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00:18:31oh i'm featured right now am i that's actually pretty cool
00:18:40welcome everyone who's watching from the front page
00:18:51damn really is there really 1600 all right well from there
00:19:00i've been doing a lot of soul searching over the last several years
00:19:05and it led me back to the point where i wanted to sink my life into breath of the wild
00:19:10and stream it
00:19:17nader and thank you very much
00:19:233000 that's insane thank you
00:19:28thank you very much
00:19:36what do you do for a living and feel free to not answer any of this obviously
00:19:48oh golly gosh i don't even know your name is alex
00:19:54now i know
00:19:59i'm from another galaxy
00:20:02uh no i live alone i kind of like to have my own space but also if i'm alone
00:20:12then it's lonely well i should probably go to sleep oh you just got home i'm sorry i'm sorry
00:20:21i gotta go to bed i have to
00:20:26i guess i kind of stream so that sometimes i am part of people's daily routine
00:20:31it's kind of cool to have people tuning in regularly and kind of coming along the journey with me
00:20:39uh peace out goodbye
00:20:43i bet you can bow spin to do that but bow spinning also doesn't get as many hits so you
00:20:47need more
00:20:47stamina so
00:20:50narcy what's up sitting stable at like 10 plus viewers it's just like it's amazing
00:20:57like seriously like
00:20:59it means it really means so much to me that you guys like
00:21:04come around to watch me be bad at games if i could have any pet it would be either a
00:21:09skunk or a bat
00:21:18i'm d girl i like your username d stands for dick and to death to your foes d girl have
00:21:25you ever had
00:21:25it tastes really good i'll go to bad for not seeing a lot of things but not for that
00:21:33fucking silent shit what was that on the ground was that like a nut or something
00:21:41or should i say nut nut nut this is the way i am to people i like so if i'm
00:21:47giving you shit it's
00:21:47probably because i like you
00:22:03i really love the people here honestly not to get all like soppy and shit i'm getting a little emotional
00:22:11this is magical this is magical oh my god there's a star
00:22:20they're gobstoppers
00:22:27d girl will you be my d girlfriend
00:22:39i think i'm dating narcissus right i don't know
00:22:47d girl i've been thinking about you being here
00:23:11i like the view up here i feel like i'm in a high point of my life suddenly
00:23:16and i think this game is partially to thank for that
00:23:23i'm in a high point of my life and i'm in a high point of my life and i'm in
00:23:24a high point of my life
00:23:24someone chopped down a tree and like launched it super far
00:23:27but then link pulls the paraglider
00:23:30and it actually maintains the momentum from the ragdoll physics and i'm like oh my god
00:23:44okay like look at this tree right
00:23:50this looks bad actually this one right here this one
00:24:12i guess we want to go more this way
00:24:20email
00:24:21from death
00:24:22hey here's sister call it up to say hi give me a call sometime all right i love you
00:24:285 new voicemail from mom
00:24:30Hi my darling
00:24:32I should hear a voice
00:24:33Alright sweetheart, hang in there
00:24:35I love ya, call me when you're free
00:24:38Bye
00:24:42Oh
00:24:49Oh
00:24:49Wait why?
