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Love is Blind Sweden Season 3 Episode 2
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00:00:06if i come in here and i start crying telling you about a car crash i was in as a
00:00:10kid
00:00:11and in comes the next guy and he doesn't cry he's not emotional doesn't have the stuff to
00:00:16talk about wouldn't you feel like you had a deeper connection with the first guy
00:00:20i want a simple yes or no
00:00:25yeah no i'd say that you probably don't have a lot of trust in women that we aren't
00:00:29no but it's exactly the same thing here with the guys the one with the most trauma gets attention
00:00:34and everybody thinks he's so deep no that's how it is you can have depth without going through a
00:00:40bunch of trauma you can certainly be reflective and talk about difficult stuff that's being deep
00:00:46i'm just saying there's not a lot of difficult things in my life it's not like you were born
00:00:50and now you're here you've had 40 years of experiences and a wonderful life happen in
00:00:55your life yeah i want to hear about those things i feel like i'm in a good place in life
00:01:00and that's
00:01:01great i don't want to be pulled away from that what i'm saying is you seem like a person who
00:01:06likes to
00:01:06help you're the one here that's caring and empathetic if i had something i needed help with
00:01:11then you and i would have gotten a little closer into a deeper place quicker and so just because i
00:01:17don't have any trauma or live a troubled life that doesn't mean i'm a shallow guy
00:01:22i don't think i'd say you've come across as shallow to me exactly no but as we talk here
00:01:28i'm kind of worried about how you're perceiving me feels like we're misunderstanding each other a
00:01:34little i mean i want to get to know you more it's not necessary that you share your traumas with
00:01:42me
00:01:42that's good thank you i'm really gonna have to sit down and write and reflect after this yeah
00:01:48definitely i think i need to do it i really hope that i'll see you again soon take care of
00:01:53yourself
00:01:53now will do take care goodbye
00:02:06i don't think i'm in her top ranking anymore
00:02:10i mean it's just so hard to compete with somebody that's had a harder life than i have
00:02:15maybe she wants somebody she can put her arm around and help a little
00:02:20that worries me
00:02:28how's your day been my day's been a little weird actually
00:02:33i'm confused i guess i'm just feeling misunderstood you know
00:02:36yeah one of the guys he ended up just painting this picture of me that i thought was way off
00:02:43he made it sound like i was looking for somebody to take care of and that i wanted someone to
00:02:49save
00:02:49or something
00:02:50oof i don't know how to take it it was then you said what we'll talk about this tomorrow
00:02:56i don't know we haven't said we'll see each other again but we haven't said we won't
00:03:00i'll have to think about it i gotta get better at knowing what i need and how i feel focusing
00:03:05on yourself is all you should be doing you are here for you
00:03:10going home this early is really tough that's the worst part it's so damn early
00:03:16and there's no other guys that you feel like
00:03:21today's been a little rough for me
00:03:24i would have loved to have a longer chat with ibrahim but that didn't happen i was thinking
00:03:31daniel for you i mean i thought maybe okay i don't know if he's too big of a personality
00:03:39for me yeah well you don't have to leave now you might as well stay and keep talking to people
00:03:46see where it goes yeah yeah true
00:03:52okay time to go girls let's go
00:03:56good luck
00:04:00i still feel like i've come here for a reason and that reason is i want to meet somebody
00:04:06and if i don't give it a hundred percent then it's not gonna happen
00:04:10it's gonna be okay joanna yes thanks i'm really looking forward to seeing daniel
00:04:16and we'll just have to see how it goes after
00:04:19it's important to me that i feel like i'm somebody's first choice
00:04:23i want to be sitting there feeling like this person has chosen me
00:04:27i just don't want to be anybody's second choice
00:04:30hello hello daniel hi it's joanna
00:04:33is it bank joanna
00:04:36bank joanna
00:04:37or what was it you work no i'm mixing everybody up
00:04:41that's not good
00:04:42what okay hold on a sec here
00:04:44i work as an event and sales manager
00:04:47event and sales manager
00:04:49yeah i'm from sydney remember
00:04:50oh that's right
00:04:52you remember me now
00:04:53yeah now i remember you
00:04:54we had
00:04:55so the light bulb has
00:04:56the light bulb is on now
00:04:57has been turned on
00:04:58the first day you said you lived in australia and then uh
00:05:01you'd already moved in then
00:05:02then i already moved to australia
00:05:04yeah
00:05:05right
00:05:05and now you forgot my name
00:05:07yeah but i haven't forgotten
00:05:09things changed quickly
00:05:09i just got mixed up
00:05:10yeah
00:05:11you're 37 years old
00:05:1338 in two weeks
00:05:15so no spring chicken but
00:05:17no but i'm very happy with my life
00:05:20yeah
00:05:20yeah
00:05:21it really does feel like
00:05:23my life
00:05:24is just beginning
00:05:25i'd rather meet somebody who's lived a little
00:05:28yeah
00:05:29than i would with somebody who's just getting started
00:05:32you know what you want and what you don't
00:05:34yep exactly
00:05:35that's the thing with this experiment
00:05:37i'm not looking for just anybody to go to bed with
00:05:40i'm looking for one person to wake up with
00:05:42that's so nice to hear
00:05:44yeah
00:05:44it's so funny that you said that
00:05:46because i've always said that i want a partner
00:05:49where i can see myself with that person
00:05:51sitting out on our terrace swing together when we're 80 something
00:05:56just laughing about life
00:05:58we've had so much damn fun
00:06:01yeah and i'd rather live my last 25 or 30 years somewhere like australia
00:06:06yeah
00:06:07yeah i agree
00:06:08swaying in a chair
00:06:08and maybe
00:06:09taking over my aunt's vineyard
00:06:12sitting there with a drink
00:06:14and so
00:06:15to live life
00:06:15yeah
00:06:16oh i think so
00:06:17to live life
00:06:17want to know my last name
00:06:19if you want to
00:06:20absolutely
00:06:21not a big deal
00:06:21my name's daniel fjell
00:06:23yeah that'll be tough for us
00:06:25why's that
00:06:26mine's joanna storm
00:06:28you're a joanna storm
00:06:30fjell storm that's so cool
00:06:32we're gonna be stealing that
00:06:33yeah or storm fjell
00:06:35yeah or storm fjell
00:06:36i like it
00:06:37i mean
00:06:38what the heck
00:06:39okay so we're named after different kinds of weather
00:06:41i know
00:06:42that's so great
00:06:43i got off to a bad start
00:06:45but i feel like you've forgiven me
00:06:47yeah well i'm really not that easily
00:06:50offended
00:06:50no exactly
00:06:51you can say a lot before i'm pissed
00:06:54my god that's great
00:07:01how'd i miss this guy
00:07:02because that's what happened
