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00:01Previously on Doc
00:01Dr. Larsen has no recollection of the last eight years.
00:04Did you know he was gonna do this?
00:06If I did, I would have had him committed.
00:07When I really needed you, you weren't there for me.
00:09Go, report me to Joan.
00:11I'm not gonna do that.
00:12Because you still love me.
00:13Part of you still loves Mom.
00:14Part of me always will.
00:16Nosebleaks, naproxen, an IT injection from Mexico?
00:19We need to slow down your treatment.
00:20No, it's working.
00:22We could use a new intern.
00:23You're going to interview them and select the best candidate.
00:26In two months, there will be an official evaluation.
00:29Some of you will not survive it.
00:46Where's the condom?
00:48Oh, uh, yeah, I'll get it.
00:51You know you can leave the sheet, right?
00:53The point is I want to see you naked.
00:56Right, yeah.
01:00Just tell me that you found one.
01:03Um, got it.
01:07Get over here.
01:12What just happened?
01:14It hasn't happened yet.
01:15I can't see.
01:16What?
01:18Mila, I'm blind.
01:21I'm blind!
01:34What are you doing?
01:39Beignets.
01:40From that place we loved in New Orleans.
01:42How?
01:43Internet and a credit card, baby.
01:44Oh.
01:46You really are trying to get back into my good graces.
01:49Mm.
01:49Is it working?
01:50Very much so.
01:52Mm-hmm.
01:54So how are you feeling?
01:55Any symptoms?
01:57Any memories?
01:58I remember Jake telling me that he loved me.
02:01And then I kissed him.
02:03You kissed him in the memory, or...?
02:05In the on-call room.
02:06Yesterday.
02:07Okay.
02:08Wow.
02:09So, uh...
02:09What now?
02:11Uh...
02:12Verdict's not in yet.
02:15What is that?
02:17I'm in the atonement stage of guilt.
02:22It's a process.
02:24Okay.
02:25Well, I'm here if you need me.
02:27I'm fine.
02:29The results aren't what I'd hoped.
02:31Unfortunately, your platelet count dropped significantly while you were away.
02:34I know.
02:35I felt the decline, so I tested my own blood a few days ago.
02:39Uh, we've had this conversation.
02:41So, let's not bother having it again.
02:43How long do I have before I'm too exhausted to move, or if I'm really lucky, develop full-blown leukemia?
02:50One to three years, depending on how I respond to treatment?
02:54Somewhere in there.
02:56You'll need regular transfusions, uh, blood, platelets, and we'll need to start the meds soon.
03:02Yeah, of course.
03:02Uh, any new symptoms?
03:04Weakness? Tremors?
03:06Nope.
03:08Well, this is going to get rough at some point.
03:11Do you have children?
03:14I have a son, Ethan.
03:17Would he be willing to help?
03:18He doesn't return my calls, so I'm gonna say no.
03:21Okay.
03:22Well, you have some time to work it out.
03:24But, no more trips to developing countries.
03:28You need a stable lifestyle, closer to treatment.
03:31I took the Chief of Internal Medicine job at Westside.
03:34Well, uh, that's quite a bit more grueling than I would advise.
03:38You stick with the medicine.
03:40I'll stick with the life choices.
03:43And remember HIPAA.
03:45I don't want anyone at Westside thinking I'm anything less than vital.
03:53So she's just making everyone compete, and she's just gonna start firing everybody?
03:57More like a Roman Emperor makes the gladiators fight to the death kind of thing.
04:01One thing's for sure, Amy Larson is gonna be just fine.
04:04What makes you say that?
04:05Dr. Ridley's her mentor.
04:06Once again, the CMO stacks the deck.
04:10Morning.
04:10Morning!
04:11Morning!
04:13Hi, I'm Hannah Clark. I'm an intern.
04:16Amy Larson.
04:18So am I.
04:20Dr. Clark?
04:22Welcome to the Thunderdome.
04:24Our shiny new intern Hannah starts today.
04:27I'm impressed with your choice there.
04:28Less so with how you've been managing Dr. Larson.
04:32Um, I'm sorry, I'm not exactly-
04:34I'm gonna spare you the indignity of lying to me again.
04:36You were aware she gave an unapproved experimental treatment to a patient.
04:41That patient coded.
