00:13Come on!
00:37Oh, are you fucking kidding me?
00:51Why?
01:05Give it a try.
01:07Dee couldn't leave the property line, so...
01:19Okay, so I'm not stuck yet.
01:24What the hell is happening to me?
01:27Maybe the longer that she's out there, the more you've become...
01:31What?
01:32Like trading places?
01:34Oh my God, am I going to disappear?
01:35I just cease to exist while she gets to be out there and I'm just stuck in here, just trapped?
01:39We will fix this, okay?
01:43We're going to fix it.
01:45We will.
01:51Well, your bonfire set it free, so if we want to undo whatever's happening between you two,
01:58maybe we start by undoing this.
02:01Okay.
02:03It could be about putting things back where they were.
02:13Okay.
02:15All right, here's...
02:17Here.
02:17Here's a bit of diary.
02:21Oh.
02:21Diary?
02:22Here, look.
02:23Lucky charm.
02:24Lucky charm bracelet thing.
02:25I think it's a hair clip.
02:28Well, it's hers.
02:31Oh, a bit of trophy.
02:33That's significant.
02:34Okay.
02:44God, it looks like a shrine.
02:47Do you feel anything?
02:49Something?
02:53Still nothing.
02:55Shit.
02:57Maybe this is done.
02:58Maybe there's no way we can fix it.
03:00Maybe we're like...
03:00Shh, shh, shh, shh.
03:01No.
03:02We will fix it.
03:03We will.
03:05I think we just have to make it feel a bit more lived in.
03:07A bit more welcoming.
03:09Oh, and, of course, yes, music.
03:14What's that song that Dee loves?
03:16The one we heard on the radio.
03:17Oh, yes.
03:18Mom, are you serious?
03:22I don't think this is going to do anything.
03:27Yeah.
03:28Mom.
03:30Come on.
03:30We need to change the energy in here.
03:33Mom.
03:33Come on.
03:40Is this just because you miss her?
03:42What?
03:43Well, she comes back and I go and that's what you want, right?
03:49No, I want...
03:50I'm trying to help you.
03:51It's not working.
03:52I mean, the flowers, the music, the burnt crap.
03:56It's not about what I did at the bonfire.
03:58It's...
04:00It's about you.
04:02You're the reason she's here.
04:05So what did you do?
04:06How did it happen, Dee turning up?
04:11Um...
04:11I didn't...
04:12Mom, come on.
04:13This is serious.
04:15Please.
04:16I didn't do anything.
04:18I was sad.
04:19I was missing you and she just...
04:22appeared.
04:26Come on.
04:27You must have done something.
04:30Chants.
04:31Prayers.
04:32Crystals.
04:33I don't know.
04:34Did you light some candles and try and turn me back into a girl?
04:37Don't you dare joke about me.
04:39You had no idea what I went through.
04:41What you went through?
04:45Actually, I've got a pretty good idea.
04:47Me being a man is so painful, so horrible, you've had to go and conjure the ghost of my
04:53teenage self to replace me.
04:56Don't replace.
04:57Not replace.
04:58You're obsessed with her.
04:58Look at this house.
04:59All the photos.
05:01All the sculptures you've gone and made with her.
05:03You just want me to pretend that she never existed.
05:08That that life never happened.
05:11I can't do that.
05:13You were gone.
05:14I was grieving.
05:16I'm sorry, but I was...
05:18So was I.
05:19I lost my mum.
05:21No.
05:23You never lost me.
05:25I love you.
05:26I love you.
05:34The way you looked at me that day.
05:38The way that you still looked at me.
05:43Mum, I feel like my whole life, you have never seen me.
05:49Your whole life.
05:53That's...
05:54Wow.
05:55I guess I've really screwed up.
05:59Tell me, how am I meant to see you when you won't...
06:03even pick up the phone?
06:05I barely get a reply on your birthday.
06:09You have stopped coming home for Christmas.
06:12I even called a support line for parents of trans kids
06:16so that they could tell me what to do.
06:19Really?
06:20Yes, and I booked in a session, but then...
06:26I...
06:26Right.
06:30Dee.
06:31Yes, Dee.
06:32She came, and it felt good.
06:35It felt good to be wanted like that again.
06:39Look, I know that I screwed up in Sydney,
06:41and I...
06:41And I'm sorry.
06:44But I was scared.
06:46I'm not perfect.
06:49But you just didn't even give me a chance to understand.
06:52You just shut me out,
06:53and now you're telling me that...
06:55I can't see you.
06:58I can't see you.
06:58No.
07:00No.
07:02No.
07:03It's you.
07:05It's you who's been hiding from me.
07:27I knew it.
07:30I knew it.
07:31Something like this would happen if you moved.
07:35I guess I just needed the space.
07:37So is it...
07:37Is it just the head?
07:39Or is it just the clothes?
07:42Or are you going to change?
07:56I'm just really worried about this path that you're taking.
08:02I don't understand it.
08:05I'm trying, but it's just going to impact your whole life.
08:08It's going to impact your work, your family, your...
08:13Your whole future.
08:19I mean, you're going to have a really hard life if you do this.
08:22No.
08:24I'm going to have a great life.
08:27Great life.
08:29Great life.
08:29Great life.
08:29Great life.
08:42Let's try this again.
08:49No, it's still gross.
08:55Do you ever feel like...
08:58Like a dude?
09:03I mean, when mum first told me, I guess, I did wonder.
09:09But didn't all that stuff start in Sydney?
09:14I discovered it in Sydney.
09:17But...
09:21Well, I just wanted to say...
09:24If you ever did feel...
09:27Things...
09:30You'll be okay.
09:36So long as you sort out your music taste.
09:39Hey, I have amazing taste.
09:41Thank you very much.
09:42As you would know.
09:50We used to love it here.
09:53Do you remember?
09:56In our bodies.
09:59Totally feral and just...
10:00Free.
10:10There's a big strike crossing through my old life.
10:18Better pay for midwives.
10:22Hear my mother cry.
10:27You were resting passion fruit before spring.
10:35Too green for picking.
10:40Peaceful on the vine.
10:43Hello there.
10:45Like water...
10:49Rushed into a door.
10:50Okay, I'm watching.
11:02There's a long peace when I hear my dad speak.
11:10Kick, kick, kick, kick, kick, kick.
11:15There's a family...
11:20There's a feeling gravity is pooling.
11:27Photos with the family...
11:31Might be the last time...
11:41There's a family...
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