00:05Who are you, if you can't remember who you are?
00:48Crashing Yields Memory Center.
00:49Yeah, I'm here to see a patient in the Alzheimer's ward.
00:52You're a visitor?
00:53Yes.
00:54I'm sorry, but our solos aren't allowed visitors.
00:56Yeah, I know, I just...
00:59I traveled a long way.
01:01They're meant to stay as solos.
01:03Yeah, I know the rules.
01:04Can you make an exception?
01:08Just this once.
01:26Are you still in Waldo Thompson?
01:31Yes.
01:52Are you Clark Kent?
01:54Yes.
01:55Are you Mickey Mouse?
01:59Yes.
02:12Hello, Stuart.
02:17Install stem cells directly into the bloodstream.
02:22Memory regeneration should occur within four to five minutes.
02:27That's just gonna hurt.
02:31Rightfully so.
02:32Come on, Ray.
02:48We'll have to go.
02:50Okay.
02:52Phase one.
02:55Base memory.
02:56I'm sorry.
02:57Okay.
03:05You hear me, Stuart?
03:12Fuck.
03:15Okay.
03:17Look at that light.
03:19What color is that?
03:22Green.
03:24Screen, isn't it?
03:27Green.
03:31Yeah. Not blue, not yellow,
03:34not red, not white.
03:37That's green.
03:39That's right.
03:40Green.
03:42Green like grass.
03:45Green like
03:47trees, leaves,
03:50salamanders.
03:51Keep going.
03:54Green beans,
03:55alligators, all green beans.
03:57I love green beans.
03:59What else is green?
04:01Green like
04:03peas and pickles
04:04and parakeets.
04:08The Incredible Hulk.
04:10The Grinch.
04:11The Grinch who stole Christmas.
04:14Yeah.
04:15Woolly clothes,
04:17praying mantis.
04:19The Emerald City.
04:21Huh?
04:22Kermit the fucking frog.
04:24It's not easy being green.
04:26That's good, Stuart.
04:27Really good.
04:29Now tell me, where are we, huh?
04:30What's this place called?
04:32This is a, uh...
04:34I know you can remember.
04:38Uh...
04:39Beach.
04:40This is a beach.
04:41That's right.
04:42Yeah.
04:42We're on a beach.
04:43All this shit here is sand.
04:45Just...
04:45sand.
04:47And that...
04:48That's the sea.
04:50Eh?
04:50That's right.
04:51Not a river, not a pond,
04:52not a lake,
04:53not a puddle.
04:55The sea.
04:56Don't stop now.
04:57Mm.
04:59The waves.
05:00The waves.
05:02Crashing.
05:04Crashing.
05:05Like timpani drums in Beethoven's Sixth.
05:07Like...
05:08Like fireworks on the Fourth of July.
05:1320%.
05:14You're doing so well, Stuart.
05:17Whoa, whoa, whoa, whoa.
05:18Look at...
05:18Look at me.
05:19Look at me, man.
05:20I can amble.
05:22I can...
05:23My muscles, remember.
05:24My bones, for you quaint.
05:28Look.
05:30You can dance.
05:31Soft shoe.
05:33Tap.
05:34Jazz.
05:35Macarena.
05:36Yeah.
05:37Electric slide.
05:38Oh.
05:39Oh, yeah.
05:40And what you just...
05:41Watch me whip.
05:44Oh, yeah?
05:45And watch me nae nae!
05:47Whoo!
05:47Whoo!
05:50I can sing.
05:51Oh, I love to sing.
05:53Always have.
05:54Wise men say...
06:00Only fools rush in.
06:05For once in my life, I have someone who needs me.
06:11I miss the old Kanye.
06:13Straight from the gold Kanye.
06:14Chop up the soul Kanye.
06:16Set on his goals Kanye.
06:17Yeah.
06:18Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha.
06:22Oh, yeah.
06:24Yeah.
06:25The dope jams.
06:29The lip bangers.
06:32I know again.
