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00:05you're genuinely hilarious I'm so happy you came to the garage I'm so excited we've never actually
00:12hung out it's so hard to comment on an experience at SNL because so much of it is like colored
00:24by
00:24projection right you know it's also when you're a writer there are two ways you could stay there
00:31it's like you're really fucking good or it's like you're there but no one really but you don't bother
00:36anyone yeah like you just kind of ghost your way I definitely had that work because I had my first
00:43year there I didn't have a kid my second year I was doing IVF and then I ended up getting
00:50pregnant
00:50like naturally after the IVF shit so I was pregnant for the second half of my second year
00:57but like couldn't tell anybody right and I remember one day we were doing like that's so fucked up that
01:01you can't tell anybody well like you can but I had also like I had like miscarriages and shit like
01:06that so I was like this time I genuinely am not going to tell anybody like for myself you know
01:11and so I didn't and I remember they had like table steaks at like rewrites like we would order steaks
01:18um and somebody or somebody like on table steak day was like can we get oysters also oh and I
01:27remember like sitting there like 13 weeks pregnant and just being like like truly trying to like
01:34like it was so tough and and then finally told everybody like the last week came back the next year
01:43six weeks postpartum so whoa and I felt like SNL was kind of like a good training ground for
01:50parenthood in that way because you're like you don't sleep right you can function on no sleep
01:56um not well but you learn that you can function on no sleep and you'd have to deal with babies
02:01you know what I mean it's just kind of this good practice for what parenthood is and
02:08and so in that way I was kind of like grateful for it but also I realized afterwards once I
02:15came
02:15back I was like oh I wish I I wanted to care right as much as I did before and
02:22that even like fucked me
02:23up like yeah like who why don't I care yeah like this my whole life was to get like something
02:29like
02:29this and I don't care I don't care but it makes you funnier yeah I mean over time but at
02:35first it
02:35just made me scared right because I was like this is my works like that's all I've ever been right
02:41my
02:42whole identity was wrapped up in that that was all I gave a fuck about was stand up and being
02:47funny and
02:47writing and and I went back to work and I was like I don't give a fuck you know and
02:54it just it's scary
02:55it scared me yeah I was like who the fuck am I for a long time now do you see
03:00it now as like
03:01kind of a superpower yeah now I do now I do it's because it was you know especially in entertainment
03:08you start to realize like you don't end up in this job by accident you're like you spent generally
03:15speaking you've spent your entire life kind of tap dancing for other people's approval yes and then
03:20you end up here and you go oh and then you have a kid and you go oh the only
03:26person's approval that I
03:28really need is hers right so what the fuck else am I doing all this stuff for you know you
03:35stop saying
03:36yes to shit that you really don't want to do favors are done favors are done yeah like fuck you
03:41yeah like how dare you even ask me yeah yeah look at this I just sent pictures of the baby
03:45now
03:45yeah like hey can you come and I just send a picture of the baby no and they're like oh
03:49I
03:49understand I'm like yeah yeah I know and then it also made me feel like uh I don't know if
03:56you have
03:56this thing where if some if I ask someone to do something favor wise or if they could work with
04:03me or
04:03whatever and they said no I'd be like oh yeah no problem but for some reason if I do it
04:08I think
04:08it's like wrong or I'll get in trouble or like yeah that person will be mad at me right for
04:15some
04:15reason I have like this instilled fear that like if I don't do xyz I will either lose that friend
04:21or everything everything will be over right yeah I think that's like um I don't know what that is
04:28but I I definitely have that I definitely get this like vice around my fucking neck whenever I have to
04:33say no to somebody or let somebody down right when in fact uh I'm not that important and nobody's
04:39nobody needs me that much you know like I don't I my mom would always say this to me and
04:46it used to
04:47like hurt my feelings but she would be like nobody needs you oh whoa like someone similar said to me
04:53what I was like very wrapped in my own head and uh so it was like my boy was like
05:00yo nobody thinks