04:42You helped manage that code, and yet none of this was reported to me.
04:47Let this be a lesson that I will know everything that goes on in my hospital.
04:51And do not, even for a second, contemplate interrogating the interns or nurses
04:56to determine how I found this out.
04:59No, uh, of course. I would never do that.
05:01I have no idea what you would or would not do.
05:03And thus far, I am less than dazzled by your judgment.
05:05I understand.
05:07It was a mistake. It won't happen again.
05:08You're damn right it won't happen again, because you are her supervisor,
05:11and you are expected to perform that duty impartially.
05:15I don't know the current status of your relationship,
05:17but if you both intend to stay here,
05:20and clearly no other hospital would take her right now,
05:23it ends immediately. Understood?
05:26Understood.
05:27Good.
05:28Dr. Barrett?
05:29Yeah.
05:30Mind if I tag along?
05:31Of course.
05:33Oh, my God.
05:34Wait.
05:35You're a 40-something doctor with partial retrograde amnesia?
05:38I read the case study.
05:40I guess I'm quite the truest attraction.
05:42I'm sorry.
05:43I don't.
05:44It's just awkward every time I have to explain my situation.
05:47Good morning.
05:48Okay.
05:49You ready for your first day?
05:51Absolutely.
05:51And I brought you a coffee.
05:54Oh.
05:54Your usual, as per the barista.
05:56I hope it's not too much of a suck-up move.
05:58No, not at all.
05:59That was actually my move back in the day.
06:04So, you're both with me today.
06:07Hannah, can you meet us in room 618?
06:09We'll be there in a minute.
06:09Oh, sure. Okay.
06:15I need you to paint inside the lines today, okay?
06:23I'm afraid Matt has a clad skin tumor.
06:25His scans show it's blocking the bile ducts in his liver
06:28and causing toxin buildup in his brain.
06:31There are two ways we can deal with it.
06:33The first is a relatively safe radiation treatment
06:36we can use to shrink the tumor.
06:38So, what does that look like?
06:43He'd be in a coma for a few months.
06:45A few months?
06:46Oh, my God.
06:47To allow time for the tumor to shrink.
06:49But the process damages the liver significantly.
06:52His life expectancy after that treatment would be
06:55five to ten years.
06:57But he'd be in good health.
06:59The liver damage would mean daily medications,
07:03regular abdominal fluid taps,
07:05probably procedures to deal with the dilated blood vessels
07:07in his esophagus,
07:09and ultimately he might need a liver transplant.
07:12And this is really the only option?
07:13No.
07:14The riskier option would be a major surgery,
07:17which could be performed today.
07:18And what are the complications with that?
07:20If he comes through it,
07:21he could make a full recovery.
07:23But the chances that he dies on the table are high.
07:27This is an impossible choice.
07:31We'll give you some time to think about it.
07:35I'll be back in a bit.
07:51Hey, Seth.
07:53I'm Dr. Heller.
07:54I'm with Dr. Larson and Dr. Clark.
07:56I can't see.
07:56I know.
07:57We're gonna figure out why.
07:58Uh, Kathy Harper says mom.
08:00Hi.
08:02Seth, what were you doing when this happened?
08:04Nothing.
08:04Just studying.
08:06I mean, I was tutoring this girl in my dorm.
08:09Okay.
08:10Have you taken any drugs or alcohol in the last 24 hours?
08:13No alcohol, but this was finals week, so I took a ton of Adderall.
08:18And then I couldn't sleep, so I took an Advan.
08:20And then I needed more Adderall to stay awake.
08:22Oh, God, Seth.
08:23Um, um, everybody does this stuff.
08:27Potential diagnosis?
08:28I think it's hypoperfusion to the visual cortex,
08:30but there's nothing showing up in his MRI.
08:33Uh, that's because it takes four hours for it to show up in a scan.
08:36Right.
08:37Course of treatment?
08:38Uh, verapamil, 10 milligrams, and magsulf IV run in over two minutes.
08:43We treat it before we see it, because time is neurons.
08:46Am I ever gonna be able to see again?
08:48Of course.
08:48They can treat this.
08:51Uh, we need to work fast.
08:54We were talking about getting married, and now I might lose him forever.
08:59But he wouldn't want to be debilitated for the rest of his life in five years?
09:03I mean, like I said, it could be ten.
