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Two Ph.D. candidates, one an African Muslim and the other an agnostic, begin a romance after meeting at a museum. They discover that a love between different cultures and religions may have consequences.
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00:00:38you realize this draft isn't anywhere near being ready to defend
00:00:44i thought it was pretty good progress consider bullshit
00:00:47excuse me ben you and i both know that's bullshit
00:00:50i have the ideas there look i get it it's a lot more fun to spin theories out loud than
00:00:57it is to
00:00:58sit at your computer and make things make sense with a little more time you don't have any more
00:01:03time this is your seventh year your clock has run out man if you don't defend on schedule all your
00:01:10coursework becomes invalid now your argument and dialectic isn't bad an overview of the philosophical
00:01:22spread of calvinism across western europe i'm focusing on how the idea of predestination
00:01:28shaped society how it affected politics culture yeah yeah i get it not bad but you got to stop
00:01:34procrastinating that may have gotten you through your masters but it's not going to work here
00:01:38now focus and get to work
00:01:48no you started it no you started it no you started it no you started it no you started it
00:01:58stop it
00:02:01mohammed be nice to your sister she's a girl but she started mohammed drink your orange juice i want
00:02:07apple juice enough we ran out ara is that food almost ready almost she let us have donuts last
00:02:13time ara i didn't give them donuts miriam you know what allah says about lying
00:02:21i spoke to your grandmother today every time i call her she's asking about you when are you going to
00:02:26call that woman it's always the same conversation about great-grandkids i'll give her a call later
00:02:32oh and najib's mother called she's insisting that you join them for dinner this week it's not a good
00:02:36week for that when is it going to be a good week a good man like najib isn't going to
00:02:42chase you
00:02:42forever ara you have to start taking your place in the community
00:03:05i take it you're finished for the night
00:03:10i just started proofing
00:03:15i'd like to get a little more finished before i have to get up tomorrow and do it all over
00:03:18again
00:03:19maybe it's time to give the dissertation a break for the night
00:03:23give yourself some rest
00:03:24mom
00:03:26for your own sake
00:03:28remember scripture says
00:03:30to the righteous soul
00:03:32it will be said oh thou soul in complete rest and satisfaction
00:03:37what would a righteous woman do tonight
00:03:40didn't you say something about your friend's art exhibit
00:03:43why don't you take the evening off and go support her
00:03:47sasha wouldn't miss me
00:03:48would you stop it go see it if just for curiosity's sake
00:03:53i guess i'm obsessing over this because it's my last paper as a student
00:03:56if you give it too much power it will control you
00:04:00sweetheart
00:04:02go to the gallery
00:04:23hey
00:04:25hey
00:04:25how's uh work coming
00:04:27slow
00:04:28okay well uh
00:04:30are you gonna be there all night
00:04:32i don't know
00:04:33may break for a few then get back to it
00:04:35all right well you are still coming to the family dinner on sunday right
00:04:40no
00:04:41no i need to skip this week
00:04:45please stop being a martyr
00:04:46because you could come if you wanted to
00:04:49and do you understand that you are wasting your time on a phd that is essentially worthless
00:04:56i don't need this from you right now
00:04:58you are afraid of the real world
00:05:00what is the real world really here we go again
00:05:03no tell me
00:05:05accounting firms are the real world and academia isn't
00:05:08is that right
00:05:10you're gonna cure cancer with your mba
00:05:12you know what i think i think that i'm gonna go out with manny tonight is that cool with you
00:05:18what are you asking me now
00:05:21people change
00:05:22and you know frankly i really don't need any more drama in my life so yes i'm asking
00:05:29that's the deal right
00:05:30we can go see whoever we want
00:05:57what is the real world моя
00:06:00what is the real world
00:06:00what is the real world
00:06:06name please Vivian
00:06:11name please
00:06:12Ara Jalali
00:06:14Sasha's friend right
00:06:15yeah
00:06:15go ahead
00:06:18name please
00:06:19Alice
00:06:22I didn't think you'll make it
00:06:24wow it all looks so beautiful
00:06:26thank you
00:06:28it's amazing
00:06:29I'm so glad you're here
00:06:30me too
00:06:32you know
00:06:33he's gonna be coming here later
00:06:35okay
00:06:36which one is it this time
00:06:38Jamar of course
00:06:39my Frenchman
00:06:42what about you
00:06:43what about me
00:06:44don't lick them
00:06:46there's no time
00:06:47why don't you make time
00:06:49you keep staring at my champagne
00:06:51you want some
00:06:52no
00:06:53I just like the smell
00:06:56I love you
00:06:57excuse me
00:06:58you have a bio
00:06:59excuse me
00:07:29what were you thinking
00:07:30what were you thinking
00:07:33I beg your pardon
00:07:33when they took the photograph of you
00:07:35what were you thinking
00:07:37I don't know
00:07:38my friend took it
00:07:41it's more of a favor to her
00:07:43you didn't answer the question
00:07:47the answer is nothing
00:07:52it was a windy day
00:07:54kind of chilly
00:07:56I was just looking up at the clouds
00:07:59that's impossible
00:08:00no one really thinks about nothing
00:08:02excuse me
00:08:02maybe you're thinking about how cold it was
00:08:05outside
00:08:06or about how you want this to turn out well for your friend
00:08:10it's just a turn of phrase
00:08:11why not say my mind was wandering
00:08:13or
00:08:14nothing in particular
00:08:17saying just nothing that's inaccurate
00:08:18you take things pretty literally
00:08:24I go to school with you
00:08:26we're in the same department
00:08:27in Johnson
00:08:29oh
00:08:32it's an amazing photograph
00:08:34everyone's really raving about your work
00:08:36you're about to defend
00:08:37fourth year in
00:08:39is it ever really ready
00:08:43what about you
00:08:44I am woefully behind
00:08:46actually
00:08:50that was helpful
00:08:51what
00:08:51what we did earlier
00:08:54back and forth about nothingness
00:08:56that was helpful
00:08:57thank you
00:09:01do you have five minutes
00:09:02actually
00:09:04just to bounce some ideas off of you
00:09:07that's cool
00:09:10okay
00:09:11yeah
00:09:11sure
00:09:16I'm writing about the concept of fate
00:09:18and John Calvin's teachings on predestination
00:09:20how it affected western philosophy
00:09:23so where's your trouble
00:09:24I compiled this great reading list
00:09:26I did all this research
00:09:29and then my first draft just sucked
00:09:31you didn't send any segments to your advisor
00:09:34something like that
00:09:37I don't know
00:09:38I think philosophy is more about
00:09:40the talking
00:09:41and flushing out truths
00:09:44sounds like maybe you procrastinate
00:09:47how do you know it's procrastination
00:09:49you're in your last stage of a PhD program
00:09:52you must have written papers in your masters
00:09:54that were good enough to get you here right
00:09:56right
00:09:57so you've probably had this habit for a while
00:10:00so you've probably had this habit for a while
00:10:01what about yours?