00:24:54Alright this is doable I think
00:24:56We can do this
00:24:58Let's fucking go
00:25:01Now that's what I call speedrunning
00:25:05She just started a run, let's go
00:25:08I'm disrupting speedrunning
00:25:10Much like I did in 2011
00:25:12I want to be the single greatest
00:25:14Player of this game
00:25:159 hours and 38 minutes
00:25:175-0-4-11
00:25:183-51-51
00:25:20There's a whole journey to it
00:25:22There's the magic to it, the streams
00:25:24Learning and improving
00:25:25Keeping people company during lonely nights
00:25:45I can't get up this, it's too high up but I think I can jump it with this
00:25:49You take a bomb, you place the bomb
00:25:52Then it's like
00:25:53Shield
00:25:55Backflip and detonate
00:25:56Forward air jump
00:25:57Shield surf
00:25:59Paraglider
00:26:01And then you climb up the wall
00:26:03And you do it all really fast and accurately
00:26:05So let me try
00:26:06It's like
00:26:09Wait
00:26:10It's hard to do
00:26:16Oh my god
00:26:17Come on
00:26:21Come on
00:26:22Why didn't that work though
00:26:23What the fuck
00:26:25I started today feeling very adequate
00:26:27And now I feel like kind of inadequate
00:26:34It's okay
00:26:35It's okay for me to be a mess on stream
00:26:36Sometimes it's okay
00:26:38I have self-image issues
00:26:40Like a lot
00:26:43Being trans
00:26:45You walk this fine line
00:26:47Between being like
00:26:49A goddess
00:26:50And a monster
00:26:55It's hard for me to explain this
00:26:57But sometimes it feels like
00:26:58I
00:27:01Am really not
00:27:05Enough
00:27:06Or
00:27:07I'm not enough
00:27:08Or I'm not like where I want to be
00:27:09With myself
00:27:10I don't want to feel like
00:27:12I'm like this
00:27:40I don't want to feel like
00:28:02A group of people showed up
00:28:04And we're like
00:28:05We're with something
00:28:06We're looking for Jake
00:28:07For people who are having trouble
00:28:09And then I said
00:28:10I'm not Jake
00:28:11And then I said
00:28:12Well what's your name
00:28:13And then I was like
00:28:16If you don't know my name
00:28:17Then go away
00:28:19And then they're like
00:28:20Okay
00:28:20But can we leave a card
00:28:22And I'm like
00:28:22Okay fine
00:28:27Mental health
00:28:28Crisis
00:28:29Services
00:28:31I wish I asked them more questions
00:28:33Like
00:28:34How the fuck
00:28:34Like
00:28:36Why are you here
00:28:51I need a fucking
00:28:53Cloth
00:28:54I think that
00:29:03What about ее
00:29:04And then we're like
00:29:22It's all about
00:29:22To help me
00:29:22Thank you
00:29:22And then you need to
00:29:23Like
00:29:24smokeアメリカ
00:29:38To be continued...
00:30:03To be continued...
00:30:30I think I've been very desperate for any attention, and thus, the people who show me negative attention, I seek
00:30:38it out.
00:30:40I've read more hate than you can imagine.
00:30:44I've read thousands and thousands of hate messages towards me.
00:30:48Kill trans people.
00:30:50Kill these freaks.
00:30:53Cosmo's not my name.
00:30:54My name isn't Cosmo.
00:30:56My name isn't Cosmo.
00:30:57My name is Narcissus.
00:30:59All this fucking transphobic shit.
00:31:01I feel like I started to internalize some of that shit.
00:31:03Watching this stream right now in hopes that this woman killed herself.
00:31:07Don't be surprised when you find Cosmo there.
00:31:09Narcissus.
00:31:10Some of the fuck didn't I have.
00:31:11Sign ways of rejection.
00:31:12All ways of resistance.
00:31:14End!
00:31:17People reacted really negatively to anything that was apparently some sort of weakness.
00:31:21So I fucking blew up the weaknesses.
00:31:24I pressed myself up against the wall and did some crazy shit.
00:31:28Please support me, please.
00:31:31Flush all your credibility and dignity down the toilet.
00:31:33Okay, would you shut up?
00:31:35Maybe I've caused a little damage.
00:31:37Certainly other people have caused some damage to me.
00:31:39It's like I want to respond to all their comments.
00:31:42What's going on in your life on the other side of the screen?
00:31:44Another fucking coward.
00:31:46Goodbye.
00:31:47You are coming into random people's chats being a bigot.
00:31:50Being a total piece of shit.
00:31:55I complain about people being negative towards me.
00:32:01You talking shit about me on YouTube not even a week ago?
00:32:13Then it causes another whole group of negativity to spawn off of that.
00:32:20I can almost date these people into spreading my image all over the place,
00:32:24even though it's really negative.