06:36and I know
06:39that I know
06:48but I don't know you
06:53no
06:54why are you doing this
06:56why are you doing this for me
06:59hmm
07:01I'm
07:01from the National Health Service
07:04NHS well if you think
07:06you're going to pay for this with my pension
07:08memory regeneration
07:10is universal
07:13take stem cells
07:15inject them into you
07:17and regenerates total brain function
07:20and soon after recovers all
07:22your memories
07:23my memories
07:27and it's free
07:29it's free
07:31as it should be
07:33I know at first
07:34that they were
07:35that they were selling
07:36this cure for Alzheimer's
07:39yeah
07:40but I always said
07:41I want to be a human right
07:45it's awful in there
07:48that demented fog of dementia
07:51and there it's like being buried alive
07:54or cast in amber
07:55but still
07:57puttering inside
08:03you want to roar
08:04you wish to scream
08:05but screams and roars
08:07are all
08:07banned in that land
08:10no crying
08:13no mercy
08:15no wishes
08:17or prayers
08:18you cry out for your mother
08:20or your father
08:22or your god
08:28but they're all gone too
08:30they've all left in the fog
08:33and their terror
08:35and their fury
08:36all rises in you
08:40I exist
08:41you want to shout
08:43I exist
08:45I exist
08:49but you surely do not
08:52not in this land
08:56but then
08:59you came
09:00you burned off
09:02all the fog
09:04and I can remember again
09:08I'm alive
09:09my son
09:12and you're to blame
09:18phase one is complete
09:20brain regeneration
09:21is at 50%
09:23now comes the rest
09:25phase two
09:27personal memory
09:28and recovery
09:37hang on tight
09:57will you remember
10:01my wife's farts
10:03in the night
10:05code red
10:06code blue
10:11floating in my best friend
10:12Neil's pool
10:14looking up at the clouds
10:17watching 13 going on 30
10:21seeing Ming Chong
10:22in the supermarket
10:24flying down that blue slide
10:27into mom's arms
10:28the slide
10:32where was that
10:34in the park
10:36with the big trees
10:37and the duck pond
10:39the woman
10:41the mother
10:42what does she look like
10:45it's all I can remember
10:47it can't be everything
10:48well
10:50yeah
10:51it's all there is
10:52it's all the memories
10:56afraid so
10:57are you sure
10:58of course I'm sure
11:01I already said
11:02I'm sure
11:04it's all there is
11:05it's all I can remember
11:06okay
11:08you remember me
11:09Stuart
11:11I'm afraid we just
11:12met
11:15what is this
11:16this is some kind
11:17of NHS thing
11:18huh
11:18like a shakedown
11:21of a poor Alzheimer's
11:23patient's pension fund
11:25have you ever diagnosed
11:26of course
11:30Alzheimer's patients
11:32exhibit identical symptoms
11:33to aging memory addicts
11:36if you install too many recollections
11:39over time
11:41your neurons are destroyed
11:44so you know what I think
11:45Stuart
11:49that after years
11:50of stealing memories
11:51your brain was dying
11:53not from Alzheimer's
11:54but from your addiction
11:55son you
11:56you
11:57you must have
11:59the wrong man
12:00I know who you are
12:01case of mistaken identity
12:03I know what you did
12:05I didn't do anything
12:07I spent the past 11 years
12:12trying to find the monster
12:14who took the memories
12:15of my mom
12:16who started by hacking
12:18into company servers
12:20and who graduated
12:21to violently assaulting people
12:24who stuck an extractor
12:26right in their fucking brains
12:30downloaded their memories
12:31I've long thought about this day
12:34about the day I would find
12:36the man
12:37who took her from me
12:38in that hospital hall
12:40by the vending machine
12:41and stripped that little boy
12:44of every memory
12:45of the mom he just lost
12:58what do you want?
13:01what do I want?
13:04do you know what my earliest memory is?
13:08a dark shadow
13:10reaching out to me
13:13I can't see her face
13:15or her body
13:16she's a glitch
13:17a blur
13:20pixelated
13:21buffering
13:21a dark fog
13:26I can't even see her
13:29my own mother
13:30and I can't even see her
13:31and I can't hear
13:33not a laugh
13:35or a cry
13:37or
13:39I love you sweetheart
13:42I can't even miss her Stuart
13:45my own mother
13:46and I can't even miss her
13:50but the worst part of all
13:52is that the only place
13:54she still exists
13:56is in there
13:59and it's a shitty feeling
14:00you know
14:01because the fucked up thing is
14:04now I need you
14:08so what do I want Stuart?
14:13I want what's mine
14:16I want you to give me back
14:18what you took from me
14:20I want her
14:26I
14:28can't
14:29you give me her
14:31and I won't tell the authorities about you
14:33I won't bring you in
14:34you can live out your days here
14:47how do I know
14:50how can I know
14:51you'll hold up your end
14:57what choice do you have
15:08oh well
15:14blue
15:16blue eyes
15:21they have blue eyes
15:25blue how
15:27blue like the Mediterranean
15:29at twilight
15:33blue like a starling's feathers
15:39blue like an aster flower
15:41just moments after bloom
15:45she had blue eyes
15:47hmm
15:48and clumps of mascara
15:51always clumps
15:56and when she looked at you
16:00when she looked at you
16:02my god
16:03her eyes
16:04opened wide
16:06really?