00:10:04my dissertation?
00:10:05yeah
00:10:08it's about Cameroonian philosophy
00:10:10pre-colonization
00:10:12how their ideas might have been different
00:10:15without European intrusion
00:10:17it's like trying to ungraft a vine from a tree
00:10:20how would have looked you think?
00:10:22better?
00:10:24that's objective
00:10:25I believe thought develops best out of captivity
00:10:28so
00:10:30in that respect yeah better
00:10:33what about you and Calvin?
00:10:36would have been better had he not come along
00:10:38or if his teachings never took off
00:10:41I don't know
00:10:42I never really weighed in on that specific topic
00:10:46you don't have an opinion on how a major movement like that affected your religion?
00:10:51I'm agnostic
00:10:51I don't have a religion
00:10:54that can't be a surprise
00:10:55most of the departments that way
00:10:59not everyone
00:11:02sorry
00:11:05I'm not religious
00:11:06but I think the reformation was more about freedom from Rome and the Pope
00:11:12I mean King Henry come on
00:11:13that had nothing to do with God
00:11:14he just wanted a divorce
00:11:20but I mean maybe separation from the papacy
00:11:22was a good thing
00:11:22I mean
00:11:23I want to be Catholic right?
00:11:33I'd better get going
00:11:34it's nice running into you
00:11:35yeah you too
00:11:37do you want to maybe meet up again?
00:11:39like
00:11:40can I get your number?
00:11:45sure
00:11:46okay
00:11:47here
00:11:48let me have yours
00:11:49yeah I'll check it to you
00:11:50nice try
00:11:51I
00:11:52just put it in here
00:11:53okay
00:11:57here you go
00:11:58thanks
00:12:00it was good to bring you to you
00:12:01me too
00:12:10Ara
00:12:11don't forget to schedule dinner with Najeef's parents this week
00:12:17I know you hear me
00:12:44you hear me
00:12:48just a long time
00:12:48you hear me
00:12:48you
00:13:03my faith in Allah has been a source of strength and peace for me it feels like a lifeline really
00:13:10something that saves me from drowning when I'm at my lowest Allah that's why staying pure before
00:13:16Allah is so important we're created to crave God to want Allah but it's the human challenge to make
00:13:26our bodies and our minds sync up with Allah last Friday we talked about how the Holy Prophet said
00:13:36the best treasure is an obedient wife having a good disposition so that her husband is pleased
00:13:43to see her and when the husband is not home she protects her chastity but at the same time I
00:13:53feel
00:13:54like God wants us to explore the world that he gave us I think that's a big part of our
00:14:00relationship with
00:14:14them too hello dr. Jalali I presume not yet mom can you stop by the mosque and get the tablecloths
00:14:25that I
00:14:25loaned to Najib's mom okay why don't you have dinner with them this week mom mom I'll think about it
00:14:40I have to go love you bye
00:15:02you're good
00:15:11so did you make any progress today yeah I finally started my second draft last night
00:15:16wait you're just now writing your second draft hey no I'm like it you're crazy
00:15:24you'd be proud to spend all morning writing I got you 10 pages
00:15:27out of what 150 you should be chained to your desk yeah I work better under pressure why not set
00:15:36an
00:15:36appointment to write every day set an alarm if you have to what um what gave you the inspiration for
00:15:43your topic my experience is in Cameroon I would always hear my grandmother talk about the cycle of
00:15:49the human soul it wasn't until I was an undergrad that I realized that that's how my people preserve
00:15:55their philosophies a lot of our ideas survived I mean even though the country has been christianized
00:16:02people still practice some form of ancestor worship what do they say about the cycle of the soul
00:16:08well my tribe believes that it's synced with the world around us particularly the ocean and that the
00:16:16spirit of our ancestors live in the sea the good ones act as an intermediary between us and God
00:16:22is that what you believe well I believe that when you die your soul enters an in-between stage
00:16:28the souls of good people are in a state of paradise awaiting the last day
00:16:34what about the bad people for them it's not so nice
00:16:43are there many other muslims in Cameroon some I actually grew up christian
00:16:49and then my mom got married to my stepdad who's a muslim and then we converted
00:16:56he was an american visiting africa he was a missionary no he was a lawyer
00:17:02he converted you guys though well he wasn't an official missionary
00:17:09did you ever know your biological dad no he died when I was a baby
00:17:15my stepdad died a few years ago I'm sorry
00:17:25time to get back to work come on that was like two minutes that's how it should be
00:17:30go right I don't want you failing to be on my conscience
00:17:34maybe again tomorrow um sure if I have time okay bye
00:17:49oh you look tired sit down have some tea
00:17:55Najeeb Najeeb and his father came by today
00:18:00Mr. Saeed just made partner and Najeeb is going to be an associate at the same firm
00:18:05when he's past the bar
00:18:08nice
00:18:10you know what they came by to talk about right
00:18:14I thought if I played dumb I could avoid the subject
00:18:18Najeeb is a hot commodity and he's not going to be on the market for long
00:18:22mom you don't even act interested in men
00:18:26that's because it's rare to find one who's interesting
00:18:29you mean all those years in college you haven't been interested in anyone
00:18:33so
00:18:35you do like men don't you
00:18:37yes
00:18:39all I'm saying is that you could give him a chance
00:18:43it's time
00:18:45when I'm done with my dissertation I'll deal with it
00:18:47you know Ara maybe that's your problem
00:18:50you look at love as something to be dealt with
00:18:55I'll deal with it
00:18:57what HASAN
00:18:57and so
00:18:57I'll tell you
00:19:01or
00:19:03and
00:19:22learn
00:19:40Tomorrow, I want us to stay at my place.
00:19:44Why?
00:19:45Because it's clean.
00:19:47I mean, your parents, they hooked you up with this place.
00:19:50The least that you could do is actually keep it clean.
00:19:53I'll clean my moorhead with this.
00:19:57Yeah, well, I think that you have done enough work for today.
00:20:06I need to finish this, okay?
00:20:10Seriously?
00:20:11I mean, God forbid that we actually take our clothes off and touch each other.
00:20:24I'm going to Manny's.
00:20:36French roast with half and half, right?
00:20:37Thanks.
00:20:38Welcome.
00:20:39Do you have a table inside?
00:20:41You know, actually, I've been sitting all day long.
00:20:43Do you want to maybe take a walk?
00:20:45Sure.
00:20:50So, you never told me about your family.
00:20:52What would you like to know?
00:20:55Where are you from?
00:20:57I was born in Texas, but we moved to Seattle when my mom got out of the Air Force.
00:21:03So, it was just you and your mom?
00:21:05My stepmom, too.
