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00:14You're living in a bubble, you're living in a dream.
00:19I was 18 when we started, catapulted into this superstardom.
00:24Look at us now! Look at us now!
00:27Because I loved what we did for seven years, and now it was being taken from me.
00:32Do boyzones still exist? I don't know.
00:35The world we just lived has disappeared. What is my new world? Who the fuck am I?
00:42Although nothing has been confirmed officially, it's thought Gatelyn...
00:45Everything had changed. Everything had changed.
00:48I should have gone back. I know that I should have gone back.
00:53To get those years would have been everything.
00:57What is my dream?
01:21I should have gone back, and I should have gone back.
01:27This really sums up how pissed off Shane was with Ronan.
01:33Honestly, all you had to do was talk to me about how you feel about Ronan and off he went.
01:39I was angry at Rol for years and I found myself in this dark world.
01:45It didn't take a lot to upset me and it would come out in any environment, any space, live TV,
01:52to concerts, to interviews.
01:54Do you get upset that they keep saying nasty things about you?
01:57No, you know what, so be it. We're all getting on with our lives.
02:02Floyd's own, I don't think, are going to get back together pretty much.
02:04And if the guys want to get back together, you know, wish them the best. I hope they do well.
02:08We had decided to take a year off and then get back together.
02:14But one year later, I couldn't see it happening.
02:17Can you have one of your thoughts?
02:19A bad lemon. Oh, a bald lemon.
02:25What did you all take before you came?
02:29I was getting plenty of work, but it just wasn't fulfilling my dreams, I suppose, my goals.
02:37I really wanted to perform.
02:38I had to get out. I had to find something. I had to find something that gave me a bit
02:44of hope in life.
02:49Growing up, cars are with my life.
02:52My dad working as a car mechanic.
02:55Me lying under any car, under any bonnet.
02:59It's who I am.
03:01I was blessed with an opportunity to drive in a show called Autosport Show.
03:07The best in the world were there.
03:11And this dickhead.
03:14I came toward in that race.
03:16And from there, I got signed to Ford Motorsport.
03:20When you stand on stage, that energy that you got, I got that from cars.
03:27In boys' owner, I lacked purpose in my own mind.
03:30All of a sudden now, shit, this is your time to shine.
03:39Here she is, my one and only, Shelley Unwin.
03:42Shelley, this is my mate, Clarence McCarthy.
03:43Shelley, good to meet you.
03:45Yeah, as well.
03:46Out of the blue, I got a phone call from Coronation Street.
03:51Out of my comfort zone, to say the least, but nevertheless, I gave it my best shot.
03:57I went into Corrie for two or three episodes.
03:59I ended up staying on and off for ten years.
04:03Coronation Street gave me an identity.
04:05It gave me belief in myself.
04:07It gave me confidence.
04:08All of a sudden, I was somebody.
04:11That was Keith Duffy.
04:12It wasn't the big one in the back with the broken teeth.
04:14Now, did you watch your pal?
04:16Keith, yeah, I did, yeah.
04:18I thought it was fantastic.
04:19And do you all still keep in touch?
04:21I haven't spoke to Ronan in a while, or Mikey.
04:23It's just that you're all so busy, you know, doing your own thing.
04:26You know, it's quite hard.
04:28Yeah, I'd always make time for boys on.
04:31After my solo album, it was very, very difficult, more difficult than I thought it was going to be.
04:37You know, quit for about a year, came back and done some theatre.
04:42I loved doing that, but I just felt it really difficult being on my own.
04:47And, you know, being with four guys who you consider your brothers,
04:51and then just kind of not seeing them for a long time.
04:55None compares to being with the lads.
05:07It was unbelievable there in the noughties.
05:09Madness.
05:12My manager, Louis, at the time is saying,
05:14record company are pushing you, you've got to make the album,
05:17you know, we need the album made.
05:19I was very hungry, and I wanted to be great,
05:21and I wanted to have my opportunities, so I kept going.
05:25But it was quantity over quality.
05:29I'd loads of ideas for him.
05:31As a big, middle-of-the-road artist,
05:34he appeals to older women and stuff.
05:36And there's nobody better.
05:38That was his market, that was his lane.
05:40It just, he, he, he just got it wrong.
05:43He just made the wrong choices.
05:47He didn't even know where the fuck I was.
05:49I opened in Sydney to 10,000 people.
05:51He didn't know I was on tour.
05:54Get ready for another TV phenomenon.
05:56Pop stars The Rivals is coming in autumn.
05:59Well, it's good, it's good.
06:00We are going to get good singers at the end of the day.
06:03Louis became a TV personality.
06:06He was given that chance,
06:08because he was the manager of Boyzone.
06:09And that obviously gave Louis an opportunity,
06:12but that took a lot of his time.
