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00:08When Nature Boy started, people viewed him favorably.
00:11Everybody here met on social media, and we all came together and brought our resources together.
00:16We had people coming in from everywhere, and I'm thinking like, oh, this is a real movement.
00:21We're actually out here in nature to show the world who black people are.
00:25He said we should stop fighting the system altogether and just leave.
00:31It was beautiful sceneries, beautiful pictures. I couldn't have had a better experience.
00:38But then there was this one day we got deported from Costa Rica.
00:49Immigration, it was a prison.
00:53They beat our ass like animals shipped back to our so-called owners, the United States of America.
01:02We didn't really know what's going to happen, what next.
01:05My work is not done yet. We're going back to the jungle.
01:10And that's when things started to escalate.
01:15That's what it is!
01:17What the fuck?
01:19It became a verbal abuse, sexual abuse, physical and spiritual abuse.
01:24A woman needs to be dominated at all times. She want to be dominated at all times, homie.
01:28He was saying, I'm the chief.
01:31Now I'm the messiah.
01:36I wanted to shine light on what was happening. This is a cult.
01:41This is our cult.
01:42I'm the cult leader. I'm a nature boy.
01:46I never imagined in a million years that it would culminate into what it eventually culminated into.
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02:23I grew up in a Christian home.
02:27My family made sure that we were always involved in, like, a lot of different activities, sports.
02:34They used to take us to Disneyland and Disney World.
02:39But we always felt kind of different.
02:42I didn't have this idea of what my career would be or who I, you know, what I wanted to
02:49do with my life.
02:51Nature Boy was trying to attract new members by playing victim.
02:57It was an advertisement to join the cult and to fight the establishment.
03:01We at the border, immigration, we ain't break no laws.
03:05I'm leaving, I'm going to the tropics.
03:06Where the fuck you gonna be?
03:08What I saw on social media was, like, a lot of things about us fighting against the system.
03:15I was like, I need to do that.
03:18At the time, they were actually staying in Texas.
03:22Hold on real quick.
03:24We are not staying in the Northern Hemisphere.
03:27I'm letting you know, Melanation is leaving.
03:29You better leave too.
03:30You better dip.
03:30I got a message from one of the members of the group who called me on video chat.
03:36And Nature Boy got in the frame of the camera and he was like,
03:39When are you coming out here?
03:41Yeah, we're about to leave out soon.
03:42We're headed to Belize.
03:44Are you coming?
03:45You coming?
03:45You gotta come now.
03:49So, I just, I left, turned off my phone and I think I, I blocked, I blocked all my family
04:00members' numbers.
04:03And I just got on the flight to Texas.
04:16It's not a gang.
04:18You heard?
04:19Look, let's pull it out.
04:20We got room too.
04:21Eight person tent right here.
04:23We were buying, like, solar panels and tents and everything that we would need to live in Belize.
04:28And then we drove through Mexico to get to Belize.
04:39We live in homes.
04:41The only thing that's stopping you is you.
04:43And here we are in beautiful Belize.
04:45Doesn't matter what part it is.
04:48Here we are.
04:51We're going to the rivers.
04:53You know, he's taking us to these beautiful places.
04:58This is what he was projecting to the public.
05:00So this is what the public was looking at from the outside.
05:05Come join me.
05:06We're living off the grid.
05:09It just felt like, okay, we're building something.
05:12We're building onto something.
05:13It really felt like utopia to me.
05:20It was never a utopia.
05:22It was always shady from day one.
05:26And it was just these stories didn't get out to the public until later.
05:31Nature Boy wanted complete control over what goes on in that group's surroundings.
05:36And he wanted control over the women.
05:39I would never put a woman in a man's place.
05:44A man is for power.
05:46Man power.
05:47Man power.
05:48A woman's job within that realm, other women's jobs would be to nurse and nurture the agenda of those rules.
05:59In Belize, when we first got there, he told us we weren't allowed to be single as a woman.
06:04As a male, you could.
06:05But as a woman, you had to be with someone.
06:08Nature Boy started controlling who gets to be with who.
06:12Control over their movements.
06:13Control over the finances.