09:08No, we have to try for the surgery.
09:10Are you sure?
09:13Yes.
09:14Okay.
09:15Just need you to sign the consent form.
09:19You said your name's Nathan?
09:21Yeah.
09:22And, uh, who's Grant?
09:24Matt's ex-husband.
09:25They got divorced three years ago. Why?
09:27He's still Matt's legal proxy.
09:29What does that mean?
09:31It means...
09:33he's gonna make the decision.
09:42Hey, I hear you want to see me, but first, I'd like to introduce you to my daughter, Hannah.
09:48This is Dr. Larson, Chief of Internal Medicine, and my boss.
09:52Dad told me a lot about you.
09:53You too.
09:54He, uh, mentioned that you're, uh, following in his footsteps.
09:58I'm at Case Western, just home for the holidays.
10:01Well, it's great to put a face to the name.
10:04Uh, see you at home?
10:05Yes.
10:06Yeah.
10:07Thanks for coming.
10:08Great meeting you, Dr. Larson.
10:13Shut the door, please.
10:18What's going on?
10:27What is this?
10:28This is security footage of you walking out of a procedure.
10:32You left a patient on the table.
10:35What kind of police state are you running here?
10:37This is not the first time that your colleagues couldn't find you.
10:40I got an emergency call from my son's school.
10:42This was a Saturday.
10:44Since when is the parking lot the best place to take a phone call?
10:47Oh my God.
10:49The patient was fine.
10:50Yeah, the patient could have stroked out.
10:51But he didn't.
10:52What are you, what are you trying to do here?
10:54Your behavior seems to be getting more erratic.
10:58Erratic?
10:58I'm not erratic.
10:59If you were having personal problems, I will approve a leave of absence, but this cannot continue.
11:09I guess the hands don't forget.
11:1110,000 hours.
11:20You okay?
11:21Oh, yeah.
11:23It's just a coping skill.
11:24For anxiety?
11:25Yes.
11:26First day.
11:30I really didn't want to lead with this.
11:33With what?
11:34My father was a doctor here.
11:37Ryan Clark.
11:38I know you won't remember him, but he was an attending in your department for three years.
11:43Wait, your father worked under me when I was chief?
11:46We actually met once here at the hospital.
11:50But when we were introduced this morning, you acted like-
11:53I know.
11:53I'm sorry.
11:54I just didn't know how to handle it.
11:56In front of everyone.
12:01He died a few years ago.
12:03Oh, I'm so sorry.
12:07I get it.
12:26Hello?
12:28Hello?
12:29Who is this?
12:33I think all it needs is communication and-
12:37Ah.
12:38Hi.
12:40You must be Nathan.
12:42Then I guess you're Grant.
12:43And I'm Dr. Ridley.
12:45Please, take a seat.
12:46Because of Matt's condition, we need to begin treatment immediately.
12:49I-I believe Dr. Matra's explained the options.
12:52I have.
12:53Do you have any questions?
12:55Any-anything you'd like to discuss with Nathan?
12:59No, you can do the radiation.
13:01Hold on.
13:03You're gonna really let him make this decision?
13:05Matt would want more time-
13:06That's not for you to say.
13:08Actually, it is.
13:09Which is why he left me as his proxy.
13:12He cheated on Matt and broke his heart, so clearly Matt just forgot to update the form.
13:16Well, unfortunately, nothing was clear.
13:18They got divorced three years ago.
13:20Matt hasn't spoken to him since.
13:21Okay.
13:22The-the point is, is that I know Matt a lot better than Nathan, which is why I-
13:25You're the proxy.
13:26It's like you're taking pleasure in this.
13:28You've been together for, what, six months?
13:31Eight.
13:31We had 16 years.
13:33Which ended because you betrayed him.
13:35That's right.
13:35That-that is the simplistic version.
13:37Right.
13:37You're-you're young, okay?
13:39You have no idea what it feels like to get older.
13:41You know, at a certain point, skydiving is not the top priority anymore.
13:45Maybe not for you.
13:45And maybe you just don't want to be his caregiver.
13:47You really are an S.
13:49Okay, this is becoming highly unproductive.
13:52If you could just give us the room.
13:53Give us a chance to talk.
14:03What now?
14:07Are your nipples sore?
