00:04Tell me.
00:14That's difficult.
00:20Cat's been calling.
00:24Do you want to come round?
00:27No.
00:30You have to mix the worlds at some point.
00:39Do you want to be here?
00:44Yes.
00:49Yes.
01:13I have a dream.
01:15I was learning.
01:17Then your love took it from me.
01:19I had a dream.
01:21I was learning.
01:23And your love took it from me.
01:25I had a dream
01:27I was learning
01:29When your love took it from me
01:31Ask me what I think I believe
01:33I need to see you
01:52Gosh, I start jogging
01:55I've been saying it for years
02:06Stereus Keller
02:09Yeah
02:09Could get matching Lycra
02:19We could
02:26As long as you wear the hot pink
02:27Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha
02:56Thatoaуг
03:19What did you get?
03:33They'll get to us, they're busy, everyone wants their time, are you trying to get me fat?
03:42I'm trying, I'm succeeding you big lump, speak for yourself, you're spilling over those trousers,
03:48thanks.
04:01I'm scared she won't be interested.
04:04I don't know about that man.
04:11Mum, are you okay?
04:12Yeah, I'm good, I was passing by.
04:15Passing by?
04:17Yeah, I was nearby, thought I'd pop in.
04:21Are they, are they your friends?
04:24They look nice.
04:28Uh, do you want to, um, do you want to go to the cafe?
04:32Yeah.
04:33Okay.
04:34Yeah.
04:35Okay.
04:40Do you think I could have come to a place like this?
04:43Of course.
04:44You would have been president of all the unions.
04:52What's going on, Mum?
04:55I've given you guys a bad childhood.
05:00I don't know.
05:04We had a great childhood.
05:08Everything we needed.
05:11But your dad and the work.
05:13Kids shouldn't be exposed to that.
05:15You shouldn't have been exposed to that.
05:18It was always dad pushing that world into our lives.
05:21I went into it with my eyes open.
05:22And he gave you no other choice.
05:24And that doesn't mean you can't want something different now, Ma.
05:33I've no idea what I want.
05:38That's okay.
05:40Me neither.
05:49Right, look.
05:51That's Matthew.
05:53He was shipped off the boarding school as soon as he could breathe.
05:56Works away in here till 1 or 2 a.m. every day.
06:00Obviously hates himself.
06:02Her.
06:03Had to grow up watching her dad verbally abusing her mom.
06:07No idea how to navigate a relationship with men now.
06:12Not sure it's wrong with that guy, but someone definitely is.
06:18You did a great job.
06:22Let's have some food.
06:23They do a great pasta.
06:25It's a bit carb heavy.
06:27Carbs, carbs, carbs.
06:29Come on.
06:30Let's have a carb day for once.
06:35Okay.
06:39You're snoring again.
06:41I don't snore.
06:43The neighbors beg to differ.
06:46Is it the nice kind of snoring or the bad kind?
06:48The nice kind.
06:52Shut up.
06:59Just like a lovely pink piece.
07:05Don't ever shake.
07:07I don't want to see if you're ready.
07:12Oh, burly.
07:59You okay?
08:05Not really.
08:08I'm sorry, Mom.
08:11Are you okay?
08:28I'm sorry.
08:33I'm sorry I wasn't, Evie.
08:36My dad said he was leaving.
08:38Oh, no. I know you are.
08:47You had your own law school, Mom.
08:53Dad came by to pack up his stuff.
08:57I'm sorry. I couldn't bear to tell you.
09:00I fucking hate him.
09:05Me too, right now.
09:11Come here.
09:18I'm in.
09:19I'm, I'll do it.
09:23I'm in.
09:36I'm in.
09:43I'm in.
10:05That's cold.
10:09Come back to bed.
10:12Yeah, give me a minute.
10:17You know what?
10:20I like having you young.
10:58Luke?
11:01Hey.
11:02What are you doing here?
11:05This is my boy Luke.