06:16Just control over every aspect of their life.
06:19I remember Nature Boy saying, like, what is a boyfriend?
06:22What is a girlfriend?
06:23Like, we're not kids.
06:24We're not boys and girls.
06:25Like, if you're gonna be with somebody, then that should be your wife or that should be your husband.
06:31So he told me, he's like, well, there's this guy that's into you.
06:35And I think, like, you guys should try it out.
06:39It was weird.
06:40It was like we had, like, this mini marriage ceremony.
06:45And everybody clapped and celebrated.
06:48And I had never talked to him.
06:52Ever.
06:52Like, we never even had a conversation.
06:54After that little ceremony, we went outside and we talked to each other for the first time.
07:01Nature Boy was the one that made the decision on whether or not these men could establish relationships with these
07:06women.
07:07And he controlled every facet.
07:12He was touting, you know, we want to build tribes here.
07:15I want my men to have multiple wives like me.
07:21Marriage wasn't legal, you know, in the cult.
07:24It was just, if you say you're married, you are.
07:27And the next day, if you say you're not, you're not.
07:28For the woman, it was all of, it was like, you were basically in submission to that man 100%.
07:34Whatever he wanted you to do, you did it.
07:39I was still a virgin.
07:42One of the guys that I was with, because I wasn't having sex with him, he would just, like, jerk
07:48off in the middle of the night and ejaculate all over me.
07:51Because we were living in, we were sleeping in tents, I woke up and, like, I had been, like, attacked
07:57by ants because I had that all over me.
08:12Meeting OMAC for the first time was one of the most beautiful experiences I've ever had in my life.
08:21Welcome back.
08:22Peace reflections.
08:25I couldn't have had a better experience.
08:29It was a nine-month time span that OMAC and I were together.
08:33First beginning of it, first three months were great.
08:37The reason why me and OMAC did not last was because of the influence of Nature Boy.
08:46There was a lot of manipulation that was going on amongst couples, him trying to separate couples.
08:57One day, me and OMAC got into a huge argument.
09:00Nature Boy talked to me.
09:04It was, OMAC doesn't love you.
09:07He doesn't want to be with you.
09:09You shouldn't be with him.
09:10You're smarter than him.
09:12You are, you can do better.
09:14You should get out of this relationship now.
09:19So, me and OMAC finally ended our relationship.
09:30And I told Nature Boy I wanted to, you know, do my own thing, but Nature Boy was not having
09:37it.
09:37So, he love-bonded me and love-bonded me and love-bonded me.
09:42Every time a conversation happened between Nature Boy and I, it was very enlightening.
09:48You know, there was a huge thing about him being God and our higher self.
09:54So, I'm thinking, like, maybe this is the next level up in a relationship.
09:58Maybe this is the person that I'm supposed to be with.
10:01So, I choose.
10:03I'm like, yeah, I want to be with you.
10:04Cool.
10:05Like, let's see what happens.
10:11He immediately wanted to get me pregnant.
10:14He immediately made me queen of Carbonation.
10:23Free flag suit.
10:26Who are we?
10:28Carbonation.
10:29Who am I?
10:30The Honorable Master Teacher Nature Boy.
10:32Who am I?
10:33Queen Eliana.
10:34Commander-in-Chief of the Earthlings.
10:36My highest self.
10:38We were all puppets in this video.
10:41Where do you come from?
10:42The highest frequency of the sun.
10:44He fussed at every single person in this video to do it and to get it right.
10:51I love my self.
10:52But he would have us standing out here in the sun for hours and hours.
10:57After it was all over, he scolded me so much because he felt like I didn't have enough confidence
11:05in the video and that I should have sounded more sure.
11:10But this is not my energy.
11:16There was a lot of things that I didn't want to do as chieftest.
11:19And he would argue with me in front of everybody.
11:23Nature Boy's definition wasn't the real definition of what a queen is or what a chieftest is.
11:28He was big on me creating a space for him to be intimate with all of these women, whether he
11:40was with them or not.
11:41He wanted me to be a brothel manager.
11:54Any woman that demands monogamy is against nature and she is a devil and a demon.
