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00:00:14I just don't know if it's like there for me like I feel like sex is a big thing mm
00:00:21-hmm I
00:00:22felt like we could get over but I could get past that you know she's such a great person I
00:00:27care
00:00:28about her and I know how you can feel about me and I was like well I feel like we
00:00:34could get past that
00:00:35like part maybe some way and now I'm like I don't want to like fake something but like the more
00:00:46like
00:00:46we do that it's like I never not talk to this person
00:00:57but like over the past two days I was thinking about it about like what it would be like if
00:01:03I was with that person too just thinking about it what person the number two person I had
00:01:10just thinking about it not about it I'm just being honest like my thoughts I was like
00:01:14what would that look like and it probably I don't know maybe it'd be up in flames you know what
00:01:19I mean
00:01:20mm-hmm that person I'm just saying like these are just thoughts in my head yeah I mean all of
00:01:31these things are really hard to hear okay I figured they would be I just feel like the past two
00:01:38days
00:01:38I've had enough time to like think about like
00:01:46fucking long term five ten yeah fifteen twenty years and it's like I feel like it's hard but
00:01:53like that doesn't mean like how I felt like that was all like true like everything like how I felt
00:01:59about you it's very true I just I don't want to be like sad about it like I want to
00:02:16like continue
00:02:16like trying like figuring this out because I feel like we have fun together
00:02:26right
00:02:29I don't know how I'm supposed to be like fun now oh wow okay I feel really stupid why
00:02:41why honestly the fact that
00:02:47me not working out every day is even a sentence that came up in this conversation is blowing my mind
00:02:52oh my gosh it's not even what I meant by that well it's what you said
00:02:57it's I mean I'm just trying to like I'm not saying like people I would date before like that's
00:03:01the things they would do and like that's the things like I would well I just go after work at
00:03:06the hospital every day sorry I understand I was very upfront about that from beginning this there
00:03:11was no like illusion that I was gonna be going to Pilates every day I understand and it makes me
00:03:17feel
00:03:17like shit too like not good enough in a way that like I can't control feel very like inadequate
00:03:33three days ago if you had told me like that I would question if you I would be like you're
00:03:37fucking insane
00:03:38like this man has treated me better than anyone ever has and like he's told me that he's in love
00:03:44with me like he's told me that he wants a future with me and so today it's really fucked with
00:03:48my head
00:03:48to go from like thinking that you think I'm like the best fucking thing in the world to being like
00:03:53well
00:04:00if my body isn't good enough for you like I'm never gonna be like oh please still love me
00:04:05that's not what I'm here for now I'm standing here alone
00:04:14everything I knew has turned to stone
00:04:20I feel like I just need to go home
00:04:36love was absolutely blind for me I was madly in love with Chris like I genuinely believed that
00:04:42this was the person I was gonna spend the rest of my life with with him doing this like complete
00:04:47180
00:04:47and feeling like a different person I could never look at him the same I'm extremely disappointed I'm
00:04:54extremely hurt but I know I'll be okay I've always been okay I will take care of myself I have
00:05:01a
00:05:01wonderful life and I don't want to be with somebody unless they're just gonna make it better
00:05:26I believe love is blind I mean I fell in love with someone without seeing them and
00:05:29literally wanted to spend the rest of my life with them but when two people want to fornicate
00:05:33or have sex it might not be a big deal to a lot of people it might people say it's
00:05:375% 10%
00:05:38relationship like to me like I get it when you're 90 years old everyone's not gonna look good I get
00:05:43it but I'm not 90 I'm disappointed how it turned out and like she said she didn't work out I
00:05:50get it
00:05:50it's fine but Brie was my number two and it's like you know maybe that's someone like I would be
00:05:58more attracted to and I thought maybe I could say some of those things without feeling like I was
00:06:04being the bad person there and I was wrong if she doesn't like the way I feel and she feels
00:06:10like
00:06:10she can't be with me because the way I feel then it's what it is
00:06:30your sweatshirt and sweatpants are on the bed
00:06:31I saw that thank you how good does that feel to have all the laundry done
00:06:35I'm not gonna say it out loud but doing like these chores to make sure it looks nice is
00:06:42oh he just is appreciating the finer things in life like a clean house
00:06:49and it smells good
00:06:50I do I told I said positive
00:06:55I'm saying you are
00:06:57you've been away from me all day oh no what are you gonna do you what are you gonna do
00:07:05when I go
00:07:05back tomorrow cry well maybe just make a bunch of money and I can just stay at home you're gonna
00:07:13stay here forever I'll be I don't think I'll have to go to the office before the
00:07:21wedding but probably wait you have to go in the office sometimes once a month
00:07:26we have once a month meetings and it's just all the higher-ups so
00:07:34I swear to God you are a treat
00:07:39I get no one I need to okay it's called efficiency
00:07:42and delegation true just like how we delegating our chores around here
00:07:49I gotta I gotta we're managing a household do you realize that and tonight we're gonna make dinner
00:07:54you're our first dinner here in the apartment
00:07:58there's that sizzle oh yeah baby just please be careful
00:08:02I will
00:08:09okay let's just maybe choose a different tool
00:08:11this is the butter it is hard as a rock okay yeah it probably needs to be warmed up
00:08:20Connor it's in plastic for like 20 seconds it's gonna be fine
00:08:26I'm gonna get cancer living with you
00:08:29maybe I'm just kind of an idiot sometimes
00:08:33I secretly think that you're like the house dad of like a fraternity
00:08:37I'm not I wasn't even in a fraternity
00:08:40well you should have been
00:08:42why be in one when you can just do it in your 30s
00:08:44you're like
00:08:46sassy
00:08:46yeah
00:08:47yeah
00:08:47sometimes a little mean
00:08:48okay
00:08:50I need some eye
00:08:57look at what you're capable of
00:08:59a clean place
00:09:01look at him he's cooking he's doing it
00:09:06come on now I need to be nicer you're right that's good feedback
00:09:10but I might as well I just got a text from Joss
00:09:14I got a text from Chris
00:09:21what
00:09:23what did he say say he's going home
00:09:29let me just check in
00:09:31I'm sure when Chris is done with him I'm on a chat so
00:09:38wow
00:09:38we are good good friends to our friends
00:09:47my mind souped up car down mountain
00:09:51can't stop racing
00:09:53you show me up
00:09:54I'm going to show you up
00:09:55I'll see about that
00:09:57you're too strong
00:10:01oh no
00:10:02wait did we put a wager on this
00:10:04oh that's the one
00:10:05you let me win one
00:10:07I'm a sore loser
00:10:11perfect
00:10:12you're being nice to me now
00:10:13yeah I gotta give you one hole
00:10:15I kind of want all of them but
00:10:16I really set myself up for that one
00:10:18you did you did
00:10:20good shot
00:10:21she's back
00:10:22she never left
00:10:24look at you
00:10:24it's not easy having our first fight but we come back and we're our old selves
00:10:30got it
00:10:31look at you impressing me
00:10:32you like me
00:10:33I do
00:10:33he likes me people
00:10:34I do I do I do
00:10:35I do
00:10:36Lucas
00:10:37give me that
00:10:38give me that
00:10:38with my sexual frustrations
00:10:40after tonight
00:10:42there is a great chance that need will be met
00:10:46it may have already been met
00:10:49I have to get this in the hole
00:10:50that's the one
00:10:51please don't tell my parents
00:10:54that's the speed
00:10:54nice work
00:11:02where are we at babe
00:11:03that's the building that I work in
00:11:05so I could like come here and have one with you
00:11:07be cool yeah
00:11:08okay
00:11:08sit out here
00:11:11it's really neat like getting to see Fig in this real life situation
00:11:16Dr. St. John
00:11:18so you clip these on
00:11:20they can hear the audio
00:11:21teach them
00:11:22they raise hands