00:21:09Oh.
00:21:11She is a lesbian.
00:21:13Yeah, I got that.
00:21:17So, you never knew your dad?
00:21:20Yeah.
00:21:20He was a bad guy.
00:21:22Ruffed us up a bunch.
00:21:25One night, he beat us up both pretty bad.
00:21:27She grabbed me and left.
00:21:28I'm so sorry.
00:21:29You don't have to be.
00:21:30Shit happens, you know?
00:21:32I don't think stuff like that just happens.
00:21:35I could talk about it now.
00:21:36It seems like a bad dream I used to have when I was a kid.
00:21:40Is that when you lost your faith?
00:21:42In what?
00:21:43God?
00:21:45I don't recall ever having anything.
00:21:46Your parents weren't Christians?
00:21:48No.
00:21:49Both atheists.
00:21:50Grandparents, too.
00:21:51I guess you could say, like, a third-generation skeptic.
00:21:54So, you've always doubted.
00:21:55I've always maintained that anything people say that they know about God is uncertain.
00:22:02So, you're first-generation agnostic because your parents were atheists?
00:22:05No, they felt the same way.
00:22:07Right, but you just said that they were atheists.
00:22:10Atheists aren't unsure.
00:22:12They're certain that there is no God.
00:22:14There are levels of atheism.
00:22:16Which one are you?
00:22:17Atheist light.
00:22:22Was it weird when your mom came out?
00:22:24It was odd at first, but she was so much more happy I didn't care.
00:22:28And I love my stepmom, too.
00:22:32I wonder if you would have felt the same way in Texas.
00:22:34Why would that have mattered?
00:22:37Places can affect people's attitudes.
00:22:39I think if you're strong enough, you can keep stuff out.
00:22:42Like water-resistant wood.
00:22:46When you go back to Cameroon, does it affect your attitude?
00:22:48Of course.
00:22:50My grandma's crazy.
00:22:53She's not religious, but somehow our converting to Islam traumatized her.
00:22:58You ever feel oppressed by religion?
00:23:00Like having to wear the headscarf?
00:23:02Called a hijab, and I wear it because I want to.
00:23:07My grandma bugs me about it, too.
00:23:10Does it make you feel angry?
00:23:12No.
00:23:15Just alienated.
00:23:17I don't fit in back home, and I don't quite fit in here either.
00:23:22Makes me wish there was an in-between place.
00:23:25Like somewhere you could just be without offending anyone?
00:23:29Yeah.
00:23:32Well, it's time to get back to work.
00:23:41Arjilali?
00:23:41Yeah.
00:23:44Glad she's Sasha's friend.
00:23:47So, um, how did you two meet?
00:23:51We've known her for a while, actually.
00:23:53We're in the same department.
00:23:55Met her in an art gallery, and we started talking.
00:23:57You?
00:23:59Uh, she is Sasha's good friend.
00:24:06So, um, are you guys going to start seeing each other more often?
00:24:14No.
00:24:20Well, I'm going to go spend the night at Manny's house tomorrow night.
00:24:27Let's go.
00:24:29Have fun.
00:24:32Oh, that's a good one.
00:24:34Ready?
00:24:35Yeah.
00:24:38Come on, Arjilali.
00:24:39You should have got that.
00:24:40I'm out of practice.
00:24:41Used to be really good, right?
00:24:43Good enough not to be embarrassing.
00:24:45You ever miss it?
00:24:46I miss all my free time.
00:24:49I, uh, play in the league.
00:24:51Helps me blow off steam.
00:24:52Want to come watch me sometime?
00:24:53Maybe we'll grab some food after.
00:24:57I...
00:25:14I...
00:25:16I...
00:25:18I...
00:25:18I...
00:25:18I...
00:25:25I...
00:25:40I...
00:25:43I...
00:25:44I'm going to throw in a section of Spinoza's theory.
00:25:50You added a section about rationalistic pantheism?
00:25:53Mm-hmm.
00:25:55That has nothing to do with your topic.
00:25:57It has everything to do with it.
00:25:58I'm going to show that Calvin paved the way for other thinkers like Spinoza.
00:26:02So, in a way, Calvinism helped move along the Renaissance.
00:26:04You have to show evidence.
00:26:06Are you sure you're not just a rationalistic pantheist
00:26:09and this isn't your way of infusing your personal beliefs into your argument?
00:26:13I'm agnostic. I don't think it's possible to know if any deity exists.
00:26:16Not even Spinoza's.
00:26:17Maybe some people can.
00:26:19There's no certainty that. Certainty is...it's gravity, cell division, death.
00:26:23Okay, but wouldn't you say that some people innately have a better understanding of physics than others?
00:26:27I mean, maybe the same is true for supernatural things.
00:26:30Maybe there are physical ways to study metaphysics that we just don't know about.
00:26:34Based on what people know right here and now, there's no certainty.
00:26:38Well, Spinoza would argue that the universe is deterministic.
00:26:41Everything that has happened or will happen could not have unfolded in any other way.
00:26:48And you're welcome.
00:26:50Why?
00:26:51Well, Spinoza's deterministic theory is a tie-in to Calvin's predestination.
00:26:59Would you mind coming and taking a look at some of my writing?
00:27:01Sure, I'm curious at this point.
00:27:15Not bad. Your pros and ideas are great.
00:27:18Thanks.
00:27:19Ever heard of spellcheck?
00:27:21That heat spellcheck.
00:27:22That being the hardest part about writing a paper.
00:27:29I got a call from my friend Sasha the other day.
00:27:32She said you were seeing one of her friends. Gabrielle?
00:27:36Yeah. Gab mentioned meeting you once or twice.
00:27:38Is it weird for her that we're hanging out?
00:27:41No. Why would that be weird?
00:27:44Seems like she'd be jealous.
00:27:46Nah, we have an open relationship.
00:27:49What?
00:27:51We both see other people.
00:27:53She has another guy named Manny. I'm cool with it.
00:27:56And how many women are you seeing?
00:27:59So far, just her.
00:28:01I'm biggier than she is.
00:28:03You're all crazy.
00:28:05Why?
00:28:07Don't you find that the least bit abnormal?
00:28:09No, we don't.
00:28:11You don't want to get married?
00:28:12No, not right now. No.
00:28:15She feels the same way.
00:28:16I mean, if it changes, it changes.
00:28:17Only in grad school.
00:28:19You're telling me that you've never had a boyfriend
00:28:23who you didn't want to spend the rest of your life with?
00:28:26I haven't really dated any.
00:28:28That's a little abnormal.
00:28:30Jerk.
00:28:34When everyone started dating in high school,
00:28:36none of the boys seemed interested in me, so...
00:28:39By the time we got into college, I was too busy.
00:28:43Did you make yourself too busy?