12:03Nature Boy used his relationship with Velvet.
12:06Me and Velvet were very close when I first met her.
12:10They invited me to their tent one night to watch a movie.
12:16Like I was laying next to Velvet and Nature Boy was on the other side of her.
12:20And everything was pretty normal.
12:23And then all of a sudden, like, he shifted the energy.
12:29He wanted to have sex with me to break my virginity.
12:37And he wanted her to be there and basically hold my hand through it.
12:44She immediately was just like, no, like, I don't want to do that.
12:48He told her, like, you're going to do it.
12:52And he made her hold my hand through the whole thing.
12:58Every time having sex with Nature Boy was coercion.
13:01It was never like, yeah, I want to have sex with you.
13:06I never said stop or no, but it was very uncomfortable.
13:14I don't think that anybody ever could say no to Nature Boy.
13:19That's not a thing.
13:33How I would describe what happened to me is, like, false advertisement.
13:44I thought I was joining a group that shared the same ideals as me.
13:54I continued to watch video after video, video after video, to the point where I decided that I wanted to
14:01act on it.
14:06My military experience definitely contributed to me going into the cult because of the need for brotherhood, the need to
14:17belong to some type of a mission.
14:18The day we were leaving Belize, we actually picked up Aaron from the airport.
14:22And when I saw Aaron, I was like, that's my husband. Like, that's who I'm supposed to be with.
14:29But I didn't know how to, like, say that because, like, I'm in a relationship.
14:35And I'm like, how am I going to explain that I don't really want to be with this guy?
14:38Like, I don't want to be your wife because I want to be his wife.
14:43When I got there, and I'm taking in the sights of being in the tropics for the first time, and
14:47we're just driving, we're just driving, we're just driving.
14:50And we ended up in Mexico.
14:58And that's when things started to escalate.
15:09Peace Reflections, told you I'll take you on a tour of the new spot.
15:13We were living in this house, just a lot of nature around us.
15:17We slept in tents, but we had this big house to cook in.
15:22And they had a studio in there, which we recorded music.
15:26Aw, look at the love birds.
15:28Couple days into us being there, Aaron said that he was attracted to me.
15:33Elegio's like, okay, basically, you guys can be together.
15:39And we were together ever since that moment.
15:47Peace and love Reflections.
15:48Welcome back.
15:51Day-to-day life in carbonation was content creation.
15:56Nature Boy encouraged me and everybody else to regurgitate, reiterate, verbatimly, what he was teaching us.
16:14That the most honorable prophet Elegio the Christ teaches us.
16:18Because the most honorable prophet Elegio the Christ teaches us that love is understanding.
16:23Love is understanding.
16:24Love is understanding.
16:25Love is understanding.
16:25Love is understanding.
16:26That's what the unk means.
16:27There's something about the human mind that it tends to absorb what it hears over and over and over and
16:36over and over again.
16:37So, going online, astrology is the mechanics of consciousness.
16:46Posting these things, saying these things, it makes your mind highly receptive to the teachings because that's all you hear.
16:56Your peace reflection.
16:59Once you start saying all these things on social media, it's like, this is my identity now.
17:07Nature Boy is just one of the latest installments of a figure who has showed its face for centuries.
17:17Jim Jones' hypnotic hold over his followers was more pervasive than originally thought.
17:22An individual's ability to control minds can result in the most unspeakable human catastrophe.
17:28It's cult leader 101.
17:30Jim Jones, Charles Manson, David Berg.
17:33So many cult leaders use the same strategy.
17:36I'm God.
17:36You should listen to me.
17:37I'm your salvation.
17:39The members of the People's Temple lived in the San Francisco area before making the fatal move to Jonestown.
17:46Jim Jones led over 900 of his followers into the mass suicide.
17:51Cults don't want you to think.
17:53They want you to quickly reach conclusions that are congruent with the cult agenda.
18:00Carbonation is the group that tried to frame themselves off of, you know, the Jim Joneses and the Charles Mansons,
18:09and just kind of reframed it through a lens of false spirituality.
18:14And just to attract more young people with things that sounded really good.
