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00:10Previously on It's Not Like That.
00:12Did you take Mom's jewelry box?
00:13The one with the ivory tree on it?
00:15We were fine, and then you kissed me!
00:18You said you needed me, and then you said it was a mistake!
00:21And it was!
00:21We need to focus on other people!
00:23Tell me if I'm crazy.
00:25If you have feelings for her.
00:28You're not crazy.
00:30How about you text me when you're done, and you could come over?
00:34Yeah, I could do that.
00:37And that your new boyfriend?
00:41I know Sunday's a big day for you, but I'm not going back.
00:47This is Malcolm and Jenny's daughter.
00:49What do you think is gonna happen?
00:51I don't know, okay?
00:52I just don't want to see her get hurt.
00:53You're drinking!
00:55Merritt, pull over!
00:57Merritt!
00:58Merritt!
00:59Merritt!
01:15Merritt!
01:17Merritt!
01:19Merritt!
01:20Merritt!
01:20Merritt!
01:21Merritt!
01:22Merritt!
01:23Merritt!
01:25Merritt!
01:28Merritt!
01:28Never see a doctor I would
01:32Sit down with my first aid kid and bleed
01:38I wanna be the power ballad that lifts you up and holds you down
01:46I wanna be the broken love song that feeds your misery
01:53And I can wish all that I want
01:57But it won't bring us together
02:01Plus I know whatever happens to me
02:06I know it's for the better
02:14So...
02:16So...
02:20You learned some new tricks
02:22Oh, well...
02:24I don't need to know how
02:30So...
02:34About this
02:36Yeah...
02:37It's Flora
02:46Okay?
02:48Yeah...
02:49Need anything?
02:50No...
02:51Do you know how much longer it's gonna be?
02:52No, it shouldn't be that long
03:01Okay...
03:11I'm here... I'm here... I'm here... I'm glad you should...
03:14Is it going?
03:25Oh, thank God you're here...
03:27Okay...
03:28They're both okay...
03:29Merrick's in the back with the doctor, so he has a mild concussion
03:32Yeah, it's waiting, Flora
03:33Uh, still waiting to be seen, she's... she's alright
03:35Why don't you go check it, we'll be over here
03:37Okay...
03:37Yeah...
03:41Hi...
03:41Hey, are you okay?
03:45What the hell happened?
03:46They took Jenny's car
03:47No, that much I know
03:48I'm sorry, Merrick and I have taken the car out a couple times now, so...
03:52You knew about this?
03:54I know she has her permit, but no, not this
03:56So what, they were just out joyriding your car?
03:59They weren't joyriding, your son took the car with Flora in it and almost killed them both
04:03We usually just, like, drive around, but...
04:06Tonight Merrick was upset, and...
04:09He was...
04:12He was drinking...
04:13And I didn't know, and...
04:16He's been drinking a lot lately, and he was drunk at the party
04:20And I should've told Lori, but I... I just didn't... I should've told her
04:25I'm sorry, I'm so sorry
04:26Hey, that's what happened
04:29I'm so sorry, honey
04:30No, I'm sorry
04:31David!
04:32Oh, he's over here
04:36Oh, my God
04:37Hi, hi, hi, hi
04:40Hi
04:41Hi
04:42Hi
04:43Oh, Mary
04:45Oh
04:46I don't... I don't even... I don't know where to start
04:51I'm sorry
04:53I screwed up
04:58I'll pay Malcolm back for the car, I'll find...
05:00Mary, this has... this goes so far beyond the car
05:04Okay, you've been lying to us
05:07You could've died
05:08I know
05:09Okay, Flora could've died
05:11I... I know
05:12I... I get it
05:14You...
05:14You were drunk
05:17No, I wasn't...
05:18Oh, you were legally drunk
05:19They took your blood
05:20But...
05:21You ran Jenny's car into a lake
05:25You're gonna get a DUI
05:27Lose your license, a minimum
05:28Do you...
05:30Do you get that?
05:31Okay, David, please, just please
05:32Do you get that?
05:41You have been drinking, okay?
05:43And not just at parties
05:44So there...
05:45There is a lot...
05:46There are a lot of conversations that...
05:49We will be having
05:52Okay, but right now...
