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00:00:25Using the stem of one of your tied up
00:00:29birthday flowers okay so we have some yucus oh my god it's foul it's it's foul
00:01:15Oh oh oh oh yeah how do I look through the dew oh so good baby so good give it
00:01:25to me
00:01:27you look good
00:01:31oh oh oh oh oh oh
00:01:39hello there she is tube boy knock knock little tube boy there's my baby
00:01:47oh I'm in the tube I'm stuck in the tube I can't get out
00:01:50I'm stuck in the tube but I can't get out
00:01:52and then oh you want some popcorn baby and then out
00:01:56okay I'm gonna make popcorn you want some I'm good honey
00:02:13I'm coming in honey get ready for your close-up
00:02:45what are you laughing about
00:02:47this one time as a kid we went skiing drove up to a cabin and after skiing we went into
00:02:57the little town and had dinner at a restaurant and then when we got home my mom got food
00:03:06poisoned and it was a really small little cabin and I just remember hearing my mom puke like
00:03:17all night long and it was like violent puking and then there was a joke don't get the
00:03:37kung pao
00:03:40don't get the kung pao
00:03:43don't get the chicken pao
00:03:50don't get the chicken pao
00:03:50I can't
00:03:52don't get the chicken pao
00:04:01there's something funny too about like my mom getting sick like she just never ever showed any
00:04:06any like cracks of vulnerability so for her to to hear her puke I think it just like stuck with
00:04:17me
00:04:25can you rub me a little higher or lower just like right on my liver yeah
00:04:51hmm
00:06:53Hello.
00:06:54Hello my honey, hello my baby, hello my ragtime gal, hello my honey.
00:07:01How's it going baby?
00:07:02Okay.
00:07:06So, I've been in touch with these women.
00:07:09It's actually kind of like a whole thing.
00:07:12I emailed this woman who posted this advertisement online for Chinese Cresties puppies.
00:07:16I emailed her.
00:07:18She didn't have any available.
00:07:20But she put me in touch with this other woman she knows that also breeds Chinese Cresties.
00:07:24They're kind of like a community of women.
00:07:27She also didn't have any.
00:07:29But then she put me in touch with this woman named Dee.
00:07:32Dee just emailed me back and she's whelping.
00:07:36Whelping is when dogs give birth.
00:07:38That's what they call when they're having a litter.
00:07:41Dee is whelping a litter in two weeks and she said that we can get on the list and reserve
00:07:48one of these dogs.
00:07:49All we have to do is send a $1,000 deposit in the next 24 hours and it's ours.
00:07:58Very cute life.
00:08:00Very cute.
00:08:01I mean.
00:08:03Very cute.
00:08:04Very sweet.
00:08:06Very cute.
00:08:07So cute.
00:08:08I love it.
00:08:09I did research.
00:08:10There's no harmful treatment of the animals.
00:08:13None of this puppy mill shit.
00:08:15It's all price capped.
00:08:17So, these are $2,000.
00:08:19This is basically just to pay for the upkeep of the situation.
00:08:22That's why it's this price point.
00:08:24So, it's very much not for profit.
00:08:26Do you mind if I just kind of...
00:08:27So, I think we should do it.
00:08:29I think we should just jump on it.
00:08:34Okay.
00:08:34So, there's a couple things that are kind of pinging for me, love.
00:08:38So, if I can just go in and I'll just kind of run through them if that's okay.
00:08:45So, firstly, I guess just this is obviously not what we discussed, right?
00:08:53This is a deviation from the rescue plan.
00:08:58I understand.
00:08:59But, honestly, I've sent like 200 emails for rescue dogs.
00:09:02Haven't got a single response back.
00:09:04And if we want a dog, I think we really have to act like now.
00:09:07Because lockdown is coming.
00:09:08Winter is coming.
00:09:09It's just...
00:09:10It's not going to happen.
00:09:11Kind of an immediacy to like lockdown is coming.
00:09:14We have to get a dog now.
00:09:16I don't mean to do an impression of you, but just that's kind of the emotionality of it.
00:09:21And then I feel like, okay, I've been vegan for 10 years.
00:09:24It's important to me to get a rescue.
00:09:25It feels like I'm in a difficult position where it's like, okay, I have to act now.
00:09:29I have to act now.
00:09:30I have to act now.
00:09:31And it's going to make us compromise.
00:09:32And I feel like if we're going to do that, we should make sure we've turned over every single stone.
00:09:39And I kind of don't feel like we have.
00:09:41I've tried.
00:09:42And it's just not working.
00:09:43And this is like close to the same thing with an ethical breeder.
00:09:48They're animal lovers.
00:09:50Ethical breeder is another thing I personally really don't buy.
00:09:54It's kind of in the like free range egg paradigm type oxymoronical.
00:10:01So what's the deal?
00:10:02It's a non-for-profit.
00:10:03So then what is it for?
00:10:04Would be my question.