00:28:45Well, my parents wouldn't allow it, and, um...
00:28:48I wasn't ready for marriage yet, so...
00:28:51I put all that on the shelf.
00:28:52You couldn't date until you were ready to get married?
00:28:55No.
00:28:57Plus, I was coughing out.
00:29:00How so?
00:29:02Well...
00:29:03I guess I used my beliefs as a way of avoiding all the awkwardness.
00:29:08It was easier to hide behind them.
00:29:11Well, I've been hiding a bit myself, lately.
00:29:13You?
00:29:15From what?
00:29:17I don't know. Life?
00:29:18It's my seventh year in. I could have defended my fifth year if I'd won.
00:29:23Why didn't you?
00:29:28I've been a student all my life.
00:29:32I don't know what I'd do with myself.
00:29:38Are you nosing through my mp3 list?
00:29:39Maybe.
00:29:41I don't think we're in a music sharing stage in our relationship yet.
00:29:49See anything you like?
00:29:52Um...
00:29:53Yeah.
00:30:04I used to catch my mom listening to music like this when she thought no one was watching.
00:30:08Oh...
00:30:09Oh...
00:30:10Yeah.
00:30:12Oh...
00:30:15Oh...
00:30:15Oh yeah.
00:30:22I'm not gonna run.
00:30:25I'm gonna do what I need to do.
00:30:29I'll show you affection.
00:30:32Treat every moment like it was through.
00:30:37You don't have to worry.
00:30:41You don't have to hide.
00:30:45No need to protect your heart from me.
00:30:48Girl, I'm behind.
00:30:51So...
00:30:52Call me if you're with this.
00:30:54Your voice is on my wish list.
00:30:55I know that it's not Christmas, but I'm longing for your presence in my every day.
00:31:04Shit.
00:31:05Shit.
00:31:06I'm sorry.
00:31:08Oh.
00:31:13It goes off each day to remind me, right?
00:31:19You listened.
00:31:24Has it helped?
00:31:26Yeah.
00:31:26Yeah.
00:31:27I feel like I'm caught up.
00:31:31Maybe I can use my superpowers to help you with other problems in your life.
00:31:35Oh, you have superpowers, huh?
00:31:37Yes.
00:31:42What were you gonna write about?
00:31:45Spinoza and the ripples in the universe.
00:31:49About how everything that is or will be are all like ripples in a pond.
00:31:53All outside our control and nothing can change them.
00:31:57What about Calvin?
00:31:59I was gonna use the tine that you gave me.
00:32:01About how Calvin's predestination is a version of...
00:32:05It's a Christian version of Spinoza's theory.
00:32:10Do you believe that?
00:32:12Spinoza copied Calvin?
00:32:15No.
00:32:16And they're theories.
00:32:19I believe that what we do causes things to happen.
00:32:24And the consequences, they're unavoidable sometimes, but...
00:32:29It's only because of the choices.
00:32:34So...
00:32:34Cause and consequence?
00:32:36Yeah.
00:32:39You don't believe in destiny then?
00:32:41No.
00:32:43Okay, well...
00:32:44If reality is all action and reaction, then...
00:32:48Could the thing that started it all be destiny?
00:32:51So you're saying that whatever caused the ripples...
00:32:54In the universe, that's destiny?
00:32:56Maybe.
00:32:57In Islam, we call it qadar.
00:33:00Qadar.
00:33:01Yeah.
00:33:02It's the Arabic word for destiny.
00:33:07We believe that everything that has happened or will happen is known by Allah.
00:33:14So everything is determined by God?
00:33:16No, it's still cause and consequence.
00:33:18It's just that Allah sees everything.
00:33:24What?
00:33:25No.
00:33:27It's just you.
00:33:29Just you.
00:33:31Now, I've never been so comfortable.
00:33:38Both inside and out I'm glowing.
00:33:43Because of your life.
00:33:45I feel good.
00:33:49But now that's easy.
00:33:53Yeah, I have not used a world on it.
00:34:06And you can live in a wave.
00:34:07So what?
00:34:07Now, I'm gonna see you.
00:34:12I'm going to be able to see you next time.
00:34:12You can see you next time.
00:34:24Where's your silverware?
00:34:25Sure, to the left.
00:34:28Mind if we eat standing up?
00:34:31Okay.
00:34:34At home, we have to sit until everyone's done.
00:34:37You ever get tired of the lifestyle?
00:34:38Yes and no.
00:34:39Which parts?
00:34:40Like having to save yourself for marriage?
00:34:42No, but when everyone else is doing it, it's like you're missing out on something.
00:34:49You think what we did the other day is a sin?
00:34:53Yeah.
00:34:55Can you let it be on me?
00:34:57Doesn't work that way.
00:35:00I have to take care of it.
00:35:04Going to confession?
00:35:06You've got your religions mixed up.
00:35:10Our repentance is called Taba and you do it only to Allah.
00:35:14All that because we made out.
00:35:16Is that so hard to believe?
00:35:17Yeah.
00:35:18A little bit, yeah.
00:35:19You've never repented over anything you did?
00:35:22Not anything like that, no.
00:35:23It sounds horrible to me.
00:35:25Having to tell someone you're sorry all the time.
00:35:26Like you're constantly going to the spiritual principal's office or something.
00:35:30You're thinking about it the wrong way.
00:35:32It's reconciliation to God.
00:35:35You repent to get closer to God.
00:35:39What else do you ask God for?
00:35:41All kinds of things.
00:35:43Yeah, like what?
00:35:44I ask him to help people.
00:35:48I also pray for my stepdad.
00:35:50You said he passed away, right?
00:35:52Yeah, it's a do a prayer.
00:35:54You say it for the dead.
00:35:56What do you ask God to do for the dead?
00:35:57I ask him to make them among the guided ones and fill their graves with light.
00:36:06You ever pray before?
00:36:09Yeah.
00:36:10Once when I was a little boy, I saw a bunch of Mormons praying in a restaurant and I prayed
00:36:15and asked God for a million bucks.
00:36:17He didn't give it to me.
00:36:18It didn't work.
00:36:23I'm going to say a prayer for you.
00:36:24Come on, get out.
00:36:25I'm going to.
00:36:26No, we don't have to.
00:36:27What would you pray for?
00:36:30My mom's sick.
00:36:33What's her name?
00:36:34Andrea.
00:36:36Andrea.
00:36:40Allah, you are ever merciful and kind.
00:36:44Great healer, please have mercy on Andrea and cure her from her illness.
00:36:50Hey, Ben.
00:36:52What are you making?
00:36:58Oh.
00:37:00Hi, Ara.
00:37:02How are you?
00:37:04I'm good.
00:37:06So.
00:37:08Making pasta.
00:37:10Good thinking, Ben.
00:37:17No wine?
00:37:18Come on.
00:37:19You're being a bad host, Ben.