00:11:23I'm gonna come sit up in one of these corners one day
00:11:27also I want to show him all the hearts
00:11:30you know of my life because it got me to where I am now
00:11:34so we're on our way to where
00:11:36you don't have to look because I know you're driving
00:11:39Hillsboro, Ohio
00:11:41Hillsboro, Ohio
00:11:42yes
00:11:43the hometown
00:11:44hometown
00:11:46you want to show them the scenery of where we're headed
00:11:48yeah let me show you where we at
00:11:50because if I go missing
00:11:53country just let me know
00:11:54it's a big deal you know I don't I don't bring anyone to my hometown to see where I grew
00:11:59up
00:12:00I'm all for it
00:12:01horse and bucky time
00:12:03you know I used to be really insecure and embarrassed about where I came from
00:12:07this is where the cow died in the pernative
00:12:09in the air
00:12:10like
00:12:12there's a part of me that was like
00:12:15am I good enough for him
00:12:16why would he choose me
00:12:18we're in your hometown
00:12:20you want to call with that
00:12:23didn't ask for much
00:12:26what is one of the best things about growing up out here
00:12:32something that helped make you who you are today
00:12:37just playing outside and getting to be a kid
00:12:41we had to make our own fun and explore and learn and grow and do things a lot differently than
00:12:47you do in the city
00:12:47yeah
00:12:48yeah
00:12:49past the spot I used to play
00:12:51round the corner where I got my first kiss
00:12:56like people would sneak beer and we'd sit in the back of cars and trucks and hang out in the
00:13:01bowling alley parking lot
00:13:02we should go bow
00:13:03yeah
00:13:04are you when you're going to bowl
00:13:05all right
00:13:07so that's when you're born
00:13:10there you go big guy
00:13:15first interaction with the horde
00:13:17all right
00:13:18I know right
00:13:19uh
00:13:20beautiful
00:13:21seeing him
00:13:23really taking the experience
00:13:25he just he feels like home and he has from day one and I know that I'm going to be
00:13:29so comfortable and so happy with him
00:13:31you've been wearing flannel today
00:13:32yeah I can see
00:13:34my love is coming home
00:13:38my love is coming home
00:13:43my love is coming home
00:13:46hey mom
00:13:47good to see ya
00:13:48this is Amber
00:13:49you too Amber
00:13:49nice to meet you
00:13:50so nice to meet you
00:13:51we brought you a little gift
00:13:53oh my goodness
00:13:54you guys are so nice
00:13:55oh of course you brought a gift
00:13:57we heard you like plants
00:13:58I love plants
00:13:59I love that
00:14:01you look so pretty
00:14:02thank you
00:14:03I love your outfit
00:14:04thank you
00:14:05I see your ring
00:14:07oh my gosh that's beautiful
00:14:09thank you
00:14:10I know he did a good job
00:14:11so pretty
00:14:13George's always been the little baby brother
00:14:15they were all his mother hands
00:14:17yes
00:14:17I used to have to babysit you and you were so mean you'd pull my hair
00:14:21ah
00:14:22oh my gosh
00:14:23you're so mean to me
00:14:24sorry
00:14:27how old is your daughter
00:14:28seven
00:14:29my I have a son
00:14:30will be seven in April
00:14:31so
00:14:31that's what he was saying
00:14:32we both have boys
00:14:33so they
00:14:35Jordan would call him fun uncle
00:14:37yeah
00:14:38they like to beat up on him
00:14:40and climb on him
00:14:41yeah
00:14:41oh yeah
00:14:43have you got to meet her yet
00:14:44Emma
00:14:44no
00:14:45I just met um
00:14:46Matt who's the father of Emma
00:14:49good
00:14:49doing well
00:14:51awesome
00:14:51do you think you guys would ever have kids together
00:14:55we've talked about it
00:14:56we don't have kids
00:14:58I think you'd be like an amazing dad
00:14:59you would
00:15:01I've never met anybody that I've thought about having kids with
00:15:03besides her
00:15:05besides her
00:15:05aw
00:15:07how do you feel about meeting my mom?
00:15:10I'm excited now
00:15:10yeah
00:15:11I'm a little nervous
00:15:12like when she doesn't like me
00:15:1429
00:15:15did you know he had a CPAP machine before you went to Cabo hopefully?
00:15:19yeah
00:15:20he's like busted out
00:15:21you look over and he's like
00:15:23Darth Vader
00:15:25she sees that every morning
00:15:27it was the highlight of the day
00:15:29oh my god
00:15:31feels like he's shaving his back
00:15:32what?
00:15:34that is true love
00:15:35there you go
00:15:35I think the hairy hairy guy
00:15:37you gotta do
00:15:39you have to shave his butt too?
00:15:41I think he's with people
00:15:41oh
00:15:41yeah
00:15:41laughing
00:15:46here
00:15:47I want you here
00:15:48hear
00:15:49hear every night
00:15:51I want you there
00:15:53there by my side
00:15:56I want you here
00:15:59hear every nightδή
00:16:02e
00:16:04euh
00:16:05Mm.
00:16:07Nasty?
00:16:08No, why would I go, mm, because it's gross.
00:16:13Hopefully it's good, I only tried the broccoli.
00:16:18Thank you for cooking.
00:16:20You're welcome.
00:16:22Oh, the chicken's good.
00:16:23Is it?
00:16:24Mm-hmm.
00:16:25I did it medium rare tonight.
00:16:30For a chicken, isn't it?
00:16:32You wanna kill us?
00:16:34We won't make it to a wedding or we'll be deathly ill.
00:16:38I need to look slim in my suit.
00:16:39Mm-hmm.
00:16:40So we should get a big maculine?
00:16:42No, I'm just kidding.
00:16:44Your eyes.
00:16:45You haven't looked at me like that since the reveal.
00:16:49Like, oh my god, what am I doing?
00:16:52Doesn't that feel so long ago?
00:16:54Yeah, sight unseen.
00:16:57You help me to cover my face so you don't have to look at me?
00:17:00We can act like we're in the pods.
00:17:04Oh my gosh.
00:17:06Um, this is uncomfortable for me, but I don't feel as secure as I did in the pods with you.
00:17:18I don't like that you don't ever really tell me that I'm pretty because I don't know if
00:17:22you're attracted to me. Like, you just compliment my clothes.
00:17:26Complimenting me, it gives me security like that you find me attractive and you want me.
00:17:32And I don't always necessarily feel like you do.
00:17:35In Cabo, you know, when I did compliment, like, your bathing suit, like, I was starting
00:17:40to, like, open up you. I don't remember the exact comment, but it was just like, you haven't
00:17:44called me pretty. And then internally for me, I'm just like, okay, well, now I don't want
00:17:49to because, like, you're forcing me. Then I was like, well, now I don't feel like it's
00:17:53genuine if I say anything. If it's felt distance or I haven't felt like physical touch is because,
00:17:59like, I've been putting up these walls because now I feel like if I do it, it's only because
00:18:03you told me. And in my head, I'm like, if I do it, I feel like that's what you're going
00:18:07to say. When I do make comments or I compliment something, for me, what would help is, like,
00:18:13leaving, like, the small comment aside. I feel like I go in defense mode because I'm like,
00:18:19okay, I'm not going to try if it's not being reciprocated. Yeah. And I think for me, it's just
00:18:25like addressing it how we address it tonight instead of saying, like, you never call
00:18:28me pretty. Just to be like, is everything okay? Like, I just want to make sure that
00:18:33you are, like, in more of, like, a conversation instead of, like, a small comment. I think
00:18:39for me, it does a lot. I think we can easily get through this stuff and, like, figure it
00:18:43out. But that's what would help me. And I obviously know helping you would be, like, doing it and,
00:18:49like, saying it, so.
00:18:54I think something that I need to do is start projecting my past relationship insecurities
00:19:01on you. And I think that also means that I have some work I need to do outside of us.
00:19:08Yeah. But I hear you. And I will work on not projecting my hurt on you. Thank you. I know
00:19:20it's not easy. Well, this was therapeutic because apparently both of us have been feeling some type
00:19:27of weight and not seen. But it explains a lot. Yeah. I think you are very pretty. I love that
00:19:37you, like, have, like, natural beauty. And it's not, like, makeup. You know me. I'm a very simple
00:19:42man. So I think that's beautiful that you are beautiful in your own skin. And I do really
00:19:49like your lashes. They're very voluptuous. And your soft, your soft curly hair. I love your
00:19:56height. Really? Yeah, because I can hide my snacks in the big cupboards. So I think it's really
00:20:05attractive. And your smile is contagious. Thanks. You're welcome. Thank you.
00:20:25Big Dome. Yo. What up? How are you? Good to see you. Hanging in there? Yeah. Talk to me.