05:54We're just so thankful that you and Flora are okay
05:57All right
06:18Hey!
06:19Hi!
06:20Flora left her phone
06:23Uh...
06:24Hey, Malcolm
06:26I'm so sorry
06:28I... had no idea
06:30That Merit
06:30No, I should've been more careful with Jenny's car
06:33I'm sorry, too
06:38Hey, uh, where are you parked?
06:39I'll walk you to your car
06:41Oh, I came with David
06:43Oh!
06:45Okay
06:51See you
07:14I'll go get Casey
07:15Yeah, give us a minute
07:20Son, listen to me right now
07:24This life isn't just yours
07:28Do you hear me?
07:30What you do affects everyone around you
07:32Everyone that cares for you
07:34Me, your mom, your sister, your friends, your girl, everyone
07:40I'm telling you this from experience
07:42I've thrown away so much of my damn life to alcohol
07:46The idea you will go down that same road, son, like...
07:49I'm not you
07:49You don't have to be
07:51It's a disease
07:55Yeah, well...
07:56You got sober and our family still fell apart
07:58So what does it matter?
08:03Thanks for freaking everybody out
08:05Now they're never gonna let me drive, dude
08:11I'm staying home today
08:15K-
08:23Chora, the car's gonna be okay
08:26I've looked it up
08:27All you have to do is pull it out with the timeline
08:29Okay, bud
08:30It's really cool
08:32Justin, stop
08:33We get it, you know how to use Google
08:35I-I'm sorry
08:42hey hey i'm okay i'm okay just stay away from merit you promise me okay all right is everybody
08:57ready hey you sure you don't want to stay home tonight you can uh especially after last night
09:03no it's okay all right at least let me give you a lift come on i i'd really rather walk
09:08dad clear my head
09:11all right all right okay kiddos let's go
09:17there's their work so just check in with them hey can you take a look at this yeah of course
09:23oh shoot oh david
09:28malcolm
09:31oh bachelor number three well answer it woman
09:37hey you hey how are you uh what happened you said there was a family emergency yeah um i apologize
09:46for the cryptic alarmist text um my son actually got into a car accident oh my god is he yeah
09:54no he's fine
09:55he's fine everyone is fine um it just really gave us a scare um we spent the night in the
10:00er
10:01last night and that's why i didn't call you right away i'm so sorry laurie i'm i'm glad he's okay
10:07that's yeah it was intense but um it's all good now he's he's home he's he's fine good
10:14well uh if it helps i uh i missed you it does i missed you too i'll take a rain
10:22check when you come
10:23up for air great thanks for being so understanding yeah are you kidding accidents happen right
10:30um i'll call you later okay i'll talk to you soon
10:36so timeline question oh can we please not play this game
10:39why did you send this cryptic text to joe before you slept with your ex-husband
10:46that's what i thought
10:48i don't know why i did it i don't know what it means
10:54oh my god he leaked the car yep that is so cool
10:59it's not cool i mean flora was in the front of that car she could have liked
11:04nika it's on jackson said he and eli are gonna meet us under the stands after practice
11:10okay is eli cool well he's a freshman in high school
11:15i'm down
11:40it's coming on christmas cutting down trees
11:45putting up reindeers singing songs of joy and peace
11:51oh i wish i had a river and i could skate away
11:58but you know that it don't snow here you know it stays pretty green i'm gonna make a lot of
12:10money and i'm gonna quit this crazy scene
12:13oh i wish i had a river and i could skate away
12:21oh i wish i had a river so long i would teach my feet to fly
12:40oh i wish i had a river so long i could skate away
12:50oh
12:59Flora?
13:02Hey, what's the matter?
13:05What is it?
13:06Is it Merritt?
13:07Is it about the accident?
13:09They pulled the car out.
13:11It's gone.
13:12Oh, honey.
13:12It's gone.
13:14What can I do?
13:15Nothing, nothing.
13:16There's nothing you can do.
13:18Okay, look, we'll get you a car, all right?
13:20We'll figure it out.
13:21It's okay.
13:23It's okay if I cry.
13:27You don't always have to fix everything.
13:29Okay, but...
13:30No, just, just, just let me be sad.
