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00:05Previously on the Madison
00:10He wanted to be buried here
00:11There's a spot marked on a map
00:13I know the spot
00:15I can't remember his face
00:17If I were you, I wouldn't listen
00:20Plank
00:22Jesus fuck
00:24Hold on
00:24Right
00:26Stay, stay
00:27Oh my god
00:30I'm gonna die
00:33As much as I like sitting here
00:34It hurts more than you'll ever know
00:36Just like you're wondering how I feel about you
00:38I feel enough to sit here and take it
00:40Abby, if I were you
00:42I would set my hooks pretty deep in that one
00:45They're not making any more men like him
00:52I wonder if you know how happy this room became
00:57It would fill his heart
01:00Tomorrow, we bury them
01:02You're waiting for me like him
01:06I'm going to die
01:09Even after you're hearing
01:18Oh my god
01:19You're waiting for me
01:20Say hi to the day
01:22And finally
01:23Probably try and have a new one
01:29But if I don't know what that was
01:31But with my friends
02:00Transcription by CastingWords
02:13CastingWords
02:32That's an elk track right there.
02:34Oh.
02:35Oh.
02:36Look, there's another one.
02:38No, that's a moose.
02:41How can you tell the difference?
02:43If you spend enough time tracking, you just know.
02:47Oh.
02:50So, do you have any questions about today?
02:55Like what?
02:57I don't know.
02:58Asking you.
03:00Well, you're going to bury them.
03:02We are.
03:03Then what happens?
03:05Uh, then they return to the land and their bodies become a part of it and their souls too, I
03:19guess.
03:19They don't go to heaven?
03:22I think this is their heaven.
03:27Heaven is...
03:29Oh, how do I explain this?
03:31Our teacher says there is no heaven.
03:33You know, I don't know if you've already figured this out, but do not believe everything your teacher says.
03:36Heaven is your perfect place.
03:43For some, it's ice cream oceans and marshmallow mountains and others, it's these mountains.
03:54Does that make sense?
03:57And Grandpa's heaven is here?
04:00I think so.
04:02But if you think he's here, why is everyone so sad he's gone?
04:07Well, his heaven isn't mine.
04:11And, well, I can't see him.
04:13And I can't talk to him.
04:16And I can't hug him.
04:17And he can't hug me.
04:18And I miss that.
04:21Yeah.
04:21I miss it too.
04:24But that's why we have memories.
04:27We can revisit all those times that we did have.
04:32All the talks, all the laughs, all the hugs, and, you know, it's like a movie.
04:38We can play it over and over as many times as we want in our minds.
04:48You know what I mean?
04:49I do.
04:52Not the same, though, as a real hug.
04:55No, it's not the same.
05:19Right here, huh?
05:21She marked it on a map.
05:23All right.
05:24Well, we ain't getting a backhoe down here.
05:27Might be able to get a tractor up from the river, but I'm not sure what good that'll do us.
05:32No, these holes are getting dug the old Irish way.
05:36Yep.
05:38How the hell are we going to get the caskets here?
05:41Swinston still feed off a wagon, don't they?
05:43That's a good idea.
05:46You want to call or run for shovels?
05:48No, you call.
05:48I'll run.
05:50My gelding's just going to follow you.
05:53Yank off that bridle.
06:15I am aware.
06:18Yes, I am aware.
06:20We have had a death in the family.
06:22I'm pretty sure the world of girls' volleyball will survive the week without her.
06:27Yes, you are correct.
06:29I am not factoring how this affects anyone else, even a little.
06:33Fuck.
06:35Is this going to be okay?
06:38This is going to have to do, honey.
06:39It's all you got.
06:41Hey.
06:45It's just us.
06:47Okay?
06:47There's nobody to be offended.
06:49What did school say?
06:51You're missing a volleyball tournament.
06:53It's okay.
06:55It's okay.
06:57Hey.
07:02It's okay.
07:19Hey.