00:10:06Because from my perspective.
00:10:08If they didn't breed them.
00:10:09There's an incentive.
00:10:10The breed would go extinct.
00:10:11There would be no more Chinese cresties if it weren't for.
00:10:13Look, she says, I am a preservationist.
00:10:17What is called a hobby breeder.
00:10:18I breed not for profit.
00:10:20So this is a freak who is.
00:10:23No one was breeding them.
00:10:24An obsession with a particular breed.
00:10:25How would they continue?
00:10:26Who cares?
00:10:27Who cares?
00:10:28Who cares?
00:10:29I thought you were a vegan.
00:10:30Yeah, I'm a consequentialist, honey.
00:10:32I don't want to cause suffering.
00:10:35I just feel loved.
00:10:38Honey.
00:10:39Can you not?
00:10:45What do you want me to say to this?
00:10:47Like, I'm down to get a dog.
00:10:49I don't even honestly want one.
00:10:53It's like, I'm willing to compromise on getting one in the first place.
00:10:56Then I want you to compromise.
00:10:57You want a dog.
00:10:59I don't want a dog.
00:11:00I'm willing to get a dog.
00:11:01I can't compromise a dog, but then I need you to help me.
00:11:05So if it's us versus the problem, when can we tackle the problem?
00:11:09Because I'm tackling the problem every day.
00:11:11I'm sending emails every day.
00:11:13Anytime.
00:11:14Anytime.
00:11:15When?
00:11:15Now?
00:11:15No, not.
00:11:16See, that's not love.
00:11:17No, not now.
00:11:18Tomorrow?
00:11:19I need a lot of time.
00:11:20Can we, can we, do you have your calendar?
00:11:22Can we open our calendars?
00:11:22This is competitive.
00:11:23And if we're going to get it your way, I need your time.
00:11:25Send me.
00:11:26You know what?
00:11:26The best way to do it, and I'm going to sound like a jerk, is send me an email.
00:11:30And we'll go through it together and we'll find a time and we'll.
00:11:33You want me to book you?
00:11:34Okay, I know it seems like I'm a prick.
00:11:36Send me an email.
00:11:37But yes, send me an email, because then it's not going to get lost.
00:11:40You're looking at me like that, like send me an email.
00:11:41I'm some bureaucratic freak.
00:11:43But if you send me an email, then it's not going to get lost.
00:11:45I'm actually saying send me an email, because then it's not going to get lost.
00:11:48So don't act like I'm the fucking, okay.
00:11:59Possible times tomorrow, any time works for me.
00:12:06Next day, any time works for me.
00:12:11And the next day, any time works for me.
00:12:15Okay, just send it.
00:12:19I'm not trying to be a prick.
00:12:21I know that this is important to you.
00:12:25And I would like to help.
00:12:27I'm just trying to help you in a way that balances the other bullshit I know you're sick of hearing
00:12:35about that I'm trying to do.
00:12:38Which is this.
00:12:45You may feel that calm and relaxed aura of simply being present, which can relax and reassure you, easily and
00:12:57effortlessly.
00:12:58By the way...
00:12:58PIANO PLAYS
00:13:32PIANO PLAYS
00:14:10PIANO PLAYS
00:14:10Twelve rules for dogs.
00:14:12Rule number one, dogs are pack animals, and they need a pack leader for direction.
00:14:18Until a dog has been on leash, they can never truly be off-leash.
00:14:23Put another way, they can never be free until they've been under control.
00:14:28That's where a pack leader comes into the picture.
00:14:40Still finalizing the flight plan on the Dominican side, working to get over the border before lockdown order is set
00:14:48in.
00:14:50Millie is two years old and needs some serious TLC.
00:15:00We should be cautious not to get too excited, but a good chance.
00:15:05And then on our side, I still think that we have a conversation or two to have before we can
00:15:09fully pull the trig.
00:15:11I know you want a dog today.
00:15:14And I'm sure that you will want a dog in a year.
00:15:19But are you 100% certain that you 100% want a dog for 12 years plus?
00:15:36I'm a little concerned that, you know, you originally did not want a dog and you're doing this for me
00:15:42and for my desires.
00:15:44So I just want to make sure I'm not pressuring you into that and that you're not going to resent
00:15:49this choice.
00:15:51100%.
00:15:54Amidst all the chaos of a human world, the ideal pack leader is steady and confident, vigorously calm, in effortless
00:16:03control.
00:16:04This is a state that I refer to as calm dominance.
00:16:10Rule number two.
00:16:13Think like a leader, stink like a leader.
00:16:15Dogs have a sense of smell 10,000 times as sensitive as humans.
00:16:19They can smell you like a book.
00:16:22You can say sit as many times as you want.
00:16:25But if you're not really sure about your status in the pack, your counterfeit commands won't pass the smell test.
00:16:32Love?
00:16:34How you doing?
00:16:35I think I'm good.