06:14I was on the phone to Ronin all the time.
06:17I talked to him every day,
06:19and he always wanted more.
06:21Things start to fall into place,
06:24and you realise,
06:25Louis's not a great manager.
06:27I gave him multiple opportunities
06:29to fix the problems.
06:31So I went and met him, and I said it to his face.
06:34He just said he didn't want to be a karaoke artist,
06:36and he wanted to record his own songs,
06:39he wanted to write his own songs,
06:41and he wanted to be a proper artist.
06:43I've got one shot in my career,
06:45and he didn't give a fuck.
06:46That shocked me,
06:48the fact that he wasn't happy with the songs.
06:51They were all hits.
06:52Hey, that's what you're in the business for,
06:55having hits.
06:56Just fell on deaf ears.
06:59I always told him the truth.
07:00What was the truth?
07:02You're a lucky fucker.
07:03You know, this is great, enjoy it.
07:06And I remember going in and saying,
07:08right, that's it.
07:10And what did you say?
07:11I said, OK.
07:13Nothing I could have done.
07:14I couldn't have changed his mind.
07:15It was a divorce.
07:20Battle lines are drawn,
07:21and you did have to pick a side.
07:23I picked Louis.
07:25I knew Westlife were going to be bigger than Boyzone.
07:27It was in my own selfish interest.
07:29But you had to pick somebody,
07:30and Louis made that very clear.
07:34It's this monumental shift in the media.
07:37Just the lag which in the newspapers changed,
07:40and he was demeaned and diminished.
07:43I called him talentless
07:45and different things here and there in the press.
07:48He knew how to hurt me.
07:50Vicious fucking bitchy, vicious, horrible things.
07:55He tried to ruin me and my career.
07:59Do I regret it?
08:01Yeah, a little bit.
08:03Do you think he knows that you regret it?
08:04No, he doesn't know.
08:07It was an incredible show of the strength
08:11of somebody who has the media at their fingertips.
08:13You are who you are because I made you who you are.
08:19I was with Ronan all the time, you know.
08:22I was there working with him every day,
08:25so it was just inevitable
08:27that I would just take over eventually.
08:31Mark Plunkett, thank God for Mark.
08:33I kept my sanity because of Mark.
08:36We had a great time.
08:38Lots of touring, lots of international trips,
08:42lots of TVs all over the world.
08:44You're mad busy because you're promoting your new album.
08:48But the single's out now, this is it.
08:50But there's inevitably going to come a point
08:51where the sales dip slightly.
08:54You know, the hits weren't quite as big as they'd been.
09:00I made my third album, my fourth,
09:03and things started to slow down a little bit.
09:07He wasn't having hits.
09:11But he's not having any since I left.
09:14Oh.
09:15I had done my party trick,
09:18and maybe I'd done it a few more times too much,
09:21and I needed to figure out again who I was,
09:25you know, where I was.
09:26So my compass kind of went back to...
09:30to North.
09:32To the boys.
09:412006, Gary Oro was putting Take That Back Together.
09:47So I went along to see the show.
09:51All the fans noticed me,
09:53and the whole place started chanting my name and clapping,
09:57and I was like...
09:58I thought I had been completely forgotten about.
10:02So that was quite a surprise.
10:09And then when I seen their show,
10:12I was kind of feeling the bug again, you know?
10:18We just slowly but surely got to chat again to each other
10:22and little kind of whispers here and there.
10:24You know, Stephen would definitely be the one
10:26that would be pushing it with them.
10:27This is going to be great.
10:28You know, we have to do this.
10:29And just all spiralled into kind of...
10:31was having a meeting.
10:32Let's get into a room.
10:34That was all. That's all.
10:35It was test the water.
10:41I was worried about the boys' reaction.
10:44I hadn't seen them for years.
10:47There was resentment.
10:48Bitterness.
10:51I was shitting myself going into the room.
10:53Yeah, 100%.
10:53I was nervous as hell.
11:09You know, you could feel there was a lot of scars.
11:12People were unsure, unsure it was going to work.
11:16Unsure they wanted to do it at all.
11:19The rage that I had with Ro.
11:21In my mind, when I saw him,
11:23I was going to fucking destroy him.
11:25I was going to have burst him.
11:28Very, very, very spiky.
11:30That first moment, walking into the room again.
11:34I was fuming.
11:35And when I saw his face,
11:37I could do nothing but hug the fella.
11:39Oh, I'm just going in.
11:40Oh, you're skinhead.
11:41What's happening?
11:42I was going, dude, like, I miss you.
11:45That actually gave me a good insight to
11:48it's not always as bad as you think in your mind.
11:52I would just like to apologise
11:54if anything I have said or done in the past seven years
11:56has hurt or affected anybody
11:58in a negative or unhappy fashion.
