- 2 days ago
Category
📺
TVTranscript
00:00My husband tried to join me in our lifeboat two men grabbed him
00:16Officers were there with guns
00:20He offered no resistance
00:23And backed off back onto the ship
00:27Began yelling and crying
00:30As they wanted to join him on the sinking ship
00:33Action!
00:55He told me that apparently we'd struck something
00:57I didn't become alarmed
01:08There was no danger
01:10They said
01:11I told her to come at once, we were sinking
01:18You can imagine the chaos and the fear and the terror of finding water in your cabin and you're in the bowels of the ship
01:29It makes me panic just thinking about it
01:31The story of the Titanic is the human condition spread out, pinned on a board for us to examine
01:40Then came the terrible cry
01:42Women and children, women and children
01:45Audrey
01:46Two men lifted me up and put me in a boat
01:49Move it! Move it!
01:50It's these small decisions, these little butterfly effect moments that change the outcome
01:55It really was every man for himself
02:10My heart stood still
02:13My heart stood still
02:23Hurry up!
02:26Pull!
02:28If we're gonna die
02:30The best to die gripping something
02:32It's a split second decision
02:33It's a split second decision
02:37What would you do?
02:38What would I do?
02:46It was a terrible son
02:48Men
02:49Swimming
02:50I'd been brought up to believe in a hell
03:03After death
03:11For now I think I went through a hell that night
03:20It's enough to do
03:21To leave
03:22You just wanted to do
03:23If you didn't know
03:24To leave
03:25I'm right
03:26If you всё
03:27You come to die
03:28Go
03:29To leave
03:30It's a great event
03:31I think you have to find
03:32To be happy
03:33To be happy
03:34To be happy
03:35To be happy
03:36To be happy
03:37To be happy
03:38To be happy
03:39To be happy
03:40To be happy
03:42I want to be happy
03:44You know
03:46To be happy
03:47To be happy
03:48To be a happy
03:49I was working in the engineering.
04:11We got the order, all hands on deck, put your life preservers on.
04:15The deck was full of male third-class passengers.
04:22The last boat was getting lowered.
04:26About this time, I met all the engineers as they came trooping up from below.
04:33Up to that time, they had loyally stuck to their guns.
04:37When the crew come up on deck, these guys who've worked so heroically to try to keep Titanic afloat,
04:50they expect that there will be a place for them in the lifeboats.
04:56And of course, that is not the case.
05:00British hierarchical society is always there to shaft the underdog.
05:05Those people who had risked their lives were not going to get any help at all.
05:13It was a bleak and hopeless spectacle that met their eyes.
05:19Empty falls hanging from every david head.
05:23Not a hope for any of them.
05:25Titanic has enough people on board that we're really seeing the whole range of reactions to facing death.
05:41From resignation, to fight and flight, to acting out of love and empathy to help other people.
05:48And at this point, some people choose to do things that may look quite strange.
05:53One fellow said, go to the first cabin barroom.
05:59There was a steward filling up tumblers on a tray.
06:04He said, go on lads, drink up.
06:08She's going down.
06:09Some people prefer to stay in their cabin and let the waters rise up.
06:18Others go to the bar and just start drinking the place dry.
06:22Everyone has to choose to die in their own way, whatever that is.
06:26I was for going down into one of the first class cabins, but...
06:30..if how Matty wouldn't let me...
06:31Matty said to me, we'll have to jump for it.
06:45It makes me panic just thinking about it, because I can imagine the chaos and the fear.
06:53It's not fair, you know, when passengers embarked on this ship.
06:59They were told it was unsinkable.
07:00They probably didn't pay much mind to how many lifeboats there were,
07:03but now that it's of the most crucial importance to them,
07:06they see that they've been failed.
07:14Captain Smith and Thomas Andrews, the ship's designer,
07:18must have been in hell.
07:21This was their unsinkable ship.
07:24Thomas Andrews was trying to do something because he is the architect of this disaster.
07:35Andrews was seen throwing steamer chairs into the water
07:38with the idea of actually helping those who got into the sea
07:42to have something to support them.
07:44It's very difficult to know what the captain's final moments were.
07:53During the Falklands War, I was a captain of a ship that was bombed,
07:57which I had to abandon.
07:58And so I know the pressures he was under,
08:00and I personally think that he probably stayed on the bridge
08:04and waited to meet his fate.
