00:04and I guess this trip was very special because I mean aside from 20 years ago
00:13was the last mom that we traveled together it's a very pivotal moment in
00:18my life where I also kind of feel like I was stripped off of everything and all
00:26the pressures back at home and you know mental health
00:33and so I feel like I really I really needed my healing and you always run
00:41back to your mom for healing to remind yourself of who you truly are that no
00:48matter what they throw at you they'll be powerless and you will rise again
00:55yeah she just needed this sojourn to be reborn to let it stir stir right
01:09to let it stir let it cook let it simmer and then the taste will be perfect
01:17afterwards I probably didn't understand it before and I probably hated you hate
01:25is such a strong word but maybe because I loved you so much that's why it turned to
01:30hate that I didn't understand yet that you were just protecting me from what I've
01:37seen and from the world from the world and you know and it's a cruel yeah it's a cruel you're
01:47right about that it's it's it's tough it's a cruel it's a cruel world and
01:52um you will really lose yourself I feel like now I may not I mean I'm better I may not
02:01be yet the woman at 40 I don't think you'll ever be
02:05be it you're always evolving but I know that you're getting there yeah no
02:12matter what they do I will stand up you will still rise she'll rise above all this
02:25that's what I'm telling you
02:27that's what I'm telling you
02:28that's what I'm telling you
02:29and she saw that and she saw my discipline because she gave that to me
02:36I am me because of her and I am me because she stood up for herself
02:42yeah
02:44I owe it to her because she has shown us countless of times and I've seen you on that same
02:54bed
02:55that same moment in your life where it was done but because you stood up from that bed I owe
03:04it to you and to myself that I'll stand up also
03:07so I'm not a hundred percent but I'm gonna do it
03:12but you're getting there
03:13I'm gonna do it yeah
03:14oh yeah
03:16I feel like we wasted so much time apart
03:22and then when I saw you walking and you had Hale and Jade by your side I feel like that
03:28I wish we had more years together
03:32that's what I did
03:33that's what the breaking point is
03:34I'm not a lot of crying because I'm walking around the street and I moved to the cafe shop because
03:38I realized that trauma is horrible but I wish I had gotten over my traumas earlier
03:46Maybe this thing that I went through, I went through something, I had to go through because it was now.
03:54It had to happen now.
03:56And what I realized about motherhood is, I realized that since she's already 90, 31, and she's just always watching
04:11Turkish novelas.
04:13Diba?
04:14I'm sorry for her to be with her.
04:15I mean, Camille's there with her, but I have so much time on my hands there, she could go with
04:20me to trips.
04:21But I will 100%...
04:32100% ako tatanda akong mag-isa.
04:34Yun yun, yun yung realidad nun.
04:36Kasi wala talaga akong anak.
04:37Although I have two kids, pero of course I will be there for a minute.
04:42Pero niisip ko lang.
04:44Yung pair nila is what they can only give.
04:47And that's exactly what Camille is doing for my mom.
04:50Cause she has two kids.
04:52But since I will be alone, and since I think when she's alone, and her age, and I will be
04:59that age one day,
05:00I will think about it that when my mom was my age, or is my age, she was alone, and
05:08I didn't visit her.
05:10And so, at least when I'm old, and I'm alone, I will think that when I was young, I did
05:19the right thing, and I was with you.
05:22So even if I'm alone, I will be satisfied knowing that I was there for you when you were alone
05:29and older.
05:30So yun yun yung lesson ko.
05:35Grabe naman to.
05:38Tabi ko sa yung hindi nga ito.
05:40Ibang gear nito.
05:43But it's true.
05:45And I'm not afraid of being alone as much.
05:48Because I know when I like time travel, I know that I was able to do that for my mother.
05:57So that will satisfy me in the end.
06:00That even if I'm alone, it's okay.
06:02I haven't frozen in time that I was with her, so she will be with me.
06:09I'm alone, and I'm standing, and I'm fine.
06:12Yeah.
06:12Not really.
06:14And having the pride that I have, so much pride, I never ask for their time.
06:22But I'm standing.
06:24I'm still here standing.
06:26And it's good.
06:28It's going to be fine.
06:30I think the decisions that she made as an adolescent were experiences that you needed to experience on your own,
06:46without me.
06:48Of course, I'm proud of all that you have become and all that you will achieve still.
06:56I know you will still fly.
06:59Because I always told you, right?
07:01Reach for the stars.
07:03And in case you fall, you'll still hit the roof.
07:07And you'll be fine.
07:08And you'll be fine.
07:09So reach as high as you can.
07:11So if you don't make it to the galaxies, you'll still make it to the top of the Eiffel Tower.
07:19Yeah.
07:20Cheers.
07:21Yeah.
07:22We're going to cheers, Mom.
07:24Cheers.
07:25Cheers.
07:26Cheers.
07:26Cheers.
07:27Cheers.
07:28Sino yung jowa ko daw na pinaka gusto mo at yung pinaka hindi?
07:34Kasi ganoon ka na sa hate, wala namang ilalove doon sa mga na yung jowa ko.
07:38Ano kaya niya ilalagay?
07:40Lahat?
07:40At tinong niya isa-isa.
07:42Ah, hindi ba dapat?
07:43Ganunin mo.
07:44What is your advice to me?
07:46Paano hindi ka mag-live selling?
07:47Kawin mong esthetic.
07:49No, no, no.
07:52I'm too Woche siu chung peo.
07:53I'm too lucky.
08:08Delicious!
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