00:32:34How do I navigate this fucking online experience?
00:32:48Hi, Angel.
00:32:50Hi.
00:32:54How are you?
00:32:56I've been a bit emotional lately.
00:32:58It's great to be emotional and it's great to be deep and aware of what you are,
00:33:04of the world and everything,
00:33:06but mostly you shouldn't be crying a lot.
00:33:10I know, I know.
00:33:12Yeah.
00:33:16I haven't seen you in three years.
00:33:19No!
00:33:20I know.
00:33:21No!
00:33:22No!
00:33:28I should probably be calling you more often.
00:33:31Yeah, I know.
00:33:33That's all I do is think about you every day.
00:33:36Bye-bye.
00:33:37Bye-bye.
00:33:39Let's just drink all of our sorrows away.
00:33:58I feel like I'm in a mental rut, so I'm never going to pull myself out of it.
00:34:07Okay.
00:34:09If anyone in my chat is like a counselor or a therapist dealing with people who have depression,
00:34:17let's have a conversation publicly.
00:34:21Twitch must be my all and my everything.
00:34:25It must be.
00:34:27It has to be public.
00:34:30No, stop doubting the power of the internet.
00:34:42I feel isolated.
00:34:44I feel it.
00:34:47I feel really lonely.
00:34:49I don't feel like I have friends.
00:34:53I think that I don't know how to be friends with people.
00:34:57Me interacting with people IRL is like me being really shy and closed.
00:35:02And then like having trouble connecting.
00:35:06That's my experience.
00:35:13I have this queen-size bed.
00:35:16It's like all I want to do is like roll around with someone.
00:35:21And like...
00:35:23I just don't...
00:35:28I'm just alone.
00:35:55Oh my god.
00:35:58And I don't- oh my god, why?
00:36:03Jesus, too much is happening right now
00:36:08Okay, voice chat with me right now
00:36:15It's ringing, it's ringing
00:36:17Hi, I don't know like where do you feel we are right now?
00:36:21I feel not alone right now
00:36:23Yeah, I feel like I'm sharing my time and space with you
00:36:26Yeah, but I don't- I don't get to like wake up next to you and shit
00:36:29That's almost not even dis- okay like look there's like physical into this
00:36:33Okay, it is it is it is
00:36:37It bums me out, man
00:36:39Let's hear what's my guitar
00:36:47It bums me out
00:36:53It bums me out
00:36:56Yeah, this is beautiful
00:36:59It bums me out
00:37:03Your voice is so beautiful
00:37:05It bums me out
00:37:08It bums me out
00:37:11And if I could be
00:37:14In your apartment
00:37:17And you could be
00:37:20In Southern California
00:37:22You're all time
00:37:28All time
00:37:31All time
00:37:403, 2, 1, GO!
00:37:45It's me.
00:37:46It's D-Girl.
00:37:49This is only our first date.
00:37:51Come on.
00:37:51We gotta fucking take it slow.
00:37:54I opened up Narcy's fridge.
00:37:55It is only soylent.
00:37:59And then a fucking jar of peanut butter.
00:38:03I died the moment I opened it.
00:38:07It tastes like fucking mold.
00:38:10So she keeps her room dark.
00:38:14Fucking garbage bags in the window.
00:38:17It's kind of a nightmare.
00:38:20I'm gonna be nesting so fucking hard.
00:38:23Nesting.
00:38:24We're gonna upgrade some shit in your apartment.
00:38:27I'll fucking upgrade it.
00:38:29Yes.
00:38:30Damn!
00:38:32Alright, if you want me to like, one minute to the street.
00:38:34Yeah.
00:38:35For sure.
00:38:36Thank you for tuning in.
00:38:37I'll see you later.
00:38:49We've been improving my place, basically.
00:38:51Yeah, I'm trying to make her have a apartment like an adult.
00:38:56I'm actually like, super hungry suddenly.
00:38:57I want some pizza now.
00:38:59We can just get it.
00:39:01But...
00:39:01We need to like, end the stream.
00:39:03No, do another time.