08:06But I think he would have been feeling to himself
08:10that he had failed in this last great appointment of his.
08:16There's something of the stiff upper lip happening here,
08:19but inside there must be inner turmoil,
08:22because survival instinct is really powerful,
08:25and the captain is probably suppressing it as much as he can.
08:29The social codes of conduct fighting against
08:31that very ancient part of the brain,
08:33the primitive part that just drives us forward biologically.
08:39People just have that, the will to survive.
08:42The adrenaline system is working overtime,
08:45and they've almost got nothing to lose.
08:48I wanted to jump out and try to catch one of the empty lifeboat falls.
08:53Jack Thayer has been on a dream holiday in Europe with his parents.
09:02They've got separated in the crowds,
09:05and now that dream has become a nightmare.
09:07I couldn't just jump.
09:10We might hit wreckage or a steamer chair
09:12and be knocked unconscious.
09:14Milton dissuaded me.
09:17Milton Long, 29-year-old American law clerk,
09:20And Jack had struck up a conversation many hours earlier
09:23in the dining saloon,
09:25and now they find themselves facing this life-or-death moment together.
09:31So many thoughts passed through my mind.
09:35I thought of all the good times I'd had.
09:38Of all the future pleasures I'd never enjoy.
09:45My father.
09:49My mother.
09:50I was watching myself as though from some far-off place.
09:59Sincerely pitied myself.
10:00Back in the wireless room,
10:19Jack Phillips has stuck to his post right to the end,
10:22even when Captain Smith has said it's every man for himself,
10:26because he believes he's doing something useful.
10:28He's spent the last few hours trying to communicate with other wireless operators,
10:33oblivious to everything going on around him.
10:37And his junior, Harold Bride,
10:38is deeply loyal to and respectful of Jack Phillips.
10:43The sea has almost reached the wireless room and they have just minutes before it's filled with freezing water.
10:51I was back in my room getting Phillips' money for him and as I looked out the door,
10:57I saw a stoker or somebody from below decks slipping the life belt off his back.
11:04You know, I remembered in a flash, the way Phillips had clung on, how I'd had to fix that life belt in place because he was too busy to do it.
11:12I felt a passion not to let that man die a decent sailor's death.
11:18I did my duty.
11:33I hope I finished him, I don't know.
11:37We left him on the floor of the wireless cabin.
11:40He wasn't moving.
11:41I've climbed on top of the officers' quarters.
11:51Yet I saw the last of Phillips.
11:55Jack Phillips is absolutely overwhelmed by the impossibility of this situation.
12:03He, uh, disappeared, walking aft.
12:06He doesn't say goodbye, he doesn't give any explanation, there's no clap on the back to his junior.
12:13He's done everything, there's nothing more to do.
12:16The man is ready to die.
12:30At this stage, all the lifeboats on the boat deck have been launched.
12:34And, of course, there's a panic that there are no lifeboats left.
12:38But there is actually two more stashed away on the roof of the officers' quarters.
12:43Collapsible A and B.
12:44I saw the boat and the men trying to push it off.
12:59They couldn't do it.
13:01I went up to them, lending a hand.
13:06The collapsible lifeboats were very much a secondary option,
13:10which would need to be rigged so they could be used.
13:12Now, the crew are trying to launch them in increasingly difficult and desperate conditions.
13:21Just then, the ship took a slight but definite plunge.
13:30And the sea came rolling up.
13:35And a large wave washes collapsible A and B overboard.
13:39You've just been given that hope.
13:41But in amongst the chaos, the lifeboats are stolen from you by the elements.
13:45And that is just devastating.
13:50The big wave carried the boat off.
13:53I had hold of an oarlock and went off with it.
13:56Water was washing right across the deck.
14:04And we were in water right to our hips.
14:08Another lurch threw myself off and away from the ship into the water.
14:13I fell into a mass of people.
14:22I was underwater.
14:24I knew I had to fight for it.
14:25The temperature in the water is minus two degrees.
14:32So as soon as that cold water hits the body,
14:34there's a shock reaction.
14:36And the mind is reacting in a state of panic.
14:41Everything I touched seemed to be woman's hair.
14:45Children crying.
14:51Women screaming.
14:54Their hair in my face.
14:59If only I could forget those hands and faces that I touched.
15:03The ship was sinking on its head very quickly.
15:18The water was right up to the bridge.