14:08I mean, from all the breastfeeding.
14:11I have no idea what a man would actually do on paternity leave.
14:14Joan, I'm exhausted.
14:16I've been spit up on so many times I stopped changing my shirt.
14:19Get to it.
14:20Dr. Matra wants to override a medical proxy.
14:22She has a good point and she wants her day in court.
14:24Can't you just have the ethics committee handle it?
14:27We don't have time to get that organized.
14:29We need a decision today.
14:31Okay.
14:32I'll be right in.
14:33And change your shirt.
14:36You going into work?
14:38Just a few hours.
14:39It's urgent.
14:45It'll be a few minutes for the results you just finished.
14:47Any improvement in decision?
14:49Not yet.
14:50How's it going with Glen Gary?
14:51I heard somebody's getting canned.
14:53Somebody's getting a Rolex.
14:55Everybody's got their metaphor, but sadly no Rolexes.
14:58Did you know she was going to do this?
15:00Nope.
15:01Think it's a good idea?
15:03Uh, no comment.
15:05Wow.
15:05Comedy man.
15:06Are you bickering or flirting?
15:07I don't know.
15:08Could be a fine line.
15:10Dr. Heller, you should see this.
15:16Ah, my head is killing me.
15:18Yeah, that can happen with the MRI.
15:20But look at his index finger.
15:24Does that hurt?
15:25Uh, a little.
15:26Yeah.
15:26Oh my god, Seth.
15:27When did it start?
15:27A minute ago.
15:29What is it?
15:30Uh, it's a blood clot.
15:32What does that mean?
15:33It means he might have clots in his eyes.
15:36And it's not from Adderall.
15:41Always fun to be summoned to HR.
15:44What can I do for you, Edie?
15:47Dr. Clark filed a complaint against you for harassment.
15:50Really?
15:50He said you were verbally abusive and singled him out for unfair treatment.
15:53So I would take this one seriously.
15:56I do.
15:57Brian is going through something as his chief.
16:01I tried to help him.
16:02The fact that he made a formal complaint tells me that he is really not thinking straight.
16:06Well, you need to explain what happened, for the record.
16:09Yours and his.
16:10Nope.
16:11I told you everything that matters.
16:13I have lives to save.
16:16He has blood clots forming in his eyes and his hand.
16:19And he has the arteries of an eight-year-old.
16:22Okay. Well, there's only one thing that can cause that.
16:24Alpia.
16:25Elevita Lipoprotein A?
16:26Exactly.
16:27Still, there is something exacerbating the Alpia.
16:30Well, if we know it's not from the Adderall, then what is it?
16:33He said he was with a girl when this happened.
16:35Right.
16:36Which is why he didn't want to say anything in front of his mom.
16:39Okay, I'm going to need you to run interference for me.
16:42Um, can you check on Nina Rogers and 618?
16:44We're going to need some space and discretion for this.
16:48I asked you earlier what drugs you were taking.
16:50You kind of left something out.
16:53You're not going to tell me that's what's causing this.
16:54I'm not here to judge, but I do know you were taken by Agra.
16:59It was a knockoff.
17:01Okay, Seth. I'm going to need all the information.
17:03It's not what you think.
17:07I started watching porn when I was like 12.
17:10My dad died.
17:12I was depressed, spending a lot of time online.
17:16I guess I got pretty addicted to it.
17:19By the time I was old enough to get with a girl,
17:23I had gotten so used to seeing those women in the videos that...
17:28I don't know.
17:30I was just ruined.
17:32I'm sorry.
17:33A 12-year-old shouldn't be able to see that so easily.
17:36After a couple of times where I couldn't, you know,
17:41perform.
17:42I started taking knockoff Viagra.
17:44Didn't seem like a big deal at the time.
17:45A ton of guys that I knew were taking it.
17:47But then,
17:49it eventually stopped working.
17:51Do you know what dosage you were taking?
17:5350 milligrams.
17:55Then I started doubling it, throwing in some Cialis knockoffs too.
17:58Where were you getting this?
17:59It's easy online.
18:01Jeez. It's like the Wild West.
18:03Now I told you, can you please explain to me what's going on?
18:07You have elevated LPA.
18:09It's sticky cholesterol.
18:11It clogs your arteries.
18:13That's what caused your ED.