05:00about you like that yeah and I was like what do you mean yeah everyone's not refreshing the daily
05:05mail and reading all these comments about my outfit yeah yeah what made your mom say that to
05:10you well um I'm I'm sober and yeah congrats yeah it's fucking awesome it is it's great yeah and uh
05:18and it's uh you know when I first got sober I remember like freaking out about some bullshit
05:24and being like nobody's gonna understand this I'm so fucking unique nobody nobody gets me because
05:32I'm so fucking special and my combination of like addiction and trauma and mental illness is so
05:41special that nobody's gonna fucking understand it and my mom was like Rosebud nobody needs you that
05:49much you're not that unique and and it and she was like and that should be a relief to you
05:56right she
05:57was like that should be a huge relief right and it kind of blew my mind because I was like
06:01well it's
06:02your mom yeah yeah like if your friend says that there's that thing where you could be like are
06:06they jealous of me yeah they're in the business too right that's just your mom yeah it's just my
06:10mom and my mom's sober too so my mom was like saying it from like a sober perspective it wasn't
06:15like
06:15that's not the kind of mom she is right it came out of her mouth and she's like a sweet
06:20angel
06:21so I was like what the fuck and then I kind of was like oh I see what she's doing
06:25here she's like
06:26trying to help me out yeah cuz I'm otherwise I'm gonna walk around thinking I'm so fucking
06:32especially yeah one yeah that's a really it's a hard lesson to learn but once you learn it it makes
06:38you look at everything so differently yeah and then you people who you thought were really cool are like
06:43not yeah like at all yeah very unsexy job it's a really unsexy job and it feels really you feel
06:52like a shell of yourself in a real way for a long time did you have a existential I mean
06:59I always have
07:00existential crises yeah probably one one a week well yeah for sure where I'll be like did I pick the
07:05wrong path yeah is there a happier version of me in a different timeline I was like but I remember
07:13my dream used to be to be a mailman because the wheel was on the other side for some reason
07:18when
07:18I was in high school I was like that's fucking cool like yeah he's the only guy on the road
07:21with the
07:21wheel on the other side yeah but did you when you first had your baby did you have like a
07:27full like
07:29what who am I as a person anymore yes yeah and I think that that's the thing that people don't
07:35realize is like you feel like okay yeah you are making a person but you're also making a different
07:41version of yourself and you don't know that until the little person shows up and then you just get
07:48like yeeted into a new version of yourself and you're like oh fuck I don't know who I am and
07:54there's
07:55like parts of who you were that were that are there you know like I lost my sister in a
08:00crazy way
08:01when I was like younger and I had like severe PTSD when Mino was born I was like oh fuck
08:10I'm uh I'm
08:12like really really scared of her dying like and everyone is everyone's scared of their kid you know
08:19you're just like just keep them alive just keep them alive right but you latched on to that sort of
08:24memory yeah in this way where like I couldn't like bond I couldn't like I had severe like PTSD come
08:32up I I just was like just keep her alive and that's it I wasn't like I didn't have a
08:37moment where I was
08:38just like blissed out like mom's talk about I didn't have any of that I just was fucking scared
08:45for so long and like it's just now starting to like kind of ease up it's like I'm sure people
08:54say
08:54this but they just like they give it to you and you get to leave with like you give birth
09:00and then
09:01they're there for a day and there's all these nurses and all these doctors and they're showing you how to
09:05burp and they're super aggressive with the baby were your nurses like where they were like yanking it
09:10back and smack yeah you're like oh yeah that's brand new yeah yeah I guess they do that to make
09:15you feel better I guess it's like I was really afraid I was like I'm just gonna snap her neck
09:21yeah like that's what I was I was like just don't snap her neck yeah please don't yeah um but
09:26then
09:26they just they're like okay you could go and I'm like you're gonna let me like take a baby yeah
09:31me
09:31right like you know who I am you're gonna let me take this baby home yeah then you're just home
09:37with
09:37it you're like oh fuck like this is real like this is yeah it uh I mean the first first
09:44moment where
09:44I was like oh this is real is like I remember showing going home and putting her on the dining