00:20:35She doesn't want to do this anymore. I don't know if, like, the physical connection's there
00:20:41yet. And if that can grow. You're attracted to her, though, right?
00:20:46Um, yeah. I mean, she's beautiful. Good looking.
00:20:49But, um, I was just trying to be honest. She, I assume, didn't really take it well.
00:20:54No. Not at all. And I didn't say, like, I wanted to be done.
00:20:59Did she say she wants to be done? Uh, yeah. I think so.
00:21:04Like, she said that. She's like, I'm done?
00:21:05I mean, it's what it sounded like. Sounded like, but not actually.
00:21:09So there's, have you tried reaching out to her? Um, she's like, I can't be around you
00:21:14anymore, basically. So.
00:21:22That sucks. I didn't say I wanted to be done with it. Yeah.
00:21:25But I just said we need to work on these things. Okay.
00:21:28Um, but I think she thinks I'm just going to be going through the motions.
00:21:31I mean, you guys talked for 50 hours. Yeah, literally.
00:21:35And Cabo was, Cabo was great. Cabo was fun with you, too?
00:21:37I mean, how do you not have done that, right?
00:21:39I don't know. But, like, also, we found our person to do it with, which makes me more fun.
00:21:42That's what I mean.
00:21:42Like, Cabo was going to be fun regardless, but, like, doing it with your person,
00:21:45there's just, like, no better feeling.
00:21:48So.
00:21:50Yeah.
00:21:51Fuck, man.
00:21:52I appreciate that. I just, um.
00:21:55Yeah, you two are awesome, too. That's the other thing.
00:21:57It's, like, it's frustrating, just because, like, I saw how much love there was between you guys.
00:22:00And how much love there definitely still is.
00:22:03And she was a great friend of Brie, too.
00:22:06So she is this great friend of Brie, like, both of you guys.
00:22:08So it's, like, we want to see you guys do well and stay together, obviously,
00:22:13and do what's best for you, too.
00:22:16So.
00:22:18Yeah.
00:22:20Couples fight all the time, and it sucks that this got to the level where it's at.
00:22:23But, like, give it a day or two, I think.
00:22:26Yeah, I think, uh.
00:22:27Maybe send her, like, a, just, uh, even, like, a letter or something, not just a text.
00:22:32Just, like, why you were feeling how you're feeling about her,
00:22:36that you're not just going through the motions.
00:22:38Mm-hmm.
00:22:39Yeah.
00:22:40Or that you still want to continue things.
00:22:41There's nothing more that I want to do is, like, continue with you type stuff.
00:22:44So, honestly, whatever you're feeling, put that in writing.
00:22:48If you just give it your 100% effort, like, you can at least sleep at night.
00:22:56Yeah, dude, I like that idea.
00:22:57No, definitely, um, take that advice.
00:23:00You got your room.
00:23:01Obviously, call me if you need anything.
00:23:03Yeah.
00:23:04Let me know.
00:23:04Yeah, yeah, maybe I'll be with Jess and we can all go on double date or something.
00:23:07Dude, I hope.
00:23:08I hope.
00:23:08If I see her, I'm going to talk to Chris.
00:23:11We love you guys.
00:23:12Uh, all right, dude.
00:23:14We're rooting for you.
00:23:15All right, dude.
00:23:15See ya.
00:23:19Write your thoughts down.
00:23:20Yep.
00:23:21Yep.
00:23:29Hey.
00:23:30Hey, my boy.
00:23:31This is the place.
00:23:34And this is my fiancee, Ashley.
00:23:36Hi.
00:23:36Good.
00:23:36Ashley, this is my mom.
00:23:37Hi.
00:23:38So good to meet you.
00:23:39Good to meet you.
00:23:39I've heard so much about you.
00:23:41A little about you.
00:23:43Look at the color.
00:23:45Welcome to our home.
00:23:47Where are you coming from?
00:23:48You were in, like, Arizona or Montana when we called you?
00:23:51What's the news?
00:23:52It's always a crap shoot.
00:23:54I was in, uh, Arizona, when we called you.
00:23:56I know.
00:23:57Well, he's like, I travel all around.
00:23:58I was like, so your mom is the same way.
00:24:00I am.
00:24:01Yes, I may have instilled that in him a little.
00:24:03Sorry.
00:24:03That's okay.
00:24:05So you drive commercial trucks?
00:24:06I do.
00:24:07Yeah, I drive a semi with a car hauler on the back and whatever we can.
00:24:12That's insane.
00:24:13Yeah.
00:24:13Yeah, I was test driving tractors for a while up to Alaska and back.
00:24:18Oh, that looks beautiful.
00:24:20Ashley, did you put that together?
00:24:22So, do you ride motorcycles?
00:24:24I do not.
00:24:25Would you?
00:24:26I've been on a motorcycle.
00:24:27I have never driven one.
00:24:29This is where I get it from, obviously.
00:24:30Yeah.
00:24:30You can kind of see, like, the traveling bouncing around.
00:24:33Experiences, to me, are what are important.
00:24:35Yeah.
00:24:35Things are not important.
00:24:37You know, I know we live our lives a little differently than a lot of people,
00:24:42although I think, you know, the nomadic lifestyle is kind of coming into vogue, maybe.
00:24:47I don't know, but have you done much traveling?
00:24:50No.
00:24:51So that's something that appealed about Alex, is, like, I haven't traveled a lot,
00:24:54and I've always wanted to travel and explore.
00:24:57He loves the exploring.
00:24:59He always had my support on that.
00:25:00Absolutely.
00:25:01Go travel now.
00:25:02We've talked about, like, planting roots, either in Arizona or Florida.
00:25:06Do you think he's capable of staying in one place for...
00:25:08Yeah, much more than I am.
00:25:10She's more of a planner.
00:25:11Like, I mean, I plan things out, but...
00:25:13I'm a Virgo.
00:25:14I'm not go with the flow.
00:25:15I definitely like to plan.
00:25:16It's not a weakness.
00:25:17Yeah.
00:25:18It's just how does it fit together with the other person.
00:25:22He compliments that very well with me.
00:25:23Like, he'll just look at me and be like, we got this.
00:25:25Like, shut up.
00:25:28Respectfully.
00:25:29And I'll be like, okay.
00:25:30Most of the time.
00:25:32He yelled at me because I organized the water bottles in the fridge.
00:25:35No, no, rephrase that, rephrase that.
00:25:37I put them in.
00:25:38In rows, ready to go.
00:25:40Wow, I'm impressed.
00:25:41I know.
00:25:42I was impressed, I was impressed.
00:25:43And then I opened them up again.
00:25:44I was like, you flipped those around.
00:25:46Like, what?
00:25:46That's my comfort.
00:25:47Like, when I'm cleaning, I'm, like, anxious.
00:25:49I'm, like, I'm just cleaning.
00:25:50Do you need him to do that?
00:25:51Or are you okay just doing that?
00:25:52That was, like, my big thing as well.
00:25:54Because it was one of those, I'm like, hey, I'm putting the effort in here.
00:25:57Because you have to let him be him, too, if he's going to let you be you.
00:26:00That was what we talked about.
00:26:01It's new.
00:26:02We're living together.
00:26:03So it's like, we do have to, like, not compromise, but, like, we have to...
00:26:06Just learn each other's language.
00:26:07Especially if you're going to marry them.
00:26:09Yeah.
00:26:11That's awesome.
00:26:14All right, well, I'm going to let you guys go to town on that charcuterie board.
00:26:18I will see you guys in a little bit.
00:26:19I'm a truck driver.
00:26:19I don't get real food.
00:26:23I guess, what has, like, Alex's previous girlfriends been like?
00:26:28Girl talk now.
00:26:29Yeah.
00:26:30Like, let me get the dirt.
00:26:31I don't know if he's told you about his last serious relationship.
00:26:36He gave it more chances than it should have been given.
00:26:39Been there.
00:26:40Yeah.
00:26:40And, um...
00:26:41Was she Chicago?
00:26:42Yes.
00:26:43Um, and she was a piece of work.
00:26:45Was she the travel nurse that he was going to go to Australia with?
00:26:49No.
00:26:50Because I've only known about...
00:26:52No, it's two people.
00:26:53But the travel nurse and then Chicago.
00:26:55I didn't know if they were the same person or what.
00:26:57No.