16:07yeah
16:08right
16:09and she cooed
16:10when she saw you
16:15involuntarily
16:16she cooed
16:17when you walked
16:17into her room
16:19she would gasp
16:22as if she thought
16:23how
16:25how could this boy
16:27be so perfect
16:28how
16:29could I have made
16:31such a beautiful kid
16:33how could he be mine
16:35she gasped
16:37when she saw me
16:38yeah
16:39and she smelled like lavender
16:42it was the detergent
16:44she used
16:47I've always loved the smell
16:48of lavender
16:48mmhmm
16:49well she would do this
16:51thing
16:54whenever she saw me
16:56you
16:57in the morning
16:59she would
17:00hold out her hand
17:02as if for a handshake
17:04like we were
17:05business partners
17:06and she would say
17:08nice to make you
17:09acquaintance
17:10mister man
17:15and she'd take you
17:17to the playground
17:17every day
17:20feed the ducks
17:21and play
17:23and there was this
17:25slide
17:25yeah
17:27big blue slide
17:28it was like
17:29your everest
17:31you saw her
17:32growing small
17:35and then
17:36you
17:37slid down
17:39right into her arms
17:40and she held it tight
17:46I don't know
17:47what came over her
17:48that day
17:50but her eyes
17:51were watery
17:53and her little nose
17:55her nose
17:56what
17:57what is it
17:58like a button
17:59small
18:00red
18:03and she said
18:04I will
18:06always
18:07catch you
18:08I don't
18:09I will never
18:10let you fall
18:15she sounds
18:16lovely
18:18she was
18:20she really
18:22was
18:25and so
18:26were you
18:28a lovely
18:29boy
18:33why
18:34why
18:35why do you
18:35take the memories
18:36from that little boy
18:37in that hospital hall
18:38who just lost his mom
18:54I had a child once
18:58beautiful boy
19:02during the stay
19:03I began to
19:05think him
19:06a nuisance
19:08an annoyance
19:10an interruption
19:11to the
19:13screens that I loved
19:15to the devices
19:16I cherished
19:21I made excuses
19:23not to play with him
19:25not to help him
19:26with his school
19:28not to show him
19:30the stars
19:30or tuck him
19:32into bed
19:33at night
19:37and then one day
19:42one day he got sick
19:47virus took him
19:48in its arms
19:50and he ailed
19:52and glitzed
19:53and
19:55begged for breath
19:58until
19:59he was gone
20:03and the light
20:05left my world
20:09and when he passed
20:12I roamed the streets
20:13for days
20:16wishing to disappear
20:19wishing to die
20:22wishing to leave
20:23on a rocket ship
20:24or
20:26stay locked
20:27in my stay
20:28or
20:31travel to the future
20:35or be punished
20:36forever
20:39wishing I had seen
20:40my boy
20:41for what he was
20:45which was the whole world
20:52I couldn't bear
20:54the memories
20:54of it
20:56so I spiraled
20:57and tumbled
21:01that's when I started
21:04stealing
21:05leaving
21:09I needed to stop
21:11my heart
21:12from this
21:13god awful bleeding
21:17I stole the other memories
21:19to rid myself
21:21of my own
21:22I stole from them
21:25from hundreds of victims
21:29from you
21:31a sweet boy
21:33just like my own
21:35and I just
21:37needed to remember
21:39a boy's love
21:40for his parents
21:42so that I could make
21:44myself believe
21:44this is what my boy
21:46must have felt
21:47about me
21:51so I took
21:52your memories
21:54and I watched
21:56every one
21:56over
21:57and over
21:59again
21:59six years
22:01of
22:02of you
22:04her
22:06and together
22:12but as the
22:13dementia progressed
22:15and the
22:16fog overtook
22:18and the memories
22:19grew dim
22:19and I could see
22:20only
22:21dark shadows
22:23where people
22:24should be
22:27I realized
22:30the worst truth
22:32was a wall
22:35this is what
22:36my boy
22:36must have felt
22:37when he looked
22:39at me
22:40a glitzing father
22:41whose face
22:43he hardly saw
22:46whose embrace
22:50he never knew
22:53whose love
22:58whose love
22:59he never felt
23:05I see now
23:06that
23:07I've committed
23:08this same crime
23:09twice