12:02I wasn't the reason the band broke up,
12:03but I was definitely the reason the band
12:05didn't get back together before now,
12:06and I apologise for that.
12:08I made choices that I'm not proud of.
12:11I left them behind.
12:15For success.
12:18I did have blinkers on.
12:20Yeah.
12:21Didn't end right.
12:22We need to do it right.
12:25Aston if he thought there was any scope
12:27for the band getting back together.
12:29Things haven't always been as good as they are tonight.
12:32It was great going in so successful as an actor,
12:35but every now and again you'd get a surge of memories.
12:38The audience being blown away.
12:43And you go, wow, I'd love just one more chance.
12:46Maybe this could work now if we're all really on the same page.
12:50You know, it was there for the taking.
12:53Personally, you know what I mean?
12:55I'd like to do a little something.
12:56I really fucking missed all of you.
12:59I mean, I think it's just amazing being here.
13:00I mean, it's good.
13:02It excited me, you know?
13:05I think everyone was kind of,
13:07let's do it, let's do a tour.
13:09Let's get to see if people are bothered with Boys Zone anymore.
13:29Who's idea were those fucking outfits?
13:41Oh, my God.
13:43Our first performance in eight years.
13:46We're climbing underneath the stage
13:48to go on these trapdoors,
13:49to be sprung loaded onto stage.
13:53I'm so nervous going up in that lift
13:55and kind of going, oh, my God,
13:57I don't know where I'm going.
13:58It's like you're robbing the headlights.
14:00You get a panic attack.
14:02You get this kind of, oh, shit.
14:05And it's amazing.
14:11I remember that excitement.
14:13How we felt in that exact moment with that countdown.
14:17You can feel the breath.
14:19You can feel the energy from a crowd.
14:21And you cannot imagine what that's like.
14:23It's unreal.
14:34Oh, man, that gives me goosebumps.
14:48I couldn't hear the first two songs, to be honest,
14:50because the crowd was so loud.
14:54I'm not there for glory.
14:56I'm there to go, look at all you people
14:59and look at the joy that we can bring you.
15:12We designed a moment.
15:13Everybody would get their own little moment.
15:15And I think that's why it felt so different.
15:20I felt a part of the band for the first time.
15:28That my efforts were being appreciated.
15:32That we could now really be a band.
15:37We'd fill each other's spaces without even thinking about it,
15:40without even looking at each other.
15:42If Shane was out far right, you know,
15:44I'd see him starting to move in.
15:46If Mikey was in the middle, he'd move over to fill my space
15:49and you just fill each other's voids.
15:52And it's a real art.
15:57We're back.
15:58We were back.
16:00I just felt, you know, unbelievable.
16:03That was pretty magic, eh?
16:06Getting the band back together.
16:12That reunion tour was huge.
16:14You know, multiple nights in arenas.
16:17Then when they got back together,
16:18they asked me to take over the managing.
16:20I was glad to be involved.
16:22I've been there since day one in the UK.
16:26And, you know, I didn't want anyone else
16:27to carry on writing those chapters.
16:30See, we're the vocal harmony group we are.
16:33We're not a boy band, right?
16:34The plan was then to, you know, work on a new album.
16:37Everyone was in a great place.
16:41We, as a collective now, had more control over the music.
16:45For the first time, I was enjoying the music
16:48that Boyzone was doing.
16:50Took us 15 years to do that.
16:5507-09 were the best years of the band.
16:58We were the most comfortable in our own skin
17:00that we'd ever been.
17:01As soon as I get in a room with them boys,
17:03I'm the silliest fella I was back
17:05when I was 17, 18 years old.
17:07It's just kindergarten kids.
17:09It was absolutely brilliant to be back with those fellas.
17:12Like nothing had changed.
17:14Like nothing had changed.
17:16Who farted?
17:16Please, Mr. Boyd.
17:17Who farted?
17:19Just seemed to share even more laughs
17:22than we had before.
17:24I don't know, just a better understanding of each other.
17:27You've got to get this right.
17:28Go on, go on.
17:29Some people really came into their own,
17:31Stephen in particular.
17:33Hey, all of you, a girl.
17:35It was the best version of him I'd ever seen.
17:37The other guys have got girls to dance with.
17:39You've got a bloke.
17:40Yeah.
17:41I'm going to have to be true to myself,
17:42and that's how it turned out.
17:43And I think it works beautifully with the song.
17:46He was looking great.
17:48He had a book going.
17:49He had met someone new.
17:51Andy.
17:52They were just in love and got married.
17:56Very happy.
17:57Everything was going as planned.
17:59Presumably you're going to be working on new music together.
18:01Four singles, a brand new song.
18:02And you have it already?