00:26:57So he doesn't like to talk about the past too much.
00:27:00And I understand, like, he's had a rough go of women not being authentic and not being honest and not
00:27:10being loyal.
00:27:11Yeah.
00:27:11So have you seen anything that causes you concern?
00:27:16I think the biggest thing for me is I analyze, like, the timelines.
00:27:22Because his timeline is insane.
00:27:24It's like, I don't know where you lived.
00:27:26And then I, like, try to, like, rehash it to, like, my girlfriends when I see them.
00:27:29And they're like, what?
00:27:30And I was like, what?
00:27:32I don't know.
00:27:33And he knows that it is hard to follow his story.
00:27:37Yeah.
00:27:38Like, it's hard to follow my story.
00:27:39Just people's heads go, they're like, I don't know what you're talking about.
00:27:43I think he's finally kind of mourning the loss of soccer.
00:27:47It was such a huge part of his life.
00:27:49Coaching is obviously something he's very passionate about.
00:27:52I guess a concern of mine is, like, you know, we move away and we've talked about him going into
00:27:56this, like, financial role or something.
00:27:58And it's not what he wants to do.
00:27:59I know it's probably very hard for him to have to walk away from what was his life.
00:28:05Um, that's going to make me cry.
00:28:07I'm sorry.
00:28:17I would love for him to coach because he's got so much to offer.
00:28:25Um, and he loves the game so much.
00:28:30Um, and I think he's, he needs something that isn't so structured that he's, you've got to be in an
00:28:39office all the time.
00:28:40That's just not his, his venue.
00:28:44What's the hardest thing you've had to overcome in your life?
00:28:47Well, I think he's good enough.
00:28:48And one of those things I've lived in my life, probably my previous relationship, my friends and my family, they
00:28:53sort of saw me, like, lose myself.
00:28:55I was this like bright shining like personality bubbly girl smart intelligent ambitious
00:29:01beautiful inside and out and that was completely drained from me I will no longer date potential
00:29:07and I don't want to marry potential and I have not had any of those feelings with Alex like that
00:29:11it's not potential with Alex I guess I'm glad you see that yeah he is who he is and I
00:29:16fell
00:29:16in love with him through a wall and that's crazy to say out loud but he showed me who he
00:29:22is as a
00:29:22man like what kind of protector provider he will be for me and our family and I've never had someone
00:29:29choose me wholeheartedly like a hundred percent and Alex chose me to be like his only priority
00:29:35those are the important things to me that's who he is yeah how we doing good she'll do we're gonna
00:29:43become besties we're gonna just talk about you and I'll go golf Alex does want to settle down I don't
00:29:52think he'll ever give up traveling and exploring but I think that he does want something where he
00:29:58feels safe and stable she would be a wonderful daughter-in-law Virgo and Pisces can be very
00:30:04compatible very compatible it's one of the good can be absolutely
00:30:22you've been on edge yeah I know
00:30:31Mike is meeting my family Mike is meeting the whole gang my parents my sisters
00:30:41he's gonna get interrogated by everyone
00:30:45nice to meet you hey how's it going good nice to meet you I'm Jeff Mike nice to meet you
00:30:51the same
00:30:51should we sit yeah I can sit right there with my notebook did she tell you that she said you're
00:30:57bringing a notebook and I go Jesus to grill me I am a big believer in balance in marriage
00:31:07where do you feel like you fill in some weaknesses so I think that I do a very good job
00:31:14of keeping her
00:31:15grounded great you should have seen her freaking out when you guys were coming yeah we freak out
00:31:21we're a good freak out family we all have grounders all of us women have grounders and that was the
00:31:28biggest thing that why Mike stood out was because he grounded me in the pods like I would go up
00:31:33to him
00:31:34and be like dude I am stressed today that's awesome I'm telling you the communication that we've had is
00:31:39that's really good so when we were talking about kids and he's really like challenged me to like
00:31:45think more on that spectrum and I'm like okay well why don't I want kids number one I don't have
00:31:52a
00:31:52maternal instinct but I think I think it's there you take care of Monchi and comparing taking care
00:32:03of a dog to having children I'm not yeah you get what I'm saying though she needs to care and
00:32:08still
00:32:08take care of it you need to walk it you need to be on a schedule it needs to feed
00:32:12and you can leave
00:32:12it alone for eight hours I am a strong advocate of like when it's a puppy I'm somebody who grew
00:32:17up
00:32:17my whole life wanting to be a mom and I have two kids and I wake up some days and
00:32:20I'm like why did
00:32:21I like this is she said that the yeah you told them that yeah I told them my rebuttal to
00:32:26that and
00:32:26my rebuttal to that is do you regret it and she said no and I said then that's all you
00:32:32need I would say
00:32:33though if I lived another life like I don't regret having my children and I love my children but if
00:32:39I got
00:32:39to the end of my life and they said you can do it again I wouldn't have kids okay because
00:32:44there's
00:32:44there's a beautiful thing about living a life for yourself too sure so my concern is as somebody who
00:32:50wanted this and is currently living it and knows how hard it is if somebody chooses to have kids
00:32:56simply because they're trying to make a partner happy that's one of the most terrifying thoughts
00:33:00and especially for Emma like I love her to death and I would not be able to live with myself
00:33:05if I
00:33:06say that would you be willing to live your life without children or is that not an option I so
00:33:12I
00:33:12was trying to be open about it the more that I'm thinking about it like I don't think I can
00:33:16yeah
00:33:19nobody has to justify why they know it's a beautiful thing or don't want kids I love being a grandma
00:33:24I
00:33:25love being a Mimi I love my babies but I also want to support yeah you and I haven't I
00:33:35haven't asked
00:33:35no like I told you I would not push you no I'm like I'm not I'm not on any of
00:33:41this and I respect
00:33:42your decision whatever it is yeah good family is so important to me and I would not have said yes
00:33:49if I was not open but you were a hard no for a long time yeah so that's why we're
00:33:57a little bit
00:33:57protective I think we were all pretty certain you would not have kids throughout the time he's let me
00:34:05be who I am and like be independent and have my choices but also like is there for me when
00:34:12I need
00:34:12him on the pods I didn't want to tell anyone about my adoption or like my surgeries because those are
00:34:17the deepest parts of me and like oh it's just like my self-identity is rooted in that right you
00:34:22were
00:34:23so kind and so reassuring like I was getting emotional and he was like I'm here take your time
00:34:28I'm not going anywhere and the more I thought about kids it's like I don't know if I'm gonna pass
00:34:34down the birthmarks I don't know if my parents had other birth defects I don't know if my birth
00:34:40mother had birth complications right do you think you were rid of having kids because of your birth
00:34:46birth defects and stuff oh yeah 100% I had a great life growing up but like
00:34:55it was
00:35:00very very tough mental growth like not feeling good enough comparing myself to other people like I just
00:35:08don't want like I like don't want to bring a kid into that because it's tough because of your scar
00:35:12oh
00:35:14really yeah yeah so we didn't know mm-hmm because you always handled yourself yeah yeah yeah strength
00:35:23yeah we were curious how much yeah how much she covered up and didn't in middle school I think
00:35:30she would come home from school and just shut down and go to the basement we wouldn't just want to
00:35:35talk
00:35:35yeah yeah and then we went to this parent teacher and the teacher's like Emma just lights up the room
00:35:40she talks she drives the conversation well you guys already know that and you're like nope yeah
00:35:46communication is not in my strong suit I wasn't bullied or anything no you had a great I had a
00:35:52great life I had a great friendship it was all mental mm-hmm like right there's always
00:36:00something that I was like I'm I felt different mm-hmm growing up for everything um also dating is
00:36:11like then a whole nother ballgame especially in Wisconsin like yeah it's like you still feel
00:36:17different like you want to be chosen you know yeah and sometimes I wasn't you know so
00:36:30we try you know just check in and make sure everything's okay and on the outside you were
00:36:35okay and I hope we did good by you no you know you did you guys did amazing and like
00:36:43I think for me
00:36:43I'm just so independent that I like mm-hmm I don't ask for help and then like oh you do
00:36:49not like I can do
00:36:50it myself one of the things I most admire about Emma is that she takes care of herself and I
00:36:56know how