00:07:04but i also think he feels the same way
00:07:07and i think that maybe i didn't start out as his favorite
00:07:11so maybe we're climbing higher up on our like list
00:07:17did it go okay
00:07:18yeah
00:07:19it did
00:07:20it was great
00:07:20it's been good
00:07:21i had fun
00:07:23yeah
00:07:23who was it
00:07:24you can't tell anyone
00:07:25no i won't
00:07:26i saw joanna
00:07:27yeah
00:07:28and it was great
00:07:35this is way harder than i thought
00:07:38feelings come up that you can't help feeling
00:07:42they just wash over you
00:07:44i put all my eggs in one basket
00:07:46and it's scary of course
00:07:48i don't think i'll be satisfied
00:07:50feeling anything less than what i do for aniela
00:07:53i can't imagine i'll feel the same for anybody else
00:07:56keep your fingers crossed for me guys
00:07:58this is a big one for me
00:08:01yeah sure you get curious
00:08:03probably has three dates before me
00:08:06maybe even more
00:08:07towards the date
00:08:08towards the date
00:08:09and a future husband
00:08:10and the future husbands
00:08:15i've got to be honest
00:08:17i've been dying to talk to you all day
00:08:19and thinking about you all night too
00:08:26she will probably go through a whole slew of emotions before she meets me
00:08:32my heart was racing before i came in here today
00:08:34oh my lord
00:08:36yeah
00:08:37this is girl
00:08:38oh wow
00:08:39oh my god
00:08:43every time i walk through the door of these pods
00:08:46i hope to be you
00:08:47thanks
00:08:48you've always been my number one
00:08:50i'm feeling happy about that
00:08:55i'm exploding with thoughts
00:08:57i feel like i'm on the spin cycle
00:08:59and my head's just whirling around
00:09:02i'm having a great time
00:09:04enjoying every day
00:09:06i don't want to narrow it down too soon
00:09:08but i'm feeling drawn
00:09:11right now there's some fluttering with eBay
00:09:14but
00:09:16i'm stressed that he's focused on me in the way that he has
00:09:20i'm all in now man i'm gonna give her my music player
00:09:25i didn't realize there's a song i've been listening to it has her nickname
00:09:29i was lying down and i was lying down and i was listening to music and then
00:09:33and he comes on i wouldn't say that i'm all that superstitious or anything but still felt kind of special
00:09:42guys
00:09:43good luck
00:09:44bye
00:09:49i'm not here to meet just anybody
00:09:52i'm here to meet the one i can see myself marrying
00:09:56if it goes well we'll meet tomorrow and if not i'll go home
00:10:01hey
00:10:03hey
00:10:03hey
00:10:04hey
00:10:05hey how's it going
00:10:06i'm good
00:10:07how are you
00:10:08i really don't think you understand what i've been through today
00:10:14i mean
00:10:16oh
00:10:18so
00:10:18how was your day
00:10:20it's been good
00:10:22a lot of ups and downs
00:10:24yeah i know
00:10:25but i'm happy sitting with you again
00:10:27i feel the same
00:10:28did you send a pair of headphones
00:10:30yeah
00:10:33there's some songs
00:10:35and there's a little surprise in the beginning
00:10:39okay
00:10:40then i'll turn this on now
00:11:06should i
00:11:07should i keep listening
00:11:08no no
00:11:10i think it's enough with the first
00:11:11the first track
00:11:13i mean
00:11:14yeah
00:11:17you realize how crazy it is that i had that song
00:11:20i mean no i can't even take it
00:11:25ebay this is the nicest thing that anyone's done for me
00:11:30oh god
00:11:31well it feels good to make you happy
00:11:33of course this makes me happy
00:11:35this is really nice
00:11:38i'm happy to hear that
00:11:40do you like me or what
00:11:42yeah i really do
00:11:43i mean obviously
00:11:44each
00:11:45my god
00:11:46i love your laugh
00:11:47it's so great
00:11:50my god i'm blushing hard
00:11:52why are you
00:11:53yeah so
00:11:53are you okay
00:11:54yeah yeah yeah
00:11:55it's okay
00:11:55i blush easily
00:11:56and i get red and blotchy
00:11:58whenever i get a little
00:12:01emotional
00:12:03well that's great
00:12:04yeah
00:12:08yeah
00:12:09i get it
00:12:10yeah it's weird how
00:12:12someone can take up so much space in your head
00:12:14i think about you all the time
00:12:19what do you think about
00:12:21i think about everything i want to talk to you about when i see you in the future
00:12:27what that looks like
00:12:29what do you want the future to look like
00:12:33it shouldn't feel like this
00:12:35yeah
00:12:36one thing i was thinking about with you is that you're a doctor
00:12:39and you've said that you work a lot
00:12:42could be nice to have somebody that's got the same flexibility
00:12:46yeah
00:12:48but
00:12:49i also find it insanely attractive that you like
00:12:53have a lot of education and a serious job
00:12:56you're a real actual surgeon and that is sexy
00:13:00i just want to
00:13:02i don't know
00:13:03say it
00:13:04i did want to ask again about you being okay moving to stockholm
00:13:09if i propose
00:13:12then absolutely
00:13:14i like the sound of that
00:13:16me too
00:13:17i've been kind of paranoid
00:13:19only because when you're walking around in the lounge
00:13:22alone for 10 hours
00:13:23because everybody else is on a date
00:13:25ebay
00:13:26yeah
00:13:28you're at the top of my list tonight
00:13:33great
00:13:33i'm gonna have to think about it
00:13:35oh come on now
00:13:36fuck off
00:13:44what's this man doing to me
00:13:46i don't know
00:13:47i'm just blown away
00:13:49sort of
00:13:51are you still gonna keep dating the other guys and like
00:13:54no
00:13:55no
00:13:56oh my god honey
00:13:57oh so sweet
00:14:05i'm gonna be seeing angelica today
00:14:08she's amazing
00:14:09i feel like she's came to support me with the goals and dreams that i've got
00:14:13and she also understands that i'm gonna support her with hers
00:14:18i feel pretty damn good when i talk to her
00:14:21i'm feeling really good and i don't think that's gonna change
00:14:24if we just walk out of here together
00:14:31when i walked out
00:14:33of our last date i sort of fell to the floor in the hall
00:14:36hey stop it
00:14:37i just kind of collapsed out there
00:14:39i was just baffled
00:14:41just like how
00:14:42do you even exist
00:14:45i was really glad we had that talk last night
00:14:48i want to bring up something that i have been thinking about
00:14:52i went into this experiment thinking i'd like to find somebody that already has an established
00:14:58career and is stable enough that we can continue to build on that
00:15:02and that's i guess where i'm unsure
00:15:04i kind of get the feeling that maybe you're not quite there yet with that kind of stuff
00:15:10yeah
00:15:10that worries me because i sort of just want to get out of here and just get going
00:15:17i am where i am and i can't i'm not gonna hide anything about what i've got or pretend to
00:15:23have
00:15:23everything
00:15:23i don't have a house home and dog or whatever the saying is
00:15:28no
00:15:28i don't have it
00:15:30yeah that's what i want
00:15:32you want that
00:15:34yeah maybe not right away but
00:15:36but
00:15:39later yeah
00:15:41how do i say this