07:20Hey.
07:28Where'd you find cream?
07:29Same shopping center where I found the dress.
07:33I got to say, Bozeman impressed me.
07:36I wasn't expecting to find Donna Karan in the mountains.
07:39Found a little something for you, too.
07:41Yeah.
07:42Preston would prefer me in jeans.
07:44I think he would find a certain victory in that.
07:49He deserves a little black dress, and that's exactly what I got you.
07:53Did the boys say when they would be ready?
07:54He said to walk over at noon.
07:56How are they going to get them out there?
07:58I didn't ask, and they didn't say.
08:01I just said it was handled.
08:04About two hours.
08:07Preston wrote a chapter on telling time from the son's position.
08:13It's alarmingly accurate.
08:18The girls asked me to arrange a plane.
08:22When?
08:24Tonight.
08:25Oh.
08:26Okay.
08:28They need closure, honey.
08:29They won't get it here.
08:31They have lives, and they need to go live them.
08:34I would very much like to plan a memorial service.
08:37He has a lot of friends that deserve a way to say goodbye.
08:40Does he?
08:41He does.
08:42And you know that.
08:44We could do it at the Explorer's Club.
08:46Okay, just...
08:48Have at the apartment.
08:50Have Corbon.
08:52Cater.
08:53He loved that place.
08:55I already called.
08:57You find back, too.
09:02I have a very worried husband.
09:04He's convinced some distant cousin of the Unabomber is going to abduct me
09:08and hold me in his basement for ransom.
09:11Depending on the cousin, I'm not completely opposed.
09:14Of course, that's my warped romance novel version of abduction.
09:17I doubt that's how it would play out, Lily.
09:19That is how it would play out in my mind after two Percocets.
09:23You think I'm joking?
09:25No.
09:31I love you.
09:37There is nowhere I would rather be than with you when you need me.
09:41I know.
09:46I have a little bottle of Kahlua if you would like some lead in that coffee.
09:49Oh, well, now you're talking.
09:52Okay.
09:53Okay.
09:57Okay.
10:11I'll give you some more.
10:15Not bad.
10:17Okay.
10:18Okay.
10:29Okay.
10:34Okay.
10:45Okay.
11:04Of course you pack the perfect dress.
11:13Is there some little black dress tree by the river that I am unaware of?
11:20Okay, girls.
11:24And Russell.
11:52And Russell.
12:06Where are they?
12:08Come.
12:12It's all right.
12:15It's all right.
12:16It's all right.
12:18It's all right.
12:19It's all right.
12:19No, it's all right.
12:27I'm sorry, Erin, you'll ever know.
13:11Hey, boy.
13:27Watch your hand.
14:21Mrs. Glabber, I'm very sorry for your loss.
14:24Mrs. Glabber, I'm very sorry for your loss.
14:27Is a preacher coming?
14:32I forgot.
14:33I didn't.
14:34I...
14:35Uh...
14:36This one will be Sam's preacher.
14:38What's that mean?
14:39It means we don't have one.
14:42Do you have someone to govern the proceedings?
14:47We, um...
14:49This is my first funeral here, so we're sort of winging it.
14:55Well, this is far from my first rodeo.
14:58Do you mind if I say something first and then give you all a chance to speak?
15:03I don't think my group has many speeches in them.
15:08Do you mind a prayer?
15:11I do not.
15:22Lord, we stand before you with heavy hearts.
15:25With the glory of love comes the pain of loss, and we look to you for comfort.
15:30Lord, remind us that it is a selfish pain because you have promised a place called heaven where our departed
15:39bask in the glow of your grace.
15:42They are no longer men.
15:44They are angels who guide us through darkness, lift us when we are weak, and nourish our souls and spirits.
15:54Our pain is a selfish pain because we do not know this place, heaven.
15:59We lean on our faith that it exists, and on your mercy that it holds a place for us where
16:08we may sit in your light beside our loved ones and know only joy forever.