00:36:56much mothers lose by having children and I don't want you to lose that yeah you can't do everything
00:37:10that you think you're gonna do with kids so many people that haven't had kids yet are like it's not
00:37:15gonna change my life oh yeah it will oh yeah yeah you're not they will ruin your vacations believe
00:37:21me I've heard it from my own yeah I've heard it from my own Perry it is hard but it's
00:37:25worth it my
00:37:26opinion not if you don't want them though but I got three there that it's been worth it yeah it's
00:37:31only
00:37:31worth it if you want it no I know I'm just advocating for her wishes I know you're advocating for
00:37:36my
00:37:36wishes but like I have the right to change my mind too absolutely I am just supporting you
00:37:41we are making sure that no you change your mind that Mike is somebody who is going to be able
00:37:47to
00:37:48support you in the way that we would love you to be supported so that you continue to thrive yeah
00:37:53and
00:37:53that's like that's what I want yep you having children would be amazing I would love to be I
00:37:58would love that are you kidding me not so bad yeah she's our baby I guess you know there's the
00:38:06adoption
00:38:06element to this but we've never thought of her as anything but a member of the our family yeah
00:38:18I know we love her she's got the best heart our two oldest left we're about three years ahead of
00:38:28her so when they left the home we had Emma to ourselves so she became our only child that's great
00:38:34she's the sweetest kindest person and my grandma just passed a few years ago and she was like a
00:38:39hundred and six almost and when they were going through her belongings there is a stack of handwritten
00:38:47letters from Emma I mean who does that Emma does I mean she's just yeah so we want the best
00:38:55for her
00:39:09obviously how's it going Mike nice to meet you I think Mike is a genuine guy seems like he really
00:39:21cares for Emma what I was happy to see is they are addressing the hard questions with themselves
00:39:27honestly if Emma chooses him to be her life partner then we choose him we choose him if she feels
00:39:33like
00:39:33she's ready for it then we stand beside her hi I'm Mike nice to meet you nice to meet you
00:39:39too and how
00:39:41how old are you I'm five oh nice I didn't do anything for you no yeah
00:40:19hello today we're meeting Annie my little sister my older sister Katie and then my mother and father
00:40:24oh my gosh hi thank you so much I'm hoping she gets to see why I'm the favorite Joan okay
00:40:45so Connor
00:40:46actually like hand these flowers wow like one by one can I can I see something can you guys believe
00:40:56it I don't even believe it we're like I mean no I don't believe it I can't believe it and
00:41:01you got
00:41:01dressed up too wait yeah you're from Michigan I was screaming we're talking about our hometowns and
00:41:13like you can see kind of that you start to see the life together and I just all I had
00:41:18described
00:41:19as is like electric my heart was like racing like I was like physically responding to like
00:41:23you guys I've heard that from a girl before it's crazy like it's so weird you guys look great
00:41:30together do you believe it I wouldn't care what you look like well but here's the thing is like
00:41:42you're so attracted to him for like all these different reasons that I'm like I don't even
00:41:45care what you look like I don't even care if you're like medium ugly like I like you like
00:41:48it doesn't matter she said it like every day I'm like you're not medium ugly like I was just
00:41:53obsessed with him I guess should we sit down yeah yeah let's sit down let's do it so what has
00:41:59it
00:41:59been like living together and what you're like smiling you smile I think the question is directed
00:42:07at you no honestly no it's actually been great like I've never lived with anybody so transparently
00:42:14like the day we were moving in I like had a moment I was like how do you load the
00:42:19dishwasher
00:42:20she literally was waiting for me to load it she's like you need to see this show me the good
00:42:24bad and
00:42:25the ugly yeah how do you put like the knives in where do you do yeah oh I know because
00:42:29I haven't loaded
00:42:29a dishwasher in three years I haven't had a dishwasher you guys know that so I was like I get
00:42:33one
00:42:33non-judgment because I'm like I don't remember how to do it like you're fine at the dishwasher he was
00:42:37also we cooked together too and I love to cook did he make his famous plain chicken not yet not
00:42:42yet
00:42:43she's not huge on pasta like I am oh it's like pasta every day I'm like I have tried like
00:42:48six
00:42:49new things this week though oh so I heard you saw his house and you guys yeah how was that
00:42:54yeah
00:42:55did you go in through the door that doesn't lock be honest there's a keg outside it's a good investment
00:43:00I was like okay that's a problem and then you guys would see my house that he couldn't be on
00:43:05more
00:43:05opposite ends of the spectrum like I'm okay opposite opposite is kind of nuts he's a single
00:43:11guy he's a boy like he's just a standard boy he's so when I went in I was like this
00:43:16all checked
00:43:17he is so boy he's like I'm like you're just a boy he's a midwest blue collar guy yeah so
00:43:21I was
00:43:22like blue collar excuse you I work he's a hardworking man he's a hardworking man he's a dumpster
00:43:27business he works hard you get out while you put it in so what was different about him after the
00:43:33pods that you're like I didn't expect this the house or what actually I think what was surprising
00:43:39to me I'm not used to like I live by myself I'm so independent like you know I'm having a
00:43:43bad day
00:43:44like I'm just gonna go home and kind of lay on the couch or do whatever I need to do
00:43:47to like
00:43:47reset but managing those emotions together was really crazy trust for me yeah like he literally
00:43:54I'm like crying about like being overwhelmed and he's like is this helping or hurting I'm like I
00:43:59don't even know that's really a question to ask though like I love that it's so surprising like when
00:44:05someone shows up for you like that like I'm like not used to it was the keg surprising yes
00:44:10like what was more surprising it's like how he showed up for me I was like this is wild
00:44:15communal and for you to pick up on those emotional cues for me I was like well this is crazy
00:44:19wow and I was like if it wasn't Connor it was nobody yeah like really right it was and I
00:44:24say
00:44:25that wholeheartedly and my friends know they're like you wouldn't be here if this wasn't for real
00:44:29it's like we can talk about anything under the sun like I mean things that as a single female
00:44:34that you're like my biggest insecurities are like am I being too much am I being not enough like
00:44:39yeah how am I coming off and like for once I felt like I could come in and just like
00:44:44let it rip
00:44:44like I was like we're talking about fertility I'm 33 years old like I just went and had my fertility
00:44:50tested and like this stuff matters and like I think like I had the realization of like
00:44:54it doesn't matter how quickly you fall in love it's just a matter of like if you're gonna fall in
00:44:59love right love you honey oh my gosh it's the circulation in these hands I was about to ask how
00:45:04do you feel
00:45:04about his sweaty hands you should have seen this at the reveal no but like now they're freezing
00:45:08yeah so when I met him you guys we're just like oh my gosh it's you and his palms he
00:45:14comes up and
00:45:15grabs my hands I'm like you're dripping sweat yes I was like oh shit isn't this crazy ain't she nuts
00:45:22like you guys actually though like I I requested the mustache because I was like I think I think I
00:45:27love you for that really nice I was like you can rock the mustache a hundred percent I gotta figure
00:45:33out how much I owe her yeah um yeah no it it's it's very nice to see each when when
00:45:42one of your kids
00:45:43finds somebody that is their connection they appear to be very much in love I would be proud
00:45:49to call her daughter-in-law welcome to the family
00:46:01how are you feeling after your your mom good it's good to see her I definitely see where you get
00:46:06your
00:46:06travel bug from we kind of had like a time to chat do you want to talk about your last
00:46:12relationships
00:46:12more like I'm not yeah trying to like attack you or anything like I just want to know like your
00:46:16story
00:46:16you know I mean uh the college was more puppy love similar schedules with student-athletes it kind of
00:46:21made sense there was always like you know her accent was always in the picture as a friend type thing
00:46:26which was kind of a bigger red flag for me like why are you guys still friends I don't get
00:46:29it
00:46:29the Chicago relationship was more the one that you learn um on and off you know a little bit of
00:46:36distance to start with so I don't really blame her for leaving necessarily just the way that she did it
00:46:40was not great um and I don't love that you know kind of cheating going on behind the scenes to