13:37It's not bad for me to feel this way.
13:41I really, I just, I really need you to be okay with that.
13:47I am, you're right.
13:48I'm sorry.
13:49Okay.
13:49Okay, okay, okay.
13:50Okay.
13:51Okay, okay.
13:57By the way, I need you to write my Little Women essay over the break.
14:02It's due for a stay back.
14:04Seriously?
14:05Yeah.
14:07Just don't make it sound like you.
14:18You know what, Dakota?
14:20Write your own essay.
14:24For real?
14:27Wow.
14:30I don't know why I even listen to Casey.
14:33What?
14:34At the thrift store.
14:36She totally guilt-tripped me about you.
14:39She's even more holier than thou than you are.
14:42No.
14:44She just doesn't care what other people think about her.
14:48Penelope!
14:48No, wait, it's, it's fine.
14:49Don't, it's not fine.
14:51My sister almost died last night.
14:53Do you seriously think that I care about what grade you get in English?
14:59You're not a real friend.
15:03Hey, coach?
15:04Mm-hmm.
15:05I quit.
15:19I can't believe you're going.
15:21Merit's going to be there.
15:22So?
15:23I'm not going for him.
15:24I'm going for Lori and Casey and David.
15:27It's Christmas Eve.
15:28We go every year.
15:29I don't care.
15:30I don't want to see him.
15:31I'm staying here.
15:34What?
15:35I can't read this.
15:37Okay.
15:38Don't worry about it.
15:39Uh.
15:41I'm not the only one doing anything for Christmas.
15:43The decorating, the cookies.
15:44All right, calm down.
15:46There's a special ingredient.
15:48Spice, I think.
15:50I can't read it.
15:52Well, it can't be all that important.
15:53Just make them without it.
15:55Yeah.
15:55I can't.
15:56It's Mom's recipe.
15:58They won't be hard cookies.
16:02She told it to me last Christmas.
16:05I can't remember what she said.
16:09Forget it.
16:10Oh.
16:10Oh.
16:12Justin.
16:13Hey.
16:14It's okay.
16:17Anything that you bake will taste great.
16:20Yeah.
16:20And we'll help you.
16:21We'll make our own special ingredient.
16:23Yeah.
16:24That's what Mom would do.
16:25And they'll still have Mom in there.
16:27I promise.
16:30Okay.
16:31Let's do it.
16:32It's definitely flowers, and we have that for sure.
16:35Mm-hmm.
16:38Dad's here.
16:43Hi.
16:44Hey, baby.
16:46Merry Christmas.
16:47Merry Christmas.
16:48Merry Christmas.
16:50Merry Christmas.
16:51Hey.
16:52Hey.
16:53Hey.
16:55Hey, buddy.
16:58Merry Christmas.
17:00Huh?
17:00Mm-hmm.
17:03Merit.
17:04What?
17:07I can't believe you invited the Jeffreys.
17:09It's like so awkward.
17:11I invited them because we love them, and they love us, and we work through our problems.
17:18Uh-huh.
17:19I'm sorry, but this whole Christmas is just feeling super fake.
17:25I-I know.
17:26It's-it's weird, Merit.
17:28We're all trying here.
17:29How's it gonna work tomorrow?
17:31We get two Christmas mornings.
17:33One here, and one at your crappy townhouse.
17:35Hey.
17:36Merit.
17:36Hey.
17:38Look, I'm sorry.
17:39I-I hate that you're still this upset, son.
17:44Come on, man.
17:45Tell me what I can do to make things better.
17:46You can stop asking me how you can make things better.
17:50Figure it out yourself.
17:52You know, you're the reason Flora and I broke up.
17:55You're the reason she hates me now.
17:57We were doing great, and then you came over, and you were so worried about her.
18:00Not me.
18:00You didn't even think about me.
18:02Your own son.
18:02You just assumed I'd hurt her.
18:04Poor, innocent Flora.
18:07Merit, I'm sorry.
18:08Okay, I never meant to, like-
18:09Don't-don't worry about it.
18:13You were right.
18:21No.
18:23That was wrong of me.
18:25Okay, to put any of that on you, to make you feel...
18:33Merit, I'm so proud to be your dad.