18:03Yeah, well, we think so.
18:05We had done the better tour.
18:06We had new songs for a new album,
18:08and that brother album is our finest hour.
18:11Everybody was really, really happy and in a good place.
18:14It's a blessing.
18:15Be given a second chance.
18:17And I'm loving every minute of it.
18:31My phone rang.
18:34It was a solicitor by the name of Gerald Keane,
18:37who Boyzone had used in the 90s.
18:40The phone rang, picked it up,
18:43and Gerald Keane says to me,
18:49I'm sorry to tell you
18:55what Stephen has passed away.
18:59And I said, Stephen who?
19:03And he said, Stephen Gately.
19:10The Boyzone singer Stephen Gately has died while on holiday
19:13on the Spanish island of Mallorca at the age of 33.
19:22I had to call Louie and the guys and give them the news.
19:31It was late.
19:33We were in the bar, we were drinking.
19:34And as I left the crowd,
19:37Ro's voice came louder in my phone.
19:40He's like, Steeho, Steeho, he's gone.
19:42I said, what, our Stephen?
19:45He said, yeah.
19:46He said, he's gone.
19:48It just wouldn't go in.
19:51What?
19:51No, no, no, no, not our Stephen.
19:53And I hear him screaming.
19:56For your heart.
19:57You still hear it.
20:03Can't breathe.
20:05Your legs got from under you.
20:08It would get through in little bits,
20:10and then it would be complete, just break down.
20:18My wall just fell apart.
20:24Numb.
20:31We tried to put a plan together
20:33to get down to C. Steeho.
20:36Our instinct was just to get together.
20:38So that force of companionship
20:42and that force of, like,
20:43OK, where are you?
20:44How can I get to you?
20:45What do you need?
20:46I couldn't tell you the journey.
20:48Couldn't tell you anything.
20:49I just know we got on a fucking plane.
21:00The body of Stephen Gately was found by police officers.
21:02So far, Gately's family have made no comments.
21:03What caused Stephen Gately's death on Saturday
21:06remains unexplained.
21:08Miriam got me on a flight to Mallorca the next morning.
21:12I get out there, and it is heaving.
21:18There was press everywhere.
21:20It was crazy having the boys there.
21:22They just couldn't move.
21:23It was horrible.
21:24It was horrible.
21:26The kind of cesspit of journalism
21:28that sometimes it can all descend into.
21:31Paul, what can you tell us?
21:32What's the latest?
21:32Well, Karen, there's been quite a lot of movement
21:35here at the apartment.
21:35This is the apartment just beyond me here
21:37where Stephen actually passed away.
21:40Suddenly, it's immediately, like,
21:42get the story.
21:45What has happened?
21:46What has happened?
21:49Nobody really speaking in the boys' own camp officially yet.
21:52But obviously, there's quite a lot of speculation
21:54behind the scenes.
21:55So then you're starting to get around the hotels,
21:57and what clubs was he in?
21:58You're trying to put this together.
21:59He was found by police and taken here
22:01to one of the island's mortuaries.
22:03Although nothing has been confirmed officially,
22:05it's thought Gately and his partner arrived back here.
22:08You know, we had no idea what happened to him.
22:10You know, it's only what we've read,
22:12and, you know, in the press and stuff.
22:15Conspiracy theories are running wild.
22:17All the reporters, they're exchanging stories.
22:19Well, I heard this, and I heard that.
22:21Lots of innuendo, lots of chatter
22:23about the circumstances around his death.
22:25Some of the rubbish that was written was just horrible.
22:28The worst for me was they were saying
22:31it must have been drugs.
22:34I was, like, screaming inside
22:35because, like, I knew, like, there was absolutely no way.
22:39It was quite incredible, the most ridiculous articles
22:44that were written.
22:45There was one in particular.
22:47Stephen's sexuality had led to his death.
22:50If he's gay, it must mean that he's got this incredibly,
22:56you know, outrageous hidden lifestyle.
23:00Oh, he'd been out on a bender and overdosed on drugs.
23:04We were hearing everything.
23:07Having known Stephen for over a decade,
23:11he was the last man to, you know,
23:13have a hedonistic lifestyle or a dangerous lifestyle.
23:17It's the first time I've ever looked at my own industry,
23:19my own world, what I'd been part of,
23:21and gone, you scumbags.
23:23My mother found two men at the end of her bed
23:28taking pictures of my parents as they woke.
23:33Basically broke into our house
23:35and went up the stairs and took pictures.
23:40With everything that was happening,
23:42I was just waiting for the autopsy report
23:44to confirm that it was something else
23:46because I knew it was something else.
23:52Pathologists here have concluded
23:54that he did not die as a result of alcohol nor drugs.
23:58He had a heart defect
24:00that nobody knew about.