11:07Can we talk?
11:10Not really, no. I've got an appointment.
11:12I can get myself there.
11:13You can't get yourself back.
11:15Well, that gives you a couple of hours to talk.
11:18It's good to meet you.
11:19You too.
11:37Mum wanted to come.
11:40Said she's been calling.
11:45What's your hand?
11:49You liking it here?
11:52Yeah.
11:54Um, tea or milk?
11:56Mm-hmm.
11:57Black coffee.
11:58OK. Any foods?
12:00No, I'm good.
12:01Me too.
12:02OK.
12:05Black coffee?
12:07Why aren't you hot chocolate?
12:15Are you then?
12:18I'm a what?
12:21Why can't you hear?
12:28Stefan.
12:30Not as much football.
12:32Thank God.
12:33Aye.
12:35Aye.
12:45Tom.
12:47How is, um,
12:49Bargon?
12:54Fine.
12:55Yeah.
13:03Um, I think Mum's worried about Sam and Shannon.
13:15Listen, that's gonna take a little bit of time to adapt.
13:20She thinks Sam won't look out for them.
13:25What if something happens to Mum or Shannon?
13:28That's not.
13:29I won't.
13:30You don't know that.
13:31I won't.
13:34Like...
13:44Look, Dad, I want you to be happy.
13:47Truly.
13:51Could you just answer the phone to Mum so I don't have to be a go-between?
13:55Call Mum back.
13:57Just something.
14:01I can't right now.
14:13Thanks.
14:27Thanks.
14:29Were you and Mum ever happy?
14:33Like, truly happy.
14:38We were best friends.
14:47That's a lot of life to have sacrificed for you both.
15:08What about you?
15:12Are you happy?
15:13Do you like it here?
15:15Do you think...
15:18Think that I'll end up staying?
15:23But I like it here, yeah?
15:24Yeah.
15:29What do you like about it?
15:34I don't know.
15:39I like the people.
15:41Mm-hm.
15:43I like being no one.
15:47I like my friends not being scared off by my family.
15:51But I also like not being scared off by Mum.
15:55I guess I feel like I can breathe.
16:02That sounds silly, right?
16:11Feeling good?
16:12You look good.
16:14I'm concerned about your cholesterol, though.
16:16I did just have a packet of crisps.
16:18I don't think it'll just be the crisps.
16:20I'll send you one with a list of things to keep an eye out for on your diet.
16:24How are you feeling about starting the chemo?
16:28OK.
16:29Yeah, ready.
16:31When you come in next,
16:33it'll be the induction stage of the therapy.
16:35Sorry, Doctor, but I mean, that's a big decision to make, no?
16:39Seems crazy to decide that after one medical opinion.
16:43Must be some other avenues we can explore, no?
16:45I'm afraid the NHS doesn't really work like that.
16:49I'm the only specialist in this hospital.
17:03Look, we gotta go, Prevot.
17:05No? I like it here.
17:07That's shite.
17:09I like my doctor.
17:11Who knows my history?
17:13Yeah, but we'll get more care.
17:14Better care?
17:15No.
17:16I'll pee.
17:17Will you stop throwing your weight around?
17:19It's my life and my health.
17:22I'll get the car, you get the prescription.
17:42Come on.
17:44Pam.
17:45Hey, Pam.
17:47Come on.
17:48What, am I like 10, 20 minutes late?
17:50It's a busy area.
17:51From late to late.
17:52I was in the hospital.
17:53There's a lot of that around here.
17:55Somebody else might need your spot for an appointment.
17:57Come on, give me a break.
18:01You're just a fucking prick, aren't you?
18:03Hey, watch your tone.
18:04Watch my tone.
18:05Aye.
18:07Let's go.
18:08Let's go.
18:12O.
18:13O.
18:14O.
18:14O.
18:15O.
18:29Oh, my God.
18:47Okay.
19:36You two, well, you should come over.