18:20Nature Boy is following Guru.
18:22He hit corners all over the United States.
18:27Jamaica.
18:28London.
18:2920,000 views.
18:3030,000 views.
18:32100 to 200,000.
18:35Just from everywhere.
18:37Australia.
18:38Canada.
18:39So he was influencing people from all over.
18:43They were going live on Instagram daily.
18:46Sometimes for hours a day.
18:48Hours a day.
18:52They were living their life publicly, showing their lifestyle.
18:56People viewed him favorably.
19:01But there were some darker elements at play there.
19:06Anybody that got any common sense can feel that something's coming.
19:12So I started my channel for the specific purpose of archiving and documenting everything.
19:18What up?
19:19What up?
19:20What up?
19:23I wanted to shine light on what was happening.
19:26This is a cult.
19:28You cannot serve God and money.
19:30Quit your job.
19:31Give away everything that you own.
19:33He had a huge following on Facebook.
19:36A big following on Instagram.
19:40And so there were a lot of content creators that were covering them.
19:45You're a cult.
19:47Plain and simple.
19:48Your ass on the phone telling us to put our phone down.
19:50What the fuck is you talking about?
19:52And then he would allow them to have a relationship.
19:54Then he would snatch their girl from them.
19:55Or it could possibly turn into a Jim Jones type of affair.
19:59Matro Boy is spreading propaganda and recruiting new members into a sex cult.
20:05Some things and some people in your life, you got to let go of.
20:10He is physically abusing the women.
20:14Sexually abusing the women.
20:27Once we got to Mexico, he started to open up about all of his sexual fantasies.
20:33He wanted me to, like, have threesomes with him, which he would call polygamy.
20:41So, you said what?
20:44I was just explaining to him the conflict that I felt when it comes to being in a polygamy relationship.
20:51In my understanding, I was going to help him choose who we were going to be with.
20:57But it never worked out that way.
21:00But I'm noticing a pattern that I act the same way.
21:03Like, I react to polygamy the same way.
21:05I just don't like it.
21:07I don't.
21:09It doesn't make me happy.
21:10He knew I didn't like to do it.
21:12He would force me to give him head and then have the other women on his nipples.
21:17And that was, oh, my God.
21:20That was just, like...
21:23Eliana, kiss Aya.
21:25Eliana, kiss Aya.
21:30Let me see it.
21:31Let them see my angels.
21:32My butterflies.
21:33Look at these butterflies.
21:35They gotta turn all the way around.
21:36As a woman, being a wife of someone, you took care of them.
21:40And ultimately, you were in charge of basically reproducing that man, like having their children.
21:50so if your husband wants to have sex with you you kind of you just have to go along with
21:55it
21:57nature boy made a video saying that like women women really want to get raped one thing i know
22:02is women love a lot of women like to be raped their views on women were disturbing you are a
22:11servant
22:11you are to do as i say not as i do i'm your queen your mind is my mind the
22:20day i decided to marry you
22:22was the day i finished you are to follow my lead i am the boss i am god i am
22:31you worship me he needed
22:32to be elevated above the other guys there he was saying he had all of the women belong to him
22:38he
22:38would randomly call these meetings and he'd be like y'all i'm getting this energy i'm getting
22:42this sense that the universe wants me to sleep with all the women here it's not how he presented itself
22:50when i first joined he was just master teacher kind of like a professor but it started escalating from
22:57that to now i'm the chief now i'm the messiah
23:16as i began to view him as the messenger for you know african-american people if martin luther king had
23:25the internet he would be on the internet if malcolm x had the internet he they would be on the
23:28internet
23:29this is the age of information at the height of my brainwashing i viewed him as the messiah
23:37one of the reasons i believe he was the messiah was because of the biblical parallels he would use
23:46you all bow to me there will be no crucifixion of me this time different time he would say that
23:58the
23:58world hated jesus and that look at how much hate he gets online why do they hate me so much
24:06they hate