00:16:37Okay.
00:16:39How you doing?
00:16:41Doing good.
00:16:44Oh, I'm nervous.
00:16:49Me too.
00:16:57Rule number 12.
00:16:59Command your dog from within.
00:17:02Dogs are so perceptive of their masters, it can sometimes feel as though they have psychic powers.
00:17:09And as pack leader, it's essential to act as though they do.
00:17:12Find your inner voice as leader of the pack and command your dog from that place.
00:17:19I call this speaking with your pack leader voice.
00:17:24Forget about your vocal cords.
00:17:26Command your dog from within.
00:17:29It's a different voice for everyone.
00:17:31Sit.
00:17:32Sit.
00:17:34Stay down.
00:17:37Down.
00:17:42Down.
00:17:46Down.
00:17:48Down.
00:17:57Down.
00:17:59Up.
00:18:09Down.
00:18:10Down.
00:18:27Down.
00:18:28So, when she arrives, we just act like nothing extraordinary is happening whatsoever.
00:18:35This is a totally normal night.
00:18:40And that feels kind of callous, but I think that that's going to be the best way that we can
00:18:44love her.
00:18:45Is just to be...
00:18:50Okay.
00:18:55I know.
00:19:10We've got to smoke the first impression.
00:19:15I know.
00:19:40We've got to smoke the first impression.
00:19:41I think it's a good one.
00:19:41I know.
00:19:41I know.
00:19:41I know.
00:19:42I know.
00:21:15And just proceed as normal and let her come to us.
00:21:18You know what I mean?
00:21:19And really try to be a little bit more explicitly chill.
00:21:23We're in our own home.
00:21:24That's too loud.
00:21:25Let's be steady.
00:21:27We are in our own home.
00:21:28You're bringing aggressive energy.
00:21:29I'm just honking normally.
00:21:31Oh my God, she's going to help her.
00:21:32Okay, let's be calm.
00:21:35Oh my God.
00:21:47I think I should give her a treat.
00:21:48I think she needs some kind of positive something.
00:21:53Give her a space.
00:21:54Can we go do that?
00:21:56I think she's going into the closet.
00:21:57Oh my God.
00:22:07Oh my God.
00:22:09Oh my God.
00:22:19Hi.
00:22:21You're a good girl.
00:22:25You want a treat?
00:22:29Good girl.
00:22:32You're a good girl.
00:22:35Should I try Spanish?
00:22:38That's interesting.
00:22:54I'm feeling envy, so I'm going to come over there as well.
00:23:21Tom?
00:23:22Tom?
00:23:23Tom?
00:23:24Tom?
00:23:25Tom?
00:23:26Tom?
00:23:31Come on.
00:23:38Settle.
00:23:44Settle.
00:23:51Settle.
00:23:59Settle.
00:24:06Settle.
00:24:27Settle.
00:24:28Settle.
00:24:29Settle.
00:24:40Settle.
00:24:43Settle.
00:24:46Settle.
00:24:47Settle.
00:24:48Settle.
00:24:49Settle.
00:24:49Settle.
00:24:51Settle.
00:24:52Good girl, good girl.
00:25:23It's okay.
00:25:26And let's try again in three, two, one.
00:25:34Good girl.
00:25:43You're good, girl.
00:25:45You're good.
00:25:48Good.
00:25:51Bicycle coming?
00:25:53Okay.
00:25:54We're good?
00:25:57Good girl, girl.
00:25:58Go on.
00:26:01You want some food?
00:26:05Come on.
00:26:07Come on.
00:26:31Maybe she was, like, kicked or something.
00:26:36Why do you say kicked?
00:26:38I just feel like if she was, like, on this farm and there was all these other dogs, maybe they
00:26:45were just getting hurt.
00:26:46Like, pushed while it kicked out of the way.
00:26:50I get the sense she's coming from more environmental stress.
00:26:57Like, ambient chaos.
00:27:04Too much going on.
00:27:07Clinging and clanging.
00:27:08Clinging.
00:27:12She still hasn't pooped.
00:27:14She hasn't pooped since at the minute camera popped like that's probably not healthy.
00:27:19You can get a blocked bowel.
00:27:22She'll poop tomorrow.
00:27:55I need a
00:27:56A mega colon is, well, it's actually almost exactly as it sounds.