00:15:43i've just played basketball and now i'm building this
00:15:46i haven't done anything else
00:15:48no
00:15:48so i mean if you see me as a man who just talks and will not get anything done
00:15:54yeah i understand that feeling
00:15:56yeah
00:15:58go on
00:15:59this is a leap of faith
00:16:01if i get a family that comes first
00:16:03does that work
00:16:04i hope that i can make it work
00:16:06but if it doesn't
00:16:08if things don't happen the way that i see it
00:16:11and you can't get behind my version anymore
00:16:13and we have kids then i'll get a job
00:16:16that won't be an issue
00:16:17i don't want to be like my old man
00:16:20always a musician
00:16:22this is a sensitive issue for me
00:16:24we live really
00:16:25we didn't have it so good with our dad
00:16:28we lived in a basement
00:16:29and sometimes we had to brush our teeth
00:16:32with salt
00:16:33at mom's it was a normal life
00:16:35but not at my pops
00:16:37there we were dirt poor
00:16:39i refuse to live like that
00:16:41that's why i bought my apartment now
00:16:42because i refuse to end up like that
00:16:45i'm never gonna allow that to happen
00:16:47my family's gonna come first
00:16:51if that helps to explain anything
00:16:53i hope it does
00:16:54no but that
00:16:55well
00:16:56yeah
00:16:58i want you to know that
00:16:59when you talked about your dad
00:17:01it hit me really hard
00:17:02huh
00:17:03um
00:17:04yeah
00:17:05and that's
00:17:06it's difficult i get it
00:17:08who i am won't be a match for everybody
00:17:10no
00:17:13i just don't want this to be the last time we talk
00:17:25i'm a little bit conflicted
00:17:28it feels like it would be more complicated
00:17:31to have a life with him
00:17:33than with somebody else
00:17:34who doesn't have the same type of life
00:17:39will i take the easy way
00:17:40or will i take the hard way
00:17:42this is so tough
00:17:53you know his favorite color
00:17:55no
00:17:55oh well
00:17:57but maybe you write it small
00:17:59congratulations ludwig
00:18:01camilla and i found out we were dating the same guy
00:18:05ludwig
00:18:06and it's his birthday today
00:18:07so we made the best of it
00:18:09and baked him a cake together
00:18:12but how weird is it you're making a cake together
00:18:14for one guy
00:18:15oh my god you guys are so cute
00:18:17but it's also just really awkward
00:18:22oh yeah
00:18:23yeah so ludwig is somebody i've started to have some feelings for
00:18:27from your secret admirers
00:18:29damn my heart's racing
00:18:33goodbye
00:18:34bye bye
00:18:35bye have fun
00:18:37i mean it's pretty clear that i have feelings for ludwig
00:18:40i get nervous and happy
00:18:42and i want to talk to him more
00:18:45but ludwig feels like a mystery
00:18:47it's hard to get a full picture what life with ludwig would look like
00:18:51we're both walking up to the altar
00:18:54see you at our weddings
00:18:56we've just been talking about playing board games
00:18:59and sure that's fun to talk about
00:19:01but if i'm gonna get engaged
00:19:03then i have to know more than what board games he likes
00:19:09god damn it
00:19:11are you kidding me
00:19:12i didn't know if it was gonna be okay or whatever
00:19:16yeah damn that's so nice
00:19:18it's a tiny little trivia game
00:19:21yeah it is for your
00:19:22i mean happy birthday by the way
00:19:24oh thank you very much
00:19:26and what a nice cake and everything too
00:19:29i've been thinking a lot about you
00:19:31you have
00:19:32yes
00:19:34that's sweet
00:19:35i'd be kind of disappointed if you weren't the one that was over there
00:19:38when i walked in i mean
00:19:40but at the same time i do get a little nervous
00:19:43there's something that i think i'd like to talk about with you
00:19:47yeah
00:19:48but i'm also afraid of how
00:19:51in this case anyway
00:19:53you
00:19:54what you
00:19:55think about it
00:19:59what do you want to talk about
00:20:02yeah i mean
00:20:04i have adhd
00:20:05yeah
00:20:07i do
00:20:09i have a hard time with
00:20:11it's hard to
00:20:12to concentrate
00:20:15like watch an entire movie
00:20:18and stuff
00:20:19it's difficult for me to be clear in a conversation
00:20:22or in just how i'm expressing myself
00:20:26i'm not gonna say i'm completely impossible to live with
00:20:30but maybe you might need to sort of keep in mind that some things are gonna be a little
00:20:35tough
00:20:37that's why i'm looking for somebody that well just somebody that gets it
00:20:44i get it
00:20:46adhd is very i can i have similar traits
00:20:51so i'm like no stranger to it
00:20:54nice good
00:20:55well i tend to live in the present a lot
00:20:58i think it's hard for me to think ahead
00:21:02i mean yeah that's me right there so i totally get that
00:21:05well that's that's good
00:21:07i've come to realize that there are many small dreams and goals
00:21:12yeah so i've been thinking about renting a van and going somewhere to go camping
00:21:17a dream
00:21:18with someone i sort of
00:21:20with a partner
00:21:21hmm
00:21:21know what i like
00:21:22no
00:21:24i like to go camping
00:21:25aha
00:21:27you said you weren't a nature guy
00:21:30right i did say that
00:21:31camping is still nature
00:21:33see so now you're pleasantly surprised
00:21:34yeah what is this you like saunas
00:21:36i love it
00:21:37okay good
00:21:38do you too
00:21:40yeah
00:21:41it's one of the best things i know of
00:21:43you've been out on a run or something and go down to the sauna
00:21:46then you take a bath
00:21:48have a beer
00:21:49break into some potato chips
00:21:51fuck yeah that's so nice
00:21:53and then barbecue
00:21:53i mean that's perfect
00:21:54yeah
00:21:56that's so cozy
00:21:57hell yeah it is
00:22:05i mean it's starting to feel like i kinda sort of have a little bit of a crush on ludwig
00:22:11it's really weird to be able to feel that way like so fast
00:22:18but i can sometimes be a little quick like yeah sure this feels right and just go for it
00:22:24it's gonna be tricky if he likes somebody else more than me
00:22:28is this a little birthday boy
00:22:31that's right
00:22:32happy birthday happy birthday happy birthday dear ludwig
00:22:37congratulations
00:22:38thank you so much
00:22:40so nice have you been celebrated
00:22:42yes absolutely i have definitely been celebrated
00:22:46cake from secret admirers
00:22:48how nice of you both i've gotta say
00:22:50but yeah
00:22:52we wanted you to be happy
00:22:53i really was for sure
00:22:56on another subject
00:22:57yeah
00:22:57do you like board games
00:23:00you know it's not the first thing i do
00:23:03okay now you're making it sound like i'm just playing monopoly every night
00:23:07that is not what i mean
00:23:09you're like i'm a romantic when a roll dies
00:23:12look i get it now
00:23:13fuck me that just seems
00:23:14just that's not good at all
00:23:16i mean like to do it family get togethers
00:23:19playing some games
00:23:20drinking wine and shit
00:23:21way better
00:23:22you said wine and it automatically got more fun
00:23:24yeah well it is important you understand what i mean
00:23:29i love when the game gets really intense