24:07me because it has to be this way has already been written i am the way the truth and the
24:13light
24:14he would say that jesus had to be brought up and raised amongst the trials and tribulations of people
24:26in order to understand and to be able to help them out of their circumstances
24:32he said he was someone who had been through everything in the world for the sole purpose of
24:40being able to help other people get over those things nature boy would sit us down and he would
24:47talk to us for hours and hours about his childhood a part of me believes that he struggles with
24:56liberating himself from his own traumas and then therefore inflicts it on other people
25:21i was a crack baby i was born a crack baby my dad was 70 something years old
25:28i was born and they died she died of an overdose my father died in his sleep
25:38his early life was spent along with his brother in foster care
25:43he used to tell a story about how his foster mother was abusive they would take ajax and brush his
25:51skin
25:51with a scrub brush and they would call him too black and they would try to scrub his skin away
25:55she would always tell me because i was dark skinned that i was dirty like she used to put like
26:01ajax all
26:01over me in a tub and make me scrub my skin he talks of being treated differently because of his
26:09skin tone
26:09which i don't believe that in the family that have the same skin complexion as aligio and it's a black
26:17family he was a troubled child he would the type of kid that would um start fights he said he
26:24was sexually
26:25abused he said he had went to juvenile prison
26:30start hanging in the street smoking cigarettes um just smoking weed just doing all kind of mischief
26:37hanging with the wrong kids he got into the streets he was sleeping in cars
26:43he said he was a male model and he was a male dancer he started off stripping for women and
26:51then men
26:53he said he worked in the the adult entertainment industry he said that he had been in you know
27:01different relationships with women you know here's the thing i don't know if any of this stuff
27:05actually happened i'm just going off of what he told me he eventually met his son's baby mom his
27:14second son maisha had a relationship with her he abused her so heavily one day that he was arrested
27:24that is when aligio decided to go on a spiritual journey
27:31i believe aligio took from those experiences as a kid and incorporated them into leading people
27:38being a cult leader learning how to manipulate people
27:49in the beginning i don't feel like i've seen red flags
27:54it was literally perfect
28:00when i got pregnant that was like his ticket to abuse me
28:19we were literally living around like fruit trees and everything was so nice music playing just great
28:27vibes and all of a sudden you just hear like screaming
28:32you would see some type of maybe laceration of bruise on her face that wasn't present the day before
28:40and so it became commonplace
28:49velvet would come down to the kitchen she would have scratches or bruises and i'd be like
28:54are you okay and she would just be smiling like yeah i'm fine everything's fine you know like i'm great
29:10so
29:14my response to it was that this is
29:19none of my business
29:22I'm believing
29:23that he's
29:25disciplining her and it's not abuse
29:28and that this needs
29:30to be done in order to
29:32correct
29:33the
29:36masculine traits
29:37she learned from America
29:40man she really need
29:41to get herself together
29:43and this wouldn't have to happen to her
29:45that's what the belief system was
29:47at the time
29:51stop dealing with these women
29:52they ain't got no respect for your manhood bro
29:55a woman needs to be dominated
29:56at all times she want to be dominated
29:58at all times homie
30:00he started to like keep me
30:02away from the group more
30:04now I'm us pregnant
30:0636 weeks
30:08if I ever wanted to see my family
30:10talk to them, friends
30:12anything
30:14he was, Nature Bowl was totally against it
30:16he didn't want none of us to talk to
30:18our family
30:19and if we did talk to our family
30:21he wanted to be there so that he can
30:24guide the conversation
30:25to our own selves
30:28what's going on pop
30:30his goal was to keep me in the blind
30:32so that he can utilize me
30:34in whatever way that he wanted to