15:21The crowd moved with it, pushing towards the stern.
15:26The site that doesn't bear dwelling on.
15:31To stand there above the wheelhouse.
15:34Watching the frantic struggles to climb up the slope and deck.
15:38Unable to even hold out a helping hand.
15:45We were a mass of hopeless, dazed humanity.
15:50Trying to keep our final breath until the last possible moment.
15:56I knew the futility of following that instinct for self-preservation.
16:00It would only be postponing the plunge and prolonging the agony.
16:09Turning to the bridge, I took a header.
16:12Striking the water was like a thousand knives being driven into one's body.
16:24For a few moments, I completely lost grip of myself.
16:28We were at the starboard rail to keep away from the crowd.
16:38The ship began to shoot down fast.
16:41The water rushing up towards us.
16:44We had no time to think, only to act.
16:47We wished each other luck.
16:50Then we jumped up on the rail.
16:58Milton looked up at me and he said,
17:00You're coming, boy, aren't you?
17:03And I said, uh, go ahead.
17:16I'll be with you in a minute.
17:20And then he'll let go.
17:21The people who choose to jump are ultimately the people who take some form of control
17:35in a situation where you are powerless.
17:37We were about five minutes away from the ship.
17:59But we could still see it as the light stayed on.
18:02The ship stood almost on its nose, slowly sinking.
18:11The people on the Titanic were yelling and crying.
18:19I could see some of them as they jumped into the water.
18:32I found myself drawn against the grating, covering a ventilator.
18:44The pressure of the water glued me there.
18:48The shaft led to a stokehold,
18:52a sheer drop of 100 feet right to the bottom of the ship.
18:55I struggled and kicked for all I was worth.
19:01It was impossible to get away.
19:04As fast as I pushed myself off, I was dragged back.
19:09Every instant expecting the wire to go.
19:13To find myself shot down into the bowels of the ship.
19:16The shock of the water took the breath from my lungs.
19:26Down and down I went, spinning in all directions.
19:31The cold was terrific.
19:34Most people think of drowning in a circumstance like this.
19:38It is that ultimately your body runs out of energy.
19:40But actually, you can drown as soon as you first hit freezing water.
19:45There's something called cold water shock.
19:47And part of the reaction is to have a big intake of breath.
19:50And that prepares you for action.
19:52In the case of hitting cold water,
19:54it's not in your favor to have a sharp intake of breath.
19:58Some may have cardiac arrest almost immediately because of the shock.
20:02I was still fighting when a blast of hot air came up the shaft
20:09and blew me right away from the air shaft and up to the surface.
20:21Finally, I came up.
20:23My lungs bursting.
20:27The ship was in front of me.
20:28Suddenly, the second funnel seemed to be lifted off.
20:36The funnel started to fall right amongst the struggling mass of humanity already in the water.
20:45It missed me by only 20 to 30 feet.
20:49The suction of it drew me down.
20:53Those poor people were sucked down in those funnels.
20:58Like flies.
21:04As I came to the surface,
21:06my hand came against something.
21:09One of the collapsible lifeboats.
21:11It was floating in the water, bottom side up.
21:15About four or five men clinging on to her.
21:18So I asked them to give me a hand up, which they did.
21:23Sitting on my haunches, holding on for dear life,
21:26it seemed as though hours had passed since I left the ship.
21:32People like Jack and Officer Lightower are swarming onto the collapsible bee,
21:37upside down, using it like a raft in the freezing water,
21:41just as a way of trying to survive.
21:44The end was very close.
22:01Something in the bowels of the Titanic exploded and sparks shot up to the sky.
22:08Two other explosions followed, dull and heavy, as if below the surface.
22:14The impact was so great, it shook the waters and we thought our lifeboat would sink.
22:24Everyone screamed.
22:28The huge weight of seawater in the bows and in the stern
22:32meant that the two things were unable to remain as one part.
22:36The whole superstructure of the ship seemed to split.
22:41The lights suddenly go out, and then darkness falls.
22:45The Titanic broke in two before my eyes.
22:59The forepot mullered over and disappeared instantly.
23:05The ship seemed to right herself,
23:09like a hurt animal with a broken back.
23:12The strange, hallucinatory moment.
23:19It looks as though everything's going to be fine,
23:21because the weird, wonky, distorted angles
23:26of the great ship start to settle.
23:30There's people that think that some sort of safety feature has kicked in.