09:50room table in the carrier not really no not like raw but I just I like put her on the
09:56end I just put
09:58her on the dining room table and then like went to the bathroom and like went to the kitchen to
10:04eat
10:04something and came back out and was like oh fuck I was like she's here you're still here yeah I
10:12was
10:12like oh my god and it was like oh my god she's ours like she's she's ours and she's here
10:18right that
10:18was like the first moment where I remember being like oh wow how did how did soon as you go
10:24back to
10:24work and how long did it take for you to be like I have to work I have to have
10:29some sort of life
10:30yeah and if I don't like I'll just be like a weird person for like my kid dude I felt
10:36like I felt guilt
10:39on every level in that way like you know I felt severe debilitating guilt going back to work and
10:48then I felt severe debilitating guilt while I was at work for feeling guilty about being away from her
10:55right and then I just started like I remember being like people coming up and being like do you
11:01miss the baby you know do you miss the baby and I didn't remember like I never saw them asking
11:07dads
11:07that and I remember being so like triggered by that question I I was like um I remember like snapping
11:15at
11:15one point and being like yeah do you know I do miss her I miss her a lot yeah yeah
11:19I was like I miss
11:20you know I'd miss her more if she fucking starved to death because we depended on her dad's income but
11:24yeah I do miss her you know what I mean like fuck off like it was just like I have
11:31to be here
11:31it is really fucked up like this is something I've been noticing we don't have to do that much to
11:39get
11:39like like people be like oh you're if I just like pick her up they're like you're a great dad
11:44yes yeah if you're ever out this is terrible if you're ever out with a mom and a dad and
11:51there's a kid
11:52just like don't say anything to the dad period yeah like it is not cool just be like look at
11:58you
11:58doing the bare minimum yeah look at you seat filler yeah yeah I imagine um the whole time like you're
12:09like I need this thing out yes let's get this thing out I'm so tired of being pregnant yeah did
12:13you have
12:13a weird moment where um once it was out you're like oh I like kind of miss like I'll never
12:21feel
12:21like that ever again yeah I have these moments where like I'll get like a gas bubble in my stomach
12:25and it reminds me of like what it feels what it felt like when she would kick me and I
12:30get like
12:32really sad afterwards and then I'm like and then I fart but it's like
12:37it's like it's like that feeling of like this little like bubble and it feels like that over
12:43and over again and I remember being on the road and being like doing shows and then going back to
12:50the hotel room and being like oh I'm never like alone I'm just like going around with this little
12:55person yeah and people would be like oh how do you tour and I was like it's so much easier
13:01to tour
13:01when I'm like never alone and I get to like go just like sort of snuggle with my kid
13:07right even though she's not here yet you know oh wow I didn't even think of that yeah yeah like
13:13you're never yeah you're not alone you're just walking around with somebody else all the time
13:18how long into pregnancy were you doing stand-up I was doing it uh I recorded my special the first
13:25half of it when I was 36 weeks so oh damn yeah yeah that's like I was fucking huge I
13:34was fucking
13:34huge I gained 70 pounds whoa 70 fucking pounds because Andy's 6'2 right and I'm 5'3 they get
13:43as
13:44big as they fucking want yeah and you go oh fuck it also is like shockingly like I know again
13:49this is
13:50like so cliche but like it happens really fast like when you first I remember we first brought
13:56Scotty home she was like like maybe this big yeah and you're like whoa like and now she's just like
14:02this big chunky like yeah and it's been two months she's smiling she started smiling in her sleep
14:08oh my god yeah but I'm like what the fuck are you smiling about yeah yeah I didn't have make
14:14you have
14:14sympathy for your parents yeah yeah I got like real sad about it I took my my mom for granted
14:19um because I got used to how good she was yeah and like stable and like and then I was
14:26like oh fuck
14:27like she raised me and my sister alone I know I had three jobs never complained we had everything
14:34right like she lost her partner yep I'm the worst like I was like I'm a bad I know I
14:42had severe guilt
14:43too yeah where I was like oh fuck I like I had to have because my mom lost her daughter
14:49her like
14:50my sister was seven when she died oh so and I was the oldest and and then I fucking went