00:39:07These are here.
00:39:09I'll be right back when I get pizza.
00:39:14It's been good.
00:39:15There's this person there with me.
00:39:17And like, I'm not being like, harshly judged.
00:39:20And like, we're like, doing cool shit.
00:39:22And like, improving things.
00:39:24And it just felt really like...
00:39:25I felt like this bond.
00:39:27And it was really fucking good.
00:39:29And I just started like, crying really hard.
00:39:30And it was like, incredibly fucking like...
00:39:32It felt almost like, therapeutic.
00:39:34It felt like, extremely good.
00:39:36I think she's back.
00:39:38Cool.
00:39:43Hey.
00:39:43Hey.
00:39:45Cool.
00:39:46How are you just going?
00:39:48Um...
00:39:49I still haven't left the plateau.
00:39:52I'm about to start another one, I guess.
00:39:54Although I could use a slice.
00:39:56I could use a slice.
00:39:57It's the first time for a slice for you.
00:39:59Okay.
00:39:59We're going back to IRL.
00:40:10We're going back to IRL.
00:40:12We're going back to IRL.
00:40:15We're going back to IRL.
00:40:17We're going back to IRL.
00:40:20We're going back to IRL.
00:40:21We're going back to IRL.
00:40:22We're going back to IRL.
00:40:24We're going back to IRL.
00:40:26We're going back to IRL.
00:40:26We're going back to IRL.
00:40:27We're going back to IRL.
00:40:29We're going back to IRL.
00:41:29Come on.
00:41:30Come on.
00:41:31This is the run.
00:41:37Yes, first try.
00:41:42We're heading to the airport later tonight, and that'll be the end of our five-day vacation.
00:41:49I'm squeezing every last possible second out of the day, Narcy.
00:41:54Yes, this is world record pace.
00:41:57Adrenaline pumping through my veins.
00:42:00Holy shit.
00:42:11Oh my fucking god, no.
00:42:16I think I just lost one minute.
00:42:21I've failed the tree launches every fucking run lately.
00:42:23I don't understand why.
00:42:25Still a minute ahead.
00:42:38I staced it too, really.
00:42:40So it didn't go.
00:42:42It wasn't disconnected from the bottom yet.
00:42:45I'm so bummed.
00:42:47Like, what the fuck?
00:42:48Okay, it's over.
00:42:49It's actually over.
00:42:50I'm so fucking sad.
00:42:51That's it.
00:42:51Like, there's no more.
00:42:53That's it.
00:42:54I could have had it and I didn't get it.
00:42:55It's over.
00:42:56The run's over.
00:42:58The run's over.
00:43:03It's time to go.
00:43:34The run's over.
00:43:35The run's over.
00:43:37The running's over.
00:43:38And the rink is up.
00:43:38There's no way not during the turn run comes in.
00:43:39I didn't run the ball.
00:43:39The run's over.
00:44:18Okay, I'll use those play games or something.
00:44:20I don't know.
00:44:21How's life for everybody?
00:44:24I missed you too.
00:44:27But, it's been replaced by missing Narcy even more.
00:44:31Like, I really like her.
00:44:33So nice.
00:44:36The line is it was a gaycation, but...
00:44:41We just haven't gotten...
00:44:42We haven't, like, hammered out shit.
00:45:06What I miss is feeling like the universe loves me.
00:45:09And that everything was good.
00:45:15A lot of my ego is built out of the impact I had before.
00:45:20And I feel like I don't have that impact anymore.
00:45:24And it really hurts me.
00:45:27Feels like I've failed if I can't reach that.
00:45:33Hello?
00:45:33Hello?
00:45:34Let's hack out everything we are to each other right now.
00:45:36I'm going to start a new run while we're chatting.
00:45:40So you're saying that, like, you would kind of want to develop something with me?
00:45:46I mean, I'd like to think I'm building a relationship.
00:45:51I've kind of designed my life in a way where I can just focus in on a few things that
00:45:57I really want to work towards.