18:14And then a high dose of the Viagra knockoff.
18:16That lowered your blood pressure, which triggered the clots.
18:19That's what caused the blindness.
18:21So, if I stop taking the pills, I can see again?
18:25Unfortunately, he's sustained damage that isn't easily reversed.
18:30But the first step is to start him on a medication called TPA, to break up the clots.
18:35So, the drugs for the erectile dysfunction causes?
18:38The condition existed previously, but they made it worse.
18:45You know, you send them away and you hope you can protect them, but then you don't know what's happening.
18:52I warned him about fentanyl.
18:54I've been never taking a drink from anyone.
18:56I even gave him those strips, but...
18:59Not this.
19:02I never even thought of this.
19:04This is why we worry, even when they're under our own roof.
19:11They used to tell me everything.
19:16And I was like, I don't know him at all.
19:19It's so hard.
19:21But they do come back.
19:24Well, at least you have a solution.
19:26That's what matters.
19:28I need to be honest with you, Mrs. Harper, with how far this has progressed.
19:34Our treatment protocol has a 50% success rate.
19:40Are you saying there's a 50% chance he's going to be blind for the rest of his life?
19:46In the last eight years, there haven't been any advances.
19:50What about the Norton lab? Was it working on high-intensity ultrasound?
19:54Yeah, they could never figure out how to break up the clots without causing bleeding.
19:58What about stent retrieval?
20:00Uh, too bulky for the retinal arteries.
20:02Yeah.
20:04Okay, why not balloon angioplasty?
20:06Back, you know, that could release the shower of emboli into the retina.
20:09Look, you want to keep digging them all for it, but we're working against the clock here.
20:13So, I'm administering the best practices treatment plan.
20:16Understood.
20:17Um, can you grab Gina for a psych consult?
20:20I'm worried about his mental state.
20:23Hey.
20:23Yeah.
20:25Something going on?
20:26Are we okay?
20:28It's fine, yeah.
20:30Um, yeah, we'll talk about it at the end of the day.
20:33Okay.
21:13Hello.
21:14Hey.
21:15How are you?
21:16Yeah, I'm fine.
21:17Um, what do you need?
21:18We have a patient who needs a psych...
21:24Where are you?
21:26Are you at the train tracks?
21:28I needed some air.
21:30Uh, took a drive and ended up here.
21:32Okay.
21:32I'm okay.
21:34Okay.
21:34I'm...
21:35I'm coming down there.
21:36No.
21:37Please.
21:38I...
21:41I can't.
21:43We'll talk later.
21:57We went to HR.
21:58Yeah, yeah, I went to HR.
22:00Yeah, I wanted them to hear my side of the story first.
22:02I wasn't gonna report you, Brian.
22:04I was...
22:04I was trying to help you.
22:05Yeah, but you're not even supposed to be talking to me right now, Amy.
22:08This is retaliation.
22:09Okay.
22:10Should we...
22:11Should we go down to HR right now and put all our cards and videos on the table?
22:15See what happens?
22:16You are so arrogant.
22:17And rude and difficult, but you cannot hide behind me.
22:20Look, I don't know what's going on with you, but you are not okay.
22:24So, either take a couple months leave and get some help,
22:29or I'm gonna recommend that you be terminated.
22:31Those are your options.
22:32Look, I...
22:33Amy, I...
22:33I can't...
22:34I can't afford to take any unpaid leave.
22:37I have a family to support here.
22:38It's option one or option two.
22:40No, please.
22:40Please don't do this to me.
22:41You are putting patients in danger.
22:43I am a good doctor.
22:46Don't you ever dare say that I am not a good doctor!
23:04If...
23:05If I resign, will you please just not put any of this in my file?
23:10I was never gonna do that.
23:14Just go.
23:19And get some help.
23:31How about VEGF viral gene therapy?
23:34It showed promise in this study.
23:35It's a mouse model.
23:36It won't correlate.
23:37In med school, we learned about surgeons using microvascular catheters to reattach toes.
23:42Well, the digital arteries are much easier to access.
23:44We can't navigate through the brain without risking basic brain function.
23:49Hold on.
23:51Okay, here's a study that uses microvascular catheters on a renal thrombosis.
23:58Appreciate it.
23:58We'll send someone.
23:59Okay.