14:57off and like
14:57just became this like fucking addict who was like not you couldn't find me anywhere you know like I
15:05didn't knew grieving yeah well and I was grieving but I'm also a fucking addict so I was just like
15:10out there just getting fucked up and um disappearing to places for like weeks at a time and like you
15:19know I just think about what that would feel like as a mom if you've lost one kid and then
15:24you're so
15:25worried about like how your other kids are going to feel you know what I mean yeah I remember calling
15:31her at one point and being like thank you so much yeah at one point I was like I and
15:38I didn't want to do
15:38it that's what a piece of shit I am it's like I felt guilty I knew that I should and
15:44I still didn't
15:45want to I'm sure she was fucking thrilled yeah she was like this is the thing this is the reason
15:49why
15:49I didn't want to do it it's like my mom cries there's not enough hours she cries over everything
15:54and I'm just kind of like it's enough already we've gotten into a huge fight about it one time because
15:59I
15:59was like I told her there's not enough hours in the day for the amount of crying that you need
16:04to do
16:04and she got she obviously started crying crying about that yeah and I was like god damn it you
16:10know she's like what do you want me to do you know yelling at a crying person yeah I'm just
16:16like
16:16yeah that's because like you're like if someone saw this they would not understand the psychology
16:21of like she's wrong yes I'm like I get it I know yelling at a crying I'm like this is
16:27like the it's
16:27like a light version of killing yourself to like win an argument right it's like the light version
16:34of that right it's like well you're not gonna have a problem with me now and then you know what
16:39I
16:39mean so like I just kind of saw it as like a selfish thing but then I realized I was
16:44like this woman
16:45has had five children like the way that I feel after one child fuck that I'm like yeah yeah I
16:52didn't
16:52even have it she's like an open wound just walking around in the world five by like what age uh
16:5936
16:59dude fuck that yeah I I feel like I'm a young dad like and then I think about my parents
17:07yeah my
17:08parents had me when they were like 23 24 yeah their children when they had us yeah yeah it's fucking
17:15disturbing I know five five five girls how quick did you forget how awful or did you not forget
17:22where you were like there there comes a time where like we have another one and I'm like do you
17:28not
17:29fucking remember yeah yeah yeah were you here for the last 16 months yeah yeah I mean to be honest
17:38with you I was I'm like I don't want to have another um I don't want to like go through
17:46that again
17:46and when I say like I really felt like having one kid like kicked up a bunch of shit that
17:54I just
17:54like hadn't dealt with right I mean I'm like I I can't go through having a second one but also
18:02like
18:02did you picture all the things that you went through happening to your kid and you're like
18:07I can't let that okay I just like was I was worried that like the things that I went through
18:12were gonna affect my kid because they would affect my parenting and I was like you know I just really
18:20felt so confused about like who I was and what what I was doing and trusting my own gut I
18:26was like oh
18:27fuck I remember one time she got sick and um I was at the doctors and uh like the doctor
18:36was like okay
18:36you can do this or you can do that and I was like what do you mean I can do
18:40I was like you tell me what
18:42to do right you're a doctor yeah and she was like well it's the parents it's your call and I
18:47was like
18:48no like I was like don't make me choose you know like I just I'm like I don't trust myself
18:53like it was really like that for so like so long and I just like now I'm starting to feel
18:59confident
19:00you know um it's it's just been a fucking journey to like get to this place but I feel like
19:08if I was someone who wanted a second kid now right around now would be the time that I would
19:14want a second kid right now but like um first of all my husband and I are separated so that's
19:20like
19:20not gonna happen um but it's also like it's really okay I think you know I mean he's another comic
19:28we
19:28are cool we're good um we love each other it's just like it's it's really tough like two comics
19:38but also that but also having a going through a pregnancy or what like that does that does some
19:44shit like it does some shit like it really yeah it really does like you're yeah you're both like
19:51don't really know how to act or handle things and you're doing it in real time yeah and like it's