23:12to you
23:14and to him
23:19robbing a child
23:20of his parent
23:23tell me about
23:24that last day
23:28my last day
23:29with her
23:31son
23:32tell me
23:33I want to know
23:40it was cold
23:43you had on
23:44a sweater
23:47and you went
23:48in to see
23:48her
23:51and she was
23:51lying in bed
23:54bald
23:55and pale
23:57her nose
23:59was
23:59red
24:00and small
24:01like a bun
24:01you crept toward
24:03her and
24:06as soon as
24:07she saw you
24:08her blue eyes
24:09open wide
24:13her eyelashes
24:14caked with mascara
24:16wide like this
24:18she reached out
24:19her hand to you
24:20to shake it
24:21as if we were
24:23business partners
24:24which in a way
24:25we were
24:25her and me
24:28and she said
24:29pleasure to make
24:30your acquaintance
24:30mister man
24:32exactly so
24:34exactly so
24:37and she held you
24:38tight
24:41only now
24:41it was final
24:43she smelled
24:44her lavender
24:46she smelled
24:47great
24:50she pulled you
24:51close
24:52like that day
24:53on the
24:54big blue slide
24:57she said
24:58she'd always be
24:58there to catch
24:59me
25:01even if she was
25:02gone
25:02that's right
25:04and her
25:05breaths grew
25:05faint
25:05and
25:07she pulled you
25:08close
25:12she held you
25:13tight
25:15and she said
25:19tell me
25:20what she said
25:23she said
25:24my boy
25:26it has been
25:27the privilege
25:29of my life
25:29to be your mom
25:31I'm sorry
25:32we've had such
25:33a short visit
25:33together
25:37and as the
25:38years go on
25:40these moments
25:41together
25:41may fade
25:42but it's okay
25:44it's okay
25:45if you forget
25:46me
25:49it's okay
25:49if you forget
25:50me Otto
25:51because you
25:52never can
25:53you are
25:53literally
25:55made up
25:56of me
25:58I'm in
25:59every fiber
26:00of you
26:00every eyelash
26:01and follicle
26:02and cell
26:02like the stars
26:04in the sky
26:05and the sand
26:05and the sea
26:06I'll always
26:08be with you
26:09and you don't
26:11need to remember
26:12for it to be
26:13true
26:15for I will
26:16for you
26:22and as you
26:23held her
26:24close
26:25you looked
26:26at the respirator
26:27beside her
26:28bed
26:28the machine
26:29that hung
26:30and glowed
26:32with a
26:32green light
26:33yeah
26:35until her breath
26:36ceased
26:39and she grew
26:40still
26:43and the green
26:44light
26:44too brief
26:46went out
26:53a memory
26:54a memory
26:55isn't simply
26:55a thing
26:56you have
26:58it's a promise
27:02to bow
27:03to the one
27:03you love
27:05remembering
27:06is a search
27:08and you
27:09found her again
27:10son
27:17she would be
27:17so proud
27:26she would be so proud
27:27I am sorry
27:31I'm so sorry
27:33for what I've taken
27:33from you
27:36for what I've done
27:38for what I've done
28:03the green light
28:06that's right
28:07oh you
28:07you
28:08you
28:08you said
28:09I said
28:09I wouldn't tell
28:10the authorities
28:11about you
28:15no
28:17no no no
28:18no no
28:19no no
28:20no no please
28:20please
28:21don't
28:22don't
28:22don't take
28:23don't send me
28:24back there
28:25please
28:28I have to
28:29Stuart
28:29please
28:30you know I do
28:36can I ask
28:37just
28:39one small favor
28:41you don't deserve
28:42a favor
28:44however small
28:50you've hurt
28:51so many people
28:52I know
28:53but
28:54can't you
28:55just leave me
28:56one
28:57one memory
29:00just one
29:02please
29:07which memory
29:10of your boy
29:12those memories
29:13are all corrupted
29:14I'm afraid
29:16so which one
29:22I don't know
29:24I know
29:46would you show me
29:47what it felt like
29:49what
29:52or a hug
30:15You know, Stuart
30:20I imagine this is what your boy must have thought your hugs felt like too
30:28How about this one, Stuart?
30:32How about this memory?
30:46How about this memory?
31:20How about this memory?
31:46How about this memory?
31:47How about this memory?
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