24:00I found a dual aspiration mechanical thrombectomy catheter for cardiac obstruction.
24:06Okay.
24:06The clouds are in his eyes.
24:07Why are we talking about hearts?
24:08Yeah.
24:08That was Dr. Aiken from Hopkins.
24:10It's his cardiac study.
24:11He says he used it once on the ophthalmic artery and it worked.
24:15How did he guide it to the eye?
24:16He used contrast to enhance x-ray fluoroscopy.
24:19Good work.
24:22Both of you, um, prep the procedure.
24:27So what am I supposed to do here to convince you?
24:31Just tell me about your relationship.
24:33Okay, well, uh, when we first met, I fell so in love with Matt that I tried to be a
24:42more
24:42interesting person than I actually am.
24:46Matt loved skiing and, uh, hiking, and I'm talking like the Alps, okay?
24:51He ran the Boston Marathon.
24:53He, uh, he had a motorcycle.
24:55God help us.
24:57Opposites attract?
24:58Yeah.
24:59Yeah.
24:59Yeah, they did.
25:01Until we hit 50 and then I just, I just wanted to stay home by the fire and read.
25:09But once I stopped trying to be someone else, then we started fighting.
25:17And, uh, and I, I cheated with, with an accountant.
25:21It lasted three weeks.
25:23It was...
25:27Look, Matt is the best man that I have ever known.
25:31But we weren't happy.
25:34You know, we were just... family.
25:40When did you last speak with him?
25:42Well, when the divorce was finalized.
25:45But no, no, that, that doesn't mean that I don't know him.
25:47You have to know someone really well to pretend to be what they want, okay?
25:51For 16 years.
25:55I wasn't supposed to know about the wedding rings.
25:57I found the jewelers box in his suitcase when I was unpacking his things.
26:03Matching gold bands he bought in Zurich last week.
26:08Sure, that must make this harder.
26:12We met at the top of the Matterhorn.
26:17We were both getting ready to take a black diamond mogul run,
26:20and I said something about age before beauty,
26:24and he challenged me to a race.
26:28He was so strong.
26:31And, and graceful.
26:34And I could barely keep up.
26:38We've been inseparable ever since.
26:41Pretty fearless.
26:43He once told me, uh, if he was afraid of something,
26:47he had to do it immediately so it wouldn't have power over him.
26:51On our first date, we went skydiving.
26:55On our second, he met my mother.
27:01We have a beautiful life.
27:04And if Matt doesn't recover fully,
27:09would you be willing to take that on?
27:17I know he wouldn't want that.
27:24But I'll take any version of him.
27:28In sickness and in health.
27:48So I've decided to take some time off from the hospital.
27:53What?
27:54Yeah, COVID really burned me out,
27:56and I realized I just wanted to spend some more time at home.
28:01So I resigned.
28:04Why would you do that without discussing it with me first?
28:08We are still paying off Charlie's college.
28:10He'll be fine, Mom.
28:11He needs a break.
28:12And hospitals are gonna be fighting over him
28:14whenever he decides to go back.
28:15Well, I'm glad you're so confident
28:17when we're paying 100K a year for your med school.
28:19She's always Pollyanna.
28:21It's just for a month or two,
28:22and then I'll get back to it at a different hospital.
28:24Okay?
28:25It'd be nice to get some support around here.
28:32Advancing up the internal carotid artery.
28:34Traversing the skull base.
28:37Okay, cavernous segment should be coming up on the right.
28:40Ophthalmic up next.
28:42Okay, retracting the guide wire.
28:48Advancing microcatheter.
28:56Okay.
28:57Let me go and you're in.
28:59Injecting contrast.
29:05Okay, there's the clot.
29:06It's bigger than I expected.
29:21Okay, one position for the thrombectomy.
29:23Dr. Larson.
29:24Can you do the honors?
29:28I think Hannah could do it.
29:32Okay, Hannah.
29:35You're gonna suck out the first clot now.
29:40Hell of a doozy you dragged me out of the house to deal with.
29:43Must be quite a guy to have two people fighting over him.
29:48I realized as I was interviewing Grant that I never changed my own proxy.
29:54Not after the divorce.
29:55Not even after I got remarried.
29:58You realized you mean it was an oversight?
30:01No.
30:02I think I've been avoiding changing it.
30:06Why?