18:36I am.
18:38Do you know how very special you are, son?
18:42I don't want you ever thinking any less of yourself, because you're not.
18:47Mi hijo.
18:50Yo te quiero con todo el alma.
18:54Te adoro.
18:56Okay?
18:59I'm sorry.
19:13Merry Christmas.
19:15Hi.
19:17Should we, um...
19:17No, come on in.
19:19Okay.
19:21Hi.
19:21Hi.
19:22Merry Christmas.
19:23Uh, where's Penn?
19:24Uh, she's...
19:25She...
19:26She's staying home.
19:28Yeah.
19:30Merry Christmas.
19:31Hi.
19:31Merry Christmas to you, too.
19:33Hi.
19:34Uh, who's hungry?
19:35I am.
19:35It smells wonderful.
19:37Merry Christmas.
19:37Morning, pal.
19:38Merry Christmas.
19:49Okay.
19:50I know things are bad between us, and you don't want to talk about it, and I know you're pissed
19:53at my brother.
19:54I totally...
19:54I am, too.
19:55But I don't want that to make things even worse.
19:57Okay?
19:58So we are going to talk.
20:00Now.
20:02Okay?
20:12Let's go for a walk.
20:14Okay.
20:15Okay.
20:16Okay.
20:22Hey, thanks for saying something to Dakota, by the way.
20:24You know, you didn't have to do that.
20:26Well, did it help?
20:27No, of course not.
20:28She's the word.
20:29Oh.
20:31Yeah.
20:35Penn.
20:36Mm-hmm?
20:37I'm really sorry.
20:42About how I handled everything with your mom.
20:45You know, she was like my second mom.
20:48That's how I think of your mom.
20:51I didn't really know what to say, or do, or, um...
21:00But I blew it.
21:06I'm coming in for the bear hug.
21:08I'm coming in.
21:09Oh!
21:12Oh, big group hug.
21:15Bye.
21:20You know, I think about your mom, like, every day.
21:27So I should have tried harder to understand what you've been going through.
21:34It's okay.
21:35You know, I don't even understand.
21:38I kind of don't want to.
21:41And, uh, I've just...
21:44I think I've been trying not to be me.
21:48You know, it's easier to be a cool cheerleader than a sad PK.
21:53You know, more fun, too.
21:55Or, you know, I-I thought.
22:00I'm really sorry, Penn.
22:08I'm really sorry, too.
22:14So I quit cheer, by the way.
22:16Wait, no, you're serious.
22:17Actually, you-
22:18And, uh, you know, I don't really know what I'm going to do instead, but...
22:23Truth?
22:24Really sucked doing it without you.
22:28Well, you could always join wrestling.
22:30I mean...
22:31I don't know.
22:31I think that's all yours.
22:32Don't worry.
22:33Okay, sorry.
22:34But maybe Gilmore rewatch over Christmas break?
22:37Yes.
22:38Let's do it.
22:38Yes.
22:38Yes.
22:39Yes!
22:39I need more Rory.
22:41Oh, my gosh.
22:41Me, too.
22:42Oh.
22:47Justin, these are so good.
22:48I can really taste the love.
22:53Thanks again for helping out with the gala.
22:55Oh, yeah.
22:57And thank you for being there for Merit.
23:01Don't give up on him.
23:10Hi.
23:11Um.
23:12Oh, um, I...
23:14Can you tell me?
23:15Uh, I...
23:18I'm sorry.
23:19I, uh, I didn't realize you were having people over.
23:22I really should have thought to call for a stop.
23:23No, no, it's okay.
23:24Do you want to come inside?
23:25No.
23:26Uh, no.
23:26I, um, you already have enough, uh, men in your house.
23:33These are for you.
23:34Oh, thank you, Joe.
23:36They're so beautiful.
23:39Jeez.
23:40How much do you think those flowers cost?
23:41At least $285.
23:44I don't want to keep you from your friends and family.
23:47I'm just headed to my sister's, um, and I have another little something else for you.
23:52Oh.
23:53Uh, you can open it now.
23:55Okay.
23:55Oh, I'm sorry.
23:57Let me...
23:57Oh, thank you.
23:59It is a green project house I worked on in the Outer Banks.