16:17Amen.
16:18Yeah.
16:20If anyone would like a word.
16:24Stacy, it's not the first time you've given that speech.
16:28No, ma'am.
16:30It's a good one.
16:33You care to say something?
16:37I have plenty to say, but I won't be saying it today.
16:49I guess that's it, then.
16:53Um.
16:56So, what happens now?
16:58We'll take care of everything.
17:04Wait, that's it?
17:05That's it?
17:06That's it?
17:07He has no say it and say it, Paige.
17:08I don't know what to say.
17:11What are you supposed to say?
17:12I think that's her point.
17:18Which one's Paul?
17:29Goddamn you for taking it from us.
18:01Everyone deals with it different, don't they, boys?
18:05I don't think they're dealing with it at all.
18:08Not yet, anyway.
18:11I don't know who can blame them.
18:23I don't know who can blame them.
18:42I don't know who can blame them.
18:45Look how can we just leave?
18:49I don't know who can blame them at all.
18:54I don't know who can blame them.
19:11pretty sneaky trying to have a funeral and not tell anybody oh i i i didn't know anyone
19:19would care i we let you have the funeral we will not be denied our feast
19:27when they decided to build these cabins they wanted to do it all themselves
19:30mill the wood frame it roughing the electric the whole deal look at the bottom of me they're
19:38sitting on railroad ties and i could not figure out what in the hell purpose that would serve
19:42and i told them they're going to be colder than the devil in winter and every skunk and raccoon
19:47and god knows what else going to set up shop underneath them well preston just looked at
19:51me and nodded didn't say a word about six months later tax assessor comes by my place and says
19:58have you seen these cabins they built next door i said i had and he asked me if i'd ever
20:02seen them
20:03move i said move what do you what do you mean move tax assessor says when he tried to put
20:09a value on
20:10them your husband said they was mobile homes you pick them up with a forklift and move them and asked
20:17me if i'd ever seen them be mobile well i told them yeah they haul them all over the place
20:22and if
20:23you look at the back of that outhouse your husband nailed tires from a shopping cart and said that
20:29son of a bitch was mobile too he did not want to pay any taxes i wondered what those were
20:35for
20:36preston always had issues with authority wheels on outhouse never seen anything like it no
20:45indian tacos good stuff awesome how about some of those cookies ah good choice
20:54i was thinking like three what's your mom gonna say about that my mom's not gonna say anything
21:01because she's not gonna see me eat him let's keep this between us i think that's a good idea
21:20thank you for today means more than you know someone had to do it for me i know what it
21:26means
21:28i'm sorry it had to be done we're flying out tonight girls have missed enough school and i have
21:35exhausted my wardrobe but i'd like to come back or dare i invite you to new york well the only
21:49way
21:49you get me to new york is if it seceded from the union that was drafted into the army to
21:53take it back
21:54okay you gotta go a little easier on my city money i'm not knocking it i'm just not going there
21:59fair
22:00enough then i'll come visit sure i mean it
22:09okay
22:12i mean it
22:20i'm a sheriff's deputy who makes 52 000 a year i have 12 000 in the bank and i'm about
22:26to spend six
22:27of it on a pretty average rope horse three nights a week i'm gonna load them in a trailer and
22:31drag
22:31them all over montana trying to win back what i spent on him in october i'm gonna take my boys
22:36in
22:36the mountains for a month and fill our freezer with elk i ain't never land on no beach i'm never
22:42going to europe or san francisco or any city bigger than billings ever
22:48what part of that sounds good to you none of it no walk me through your life what won't you
22:53change i don't have those kind of absolutes just walk me through it
23:00macy has gymnastics every morning from there i go to pilates from pilates i go to my therapist
23:07from my therapist i go to coffee with my girlfriends to talk about all the
23:10bullshit advice my therapist gave me then i pick up macy and i get bridget and we go to ballet
23:15we have recitals every friday night saturday morning we have competitions
23:19i take the girls the same parts for christmas italy for the month of july which