00:23:31that's fun
00:23:33it gets real
00:23:34you competitive
00:23:35you can say that
00:23:37you are
00:23:38yeah
00:23:39that's funny
00:23:40i mean it's fun that we are both competitive
00:23:44yes indeed
00:23:47when was
00:23:48can i just ask you
00:23:49when was your last relationship
00:23:53hmm
00:23:54um
00:23:55well
00:23:57i guess that depends on how we look at it
00:24:00okay
00:24:01this is actually my worst
00:24:03i totally get it
00:24:05it makes sense that you might want to judge me on this
00:24:08no
00:24:08but i haven't had
00:24:11anybody
00:24:12that i've really
00:24:13called a boyfriend
00:24:15you haven't been in love
00:24:17i've been in love
00:24:18yeah
00:24:19but i've never labeled it
00:24:20boyfriend girlfriend
00:24:22or introduced him to my family
00:24:24no
00:24:25um
00:24:27what do you feel about that
00:24:28is that like
00:24:29how do you feel about me not having a serious relationship
00:24:36i'm thinking that
00:24:39no
00:24:40there's
00:24:41there's nothing that i'm all that worried about
00:24:44or that i feel is negative
00:24:45or anything about that
00:24:48that's nice to hear
00:24:49thank you
00:24:50it was
00:24:52nice of you to share that with me and to tell me
00:24:55it's difficult to know when you've met the right one
00:24:59hmm
00:24:59i have a very very good feeling about you
00:25:02hmm
00:25:03and i just think you should know that
00:25:08i'm scared of being rejected
00:25:10i think in the past i've chosen to bail early on in relationships so i can avoid being rejected
00:25:16at least that is something i'm starting to see and realize now
00:25:26ludwig is i think he's pretty different from the guys i normally date
00:25:31i feel like i can let go and be myself around him and he actually sees me
00:25:40now we're talking now we're talking now it's good have you found it now it's good
00:25:46is it real yeah no it's good
00:25:48i have met two great girls
00:25:50i feel too good about both of them
00:25:54i've got royal prince problems
00:25:56i had a really really great date it was great and fun so great
00:26:00shave yourself not that it matters no one can see
00:26:03do you want to read the lyrics i wrote yesterday yeah i'd love to okay
00:26:08oh god i feel like a teenager
00:26:12it's so cheesy but so fun
00:26:15your hand in my hand
00:26:18this is really good
00:26:20i mean come on if he doesn't fucking die when he hears this song
00:26:24well there's clearly something wrong with him
00:26:34i love that i think about her all the time
00:26:38roaring bubbly feelings
00:26:44i'm incredibly excited
00:26:47but also i'm not at the point yet where i can propose
00:26:50i won't do it if i feel like i don't want to live my life with this person
00:26:55there's a lot of time left and a lot more i want to find out
00:27:00are you good with kids have you been around babies
00:27:03i have nephews
00:27:04yeah they like you
00:27:05yes
00:27:07when i was young i thought kids were a pain in the ass
00:27:09yeah me too
00:27:11then at some point the ovaries started twitching
00:27:13so you know
00:27:14that's why you're sitting here
00:27:16exactly this is so true
00:27:20i feel like we're a lot alike
00:27:22i mean
00:27:24i don't think i've ever dated a man so much like me
00:27:28fair
00:27:29i might have written you a little song
00:27:31you're kidding how what
00:27:34how'd you do that
00:27:36i might have wrote a little song last night
00:27:38i'm dying over here
00:27:42but i just got super nervous now
00:27:46it's like wow
00:27:53okay
00:27:53yeah
00:27:57it's okay
00:27:58i need to get it together
00:27:59it's all good
00:28:00yeah
00:28:04i spent last night thinking about the shape of your lips
00:28:09how they smile towards me
00:28:11how they feel to be kissed
00:28:13oh darling
00:28:14wishing you would be here now
00:28:19i spent last night thinking about your arms by my waist
00:28:23when it comes to us
00:28:26i'll never need any space
00:28:27oh darling
00:28:29wishing you were here right now
00:28:33i know love is scary
00:28:38but i know love is kind
00:28:41it can last
00:28:43for a minute
00:28:46or the rest of your life
00:28:50yeah i know love is crazy
00:28:52they never knew it was blind
00:28:58come on
00:29:01i mean
00:29:03oh shit
00:29:10most beautiful thing
00:29:12no come on
00:29:13what the fuck
00:29:18amyela
00:29:19yes
00:29:19what are you doing
00:29:39i like you so much
00:29:43i like you so so much
00:29:46i've been feeling very certain
00:29:48you're the one i want to
00:29:50be with
00:29:51yeah
00:29:52for a while now
00:29:54and
00:29:59amyela
00:30:01ecklund
00:30:02i'm on my knee now
00:30:04no
00:30:04i don't know if i'm on the right one but
00:30:09i don't have a ring
00:30:10i have a ring but it's not the ring
00:30:12will you marry me
00:30:16yes
00:30:16i will
00:30:25no
00:30:27oh
00:30:30this is crazy
00:30:34did i hear no was there yes to
00:30:36yes
00:30:38of course i want to
00:30:39i mean
00:30:43i mean
00:30:44a thousand times
00:30:45yes
00:30:48oh my god
00:30:49oh
00:30:50my god i'm shaking
00:30:51i'm so nervous
00:30:55i really didn't think anybody would like a song that much
00:31:00you just asked me to marry you
00:31:02yeah
00:31:05what the hell
00:31:08what the hell happened
00:31:23i mean
00:31:25i mean
00:31:36i'm getting married
00:31:47i'm engaged
00:31:50holy shit
00:31:52i can't
00:31:53congrats
00:31:54oh
00:31:57i proposed to somebody i've never even seen and i'm like in love with someone i never met
00:32:03and it feels amazing
00:32:07yeah i'm like i'm so happy and i'm in love with his personality
00:32:12i feel like i'm the luckiest girl in the world
00:32:16and he started to cry
00:32:17no
00:32:19then he knelt on one knee and asked if i wanted to marry him
00:32:33i think angelica is gonna dump me now
00:32:36why
00:32:36i think so
00:32:41did you have a date with her
00:32:42no i haven't it's happening now
00:32:48she's
00:32:49starting to find out some things she's not sure about
00:32:53that make her cautious
00:32:56where i am in my life
00:32:57stability and stuff like that
00:32:59and
00:33:01and i get it
00:33:04i need to talk to her
00:33:05i'm so anxious
00:33:07there's like a lump in my chest
00:33:09and that makes it hard to go back in
00:33:12i don't know what i'm walking into
00:33:15good luck
00:33:16you too
00:33:19hello
00:33:19hello
00:33:20hey
00:33:21hi
00:33:24oh this is a lot for me right now
00:33:26okay what happened
00:33:30i couldn't stop thinking about you all morning
00:33:34you're the one i'm thinking about
00:33:37i just want to be with you
00:33:40look you know
00:33:41no
00:33:42i've been so goddamn anxious
00:33:46i mean at no point have i ever had any doubt that i'm your favorite
00:33:53and that you're my favorite at all
00:33:55i'm just saying you've always been my favorite too
00:34:00and it's so weird because of all this emotion attached to it
00:34:04and so when one of the girls came in saying we've chosen each other
00:34:08and i started to think it was you
00:34:11and i nearly died
00:34:15i mean i've longed for you
00:34:18i think about you like
