to have a little star girl or movie?
01:08:04This is amazing.
01:08:07Oh.
01:08:09Oh, my God.
01:08:10Who are you calling?
01:08:12Everybody.
01:08:13But isn't it, it's two.
01:08:14I have the best news.
01:08:17Early.
01:08:18I'm going to be a dad.
01:08:36They are 100% on board for a series.
01:08:43Cameras will follow you, follow us throughout the whole pregnancy.
01:08:47Crib buying, doing the baby's room, doctor's visits.
01:08:53I don't know.
01:08:54Hey, I never want you to have to worry about money.
01:08:57That's my job.
01:08:58But we need this.
01:09:00Now, the only thing you have to do is get excited.
01:09:06Because we get to share our miracle with the whole world.
01:09:16Have a good day, and have a good day.
01:09:21Do you still have a little girl?
01:09:52The TV show.
01:09:56What are we going to do?
01:10:17Hey.
01:10:18Yeah, we're leaving the house right now.
01:10:20I texted you the address.
01:10:23Uh, 15 minutes, give or take.
01:10:28Yeah, no, no, no.
01:10:29We'll be at the baby's store in about an hour.
01:10:32See you then.
01:10:34To the outside world, I pretended I was still pregnant.
01:10:38We had a paparazzi agency contract for a set number of photo ops.
01:10:43And I wasn't ready to tell the world the truth.
01:10:47I was too broken for another round of public judgment and blame.
01:10:52I felt like a part of me had died.
01:10:55Hey, guys.
01:11:01Eventually, we had no choice but to tell the truth.
01:11:23Now what?
01:11:28By then, I'd added all kinds of pills to my usual routine.
01:11:33Whatever I could get my hands on, I hoped it would numb everything.
01:11:46No, get out.
01:11:47Get out.
01:11:48Get out.
01:11:48Get out.
01:11:48Get out.
01:11:49Get out.
01:11:49Get out.
01:11:49Get out.
01:11:50Get out.
01:12:05When we lost the reality show, we lost our house, too.
01:12:09The life I'd been promised felt more like a fantasy.
01:12:13So, uh, what do you think so far?
01:12:17Finally, all our dreams are coming true, honey.
01:12:20Look, this is all that we could afford.
01:12:22What do you want me to do?
01:12:25How about anything?
01:12:28Listen.
01:12:31If it wasn't for me, you would be living off of food stamps.
01:12:36You have no clue how much I do for you.
01:12:40I gave up everything for you.
01:12:47If I'm so awful, if I'm so awful, why don't you hit me?
01:12:52Look at me.
01:12:56Hit me, Stargirl.
01:12:58Hit me!
01:12:59Hit me!
01:12:59Hit me!
01:13:03Hit me!
01:13:34The thing about hitting rock bottom is that you don't always know you're there, but I knew.
01:13:42I hadn't talked to my dad in a long time.
01:13:45He was on an endless list of people I didn't think I could go to for help.
01:13:50I decided to call him.
01:13:52If he answered, I'd tell him everything.
01:13:55But if he didn't answer, I'd do what I'd already been thinking about doing for years.
01:14:17The other thing about hitting rock bottom is that you realize you have nothing else left to lose.
01:14:27What the hell did you do?
01:14:34I want a divorce!
01:14:46What is this?
01:14:52A no-divorce-divorce?
01:14:54I'll let you go.
01:14:57But no one needs to know.
01:14:59So we can still keep making money as a couple.
01:15:04Look, celebrities do this all the time.
01:15:06Like it or not, your career depends on me.
01:15:09And my career depends on you.
01:15:11I got plenty of offers when we separated.
01:15:13Not as many as when we're together.
01:15:14You got more when you're with me.
01:15:19Part of me was still that 16-year-old girl.
01:15:23Part of me was still afraid of him.
01:15:41I signed to get out the door.
01:16:04This is going to be good.
01:16:05It's going to be good.
01:16:06You've got to believe me.
01:16:07This will be good.
01:16:08This is going to work.
01:16:09You're going to see him.
01:16:12It'll be good.
01:16:19Finally, alone for the first time in my life.
01:16:22No Doug.
01:16:24No cameras.
01:16:25No chaos.