23:23you would love i will point out
23:30who feeds the horses isn't there a service for that you have to do it every day okay okay there
23:40is
23:40no future in this but you are tall and kind and fucking beautiful you are tall and kind and beautiful
23:47so can we just agree to fuck this up together and have as much sex as possible until until we
23:54can
23:55yeah you city girls do spell it out don't you yeah we we we get to the point yep we
24:00do you go from
24:01wondering when we're gonna see each other to wondering when you're gonna leave
24:06i think i'd rather just miss you
24:10i'm not gone yet you know what i mean so is this goodbye
24:17i think it's best oh wow
24:22let me just clarify that you are breaking up with me at my father's funeral we aren't together no no
24:30no we seemed pretty together yesterday when you were lying on top of me don't
24:33fucking abby me now you want to miss me is that what you want here's your fucking chance
25:09it's time to go home isn't it it's been time of money
25:16you
25:49when did your father die russell
25:53uh it'll be uh six years in april where is he buried uh my mother had him cremated
26:00yeah the plan was to spread his ashes at our place in montauk but
26:06he never did it i don't know why so he's sitting in a jar on our mantle which is an
26:12odd custom
26:16putting ashes in a jar above a fireplace full of ashes what do you miss most about him
26:27he used to call me every monday and uh tell me a joke really
26:34you still remember them oh yeah tell me one oh no no no yeah they um
26:40my father had a uh rather warped sense of humor yeah well at this point i'm pretty hard to offend
26:51okay
26:53okay um
26:57okay so there are four nuns driving in a van and the van goes off a cliff and they all
27:02die
27:03funny no no no that's i'm i'm getting sorry this is all just the setup yeah i got i got
27:08it yeah okay
27:09so they're standing at the pearly gates and saint peter looks them over and he says to the first
27:14nun this is your last chance to confess before you enter the gates of heaven and your conscience
27:19must be cleansed before you enter so the first nun thinks about it and she says well
27:26i used to sneak peeks at father riley in the shower saint peter says well you're a naughty one
27:31sister wash your eyes in this bowl of holy water and say five hail mary she does
27:37and the nun says sends her off to heaven so he looks at the second nun asks her the same
27:40thing
27:41she says well on occasion i would stroke father riley's member with my hand saint peter just shakes
27:48his head tells her to wash her hand in the bowl of holy water say ten hail mary's so she
27:53does
27:54lets her into heaven now the third nun steps up at the fourth nun grabs her throws her to the
28:00ground
28:00and steps up to the bowl of holy water saint peter says what on earth are you doing sister and
28:05the nun says i'm gonna wash my mouth out in this bowl before that bitch puts her ass in it
28:14i stand corrected russell i can still be offended that was very poorly chosen i'm sorry it was the
28:21first one that came to my mind i am so sorry i it's terrible common denominator where their problem
28:28seems to be father riley yeah he uh did get around ah what's in it vodka soda easy on the
28:36soda
28:37god bless you the meeting's stuffing at the gym at nine if you're up for it oh yeah exercise it's
28:45exactly what i need
28:49i see things didn't end well with a cowboy how's that look about it
28:58page has been quiet i think this is going to be hardest on her i'm afraid how so when you've
29:07dedicated
29:07your entire life to gaining the attention of one person what is your purpose when that person is gone
29:16the girls are handling it well at least yeah well they're too young to know the difference
29:21just one less present at christmas
29:27i know an excellent therapist stacy you're my therapist you're my best friend i'm incapable of
29:37being impartial speaking to someone who can look at the situation with clarity and with zero opinion
29:43what i need is opinion if i want to know what the book on death says i'll buy the fucking
29:49book
30:13okay
30:14I love you.
30:50I love you.
31:24I love you.
31:46I love you.
31:47We're doing a charcuterie board from Ely.
31:49And the pizzas from Joe's?
31:51One of us is thinking about your cholesterol.