19:57neither one's fault no you know what I mean but like it does like the comparative loop that you
20:03get into is so bad oh I did this or I did this yeah and it's like well I'm this
20:08and you're like
20:08all are true yeah and all are super valid but like yeah it fucking and and you're also just I
20:14imagine so tired you're so tired you can't like witness another person's like pain and be like oh
20:20that's valid yeah you're just like you don't have time to like have a like a mature conversation
20:25you just like want to go to sleep like they're sleeping like let's fucking like yeah yeah let's
20:30sleep we gotta sleep yeah and you can't sleep because you're so worried and you're looking at
20:34the monitor yeah just seeing if their head is like the right way yeah yeah no it's fucking it's it's
20:40really tough like any I have a new uh admiration for like people that are together for a really long
20:47oh my god I'm just like wow yeah holy shit I know it's fucking hard you gotta deal with life
20:52you still gotta deal with your own shit which is hard enough but then there's like there's a little
20:57thing in there that like relies on you both yeah yeah and you gotta deal with the other person's shit
21:02right like that's the other thing it's like I we had like a great conversation just like a couple
21:08nights ago where um you know we were talking because when we got separated it was kind of like this
21:14just like you know where you're like in the middle of a fight and somebody's like well then if that's
21:19how you feel we should get separated and then the other one's like yeah we should and then you think
21:24that it's like you're calling bluff but then and you're like wait and then when he's like no and the
21:29other one's like well but yeah but that actually does make sense I'm not you know what I mean and
21:36it was like this thing that was just true that was accidentally said out loud and then you just
21:42have to deal with the inconvenience of that truth right but that's so much better than like
21:48continuing to like lie to yourselves about what's actually going on right and um and last night we
21:56like had a great conversation where he was like you know this is like we have her and if that's
22:04what
22:04all of this was for then that's then all of this was worth it and like awesome we're gonna be
22:09cool
22:10we love each other he's fucking hilarious he's a great dad I will always appreciate him and even
22:19if we get divorced it's not like it's weird because I've never you know I've never been married but I
22:24feel like I whenever I worry about getting divorced I think about okay when we get those papers and we
22:30sign those papers it's gonna be like all right well uh see you see you or talk to you every
22:36day for
22:36the rest of my life forever you know what I mean so we want to get lunch yeah it's like
22:40it's not
22:41gonna be like bye you know I can't just like peace out we gotta plan a birthday party yeah we
22:46gotta
22:46fucking yeah like so are you gonna get the balloons which one of us is taking to the ice age
22:526 right
22:52exactly yeah so I kind of like I comfort myself with that um all the time relationships happen for
23:00different reasons you learn different shit from different people and you catch each other at like
23:05where you are where you are at in life like the amount of times where I was just like the
23:11biggest
23:12drug addict ever and like while I was in these things I'm like why is there anything working out
23:17and I'm like oh like I'm not I've never been with anyone not fucking rocked out of my mind yeah
23:24how could it ever yeah you know but while you're in it you don't know that yeah you don't know
23:29until
23:29later I think honestly that like if if we judged relationships more on like you know the success of
23:37a relationship if we judged it more on like um how much you are able to grow within it rather
23:44than like
23:45if it lasts I I think we'd be better off as a society right like if you were a journeyman
23:51just like
23:51yeah I learned that from that person and yeah we shared something really special and that's okay
23:57yeah and in that case if if that's if it's if it were judged on that then the relationship that
24:04I
24:04have with my um I don't know what you call deyonce or something
24:13then like I feel like that's that's the best relationship of my life I mean if you could use
24:19baby mama or baby daddy at any point in your life I think you should take full advantage yeah
24:24like it's always been my dream yeah I think when you would hear rappers be like oh I gotta go
24:28hang out with my baby mama I'm like that's that's kind of cool like it is cool but I I
24:34can't pull
24:34it off I'd feel ridiculous I feel ridiculous yeah we're like what