00:37:21Yeah, she doesn't drink.
00:37:22Yeah.
00:37:23Really?
00:37:24No.
00:37:25You're missing out.
00:37:28I'm going to have some though.
00:37:34So, um, tell me, what else can't you all have?
00:37:38A few things.
00:37:41Actually, I have to go.
00:37:43Lots of meetings tomorrow.
00:37:45Hey, hey, hey.
00:37:45I'll walk you out.
00:37:46No, it's fine.
00:37:56Well, that was weird.
00:38:09Be careful with her.
00:38:21Oh, my God, you're a king.
00:38:23I swear I'm not.
00:38:24My little girl's so grown up.
00:38:26Hardly.
00:38:28You kept everything intact, right?
00:38:31Wow.
00:38:31I just want to make sure you're all looked up down there.
00:38:35Seriously, though, how do you feel?
00:38:36I can't shake the feeling that I'm screwing everything up.
00:38:40Screwing what up?
00:38:41My life?
00:38:43Family?
00:38:44God?
00:38:44Sometimes you have to do what's right for you.
00:38:49Come in.
00:38:53Oh.
00:38:54Hi, guys.
00:38:56It's been a while.
00:39:02Hi, Aura.
00:39:03Hi.
00:39:03I actually wanted to talk with you a moment.
00:39:08It's okay.
00:39:11Well, unless you guys are in the middle of something.
00:39:14No, it's fine.
00:39:16I'll leave you girls to talk.
00:39:29Look, I know the whole thing with you and Ben.
00:39:33And, well, I just wanted to let you know that I'm cool with it.
00:39:36So you both have other people?
00:39:41Well, I don't believe that you ever truly have somebody.
00:39:45I think we're more like jellyfish.
00:39:47They don't really ever hold on to their mates.
00:39:51They just kind of float around, touching each other.
00:39:55Is that what you believe?
00:39:57It's what I think is true.
00:39:59And I like you.
00:40:01And just because you're connecting with Ben doesn't mean that there shouldn't be any awkwardness between us.
00:40:11I think it's just a good night.
00:40:31I like you guys.
00:40:35I like you guys.
00:40:36I like you guys.
00:40:38Sure, go ahead.
00:41:05What does it taste like?
00:41:09It has bite like a soda but no sweetness to it.
00:41:12So bitter and sharp.
00:41:15That doesn't sound very good.
00:41:19You want to sip?
00:41:23Okay.
00:41:32That's close.
00:41:33That's close.
00:41:36That's close.
00:41:37That's close.
00:42:02I can do it.
00:42:04How long before Aura finishes her degree?
00:42:09This semester, thank Allah.
00:42:14Is that Aura?
00:42:16You need your eyes checked.
00:42:18Aura.
00:42:19Aura's a good two inches shorter than her.
00:42:29Aura.
00:42:32Aura.
00:42:34Aura.
00:42:47Aura.
00:42:49Aura.
00:43:00Aura.
00:43:16Aura.
00:43:18I hope for you to explore this kind of stuff when they're ready.
00:43:19If you're not, that's okay.
00:43:22That's okay.
00:43:32Aura.
00:43:33Aura.
00:43:34Aura.
00:43:40Aura.
00:44:02I can't stay here.
00:44:04I just need my things.
00:44:06So you're not going to give us a chance?
00:44:08There is no us.
00:44:21Hi, Mom.
00:44:23Hi.
00:44:26Are you okay?
00:44:27I'm just a little tired.
00:44:31Did you have a good time last night?
00:44:35It was all right.
00:44:41I'm sorry.
00:44:44Oh, Lord, forgive me.
00:44:47Oh, Lord, forgive me.
00:44:50Oh, Lord, forgive me.
00:44:58Hey.
00:45:02Can we talk for a minute?
00:45:03Yeah, come.
00:45:10I owe you an apology for the other night.
00:45:12I just want to know what I did to make you run out of there like that.
00:45:15No, it has nothing to do with you, I swear.
00:45:20I know you don't get it, but I can't live like this.
00:45:26You're a great guy, and it wasn't fair for me to make you think that I could.
00:45:33I'm sorry.
00:45:36Well, apology accepted, I guess.
00:45:41You sure?
00:45:43Yeah, I'm fine.
00:45:45I was worried about you.
00:45:48I'll be okay.
00:45:51Tava.
00:45:52Tava.
00:45:53Tava.
00:45:54Okay.
00:45:56Well, I have to go.
00:46:00Okay.
00:46:01Okay.
00:46:02Bye.
00:46:31Did you have a bad weekend or something?
00:46:33No, I, um, I was just thinking about us, and I reconsidered.
00:46:40Okay.
00:46:42I was torn between what I wanted and God.
00:46:45I didn't think I could have both.
00:46:48But you're not torn anymore.
00:46:50I think...
00:46:54I have hope that God won't cast me out for being with someone.
00:47:01What if there wasn't a God,
00:47:03and you spent your entire life doing things that you didn't have to do to impress an imaginary friend?
00:47:08You really believe God is imaginary?
00:47:09Most intellectuals in society think so.
00:47:11There are other intellectuals in the world besides the ones in the U.S. and the U.K.
00:47:17I mean, if you interviewed professors in India, they'd give you very different answers.
00:47:20That doesn't mean they're right.
00:47:21Look at the cognitive difference between us and insects.
00:47:24You have creatures whose memory lasts a few seconds,
00:47:27and then there's humanity that can decipher how stars function.
00:47:31So?
00:47:32So, if we're that much greater than creatures we can observe, doesn't it stand to reason that they're creatures higher
00:47:37than us?
00:47:38Sure.
00:47:38Worthy of our worship, not so much.
00:47:40So arrogant.
00:47:40Why?
00:47:41Because I don't want to pay senseless homage to something that could be as made up as Santa Claus?
00:47:44No, because you think there's a possibility that God exists, but you don't think it's worth our time.
00:47:49I was reading the other day how a group of scientists figured out how to create matter out of light.
00:47:55Why isn't that praiseworthy?
00:47:56Why can't humanity focus on our own accomplishments?
00:47:59The atheist is most happy when he gets to play God.
00:48:04All cultures invent these tall tales or exaggerate things to give themselves significance.
00:48:09Like what you were telling me about your tribe submersing themselves in the ocean so they could talk to ghosts.
00:48:14You actually believe that?
00:48:16What if I did?
00:48:18The West declared a city of Troy was a myth until someone found it and then they had to eat
00:48:23their words.
00:48:24The earth was flat until the West decided it was round.
00:48:28Before they were forcing us to be Christians, now they want us to be agnostic.
00:48:32God only exists when you say he does, right?
00:48:38Those ideas and stories you're mocking are the dignity of a lot of people.
00:48:43I think it's the kind of thing you make up when you have none.