24:02Oh.
24:03And the owners gave me a weekend stay as a thank you.
24:07Oh, wow.
24:08It's gorgeous.
24:09Yeah.
24:10Wow.
24:10I was thinking that you and I could go there together.
24:13Maybe ring in the New Year.
24:16Uh, it's just a weekend away.
24:18No, uh, cargo ships involved.
24:21And then, uh, maybe in the New Year, you and I could be together.
24:27Oh.
24:30You don't have to say anything right now.
24:32I know it's a big step, but, um, go big or go home, right?
24:42Merry Christmas, Lori.
24:44Merry Christmas, Joe.
25:02What are you doing?
25:03What does it look like?
25:05Okay, well, everyone's gone.
25:06You can come out now.
25:10Five, four, three, two, one!
25:11Whoa!
25:11Oh!
25:13Oh.
25:15I'm glad you're okay.
25:20I don't think I screwed you out of them letting you drive.
25:24If anything, I set the bar really well.
25:29Yeah.
25:31But, um, I am sorry.
25:37Don't ever do anything like that again.
25:41Okay?
25:41I don't want to have to see you like I saw Dad.
25:45Because we've got to stick together, man.
25:47You and me.
25:53Also, Mom kind of said you have to get ready for church.
25:56Okay.
25:56All right.
25:57Get out.
25:57Oh, you know you love me, poor thing.
25:59I love you, too.
26:00I love you, too.
26:11What?
26:12What's up?
26:13Well, I wasn't going to bring this up, but, uh, after that fun little cup of Joe Drive-by that
26:19just happened, I thought I'd...
26:22ask, you know, what the deal is.
26:25So, you guys are still seeing each other?
26:27Yes.
26:29But you slept with me.
26:32Yes.
26:33What was that?
26:36Old habits.
26:38Okay.
26:39Okay.
26:40Well, old habits aren't all bad.
26:42I mean, I like that old habit.
26:43Maybe we make it a new habit.
26:46I...
26:47David knew it was nice.
26:49Okay.
26:50It was more than nice.
26:52And it was probably necessary.
26:54Lori, it doesn't mean anything.
26:55Okay.
26:56It happened.
26:57Yeah.
26:57Right?
26:57It is what it is.
26:58Yeah.
26:59But that wasn't just a hookup for me.
27:01That was about one thing.
27:03You.
27:05I miss you.
27:07You miss me.
27:10Now you miss me.
27:11My timing's always sucked.
27:15I'm not going to say that there isn't a part of me that misses you.
27:20Clearly, there is.
27:23But I'm pretty confident that you and I sleeping together was a step backwards, not forward.
27:36I'm sorry.
27:39No.
27:40No, I'm sorry.
27:42Okay.
27:43We should go.
27:49Why don't you stay here tonight?
27:52Not with me.
27:53I mean, on the couch.
27:56And then you could be here in the morning for the kids.
28:03That'd be amazing.
28:05Yeah.
28:11For God so loved the world that he gave his only son,
28:15so that everyone who believes in him may not perish,
28:18but may have eternal life.
28:21Thank you, Pastor Harris.
28:26John 3.16.
28:29This year, my heart brings me to this simple verse,
28:32this humble, beautiful sacrifice,
28:34that God would send his only son
28:38so that we could have eternal life with him.
28:42What a gift in such a small package.
28:46What hope and peace and joy and love.
28:52You know, I've been thinking about all the packages under the Jeffries tree,
28:56all the wrapped gifts piled up there this year.
29:00I'm guessing, I'm guessing your trees are probably the same.
29:04And how tomorrow morning, we will be sitting there surrounded by a sea of wrapping paper and open gifts.
29:12But Christ's gift to us, the real gift of Christmas, is eternal.
29:19Unwrapped not once, but over and over again.
29:22Opened not just tomorrow morning, but every day.
29:26Friends, Christmas is holy about God's love.
29:30I encourage you to celebrate his gift to us.
29:35God sacrificed his only son for us.
29:38Live in honor of that gift, that sacrifice.
29:41Put love and care for others ahead of self.
29:45Live that gift.
29:47Live that sacrifice.
29:48Excuse me.
29:49Amen.