01:16:27And I knew that if I was ever going to take my life back,
01:16:31it had to start with getting clean.
01:16:45Courtney, let me walk you through.
01:16:55Somewhere in the quiet of rehab,
01:16:57I realized that if I wanted to truly heal,
01:17:01I had to start with mending the broken relationships in my life.
01:17:14It's okay.
01:17:17I'm going to cry too many.
01:17:19No.
01:17:19No, definitely not.
01:17:21No.
01:17:26Thank you for coming.
01:17:29Yeah, of course.
01:17:30Yeah.
01:17:38Honey, I've got to say something to you.
01:17:40Okay?
01:17:40I've got to get it off my chest.
01:17:44I'm sorry for everything that happened.
01:17:47I mean, I should have followed my gut
01:17:51and stopped all this day one.
01:17:54Even before there was anything to stop.
01:17:58Look, God is my witness.
01:18:00I did try to make it right.
01:18:02I did.
01:18:03I talked to lawyers.
01:18:04I spent thousands of dollars on bills
01:18:07just to find out that
01:18:10there's no damn thing I could do.
01:18:12The marriage was legal and binding.
01:18:18I promise you I tried.
01:18:20Daddy,
01:18:22it's okay.
01:18:23It's not okay.
01:18:25It's not okay.
01:18:28I had one job.
01:18:30One job.
01:18:32That was to keep you safe
01:18:33until you were an adult
01:18:35and you sure the hell
01:18:36wasn't that back then.
01:18:41I'm sorry.
01:18:47I'm sorry.
01:18:51And I always will be.
01:19:03A couple hours in L.A.
01:19:05Look what it turned me into.
01:19:10Come on.
01:19:12Go for a walk.
01:19:16Yeah, I like that.
01:19:17Yeah.
01:19:18Come on.
01:19:20Come on.
01:19:23I love you.
01:19:24I love you, too.
01:19:40So, how has this last week been for you?
01:19:42Good.
01:19:43I think
01:19:44it feels
01:19:46strange to say
01:19:48usually I say that
01:19:50and don't mean it,
01:19:51but
01:19:52right now,
01:19:54today,
01:19:55I
01:19:55actually feel good.
01:19:58Can't promise anything
01:20:00about tomorrow, though.
01:20:02Nobody can.
01:20:06I got my first credit card.
01:20:09That's something.
01:20:10It's silly.
01:20:11I know.
01:20:13No.
01:20:14I mean,
01:20:14when you haven't felt
01:20:15in control of your own life,
01:20:17I mean,
01:20:17that's a big deal.
01:20:19I don't
01:20:20think that I was ever
01:20:22the Courtney
01:20:23they needed me to be.
01:20:25Who's they?
01:20:28My mom,
01:20:30my dad,
01:20:32Doug,
01:20:33the media,
01:20:36anybody who ever
01:20:37picked up a tabloid
01:20:39at the grocery checkout
01:20:40or
01:20:41clicked on a meme
01:20:42with my face on it,
01:20:46that Courtney
01:20:46wasn't real.
01:20:53So,
01:20:53who is the real Courtney?
01:20:58is it weird
01:20:59that I'm kind of
01:21:00having fun
01:21:00figuring that out?
01:21:06It's like
01:21:08taking a road trip
01:21:09from
01:21:10New York
01:21:11to L.A.
01:21:12you know,
01:21:13you know where
01:21:14you're starting
01:21:15and you know
01:21:16where you want
01:21:16to end up,
01:21:17but
01:21:18it should be
01:21:19a direct line,
01:21:20but
01:21:21sometimes you
01:21:22find yourself
01:21:24back at the start
01:21:25or
01:21:27you end up
01:21:28in the middle
01:21:29of nowhere
01:21:29and everybody's
01:21:30asking
01:21:31what's taking
01:21:32you so long.
01:21:36And
01:21:37what do you say
01:21:38to them
01:21:38when they ask?
01:21:43Nothing.
01:21:46Being in
01:21:47the middle
01:21:47of nowhere
01:21:48is
01:21:50a part
01:21:50of the journey.
01:21:53As long
01:21:54as I know
01:21:54that,
01:21:56that's enough.
