00:00More and more these days, I see kids wanting to be famous online, and it's really sad because
00:05I'm just like, what happened to wanting to be a veterinarian or a scientist or something?
00:16I really wanted to write a song that displays the archetype of a rising star in entertainment
00:23and what that can feel like, especially as a woman.
00:27There's a lot of traps that are set by the industry and corporations, and I just wanted to discuss that.
00:57I added the intro at the very end because I just wanted to set up the story because it's also
01:04titled Disney Princess.
01:05I just felt like it made the most sense.
01:07There's a lot of songs out there right now that already discuss the glamorization of the party lifestyle of being
01:15an artist, and we have enough of that.
01:17So I just wanted to contribute to the conversation with a different perspective that people don't get to hear as
01:23much, which is the traumatic reality of being an artist.
01:26Especially when you're young and impressionable, and you're dealing with an industry that kind of salivates at this idea of
01:32you being this naive person,
01:33that they can kind of mold and turn into whatever it is that they want.
01:47Everybody wants to party and they want to do all the things.
01:51They want to get drunk, and they want to do cocaine, and they want to drive while they're drunk, and
01:57all the fucking crazy shit.
01:58I was really thinking I wanted to be a satirical kind of representation of that energy and feeling, just to
02:05show how ridiculous it would be to be like all the things, like 20 bumps in deep, like I'm fucking
02:11drunk driving right now.
02:12Like, you know, just right off the bat so you know, like, okay, like she's not serious, like this is
02:17a character.
02:18The more that you try to chase trends and fit in, the more you lose yourself, and you lose what
02:33makes you special, and you lose your integrity and your authenticity.
02:37So I think it, you know, is a damaging thing to be fighting for relevance.
02:55Being an artist is a very isolating experience, and when you do make friends, and you build, you know, any
03:02kind of relationships with people, you can get into a situation where maybe you have like abandonment issues.
03:07You know, you worry, are these people really here for me? Are they using me? Like, that's like a common
03:12kind of thing.
03:13Please don't go is like just the yearning for a real authentic friendship in a really fake kind of world.
03:28I love all the conspiracy theories that are like, oh, they signed their soul away to the devil, and people
03:34aren't wrong. Like, there is something to it. I don't think it's as literal as like, you know, cloning bodies
03:40and all types of whatever it is. I mean, I'm sure there is in some deep pockets of whatever's going
03:45on over there.
03:46But like, the reality of the entertainment industry is just that you do lose yourself and you have to really
03:53keep a good head on your shoulders.
03:54And you're surrounded by not only, you know, the industry that really wants to commodify you and turn you into
04:04a product. But then you're also seen as a product as well to sometimes even, you know, audience people who
04:12are listening as well. And there's a lot of expectation and pressure. I don't think that level of visibility is
04:17for the faint of heart.
04:34I pictured this kind of ladder. It's like climbing the ladder of success. Like we can go there faster than
04:40they can. This like eagerness to reach the top. Just this kind of facade, you know, this, this veil that
04:47is never lifted. It's always
04:49glamorized. It's lying. It's wrong. You know, it's not real.
04:58The reality is, yeah, there's so much suffering. There's so much trauma. There's substance abuse. There's, you know, like, it's
05:04just, it's, it's not always that way. You know, obviously, if you, like I said, have a good head on
05:09your shoulders and you're prioritizing your mental health and you have good people around you, it can be easier. But
05:15there's more, I think, cases,
05:18cases of artists who are having to deal with some really rough shit and none of it is said to
05:26the world because, you know, you want to make people feel comfortable. You don't want them to feel like you're
05:33complaining because it is a privilege to be able to make a living from creating.
05:46A lot of times artists will really quickly, when they're very young, acquire a lot of wealth, but the things
05:52that they lose to gain that abundance or wealth or whatever you want to call it is, it's a lot.
05:58You know, they lose their innocence. They lose what makes them them. I don't know if it's always a fair
06:02trade.
06:20Everyone knows in the entertainment industry, there are a lot of predatory men who see young women who are artists
06:28who are, you know, wanting to create.
06:30And the more numb you are and the more naive you are, the more malleable you are, the more that
06:37they try to sink their claws into you.
06:39Traded my bows for strapless bras in snow. Can't toss this gold. It's my name that they know. Who's all
06:53this for? If I'm so miserable, I want to kill all these devils.
07:02At a certain point, you come to some sort of realization that it's not all that it's cracked up to
07:08be. Most artists do get to that point where like the partying gets old, the going out, the networking, all
07:13that stuff, and they do find themselves again.
07:15And when they do, it's like a huge kind of slap in the face. Like, whoa, what did I just
07:19do for the last few years? You know, this character kind of looking back at all of this.
07:24And again, what she's lost of herself for fame and for this glamorized experience, realizing that that's not what it
07:33is that she wants.
07:36This is Todi. Todi is my friend. I, you know, stitched his head to his body. They were separated for
07:43a while, but they found each other again. And luckily I was there to help them get back together.