00:34:20all of the time
00:34:22oh shit
00:34:24oh shit
00:34:25yeah
00:34:25what
00:34:27i was so worried
00:34:30i was like
00:34:31is she gonna dump me now
00:34:33i was so paranoid
00:34:35no no no no i was just so scared
00:34:38because everything happened so fast
00:34:40so then it went from that to me starting to think
00:34:44am i too focused to give anyone else a chance
00:34:46but that's how it's been
00:34:48i don't have feelings for anybody else
00:34:51that's just how it is
00:34:53but you
00:34:54i mean
00:34:55i have feelings
00:34:58i was shaking
00:35:02so for me
00:35:03my feeling is
00:35:05from what i know so far
00:35:06is that you're a type of guy that i've
00:35:08never dated before
00:35:13in a relationship
00:35:14i don't want to have any
00:35:16i just want to feel safe
00:35:18and you come across
00:35:20calm and safe
00:35:23if something were to happen
00:35:25i'd be your greatest protector
00:35:28always
00:35:30that's who i am
00:35:31if someone were to do
00:35:33something
00:35:34to you
00:35:35i would take the person aside
00:35:38and talk to him or her
00:35:39maybe not her
00:35:41him
00:35:42it's tricky if it's a woman
00:35:43i mean
00:35:44i look aggressive
00:35:46no matter what i do
00:35:48wait wait
00:35:49you just said
00:35:50i look aggressive
00:35:51no matter what i do
00:35:53i'm big
00:36:23what do you mean by big
00:36:24what do you mean
00:36:26you wanna be with me
00:36:27i told you
00:36:30i want you
00:36:31yeah but
00:36:32i wanted you day one
00:36:34since i walked my way
00:36:36into pod 2
00:36:37oh
00:36:38it was a done deal
00:36:39i feel the same way
00:36:48i feel so safe
00:36:51and certain
00:36:53maybe i'm falling in love
00:36:57this is really weird
00:36:59i mean
00:37:01it's really scary
00:37:02to fall in love
00:37:03with someone
00:37:03you
00:37:04haven't seen
00:37:07damn
00:37:11i mean
00:37:33i've been aching to see ebay
00:37:34i'm in love
00:37:36i want to see what he looks like
00:37:39and hold him
00:37:40and touch him
00:37:42i think it'll feel incredible
00:37:44and that'll
00:37:46only be a good thing
00:37:52the fact that i proposed to an yellow
00:37:55that's a huge decision
00:37:56biggest decision in my life i think
00:38:01i have so many feelings
00:38:04my hands are sweating for the first time
00:38:07my pulse is high
00:38:09yeah
00:38:10i'm used to a lot of pressure
00:38:12but this is
00:38:14i'm gonna
00:38:15see
00:38:16the moment of my life
00:38:22holy shit
00:38:26we have such great blind chemistry
00:38:29it'd be really sad to see each other
00:38:31and then not hit it off
00:38:38definitely a little concern
00:38:40that when she sees what i look like
00:38:42it won't match the image she had of me
00:38:45it'll be a real letdown
00:38:46if she's expecting thick wavy hair
00:38:48she'll just have to get over it
00:38:50she'll either take me as i am
00:38:53or not
00:39:10oh my god
00:39:12hi
00:39:14hey
00:39:14hi
00:39:16it's you
00:39:18let's see
00:39:21hey
00:39:22hey
00:39:28oh my god
00:39:29this is crazy
00:39:31this is so crazy
00:39:32you don't have hair
00:39:34no
00:39:34you didn't ask
00:39:35no
00:39:36oh this is insane
00:39:37you're the one behind the wall
00:39:39yeah
00:39:39i'm the guy
00:39:40same for you
00:39:41yeah
00:39:46oh my god
00:39:47i've been so crazy nervous
00:39:48me too
00:39:58damn it's so good to see you
00:40:01i don't have a speech or anything
00:40:03you don't need to
00:40:03no no no
00:40:04say what you want to say
00:40:05i came here as a skeptic and i really didn't believe
00:40:08no
00:40:09but
00:40:10then i met you
00:40:12and the pods i forgot about time and space
00:40:17i really am in love with you
00:40:18i'm in love with you too
00:40:21good
00:40:23so
00:40:26emma
00:40:26emma
00:40:26amyela ecklund
00:40:27will you marry me
00:40:30i will
00:40:34oh
00:40:34god
00:40:41we're getting married now
00:40:47yes we are
00:40:48fuck that's crazy
00:40:49mm-hmm
00:40:50i mean
00:40:51you're out of your mind
00:40:53well so are you
00:40:54oh i know
00:40:55i know
00:40:58i mean
00:41:08bye
00:41:09goodbye
00:41:10okay
00:41:13no now you have to go that way
00:41:17okay
00:41:17okay
00:41:18see you soon
00:41:19bye
00:41:35my feelings are flying high
00:41:37but i was over the moon meeting her
00:41:40she's beautiful and
00:41:42i'm lucky
00:41:43i want to be with her
00:41:45then i'll be happy
00:41:46my first thought was no hair
00:41:51no really
00:41:52i don't care about that at all
00:41:54he's beautiful
00:41:56oh my god he's real
00:41:59i really have a ring on my finger
00:42:02that's so wild
00:42:03i just want to
00:42:05run away with him and then
00:42:07start a life
00:42:22okay
00:42:23is this one of those
00:42:25yeah you just start pressing down teeth
00:42:30i mean i'm so glad you're here
00:42:33and going on a date
00:42:34well thank you
00:42:36let's go
00:42:36hell yeah
00:42:37let's go girl
00:42:38let's go
00:42:39cheers
00:42:39cheers
00:42:40let's do it
00:42:44i'm happy and looking forward to today
00:42:46i'm excited about this guy daniel
00:42:49he's really been
00:42:51growing on me
00:42:52and
00:42:53yeah
00:42:54i want to talk to him more
00:42:55because i'm curious to see if we're a good match
00:42:58i have four questions
00:43:00yes
00:43:01that i ask myself
00:43:02yes
00:43:02the first one is
00:43:04does he make me laugh
00:43:05number two
00:43:06can i see him as the father of my kids
00:43:08important
00:43:09yeah
00:43:10number three
00:43:10can i talk to him about everything
00:43:13mm-hmm
00:43:14and number four
00:43:14does he make me a better person
00:43:17very nice
00:43:18yeah
00:43:19rehearsed or straight from the heart
00:43:21straight from the heart
00:43:22that's nice
00:43:23yeah
00:43:24yeah and that's exactly right
00:43:26can you make me a better person
00:43:29absolutely
00:43:30you'll see the flaws in me
00:43:31yeah
00:43:31i can't sit here and promise to be perfect
00:43:33no
00:43:34but you want someone to grow with
00:43:36definitely
00:43:38that's taught
00:43:39i can also say daniel
00:43:39that you and i
00:43:41we have similar lives
00:43:42mm-hmm
00:43:43but
00:43:43for me
00:43:44we need to dive a little more into
00:43:46like values
00:43:47we definitely need to dive into that
00:43:49i feel like we've had a good time together so far
00:43:52but we need to do a deep dive
00:43:54absolutely
00:43:55and we can't just have fun
00:43:56talking politics and religion yeah
00:43:57because i'm not religious
00:43:59no
00:43:59me neither
00:44:00so that's settled
00:44:01yeah well i'll say i was confirmed however
00:44:04oh me too
00:44:05but i did it just so i could get my moped
00:44:07but now that i think about it
00:44:09i like to get married in a church
00:44:10yeah
00:44:11it's not important for me to have a church wedding
00:44:14no
00:44:14it's beautiful but i can get married in a vineyard
00:44:17or
00:44:17yeah but
00:44:18on some beach somewhere with my partner
00:44:20now you and i have pretty good prerequisites for the former now
00:44:22don't we
00:44:23oh well yeah
00:44:26i worked as a wedding planner for a bit