31:54Pizzas are for Paul.
31:55It's the one thing he misses about this city.
32:00Look at you.
32:02Look at me what?
32:03Men are such children.
32:05Well, this should be interesting.
32:07You are.
32:08You have the same look on your face, pulling out those nasty boots as an 11-year-old pulling out
32:13his baseball cleats.
32:14It's the same look you get when Gucci has a sale.
32:17That's different.
32:18That's me saving you money.
32:19You know, this is proof of the genetic distinction between men and women.
32:24Tell me, oh love of my life, all the ways how when you buy something on sale, it saves me
32:31money.
32:31I'm going to buy the damn thing no matter what.
32:33Waiting for the sale is how much I love you.
32:38That almost makes sense.
32:39It makes perfect sense once you accept the inevitability of the purchase.
32:48Why do you do that?
32:50What?
32:52Is your little mountain mistress the jealous type?
32:57You want to know?
32:58I do want to know.
33:00I really want to know.
33:02Because I lost it once.
33:04Fell off in the river.
33:05I spent two days looking for it.
33:07I'm not going through that shit again.
33:08So if I put it right there, I can't lose it.
33:13Panicked, were you?
33:16Terrified.
33:17It's nice to see I still have that effect.
33:20Oh boy, do you ever, baby.
33:42Come on.
33:51Oh my god.
33:53Oh my god.
34:14Oh, Madison Avenue.
34:17How did they get the name, do you think?
34:22I always assumed James Madison.
34:24Oh.
34:24The president.
34:25Yeah.
34:26Of course, that would make sense.
34:27Yeah.
34:30I suppose they named the Madison River after him as well.
34:34Where is the Madison River?
34:36Montana.
34:39Where your husband spent time?
34:42Mm-hmm.
34:46Is that where he died?
34:48No, he died on another river.
34:50Actually, no, he died on a mountain.
34:55No, no river involved at all.
35:03How do you feel when you tell me that?
35:06How do you think I feel?
35:08I don't presume to know.
35:10That's why I asked.
35:11Isn't that your job?
35:14Like, tell me how I feel.
35:17My job is to help you understand how you feel.
35:20Mm.
35:22More so, my job is to help you understand
35:24the behaviors that those feelings elicit.
35:29Mm.
35:33And how would you describe my present behavior?
35:39Hostile.
35:42Hostile?
35:43Mistrusting.
35:45Which I understand.
35:48You don't know me.
35:51And yet, here you are, in theory,
35:54willing to expose
35:56your most personal thoughts
35:58and intimate feelings.
36:01Trust me
36:02in my interpretation
36:04of those feelings and behaviors
36:09to guide your decision-making
36:11in the future.
36:12My decision-making?
36:13What decisions are we questioning?
36:15I'm not questioning anything.
36:16No, you are the one who said it.
36:18My husband died.
36:20The love of my life.
36:22The father of my children.
36:24My center, my soul, is gone.
36:29If you, by chance,
36:31have happened upon
36:32any information
36:33that might assist me
36:35in mitigating the desire
36:37to claw my eyes out
36:38with a fucking spoon
36:40to get rid of the pain,
36:42I sure would appreciate that.
36:46But I do not need you staring at me
36:48like I'm some bored housewife
36:50trying to justify her affair
36:52with her fucking tennis coach.
36:54I know those women.
36:55Plenty of them.
36:56I am not one of them.
37:01I am hurting.
37:03And I would like
37:05some help
37:06with that.
37:07If you can.
37:09If you can't,
37:13then I'll leave early.
37:15And you can keep
37:17the fucking change.
37:25You care for a drink?
37:29I would love one.
37:38Don't normally do this.
37:40Spend most of my time
37:42convincing my clients
37:43not to self-medicate.
37:47Don't mind whiskey?
37:48I don't give a shit
37:49what it is.
38:11What you need is this.
38:13A lot of this.
38:15Not this.