00:46:00Okay, so what do you want?
00:46:02I want to be idolized by my viewers.
00:46:0620,000 viewers or bust.
00:46:25If this is the record, then we must post a Reddit thread called
00:46:29Absolutely Disgusting Record by Narcissa.
00:46:33Do I still think I can get over 10,000 viewers in Breath of the Wild?
00:46:36Yes, I do.
00:46:37I certainly do.
00:46:43Clear your minds for this jump.
00:46:49We're actually on pace for fucking sub 340.
00:46:53It's unbelievable.
00:46:57I want this run.
00:46:59I want to finish this run.
00:47:01I want this to be the run.
00:47:08Oh my god.
00:47:12That was fucking miraculous.
00:47:14Oh my fucking god.
00:47:17Oh my fucking god.
00:47:32This beats the record by minutes.
00:47:36May I ask?
00:47:39Do you really remember me?
00:47:42Peace and love.
00:47:43Peace and love.
00:47:44And remember...
00:47:46Trans girls rule Breath of the Wild.
00:48:03The current world record holder on Zelda Ocarina of Time.
00:48:09You will immediately have an audience, right?
00:48:11Oh, absolutely.
00:48:12Several thousand usually tune in for Zelda.
00:48:20I was at the precipice.
00:48:23And now...
00:48:25I'm like a fallen star.
00:48:28I want to feel like I'm on top of the world.
00:48:33I feel like I'm being swallowed by it.
00:48:47Ugh.
00:48:49What's wrong with me?
00:48:53No one in the world gives a fuck.
00:48:56It turns out life is not a fairy tale after all.
00:49:03It turns out everyone abandons the fuck out of you.
00:49:06Everything I've done up until now...
00:49:09It was all over nothing.
00:49:12I will never succeed in the way I succeeded in the past.
00:49:20This stream will all be fucking big again.
00:49:22It'll never fucking happen.
00:49:23I'm not relatable anymore.
00:49:25It doesn't matter if I'm the best fucking player in the world of this game.
00:49:27No one fucking cares.
00:49:29I've gone from being the superstar to the fallen star plummeting into earth like a fucking comet.
00:49:36Slamming down, creating a shockwave and burying in my fucking chasm so deep as everyone piles on and pushes me
00:49:43down into the caverns of darkness where I'm crowned the queen of hell.
00:49:50They think I'm a deranged freak who's delusional and shouldn't kill myself.
00:49:56They only fucking watch me if I'm raving.
00:50:00So the only solution is just to fucking go nuclear.
00:50:09I am the monster that you all created.
00:50:15These fucking people watching and observing me as I sit here and fucking literally struggle.
00:50:21I fucking hate this game.
00:50:22I hate people who watch a video game.
00:50:24That fucking twitch and viewership is so fucking...
00:50:26You all have such fucking poor tastes.
00:50:28I fucking hate you.
00:50:53So what happens if I call that phone number?
00:50:56You get to talk to your counselor.
00:50:59My phone is right here.
00:51:04Suicide prevention lifeline.
00:51:06Um, well I cut off all my hair and I guess it was like an act of self-harm.
00:51:18And feeling kind of hopeless.
00:51:23It's like people want to see me fail.
00:51:29And anytime there's any sort of sign of weakness, they pinpoint it and like harass me and like
00:51:33pick out of like a scab until I'm squeezed and I'm bleeding.
00:51:38I mean, I guess I just have like a certain level of visibility.
00:51:41So they're like jealous or something.
00:51:43I don't know.
00:51:43But like there's a lot of like sick, twisted feelings I get out of it.
00:51:46And it just makes me like feel like humanity in general is kind of evil.
00:51:50And that like every single entity on this planet is just like self-interested.
00:51:55And that friendship is an illusion.
00:51:57And that love is an illusion.
00:51:58And that like I'm just like incredibly fucking alone.
00:52:01I'm just like a fucking alien on this planet.
00:52:04It just feels easier to like damage a social connection than it does to grow it.
00:52:10Yeah.