00:44:28oh yeah nice
00:44:29yeah it was fun
00:44:30but planning weddings
00:44:31when you're in love with the idea of love
00:44:34and just want to be married
00:44:35after three years of doing it
00:44:37i felt like it was too much to be around it all the time
00:44:40what do you think it's like being toastmaster all the time
00:44:43ah yeah
00:44:44i totally get that
00:44:45yeah
00:44:45it's just
00:44:46yeah
00:44:46yeah i want to get that love too
00:44:48now it's now it's our turn
00:44:49yeah
00:44:57joanna my new lady
00:44:59i could feel something in my chest today
00:45:01when she spoke
00:45:02i just felt like we were in sync
00:45:04we were we were on the same level
00:45:08but i also need to feel it in my gut
00:45:10if she's going to climb past
00:45:12ellen on the mountain
00:45:17ellen's been number one since day one
00:45:20this morning i was worried that she didn't want to see me again
00:45:23then i saw her name written down
00:45:25and i knew i was meeting her today
00:45:27right in the gut
00:45:29that's it
00:45:30the gut feeling
00:45:30that i'm waiting for
00:45:35but she might be coming here to say
00:45:37thank you for this time
00:45:38bye
00:45:39what can i do
00:45:40but i hope not of course
00:45:42to tell you the truth
00:45:44i was nervous
00:45:45yesterday you and i had a date
00:45:47where we really
00:45:48i was like
00:45:50well we discussed things
00:45:51yes we did
00:45:52and it wasn't just stuff like
00:45:54oh i love to travel
00:45:56oh i love food
00:45:57oh i like to drink beer
00:45:59but we had a deeper conversation
00:46:01but i don't know what your thoughts are
00:46:03no
00:46:04yeah okay
00:46:05so i appreciate you bringing it up
00:46:07great
00:46:08i think i'm feeling kind of misunderstood
00:46:10okay
00:46:11and i'd say it's really not
00:46:12i guess to me
00:46:14it felt like you saw me as somebody that needs to save my partner
00:46:18or take care of them
00:46:21i'm looking for somebody that i will feel safe with
00:46:24and they'll stand with me
00:46:25who can both push me and take care of me
00:46:28that's why i'm trying to get to know
00:46:30well you
00:46:31because i'd like to know you
00:46:33exactly
00:46:34and i probably got it all mixed up
00:46:36yeah
00:46:36i sat yesterday morning and felt
00:46:38when i'm seeing ellen
00:46:40yeah
00:46:40i really want to show her i have
00:46:42i mean that i'm a deep person
00:46:44yeah
00:46:44with emotional depth
00:46:45and i was like
00:46:46dang people who've been through really tough times
00:46:49have a great advantage
00:46:50that's what i was getting a little worried about
00:46:54me not having any real rough life stuff that you might cry over
00:46:58i haven't been thinking as much about that
00:47:00but yesterday it did lead to some words we
00:47:03i mean
00:47:03yeah
00:47:03it was a tense moment right
00:47:05well actually yeah
00:47:06and i think that's great
00:47:08because you're the only person that's happened with
00:47:11yeah
00:47:11and it really felt like
00:47:13the air felt cleaner when i walked out of here
00:47:16okay
00:47:16it felt good that we got through all that stuff
00:47:18yeah
00:47:19and that it went well
00:47:20and it wasn't
00:47:21oh we'll end this because we are here
00:47:23exactly
00:47:24no
00:47:24it's the opposite of
00:47:25there should be resistance
00:47:27yeah
00:47:27kites take off against the wind
00:47:29it's that kind of thing
00:47:30nice
00:47:31and i need a little headwind
00:47:33even in a relationship
00:47:35someone who says no and puts me in place
00:47:37i feel like you're very good at that sort of thing
00:47:40i mean i can't drift thinking
00:47:43ah ellen's complacent i know where she's at
00:47:45no
00:47:46that's not okay
00:47:47but hey look
00:47:47you also bring out that side of me
00:47:49it's not always a given
00:47:51no i don't think so
00:47:52but i do feel comfortable with it
00:47:54that's great
00:47:55and i've been very vocal about how i see you
00:47:58ranking wise
00:48:00and i know that if
00:48:01for example
00:48:02i come to a new city
00:48:03yeah
00:48:04and go into the first restaurant i see
00:48:06but think
00:48:06maybe there's something better
00:48:08i guarantee i'll always end up
00:48:10returning to the first one
00:48:11but sometimes it's good
00:48:13to know of the other ones
00:48:14i'm comparing you to a restaurant
00:48:16i don't know if that's a great thing
00:48:18well so much for that date
00:48:20i feel super smart now
00:48:22you can add a
00:48:22don't forget what a minus sign looks like
00:48:25listen
00:48:25take out your pen
00:48:26and add a minus for daniel
00:48:32today is feeling much much better
00:48:34i didn't have to mention anything about us leaving the date a little unclear at all
00:48:39he gave me the impression that he does have depth
00:48:43he went home and reflected on it and took it very seriously
00:48:52but i'm sort of trying to stay open to each connection that i have
00:48:57and fabian is an amazing person
00:48:59on paper he's perfect
00:49:02she doesn't want to
00:49:03but i'd still like to get a better sense of whether there's any sort of chemistry
00:49:07or even romance there
00:49:09or if i'm just really inspired or moved by him
00:49:13and also if i can appreciate him for who he is
00:49:15i need to know what feelings are actually there
00:49:28what is this wonderful thing we have here
00:49:33you're so sweet for giving me this
00:49:36yeah
00:49:36it says tingly
00:49:42thank you so much
00:49:45yeah
00:49:46yeah
00:49:46we had a really nice conversation
00:49:48yeah
00:49:49now that you know me a little bit more
00:49:51what would you do with your partner
00:49:54i feel like we talked a lot about traveling
00:49:57i've been traveling a lot on my own
00:49:59but to do it with somebody is a whole new kind of adventure
00:50:02i think we should do it
00:50:03yeah
00:50:07we could get a caravan
00:50:08and then we could drive all the way from sweden down to cecilia
00:50:13that would be so awesome actually
00:50:15just go slow stopping here and there
00:50:17and drink wine
00:50:18and have your own wine too
00:50:19and then waking up in the morning
00:50:23and smelling that humid summer morning
00:50:26oh man it's so amazing
00:50:30i really want to share that moment with somebody
00:50:33yeah
00:50:33and it seems almost impossible for me to not think
00:50:38ellen could be there
00:50:40i don't want to push you to make a decision
00:50:42you might feel like i'm too much
00:50:44no no never never never think that you're too much
00:50:48okay
00:50:49never
00:50:50no no no no no no no no
00:50:51you just can't
00:50:53absolutely can't ever think that
00:50:56but
00:50:56you can't ever be too much if it's for the right person
00:50:59you know
00:51:00i mean it's just so
00:51:01i think it's so nice that
00:51:04you show that you like someone
00:51:07it's just the most beautiful gesture
00:51:10thank you
00:51:10yeah
00:51:12you should know i've been waiting for you the whole morning
00:51:16and seeing you
00:51:17yeah
00:51:18and that's the only thing that matters to me right now