00:28:02we're talking about a colon that has been engorged to such a size due to the fact that it can't
00:28:08get
00:28:09anything out of there let me ask dry or wet food so it's wet raw food 72 hours of wet
00:28:15raw
00:28:16do you mean you don't know this dog well enough to even understand what its typical gay is but
00:28:20you'd be seeing it walk with almost a bit of a hobble slower uh reticent to run uh doesn't like
00:28:27to be touched in around the stomach he said this is a female so even her lower back may be
00:28:32irritated
00:28:32but these are things that you can check uh on your own okay and i mean it could all just
00:28:38be
00:28:38a phantom poo as well but nine times out of ten it's it's uh it's in the cabinet underneath the
00:28:45sink in the bathroom okay okay what will we will look for it we will look for it okay okay
00:28:51we're
00:28:51also trying to transit transition her into vegan food um any opinions about that if you're this
00:29:00if this dog was born on a certain diet you should change it at your peril look i i i
00:29:06have a i have
00:29:07an opinion on on vegan food i'm sorry i have a political opinion on vegan food and i'm really
00:29:14sorry about that but i happen to have an opinion on it and and what's your opinion on that i'm
00:29:19curious
00:29:20i will i will not disclose it to a client
00:29:22am gonna thank you so much for my dearest too and i will i show you out about this
00:29:52Heel.
00:29:57Heel.
00:30:02Heel.
00:30:06Heel.
00:30:08Heel.
00:30:22Heel.
00:30:23Heel.
00:30:34Heel.
00:30:37Heel.
00:30:42Heel.
00:31:21For you.
00:31:37Take it.
00:31:40Go.
00:31:44A little more paw.
00:31:46Perfect.
00:31:47Let's put you over here.
00:31:49There.
00:31:51Good girl.
00:31:52Good girl.
00:31:54Oh, you did good.
00:32:00Want to go, girl?
00:32:04Okay, we don't have to do that today.
00:32:05Let's not do that today.
00:32:07Good girl.
00:32:09Good girl.
00:32:11Look at that.
00:32:11That's fun.
00:32:13That's fun, girl.
00:32:15Look, there's a little friend.
00:32:18Is it okay if they say hello?
00:32:21That's so cute.
00:32:23Look.
00:32:25Aw, she's so cute.
00:32:29She's shy.
00:32:33Can we go?
00:32:36Bye.
00:32:38Come on.
00:32:39Come on.
00:32:42Come on.
00:32:43Uh, girl.
00:33:00What's so cute?
00:33:06The light isn't the eye.
00:33:11I can do with the lights.
00:33:28Bad.
00:33:42Bad.
00:34:03Bad.
00:34:16Bad.
00:34:43Bad.
00:34:52Bad.
00:34:54Bad.
00:34:56Bad.
00:34:58Bad.
00:35:03Bad.
00:35:08Bad.
00:35:19ORCHESTRA PLAYS
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00:35:47Oh, here, Mel. You want to smell one of these?
00:35:51Oh, my God. This looks so beautiful.
00:35:53Isn't it pretty?
00:35:55Give me a look, hon.
00:35:57Give me a smudge. Oh, yeah.
00:35:59Merry Christmas.
00:36:02Merry Christmas.
00:36:07What did that smell?
00:36:08Oh.
00:36:10Oh, where's my gift?
00:36:12Oh!
00:36:14Merry Christmas. Thank you.
00:36:19Oh.
00:36:20Oh, that's my gift to you.
00:36:23Merry Christmas.
00:36:24Merry Christmas. That's my gift to you.
00:36:27Merry Christmas.
00:36:42Merry Christmas.
00:36:44Merry Christmas.
00:36:46Merry Christmas.
00:36:49Merry Christmas.
00:36:59Merry Christmas.
00:37:00Merry Christmas.
00:37:09Merry Christmas.
00:37:13Merry Christmas.
00:37:14Merry Christmas.
00:37:15Merry Christmas.
00:37:16Merry Christmas.
00:37:17Merry Christmas.
00:37:18Merry Christmas.
00:37:19Merry Christmas.