00:46:47where it's not great I don't love that yeah not a big fan of that obviously but I also point
00:46:51the
00:46:51finger myself I definitely had some growing to do it I had to learn who I was outside of soccer
00:46:56and
00:46:57what I mean by that is obviously that relationship ended and I had to go find myself elsewhere which
00:47:00I did through travel okay was it just the two then uh that are the most serious there's a you
00:47:07know a third that was um a little bit longer oh the travel nurse yes exactly was this the one
00:47:14that
00:47:15was gonna go to Australia with you yes yeah that's pretty serious you said it wasn't that serious well
00:47:20I mean it was over four months it was over a summer so that one ended before Australia correct yeah
00:47:26what
00:47:27why did it end well because I was leaving and she didn't want to travel nurse at that time you
00:47:31guys
00:47:32like ended like amicably yeah yeah yeah do you still have a relationship with any of her exes I
00:47:37mean I'm friends with her for sure I mean she's got a new boyfriend and by friends I mean it's
00:47:42like
00:47:42hey I hope you're doing well but it's not a hey let's get back together type thing when is like
00:47:47the last
00:47:47time you guys talked or saw each other a while ago I mean I saw her in Austin for um
00:47:53a week when was
00:47:55that um when is it September ish were you visiting her in Austin I was visiting a number of people
00:48:03in
00:48:03Austin yeah was she one of them yes yeah what was that dynamic when you visited her then I mean
00:48:09we
00:48:10hooked up for sure September's not that long ago it's just weird because I'm not friends with my ex
00:48:15and I don't care to text him hope he's well and that's how I am with the one that you
00:48:20know was cheating
00:48:22on me as well um but I'm happy to cut that off if it's an issue no I'm just if
00:48:28you're like confident
00:48:29in that that's fine so what was your dating life like in Cleveland then before because you were in
00:48:33Cleveland for a year and a half like yeah I don't expect you to not have any relationship no there
00:48:37yeah there was a situation ship for sure I met her through the gym we were you know probably about
00:48:42three maybe four months she ended things I don't think she understood my lifestyle and my nomadic
00:48:47dynamic that I've been living for the past three or four years she ended things and then I think
00:48:54a month later roughly I kind of got the LinkedIn message to kind of come onto this show and at
00:49:00that
00:49:00point I shut things down um I don't know October I think I'd have to get a look at that
00:49:09but I believe
00:49:09it's early October um and then I'll go ahead you said you got the LinkedIn message about a month after
00:49:15in October yeah which would mean that you were seeing this girl in September which is when you
00:49:23went to Austin no so this girl in Austin was right after this girl in Cleveland okay but there was
00:49:37some
00:49:38kind of relationship with the Austin girl because you don't just like yeah go to Austin and see a
00:49:42girl two days after the girl ended things that I was seeing in Cleveland I reached out to my ex
00:49:50it was my ego basically saying okay you want to end things that's fine I can go get whatever I
00:49:55want
00:49:55right afterwards not the greatest because I didn't like being broken up with at that time and then I
00:50:01came back to Cleveland afterwards and it was how it worked that doesn't make me look great but it's
00:50:05honest yeah okay okay I was just making sure yeah what I feel like something about that makes you
00:50:13uncomfortable no like I said I was just I wanted to make sure like we've talked about cheating is like
00:50:18a non-negotiable so like when you set the timeline and it was like September I was like okay it's
00:50:24not
00:50:24there was no overlap and even if there was we weren't together exclusively because I asked the question
00:50:28she didn't want that but there was no overlap okay okay when I stumble it's I'm trying to remember
00:50:36the exact date of two years ago I'm not trying to follow you I'm not trying to like catch you
00:50:40I know
00:50:41you're not I know you're not but it I don't want it to make like very clear there was absolutely
00:50:45no
00:50:45overlap it's also not cheating in my eyes no I wouldn't say that either okay you cope how you cope
00:50:52um I think the biggest thing for me was like I was in a relationship just about a year ago
00:50:57and I
00:50:57thought that man was gonna be like the father of my children and like I thought I was gonna have
00:51:00babies with him just please be honest with me yeah and please don't cheat um that's not happening
00:51:07and I apologize like that that's happened to you before not really my place to say sorry but I don't
00:51:12love that that's happened for you I got you damn
00:51:42outside inside we don't stop
00:51:55a few more of these I'm losing a finger
00:51:59Vic's here
00:52:20oh my god
00:52:30I wanted to see you guys oh my god yeah I'm like I had to celebrate with my girls are
00:52:37you
00:52:37kidding me oh I love you I love you I love you guys wow
00:52:52I love you guys oh my god
00:53:04those little potato things are good those are good no this feels so good I'm so glad to see everybody
00:53:09I do miss Jess though I wish she was still I miss Jess I know she's just like the sweet
00:53:14little like
00:53:14nurturing yeah angel because I have no words for Chris like everybody would know that man is so
00:53:20fucking delusional I just got like a some obscure like oh yeah in my DM I was like what's from
00:53:26who
00:53:26from Chris shut the fuck up yeah shut up Connor and I were making dinner at the house I like
00:53:31checked my phone and then I had a friend request from Chris and I was like what the fuck so
00:53:37I
00:53:37accepted it he DM'd me at like 11 30 and was like oh yeah
00:53:42and I was like what the fuck happened last night and he was like call me and I'm like
00:53:46ew I literally was like Connor abort I was like look at this
00:53:49did Connor say anything to him I said don't make a big deal out of nothing like who knows this
00:53:53man is
00:53:54like spiraling I was like obviously I'm not engaging with it it's not a big deal
00:53:58guys he bought followers no yeah we were we were that's why I was like we were
00:54:04he bought follows he bought I want to unfollow I can't afford me all of his followers if you look
00:54:09are like all random random people that don't know followers to post and they're like all from like
00:54:16Mexico okay I don't understand that he was my number two he is a different
00:54:20person like first night single goes to strip club I'm like the way I gasped I was like no
00:54:26the strip club picture the strip and the pole in the background and the stripper on his left
00:54:33like it was like one extreme to the next like not even just like a fucking gross ass bitch
00:54:38it's exactly it I'm like this is not something's off something doesn't matter
00:54:42narcissistic fuck he literally told Connor he goes for 21 to 25 year olds I was like
00:54:47so she's 38 like what this is why I told you guys fuck those pussy ass bitches and he is
00:54:54one of them
00:54:54we're too fucking short to be this cocky too short to ride this ride
00:55:00never
00:55:01I wanna see your heart shatter on the floor I wanna watch you hurt like never before
00:55:11hurt out all you said
00:55:14oh shit oh god oh my god
00:55:19what's up big dog what's up man how are you good to see you
00:55:23Chris and Jess is weird they seem like such a good couple but I don't think about it too much
00:55:29just
00:55:29because me and Bri at the end of the day is what I came here for so
00:55:32I'm like hi how are you good to see you welcome back to the crazy we're here um dudes are
00:55:40fucking
00:55:40idiots at the end of the day Amber how are you
00:55:44laughing
00:55:48laughing
00:55:50laughing
00:55:59laughing
00:56:00laughing
00:56:01This industry is perfect.
00:56:04Do you like the outfit?
00:56:09Oh, I missed you.
00:56:13OK, you look amazing.
00:56:16God, your body is so perfect.
00:56:18I'm not even kidding.
00:56:19You didn't work out.
00:56:21You're not working out.
00:56:22You're actually not fucking done.
00:56:25I'm not going to work out anymore.
00:56:28I don't give a flying fuck.
00:56:42Wait, who's here?
00:56:43Who just showed up?
00:56:45I don't know.
00:56:46Mary Yaga?
00:56:47My God!
00:56:49I think?
00:56:50Yeah.
00:56:51Is that for you?
00:56:51Yeah.
00:56:52Oh, God.
00:56:54Is it?
00:56:57How do you know Pranaka?
00:56:59Uh, Pranaka was in a friend group of mine in Chicago.
00:57:01She's been in my friend group for a little while.
00:57:03Hello.
00:57:04What's up?
00:57:05Hi.
00:57:05How are you?
00:57:06Good, how are you doing?
00:57:07Hi, Pranaka.
00:57:09She was in the pods, but I wanted Pranaka to have her entire experience untarnished.
00:57:14And if I'm going to come out and say, hey, we knew each other, there's a chance for that
00:57:18not to happen.
00:57:19Hi.
00:57:20She's amazing.
00:57:20What are we doing without each other?
00:57:22What are we doing?
00:57:23Hi.
00:57:23We're real.
00:57:24It's the whole damn time.
00:57:26You look great.
00:57:27You look great.