00:52:11I'll get through tonight.
00:52:13Definitely.
00:52:16Alright.
00:52:17Bye.
00:52:36Why weren't you all watching?
00:52:39When I broke the Breath of the Wild record, I could have really used your support.
00:52:49I think I'm an attention addict.
00:52:57I think I'm an attention addict.
00:53:35I think I'll take a bite.
00:53:52I'm aaur, I think I'm anpie.
00:53:52I think I'm a Stephen types.
00:53:52Oh my god
00:53:57Do you did it live on streams? I
00:54:03Don't know I just hope she's gonna be okay
00:54:10Hello hey, what do you feel I like ruined myself by cutting my hair off
00:54:18You didn't ruin yourself you just fucking
00:54:22Cut your hair off. I
00:54:25Don't know how to just be calm and quiet during the hard moments because I feel like I really really
00:54:31want and need connection
00:54:37I feel like crying cuz
00:54:42I'm like grateful that you're talking to me right now. Happy cries are good cries
00:54:52Can I ask you something when would you be free if I was to come whenever whenever?
00:55:16It's like we're parting the birds
00:55:26Yeah
00:55:27I like this big opening
00:55:28Let's just like move in here
00:55:31This is the ocean
00:55:37How is all this even real?
00:55:40What is reality?
00:55:41I see all this I'm like I'm alive like this is a thing the happening. Yeah, I
00:55:48Can't help this is happening as fuck
00:55:57Do you think your life is too filled with things if your band so then you're streaming and you're cooking
00:56:04I
00:56:05Mean that's this kind of thing. I like to do. Yeah, that's why I like having people aren't as I
00:56:08can cook for them
00:56:13Try to change your perspective so that you see the sky as like a giant lake and you're like
00:56:21You're above it looking down
00:56:23Do you ever want to go to outer space for some reason to feel like that he's better down here
00:56:32earth is beautiful
00:56:34I think from here and elsewhere
00:57:04Cool it came in like a bully with a bite
00:57:10Cool it came in like a bully with a bite
00:57:12Skin to stone, crack a bone, guilty amber light
00:57:17It'll get out of coke and screw, did I beat you to your lips for blue?
00:57:22It'll get out of tear from heart, the test of all these out of you
00:57:27It's got you by the fifth talent, it's got you by the tone of it
00:57:32?
00:57:34?
00:58:55Yeah!
00:58:55Yeah!
00:58:57Let's try again.
00:59:04There we go.
00:59:05Yeah, there we go.
00:59:14Ah, this is really cool.
00:59:16This reminds me of Coventry Cove from Beetle Adventure Racing.
00:59:19Well, that's your comfort zone.
00:59:22This is my room right here.
00:59:25I always just book it when I'm on a trail.
00:59:28Kind of hard to get your hand when I'm behind you and the path is so thin.
00:59:40I feel sick.
00:59:42Oh, fuck.
00:59:43Can I sit on this?
00:59:44I guess so.
00:59:56I wish I got more sleep.
00:59:58I don't have a pillow on me, but I've got a bag full of shit.
01:00:01Yeah, I feel bad.
01:00:03I'm like...
01:00:04I think I'm ready to go.
01:00:09See what I'm doing.
01:00:15Okay.
01:00:21There we go.
01:00:22It wasn't so bad.
01:00:49Oh, I might puke.
01:00:52Try to launch it over at the edge.
01:00:59Oh, I am really feeling queasy.
01:01:05Fuck.
01:01:07Such bad timing.
01:01:11Okay.
01:01:22Ok.
01:01:22Ok.
01:01:32Ok.
01:01:40Ok.
01:01:41Ok.
01:01:41Just say no,
01:01:41Ok.
01:01:48Ok.
01:01:48Ok.
01:01:48Ok.
01:01:48Ok.
01:01:59All in all, I'm doing better now than I was before the trip.
01:02:08The time I spent there felt like it kind of healed me somewhat.
01:02:12Like I really needed that.