24:02Because of the heart defect,
24:04his lungs filled with fluid.
24:08We found out I have the same heart condition
24:11Stephen has.
24:13Funny how just, you know,
24:15a little tablet every day
24:16just sort of keeps that under control
24:18and if Stephen only knew.
24:21People didn't bother their arses
24:23to really read up on what happened.
24:25They just see the headlines in the newspapers
24:28and they just assume that he's overdosed.
24:31Oh, you're in that band with that dead guy.
24:34Did he kill himself?
24:35I've gone from naught to ten in a second at times.
24:39You want to insult my brother,
24:40I'll fucking kill you, you know.
24:42I don't care how big or strong you are.
24:44You'd have to kill me to stop me.
24:47But to hear that they were now putting,
24:49like a name, you know,
24:51to what he died from
24:52makes it a little bit easier
24:55just because it was just like
24:59you could breathe again, you know.
25:09We brought Stephen home.
25:13Margaret Stephen's mum asked us
25:15to look after the funeral arrangements.
25:22We didn't like the idea of him being alone
25:25in the church overnight.
25:28He didn't like the cold.
25:30He didn't like being alone.
25:32So we offered to stay the night with him
25:34in the church to keep him company.
25:42When everybody else left
25:44and there was just the five of us.
25:48There was a great sense of peace,
25:51of unity.
25:59I don't want to say sadness
26:01because, believe it or not,
26:04we actually had quite a comedic night
26:07and the usual joking
26:11that used to go on
26:14in the very early days
26:17when everything was innocent
26:19and naive.
26:22For that night,
26:24that emerged.
26:26We put easels
26:28all around the church
26:29of pictures of Stephen
26:31and we walked around
26:32looking at the different pictures,
26:33the different smiles,
26:34the energy in his face
26:36and we talked to him.
26:38We knew what his part would be.
26:40We all knew it.
26:41We didn't have to say it.
26:42We could feel his voice
26:43and his energy.
26:44And we joked
26:45and we laughed
26:46and we talked about old stories.
26:48And what a thing to share
26:49with those boys
26:51and with Steele
26:52those very last moments.
26:54We still had him, you know,
26:55in some way.
26:57We still had him.
26:58Just the five of us together.
27:00And you hold on
27:01as long as you can.
27:05Yeah.
27:06But the morning
27:06came around real fast.
27:16We had a mass,
27:17a special mass
27:18prepared for Stephen.
27:20It was really only family
27:21and the lads
27:22and friends,
27:23close friends.
27:24And when we turned up
27:25at the church
27:26there was people
27:27lined for miles
27:28and miles.
27:33There was an ocean
27:34of photographers
27:35as well
27:36flashing away
27:37as we were going in.
27:40So,
27:41I went over
27:41to the photographers
27:42and I said,
27:43you're welcome to come in.
27:44I said,
27:44everybody can come in.
27:46And they all
27:46like sort of
27:47stepped up to come in
27:48and I said,
27:49you can leave your cameras there
27:50and then you can come in
27:51and pay your respects.
27:53You know,
27:54because you didn't pay
27:55your respect to him
27:56when he was alive.
27:58You know.
28:00None of them came in.
28:01Yeah.
28:06We can only have
28:07so many in here
28:08in the church
28:08and I know
28:09we have so many,
28:09many people outside
28:10so just thanks to you
28:12for coming along
28:13to share in this special day
28:15to remember Stephen.
28:17Stephen was a force
28:19to be reckoned with.
28:20A true friend
28:21full of love
28:22and friendship.
28:24He brought colour
28:24to the band
28:25and that band
28:27now simply feels
28:27black and white
28:28without him.
28:30We're going to really
28:31miss you, brother.
28:32We love you.
28:34We always will.
28:43Carrying his coffin
28:45with the other guys,
28:47you could have heard
28:48a pin drop.
28:53And this is on a street
28:54that was the toughest part
28:57to grow up in Dublin.
29:00And the height
29:01of respect
29:02that the people showed
29:04for this boy
29:06from their neighbourhood,
29:09it broke me.
29:15The love he had
29:16was fucking gorgeous
29:18to witness.
29:20It's a rare thing.
29:21Everybody loved him.
29:24He was a true pop star.
29:26He loved life.
29:28You know,
29:29he paved the way
29:30for so many
29:30to know it was OK.
29:32I mean,
29:34well,
29:34if that's not a legacy,
29:35what is?
29:37When I think of Stephen,
29:39all I can see
29:40is him being
29:43like four years of age
29:44with his little T-shirt on
29:47with Miss Piggy
29:47on the front of it.
29:49Very innocent
29:50and shy
29:51and just looking up,
29:53wanting to give you
29:55his hand
29:55for you
29:56to just take him.