30:07When we were bringing Simon home from the hospital, I was dragging my feet.
30:14Scared.
30:15Amy happened to see me and she knew exactly what was going through my mind.
30:23Part of me still thinks she knows me best.
30:30Then I guess we know what your decision is.
30:41Grant.
30:44I came to tell you we're honoring your decision.
30:47Dr. Matra will prep Matt right away for his first radiation treatment.
30:51I may have been wrong.
30:54Why?
30:55Look, I know what I said before, but I...
30:58I think maybe...
31:01Maybe it's me that wants more time.
31:07You know, because I...
31:09Because I just can't stand the thought of him leaving this world.
31:12And just not having one last chance to talk to him.
31:16But...
31:18But that's my problem.
31:20Right?
31:32Hey, um...
31:33He'll be in surgery for a few more hours and I'm...
31:36Finished here. Would you mind if I, uh...
31:39Read it too?
31:40That'd be great.
31:57How are you doing?
32:00Got scared out of my mind.
32:02Yeah.
32:04This is what he would have wanted.
32:11He talked about you last week.
32:13Oh, God.
32:15Do I want to know?
32:17He said he finally understood why you did what you did.
32:21You were pretending and you weren't happy.
32:25And you deserve to find real love.
32:32Well, you have no idea how much that means to me.
32:38So...so thank you.
32:43Anyway...
32:44He's not angry anymore.
32:45He's not angry anymore.
32:47Because he found you.
32:49He's not angry anymore.
33:12He's not angry anymore.
33:15Because he found you.
33:15We were both pretty concerned that you have donated $11,000 to charities for the victims' families.
33:23You went behind my back.
33:25Come here.
33:29I have been a bad friend for years.
33:32And part of doing it right this time is caring more about you than whether or not you're gonna be
33:38mad at me.
33:39Is that right?
33:41Friendship can't always be coffee and beignets.
33:45Sometimes it's calling somebody's wife behind their back.
33:50And telling them they need to get a new therapist.
33:55I can't believe she took your call.
33:58We both love you, even if she doesn't like me.
34:03I'll find a therapist.
34:06But you have to keep the beignets coming.
34:44Michael.
34:45Hey.
34:48You okay?
34:49Uh, yeah.
34:50Just a bit dizzy.
34:52Um, sorry.
34:53I heard you came in today.
34:54And I wanted to ask...
34:59Amy.
35:00Amy.
35:00Amy, sit down.
35:01Sit down.
35:06I've...
35:07Been having memory seizures.
35:09From the treatments?
35:10Yeah.
35:11What are you seeing?
35:15Fragments...
35:16Of Christmas.
35:17Like an ugly Christmas sweater.
35:20You know?
35:20Like the...
35:21The kind that lights up.
35:23Did you ever have one of those?
35:25No.
35:26Anything more?
35:28Nothing clear.
35:29But this is gonna sound weird.
35:31I...
35:32I feel like my brain is trying to warn me about something.
35:38I'm sorry.
35:39I...
35:41I wish I could help.
35:42I know.
35:43I...
35:46One of these days I'm gonna have to stop running to you.
35:48I know.
36:04Matt came through the surgery.
36:06He's gonna make a full recovery.
36:08Wow, wow, wow.
36:09Your instincts paid off.
36:11Seems like it.
36:13Dr. Heller's tenure as chief resident is up soon.
36:16Considered throwing your hat in the ring?
36:18It's a lot of responsibility, but I think you'd make a good teacher.
36:21And I think I'd be really good for you in the long run.
36:25I appreciate your support.
36:26Okay, just to be clear, I'm not offering you the job.
36:30But...
36:30I see something in you.
36:35So, your eyesight will continue to improve, Seth, over the next few days.
36:39God.
36:41But, unfortunately, you are gonna be dealing with ED for a while.
36:46How long is a while?
36:49Um...
36:49I...
36:50It's hard to say.
36:51I mean, healing takes time.
36:54But, look.
36:55There's a lot of ways to have sex.
36:57If you're honest and you learn to talk about it, you're gonna find someone who'll be patient with you.
37:01I know how guys your age, they talk about sex and girls and...
37:05Mostly they're full of it.
37:08Truth is...
37:09Real intimacy should come before sex.
37:14Last woman I was with, I mean...