00:57:28Thanks.
00:57:29It's so cool.
00:57:30Are you real?
00:57:31I know simulations.
00:57:36I like this, actually, a lot.
00:57:37Oh, thanks, man.
00:57:38It's fresh.
00:57:39Yeah.
00:57:39It's nice sweater.
00:57:40Be careful how you touch it.
00:57:41It's expensive.
00:57:43I'm just kidding.
00:57:44Fucking spit on it.
00:57:45It's expensive.
00:57:46He's a funny guy.
00:57:47You think you're a funny guy, don't you?
00:57:58Mexico's great.
00:57:59Mexico's incredible.
00:58:00So in love.
00:58:01Everything's amazing.
00:58:02No, we literally thought they were, like, already married.
00:58:04Okay.
00:58:04Because that's what I thought.
00:58:06So it's amazing whenever we get back.
00:58:07He was like, how would you rate our physical connection on a scale of one to ten?
00:58:12This is where I'm about to kick him in the teeth.
00:58:14And I go, what?
00:58:16What do you mean?
00:58:17And he's like, well, like, I'm just, I'm used to being with somebody who works out every
00:58:21day.
00:58:22Are you fucking kidding me?
00:58:23This is where I kick him in the teeth.
00:58:26I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm, I'm confused.
00:58:28What he said is gross.
00:58:31But then he also said, before we stopped talking, he was like, I also, like, keep wondering,
00:58:35like, what if I had chose my number two?
00:58:38What was his number?
00:58:39Free.
00:58:40Freezy.
00:58:41Oh.
00:58:41So then that night, he started an Instagram out of nowhere.
00:58:44And then he posts a story on Instagram of him at a strip club with his friends with a stripper
00:58:49on his left.
00:58:51She's like, no.
00:58:52The bar is on the ground.
00:58:55Yeah.
00:58:55And like, obviously, Christine, like, I don't follow him.
00:58:58I don't want anything to do with it.
00:59:00But everybody screenshotted it and sent it to me.
00:59:02I know that that is not okay for me.
00:59:04And I don't have anything to do with him.
00:59:07And he's also since split into another girl's team.
00:59:11He told me about it right away.
00:59:13I'm just an honest person.
00:59:14I know you are.
00:59:15I know you are.
00:59:15People fucking don't like it.
00:59:17All right.
00:59:18I'll be right back.
00:59:18I gotta pee.
00:59:20You know that he has issues, right?
00:59:23You know this is nothing about you.
00:59:25I was 110% in.
00:59:27I was 110% in love.
00:59:29Three years ago, it would have, like, ended me.
00:59:35Dude, Brie is so hot.
00:59:39I saw Brie and I was like, yeah, I'm into her.
00:59:42And I want to talk to her.
00:59:44And Connor, I don't care.
00:59:46What's he gonna do?
00:59:48Beat me up?
00:59:49Yeah.
00:59:49Yeah, right.
00:59:54Yeah.
01:00:02Ooh.
01:00:04Wait, Amber, I love this guy so much.
01:00:07I love Chris.
01:00:07I love Chris.
01:00:08I love this dude so much.
01:00:09I know him.
01:00:10He's such a good dude.
01:00:11Everyone's like, Amber is like, they're like,
01:00:13yo, she's crazy, she's crazy.
01:00:15She's like too much for us.
01:00:16But I'm like, she's perfect for this dude.
01:00:18You and fucking Amber are like, goddamn, like,
01:00:21the only couple that's the only thing to get married.
01:00:23I swear to God, I said that to his face.
01:00:26He's good for me.
01:00:27No, I swear to God.
01:00:30I swear to God.
01:00:30He's too tamed.
01:00:32Yes.
01:00:32He does.
01:00:33He's so crazy too.
01:00:35I love him.
01:00:36Amber, in a good way.
01:00:37I know you probably fucking date me.
01:00:40A little bit, but...
01:00:41No, stop.
01:00:42Okay, listen.
01:00:42I just feel like you don't like, I don't know,
01:00:45know me, like, as like a person person.
01:00:48Like, I promise you, like, I'm not like a crazy asshole.
01:00:51I swear to God.
01:00:53Chris doesn't give a shit about anything but himself,
01:00:55so I don't give a shit about him.
01:00:56You think you're gonna get another hot doctor?
01:00:59I'm just saying.
01:01:00I'm just saying.
01:01:01Okay.
01:01:02She's okay.
01:01:07She's back.
01:01:08Are you okay?
01:01:09No, I'm fine.
01:01:10Listen, I don't care if she's a neurosurgeon
01:01:12or if she's a goddamn hundred million dollar trust fund.
01:01:15If I'm gonna get married to someone for the rest of my life,
01:01:17I need to be like...
01:01:23You don't need a reason.
01:01:24Like, you are...
01:01:24No, no.
01:01:25I'm not gonna say it.
01:01:26I don't give a fucking fuck.
01:01:28I've heard him say it.
01:01:29I don't give a flying fuck four times already.
01:01:32You couldn't pay me to be in that conversation?
01:01:35The sex and, like, everything, like...
01:01:38I could see it, like, growing.
01:01:40Yeah.
01:01:40And, like...
01:01:42I even said it and it's gonna be on camera.
01:01:45Like, I don't give a flying fuck.
01:01:46Like, I need someone, like, that does, like, Pilates
01:01:49or, like...
01:01:50Did she hide that from you in the pods?
01:01:52No, but she said she danced for 15 years
01:01:53and I was like, okay, well, that may be a thing.
01:01:56But, like, I don't care.
01:01:57I've been with girls who don't work out,
01:01:58but they're also, like, 5'11",
01:02:00and they're taller than me.
01:02:01I don't give a flying fuck.
01:02:02And they're, like, ballet dancers and shit.
01:02:04I mean, she's not, like, morbidly obese or anything.
01:02:06She's not.
01:02:07She's stunning.
01:02:07She's beautiful.
01:02:08She's great.
01:02:09She's hot.
01:02:09Yeah, I agree.
01:02:11And I'm like, Jess, you're beautiful.
01:02:12You just want someone that works out.
01:02:13You want someone who goes to the gym with you.
01:02:14You want someone who's, like, doing those things,
01:02:16like, you have the partner things together.
01:02:17It's way different.
01:02:18It's way different.
01:02:19It's way different.
01:02:20And, like, the discipline and, like, the...
01:02:22I need to redo a sexual attraction when we're naked together.
01:02:25And it's like...
01:02:25I feel like there's a thing, like,
01:02:26when you're, like, having sex with someone,
01:02:28it's, like, pheromones.
01:02:29And, like, it's, like, you're with together,
01:02:31and, like, you love it with each other.
01:02:33And, like, it just...
01:02:34For me, I tried it multiple times.
01:02:36It just wasn't there.
01:02:37And I'm like, I don't know if we can do this
01:02:39for the rest of my life.
01:02:40And I was like, I'm gonna bring this up.
01:02:41Like, this is a big thing.
01:02:42And I was like, listen,
01:02:43we have such a deep emotional connection.
01:02:45I could not do that for the rest of my life.
01:02:47You guys can say whatever you want.
01:02:49No, I don't know.
01:02:49I'm kind of...
01:02:50I'm not trying to...
01:02:51I'm not trying to get it.
01:02:52I don't know.
01:02:52For me, like, if I'm gonna be this one
01:02:54the rest of my life...
01:02:55And listen, listen.
01:02:57No, no, no, Ashley.
01:02:57Ashley and Pree,
01:02:58Ashley and Pree, listen to me.
01:02:59When I'm 90,
01:03:00I don't give a flying fuck,
01:03:01but guess what, girls?
01:03:02Like, I am fucking 30.
01:03:03Girls.
01:03:04When I'm fucking...
01:03:06Like...
01:03:06Yes.
01:03:07I wanna, like, do those things
01:03:08for at least 40 more years,
01:03:10and I wanna enjoy it.
01:03:10And, like, if I...
01:03:12It's not there.
01:03:13It's not...
01:03:13If I'm not like such objective to you,
01:03:14like, I'm not gonna force it or...
01:03:16But I told her, I said,
01:03:17maybe this can grow.
01:03:18Maybe it can.
01:03:19And I asked her, and she said,
01:03:21adios.
01:03:22And I said...
01:03:22Adios.