00:37:36look here good girl look here good girl okay wait wait look here
00:37:49look look up here love can i interrupt
00:38:19you've been watching these videos of your family and they've been getting me reflecting on how i am going to
00:38:36reconcile two poles
00:38:42my daddy and my mummy right my dad complete fucking workaholic loves work obsessed with work nothing but work right
00:38:59loves work okay that's in there somewhere as you know on the other pole
00:39:10my mom absolutely baby crazy individual loves family so much is all family she would have had 10
00:39:2412 children if she could have yeah so i come from these two different sides
00:39:30and these are both living inside of here i have never known how i am going to reconcile
00:39:40how am i going to find a way to satisfy the part of myself that knows i've got to be
00:39:48completely
00:39:48fucking obsessed with work especially if i want to be a filmmaker especially if i want to be a filmmaker
00:39:56you've got to be obsessed obsessed with work if you want to be a filmmaker completely
00:40:03fucking obsessed because it's the only way you're going to be any good at it whatsoever
00:40:10family if i'm completely obsessed with work what about family i want to be obsessed with my family as
00:40:17well i don't want to be my dad i want to be there there totally there obsessed with my kids
00:40:25fully there
00:40:26people always say the immediate solution work-life balance okay that's a good solution i think that's
00:40:34a good solution in a lot of cases but in this case i don't really see how work-life balance
00:40:42is going to
00:40:43function because i can't really find a way in my mind where i'm going to be able to split it
00:40:50down the
00:40:51middle and have the amount of obsession that i feel that i need to have in filmmaking with the amount
00:40:58of
00:40:58presence that i want to have with my family in order to feel good about who i am
00:41:10you got two poles
00:41:16work
00:41:21famiglia
00:41:25what if
00:41:49i am abandoning my script
00:41:56and i'm going to make a movie about millie
00:42:05what do you mean i'm going to make a movie
00:42:11a home movie
00:42:20but it's going to be
00:42:25a movie
00:42:29about millie
00:42:32what do you mean
00:42:34you'll be you and i'll be me
00:42:37millie will be millie
00:42:39i know we can't have a crew because that would scare the out of her so i'll shoot it on
00:42:43my phone
00:42:44it'll be super light it'll be super easy
00:42:48baby
00:42:51it's going to be a movie
00:42:55but it's also
00:42:59an heirloom
00:43:04from this beautiful
00:43:06period of time
00:43:10where we became a family
00:43:14and it's going to be
00:43:18so
00:43:21beautiful
00:43:26okay well
00:43:29i'm so happy you're inspired truly it's great to see
00:43:36but i'm a little shocked because you've been writing that script for about five years
00:43:41years
00:43:42and
00:43:43i've never been so sure about anything
00:43:47in my entire life
00:43:54okay
00:44:01okay
00:44:02you got far
00:44:03thank you
00:44:08it's going to be so good
00:44:23come on
00:44:25come on
00:44:26come on
00:44:29come on
00:44:31come on
00:44:34come on
00:44:35Okay, come on.
00:44:37Come on.
00:44:38Come on.
00:44:40Let's go.
00:44:43Come on.
00:44:45Come on.
00:44:47Come on.
00:44:49Come on.
00:44:51Let's go.
00:45:06Come on.
00:45:07Number three.
00:45:19loser
00:45:33unlucky
00:45:34and
00:45:34lucky
00:45:34lucky
00:45:34lucky
00:45:37Hello. We just came back from dinner. Oh my, sunburned.
00:45:47Oh.
00:45:54Honey?
00:46:04What do we got?
00:46:17I figured...
00:46:19There's something that I...
00:46:48I have a time-sensitive...
00:46:59Honey?
00:47:10Is that funny?
00:47:12She's one minute old.
00:47:15Just had her now.
00:47:17There's a baby girl.
00:47:19Is that funny?
00:47:21Yoo-hoo!
00:47:23Hello!
00:47:24Love.
00:47:25It's Paxi!
00:47:26Like, who is she?
00:47:28Who is she, like...
00:47:33Are you getting puffed out the hair?
00:47:38Something about, like, slices?
00:47:49You ring.
00:47:52Brace yourself.
00:47:54Braced.
00:47:58I need you to be real for this.
00:47:59I'm real.
00:48:03Dear Eric...
00:48:05Thank you for your application.
00:48:09Millie is still available...
00:48:12And will be coming in from the Dominican on Saturday night.
00:48:17In response to the lockdowns coming in at midnight,
00:48:20we'll be doing pick-ups at the airport.
00:48:23Approximately 11 p.m.
00:48:26Millie is a sweet girl.
00:48:29Aww!
00:48:30But needs some serious...
00:48:33TLC.
00:48:34And this is the pick.
00:48:38Oh my gosh.
00:48:39She is something else.
00:48:42Oh my goodness.
00:48:43Cute, no?
00:48:45Oh, I can't breathe.
00:48:47She's not ours yet!
00:48:49I got a dog named Millie!
00:48:52Millie!
00:48:53Her name is Millie!
00:48:56Can I get a M-I-L-L-Y?
00:48:58Millie!
00:49:02I'm a dog owner!
00:49:07I'm a dog mama!
00:49:09And going back and forth, swaying from one side to the other.
00:49:15I got a Millie!
00:49:17I got a girl named Millie!
00:49:20M-I-L-L-Y!
00:49:22And uh...
00:49:23She's Millie!
00:49:25This feels like it has a lot of comic distance.
00:49:28So what can be a genuine thing though?
00:49:31Because this is comic.
00:49:32So that's what I'm struggling with is like...
00:49:35Is how to be genuine with the...
00:49:40Action.
00:49:41I can't wait to meet her!
00:49:43She's the most beautiful thing in the world!
00:49:45And at that, it's a baby girl!
00:49:48Oh!
00:49:49I can't handle it!
00:49:51I'm gonna explode!
00:49:52I'm gonna scream out of the mountains!
00:49:54Millie!
00:49:54It's my dog!
00:49:56Millie!
00:49:58Arr! Arr! Arr!
00:50:01Arr!
00:50:07She's not ours yet.
00:50:09No!
00:50:10Don't say that!
00:50:11She's ours!
00:50:12Don't do this to me.
00:50:13She's ours!
00:50:13The email says!