19:38You know, the pork toast, it's incredible.
19:39No, I can't.
19:40I've got to watch my cholesterol now.
19:42Well, we've got salads.
19:44Oh, my God.
19:45Let's get a taxi now.
19:46I need to eat that salad.
19:48No, they're really good, honestly.
19:52What about you?
19:53Do you like your foods?
19:54Yes.
19:56If it's beige, then I'll eat it.
20:00I can't get them to accept vegetables just yet.
20:03I saw him in here on a multi-bag of six croissants this morning.
20:07French croissants.
20:09Croissants.
20:09Croissants.
20:10Sorry, darling.
20:10So cultural.
20:11I've always been a cultured boy.
20:13I'm rich.
20:13I certainly have.
20:16I can't go to France anymore.
20:17I start sneezing.
20:18I'm allergic.
20:19To France?
20:20To the grass, I think.
20:21I think there's like a hay fever.
20:23Oh, right.
20:24Problem.
20:24Just in France?
20:25I don't know if it was all the time, but the last time I was here, I was like, bad.
20:29That's weird.
20:48I'm just going to get a refill.
20:49OK.
20:53You get any holidays booked?
20:55Yeah.
20:56She wants to go in.
20:59Let's see.
21:02That was really nice.
21:02Yeah, thank you.
21:03See you soon.
21:06See you soon.
21:20You OK?
21:24I spoke to Kat.
21:29Yeah.
21:43That go OK?
21:46A bit of shouting and swearing to begin with.
21:50As we expected.
21:53Things aren't going well.
21:55With Sam.
22:01Are family OK?
22:04He's being impulsive.
22:09Violent.
22:12Acting without thinking.
22:17You always had that in him, but...
22:22I guess I was able to keep it in check.
22:28No, he's in charge.
22:33Could you talk to him?
22:40I think it's beyond that.
22:45You're worried about them.
23:02Can't go back.
23:05I can't.
23:07I know.
23:08You don't have to right now.
23:13That was so good, isn't it?
23:14That job, but...
23:21I can't even imagine doing it again.
23:39What made you get at it?
23:46I was always willing to do anything for the family.
23:53The kids.
23:55The people I loved.
24:01Anything.
24:07I couldn't always talk to them, but I could make sure they had everything.
24:11You know?
24:19And then...
24:23After a while, it just becomes...
24:28Normal.
24:28Normal.
24:33And the more you do that...
24:37The harder it is to step away.
24:43Did you want to?
24:46Step away?
24:51All the time.
24:52All the time.
24:56I was always doing it for somebody.
25:00My dad.
25:05And them.
25:18When I started to love the feeling.
25:28Walking into a room.
25:32Everybody knows you, they are.
25:37The entire community treating you like a hero.
25:47That feeling.
25:52I can't describe it.
25:54That's...
25:59Pure power.
26:09I've done things.
26:12Tom.
26:17I've done...
26:20I've done some bad things.
26:32Do you think I'm evil?
26:38I think that you survived.
26:42I think...
26:43You found your place in a hard world.
26:50I love you.
26:56I love you for you.
26:59Every part of you.
27:05I love the Dylan inside my flat.
27:11And I love the Dylan outside of it.
27:19But...
27:19If this is the world that you truly want to be in...
27:22Then you need to let your family into it too.
27:25How do you do?
27:44Hi, Shire.
27:46What am I wrong?
27:47I know you hear a voice calls.
27:52I want you to know...
27:55that...
27:56you and Luke mean the world to me.
28:06Chan, I'm so sorry for what happened.
28:11For what you've had to see.
28:17I know your heart must be breaking right now.
28:26I've been so selfish.
28:30I realise I meant a lot to you.
28:35There are things about our family, about me,
28:39that you don't know.
28:43Let me explain...
28:47why I'm in this world.
29:17How do you think?
29:20Because if the cap doesn't fit,
29:23don't hesitate...
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