29:57Just so lovable
29:58and kind
29:59and,
30:01you know,
30:03just a lovely person.
30:16It felt better
30:18to be
30:20in each other's company
30:22than not to be.
30:33We decided
30:34that maybe,
30:34you know,
30:35the right thing to do
30:35in Stephen's memory
30:36is to keep going.
30:42Shouldn't have.
30:45The dynamic changed
30:46what it felt like
30:47to be in the band.
30:49Sometimes it was hard
30:50just to do the gig.
30:52The three fellas
30:53is in one missing.
30:56The void was massive
30:58and it made you feel
30:59so self-conscious.
31:00It made you feel
31:01like we were shit.
31:02It made you feel
31:03that the audience
31:04just wasn't buying us
31:05anymore, you know?
31:10We went on and off
31:11over the years
31:12that followed.
31:14Ten years.
31:16Couple of tours.
31:19Never felt the same.
31:21For me,
31:22it wasn't until
31:23he was gone
31:24that I realised
31:24how much
31:25he was the glue
31:27that kept a lot
31:27of the band together.
31:31Whilst
31:31Boysen were still
31:32being successful,
31:33still selling a lot of tickets,
31:34still touring
31:35all over the world.
31:37To me,
31:38it felt as if
31:39it was time
31:40to take a break.
31:42But rather than
31:43splitting up
31:43and falling out,
31:45announce
31:46the farewell tour.
31:48I'm not saying
31:49anything's flagging,
31:50anything,
31:50but I'm just saying.
31:53It got more
31:54and more intense
31:55and
31:56relationships
31:58broke down
31:59within the band.
32:01I spotted
32:02arrogance,
32:04the growth
32:04of ego.
32:07It just became
32:08hard work.
32:11People started
32:12just behaving
32:13fucking badly.
32:17and when
32:17that happens,
32:19something's
32:20going to give.
32:22It came to
32:23a head
32:24in
32:262019.
32:28I saw it all.
32:30I was ready
32:30to get the fuck
32:31out of there.
32:33It's when the band
32:34imploded.
32:40I'm always ready
32:41for it.
32:42You know what I mean?
32:542019
32:55was a tough tour.
32:56We went everywhere.
33:00I got a sense
33:02that towards the end,
33:03people were just
33:04holding on tight,
33:05enjoying the ride,
33:06having fun.
33:07Thank you!
33:08When I can't.
33:12I can't,
33:12I can't.
33:13I've got to sing
33:13every day.
33:14I've got to last
33:14two hours on stage
33:15and, you know,
33:16I've got to be able
33:16to perform.
33:17And in Tokyo,
33:19I just felt the piss
33:20was being taken.
33:27If you're coming
33:28tonight,
33:28have a great time
33:29because we certainly
33:30are going to have
33:30a fantastic time.
33:32See you later.
33:33I always found
33:34going on stage
33:34a bit of a party
33:36anyway.
33:37It's everyone out
33:38there is having
33:38a great time.
33:39I needed a great
33:40time too.
33:41I mean,
33:41they had been out
33:41all day
33:42and they were
33:42drinking all day
33:44and, yeah,
33:45it was messy.
33:50We certainly
33:53partied a little
33:53harder than we
33:54usually did.
34:03It was the end
34:05of the road.
34:08I think that
34:10they interpreted
34:11me as seeing
34:13their carry-on
34:15as infantile.
34:18And that is
34:19how I see it.
34:22I'm sure
34:23if you talk
34:23to any one
34:23of the fans
34:24at any one
34:25of those shows,
34:26they'll tell you
34:26that they had
34:27the best night
34:27of their lives.
34:28It was the worst.
34:30It was the worst
34:31I had seen
34:32in all of our years.
34:38So I went
34:39at the mall,
34:40told them
34:40how I felt.
34:41It was a tennis
34:42match.
34:43From that guy
34:44to that guy
34:45to that guy.
34:45You're not
34:46pulling your weight
34:46like I'm
34:47pulling my weight.
34:48The job was
34:48always done,
34:49you know.
34:50He done a great job
34:51and we did our job
34:53the way we did.
34:54You know,
34:54I gave it all
34:56at my detriment.
34:58I gave everything.
34:59To be the lead man
35:00you take on
35:01most of the work.
35:02Don't complain
35:03about us
35:03who aren't working
35:04as hard.
35:06We don't have
35:06the opportunity.
35:07It's very different.
35:09You were the dude
35:10who wanted to be
35:10in the front.
35:11So take your
35:12fucking role
35:13and do it.
35:14It had reached
35:16a complete stage
35:17of
35:20malignancy.
35:21I had enough.
35:23The next night
35:24there was a clash
35:25between Keith and Mikey
35:26in the dressing room.