24:41like yeah well I grew up super catholic where like um it was just like that's your goal is like
24:47to get married by like 23 everyone I know and where I'm from was was with the person they met
24:54in high
24:54school yep and then stayed where they lived and then just none of their jobs were like aspirational
25:00there was always like one or two people that like like whoa he fucking became this
25:05because I think like that the right to anonymity is something that like people take for granted
25:14all the time and then you get famous and your right to anonymity is yeah yeah I find myself lucky
25:22that
25:22I felt this way but I remember the first time I ever got recognized I was like fuck yeah like
25:28it's working and then like the same day another person and I was and immediately I was like
25:34oh no yeah oh fuck yeah and then I would go into like places that I ate at all the
25:41time and they
25:41started acting like a little different and then when I got sober I became like really angry like
25:47uh I'd be like hey I'm a person like yeah I'm a person right you know or if like I'm
25:52in CVS and
25:53I'd look up and someone's just like or they do that whole like yeah you know how people you know
25:59when people are clearly taking a photo of you and they're holding the phone in like a way that they
26:05would never I don't but I definitely have been in a position where I thought somebody was and then I
26:11was like oh no nobody knows who I am but I'm like do you think I'm fucking like yeah that's
26:16fucking scary
26:17like how stupid do you think right you know so I I've been struggling a lot with like um
26:25just like I feel like I'm trapped in an avatar that I created yes yeah yeah like yeah and I'm
26:31like I'm not even this guy um and now I'm just like I don't know what the what to do
26:37with it and
26:37now that there's a little baby there I'm like I don't know if you feel this way but I'm like
26:41I
26:42don't want her anywhere near this fucking business like yeah oh my god yeah yeah I don't want her to
26:49ever pursue anything no I want her to be like a fucking plumber yeah just I'm like just learn how
26:56to do something that fucking AI can't take and like work with your hands and you know what I mean
27:02like that's I just want her to be that I want it to be as regular as possible but like
27:06obviously
27:08it's when you're of notoriety it actually is one of those rare cases where it is everyone else
27:13yeah like she she'll be a normal kid in school but then it's like all it takes is one parent
27:19to be
27:19like you know who's then they start googling you and then she could possibly get bullied and I've
27:24already I'm already like it's funny because people when you're like a new parent um people will say
27:30they'll be like oh you know like don't worry about that stuff like she's she's so little like don't
27:35even worry about it but like it is normal to worry about that shit and everyone does and I remember
27:42feeling the same fucking way and like just like not being able to like rip my eyes away from her
27:48like while I was talking to people and just like trying to like be like what does every micro
27:52expression mean and they'd be like babies just do that like she doesn't mean anything I'd be like
27:57fuck you like in my head you know and then in my and then outwardly I'd be like that's totally
28:02right yeah you know yeah I'm being crazy it's so confusing I know because of tiktok and they'll be
28:08like this baby tiktok and like half of its AI yeah yeah and like so creepy anything you could google
28:15like when have you ever googled anything and you were like I love that answer yeah like it's always
28:21like hey is it cool I remember is it cool if your baby like makes like this noise and it's
28:26like
28:27in some cases that could be whatever and I'm like sudden death yeah yeah you're like fuck so
28:32it's just like I feel like we're I don't know there's so many uh things that I was told that
28:38like you need to get and then I was like I grew up super poor and I lived me my
28:44mom and dad lived in
28:45someone else's basement right and I had like a crib and like that was it yeah and I was like
28:51I guess
28:52not fine but like still like I don't think you need but that is fine it's like all they really
28:57you need to be loved and fed and cared for yeah and like that's what they need right and I
29:03keep
29:04reminding myself of that now especially because you know I'll be like uh I'll be like fuck I need more
29:12time with her you know because like I don't I don't want to have another kid but I also don't
29:19want this to like go away and then but it's like you don't really need more time you just need
29:25to