29:50Amen.
30:05What are you, what are you, what are you doing here?
30:07Where are you going?
30:09I, uh, can't.
30:14I can't, I can't listen.
30:15And, um, I, I, I feel so, so awful.
30:28That night, when you asked me to come over, the reason I didn't, I was, I was drunk.
30:41I wanted to be with you.
30:43I, I, I, I really, I really did.
30:47But my dad.
30:54I got scared.
31:01And I ruined everything.
31:03I'm so sorry.
31:05Hey, hey, hey.
31:08It's, it's, it's good that you feel awful.
31:11I mean, it's, it's, it's good to feel awful.
31:16It is?
31:17Yeah.
31:18Hey, trust me.
31:20Feeling something is so much better than feeling nothing.
31:28And you're not alone.
31:29I, I, I'm, I'm your friend.
31:33I, I do want you in my life, Larry.
31:36And I'm sorry.
31:45Well, with our families, it's not like you really have a choice.
31:50Yeah.
31:52Yeah.
31:54I mean, you know.
32:11what a holy night how blessed we are with these gifts of christmas hope and peace
32:22and joy and love
32:39merry christmas dad merry christmas laura thank you
32:56oh holy night the stars are brightly shining it is the night of our dear savior's birth
33:15long lay the world with sin and error pining
33:25till he appeared and the soul felt its worth
33:34a thrill of hope the weary world rejoices for yonder
33:46great a new and glorious morn fall on your knees
34:01oh hear the angel voices
34:09oh night divine
34:17oh night when christ was born
34:26oh night
34:30oh holy night
34:35oh night
34:42merry christmas
34:48hey bud
34:49merry christmas
34:50and merry christmas
34:55come on already
34:56all right
34:57hey no presents until coco mom's rule
35:01oh gotcha gotcha there you go careful
35:03boom
35:05let's take it hot
35:07kind of
35:07okay
35:10you guys you guys always used to get up so early on christmas morning i don't know how she did
35:16it but somehow your mom always managed to beat you downstairs i'd have coco waiting
35:35all right
35:35all right justin let's open some presents huh
35:38come on
35:39show me what we got
35:40okay
35:42who's that
35:43it's calling my name
35:44oh
35:45is it
35:46oh you're right
35:47pen gets the first one
35:48you're right okay wait let me take one
35:50it's a pretty good haul
35:54actually
35:56there's one more
35:58what did you do
36:00what
36:01come on
36:08i didn't say anything
36:09i didn't say anything
36:13what
36:15what
36:15you said you always wanted one
36:18oh
36:19oh
36:19oh my gosh david
36:23there's a lot of things i should have done a long time ago lori
36:26but it's not too late for me to start doing them now
36:30it's not too late for us
36:33um this is very sweet
36:36but
36:40i'm not the same person i used to be lori
36:44david you
36:46you are barely two months sober
36:51i'll always be an alcoholic
36:55i'm always going to be in recovery
36:56i'm always going to be in recovery
37:00you know my sponsor said
37:02shame doesn't help anything
37:04he's right
37:07i don't want to beat myself up anymore
37:10i don't want to go backwards
37:13living alone these last few months i've realized i've taken everything
37:16i took the kids i took you i took it all for granted
37:20i'm not going to do that again no matter what happens here
37:24listen to me
37:28we can be happy again lori
37:31we can be together again we just need to decide to do it
37:37it's not that simple
37:41isn't it
37:47why didn't you say all this stuff a year ago
37:51i wasn't here a year ago
37:57i am now
38:15what's what's this one
38:18i don't know
38:19oh
38:19um
38:20that was under the christmas decorations and stuff
38:23i thought it was from you dad
38:24nope not from me
38:25i see
38:33why don't you open it
38:45i see
38:48i see
38:58merry christmas
39:00love, mom
39:15There's something for everyone.
39:17Hey.
39:18Did you know about this?
39:23Ed?
39:30It's mom's jewelry box.
39:49Is that for me?
40:08Here.
40:09Let me.
40:11Here we go.
40:12Come on.
40:17Lay in a manger, no crib for a bed.
40:23The little Lord Jesus lay down his sweet head.
40:29It's you.
40:30It's me.