35:27There were things
35:28that happened
35:29that were
35:30cruel
35:32and
35:33I'm not
35:34going to
35:35express any more
35:36than that.
35:37My mother always said
35:38if you haven't got
35:38anything nice to say
35:39don't say anything at all.
35:42We left Japan
35:45some of us
35:46not talking
35:48with each other
35:49and yet
35:50we still had
35:51to do the
35:52final five nights
35:55in
35:56the Palladium.
36:04All the venues
36:05we played
36:05however big
36:06the venue
36:06might have been
36:07we always
36:08shared a dressing room.
36:09Always
36:10shared a dressing room.
36:12and when we
36:13turned up
36:13at the Palladium
36:16our names
36:17were on
36:17different doors.
36:19We lasted
36:2025 years
36:21flying on the
36:22same plane
36:23in the same
36:23cars
36:24in the same
36:24room
36:26and the
36:27final five shows
36:28that we were
36:28ever going to do
36:30we were going
36:31to do it
36:31on our own.
36:35We went through
36:36the motions
36:36got through
36:37the five shows
36:38a very
36:39very big
36:39anti-climax
36:40there was
36:41no
36:42hullabaloo
36:42there was
36:43no group hug
36:44there was
36:44no
36:46well done
36:46there was
36:47no one
36:47from the
36:48record company
36:48walking on stage
36:49with a
36:49ten times
36:50platinum disc
36:51and saying
36:51thanks for
36:52everything.
36:54I just
36:55wanted to
36:55get out
36:55of there
36:58get away
36:59from that
37:00toxic
37:01environment
37:02the
37:03realisation
37:04came
37:04that this
37:05is the
37:05end of the
37:06road
37:07it's over
37:21I haven't
37:22seen anybody
37:23since that
37:23night
37:29that's
37:29when I
37:29began to
37:30understand
37:31I need to
37:32make
37:32some changes
37:33you know
37:42I've
37:42spent the
37:43last ten
37:43years
37:44saying yes
37:44looking after
37:45everyone else
37:46making sure
37:47everyone else
37:48is alright
37:48but only now
37:49am I saying
37:49no
37:50no
37:51I've got to
37:51think of
37:51me
37:54so that I
37:54can be here
37:55to watch
37:55my children
37:56grow up
38:00for me
38:00personally
38:01I wouldn't
38:02be able to
38:02survive in
38:03that world
38:04anymore
38:04I had to
38:05get out
38:06and I
38:06cannot do
38:07that to
38:07my family
38:08go back
38:08in there
38:12it's an
38:12addictive
38:12drug
38:15because I
38:16took a
38:17back seat
38:17for such a
38:18long time
38:18over my
38:19career
38:19I feel
38:20that I
38:21still have
38:21so much
38:21left to
38:22prove
38:22to myself
38:25it's a
38:25real head
38:26fuck
38:28we've all
38:29moved on
38:30I've got
38:30Westlife
38:31you know
38:32I've had a
38:33great career
38:33in music
38:34so I'm
38:35happy
38:37I wouldn't
38:38have changed
38:38anything
38:40it wasn't
38:40perfect but
38:41it was perfect
38:41for me
38:44am I done
38:47I'm gonna go
38:48I'm gonna run
38:54the music
38:55and the
38:56stage and
38:57the lights
38:57I can leave
38:58that behind
39:00but the
39:01friendship
39:02I think is
39:03what it is
39:03more than
39:04anything else
39:07as much as
39:08we had
39:09had enough
39:09of being
39:09around each
39:10other
39:10hello
39:11hello
39:12yay
39:13boys
39:13I couldn't
39:14bear to
39:15lose any
39:15of the
39:15boys
39:16I hope
39:16you haven't
39:17been here
39:17too long
39:17all
39:18fucking
39:18morning
39:19all
39:19morning
39:19I can't put
39:20his glasses
39:20on
39:20too close
39:22how are you
39:25good to see
39:25him
39:26oh man
39:27that's mad
39:28you're blind
39:28as a bat
39:29I have a lot
39:30of anxiety
39:31and I feel
39:31a lot of
39:32of the pain
39:34stuff that
39:34we've all
39:35gone through
39:36but put me
39:37together with
39:38them and that
39:38doesn't exist
39:39looking well
39:39as always
39:40you too
39:42where'd you get
39:42it
39:46kindergarten kids
39:50as soon as
39:50they walk in
39:51the room
39:51it's like
39:51we've never
39:52left
39:53no no
39:53here we go
39:53here we go
39:54here we go
39:55my head's better
39:55than yours
39:56I'm keeping it
39:56cheers
39:58love you
39:58it's like
39:59we're frozen
39:59in time
40:07I wish them
40:08the absolute
40:09best in their
40:10lives I wish
40:10them nothing
40:11but happiness
40:11I hold no
40:13grudges
40:14no animosity
40:16nothing
40:18however
40:21I don't want
40:22to go back
40:26to how I
40:27felt
40:28for many
40:29years
40:30and to
40:31see them
40:33if it