00:48:48This was a mistake.
00:48:50Thanks for clearing it up for me.
00:49:31So are you going to tell me what's wrong?
00:49:44I'm here for you.
00:49:47I'm here for you.
00:49:56I know what you're going through.
00:50:01I thought I was in love with a man I met at university, too.
00:50:06Before you met my father?
00:50:08Yes.
00:50:10It's hard when you meet folks in a certain way at a certain time.
00:50:17It's like they were tailored just for you.
00:50:22What was he like?
00:50:23Oh, you know, nice and fun.
00:50:30For the first time, I felt free, like I had my own life and I could do whatever I wanted.
00:50:39Why didn't it last?
00:50:42I realised, Dee, he wasn't really serious about life.
00:50:46He was more interested in going to one party after another than settling down and having a family.
00:50:54His lifestyle was unstable, just too crazy for me.
00:50:59When I came to my senses, I broke off with him.
00:51:03And soon after that, I met your father.
00:51:07And he was the right man for me.
00:51:13Did you ever hear about these couples and open relationships?
00:51:17Of course.
00:51:18It happens back home all the time.
00:51:20Some of the women, they just put up with it.
00:51:24Ara, are you?
00:51:28Oh, why would you be in that kind of relationship, eh?
00:51:33He has this woman he's been seeing since before we met.
00:51:38Ara, you know that isn't right.
00:51:40I can see how unhappy you are about it.
00:51:43Ara, this is going to make you an outcast in our community.
00:51:46You know that, right?
00:51:49The men in this country, they will not understand something like that.
00:51:52They'll judge you.
00:51:55I just don't know how I got wrapped up in it.
00:51:57You can unwrap yourself.
00:51:59Oh, sweetheart.
00:52:02You deserve better.
00:52:05When all this fire and passion dies away, and it will,
00:52:11you only find true freedom and peace in Allah.
00:52:24Come in.
00:52:33You're Ben Johnson?
00:52:35Yeah.
00:52:36You must be Ara's mom.
00:52:39No, sir.
00:52:40I do not wish to shake your hand.
00:52:42Beg your pardon?
00:52:43You have been defiling my daughter, and you should make this right.
00:52:47I don't know what you're talking about.
00:52:48You have been with her.
00:52:50She's never been with a man before.
00:52:53You understand?
00:52:54You're ruining her for her husband.
00:52:59My daughter is a good woman, and she deserves to be with someone who's going to treat her with respect.
00:53:05I don't think there's anything wrong with what we did.
00:53:07If you want what's best for her, leave her alone, or you'll have to marry her.
00:53:13And women in Islam cannot marry outside it.
00:53:16So are you going to convert and then break up with that other friend of yours?
00:53:21Do you see yourself married to Ara?
00:53:24You heard what I asked you.
00:53:27You understand?
00:53:28You're making her an outcast in the community if this continues.
00:53:34She'll have trouble finding a good husband.
00:53:36And for what?
00:53:37So you can feel like a big man?
00:53:41If you don't have honorable intentions for her, then leave her alone and let someone who deserves her step up.
00:54:13Hey.
00:54:14I hate to just drop in like this.
00:54:17It's okay.
00:54:19Look, I know you're busy, but have you seen Gabrielle today?
00:54:23No, it's been a couple of days.
00:54:25You're not worried?
00:54:27No, she does this all the time.
00:54:28She's probably with her folks.
00:54:30She hasn't been returning my calls.
00:54:32I just got worried.
00:54:34Anyways, I just want to make sure she's all right.
00:54:36I'm sure she's okay.
00:54:42Is there something else on your mind, man?
00:54:51Do you love her?
00:54:55I don't know.
00:54:56Right.
00:54:57That's a no.
00:54:58What is love?
00:54:59Jesus.
00:55:00Look, I'm talking to her damn philosophy.
00:55:02No, I'm not being facetious.
00:55:03How do you know you're in love with someone?
00:55:05I can't stop thinking about her.
00:55:07I go crazy when she's gone.
00:55:10I go crazy when she's over here.
00:55:12I have never felt like this with another woman.
00:55:14Yeah?
00:55:16We're together.
00:55:17It just feels...
00:55:19It feels dangerous.
00:55:22Right.
00:55:24You feel the same way?
00:55:28No.
00:55:30With Gabrielle, it's comfortable and easy, but no.
00:55:35The plans don't align.
00:55:37What about the other woman you're seeing?
00:55:42In a weird way, yeah.
00:55:45There's your answer, man.
00:55:47Do the right thing.
00:55:48Make us all happy.
00:55:52I think she should move in with me.
00:56:31Well, let's sit.
00:56:31Hang on, don't go, please.
00:56:32I don't know.
00:56:32не
00:56:32Like,
00:56:33or
00:56:33could you see?
00:56:33Yeah.
00:56:39All the
00:56:40that
00:56:40have
00:56:40and
00:56:40I'm
00:56:40lost.
00:56:40I don't know.
00:56:44Only
00:56:44can
00:56:44wait.
00:56:44Even
00:56:45even
00:57:29Hey. I am so sorry I was such an ass. Can you forgive me, please? I'm sorry. Sorry.
00:57:50You're better than this. You know that.
00:57:54Mom, I just need some time alone with him to figure some things out.
00:57:57Have you thought about the example you're setting for Mohammed and Miriam?
00:58:02Did you tell them?
00:58:04No.
00:58:06Are you going to marry this man? Have children with him?
00:58:14Mom, I love you, but I have to go.
00:58:33How are you feeling after today?
00:58:36Good.
00:58:38It's good.
00:58:42Are you still talking to Gabrielle?
00:58:46No.
00:58:50Did you love her?
00:58:52There were times when I thought I did.
00:58:56Being with her was comforting, easy.
00:59:00But we, uh, we didn't fit in a lot of ways, and I felt guilty for not making it fit.
00:59:08I was afraid of being alone, I guess.
00:59:10Why?
00:59:14Ever since I moved out of my mom's house, I always had to have a woman around me.
00:59:19It was ironic.
00:59:21I was afraid of committing myself.
00:59:23It felt like the beginning of death.
00:59:28I thought love would step in and solve everything, but...
00:59:33What is love?
01:00:01Do you believe God hears all your prayers?
01:00:03Of course.
01:00:06You think it's crazy, you know?
01:00:08No, actually, I'm a little jealous.
01:00:10Why would that make you jealous?
01:00:13Because it's something I can't experience.
01:00:16I need evidence for everything.
01:00:18The fact that you're so sure without it, um, makes me a little jealous.
01:00:23You've never thought there was a God?
01:00:26I thought there could be one once.
01:00:28When?
01:00:30There's one time when I was thinking about the origins of everything.
01:00:34Like the universe.
01:00:37What do you think about the soul?
01:00:38I don't know.