38:17A lot of talking.
38:19And yelling.
38:21And crying.
38:21A lot of it.
38:22And often.
38:25And in time.
38:28Those memories
38:29will become fond again.
38:31They won't hurt
38:32to recall them.
38:35And you'll
38:37laugh.
38:41Will you love again?
38:43Maybe.
38:45I don't have any idea
38:46if that's something you want.
38:50Will you ever be whole again?
38:52Will you feel
38:53like you did before you died?
38:58No.
39:00But you know that.
39:03But you will heal
39:05if you let yourself.
39:07You will have as much life
39:08to live
39:09as you allow yourself.
39:15Or you'll have none.
39:20You'll have no life.
39:25does that make sense?
39:32Okay.
39:38Why don't you finish your drink
39:39and let me have it?
39:42Seriously.
39:43Come on.
39:43Give it your best shot.
39:50You're a terrible therapist.
39:52Do you know that?
39:53Yeah.
39:54With that
39:54smug fucking sweater.
39:58You really like saying fuck,
39:59don't you?
40:00I know.
40:02I find it quite
40:06liberating
40:06at the moment.
40:08Good.
40:09Say it again.
40:11Fuck you.
40:12Are we going to do
40:13trust falls next,
40:13you fucking quack?
40:17It's a really good place
40:18to start.
40:19Come on.
40:19Keep it coming.
40:20Let's go.
40:21I'm serious.
40:27I'm
40:28thinking about it.
40:29I'm
40:29considering it.
40:32I know,
40:33I know,
40:33I know,
40:33I'm running away,
40:35running away
40:36from my problems.
40:37This problem
40:38goes with me,
40:38so I'm not
40:39running
40:40from anything.
40:43Would I miss
40:44my daughters?
40:46Honestly,
40:46I don't,
40:48I don't know.
40:49And part of me
40:50thinks it would be
40:50better for them,
40:52you know,
40:52live their own lives.
40:55Maybe they could
40:55move with you.
40:57I mean,
40:57it doesn't sound like
40:58either of them
40:58are bound to the city.
41:00That's what I
41:00said.
41:01My oldest daughter
41:02needs it.
41:03I
41:05actually threatened
41:06to cut her off
41:07if she didn't.
41:08That's not very nice.
41:10Oh,
41:11what do they teach?
41:13Sarcasm
41:13in therapy school
41:14these days?
41:16Well,
41:17if by therapy school
41:18you mean Dartmouth,
41:19then yeah,
41:19they kind of
41:20invented it there.
41:26Do you think
41:26I should?
41:30not my place
41:31to say,
41:31but
41:35I think
41:35you should
41:36consider it
41:37and I'll tell you
41:38why.
41:39Because you are
41:40actively weighing
41:40your future
41:42and the consequences
41:43are your choices
41:43in that future
41:44and that's healthy.
41:45That's good for your soul.
41:46So whether you
41:47actually do it
41:47is irrelevant,
41:49but you should
41:50seriously consider it.
41:51you should consider
41:53moving to Europe.
41:55Spend a year
41:56traveling.
41:57You've got
41:58the financial means,
41:59no responsibilities
42:00here preventing it.
42:01You should consider
42:03everything.
42:06Wish I could have met him.
42:08Must have been
42:09a hell of a man.
42:10Because you are
42:11a hell of a woman.
42:12You know who you are
42:13and you're not ashamed
42:14of it.
42:15And this,
42:16yelling and crying
42:17and pondering,
42:18this is what you're
42:19supposed to be doing.
42:20This is grieving.
42:22This is accepting
42:23an immeasurable loss
42:24in your life
42:25and racking your brain
42:26to try to find
42:27a way to survive it.
42:30And you will.
42:35Thank you,
42:35Phil.
42:38Wow,
42:38this has been
42:42pleasantly cathartic.
42:43I took one look
42:44at that sweater
42:45and I had very little
42:46faith in you,
42:46but you,
42:48you overcame it.