30:47when I got closer to the end of my pregnancy
30:52closer to labor
30:56Nature Boy became emotionally distant
31:02going through labor
31:04he goes live
31:05please reflect
31:07y'all ain't gonna believe what happened
31:10man
31:11she was just hurting really bad
31:14so we drove two hours to this hospital
31:16where we at right now
31:18when we know that she's gonna get professional attention
31:22midway through the labor
31:23this was before I got the epidural
31:25he starts to tell me that
31:27he knows that I'm not weak
31:30when I actually gave birth
31:32he tries talking about it live
31:34on Instagram
31:35you gotta push
31:39the baby came out healthy
31:43the baby was great
31:44they were cutting the cord
31:46they were cutting the cord
31:49they were cutting the cord
31:54they're gonna let him take it
31:55they're gonna let him take the clip
31:57when I got back to the house
32:02that we were living in
32:03he was so mean to me
32:13keep the camera rolling
32:14fuck it
32:15let him see it all
32:16you can't keep doing this to me
32:18I didn't do nothing to deserve this
32:20you have to communicate
32:22my body was healing from pregnancy
32:26he would call me weak
32:28and tell me that I need to get up
32:30and move around
32:31to the point where
32:33I was like falling deeper
32:35into postpartum depression
32:36you're the one making this shit complicated man
32:39we've been doing this shit for years
32:41you know what time it is
32:42you should be mad at your own self
32:44cause we've been here before Eliana
32:46after the birth of his daughter
32:47a lot changed
32:49I think that he
32:52you know
32:53he started to you know
32:54need other things
32:55Nature Boy literally
32:57utilized that time
32:59after I gave birth
33:01to have sex
33:02with as many women
33:03as he could
33:06to engage me
33:08into sexual activity
33:10as much as he could
33:11baby present and all
33:14that's when everything
33:15just came to a head
33:17and
33:17you started
33:18seeing her
33:22just dissenting
33:23on the live streams
33:24what are you about to do
33:25can you just leave me alone
33:26no I can't
33:27you got my child
33:29you don't care
33:29yes I do
33:30what the hell you talking about
33:33I have been in numerous occasions
33:35where I had to just
33:36bow down
33:38and perform sexual activity
33:40to be able to escape
33:43out of his presence
33:44to get him to shut up
33:46to get him away from me
33:48to get him to stop hitting me
33:50to get him to stop choking me
33:52to get him to stop slamming me
33:54onto the ground
33:55yo sit down
33:56sit down yo
33:57the baby's in your hand yo
33:59hold on
34:02to get him to stop taking my child
34:05out of my arms
34:06when we are in an argument
34:07to physically abuse me
34:08even to get close to my child
34:11I would conform to non-constitual sex
34:14so that I can have a bond
34:15with my child
34:16it was that deep
34:34if nature boy says do something
34:36you're just supposed to do it
34:38because
34:39he is God
34:42it was not a tribe
34:43it was actually a cult
34:45and the agenda
34:47was
34:48the cult leader
34:50and
34:51the need for absolute rule
34:53absolute domination
34:54absolute power
34:59we must have order
35:01I am your leader
35:06I am the chief commander
35:08of God's children
35:12all right
35:13so
35:14the hierarchy works like this
35:16you have
35:17nature boy
35:18at the top
35:19parallel to him
35:21would be the queen
35:22underneath that
35:23you have
35:24in the guys
35:27the men
35:2718
35:28they're the most trustworthy
35:30responsible
35:31loyal
35:32capable
35:33we did all the finances
35:35we did all the transportation
35:37underneath that
35:38you had B team
35:40the B team
35:42couldn't come and talk directly
35:44to the cult leader
35:45but they had to go through us
35:48the women kind of fall into that
35:49with who they're married to
35:50so
35:52just like with any other cult
35:53your ultimate relationship
35:54becomes with the leader
35:55and Elegio wasn't afraid to do that
35:57he wasn't afraid to take that
35:59little bit of power
36:00and reverence
36:02that these young people
36:03have for him
36:04and take it to the very extreme
36:06and we saw this
36:06lots of different times
36:08what we were doing
36:19it became
36:21more and more
36:23ridiculous
36:24I am your messiah
36:27I'm the commander in chief
36:28of this earth plane
36:29when nature boy walked into a room