00:51:32i wish that i could be more definitive or clear and say
00:51:36let's get out of here and drop and drop everything right now so that we can leave
00:51:42but
00:51:42shall we then
00:51:43oh boy okay
00:51:46but i i still want to be completely honest with you and say that i still have a process
00:51:51and i need to explore and go through that process before i can answer that
00:51:55yeah
00:51:57take all the time you need
00:51:58i'll be sitting here like a little soldier
00:52:00and i'll be waiting for my turn to share with you
00:52:03these beautiful moments together
00:52:05hmm
00:52:15hi
00:52:16oh my god
00:52:17you're kidding
00:52:28it feels so good
00:52:31it's more than just butterflies in the stomach
00:52:34i will show my love to her in every possible way
00:52:37i can give her a lot
00:52:38a lot more
00:52:41how'd it go
00:52:42it went well
00:52:42really well
00:52:43yeah
00:52:45but
00:52:46it's good that she takes the time she needs
00:52:48so that she can feel solid in her choice
00:52:51this isn't a competition
00:52:52i want her to make the right choice
00:52:54for her
00:52:55even if i'm not the one
00:53:00is that it now
00:53:01are you in love
00:53:02after this date i'm feeling pretty strong about it
00:53:05yeah
00:53:06and i gave her some flowers and that made her very happy
00:53:10okay
00:53:10nice
00:53:12we dreamed up a version of what the future looks like together
00:53:16and it feels so real
00:53:18but i don't know exactly where she is in that process
00:53:21you have no idea
00:53:23no clue at all
00:53:26a lot of thoughts now
00:53:28oh yeah
00:53:28oh yeah
00:53:29are they mostly good or
00:53:30no they're good
00:53:31good thoughts
00:53:32good but worried thoughts
00:53:33okay
00:53:34hmm
00:53:35want to come over and vent about it
00:53:37no
00:53:37okay
00:53:38okay
00:53:42so ludwig
00:53:44you need to cut the tape first
00:53:46yeah
00:53:46yeah i
00:53:47i suck so bad at rapping
00:53:49i thought i was bad
00:53:53i love giving gifts
00:53:55i like to come up with ideas and put together surprises and stuff
00:54:00i think it's romantic
00:54:02feels good
00:54:03is everyone making gifts now
00:54:05no everybody's helping me because i suck at rapping
00:54:08why didn't you ask me
00:54:09i told you i make origami
00:54:11that one is way too big
00:54:14to have nice edges
00:54:18i'm off to go see hana
00:54:20i get all warm and excited
00:54:23and it's just been a really long time since i had that feeling
00:54:27when we talk it somehow feels like we're in the same place
00:54:31what
00:54:32did i get a gift
00:54:33yeah
00:54:34well perhaps you did
00:54:35that's so sweet
00:54:37i hear you opening it
00:54:39so clearly
00:54:40is this also a trivia game
00:54:42yes
00:54:42but i probably should tell you
00:54:44i bought it before this
00:54:46oh yeah
00:54:47so i brought it with me
00:54:49and thought i'd give it as a gift
00:54:50yeah
00:54:51it's funny
00:54:52we brought the same thing
00:54:53so random
00:54:53yeah i know
00:54:55i think it's nice that we have
00:54:57we have like
00:54:58everything
00:54:59we can be chill and happy
00:55:01but we can also
00:55:02we can open up if we want to
00:55:05yeah
00:55:05we have very similar energy
00:55:07we go with each other's flow
00:55:09exactly
00:55:10but
00:55:13what
00:55:15what were you going to say
00:55:17no i feel like the reason
00:55:19that i came here
00:55:20was to find somebody
00:55:21that i
00:55:21with everything
00:55:23i was looking for
00:55:25you're the only one i can see
00:55:26see that happening with
00:55:28oh
00:55:30really
00:55:30yes
00:55:31you're so sweet
00:55:34i'm a happy guy
00:55:35yeah
00:55:36that's great
00:55:38but you
00:55:38you still get to feel things out
00:55:40and
00:55:41and do what you need to do
00:55:42yeah but
00:55:44i have
00:55:45you know
00:55:46as you can probably guess
00:55:48i have another date today
00:55:49later today
00:55:51and
00:55:53i am going to do that date
00:55:54i don't want to make a decision
00:55:56right now
00:55:57no
00:56:01is that hard for you
00:56:02yeah i feel stressed
00:56:04and i get like
00:56:04i think
00:56:05am i moving too fast
00:56:06i don't think you are
00:56:08you
00:56:09i mean i get scared
00:56:10yeah
00:56:11i really like you
00:56:12yeah
00:56:14i mean
00:56:14same here
00:56:15i
00:56:15i don't know how i can like you this much
00:56:18when i haven't even met you
00:56:19so crazy
00:56:20how is that possible
00:56:21mean me
00:56:21i'm kidding
00:56:24no just
00:56:25no i can't say enough good about you
00:56:28well i really do like you too
00:56:30seriously
00:56:31i mean it
00:56:32yeah
00:56:32please don't worry
00:56:34you're ranked very high
00:56:37up on my very long list
00:56:39well
00:56:39hello
00:56:40i gave you so much there
00:56:43what the hell
00:56:44of course you are number one
00:56:46you're my favorite
00:56:47yes
00:56:48yeah
00:56:49you gave me a game
00:56:50yes
00:56:51i did
00:56:51that actually means something
00:56:53that means something
00:56:55and that
00:56:56and it's cute
00:56:57we brought the same gift
00:56:58try to be patient
00:57:00i like you god damn it
00:57:11hello
00:57:12hi
00:57:22hard huh
00:57:23yeah
00:57:24she wants me
00:57:25hana
00:57:27yes
00:57:27but
00:57:28yeah
00:57:29but i'm going on a date
00:57:30with camilla later
00:57:32and of course
00:57:33now i feel
00:57:34hana is
00:57:36she's into you
00:57:37yeah
00:57:37and it just felt
00:57:39so damn good
00:57:39mm-hmm
00:57:41camilla hasn't had
00:57:42many relationships
00:57:43so i get that it'll take time
00:57:45but i get the feeling
00:57:46it'll be a little less
00:57:49serious with camilla
00:57:51it's like we sort of have
00:57:52too much fun
00:57:53you can't quite get a good grasp
00:57:56on the emotional part of it
00:58:00i'd like to get into it a bit more with camilla today
00:58:03try to bring her down a little bit
00:58:06so she's calmer and able to show
00:58:09well to open up a little more
00:58:12wait what
00:58:14something's here
00:58:15oh i didn't know that
00:58:17oh i didn't know that
00:58:19but it's nothing
00:58:20oh my god
00:58:21okay i need to explain
00:58:23yeah
00:58:24that's my cologne
00:58:25oh yeah i get it
00:58:27it's my favorite cologne
00:58:29it's the one i'm wearing now
00:58:31oh my god that's nice
00:58:32so i thought you should have
00:58:34a little taste of what i
00:58:36it's a great smell
00:58:37oh my god it smells delicious
00:58:40thank you
00:58:41you're welcome
00:58:42you're so sweet
00:58:44so i'm wondering
00:58:46yeah
00:58:47is it easy for you to like
00:58:50to express how you feel
00:58:53to talk about feelings and all that shit
00:58:55i don't have a hard time sharing my feelings when i feel
00:59:00safe
00:59:00but this situation doesn't make it
00:59:04easier
00:59:05easier
00:59:05you worried about that
00:59:09worried about
00:59:10if i can express myself and what that looks like
00:59:13in a relationship
00:59:16i wouldn't say i'm worried but i've been thinking about it a lot
00:59:21but i also feel that it's not that strange