01:00:40Define it, and I will tell you what I think about it.
01:00:44It's your immaterial essence.
01:00:47The you-ness of you.
01:00:48Like a part of you that's separate from your body.
01:00:51Yeah.
01:00:53Hmm.
01:00:55Sounds like a nice idea.
01:00:57Makes me wish I had one.
01:00:58You have a soul, silly.
01:00:59Mm-mm.
01:01:00I'm not frotting.
01:01:01Stop it.
01:01:01I'm not frotting.
01:01:02I'm not frotting.
01:01:03I'm not frotting.
01:01:05I'm not frotting.
01:01:11I'm not frotting.
01:01:12It's like a lord's over tomorrow.
01:01:13It's okay.
01:01:14Okay.
01:01:16You sure?
01:01:18Yeah.
01:01:19I'm fine.
01:01:20They want to meet you.
01:01:22Go.
01:01:23Shot.
01:01:26Alright, alright, alright.
01:01:32My corset.
01:01:335.
01:01:34Come on.
01:01:38Checkmate.
01:01:39It's on you.
01:01:41Yeah.
01:01:41Oh, you ass.
01:01:47Hey!
01:01:51How are you?
01:01:53No, that's bullshit.
01:01:54What's that?
01:01:56Are you even listening?
01:01:58No, listen to me.
01:02:00I'm telling you, it's complete and utter bullshit.
01:02:03No, it's not.
01:02:04You're telling me with a straight face
01:02:06that the sexual revolution didn't liberate women.
01:02:10What I'm saying is that women, as a group,
01:02:13stopped paying attention to who they gave it up to.
01:02:15That's caused us to be objectified more, that's all.
01:02:19It's true.
01:02:20You know, we don't usually say no if it's offered.
01:02:23But why shouldn't a woman fuck whoever she wants to?
01:02:26Because we're the ones who get stuck with the kids
01:02:28when the asshole runs.
01:02:31Like you.
01:02:32You wouldn't want to have a baby with some random dude, would you?
01:03:09You wouldn't want to have a baby with some random dude, would you?
01:03:16Good morning.
01:03:18Sorry to interrupt.
01:03:20That's okay.
01:03:22All done?
01:03:23Yeah.
01:03:24Yeah.
01:03:25Every morning, right?
01:03:26Yeah.
01:03:31Did you have fun last night?
01:03:33Yeah, I won bad.
01:03:37It's kind of awkward for you.
01:03:39Sorry.
01:03:41A little bit.
01:03:42Yeah.
01:03:42My friends drink a lot.
01:03:44Sorry.
01:03:44Yeah.
01:03:45Yeah.
01:03:47The girls were pretty funny.
01:03:50They were talking about what kind of man they'd want to have kids with.
01:03:53God.
01:03:57You ever want kids?
01:03:58Uh, one day, yeah.
01:04:01It could be a nightmare now, though.
01:04:02Jeez.
01:04:04Why would it be a nightmare?
01:04:07Take over your life.
01:04:09Tie you down to some screaming spawn.
01:04:11Well, you were a screaming spawn once, too, you know.
01:04:15Yeah.
01:04:16It drove my dad nuts.
01:04:20I think it's partly why he was such a psycho.
01:04:21So, one half PTSD, the other half unwanted children.
01:04:27And he won all these, uh, medals in the Air Force for leadership, so it couldn't have been
01:04:33the stress.
01:04:36And he used to throw glasses at my head.
01:04:40Crazy shit.
01:04:43I, I honestly think that if he would have had just the room to be himself, he could have been
01:04:49a better man.
01:04:50I don't know.
01:05:00You busy today?
01:05:02Never been meeting with my advisor.
01:05:04Do you?
01:05:06I was gonna work on my dissertation.
01:05:09Okay.
01:05:10I'm gonna be late.
01:05:12Okay.
01:05:12I'm gonna clean, okay?
01:05:13Okay.
01:05:15Okay.
01:05:17Okay.
01:05:28I don't know.
01:05:55Ara, can we talk to you?
01:06:00This isn't the answer.
01:06:03I love you.
01:06:05Allah loves you.
01:06:06Mom, is this what you want?
01:06:10Are you really happy like this?
01:06:12Mom, you know I love you.
01:06:16This is just something I need to figure out on my own.
01:06:21I will wait on you forever.
01:06:30Do the right thing, Ara.
01:06:36Well, I don't know how you did it, but this looks ready to defend.
01:06:41Not bad, huh?
01:06:42It's good.
01:06:44It's thoughtful, well-written.
01:06:48What happened?
01:06:50I'm serious.
01:06:51This is a world away from your last draft.
01:06:55Yeah, I guess it is.
01:06:57Ergo, my question, what happened?
01:07:01What happened?
01:07:16I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how
01:07:16you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but
01:07:16I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how
01:07:17you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but
01:07:18I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how
01:07:19you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but
01:07:20I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how
01:07:21you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but
01:07:23I don't know how you did it, but I don't know how you did it, but I don't
01:07:42Do the right thing, Ara.
01:08:05Do the right thing, Ara.
01:08:35Do the right thing, Ara.
01:08:42Hi.
01:08:43Hey.
01:08:45So, how did your meeting go?
01:08:48Great.
01:08:49All I have to do is defend now.
01:08:52Well, I have some good news.
01:08:55I was accepted into Georgetown Law.
01:08:58Wow.
01:08:59Congrats.
01:09:02It was the first school that I applied to.
01:09:05So you're moving there after the summer?
01:09:07Right after graduation, actually.
01:09:10You didn't tell me you were applying.
01:09:12Yeah, well, I'm probably going to be heading there in May,
01:09:16because I want to get a lay of the land before the fall semester starts.
01:09:19And, um, well, I wanted to see if you would come with me.
01:09:27I, uh, I'm pregnant.
01:09:34Are you sure?
01:09:36Yep.
01:09:37I missed my period, and I went to the doctor, and I got the call today.
01:09:44I'm keeping the baby.
01:09:50I'm not saying this to be an ass, but are you sure it's mine?
01:09:54Yes, I'm sure it's yours.
01:09:56You are the only one that I have had unprotected sex with.
01:10:01You know, I just assumed that you would want to be involved in the life of your child.
01:10:08No.
01:10:09I mean, you're right.
01:10:12I'm just processing this.
01:10:32Oh, it's bad.
01:10:34Oh, God.
01:10:35Oh, God.
01:10:39What's going on, stranger?
01:10:40I've missed talking to you.
01:10:41Tell Ben 11.
01:10:43Lana says hi and that she loves you.
01:10:45Nah, I missed you all.
01:10:48Sorry, I've been busy getting my dissertation together, but...
01:10:52How's it coming?
01:10:54It's ready to go.
01:10:55Are you all right, Benny?
01:10:57Your voice on strange.