00:50:14We just have to email back?
00:50:16So we should just email back?
00:50:16I'm not a yes.
00:50:17I'm not a yes yet.
00:50:20For me, there's still much more to discuss.
00:50:26You're a bad man.
00:50:31You're a bad man.
00:50:34You're a bad man.
00:50:35My character is a bad man right now.
00:50:37We're gonna have to figure that out on the coverage here.
00:50:39You're a bad bad man.
00:50:42Say that again, unless these little trunks have passed.
00:50:48You're a bad man.
00:50:50You're a very bad man.
00:50:54Bad.
00:50:56Okay, give up.
00:51:00One more time.
00:51:01And now, go through all the way to the bottom.
00:51:04Get to the bottom, and then scroll all the way to the top.
00:51:07Like a quick, like you get to the bottom, scroll all the way to the top.
00:51:10Scroll stop, scroll stop, scroll stop, get to the bottom all the way up and shut.
00:51:13Bad.
00:51:14You're at a 10, now take it to a 13.
00:51:18Oh my god.
00:51:20Of which applause?
00:51:22Of, of, of even just like, of, of non-verbal.
00:51:26Do you see my feet?
00:51:28Oh, I'm in the tube.
00:51:29I'm stuck in the tube, but I can't get out.
00:51:31I'm stuck in the tube, but I can't get out.
00:51:33And then, ooh.
00:51:34You want some popcorn, baby?
00:51:36And then out.
00:51:37Okay.
00:51:41Cut.
00:51:42Oh, my girl!
00:51:44Hi!
00:51:45Oh, we missed you!
00:51:47Bad.
00:51:47We missed you!
00:51:50Wee!
00:51:51Wee!
00:51:52Oh!
00:51:54Oh, my honey!
00:51:56My honey!
00:51:59I missed you!
00:52:01I missed you!
00:52:02Bad!
00:52:03Oh!
00:52:05Honey, she's peeing!
00:52:07She's peeing!
00:52:09She's peeing!
00:52:10She peed!
00:52:12She peed!
00:52:13She peed!
00:52:14Oh, you have a good girl!
00:52:17She peed!
00:52:19Oh, you're gonna put it all over the house!
00:52:23Don't do that again, give me your paws!
00:52:26Oh, I can't believe you were dead in purpose without helping Mama!
00:52:30Yeah!
00:52:56Bad!
00:52:57Bad!
00:53:11Stupid!
00:53:19Stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, stupid, failure, fuck, dumbass, dumbass, dumbass.
00:53:45Bad.
00:54:06Oh, hi girl. Did you have a nice walk? How'd it go?
00:54:11I was fine. She, uh, freaked out at the school. Nothing more than usual.
00:54:19I think we gotta get a little realer on the training, cause she was, uh, you know, you know how
00:54:27it is.
00:54:29Did something happen, huh?
00:54:31Yeah, well, I mean, she got a little nervous by the school.
00:54:33Um, freaked out by the CD tree that we said that we were training around and never did.
00:54:38Um, so, it wasn't great, but it wasn't awful, but definitely wasn't great.
00:54:43So, I just, you know, yeah, I think we just need to get a little more real about that.
00:54:48Okay, so, just slow down. What happened? So, you were walking by the school, or...
00:54:53I was walking her down Gladstone.
00:55:04Millie, there's that tree with the CDs, and the car came by, and I guess she saw the light.
00:55:10And she started to freak out, and so I went down to her and said, Millie, come here. Come here.
00:55:20Totally.
00:55:24Did you drop the leash, or...
00:55:26No, I didn't drop the leash, no. She just tried to get away from me.
00:55:29She was yanking and yanking. She almost got away from me.
00:55:31If I hadn't been prepared for it, she would have. It was brutal.
00:55:34I mean, she's, it's a lot of torque. She's pulling and pulling and pulling.
00:55:38I'm trying to hold her there.
00:55:40Millie!
00:55:44Millie!
00:55:45I'm sorry that I'm worked up. I'm, uh, disappointed in her.
00:55:51And that doesn't feel good. So, um, yeah. It's, uh, it's, it was frightening.
00:55:57And so I'm getting, I'm getting testy, because it was frightening.
00:56:06It's okay, honey. It's okay. But, you know, let's not, let's not put the blame on her.
00:56:12Like, let's not be disappointed in her. We should take responsibility.
00:56:16This is...
00:56:17You're right. You're totally right. I'm extremely disappointed in us.
00:56:20I'm extremely disappointed in us.
00:56:23Because it is our fault. Yeah.
00:56:25Because we haven't been serious about the shit that we said that we were going to be serious about.
00:56:28We haven't been consistent about the stuff that we said that we would be consistent about.
00:56:32I, I understand that, love. But, but I've been also having my own experiences with her on walks.
00:56:38And I've started to realize that, you know, first things first, I think we should just get her comfortable with
00:56:44being outside.