37:16I was in love with her for a year before anything ever happened.
37:21You don't understand.
37:28I had never done it.
37:31The night all this happened, I took the pills hoping that this would be it.
37:37I guess I'm gonna be a virgin forever.
37:39No.
37:40No.
37:40You're not.
37:41And actually, believe it or not, it's a good thing this happened.
37:45You could have died from this condition before anyone ever knew it was there.
37:48So you're saying I'm lucky?
37:49Yeah.
37:51Yeah, you are.
37:53And part of being a man is facing up to reality and moving forward.
38:06Well, you saved the day.
38:09Yeah.
38:10Is that how it's going in your report?
38:12Eh, more or less.
38:15Shift's over.
38:17I'm pretty done with the suspense.
38:19Visiting hours will end at 8pm.
38:21Visiting hours will end at 8pm.
38:23Oh, my God.
38:26Joan knows about the code.
38:28That I helped you and that I didn't disclose any of it.
38:31Oh, my God.
38:32Yeah, so I'm at risk of losing my fellowship or just having to leave the hospital.
38:36What?
38:37She's gonna rescind our permission to see each other romantically.
38:40She, I...
38:40Don't do that.
38:41Don't go and try to talk her out of it.
38:43It won't go well for either of us.
38:44So, as long as we're not currently sleeping together, you're gonna be impartial?
38:48Is that, that's the logic?
38:49You know what, I don't know.
38:50But the boss said stop.
38:53Amy, she's not wrong.
38:57I'm sorry, but nothing about our situation has changed.
39:01So, it doesn't matter how drawn I am to you.
39:04This can't happen again.
39:07There you are.
39:09Sony's taking the interns off for drinks.
39:12Oh, I, I don't think...
39:13No, come on, go get change.
39:14Everyone's going.
39:16You should go.
39:17Have fun.
39:18They're taking bets on whether or not you'll show.
39:22And...
39:22I really wanna win.
39:26Okay.
39:29Let's go take their money.
39:30Yes, sir.
39:32I'm dreaming that you're still asleep in my arms.
39:39Then I'll wake up and search for your hands in the dark.
39:46I still feel you here in my skin and my bones.
39:53Yes, I'm forward to you follow wherever I go.
40:01With my voice still screaming out.
40:03Dr. Heller.
40:07Uh, you need something?
40:09I wanted to, uh...
40:11What you saw the other night, me and Amy in my office.
40:15Nothing happened.
40:16Okay.
40:17Um, why are you telling me this?
40:20Because I think you're a good man.
40:22And...
40:22It's over between us.
40:24Okay, well...
40:25I appreciate that, but...
40:26It's over between us, too.
40:31Yeah, some parts that you follow wherever I go...
40:38Is it?
40:39Is it? No, he's off the clock.
40:40I didn't have to do it.
40:42Woo!
40:43She's awesome!
40:44Woo!
40:45Woo!
40:46Woo!
40:47Woo!
40:48Pulled all of y'all.
40:49Okay, pay up.
40:53IPA?
40:56Another round of shots.
41:00Huh.
41:02You told Jake what I said to you, didn't you?
41:06Excuse me?
41:07What did you tell him?
41:11I might have said that you have a thing for him.
41:14Which is why it's better for you if I don't belong here.
41:18Something like that.
41:20Thanks.
41:23Sorry to tell you, but I'm not going anywhere.
41:30Amy!
41:31Over here.
41:31I saved you a seat.
41:36I am so glad you came.
41:39Oh!
41:41Hey!
41:42Here we go.
41:45Okay, okay.
41:46Listen up.
41:49I know.
41:50There's an enormous amount of pressure on all of us.
41:54Dr. Ridley does not play.
41:57We need to bring it.
41:59Every single minute.
42:01But, never forget.
42:03We're all on the same team.
42:05Yeah.
42:08Cheers.
42:09Cheers.
42:13I'm sure your dad would be really proud.
42:21Ugh.
42:22Oh, no.
42:24Oh, no.
42:36You all right?
42:38Yeah.
42:39Yeah.
42:39No, I'm fine.
42:41Yeah, fine.
42:42No.
42:43Oh, no.
42:44Ah.
42:44Yeah.
42:45Woo!
42:47Wow!
42:48Okay.
42:48All right.
42:49All right.
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