29:25like pay attention like the moments when you're like with them like staying the fuck away from my
29:31phone is like the best thing for my relationship with my kid because this is like I genuinely believe
29:38is like crack cocaine and I hate the way I pick it up and I just like like I can't
29:45or you'll like go
29:45to check one thing or one message and then somehow you're like watching a dude mow someone's lawn in
29:51a hood yeah and you're just like what am I doing how have I been watching this for two hours
29:56I watch
29:57this guy every night he like rings the doorbell he's like hey I just noticed you're like lawn's a little
30:00fucked up like mind if I just like lawn it like mow it and the someone will just be like
30:05oh I can't I
30:07can't pay you he's like it's just it's out of love and then I watch this guy like mow the
30:12lawn
30:13and then they cry yeah and I'm just like why this is not helping me in any sort of way
30:20I know um I
30:22think the uh like the parenting shit I mean there's so much I feel like with with her my daughter's
30:35like
30:35real confident she's like a two-year-old lawyer you know what I mean that's awesome and I uh I
30:42really
30:43try not to correct her um and I know that like that's you know I'll be like we're not doing
30:51this
30:52um and she'll be disappointed but I don't correct the way that her the way that she responds to things
30:59my job is to like witness validate and be like because I just grew up in this kind of environment
31:08where it was like if you're sick you're actually not sick and if you're and if you're sad you don't
31:14have to be and if you're mad you're acting insane and it was like and I do that so much
31:21to myself and
31:22it truly like makes me miserable yeah so I try as much as humanly possible to like be conscious of
31:31that
31:31and when I'm with her uh I don't correct her like and she's mean she's like not nice
31:41she's not nice in what way like like like um
31:48she uh a couple when we went to see Santa right you can tell she's got like two comedians for
31:55parents
31:55because like what she does to get a reaction is like 10 times what you would have to do to
32:01get
32:01a reaction right so instead of crying this time when I put her on Santa's lap she just started going
32:06it's my body over and over again
32:16Santa hands her back to me like are you at the mall yes Santa was like take her you know
32:20what I mean
32:21hey I don't need this shit again and as and as we're leaving over my shoulder she goes don't come
32:26over it's my body it's my body I was like good lord dude but you're also like kind of funny
32:33yeah
32:33I mean hilarious I was like I mean you got what you wanted kid you know oh that's great and
32:39obviously
32:39I'm not going to correct that I can't be like we don't scream that you know it's an old man
32:45asking
32:45you to sit on his lap yeah oh that's fucking great dude yeah so that's kind of uh I mean
32:52you can't even write that she's gonna have a level of confidence that I'm just like I'm a little scared
32:56of
32:57but I think is so good to have as a woman um and I think I'm really like proud of
33:03her for that
33:03and then just for me personally I think um trying to do the same like trying to do the same
33:11thing
33:11it is so fucking hard but like as a parent I really have had to learn how to like trust
33:18my own gut
33:19and know that I've gotten this far in my life and a lot of that was luck um but you
33:30know I got sober
33:31and that was like I feel like that allowed me to like make better choices and so I you know
33:38as like
33:38an addict who's in recovery it's like it's really hard to trust that you know what's right for you
33:43right because you've made so many fucking bad decisions and then as a parent you really have
33:49to go like all right well what's every single thing that I've learned about how to make the
33:54right decision I got to throw that at at this you know and I'm just trying to do it in
34:01my own life
34:01too yeah when you get sober you're like you have to relearn how to do everything right like what
34:08how do I hang out what we're gonna go see Fast and the Furious and not be fucking high as
34:14fuck
34:14I know this movie's gonna suck dude going to a concert I'm like what is the point of watching
34:21music I know if I'm not completely out of my mind blackout you know my concert vibes have changed
34:26where I'm just like look how good he is on the drum yeah I know I'm just like I'm like
34:30blown away
34:30by talent what a skill set yeah yeah this sounds just as good live thank you so much for coming
34:36on
34:36thanks for having me that was awesome this was great thank you hope we can quit vaping together
34:40yeah hopefully
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