01:02:20Being able to share some affection and like just be around people I guess without being
01:02:30so isolated just felt really good.
01:02:46I don't know, it's like a breath of, a breath of, what is it, a breath of fresh air.
01:03:09When I was little and she used to help me play Soda when I was like, I don't know, six,
01:03:14seven years old and that's a really fun.
01:03:17To crop.
01:03:18Okay.
01:03:18I just wanted to crop like one pixel in.
01:03:36Beep.
01:03:37Oh no.
01:04:00I got banned on purpose because it wasn't making me happy and maybe that's because
01:04:08my brain got hooked on the dopamine so now my twitch account is gone it might be nice to receive
01:04:31some kind of unconditional love seeing my parents
01:04:53this is not a healthy environment for me to be in therefore I must leave this place
01:05:02but do not grieve for my disappearance
01:05:11for I will find what I'm looking for in this life
01:05:17I will just do it alone
01:05:23it's like level one where you grew up green fields grass trees
01:05:39you're my most beautiful flower
01:05:42you are the best of your generation brilliant talented sweet honest
01:06:01you were special different from other children
01:06:08that is why I quit my job became a stay-at-home mother
01:06:14I couldn't possibly trust anyone else to give you the love attention and freedom
01:06:19that your mind needed to explore life
01:06:22bye-bye
01:06:26so
01:06:41Oh, my God.
01:07:03Oh, how are you?
01:07:07Oh, how was your flight?
01:07:10It was fine.
01:07:11Oh, baby.
01:07:16I'm sorry it's been so long.
01:07:23Oh, it feels so good to hug you.
01:07:27Oh, look at you.
01:07:30Oh, you're just beautiful.
01:07:32I've been waiting for that moment for a long time.
01:07:34Yeah.
01:07:35Oh, you're wonderful.
01:07:37Oh, you're wonderful.
01:07:38Oh, you're wonderful.
01:07:39Oh, you're wonderful.
01:08:33Oh, you're wonderful.
01:08:36Oh, that's one of the bodies.
01:08:38God kissed.
01:08:41Perfect in their assemblage.
01:08:45With out of care.
01:08:47So I promise you this, even if you don't believe me
01:09:12Margaret Weaves from a world of teeth
01:09:16As a sea beast home
01:09:21Angry, hot, like a spilled flame
01:09:25Tired and alone
01:09:31Margaret, I'm to believe I've cried
01:09:35But I'm not so sure
01:09:39If I can have one thing you can pity me for
01:09:44She can't keep holding on
01:09:49This can't be
01:09:52All that alive and lonely
01:09:56Margaret, don't dare
01:09:59I promise you this
01:10:02Even if you don't believe me
01:10:23But Margaret, I'm sorry
01:10:25I have no excuse
01:10:28You deserve so much more than this world would afford you
01:10:33Bed in your belly like a panic attack
01:10:38It's you, you see
01:10:40I'll leave it for you
01:10:43Margaret, I'm sorry
01:10:45You must understand
01:10:47And
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01:11:21Katerina says
01:11:25I've been on this roof too long
01:11:30Sleek October rain
01:11:35Railing with my ears
01:11:39At the bitter eyes like fire
01:11:44Raking me up and down
01:11:46And spinning out
01:11:47You damned it, damned it
01:11:50But Katerina
01:11:55If you feel like too
01:11:58I'd like you to know
01:12:03Here's a song for when you get lonely
01:12:07And oh, you count it as holy
01:12:11Falls aside, stands you up shivering in the cold
01:12:20But Katerina, honey, it's not fair
01:12:26And up there when you can't decide if it is worth it at all
01:12:36When everything hounds you, I'll be round
01:12:40To carry you home, to forget about
01:12:45All that you told me last night
01:12:48And those memories in times like when you were laid on the ground
01:12:53Pick the lilies of boxes and stones
01:12:56I'd like you to know
01:12:57And what God's looking for
01:12:58I'll been across with you
01:13:01I'll be with you
01:13:03Thank you
01:13:15guitar solo
01:13:37guitar solo
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