00:59:24because it also depends on
00:59:26what you've been through and your experiences
00:59:30it's like you say i haven't been there before
00:59:33and that
00:59:36it's gonna be i'm gonna think it's scary
00:59:40that's good
00:59:41i will
00:59:42there's no doubt about that at this point
00:59:44and
00:59:46the way i act when i'm scared or sad
00:59:49is that i become
00:59:50i don't know
00:59:52quiet or i shut down
00:59:55my first instinct is
00:59:56to escape
00:59:58i won't run
00:59:59i won't
01:00:00that's not what i'm trying to say
01:00:01but it's just that i'm afraid of getting hurt
01:00:07all i need then is a hug i think
01:00:11but i also feel so safe with you that i can actually talk about this
01:00:17hmm
01:00:18now you're showing to me that you can open up and talk about something like this
01:00:26and i like that
01:00:28it makes me really happy that you're able to
01:00:31i'm looking forward to making you feel safe and calm and that you get something you need and that you
01:00:40haven't gotten before
01:00:43that's sweet
01:00:45i feel most connected to you and i get really excited when i have a date with you
01:00:51hmm
01:00:51you don't get it because you haven't seen me before but i'm sitting here giggling
01:00:56i got shaky because you gave me something and i get to smell your scent i mean
01:01:01it's obvious that i like you
01:01:04okay that feels good
01:01:06no i totally get it and i'm really happy that you said that
01:01:10if you're gonna be my first boyfriend
01:01:13hmm
01:01:13you need to know what i'm thinking
01:01:14i do
01:01:16it's crazy that you could be my first boyfriend
01:01:18ever
01:01:19i mean
01:01:20crazy
01:01:32i was hoping the date would help
01:01:34you're my
01:01:35favorite
01:01:37both said that
01:01:38you say it to them
01:01:39no but i
01:01:42if you have
01:01:43you're on a slippery slope
01:01:44no wait
01:01:45i don't remember exactly
01:01:46i can't tell you what i said
01:01:51hi
01:01:53how are you
01:01:54a gift
01:01:55yeah
01:01:56oh my god
01:01:58no
01:01:58that's so sweet
01:02:00that's weird i got a gift
01:02:02really
01:02:02yeah
01:02:03oh god
01:02:04well then i swear you don't feel up for our date
01:02:06oh wow that's so weird
01:02:08really
01:02:08yeah actually
01:02:09it's weird
01:02:10should we sit down
01:02:11let's do that
01:02:13god i feel like an idiot now
01:02:15yeah
01:02:15i'm starting to wonder
01:02:17he's been telling me
01:02:18i'm his favorite
01:02:19he never told me that
01:02:20okay
01:02:22everything feels like
01:02:23we've been very real
01:02:24and open with each other
01:02:26and like
01:02:27we've been very complimentary
01:02:28to each other
01:02:29we have such a nice connection
01:02:31and now
01:02:32i just feel tricked
01:02:33and he's been sitting around
01:02:35wanting
01:02:35wanting to be seen
01:02:37in some way
01:02:38and really wanting to drag that out of me
01:02:40he knows we'll be in the same room
01:02:42and you'll see that
01:02:43i got a gift
01:02:44and of course
01:02:45now
01:02:45this is gonna happen
01:02:47what was he thinking
01:02:50i just don't get it
01:02:51i mean
01:02:52are we talking to like
01:02:54a kid
01:02:55yeah
01:02:59he can't really save himself
01:03:01at this point
01:03:03okay boys
01:03:04hey
01:03:06you go
01:03:06nervous
01:03:07big feelings for sure
01:03:10i'm doing this
01:03:11now
01:03:12good luck
01:03:18i found my lady
01:03:24i'm also scared shitless
01:03:25that i found her
01:03:27it feels too good
01:03:28to be true
01:03:29will i be able to be
01:03:31everything
01:03:31she deserves me to be
01:03:34for her
01:03:40thanks for seeing me
01:03:41oh sweetie
01:03:44i'm never allowed to be me
01:03:46the way i look
01:03:47doesn't represent
01:03:48who i am inside
01:03:49no
01:03:50i'm
01:03:51i'm soft
01:03:51i mean i'm like
01:03:52i'm
01:03:53oh please
01:03:53you're so gentle
01:03:56i just want your
01:03:58i just want your love
01:04:02you've got it
01:04:03i want it
01:04:06you already do
01:04:09but there's one thing
01:04:10that i feel
01:04:11and that i have to
01:04:14say to you
01:04:15because i think you are
01:04:17you're wonderful
01:04:18you are amazing
01:04:22but i'm not so sure
01:04:23that i am
01:04:25i'm fighting that feeling
01:04:26it feels like you have
01:04:28all the things i have
01:04:29that i've ever wanted
01:04:32but never gotten
01:04:35and i think that i will be the person
01:04:37and i think that i will be the person i want to be with you
01:04:39i can't be sure because i've never been with someone like you
01:04:45and that scares me because i don't want that to end up hurting you
01:04:50i want to tell you because i want to tell you because i don't want you to feel like you
01:04:53have been fooled by me or anything
01:04:56i'm not perfect if you choose me if you choose an imperfect man but i'm so in love with you
01:05:05and and it's so crazy because i feel like i know you i really feel it and i'm down on
01:05:19one knee
01:05:19no
01:05:19yeah
01:05:21i'm shaking i'm sitting and my legs are shaking so i don't know if i can stand up
01:05:26you don't have to stand up
01:05:28yeah
01:05:34do you want to get engaged
01:05:39yes
01:05:41are you sure
01:05:42of course yes
01:05:44yes please
01:05:45wow
01:05:49this scares me too
01:05:51because i've never done something like this either
01:05:55but it's what i've needed and it's what i've always wanted so it can't be
01:06:01so it can't turn out bad
01:06:02i think
01:06:05you are so sweet
01:06:07you're the sweetest
01:06:08you are
01:06:09you're exceptionally sweet
01:06:10i just want to eat you up
01:06:15they will come
01:06:16they will come inside
01:06:19wow
01:06:20i have butterflies
01:06:31are you engaged
01:06:33yes
01:06:38i'm so filled with love that i'm bursting
01:06:40i don't know where to go
01:06:42i'm like this
01:06:44when i love someone
01:06:46when i love i said
01:06:48oh my god
01:06:49i'm engaged
01:06:54congrats
01:06:56now we finally get to meet each other
01:06:59i'll try to look as good as i can
01:07:03smell good
01:07:04make a good first impression
01:07:05that's what i'll do
01:07:09tell me what do you see
01:07:16what does faith come in store
01:07:23my fairy tale hope is when we meet it feels exactly the same as it did in pods
01:07:29but
01:07:32i'm kind of scared
01:07:38not one time did i even dare to imagine what she looks like
01:07:42i love the person she is
01:07:45no clue what she'll think when she sees me either
01:07:47maybe she sees shrek
01:07:49maybe she sees shrek
01:07:49i mean who knows
01:07:58i'm feeling
01:08:00really
01:08:01nervous
01:08:05the worst thing i can think of is to see each other and then not have any chemistry
01:08:11i need to be afraid
01:08:40i need to know
01:08:46Into the unknown
01:08:52What do we get into the world?
01:09:01What do we get into the world?
01:09:06Into the unknown
01:09:10Into the unknown
01:09:14Into the unknown
01:09:36Into the unknown
01:09:37Into the unknown
01:09:37Into the unknown
01:10:05Into the unknown
01:10:13You
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