01:03:23I was not trying to be mean.
01:03:24I swear to God,
01:03:25I was not trying to be mean.
01:03:26If I wanna marry someone,
01:03:27like, I wanna make sure, like...
01:03:29Trust me.
01:03:29It doesn't need to be 100%,
01:03:30but, like, it needs to be
01:03:31something enjoyable,
01:03:32but it was the worst
01:03:33I've ever had in my life.
01:03:34You're screaming.
01:03:35Yeah, why are you getting loud?
01:03:35Your voice is echoing.
01:03:36I'm sorry, sorry.
01:03:38I'm loud, and I'm like, wait.
01:03:39We should all, like,
01:03:40do something together.
01:03:41Like, just me, and then...
01:03:42Just you?
01:03:43I will lie.
01:03:43Do you wanna, like, chat with Alex a little bit?
01:03:46Chase?
01:03:47Me?
01:03:48What do you mean?
01:03:48Me?
01:03:49Okay, I'm ready. Sorry.
01:03:50All right, we're over here.
01:03:51Seriously?
01:03:52I'm on...
01:03:53I'm on nobody's side with anything.
01:03:55Like, we're all navigating it.
01:03:56I love that.
01:03:56Like, Connor and I have kind of, like,
01:03:58stayed in our lane of just doing our thing,
01:04:00because it's, like, hard when you open it up
01:04:01to everybody
01:04:02and hear everyone's stories,
01:04:03because it's, like,
01:04:04I hear Jess, I hear you,
01:04:05but, like, I get it.
01:04:06Like, we're making a big fucking decision.
01:04:08I just laugh so loud,
01:04:09because when you say, like, me and Connor,
01:04:11I just kind of like...
01:04:12What?
01:04:13Why is it funny?
01:04:18You want me to let it rip?
01:04:20I like Connor,
01:04:21but he's very submissive.
01:04:26I could've turned up the notch with you,
01:04:29and Connor wouldn't be...
01:04:31What do you mean?
01:04:32...existent.
01:04:33Oh, like, in the pods?
01:04:34Yeah.
01:04:38I see it in the real world,
01:04:39and I'm like, fuck, I fucked up.
01:04:45Connor loves me to the nth degree.
01:04:46He's a great guy.
01:04:47He'll love me from the...
01:04:47I think he's an amazing guy.
01:04:48When that's the thing.
01:04:48He will say yes at the altar,
01:04:50and he will say,
01:04:51I will love you forever,
01:04:52and I'll do the dishes,
01:04:53and I'll clean the house.
01:04:54Yeah.
01:04:55And you're like, well,
01:04:56I need someone who's going to do a lot more.
01:04:59I'm bringing him to my hometown this weekend,
01:05:02and my dad and my family are all like...
01:05:04He's gonna meet your dad?
01:05:05Finally.
01:05:06Your dad's a legit man
01:05:08who's been successful in life.
01:05:09He needs somebody
01:05:10who you're gonna introduce him to,
01:05:12to be like, hey,
01:05:12this is my Charles Schwab account.
01:05:14Yeah.
01:05:14This is what I'm doing.
01:05:15This is what's going on in life.
01:05:16This is where my rejections are,
01:05:18one to three years.
01:05:19That's what you need.
01:05:20Oh, come on.
01:05:24We're going to Grand Rapids this weekend.
01:05:25I heard.
01:05:26Do you feel, like, ready?
01:05:28Confident?
01:05:29I think we'll get along.
01:05:30I mean, I'm just literally
01:05:30a normal, blue-collar dude.
01:05:32Like, I work for a dumpster rental company.
01:05:34Like, if Brie has confidence in somebody,
01:05:36like, that's the utmost confidence,
01:05:38because she's not gonna fuck around
01:05:39with some randos, so...
01:05:41And, like, I talked to, like,
01:05:42one of her friends, and it's like,
01:05:43I don't think she's looking for someone
01:05:44to, like, out-work her,
01:05:45out-motivate her, out, like, out for her.
01:05:48I think Brie and I are very similar,
01:05:50and the way you're showing up for her
01:05:52is exactly what she needs.
01:05:54Yeah.
01:05:57Is it the best you've ever had?
01:05:58What, sex?
01:06:01No, but it's good.
01:06:02Okay.
01:06:03I...
01:06:04So you're looking for the best
01:06:05you've ever had?
01:06:06I like to give the best...
01:06:09Yeah.
01:06:10...they've ever had.
01:06:11So, like, that's important to me.
01:06:13Like, people are like,
01:06:14oh, it's 5%.
01:06:14No, but that's why I was like...
01:06:16Like, for me, it's important.
01:06:17You guys all have your own reasons.
01:06:18For me, it's important.
01:06:19Great.
01:06:19Sometimes you get the ick.
01:06:20Like, I get it.
01:06:21Like...
01:06:21It's not the ick.
01:06:22It's hard.
01:06:23It's, like, horrible.
01:06:25I'll be honest with you.
01:06:27Um...
01:06:27I just feel like you guys
01:06:28aren't gonna get married.
01:06:29And I feel like you need someone
01:06:31who's gonna be more dominant in your life
01:06:32and to help you, like, guide you
01:06:34and, like, show you places
01:06:35you've never been before.
01:06:37He's a very submissive guy.
01:06:39He's...
01:06:39I'm not a submissive guy.
01:06:40I know.
01:06:40I'm not like that.
01:06:41Like, I would never be submissive in my life.
01:06:43I know.
01:06:43I wanna do that with you.
01:06:45Stop.
01:06:45I swear to God.
01:06:47I even said to Jess, I was like,
01:06:49Brie is, like, a girl, like,
01:06:50I would go for in my normal world.
01:06:52And I was like, she's hot.
01:06:55The way she looks.
01:06:56The things she does.
01:06:57I'm just saying.
01:07:01I feel a regret because I saw you
01:07:04and I was like,
01:07:07that is the girl, like,
01:07:09I would literally propose to.
01:07:23I know I've never felt like this in my life.
01:07:26I love you deeply, baby.
01:07:28Deeply.
01:07:30I 100% think you are the right part.
01:07:33I love her authenticity.
01:07:34You excited for the wedding?
01:07:35Mm-hmm.
01:07:36Yeah.
01:07:36I'm excited to see you in a tux.
01:07:38I know what it's like to feel loved now.
01:07:42You love me.
01:07:43I feel like I even fall in love with you, like,
01:07:45more and more each day.
01:07:46It feels like a forever thing.
01:07:47I want to do life with you
01:07:48and experience so much with you.
01:07:50Yeah.
01:07:50At the same time,
01:07:51if you're not sure about me.
01:07:53Insecurity's coming out a little bit.
01:07:55I guess that's my fear with you.
01:07:57I definitely am stronger feelings than you.
01:08:00And that scares me.
01:08:01Please leave me alone.
01:08:03It just feels like you have a backup plan.
01:08:06I don't know.
01:08:07She's the inverse of what I like.
01:08:08I want that brunette brown-eyed girl.
01:08:11You've been in contact with her for years.
01:08:13Right now, I feel attacked.
01:08:15I've never dated a woman with a child before.
01:08:18I tried to think this whole thing through, like, fully
01:08:20before making a lifelong commitment.
01:08:22I am super in love with you.
01:08:24I trust you, like, with all my heart
01:08:26that you were, like, communicating everything to me.
01:08:28I love him so much.
01:08:30But, like, he really wants kids the next three to five years,
01:08:32and I'm like, I don't want kids until, like, I personally want them.
01:08:35It's hard.
01:08:36I never want to sway her opinion, and she needs to make this decision first.
01:08:40Can I ask you a crazy question?
01:08:42Can you be honest?
01:08:42What?
01:08:43With your wedding ring on?
01:08:44Yeah.
01:08:45Like, what?
01:08:45If you had to choose, like, one person.
01:08:49For Mr. Busco.
01:08:50Babies.
01:08:51Yeah.
01:08:53You knew what you were doing.
01:08:54I think you were ready for marriage.
01:08:57I'm just feeling really blessed and really thankful.
01:09:00Your whole future right in front of you.
01:09:02I'm so happy.
01:09:03Oh, Emma.
01:09:05Now is the time to decide if love is blind.
01:09:09This is the biggest moment of my life.
01:09:58Get it out!
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