00:56:45So that's what I've been working on. And I, I know we said we would do the tree as well.
00:56:50But I thought that it would be better to just first just work on getting her comfortable outside.
00:56:55We said that we were going to expose her to the things that scared her.
00:56:59We knew that she was scared of the CD tree, what, three weeks ago.
00:57:01And we didn't do anything about it because we're caught up in our own bullshit.
00:57:04And all of a sudden now she almost has an escape scenario.
00:57:07So it's, uh, it's, it's just laying bare some of the shortcomings in what we've done so far.
00:57:15So we said we would switch her food. We're not switching food. There's fucking meat cubes in the duvet.
00:57:20Well, I tried to switch to food, but she didn't want it. So what do you want me to do?
00:57:23Shove it down?
00:57:24How many times did you say that you tried maybe once? Maybe two times?
00:57:25I tried a few times and she didn't like it. And I was thinking, I was starting to feel that
00:57:30maybe she would, maybe she-
00:57:32Everything that we've read has said that consistency is the number one factor.
00:57:36But you decide every other day that, you know what? My gut's saying something else might work better.
00:57:42That's fine, but we need to discuss it. If we're gonna make a strategy change, or else all of a
00:57:46sudden she's just living in a swirl. She doesn't know what's what.
00:57:50Eric, I tried, but if you want us to switch to food, we, we can just do a quick switch.
00:57:56We can switch in one go. I read that you can-
00:57:58I'm sorry that I'm being a prick.
00:58:02And what I was going to say is I can switch the food. I read that you can just switch
00:58:06the food. There's like different opinions about, you don't have to phase it.
00:58:09And you can just switch it in one go. It works fine for a lot of dogs, so I feel
00:58:13comfortable just doing a switch. And then that's off the, off, off the table. And...
00:58:20I'm sorry. I don't want to say anything. I can just switch it in one go.
00:58:33I'm sorry.
00:58:37This is the same thing.
00:58:38Okay, so you can watch it.
00:58:38I hope it's my body is my brother.
00:58:38You can see it, as you can see it.
00:58:38Yes, I'm sorry.
00:58:41What's your body is?
00:58:48I don't know.
00:59:26Look here.
00:59:59Good girl.
01:00:01Good girl.
01:00:39Good girl.
01:00:59You okay, girl?
01:01:09Where's the car?
01:01:09Uh-uh.
01:01:13One sec, one sec.
01:01:14It's okay.
01:01:17Do you see it?
01:01:18Okay.
01:01:36Okay.
01:01:38Okay.
01:01:41You're good.
01:01:43You're good.
01:01:59You're good.
01:02:01You're good.
01:02:04You're good.
01:02:05You're good.
01:02:06You're good.
01:02:12You're good.
01:02:34You're good.
01:02:42You're good.
01:02:47You're good.
01:03:11You're good.
01:03:14You're good.
01:03:22You're good.
01:03:26You're good.
01:03:37You're good.
01:03:42You're good.
01:04:05You're good.
01:04:09You're good.
01:04:25You're good.
01:04:28You're good.
01:04:36You're good.
01:04:46You're good.
01:04:50You're good.
01:04:52You're good.
01:04:55You're good.
01:04:58You're good.
01:05:10You're good.
01:05:12You're good.
01:06:18How much are you blaming me for this?
01:06:29I freaked out at you, and I apologized for that because that was stupid.
01:06:37I'm sorry for my part in it.
01:06:40I'm sorry for my 50% blame.
01:06:57You know, I don't remember putting the food in the bowl.
01:07:03Isn't that strange?
01:07:04It's like wiped.
01:07:06Oh, my God.
01:07:08Beep!
01:07:09A memory gone.
01:07:11It is odd.
01:07:27End of conversation for the time being.
01:07:38I had a dream that we were married.
01:07:45And we had babies.
01:07:49And we were having some kind of a barbecue.
01:07:54There was all these people around, and you were trying to make them all laugh.
01:08:03You were throwing up the baby and going, whoop-dee-woo, catching her.
01:08:09Whoop-dee-woo, catching her.
01:08:11And then I could tell that you wanted a bigger laugh, so you threw the baby up really high.
01:08:24But what you didn't realize was that the ceiling fan was on, and you threw the baby right into the
01:08:33fan.
01:08:35And then I had this overriding feeling of terror that the baby was dead.
01:08:46And then I woke up.
01:08:52And I think what my unconscious was telling me was that I don't trust you.
01:09:01And not only do I think that you'd be a bad dad, you would be a liability.
01:09:11I wouldn't trust you with my children crossing the street, let alone driving in a car.
01:09:22I don't trust you holding a baby.
01:09:34Do you have anything to say?
01:09:36Anything about what I just said?
01:09:39Or did you just put up a shield and not hear any of it?
01:09:48I think it would haveestry but a fast dieper knows.
01:09:54I don't trust you.