01:10:58Yeah, I haven't been too careful here lately.
01:11:04No, Gabrielle's pregnant.
01:11:07Uh...
01:11:07Wow.
01:11:08Crazy, huh?
01:11:10How do you feel about this?
01:11:13I am...
01:11:14Shaken up.
01:11:17Um...
01:11:17She's going to Georgetown in the fall.
01:11:20She wants me to come with her.
01:11:22And, uh, you don't want to?
01:11:25No.
01:11:27Um...
01:11:27There's someone else.
01:11:28Someone else?
01:11:30Benny, this is soap opera stuff.
01:11:32We have an open relationship.
01:11:34I'm an idiot.
01:11:35Bringing myself into this.
01:11:37I...
01:11:38Gabrielle, she and I, we were just good for the time being, you know?
01:11:42Um...
01:11:42I have finally met this other girl who I have a real connection with.
01:11:45And I...
01:11:48I just think I ruined it.
01:11:50Just like Dad.
01:11:51Um...
01:11:51Ben.
01:11:52Ben.
01:11:53Benjamin.
01:11:54You couldn't be like that man if you tried.
01:11:58Do you want to live the rest of your life with Gabrielle?
01:12:03No.
01:12:04No.
01:12:06Well...
01:12:07Could you be a good father if you weren't living with her?
01:12:13Yeah.
01:12:14Well, it sounds to me like you've answered your own question.
01:12:23Hey.
01:12:24Hey.
01:12:25How'd your day go?
01:12:27Not bad.
01:12:28I...
01:12:28I didn't mean for you to clean all of this.
01:12:30It's okay.
01:12:32I said I'd clean.
01:12:33It's fine.
01:12:35So...
01:12:38You're too good to me.
01:12:39You shouldn't have to take care of my mess.
01:12:41I work better when things are clean.
01:12:44You hungry?
01:12:45Yeah, food sounds good.
01:12:46I don't know.
01:12:53Hey, there's something I've got to tell you.
01:12:56Something wrong?
01:12:58Yeah, I...
01:13:00I had a weird day today.
01:13:01I got some news.
01:13:04What is that?
01:13:08I don't know how to tell you this.
01:13:12What?
01:13:14Gabrielle's pregnant.
01:13:20I just found out today.
01:13:22Listen, I'm gonna tell her that even with the baby...
01:13:26I'm still gonna be with you.
01:13:33Um...
01:13:34Ar...
01:13:36Can you listen?
01:13:38Fuck.
01:13:38I...
01:13:38I didn't do this on purpose.
01:13:40Can you...
01:13:41Can you give me...
01:13:42The dignity...
01:13:43Of listening to me for a second.
01:13:51I need you to listen to me.
01:13:57I need you to get histpinary care.
01:14:04What?
01:14:10I need to do...
01:14:11I need you to�h me.
01:14:17Memories.
01:14:17I need you to run this in half a second.
01:14:19What's your Dething gives you?
01:14:20What?
01:14:21Did you enter your 기억atories from the Alad?
01:14:21I need you to get to your post-agan.
01:14:21What are you from me?
01:14:21Well I need you to find this where we can have a nice shift.
01:14:35It's very early in your first trimester,
01:14:37so you have lots of options.
01:14:41I have an opening as early as next Wednesday.
01:14:45Will it hurt?
01:14:46Some women have pain like cramps during the procedure,
01:14:50but it's very safe.
01:14:54But you don't have to make a decision today.
01:15:17Hi.
01:15:19I talked to your mom.
01:15:21She's worried about you.
01:15:24I figured as much.
01:15:26I've been worried about you, too.
01:15:29Is there anything I can do?
01:15:34I don't think anyone can help me now.
01:15:38Aura, my father and I have been pushy.
01:15:40I'm sorry for that.
01:15:42Look, I don't care what's happened.
01:15:45I want to help you if you'll let me.
01:15:51Professors, thank you for your time here today.
01:15:54My dissertation focuses on the tenets of Calvinism
01:15:58and how that philosophy spread across Western Europe
01:16:00and affected the politics and culture.
01:16:03And contrary to statistics,
01:16:05Cameroonian philosophies still thrive within Christianity,
01:16:08much like the cult of Isis survives within Roman Catholicism
01:16:12as the veneration of Mary.
01:16:14That was brilliant, Aura.
01:16:18Congratulations on a remarkable defense
01:16:20and on your engagement.
01:16:23So will you be Dr. Jalali?
01:16:26No, I'm choosing to take my husband's name.
01:16:32You can just have a seat over there.
01:16:49How'd it go in there?
01:16:51It did okay.
01:16:55You?
01:16:57I'm pretty sure I passed.
01:17:00You think so?
01:17:03If I would have done this a month ago,
01:17:05I would have said no.
01:17:08You?
01:17:10I passed, I think.
01:17:17I heard you got engaged.
01:17:20Yeah.
01:17:25Congrats.
01:17:27Thanks.
01:17:31What are you gonna do after this?
01:17:35I'm moving to D.C. to be near Gabrielle.
01:17:38I got a teaching fellowship there.
01:17:45Well, I hope you two are happy.
01:17:50Ben?
01:17:51Aura.
01:17:55Hey, listen.
01:17:56I just want to say...
01:17:58No, Ben.
01:18:01Not here.
01:18:03They're ready for you, Ben.
01:18:19They're ready for you, Ben.
01:18:27What were you gonna write about?
01:18:30Spinoza and the ripples in the universe.
01:18:35About how everything that is, or will be, are all like ripples in a pond.
01:18:40All outside our control and nothing can change them.
01:18:44Do you believe that?
01:18:45Do you believe that?
01:18:46No.
01:19:00I see wind in the trees
01:19:08I see the leaves shiver in the breeze
01:19:13And the stone so carelessly thrown
01:19:21We'll change the surface of the water as we've known
01:19:29I see stars standing my ground
01:19:35They've shifted light, they've moved around
01:19:42My dimming sight
01:19:46Oh, sweet time
01:19:50When I was yours and you were mine
01:19:58Fate's a cold face
01:20:02She stares unmoved
01:20:06As we make our plans and do the things we do
01:20:11But how we tempted her
01:20:15Until the end
01:20:19And though we loved and lost
01:20:23I'd do it all again
01:20:27Since the start
01:20:31Since the fall
01:20:34There's someone trying to make sense out of it all
01:20:41It seems a waste to give the tools to till the land
01:20:48Then turn around and take the harvest from our hands
01:20:56Fate's a cold face
01:20:59She stares unmoved
01:21:04As we make our plans and do the things we do
01:21:09And how we tempted her
01:21:14Until the end
01:21:17And though we loved and lost
01:21:21I'd do it all again
01:21:23If you'd love and lost
01:21:29I'd love you
01:21:52If you'd love me
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