01:22:12Thank you
01:22:13for
01:22:14doing this.
01:22:17You're welcome,
01:22:18baby.
01:22:21You look happy.
01:22:23I am.
01:22:25You're not
01:22:26just saying that?
01:22:27I don't do
01:22:28that anymore.
01:22:35That's all
01:22:35I ever wanted.
01:22:37It was for you
01:22:38to be happy.
01:22:43It came
01:22:44from the right
01:22:45place,
01:22:45but it was
01:22:46the wrong
01:22:47thing.
01:22:50I'm sorry.
01:22:54I am so,
01:22:55so,
01:22:55so.
01:22:55I know.
01:22:58I know.
01:23:14God,
01:23:16bless this
01:23:17food before us,
01:23:18the family
01:23:19beside us,
01:23:21and the love
01:23:22between us.
01:23:24Amen.
01:23:33I was 25
01:23:34years old
01:23:35when I finally
01:23:35got a real
01:23:36divorce from
01:23:36Doug
01:23:37after nearly
01:23:38a decade
01:23:38of marriage.
01:23:40No more
01:23:41child bride.
01:23:42No more
01:23:43crazy costumes
01:23:44or charades.
01:23:45No more
01:23:46carrying Doug
01:23:47or carrying
01:23:48anyone.
01:23:50I am
01:23:51the product
01:23:52of my parents.
01:23:53Their love
01:23:54for me,
01:23:56their fears
01:23:57for me,
01:23:57their dreams,
01:23:59and their
01:24:00mistakes.
01:24:02Aren't we all?
01:24:03love
01:24:04holding on
01:24:05to hope
01:24:06for better days
01:24:07Wondering
01:24:09when I'll
01:24:10see my
01:24:11wings coming
01:24:13They're coming
01:24:14in
01:24:14We'll get our
01:24:15swan on and go
01:24:15do it.
01:24:16Reach out to the
01:24:17bear.
01:24:17Talk to you guys
01:24:18to the
01:24:18cause I know
01:24:19I'm worthy
01:24:21of love
01:24:25And I know
01:24:26I'm
01:24:27beautiful
01:24:28in
01:24:29love
01:24:32They
01:24:33can't keep me
01:24:35They will spend
01:24:35the rest of their
01:24:36lives apologizing
01:24:37for what I've
01:24:38already forgiven
01:24:39them for.
01:24:40I'm still working
01:24:41on forgiving
01:24:41myself.
01:24:43Why is that
01:24:44always the
01:24:44hardest part?
01:24:47I'm not
01:24:47anybody's
01:24:48star girl.
01:24:49I'm not
01:24:49anybody's
01:24:50angel.
01:24:51And I don't
01:24:52need protecting.
01:24:53I protect
01:24:54myself.
01:24:55I am
01:24:55Courtney Stodden
01:24:57and I've
01:24:58got work
01:24:58to do.
01:25:10Dear Courtney,
01:25:11I hope you
01:25:12can help
01:25:12me.
01:25:13I read about
01:25:14your story
01:25:14and I'm
01:25:15worried about
01:25:16what's happening
01:25:16to my 14-year-old
01:25:17daughter, the
01:25:18owner of the
01:25:19music studio
01:25:20she once
01:25:20attended.
01:25:21Dear Courtney,
01:25:23my 12-year-old
01:25:23niece is being
01:25:24groomed by a
01:25:25much older
01:25:25man she met
01:25:26online.
01:25:27My little
01:25:27sister.
01:25:28My daughter.
01:25:30Dear Courtney,
01:25:31I think my niece
01:25:32is being groomed
01:25:33by a much older
01:25:34man she met
01:25:34online.
01:25:35I saw your
01:25:35story for
01:25:36almost a
01:25:37year.
01:25:38My little
01:25:39sister.
01:25:40My daughter.
01:25:41daughter.
01:25:53My daughter.
01:25:56My daughter.
01:26:00My daughter.
01:26:04My daughter.
01:26:06My daughter.
01:26:07My daughter.
01:26:08My daughter.
01:26:09My daughter.
01:26:09My daughter.
01:26:10My daughter.
01:26:15I'm a butterfly
01:26:17I'm a butterfly
01:27:01I'm a butterfly
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