40:34were for
40:34too long
40:35would remind
40:37me of that
40:38and my
40:39future
40:40is far
40:41too important
40:42to me
40:43to waste
40:44it
40:45looking back
40:46at my
40:47past
40:49but I wish
40:50everybody
40:50well
40:53for me
40:55one of the
40:55biggest regrets
40:56is that I
40:57clashed a lot
40:58with Mikey
40:59and me and him
41:00were very
41:00very alike
41:01the amount
41:02of time
41:03that we
41:03didn't get
41:04on
41:04that took
41:05its toll
41:05on me
41:06as a human
41:06being
41:07you can't
41:09get those
41:10years back
41:11it didn't
41:12have to be
41:12that way
41:14if we
41:15all
41:16had
41:16have had
41:17better
41:18skills
41:19at
41:20understanding
41:21each other
41:22better
41:22we're boys
41:24and we're men
41:25and we don't
41:26talk like that
41:27it was never
41:28in me to go
41:29oh lads I don't
41:30feel great today
41:31it doesn't exist
41:32in a man's world
41:33I wish it had
41:34I have
41:35parked all
41:36of that
41:36emotion
41:37but we were
41:38kids Ro
41:38we were kids
41:39I was
41:39incredibly
41:40insecure
41:41and Ro
41:42I think
41:42we all
41:43were
41:43you know
41:43what I mean
41:43they were
41:44fundamental
41:45years of
41:46growth
41:47multimental
41:48mental
41:52there's nothing
41:53more
41:54therapeutic
41:55than
41:56reminiscing
41:57about the
41:57best times
41:58of your
41:58life
41:59it reminds
42:00you of
42:00how lucky
42:01you have
42:01been
42:01the RDS
42:03show
42:03the first
42:03biggest
42:04show
42:04back
42:04in
42:04the
42:04RDS
42:04I'm
42:05looking
42:05back
42:05at
42:05that
42:06you
42:06know
42:06the
42:06song
42:06that
42:06I used
42:07to do
42:07when I
42:07pulled
42:07my
42:07trousers
42:07off
42:08it's
42:08hard to
42:09fathom
42:09do you know
42:10what I mean
42:10can you remember
42:11the times with
42:12steel
42:15I remember being in
42:16Kuala Lumpur and I didn't know if that was South America or Asia
42:18you and I with our ghetto blaster listening to bleeding Enya you know in 94 or 95
42:23don't tell any
42:24hip-hop man
42:25hip-hop
42:31I am so grateful
42:33for all that I have endured and experienced good and bad because it's brought me to be the
42:41man I am today
42:45every single day I have something to do with music waking up with a spring in my step
42:54the guy before I joined boys on was slim healthy fit full of vitality full of confidence full of passion
43:07that that's the guy that's returning
43:13there's a great sense of liberation
43:24I think we'll always be what we always are
43:29and it's brothers in arms
43:34boys who grew up on the fucking north side of Dublin
43:37that got catapulted around the world
43:41there could have been
43:42you know
43:43a million other lads in Ireland that got in that band
43:47but I don't think they would have been as fucked up as the five of us were
43:52and that's what made us brilliant
43:56and when you think about it starting off playing in front of 25 people on the back of a truck
44:01to playing to 100,000 people in Hyde Park
44:05how amazing was that
44:07it's a hell of a ride
44:09success
44:11and all of the good times
44:14really do outweigh all the bad times
44:18these boys are my boys
44:20and I will love them forever in a day
44:24and when we're together
44:25Stephen Gately is alive again
44:27and that's what's the most special part
44:31we did have a great laugh
44:35and it's like
44:36looking back at a picture
44:39saying to God this is amazing
44:46that's our story
44:46it was a good one
44:52they came to you and asked you
44:53should we get back together and do a reunion show
44:55what would you say?
44:58well
44:59well that's a question
45:04look I'd be lying to you
45:05if I said
45:06there isn't a spark of excitement in my mind
45:10people as far as the eye can see
45:12and the roar of the crowd
45:13that
45:15yeah
45:15I would love to experience that again
45:17who wouldn't?
45:20but there's so much more going on backstage
45:23so perhaps I'll leave well enough alone
45:28or
45:29maybe
45:31I know I said I'll never go on tour again
45:32but they stayed there going on tour
45:34I'm not getting left behind
45:35you're mad
45:36who knows
45:37but
46:04I know I might say
46:05I'm not getting right
46:05I know I know I'm watching you
46:0630 minutes
46:07I know I got off
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