01:09:55I don't trust you, I don't trust you.
01:09:59Difficult Screams
01:09:59I never trusted you.
01:10:30Stay right here.
01:10:49When she was there, she was inappetent and has not consumed food since her arrival at the clinic.
01:10:54At approximately 2 p.m., Millie had a loose stool containing traces of blood mucus.
01:10:59Recommend monitoring her stool until she stabilizes.
01:11:02Should the blood in her stool or vomit persist for more than 4 to 8 hours, she may require some
01:11:07treatments like we discussed on the phone.
01:11:09Close at-home monitoring on your part is important.
01:11:18I don't think she's going to let us give this to her.
01:11:48Mm-hmm.
01:11:58Eric.
01:12:00Mm-hmm.
01:12:27So much information about the
01:12:37Let's go.
01:13:05Let's go.
01:13:51Can you maybe get some kind of a tool?
01:13:58Like a stick or something.
01:14:08Some scissors.
01:14:09Let's go.
01:14:23Okay.
01:14:24Okay.
01:14:28Doesn't look good.
01:14:30It's like...
01:14:32Yeah, there's a little bit of...
01:14:38blood, it looks like.
01:14:41But I think this is the better kind.
01:14:46Like there's two.
01:14:49Basically, there's a...
01:14:51More concerning is a darker one that means that there's like bleeding in the stomach that gets digested, I think.
01:14:58But then the bright red one, just small intestine and colon, which isn't as concerning.
01:15:06This isn't terrible, but there's a lot of like mucus too.
01:15:13It's pretty watery.
01:15:16And this jelly, like that's so weird.
01:15:20What do you think that is?
01:15:22Like bile or something.
01:15:23So bad.
01:15:28So bad.
01:15:40So bad.
01:15:43So bad.
01:15:49So bad.
01:15:51So bad.
01:15:55So bad.
01:15:59So bad.
01:16:00So bad.
01:16:00Should we talk about it?
01:16:07Probably.
01:16:14Oh, I'm sorry.
01:16:18For saying all those mean things to you.
01:16:21That was cruel.
01:16:22Well, I shouldn't have talked to you like that.
01:16:28But I think there was some truth underneath what I was saying, too.
01:16:34Yeah.
01:16:34Mm-hmm.
01:16:37Damn.
01:16:41You've been a really nice guy to me for most of our relationship.
01:16:49And I'm really grateful for that.
01:16:52Truly.
01:16:54But I think that I let you steer this relationship for a long time.
01:17:03But you kind of ended up just taking us in circles.
01:17:10Settle.
01:17:12When we got Millie, I got the first taste of the kind of life that I want to live.
01:17:17And I don't want to spit it out.
01:17:20Settle.
01:17:24Because I'm just done with whatever this is.
01:17:32Settle down.
01:17:35I'll just say it.
01:17:37Okay.
01:17:38So, I think...
01:17:44Settle down, boy.
01:17:45You know, if you don't want to have the same priorities as me, which is basically family and then work,
01:17:56then we can bust up and you can go do your own thing, and I can go live with my
01:18:03family and take Millie.
01:18:04And it's okay, there needs to be no hard feelings, but if you want, you could try to live with
01:18:15me, and we could see if we could make it work.
01:18:20But I need you to know that I'm not a movie.
01:18:36I'm not going to be here forever.
01:18:38It's a finite period of time, and I can't keep living like it isn't.
01:18:44So, I kind of need you to shit or get off the pot, because I'm 32, and my eggs are
01:18:53rotting day by day, and I want to have babies and a house.
01:18:59I want to go camping.
01:19:20Okay.
01:19:26Are you going to turn everything into a movie?
01:19:29Or just this?
01:19:32Hmm.
01:19:34I don't know.
01:19:37But I don't know if I want that.
01:19:40Like, I don't want that.
01:19:43You can make movies, but I don't want to be one.
01:19:49It'll all make its way in, but I'll try and fictionalize it a little bit more.
01:19:53Okay?
01:19:55Okay?
01:20:01Okay.
01:20:03Okay?
01:20:04Go, go, go.
01:20:34Oh, good girl.
01:20:35Good girl.
01:20:37Oh, good girl.
01:20:40Good girl.
01:20:43Good girl.
01:20:45Good girl.
01:20:46Good girl.
01:20:47Good girl.
01:20:49Good job.
01:20:52Nice.
01:20:54Good job.
01:20:56Good job.
01:20:57Nice.
01:21:41I think she has to go out.
01:21:45Okay.
01:22:28I think she has to go out.
01:22:34I think she has to go out.
01:23:04I think she has to go out.
01:23:30I think she has to go out.
01:24:00I think she has to go out.
01:24:30I think she has to go out.
01:25:00I think she has to go out.
01:25:30I think she has to go out.
01:26:00I think she has to go out.
01:26:30I think she has to go out.
01:27:00I think she has to go out.
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