36:31we had to stand up
36:32and put our hands behind our back
36:34and he would say
36:35that was standing at attention
36:37you know
36:38if we didn't do that
36:39he would make us do push-ups
36:40or squats
36:42sleep was so controlled
36:44he would keep us up
36:45for hours
36:46and hours
36:47and hours
36:47in the night
36:48and if we were nodding off
36:50we would have to go stand
36:51in the corner
36:52for three hours
36:52as a punishment
36:53so it got to a point
36:54where you didn't have a choice
36:56if you didn't do
36:56what he said to do
36:57you were looked at
37:01demoted
37:01you were quickly
37:03humiliated
37:04you were quickly
37:05devalued amongst the group
37:06wherever we were staying
37:07we couldn't go outside
37:08of the property
37:09unless we were a part
37:11of the go-out team
37:11and if you would try
37:13to go outside those bounds
37:14you would get in trouble
37:15for that
37:15did you think
37:16to contact me
37:18speak up
37:20god damn it
37:22if something happened
37:23to one of y'all
37:24that shit comes back
37:25on me bro
37:30another way
37:31that he implemented
37:32structure was
37:33through the food
37:35nature boy always
37:36eats first
37:39we could never
37:40accept our food
37:40before him
37:41or our drinks
37:42and we couldn't eat
37:43before he took a bite
37:46the whole group
37:47would be eating
37:48rice and beans
37:48majority of the time
37:49he would get
37:50red snapper
37:52shrimp
37:54sometimes lobsters
37:55he got the finest
37:56dining
37:57sometimes he would
37:58even go to restaurants
38:00and go sit down
38:01and eat
38:01and we would be
38:02at home
38:02as you can see
38:03like you see my body
38:04I'm eating what
38:05everybody else is eating
38:06here
38:07and literally
38:08I'm still solid
38:10I'm still got muscles
38:11I realized that
38:13the cult
38:14and the cult leader
38:16they're delusional
38:17because they don't care
38:20about the truth
38:20they care about
38:22how they're perceived
38:23and
38:26to see them
38:27deliberately lie
38:28just to keep
38:29an image going
38:32it's sad
38:33a lot of the women
38:34I believe
38:35were with him
38:35because of the perks
38:36you got to travel more
38:38go more places
38:39and you got to
38:41eat better food
38:41beans right there
38:50we were facing
38:51sleep deprivation
38:54we were facing
38:55malnutrition
38:56at some point
38:59he treated
39:00all of us
39:00like servants
39:01we were
39:02at his
39:03foot in hand
39:05beck and call
39:06to do whatever
39:06it is that he
39:07wanted us to do
39:08I make the rules
39:09I call the shots
39:10and if people
39:11want to follow me
39:12they can't
39:13and I think
39:13once he realized
39:14that he did have
39:15that type of power
39:16over people
39:17that was the point
39:19at which
39:19he didn't care
39:21to keep up
39:22appearances anymore
39:27and with that
39:29came
39:30look what I can do
39:32look what I can say
39:33to these women
39:34they're going to do
39:35what I tell them to do
39:38I'm going
39:40he had this
39:41total control
39:42because we never
39:43looked at him
39:44as the enemy
39:45don't stink an ass
39:46off me huh
39:46on your fucking face
39:48all y'all
39:48and so
39:49once that was successful
39:51we had to up the stakes
39:53act that
39:55fuckers won't you ever
39:56disrespect me
39:57look what I can make
39:58the men do now
39:59fuckers won't
40:03there was
40:04never a consistent
40:05time
40:06of
40:07just depression
40:09and sadness
40:09or euphoria
40:11and happiness
40:12it was a constant
40:14up and down
40:16up and down
40:17because what that does
40:18is it creates
40:20confusion
40:22and doubt
40:23in the people
40:24there
40:25which opens them
40:27up to be able
40:28to be controlled
40:29and manipulated
40:30he wanted me
40:32to submit
40:32to him
40:33he wanted
40:34to break
40:34my spirit
40:37it was like
40:38a slow cracking
40:39of a windshield
40:41until it just
40:42shatters
40:45he stopped caring
40:47he felt
40:48that he was
40:49getting away
40:49with so much
40:50for so long
40:52fuck off me
40:53huh
40:54back up
40:55fucking playing
40:56bitch
40:56why not just
40:57show you guys
40:59the real me
40:59so there will be
41:01no more velvet
41:04in her child
41:05why not display
41:07who I really am
41:34you
41:35I really am
41:50I really am
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