Emmerdale star shares heartbreaking struggle as she admits ‘it wasn’t meant to be’

Emmerdale star shares heartbreaking struggle as she admits ‘it wasn’t meant to be’Source: Loose Women, ITV

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00:00I've spoken a lot about the fact, for me personally, being a Catholic, you know, it was drummed into us.

00:05You know, you don't use contraception and you don't have sex before marriage and everything.

00:10And that was kind of in my head a lot.

00:12Then, obviously, later in life, career.

00:14I did choose my career and apps weren't available then to look at your cycle.

00:19And I waited and waited, found the right person in Al.

00:23And then when it came to the time of trying, I couldn't fall pregnant

00:27and would have given everything in my life to have had a child.

00:32You know, I look now at your happiness, you know, with Marius and the baby.

00:36And you have got that career. It's amazing.

00:38And I wasn't that lucky and tried everything until the point where Al turned to me

00:43and he literally said, you have to stop all the IVF treatment because it's diminishing you.

00:49It's taking your personality away. You're trying too hard.

00:52Sometimes in life, it's not meant to be.

00:55And I have to sit with you girls here today knowing that, however, I'm very lucky

01:00because of my family unit, you know, with Jakey, Joss and Evelyn, my two nephews and my niece.

01:05They're a big part of me.

01:07But I say they are now my jigsaw.

01:10But what I do know that when I couldn't get pregnant and feeling so rubbish in myself,

01:16and I've said this a lot, I felt like a jigsaw with a missing piece.

01:20You felt diminished.

01:23I did. I felt really diminished.

01:24There's still times at work now I struggle when conversations are like very that way.