42:50Turns out,
42:51you don't suck
42:52at your job.
42:53Well,
42:54that
42:55is wildly offensive.
42:59Same time tomorrow?
43:00I'm thinking afternoon.
43:02I still got five clients
43:04and I'm pretty drunk.
43:05I think you are a client
43:06to end the day with,
43:07not begin one.
43:08Bye.
43:09See you at happy hour.
43:12Bye.
43:40Who's your realtor?
43:42Yeah.
43:44No matter what I do,
43:44I can't stay here.
43:45Lily,
43:46I can smell him.
43:48Hold on,
43:49hold on.
43:52Is everything okay?
43:53So,
43:54um,
43:55Paige is,
43:56is,
43:56is in bed
43:57and she won't talk
43:58and she can't stop crying
44:00and she's,
44:01well,
44:01she's hyperventilating
44:02and I feel like I should
44:03call an ambulance,
44:03but I don't,
44:04like,
44:05I feel like that might
44:05make her worse.
44:06You're right,
44:07you're right.
44:07It would.
44:08I'll be there
44:08in 15 minutes.
44:09Call Abby.
44:10Okay,
44:10okay,
44:11call on your name.
44:39Is she in the bedroom?
44:39Yeah.
44:44Uh,
44:46do you have any sweets?
44:48Sweets?
44:49Okay,
44:50get some ice cream,
44:51Rocky Road
44:52and buy some chocolate chips.
44:54Put three scoops
44:55in a glass of milk,
44:56put the chocolate chips
44:56on top and
44:57and then just bring it
44:59to me with a spoon.
44:59That sounds,
45:00uh,
45:01disgusting to start.
45:02I wasn't asking
45:02your opinion of it,
45:03Russell.
45:09I got Rocky Road.
45:11Desperate times,
45:12call for desperate measures.
45:13Grab chocolate chips.
45:14The shitty ones,
45:15like she likes.
45:16Well,
45:17looks like all we need
45:17from you
45:18is a cup,
45:19Russell.
45:19Give it to her.
45:20She knows how to make it.
45:21Got it.
45:21Okay.
45:25Hey, hey, hey, hey.
45:26Hey, it's okay.
45:27It's okay.
45:28It's okay.
45:29It's okay.
45:29It's okay.
45:30You know what this is?
45:32It's how much you love them
45:34and your body
45:34just doesn't know
45:35where to put all that love now.
45:37Okay,
45:37but you don't have
45:38to put it anywhere
45:39and you don't have
45:40to stop loving someone
45:41when they're gone.
45:42In fact,
45:43one could argue
45:44that you should love them more
45:46and here's a sad fact of life.
45:51You will feel this way again.
45:53Yeah,
45:54when I die,
45:55when your husband dies
45:56and your friends
45:57and,
45:58and someday
45:59your children
46:00will feel this way
46:01about you.
46:03Thanks, Mom.
46:04I feel so much better.
46:06I come bearing gifts.
46:08I'm not hungry.
46:10It's not food.
46:11It is a drug.
46:12It is sugar
46:13and chocolate
46:14in a mixture
46:15that only your metabolism
46:16can process
46:16in a way
46:17that doesn't end up
46:17on your hips
46:18and I hate you
46:19and I hate you for it.
46:23I used to eat this
46:24when I was like five.
46:25Well,
46:26you still act five,
46:26so.
46:31Fuck you
46:32and your bad roots.
46:33No,
46:33she's back.
46:34I don't understand it.
46:37It's the crunch
46:39with the cold
46:40and the mushy
46:40of the ice cream.
46:43the explanation
46:44doesn't sell it,
46:45Paige.
46:46No.
46:47You got her.
46:49I got her,
46:50but I cannot stay the night.
46:51I can stay the night.
47:02This is my favorite thing ever.
47:04I know.
47:17Is she okay?
47:20Yeah,
47:21she will be.