40:31Ask me.
40:33The stars in the sky look down where he lay.
40:38The little Lord Jesus asleep on my hay.
40:45I think he likes Christmas.
40:50Say hi to Daddy, Justin.
40:52Say hi to Daddy.
40:54Say hi to Daddy.
40:59I know.
40:59I know.
41:00It's okay.
41:01Look at how happy you made her.
41:11It's from my mom.
41:14Pen.
41:14If you want to get into your house with me?
41:24It's a good day.
41:25You're the first, there.
41:26It's a good day.
41:30The?"
41:30There.
41:31You're nice.
41:31You're the first but you do your first, I wish it was.
41:34It's okay to get into my dad.
41:34The thing that's pretty good.
41:34You know?
41:34It's so weird.
41:35You know how do you do.
41:36Oh no, I know.
41:39You know what?
41:53Here.
42:26Bye, mommy.
43:07My dearest Malcolm, Merry Christmas.
43:12How I wish I was there to celebrate with our beautiful children, with you.
43:21My gift for you is my hope for your future.
43:26A hope that you find love again.
43:32Someone who loves our kids as much as we do.
43:39Someone who shares your faith, who loves God as we do.
43:45Someone who truly, deeply cares for you.
43:51Someone you love.
43:55Someone who loves you.
43:58My dearest Malcolm, this is my hope and my peace and my joy.
44:06My love.
44:54Hi.
44:55Hi. I was just thinking. I mean, I can't believe you're here.
45:00Oh, I need to talk to you.
45:02I need to talk to you.
45:04I am so confused, Malcolm.
45:07Well, I'm not. Not anymore.
45:09You know, the other day, a few weeks ago, you said that we aren't good for each other.
45:15But that couldn't be further from the truth.
45:17You're nothing but good for me.
45:22I love you, Lori.
45:25And I know that scares you to hear.
45:27So before you run back inside, I just, I want to say it's not because I'm lonely.
45:31Or because I'm grieving.
45:33Or because I'm frightened of the future.
45:35Or that we're easy.
45:37I mean, come on, who are we kidding?
45:39You and I are definitely not easy.
45:41It's because you are the person.
45:46You're the person that I want to spend every day and every night with.
45:56Are you going to say something?
46:25I am so confused, Malcolm.
46:27Um, I don't know what to do.
46:31Like, because on the one hand, I have this new guy, Joe, and he's totally into me.
46:36And, you know, I'm pretty into him, too.
46:38And he wants to, like, take me away on vacations and spend all the time with me that I'll let
46:45him.
46:46And he's, like, all potential, you know?
46:49Like, an unknown.
46:51Mm-hmm.
46:53But I...
46:57I slept with David the other night.
47:01David?
47:02Yeah.
47:02Uh, well, I thought you and Joe...
47:04No, I know, I know.
47:05It was totally fear-based and probably, like, self-destructive, you know?
47:10But then...
47:12Malcolm, he wants back in.
47:14And he's saying all these things.
47:16If he had said them sooner...
47:18But he didn't.
47:19And I know that.
47:21But he is the father of my children.
47:25Right?
47:26And he is a known quantity.
47:28And, like, I woke up this morning and I saw them with him.
47:35I don't know.
47:36Maybe he's right.
47:37Maybe it's not too late for us.
47:42Like, to be a family again.
47:48Laurie, I can't...
47:49I can't tell you what to do.
47:52Well, I know.
47:55But could you anyway?
47:58Uh, trust yourself.
48:01You know, you'll find your way forward.
48:06Oh, I'm sorry.
48:08I'm doing all the talking.
48:09You came to me.
48:10What did you want to talk about?
48:13I just, uh...
48:15I wanted to say Merry Christmas.
48:19Well, Merry Christmas.
48:21You want to come in?
48:22No, no, no, no.
48:23I should get back.
48:24Okay.
48:27Good night.
48:28Get in there.
48:34No, it's for the better.
48:38No, it's for the better.
48:45No, it's for the better.
48:49No, it's for the better.
48:53No, it's for the better.
48:56No, it's for the better.
49:26No, it's for the better.
49:30No, it's for the better.
49:37No, it's for the better.
50:41We're right back.
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