00:00When, you know, they were announcing the winner, I just felt the color drain from my face.
00:06I just, that was the moment there where I actually realized, like, this isn't about me.
00:11Like, this is not about me.
00:13This is about you guys, you know, for whatever agenda you want to fulfill, you're doing it off the back
00:20of me.
00:21And so at that point, I was just, it was like, it was like the blinds had just, like, the
00:26curtain had just been, like, pulled back.
00:28And I was like, is this, this, this is what I've, I feel, in all honesty, like I sold my
00:37soul.
00:38That's how I feel.
00:39I feel like I sold my soul.
00:41And I don't give a like, you know, you could pay me a million pound, 10 million pound to do
00:48that experience all over again.
00:49And I would say no in a heartbeat because nothing is worth what I went through in there.
00:55And just in that moment as well, when they are being crowned the winner, like, the funny thing is, I've
01:02never won anything before in my life.
01:05Never won anything.
01:06And the one, the one time that I do, the one time that I do, that's how it goes out.
01:13And listen, I know it's just like, you know, it's a reality show and stuff, but it just got taken
01:19away from me.
01:19And because of that, I just feel like they won.
01:22It's just difficult for me right now because to process it all and to take it all in, because I
01:28do feel, if I'm being honest, just a bit dead inside, a bit numb about the whole situation.
01:32And it is still raw.
01:35But I know.
01:35But I know.
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