47:24Is there a decent bar
47:26near here?
47:28There's a
47:29there's a dive bar
47:31around the corner.
47:32Well,
47:34Soho's version
47:35of a dive bar.
47:51What's this place called?
47:54Um,
47:54I don't know.
47:55I'm not sure
47:56it has a name.
48:10What's the name
48:11of this place?
48:12Name?
48:13Uh,
48:14people just
48:14call it the bar
48:16or the bar
48:16down the street,
48:17something like that.
48:18No name?
48:18Not that I'm aware of,
48:19no?
48:20What does your paycheck say?
48:23XT Enterprises LLC
48:25or some shit.
48:28Okay.
48:29So,
48:30bar just
48:32doesn't have a name.
48:33No name.
48:33What can I get you?
48:35Oh, God.
48:36I'm, uh,
48:37I am not in the mood
48:37to make any decisions.
48:40Martini?
48:41Uh,
48:42that is a cocktail
48:42and this is the furthest place
48:44from a cocktail bar,
48:45so.
48:45True that.
48:46Um,
48:46how about an Irish car bomb?
48:48I have no idea
48:50what that is.
48:51Trust me.
48:51Okay.
48:52What about you?
48:53What kind of amber ales
48:55do you want?
48:55That'll be two
48:56Irish car bombs.
48:57Yeah,
48:57bigger style.
48:58Two Irish car bombs.
48:59I have to work in the morning.
49:00It's one drink,
49:01Russell.
49:07Oh,
49:08I didn't see that coming.
49:09Oh,
49:10gosh.
49:10Apologies,
49:12Russell.
49:13This is gonna hurt.
49:17All right.
49:19Great.
49:21You gotta,
49:23yeah,
49:23yeah.
49:32It went down
49:33the wrong pipe.
49:36I have a
49:36bad gag reflex.
49:38No,
49:39no,
49:39I'm not,
49:39I'm,
49:40I'm not laughing at that.
49:42What then?
49:44Oh,
49:45life.
49:47Not a choice
49:48as people make.
49:49Don't get me wrong.
49:51She made a good one
49:52with you.
49:55What are your dreams?
49:59Dreams?
50:00Or,
50:01you know,
50:02aspirations,
50:03might be a better word,
50:05for your life,
50:06for my daughter.
50:08I mean,
50:09what,
50:09you know,
50:09we,
50:10we just got the townhouse,
50:11so.
50:12Yeah,
50:12well,
50:12that's a purchase,
50:13not a dream.
50:16Have you two
50:18talked about
50:19starting a family?
50:21You know,
50:22Paige,
50:22she just got down
50:23to a size zero
50:24and she worked
50:25really hard for it.
50:26Russell,
50:26Russell,
50:27independent thoughts.
50:28Do you have any?
50:31Yeah,
50:32I mean,
50:32I guess I want,
50:32I want to have kids.
50:34Mm-hmm.
50:35Okay.
50:35I don't want to raise them
50:36and I want to,
50:38I want to move out of town,
50:40you know,
50:40where they can have a normal,
50:41you know,
50:42trick-or-treat
50:43and play baseball
50:45and run out on the street,
50:47you know?
50:47No,
50:48I don't know.
50:48No,
50:49I don't know.
50:49I raised mine here.
50:51All right.
50:52Well,
50:52that would be my dream.
50:55What about when they're grown?
50:58What's the dream then?
51:00I don't know.
51:01I don't know.
51:02I,
51:02I haven't gotten that far.
51:03Yeah,
51:04well,
51:04then you need a new dream.
51:08Honestly,
51:08I always thought of you
51:09and Creston as the dream.
51:15So did I,
51:15Russell.
51:20But that dream is over.
51:24Well,
51:24I guess we both need a new one.
51:29Yeah.
51:41And I'll see you.
51:44Fuck you.
51:45Oh yeah.
51:54Oh yeah.
51:55Oh yeah.
51:57Oh yeah.
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