23:34You know, at least this half of the ship is going to somehow survive,
23:37and those on board are going to be spared.
23:39But ultimately, that is short-lived.
23:42I saw the Titanic go up in the air,
23:47ever so big.
23:50A huge ship reared herself on end,
23:55rudder and propeller clear of the water,
23:57till at last she assumed a perpendicular position.
24:01We saw groups of the 1,500 people still aboard,
24:08clinging like swarming bees.
24:13The contents of the Titanic is now falling through it,
24:18and tragically, people as well.
24:20I think it was only at that moment that many of those poor souls on board
24:26realised their fate.
24:29If we're going to die, I said,
24:31it would be best to die gripping something.
24:36We gripped the rail.
24:37A sharp exclamation from my husband.
24:53My God.
24:54She is going now.
24:55The steamer, without a sound,
25:02except for the shrieks of the people still on board,
25:06stood right on end.
25:13It stood there several moments,
25:15and slid straight down into the water.
25:22As easily as a pebble in a pond.
25:27Our proud ship.
25:30Our beautiful Titanic.
25:33The Titanic.
26:01Everyone round me on the upturned boat,
26:03and breathed the two words.
26:06She's gone.
26:15I did not wish to see her go down.
26:19I'm glad that I did not.
26:24My back was turned to her.
26:28We were pulling away.
26:31This is his ship.
26:33This is his company.
26:34And there is intense professional and personal shame here.
26:40I think that was just too overwhelming for him to be able to look.
26:44Probably a minute passed with almost dead silence and quiet.
26:53Then an unforgettable cry went up from fifteen hundred despairing throats.
27:05Bedlam of shrieks and cries.
27:06Bedlam of shrieks and cries.
27:14A nightmare.
27:16Of both sight and sound.
27:17Hearing desperate disembodied voices in the darkness of the ocean.
27:29A cacophony of tears and shouts and despair.
27:33It's almost like a sound.
27:34It's almost like a soundscape of hell.
27:36It's your husband, your brother, your father, your loved one's voices.
27:42I don't know how you recover from that.
27:43I don't know how you recover from that.
27:44I've never heard such screams from the hundreds of people floating about us.
27:59They were piercing.
28:06It was audible, Raoul.
28:24One young man near me shouting, Mother.
28:33A man, alongside me, clushed me round the neck.
28:42I choked him off.
28:46Nobody knows how they'll react in that circumstance.
28:52You're surrounded by others in a panic with you.
28:56You begin to lose the function of your arms, the function of your legs, the thing that you
29:01need to keep afloat.
29:02And that can happen extremely quickly because that body's reaction to keep your vital organs
29:08warm is so powerful.
29:10And it's painful.
29:11Like, you are being tortured, essentially.
29:14The people in the lifeboats are sitting and listening to others die.
29:23And everyone's response to that trauma situation will be different.
29:28We chatted of little unimportant things, as people do when they've been through great mental strain.
29:39Try to make feeble jokes.
29:43I remember I teased Miss Frankatelli.
29:47Miss Fancy, you left your beautiful nightdress behind you.
29:53And we all laughed.
29:58Though in our hearts we felt very far from laughter.
30:04Never you mind, madam.
30:07You were lucky to come away with your lives, said one of the sailors.
30:12Don't you bother about anything you had to leave behind you.
30:18Lucy's comments sound tone deaf to us, but I think they're a trauma response.
30:24It is far easier to comprehend the loss of a beautiful piece of clothing, she's a fashion
30:32designer of course, than it is to wrap their heads around the extraordinary horror of the
30:41loss of human life that they're seeing before them.
30:47For those in the water, a fatal countdown has begun.
30:51Once severe hypothermia sets in, you've got about 15 minutes until you'll become unconscious.
31:00When I was wounded in Afghanistan, I knew that that helicopter was coming.
31:06But if you don't know that a rescue is imminent, how long are you capable of holding on for?
31:12A large number of people gave up the struggle and were content to die.
31:17The water was so cold and there seemed no hope for rescue.
31:25When the darkness starts to creep in on you, that's when you have to have a real word with
31:29yourself and remind yourself that you still have some fight in you.
31:33I swam as always in a race.
31:41I got myself away from the crowd.
31:45Behind me, there was the horrible volume of groans, which I can hear them now.
31:57I came up to my chum, John Bannon, and I said, cheerio, