- 13 hours ago
First broadcast 25th August 1969.
A young woman experiences a mental breakdown.
Fiona Walker - Josephine
John Fraser - Alasdair
Zoe Hicks - Sister
Maureen Pryor - Mrs. Maybury
Katherine Barker - Helena (as Katharine Barker)
Carla Challoner - Isabel
Myra Frances - Priscilla
Diana Berriman - Anne
Paul Williamson - Tony
John Shrapnel - Jamie
Brian Smith - Robin
Richard Wilson - Trevor
Miriam Margolyes - Kathie
Joan Scott - Nurse
John Byron - Old Man
Peter Childs
Diana Harker
Paddy Stephenson
Vivienne Davies
Rosalie Williams - Principal
William Simons - Man in Pub
Andre Van Gyseghem - Psychiatrist
A young woman experiences a mental breakdown.
Fiona Walker - Josephine
John Fraser - Alasdair
Zoe Hicks - Sister
Maureen Pryor - Mrs. Maybury
Katherine Barker - Helena (as Katharine Barker)
Carla Challoner - Isabel
Myra Frances - Priscilla
Diana Berriman - Anne
Paul Williamson - Tony
John Shrapnel - Jamie
Brian Smith - Robin
Richard Wilson - Trevor
Miriam Margolyes - Kathie
Joan Scott - Nurse
John Byron - Old Man
Peter Childs
Diana Harker
Paddy Stephenson
Vivienne Davies
Rosalie Williams - Principal
William Simons - Man in Pub
Andre Van Gyseghem - Psychiatrist
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TVTranscript
00:00:10...is redeeming blood, and try his words to do. Amen.
00:00:24You're wrong.
00:00:26They were all very kind at Oxford.
00:00:28So, that was good.
00:00:31No one shunned me, or ripped my stockings, or took my bicycle.
00:00:36So, you see, I can't have been unhappy there.
00:00:41The other students were all very friendly and pleasant, but unfortunately...
00:01:02...unfortunately, whenever I spoke to undergraduates, I was always a little behindhand.
00:01:09Jane, are you playing tennis this afternoon?
00:01:11Oh, I'm sorry. I've got an essay crisis.
00:01:13Well, how about you?
00:01:18Look, I must dash.
00:01:20Yes, Ja. Bye.
00:01:21How about tennis?
00:01:22Are you game for a game?
00:01:31There was always that strange gulf.
00:01:38I used to envy them, though, as they shouted greetings to each other and waved from their bicycles.
00:01:46...and mammals and ungulates having got there before them.
00:01:54How's it going?
00:01:56Press on regardless, eh?
00:01:58Oh, you're going to the Commenball?
00:02:02You must.
00:02:04Everyone's game.
00:02:26It was because of all these things that I usually ended in laughter.
00:02:35But people noticed.
00:02:36I'm afraid, Lady Stocker, that we are drifting near to a spiritual holocaust.
00:02:41Oh, much as I admire these anti-race people and student demonstrators, they surely tend to forget,
00:02:46in spite of all the material threats to our valuable Western contribution to civilization,
00:02:50a far graver one lies ahead of a form of a spiritual waste, a spiritual vacuum for the blank apathy
00:02:56of the masses.
00:02:57I don't think I can all get it.
00:03:00It's too extreme of a thing.
00:03:01It's too extreme of a thing.
00:03:02It's too extreme of a thing.
00:03:04What do you think, Josephine?
00:03:06...
00:03:10...
00:03:19...
00:03:20...
00:03:21...
00:03:22...
00:03:48Veronica, go to time.
00:03:49All right, all right, all right, all right.
00:04:22I'm so sorry, please excuse me.
00:04:25I seem to have made rather a long speech about a very trivial story.
00:04:29Go on.
00:04:31Nothing else.
00:04:32Oh, is that all?
00:04:40Have all the animals retreated?
00:04:43Good.
00:04:46When one is adolescent, one can often get caught up in one's own thoughts and dreams.
00:04:54This sometimes can happen to many of us.
00:04:56But you are no longer adolescent.
00:04:59So, the past is a dream that is over.
00:05:02And now we think of the future, yes?
00:05:05Then I shall be leaving soon, now that I'm better.
00:05:09Dearie, no one has thought that far ahead yet.
00:05:13First, you must be working in the real world.
00:05:17But it's real here.
00:05:21When I was in the dormitory...
00:05:23You are away from the dormitory now.
00:05:27And we have found for you a job in the town.
00:05:31That is good.
00:05:32And, Josephine, when you are working...
00:05:35...when you have flown from under the leaves back to the busy sky...
00:05:43Is that good?
00:05:45Then we will begin to worry about the future, when the doctor has regraded you.
00:05:50Regraded me?
00:05:52Like eggs.
00:05:53As what?
00:05:54Why should it matter, dearie?
00:05:57Why should it?
00:06:01If you had come here because of some injury to an arm or a leg...
00:06:05...you would not be made miserable by all this.
00:06:07You are not miserable.
00:06:09The sun shines.
00:06:12The nights are hot.
00:06:13The summer I left my country.
00:06:18The summer I left...
00:06:21...was hot.
00:06:24With no rainfall.
00:06:27And the dust used to hang about the streets.
00:06:33On Sunday, my father used to take us to the park.
00:06:36My mother, my father, and myself.
00:06:39Every Sunday.
00:06:40Until they took him away.
00:06:43And would take us too.
00:06:46But we ran.
00:06:48We ran away.
00:06:52It was not so, always.
00:07:00I'm sorry.
00:07:02Dearie, you mustn't be.
00:07:05Now, don't sit here dreaming.
00:07:08Or they will think you are preoccupied and withdrawn...
00:07:10...and not yet ready for a working day.
00:07:17I think I will want to come in here sometimes and talk about life.
00:07:20But now I must run.
00:07:22And you must be patient...
00:07:24...until you find the right medium in which to flourish.
00:07:27How about the wildlife in your country?
00:07:29The badges, for example.
00:07:30Did they find the right medium to flourish in?
00:07:35I was always too short-sighted to see any.
00:07:52Gosh, I must say I feel just like that too.
00:07:56I beg your pardon?
00:07:58Like what?
00:07:58What do you feel like?
00:07:59Whoa!
00:08:01Have you been in this outfit long?
00:08:03No, not very.
00:08:04Aha!
00:08:05At least, not as long as some of them.
00:08:07I must say, it doesn't look much wrong with you.
00:08:08No, there isn't.
00:08:09You look pretty healthy in fact.
00:08:10I did have an illness, but that's past now.
00:08:13Uh-huh.
00:08:14The trouble with this place is it's like the worst kind of private hotel.
00:08:18Tennis.
00:08:19Excuse me.
00:08:20Block golf.
00:08:20Excuse me.
00:08:21Five minutes to the town centre.
00:08:22Excuse me.
00:08:23Don't you think so?
00:08:24So tedious.
00:08:26I can't even get through a thriller.
00:08:28Excuse me.
00:08:29I'm afraid you're blocking my view.
00:08:31View?
00:08:32What view?
00:08:33There's nothing to look at.
00:08:34There's the hill.
00:08:34Under the grounds.
00:08:35That awful factory tower.
00:08:38I know I'm no Adonis.
00:08:40I like to look at the hill.
00:08:46Oh, the hill.
00:08:54Hmm.
00:08:57Poppy.
00:08:59They only grow here in the Ha Ha.
00:09:05What's a Ha Ha?
00:09:06This is.
00:09:08This wall and...
00:09:09Oh, it's to keep cattle in.
00:09:10And this ditch is called a Ha Ha.
00:09:12Ah.
00:09:13This wall and ditch are called a Ha Ha.
00:09:16Nobody ever comes here except me.
00:09:18It's full of poppies.
00:09:24Opium.
00:09:27Look, I'm...
00:09:28I'm sorry I've interrupted you.
00:09:31I mean, burst into your privacy, but...
00:09:33I long for someone to talk to.
00:09:35Or an explosion, anything.
00:09:37God.
00:09:38Oh, I long to see a few women.
00:09:40So many old men stuck together, they'll all end up as queers.
00:09:47Pardon my curiosity, but...
00:09:48Why are you here?
00:09:50I mean, you...
00:09:51You look so old.
00:09:52Not so...
00:09:53Jolly.
00:09:54Healthy.
00:09:54Normal.
00:09:55That's because I shall be leaving soon.
00:09:57Uh-huh.
00:09:58I shall miss the Ha Ha though.
00:10:04In fact, I shall miss the whole place.
00:10:07God.
00:10:07I've rather come to regard it as my home now that Mother is dead.
00:10:12Sorry.
00:10:15Hard luck.
00:10:16I'm...
00:10:16It must have been a blow.
00:10:18I'm awfully sorry.
00:10:19Oh, don't mention it.
00:10:20It was an accident.
00:10:21Simply an accident.
00:10:23Not that it wasn't a great blow.
00:10:26Yes.
00:10:26Well, it must have been.
00:10:29I'm here because of tension.
00:10:32Nervous tension.
00:10:34Anxiety neurosis.
00:10:36On the ward, they call it me noives.
00:10:41Too many emotional crises in my life, I expect.
00:10:44I'm having analysis.
00:10:45Oh, I'm sorry to hear it.
00:10:47Not at all, don't mention.
00:10:49It's obvious you're not here because of too many emotional crises.
00:10:52It's a year since Mother died, if that's what you mean.
00:10:55Oh, no, no, no.
00:10:55I mean crises d'amour.
00:10:57Women.
00:10:59Or rather, men.
00:11:02A man once kissed me, but it hurt.
00:11:05I think his teeth were too large or protruding or something.
00:11:11Well, I mean, the trouble is, they're like animals, aren't they?
00:11:13They're always unsatisfied.
00:11:16Now, the trouble with me is, I've let women down once too often.
00:11:23My performance is poor.
00:11:25Your performance?
00:11:28My performance.
00:11:30So the family doctor stuck me in here in the old nut factory.
00:11:33In among a lot of depressives and schitzes.
00:11:36Schitzes?
00:11:38What are they?
00:11:40Schizophrenics.
00:11:45Split personalities, you know.
00:11:47Smitten with la belle indifference.
00:11:52False.
00:11:53Now, what's your name?
00:11:56Josephine.
00:11:58Do they cure them?
00:11:59I'm Alistair.
00:12:04Hey, what treatment do they give you, by the way?
00:12:06Pills?
00:12:07Electric chair?
00:12:08Heart to heart?
00:12:09I don't think of it.
00:12:11Mother used to say there were some things it was just not right to remember.
00:12:14I expect you were deeply attached to mother, eh?
00:12:17To your mother.
00:12:18We were good friends.
00:12:21Only mother used not to like the way I laughed so much.
00:12:24She used to call me her giggly girl.
00:12:26Or if it grew excessive, the giggly one.
00:12:30Why did you laugh so much?
00:12:32I don't find it so very funny.
00:12:33I mean, I think it's positively gruesome sometimes.
00:12:37La condition humaine.
00:12:38Why did you laugh?
00:12:41It was just that it seemed so funny being alive at all.
00:12:46Funny?
00:12:48Yes.
00:12:51What a rare gift.
00:12:53Was it?
00:12:54I envy you.
00:12:56I mean, did it all seem funny? Everything?
00:12:58That's why they sent you here.
00:13:00To cure you of your laughter.
00:13:01Yes, I suppose that was why.
00:13:03I must go.
00:13:04The sister always comes in to say goodnight before she goes off duty.
00:13:07Hey!
00:13:08Hey, Apple Mo!
00:13:14What a rare gift.
00:13:16God, what a pity to have to cure someone of their sense of humour.
00:13:19Why didn't you teach your mother to laugh too?
00:13:22Forgive my asking, but were you fond of your mother?
00:13:27Or did you hate her?
00:13:29Of course I didn't hate her.
00:13:32Mother and I were very thick.
00:13:34We were very good friends.
00:13:45Ah.
00:13:47I've brought you a few fresh flowers.
00:13:53And you mustn't work too hard, you know.
00:13:55Now why don't you take a breather?
00:13:57If you feel like it, that is.
00:14:00It isn't too hot, is it?
00:14:02What a hot day, it's so hot.
00:14:05Of course, when we were in Africa, Bertie and I,
00:14:09do you like the heat?
00:14:11Yes.
00:14:13Yes.
00:14:13Yes, I do.
00:14:14Yes.
00:14:15Well, of course, when we were in Africa, we...
00:14:19I wonder if the monkeys would be better off at the tops or bottoms of trees.
00:14:25Yes, indeed.
00:14:27I'm afraid I...
00:14:29I don't know.
00:14:32Well, I'll leave you in peace now.
00:14:35If it's a bit quiet for you up here, why don't you come down to the garden for a bit
00:14:39of sun?
00:14:42I do hope you're liking us.
00:14:49Ah.
00:14:51Yes, well, my daughter will be coming to stay soon.
00:14:54Then it'll be... things will be livelier for you.
00:14:56Do you like children?
00:14:58Yes.
00:15:00Yes, I do.
00:15:03I'm so glad you're liking us, sir.
00:15:05I do hope you're going to want to stick it out until our little library is complete.
00:15:10But I expect the gentleman from the hospital to be giving you a clean bill of health soon,
00:15:14and then you'll be wanting to, well, take off somewhere in a more exciting atmosphere.
00:15:20Well, you know, you'll be wanting to launch outreach, or...
00:15:24Bells are something more exciting.
00:15:34Do you mean...
00:15:34Yes?
00:15:36Do you mean my life ought to be different?
00:15:38Oh, my dear, no.
00:15:40I just meant that we Bertie and I would like having you here, but...
00:15:45Well, youth is short, and...
00:15:48Well, you might want to push off early sometimes, you know, party or something.
00:15:54I am so glad that you're liking us.
00:16:04Yes.
00:16:10Yoo-hoo!
00:16:12Yoo-hoo!
00:16:14Hello!
00:16:15I didn't think you were ever going to deign to notice me.
00:16:18How are you?
00:16:19Where have you been hiding yourself since Oxford?
00:16:22You were suddenly swallowed up in darkness.
00:16:25Oh, gosh!
00:16:26Er, you'd better get in.
00:16:36But how are you?
00:16:38It's been ages.
00:16:40When I went down, I wanted to go into business administration.
00:16:44In a chocolate-making firm.
00:16:46You know, become a busy career woman.
00:16:50Awful.
00:16:51I had the right degree in all that.
00:16:56Oh!
00:16:57Do you remember Gail Phillips?
00:16:59She's a journalist now.
00:17:01Terribly high-powered.
00:17:04Gail?
00:17:05Yes.
00:17:06Gail.
00:17:08But after Oxford, chocolate doesn't really seem worthwhile.
00:17:12For a career.
00:17:13I mean, and I don't really think I want a career now.
00:17:17So involved with Tony.
00:17:19Marriage has got me in its clutches.
00:17:22So much for the independent woman.
00:17:26I'm sorry to hear it.
00:17:29Take my advice and don't get caught up in it.
00:17:32It's such a bore.
00:17:34Be wise and stay outside the game.
00:17:36Like a sensible intellectual.
00:17:38But how are you?
00:17:39And what are you doing?
00:17:42I'm doing a catalogue.
00:17:44Really?
00:17:45In there.
00:17:47Sounds terribly cerebral.
00:17:49What of?
00:17:51Oh, everything. Everything there is.
00:17:54Gosh.
00:17:55Interesting.
00:18:02Daddy gave me the car.
00:18:04I call her the rabbit.
00:18:10Heavens, is that the time?
00:18:12Oh, I must be going.
00:18:13I'm meeting Tony at six.
00:18:17Oh, gosh.
00:18:18I completely forgot.
00:18:19Tony and I are giving a party.
00:18:22You must come.
00:18:25Everyone from college will be there.
00:18:27At least, everyone we know.
00:18:29And, of course, all Tony's mates, too.
00:18:32There we are.
00:18:33It's Waterminster Place.
00:18:35It's just around the corner.
00:18:37Sorry to have to rush off.
00:18:39See you next week.
00:18:40We'll have a big intellectual chat.
00:18:43Tony says I'm almost a cabbage already.
00:18:46Bye.
00:18:47Bye.
00:18:49That's Vadeca.
00:18:53An invitation.
00:18:55What's the difficulty?
00:18:56You should be pleased.
00:18:58Come on, smile.
00:18:59Sue you, Maclean's.
00:19:02It's about time someone enticed you back from your underworld.
00:19:05You can't stay here forever, you know.
00:19:06Yes, but I don't think I'd be any good at that kind of party.
00:19:10What kind?
00:19:11The men and women kind.
00:19:12Well, provided there's plenty to drink.
00:19:14I shouldn't know what to wear.
00:19:16Unless, of course, it's fancy dress.
00:19:18That's hardly likely.
00:19:20You see...
00:19:21Well, wear anything.
00:19:22I mean, a little black number.
00:19:24Only one invitation has ever come my way.
00:19:26And that was the day Mother died.
00:19:29That shouldn't stop you now.
00:19:34Hey!
00:19:36Hey, you forgot your invitation!
00:20:00Oh, my God.
00:20:02Whoo!
00:20:03I'm out of training.
00:20:05Why don't you wear that to the party?
00:20:07No, no.
00:20:07Go on, it's very smart.
00:20:09No.
00:20:09Here we are, madam.
00:20:10Here we are, madam.
00:20:10Aha!
00:20:11Just what you require.
00:20:13Involuptuous black sap...
00:20:14No!
00:20:16Steady on, Ove.
00:20:17Steady on.
00:20:20I was once invited to a party and Mother...
00:20:23We decided to go to London for a dress.
00:20:27This one?
00:20:28Mother wanted to come with me, but I don't like to confess this.
00:20:31I put Mother off.
00:20:33I wanted to go by myself.
00:20:35What did she say?
00:20:37Oh, she seemed to understand.
00:20:39She said,
00:20:40I know when it's time for the older generation to step back and give the younger generation a chance to
00:20:45blossom out.
00:20:46When do you propose to launch out on your little jaunt?
00:20:48Ha!
00:20:50So, you...
00:20:51You bought a nice dress, eh?
00:20:53Mother was...
00:20:58When we were washing up the breakfast things, the drain became blocked.
00:21:04And when we went outside to unblock it, there was a snail.
00:21:09Mother stared at it.
00:21:13And I wanted to laugh at these two opposite ends of existence coming together.
00:21:18Well, that's good.
00:21:19So you should've.
00:21:20And Mother said,
00:21:21Josephine, my dear, just slip upstairs and get my other glasses from my bedside table.
00:21:27So I went upstairs.
00:21:30And stared at her bed.
00:21:33The wires and plugs in the electric blanket running out of the mattress.
00:21:39Tins of biscuits.
00:21:42Bible union leaflets.
00:21:43And I thought of Mother lying there with Father, all grey and withered.
00:21:49Well, all around them raced the pigs.
00:21:52The hippopotami.
00:21:53The even-toed ungulates.
00:21:55And the prostrate.
00:21:57It's steady on.
00:21:57It's steady on.
00:21:58It's steady on, dear.
00:21:59Not even Mother's reproaches could stop me.
00:22:01And I went up and bought the dress, but I never wore it because it was that night that Mother
00:22:04had the access of the electric blanket.
00:22:10It was as though my laughter had killed her.
00:22:15Yes, I suppose it was.
00:22:22Hey, I wish I'd been invited to a party.
00:22:25I'd like to be going to a really good one.
00:22:28With lots to drink, some new records, euphoria all round.
00:22:33I shouldn't know what to say.
00:22:36You don't seem to be having much difficulty now.
00:22:39I should be at a loss.
00:22:41Oh, come on.
00:22:41Now, don't start all that again, please.
00:22:46Sorry.
00:22:48I'm sorry.
00:22:50Look.
00:22:52Look, that's all over now.
00:22:54You were bonkers then.
00:22:56Well, come on.
00:22:58Smile.
00:22:59Say cheese.
00:23:02You can look quite pretty when you smile.
00:23:05Oh, surely not.
00:23:06I don't think you're quite right there.
00:23:08Mother used to say that although content was good, the vessel was an ordinary workaday affair.
00:23:13A man on a galloping horse wouldn't stop.
00:23:16A galloping horse?
00:23:18What a criterion.
00:23:22Didn't you hate your mother?
00:23:24I...
00:23:25Didn't you?
00:23:28I got used to her.
00:23:30Didn't you hate her?
00:23:32Aren't you glad she's dead?
00:23:35Aren't you really?
00:23:37Aren't you glad?
00:23:42I am glad.
00:23:46I'm glad she's dead.
00:23:50I'm glad.
00:23:51That's good.
00:23:54Well...
00:23:57Tomorrow...
00:23:57Off to fresh fields and pastures new.
00:24:00Oh.
00:24:01Hey.
00:24:04You'll need this.
00:24:06You're sure it's all right?
00:24:08I expect so.
00:24:23That's right.
00:24:25That's my spirit.
00:24:27Little cat.
00:24:30If you'll excuse my saying so, you've got to laugh like a disused lavatory system.
00:24:39That's because things have changed.
00:24:43Of course I shall go to the party.
00:24:45I'll slip silently and secretly into the real world as though I'd never been absent.
00:24:50Hey, bring me some good jokes, will you?
00:24:53Not too blue, though. I'm supposed to be en vacances from all that.
00:24:56Oh, what shall I wear?
00:24:58What does one wear for this sort of occasion?
00:25:00I can't wear anything you like.
00:25:03Only don't laugh like that at the party or the big bad world will spit you straight back in here.
00:25:09Enjoy yourself, smile nicely and...
00:25:13Please, go away.
00:25:15You know it is not permitted.
00:25:18Go away.
00:25:21Enjoy yourself.
00:25:30Dearie.
00:25:31He's a friend.
00:25:32If you wish to be happy...
00:25:34Oh, but I am.
00:25:35You must do what we think is best for you.
00:25:37That is why we have the rules.
00:25:39You must find the right friends.
00:25:44I've been invited.
00:25:49To a party.
00:25:51So?
00:25:52With a girlfriend.
00:25:54Someone of your own culture.
00:25:57Good.
00:25:58You should attend that.
00:26:00Yes.
00:26:10Missoux.
00:26:12To a party.
00:26:26You just go to sex.
00:26:30You should either.
00:26:34своей asks?
00:26:36To a party.
00:26:38Your friends, whoeps폰, right?
00:26:49Dearie, I always carry this with me.
00:26:53I would like that you wear it for the party.
00:26:57If it is a good party with strong memories, then keep it.
00:27:02Hmm?
00:27:04May I?
00:27:12My father gave this to me.
00:27:14He would be very happy to think that you...
00:27:17There.
00:27:19I hope that Waterminster Place is a happy place.
00:27:29Good night, dear.
00:27:39Amen.
00:27:41Amen.
00:27:53Oh
00:28:12Smashed as well
00:28:15Turn left into traffic lights
00:28:26How are you?
00:28:29Not my Ronnie Scott, just in bars
00:28:31It's music, if you like that sort of music
00:28:33Well I do, ha ha, music that hath charms to soothe the savage beast
00:28:38Breast, beast, breast
00:28:39Ha ha ha
00:28:40But it's all so madly competitive
00:28:43One simply has to accept their values
00:28:45Young marrieds, I mean
00:28:47Suddenly one finds one's become a young married
00:28:49Straight out of the Sunday Sommelands
00:28:51It's frightful, frightful
00:28:55Josephine, oh I'm so glad you could manage it
00:28:59I know you intellectuals don't have time for this or the thing usually
00:29:03Tony
00:29:05Darling, this is Josephine
00:29:07Josephine, one of the eggheads of Isaac
00:29:10Ah, so glad you could make it
00:29:11Mwah
00:29:12Ha ha ha
00:29:15I went live
00:29:16Last week
00:29:17I must see what's happening in the kitchen
00:29:20It's probably flooded with mackerel
00:29:22I'll swing, darling
00:29:24I'll take your coat
00:29:25Yeah, it's gonna be hot in here
00:29:27There we are
00:29:28Telling all the things are in your frame
00:29:30Oh yeah
00:29:31Thank you sir, come on
00:29:32I didn't see
00:29:34I didn't see
00:29:35I didn't see
00:29:36I didn't see
00:29:37I didn't see
00:29:47That is so well fair
00:29:57What did you read?
00:29:59English
00:30:01Did you have a passionate affair with Anglo-Saxon?
00:30:05Beowulf?
00:30:06Oh
00:30:08Yes
00:30:10What did you get?
00:30:12What degree I'm in?
00:30:14I didn't get it
00:30:15Oh, poor lord
00:30:16What happened?
00:30:17Did you write on both sides of the exam paper and not write your name in capital letters?
00:30:21I was afraid
00:30:21I never took the exams
00:30:23I was ill
00:30:24Oh, lucky old you
00:30:25Poor darling
00:30:26Well, I expect you had to plead for a merciful release with the examiners standing by all dressed in black
00:30:32Mouthing Latin incantations while they burnt the exam papers
00:30:34Well, I wish I could have pleaded illness
00:30:37The only thing I could plead, though, was laziness
00:30:39The best way to pass exams, of course, is to seduce the examiner
00:30:43Well, it's easier for so
00:30:44I don't think I'd have had much luck there when they all horribly
00:30:46Oh, I don't know about that
00:30:49Well, I was going to attend my hosted duties
00:30:51The heavenly host, you know
00:30:54Oh, sorry, I forgot
00:30:55Introductions
00:30:56And now then
00:30:57This is Priscilla
00:30:58Anne
00:30:59And this idiot Jamie
00:31:02Josephine
00:31:03Thank you
00:31:03I'm over there
00:31:04Thanks
00:31:15Well, I could use another drink
00:31:19Do you know if Jill's still floating around McBrown?
00:31:22I haven't announced me
00:31:23I think he's been a bit bloody threatening to go off on some mad adventure to Persia
00:31:27Looking for Zoroastrian temples or something
00:31:30Well, he won't find any, they've all been sold to the Yanks
00:31:32God, I'm all for a bit of adventure
00:31:35I like adventure too
00:31:37I once followed the line of the Thames and Seven Canal until it ran under a hill
00:31:42It was a very strange experience because in most places it had disappeared
00:31:47Just died
00:31:48And there was nothing left to market but a line of rushes
00:31:52Really?
00:31:52How sinister
00:31:53That adventure made me rather sad
00:31:55Must have been like seeing an old dowager undressed
00:32:00I love her adventure
00:32:04I think she was Indian
00:32:05Oh darling, there's Johnny
00:32:07Must fly
00:32:08I must get another drink
00:32:09I'm almost safe
00:32:22Did you, er, make that sweater yourself?
00:32:28It's a jolly good effort for an Anglo-Saxon expert
00:32:31No, I was guilty
00:32:33An old man made it for me in the occupational therapy out of the hospital
00:32:37He jumped out of the bushes and handed it to me
00:32:39Then he told me he was trying to get out
00:32:42But they were keeping him there
00:32:44He thought they were going to kill him
00:32:47Extraordinary
00:32:49Sorry?
00:32:50How extraordinary
00:32:52Oh, I thought you said extraordinary
00:32:55Er, drink, love
00:33:14I got this
00:33:15I got this
00:33:16I got this
00:33:33You put it round my neck.
00:33:36Your arms.
00:33:39Sorry.
00:33:41Don't apologise.
00:33:44Why so tense?
00:33:46Relax.
00:33:48I'm afraid I can't dance.
00:33:51Nice, smooth skin.
00:33:56Perhaps it would be easier if I were on roller skates.
00:33:59Then you could win me.
00:33:59Mmm.
00:34:00Ha-ha.
00:34:03Nice, smooth skin.
00:34:06That's the second time you've said that.
00:34:10Why are you a taxidermist?
00:34:14I can see you're someone who's more interested in politics than being intellectual than dancing.
00:34:18Excuse me, I've just seen you. Can't mind me.
00:34:37I can see you.
00:34:41I can see you.
00:34:45I can see you.
00:34:55I can see you.
00:34:58I can hear it right here.
00:34:59Oh, that's scary.
00:35:00I keep up with people.
00:35:02It's a puesto right there.
00:35:04See you, you're missing.
00:35:05Well, more than anything?
00:35:06Excuse me, no?
00:35:09Well, here's Mr Martin.
00:35:13with pockets of electricity and water and music
00:35:17and pipes and tubes running down into the earth
00:35:21and everyone eating and dancing
00:35:26and talking about the best way of life
00:35:29and the way to deal with African snakes.
00:35:32Oh, if there nothing had happened.
00:35:34And really, it's unbelievable.
00:35:38It's unbelievable.
00:35:53I'm a girl.
00:35:54Must you?
00:35:55Well, I've said it's not yet the witching arse.
00:35:57It's my last night, you see.
00:36:02You must keep in touch.
00:36:04I have had a minute to hear you.
00:36:06Some loony Helena invited.
00:36:07I didn't think she'd turn up.
00:36:08You must come round for a property.
00:36:11I don't think all your fear is about life.
00:36:13Do ring.
00:36:14You've got her number.
00:36:20Oh, come on, Helena.
00:36:45Discovered.
00:36:49I'm killing time.
00:36:55Killing time.
00:36:59It's only 7.30 hours to kill.
00:37:03Oh!
00:37:03Oh, dear, oh, dear.
00:37:08How do you manage these nunnery hours of yours, eh?
00:37:11I can't sleep unless something steps in to break up this monotonous, virtuous calm.
00:37:18Hey, did you have a good party?
00:37:20Did you remember to smile nicely?
00:37:23Did you get drunk?
00:37:25Why did you send me to that place?
00:37:28A party.
00:37:35I don't belong anywhere.
00:37:48Look, I'm sorry, old thing.
00:37:52I'm awfully sorry.
00:37:54I...
00:37:54Hey.
00:37:56Hey, this is bad.
00:37:59Are you fed up about this business?
00:38:02Is it something you can tell you, Uncle Alistair?
00:38:07Let's have a smoke, shall we?
00:38:09Let's have a talk.
00:38:11Let's go outside and get away from the morgue for a bit.
00:38:14We'll get your heart, shall we?
00:38:16No, I know.
00:38:18I know somewhere better.
00:38:19Come on.
00:38:21Come on.
00:38:21Don't be nervous.
00:38:23It's an adventure.
00:38:25It's an adventure.
00:38:46Oh, the knife centre of the brain farm.
00:38:52Well, well, well.
00:38:54What do you make of this?
00:38:56Oh.
00:38:57He obviously doesn't like the look of us.
00:38:59Shrewd chap.
00:39:01Hmm.
00:39:02Ah.
00:39:02Good evening, Doctor.
00:39:04Yes.
00:39:04Good evening.
00:39:06We have a very interesting case here.
00:39:07Yes.
00:39:08Yes, we do.
00:39:08Yes.
00:39:09Conversion hysteria.
00:39:10Mr. Alistair Faber.
00:39:10That's the name.
00:39:11Yes.
00:39:12Oh, very interesting.
00:39:13Well, gentlemen.
00:39:15Please be seated.
00:39:21Hmm.
00:39:22Oh, thank you very much.
00:39:23This guy.
00:39:24Ah.
00:39:26Ah.
00:39:29So, the party was dismal, eh?
00:39:32Well, never mind.
00:39:34Better luck next time.
00:39:37It's not your type, perhaps.
00:39:39Hard luck.
00:39:41Poor old thing.
00:39:46The Tate of Tate is more your medium, I expect.
00:39:50Then what did you say?
00:39:52I told him it was my bath night.
00:39:58You asked me why I was here, and I couldn't tell you, but now I know why.
00:40:02It's because I didn't belong anywhere else.
00:40:05It wasn't the party that was wrong, it was me.
00:40:09I...
00:40:10I don't know the rules of life.
00:40:15I'm odd.
00:40:17I'm not a proper person.
00:40:19I'm...
00:40:20I'm one of those people who want never to have been born, or...
00:40:24I wasn't born.
00:40:25Well, no wonder you didn't enjoy the party.
00:40:28But, you know, frankly, I didn't really think you would.
00:40:33I mean, your sort of person.
00:40:36Well, you know, I mean, well, just for the reasons you said.
00:40:40You see, your particular illness...
00:40:43Oh, I don't know.
00:40:46I mean, it's only what I've learned from reading books and talking to the skitses in the ward.
00:40:50What?
00:40:52What was that?
00:40:54Sorry.
00:40:57Sorry, forget it.
00:40:58What did you say?
00:40:59Look, forget it. I don't know anything.
00:41:00Is that what they call it?
00:41:02Is that what's wrong with me?
00:41:03No, it's not the same.
00:41:03Is that what it is?
00:41:04Forget it.
00:41:05Please, please, forget it.
00:41:12Look, I know nothing about nervous disorders.
00:41:15I'm really entirely ignorant, I assure you.
00:41:20You don't mind, do you?
00:41:22I mean, it's only their terminology.
00:41:24It's only a word, okay?
00:41:27Okay?
00:41:31Look.
00:41:32Look, I'm sorry.
00:41:37God, you're so tight.
00:41:40It's...
00:41:41Look, these terms are very superficial.
00:41:46Are you sure?
00:41:49You know, far from being odd, you're about the most real person I've ever met.
00:41:55What?
00:41:56Am I?
00:41:58What does that mean?
00:42:01Come here.
00:42:04Come on, come on, come sit here.
00:42:16You're the first...
00:42:18You're the first person I've met.
00:42:20The first woman, anyway, that doesn't just play a game with herself and other people.
00:42:25But I won't.
00:42:26Listen, listen, listen, if you say you don't know the rules, that you can't learn them,
00:42:30don't you see?
00:42:30That's what's so nice about you.
00:42:32It's not because you're...
00:42:35Well, schizophrenic, that's just a bloody silly word.
00:42:37It's because you're real.
00:42:40That society doesn't appeal much to you.
00:42:43I did...
00:42:43Look, you've got a sense of proportion.
00:42:47What's the only thing you like about this place?
00:42:49It's your patch of poppies, your ha-ha, right?
00:42:52Because that's the only real thing in the place.
00:42:55I admire you.
00:42:58Really, I do.
00:42:59You...
00:43:00You refresh me.
00:43:03You do good to people like me who lead rather...
00:43:06empty lives.
00:43:10Do you still mind the label?
00:43:13Oh, look.
00:43:14Some people are so proper, so bloody careful and correct,
00:43:18they give me the creeps.
00:43:19I want to run away when I think of them.
00:43:26Do you think it doesn't matter, then?
00:43:30Being odd and not belonging?
00:43:32You should be thankful that you're not like Helena...
00:43:35What's her name?
00:43:36Oh, I don't say their lives stink.
00:43:39They're probably quite worthy people,
00:43:41but they're so busy finding husbands and palsies
00:43:44and good-income brackets
00:43:46that they haven't got time to be conscious.
00:43:48They're so...
00:43:49anaesthetised and stuffy.
00:43:51So bloody unreal.
00:43:57Is that your illness as well, then?
00:44:00Well, that's probably what paralysed me
00:44:03and sent me impotent and all that.
00:44:06I won't go into details about now a bit.
00:44:09Huh!
00:44:10I'm becoming another jolly old Delphic Oracle.
00:44:13Anyway, they give me the creeps, too.
00:44:24Oh, you needn't look so anxious.
00:44:26I don't mind a bit.
00:44:28I never was cured and I never will be.
00:44:31Well, what are you laughing at?
00:44:35We're flies.
00:44:36All flies.
00:44:38Flies?
00:44:40Upside down on the ceiling.
00:44:42Well-mannered and walking and talking about the best way of life
00:44:47and the way to bring up children and religion and income taxes and Art Nouveau.
00:44:51and they can't see it's absurd.
00:44:55Upside down on the ceiling.
00:44:57Have a heart.
00:44:57They can't see it's absurd.
00:44:59I've never seen you like this before.
00:45:01Isn't it?
00:45:04Hey.
00:45:06I like you when you laugh like that.
00:45:09Makes you look like a cat.
00:45:14What do I usually look like, then?
00:45:16How have I changed?
00:45:17Well, your face, it's come alive.
00:45:19It's lost that deadpan look.
00:45:21In fact, you've got a face.
00:45:23You know, I believe you're human after all.
00:45:27Human?
00:45:29Did you think I was a monster or a savage or a Martian when we met in the summer?
00:45:33Last week.
00:45:35Last week?
00:45:36Yeah.
00:45:37You're improving, do you know that?
00:45:39You might even learn to be flippant.
00:45:44I might even teach you to be flirtatious.
00:45:54Hey.
00:45:55Shall we dance?
00:45:57Come on.
00:46:06I can't.
00:46:07Come on.
00:46:08A man danced with me at the party.
00:46:10He kept pressing my side.
00:46:12I held my breath.
00:46:13I think he was doing it on purpose.
00:46:17Poor old thing.
00:46:19Hey.
00:46:20We'd better push off or we'll be getting the bag.
00:46:25Yeah.
00:46:26A nice little thing.
00:46:28Cat's face.
00:46:30I shall miss you.
00:46:32Miss me?
00:46:33Are you going?
00:46:33Just that.
00:46:35Some must watch.
00:46:36Some must sleep.
00:46:37So runs the world away.
00:46:39Something.
00:46:40Are you going?
00:46:42Well, not unless you do me good.
00:46:52Do I?
00:46:55You remind me that another world exists.
00:46:59I do.
00:47:02That nice little thing.
00:47:06I...
00:47:28What a serious room this is.
00:47:30Look at all this panelling.
00:47:32And these books.
00:47:35So, so reasonable.
00:47:39Hey, do you know something?
00:47:40What?
00:47:42You haven't mentioned your mother all evening.
00:47:43Haven't I?
00:47:44Well, that's an achievement.
00:47:45Is it?
00:47:46Well, it means you're becoming independent.
00:47:48Mother was a great one.
00:47:49Mother!
00:47:52Better be quiet.
00:47:53We'll be discovered.
00:48:00I was thinking.
00:48:02You're always thinking.
00:48:06You're always preoccupied with sincerity.
00:48:09That's what I like about you.
00:48:14What did you do when that...
00:48:17when that man tried to kiss you?
00:48:19The one whose teeth jutted out?
00:48:24I held my breath and counted ten.
00:48:28And then I tried to picture him as a huntsman in a green velvet hat.
00:48:33And then at a bowler.
00:48:36And then I started to laugh and couldn't stop.
00:48:38And he seemed rather put up when I told him.
00:48:40Well, I should think he was.
00:48:43Most men are pretty sensitive about that performance.
00:48:48You cool, objective creature.
00:48:52I don't think I'm cool any more.
00:48:54No?
00:48:57Perhaps not.
00:49:02You make me feel real.
00:49:05Do I?
00:49:10So do you.
00:49:12For me.
00:49:16Could I have one of your cigarettes?
00:49:18Now?
00:49:20Later.
00:49:20I've never smoked.
00:49:21Later, later.
00:49:23You're so real.
00:49:25Well, I'm afraid of the others.
00:49:27The ones who possess the earth.
00:49:31No one was unkind at Oxford.
00:49:34It was just that they possessed the world.
00:49:36And I didn't even seem to have a knack of existing.
00:49:42Well, you exist for me.
00:49:45Do I?
00:49:46Very much.
00:49:49Well, you frighten me sometimes.
00:49:51Frighten?
00:49:51No, I didn't think.
00:49:51Well, you're so serious.
00:49:53You never play around.
00:49:54Not even for a moment.
00:49:56Mother used to think that I...
00:49:57No, no.
00:49:58No.
00:49:58No, Mother.
00:49:59She thought that Oxford was a gay round of social activity.
00:50:02That I ran through them all rather quickly.
00:50:04She...
00:50:06I didn't feel as though I existed then.
00:50:09Oh, you exist now.
00:50:12For me, at any rate.
00:50:15Too much so, in fact.
00:50:21Come on.
00:50:23Come on.
00:50:25Come on.
00:50:41Alistair.
00:50:43Hmm?
00:50:46Will you...
00:50:48give me...
00:50:56What's that?
00:51:03If you were to hold me.
00:51:10Nice little thing.
00:51:16Nice thing.
00:51:21Nice thing.
00:51:24Nice thing.
00:51:26Nice thing.
00:51:55Nice thing.
00:51:59Oh, oh, nice egg, oh, nice egg, come on, come on.
00:52:29Now that we are, what's the matter, are you all right, well, it's always a bit odd the
00:52:38first time, it's a matter of adjustment, you know, it's like, well, a screw that's stiff,
00:52:45if you'll excuse the delicate metaphor.
00:52:47You mean, the next time, now that we are.
00:52:56You want one?
00:53:01Lovers.
00:53:06Will we offer you?
00:53:12Giuseppina. Giuseppina.
00:53:16I suppose, now that we're lovers, there are many things to talk about.
00:53:22As the walrus said.
00:53:25You funny little thing.
00:53:32Don't you want me to go as soon as you can get some sleep?
00:53:33No.
00:53:34The other's more important.
00:53:36What other?
00:53:38What other?
00:53:41Our life.
00:53:42Together.
00:53:45You've initiated me.
00:53:48No one has ever loved me before.
00:53:54Poor little Giuseppina.
00:53:56You should get out of here, run away.
00:53:59You've got to make up for a lot of lost time.
00:54:00Will we?
00:54:02Tomorrow.
00:54:05Right.
00:54:07Right.
00:54:09Tomorrow evening, as ever was.
00:54:13Right.
00:54:16Ah, yeah, nice girl.
00:54:19Nice Josephine.
00:54:22It's a nice evening.
00:54:25Nice evening.
00:54:27Dearie.
00:54:38Is your life so full that you cannot now be in bed?
00:54:42Where have you been?
00:54:44I...
00:54:45If it is with your new friends, I'm only glad you have found your place at last.
00:54:49You will soon fly away, as I said before, from under the leaves back into the busy world.
00:54:56I'll go away somewhere.
00:54:57Yes, dearie.
00:54:59Do you think you will be able to find a really kind, sympathetic young woman with whom to share a
00:55:04flat?
00:55:05Or perhaps a hostel?
00:55:07Or why not a husband?
00:55:12Oh, yes, of course.
00:55:14Marriage is important, but not just yet.
00:55:18I do not think of you marrying just yet.
00:55:22You do not think?
00:55:23Hmm.
00:55:24You have been ill.
00:55:27What you need is something to lean on.
00:55:31A, er...
00:55:33Bannister.
00:55:33That would be good.
00:55:36What is it, dearie?
00:55:38What is it?
00:55:42Do you think I care about my status?
00:55:46Do you think I care whether I'm ever regraded or not?
00:55:49What, Josephine?
00:55:49Do you think I care whether the doctors and the hospital board decide I'm sane or insane?
00:55:54Josephine, you're not serious.
00:55:54I don't care topence.
00:55:56Nice, quiet friends.
00:55:59I want to live.
00:56:02To feel.
00:56:03Of course.
00:56:03I was born for something more.
00:56:05Listen to me.
00:56:06I was born for so much joy.
00:56:10More than you could ever imagine.
00:56:13My life is far different from what you could imagine.
00:56:19It is his fault, mostly.
00:56:21He should not have allowed you to misunderstand.
00:56:25You live in a world of your own, and he has abused this innocence.
00:56:29A world of my own.
00:56:32Do you think I'm not a real person?
00:56:35Do you think I don't have passions and feelings as real as anyone?
00:56:39Dearie, will you please...
00:56:40Stop it!
00:56:43You try to keep me in a world of my own.
00:56:45You treat me like a mental invalid.
00:56:48You cherish me like a diseased person.
00:56:52Why not put coloured ribbons in my hair and make me wear flowered pinafores like they do in the chronic
00:56:57ward?
00:56:58But I'm real!
00:57:01I was born for joy.
00:57:04For so much joy.
00:57:08For love.
00:57:10For love.
00:57:25Tell me.
00:57:28Tell me about him.
00:57:31Tell me about him.
00:57:33I would like to hear.
00:57:36I am sorry if I treat you like an invalid.
00:57:39I do not regard you so far from it.
00:57:41But I am a nurse.
00:57:43And I care.
00:57:46Tell me.
00:57:53Excuse me, there's a crumb on your top lip.
00:57:56One that got left behind in the general march downstairs.
00:58:00Maybe the same one as last week.
00:58:04Observation confirms, however, that it is not.
00:58:06It is slightly larger, in fact.
00:58:07Aren't there any more practical steps?
00:58:12You're right.
00:58:26I'm fine, but I'm hungry.
00:58:29I'm fine.
00:58:32Better?
00:58:36I'm fine.
00:58:37I don't know if you are.
00:59:06Good night.
00:59:07Daddy?
00:59:47So small.
00:59:51Don't bury me.
00:59:56Coffin, so small.
01:00:01Don't bend me double
01:00:05Mother
01:00:06I am only a child
01:00:10Don't bury me
01:00:14Don't
01:00:18So green
01:00:22Mother
01:00:35Just a dream
01:00:36What is it then?
01:00:38Only a dream
01:00:41Gaze
01:00:42Yes dear, yes, only a dream
01:00:44Something gazed at me
01:00:47Coffin
01:00:48Only a dream
01:00:49Bright green grass
01:00:51All over now, just a dream
01:00:53No, no
01:00:54Come on dear, into bed
01:00:56No
01:00:57Into bed
01:00:58Have a rest, there's a girl
01:01:01No
01:01:03Oh well, that's all right then
01:01:05That's simple
01:01:08I'll just sit here
01:01:12For a while till you're over it
01:01:19Come on dear
01:01:25That's it
01:01:31You'll be going home soon, won't you dear?
01:01:37Yes
01:01:39Do you like children, dear?
01:01:41Do you like...
01:01:42What dear?
01:01:44Oh
01:01:47There we are
01:01:50Of course we'll be going away soon too, you know
01:01:52With the kids, of course
01:01:54Do you know Southend, dear?
01:01:56Yes
01:01:59That'll be nice
01:02:00Well, at Southend, you know
01:02:02You'll never believe this
01:02:04Guess what?
01:02:06Go on, guess
01:02:07Guess what?
01:02:09I can't
01:02:10What is there at the seaside?
01:02:13Well, come on
01:02:14What is there, eh?
01:02:18Well, there's the sea
01:02:19Yes, there's the sea
01:02:20But what's beside it?
01:02:24I don't know
01:02:25What's beside the sea?
01:02:28Well, there are caravans
01:02:30And...
01:02:31And slot machines
01:02:34Fish and chips out of a slot machine
01:02:36With a tiny cardboard knife and fork
01:02:39How about that?
01:02:44Do you like budgies?
01:02:48Look, dear
01:02:49I'll get you something
01:02:52Send you to sleep
01:02:53And settle your stomach
01:02:55Now you just hang on
01:03:00Alistair
01:03:04I dreamt I was being buried by monks
01:03:06With smiling faces
01:03:08And mother was
01:03:11I was a child
01:03:12There we are
01:03:14That's the girl
01:03:16Now you take this
01:03:18Come on, dear
01:03:20That's it
01:03:23Now we'll tidy you up a bit, shall we?
01:03:25Make you more comfortable
01:03:27That's right
01:03:28All right
01:03:30There we are
01:03:33Now
01:03:34Straighten this sheet
01:03:35And we'll tap you in
01:03:38Lie down, dear
01:03:39Go on, lie down
01:03:41You'll feel much better
01:03:42If you lie down
01:03:45There we are
01:03:46That's the ticket
01:03:49Now
01:03:50You just go to sleep
01:03:56And I'll sit tight
01:04:00All right, dear
01:04:06I'm knitting a cardie
01:04:07For our Ken
01:04:09He's our youngest, you know
01:04:12They're so expensive clothes
01:04:13For the two of them
01:04:14But
01:04:15Well, you've got to have them dressed
01:04:17That's why I knit my own
01:04:19My husband laughs at me
01:04:21I don't think he thinks
01:04:30Sister said you ought to be up
01:04:31You ought to be dressed by now
01:04:35Bleeding slacker
01:04:39Bastard
01:04:48Do you know where Alastair Faber is?
01:04:51I don't know
01:04:53Alastair Faber
01:04:55The one who's always laughing and talking
01:04:57You mustn't ask me questions like that
01:05:00I
01:05:01Don't remember anything
01:05:04I have to begin afresh each day
01:05:08Every day is the first for me
01:05:09The day God created Adam
01:05:13The electric's done that for me
01:05:15ECT
01:05:16That's
01:05:17That's what did it
01:05:17Wanting something?
01:05:20That's what put pain to my memory
01:05:22I do know where Alastair is
01:05:24Looking for Mr. Faber
01:05:26He's gone
01:05:27Bad luck
01:05:28Went off this morning without notice
01:05:52Flowers
01:05:54They gave me these at the porter's desk
01:05:58As the man
01:06:01He's been discharged today
01:06:04To push off early
01:06:08Flowers
01:06:09With his love
01:06:17And a letter
01:06:27They're lovely flowers
01:06:37Lovely flowers
01:06:38Shall I put them in water?
01:06:41They're thirsty
01:06:43They need to drink
01:06:44Your letter
01:06:46You haven't opened your letter
01:06:48You know
01:06:48Miss Smith said
01:06:49Once letters have been on the water
01:06:50They're not just anybody's letters
01:06:53Sister
01:06:54Sister
01:06:55She's flowers
01:06:56Not in water
01:06:57My letter
01:06:58She has not
01:06:58No letter
01:06:59All right Cathy
01:07:00Put the flowers in water
01:07:04I know
01:07:07I know
01:07:08This person has gone away
01:07:10It is all for the best
01:07:12Dearie
01:07:16I must go
01:07:17He has his studies
01:07:18And you have your life to live
01:07:19I must go
01:07:21The doctor will be here soon
01:07:23I must stay alive
01:07:24Why don't you make yourself look good for him
01:07:25I must stay alive
01:07:26Where is the chain I gave you?
01:07:28I must find
01:07:28Why don't you wear it for him?
01:07:30Real world
01:07:35I put them in water
01:07:39Pretty flowers
01:07:43Yes
01:07:43They are pretty flowers
01:07:45You play along
01:07:50In the woods
01:07:51When I was a child
01:07:52You won't get anywhere if you don't
01:07:54No
01:07:55No
01:07:56Josephine
01:07:57You must not expect that
01:07:58Play along
01:08:00I want to find real things
01:08:01You must rest
01:08:02I want to play the game
01:08:03Real things
01:08:04I want to play the game
01:08:06Real things
01:08:06I want to just
01:08:07I want to play the game
01:08:08I want to play the game
01:08:10I want to play the game
01:08:11I want to play the game
01:08:12I want to play the game
01:08:14I want to play the game
01:08:14I want to play the game
01:08:14I want to play the game
01:08:15I want to play the game
01:08:17I want to play the game
01:08:17I want to play the game
01:08:19I want to play the game
01:08:20I want to play the game
01:08:20I want to play the game
01:08:21I want to play the game
01:08:22I want to play the game
01:08:23I want to play the game
01:08:23I want to play the game
01:08:25I want to play the game
01:08:27I want to play the game
01:08:28I want to play the game
01:09:02Oh, flimsy Josephine.
01:09:05Was she in half no?
01:09:10Where is Josephine?
01:09:11She hasn't opened her letter.
01:09:13Oh?
01:09:13What letter is this?
01:09:15She ought to open it.
01:09:16It's not good to leave letters lying about unopened.
01:09:19You never know what's in it.
01:09:21It might be important, football pools it might be, or a love letter it might be.
01:09:31It's been there a long time.
01:09:35It's a letter from the man.
01:09:39Oh, I'm getting so burned off.
01:09:43Why don't I obey the rules?
01:09:44You're naughty, Josephine.
01:09:46Oh, my God.
01:09:48Oh, my God.
01:10:13It would fill your life.
01:10:16I want so little of life, I assure you.
01:10:20I merely wish to be left alone to wander freely and independently of any rules.
01:10:24Keep to the rules, dearie, and you will be cured.
01:10:27There is nothing I wish to be cured of.
01:10:29It is only a matter of time.
01:10:31There is no white profile, a smile, a white profile, a smile, and before you are regretted.
01:10:34You see, I have collected 18 rules, some to do with one's family and their representatives,
01:10:41others to do with one's little social world, the rules of what to do and what to say in
01:10:46order to be legitimate.
01:10:48When I have collected 20, this should be sufficient to set me on the road.
01:10:51Josephine.
01:10:51I know the game.
01:10:53Maybe my play is a little surprising, but it works as well as Helena's.
01:10:56Josephine, you...
01:10:56Or yours.
01:10:58Calm yourself, Josephine.
01:11:08Order!
01:11:10I'll get the doctor.
01:11:12Sir.
01:11:14At this conference, this confabulation, this meeting, we will discuss Miss Josephine Wottsoname
01:11:21an interesting case of...
01:11:22Ow!
01:11:25This patient has been encouraged to interest herself in useful activities such as the making
01:11:30of catalogues and attending of parties.
01:11:33But without success.
01:11:34She began for a few hours to make progress.
01:11:37She is constantly trying to recapture what she refers to as what it was that had slipped
01:11:42through my fingers.
01:11:43She says it could have been love or physical closeness.
01:11:49A wolf...
01:11:51A wolf.
01:11:54A wolf.
01:11:55A wolf.
01:11:56Oh, my God! Josephine!
01:11:59Oh, my God!
01:12:01Oh, my God!
01:12:21You must be tolerant with yourself.
01:12:26Myself.
01:12:33You have not opened your letter.
01:12:36Miss Josephine Troughton.
01:12:40That is supposed to be myself.
01:12:49Are you going to open it?
01:12:53Shall I read it for you?
01:13:01So.
01:13:04So, let us see.
01:13:20It is from the...
01:13:22From your friend.
01:13:27My friend.
01:13:30So, let us see.
01:13:33Dear little thing.
01:13:35I have had to push off for various reasons.
01:13:37I am due for discharge in any case.
01:13:40I am missing you very much.
01:13:42I don't know what I would have done without you in that sterile institution.
01:13:46Will these places ever learn?
01:13:49So.
01:13:51As I have already said, you are one of the nicest girls I have ever met.
01:13:56The first woman who did not leave a bad taste in my mouth.
01:14:00The first woman I did not see straight through.
01:14:03You've done me a lot of good.
01:14:06Do we read any more, dearie?
01:14:11I wish I could believe I could do the same for you.
01:14:15It is not good to remember.
01:14:20I expect you will be leaving soon and will find something to replace your nice, safe old ha-ha.
01:14:27Perhaps we'll be able to meet sometime and talk about old times and rage.
01:14:32Or at least I will.
01:14:34And you'll bear with me, funny, nice, calm little thing.
01:14:39I shall always remember the first time I saw you sitting in your ditch.
01:14:44Nice little Josephine.
01:14:48Love, Alistair.
01:14:56Wonderful.
01:14:57ABlium Ch dynamite.
01:15:06Action time to Frumpet Jr.
01:15:07Leave it at home to Frumpet Jr.
01:15:07My treating ruler Liz split the feels right.elf
01:15:14-raising. Eand
01:15:17it's my case. Perhaps it's
01:15:17it's what I put out in this situation. When did you
01:15:21get the video? I... Can
01:15:21picture with Me rather... It's really
01:15:21good as well. Module... But
01:15:25when we
01:15:26look. And now I
01:15:30Poor lad.
01:15:33We didn't realise how solitary you were getting, all alone with your catalogues.
01:15:39Bertie and I were hoping.
01:15:43Is there anything you want, dear?
01:15:47Is there anything Bertie and I can do for you, dear?
01:15:53I must be making tracks. Goodbye, dear.
01:16:24I was born for love. For joy. For so much joy.
01:16:34I'm alive. Even if I don't know the rules, I am alive.
01:16:43We're all animals. We're all absurd. It's all a jungle. But I'm alive.
01:16:54I'm alive.
01:16:55I'm alive.
01:16:56I'm alive.
01:17:10I'm alive.
01:17:12I'm alive.
01:17:13I'm alive.
01:17:14I'm alive.
01:17:22I'm alive.
01:17:22I'm alive.
01:17:23I'm alive.
01:17:24I'm alive.
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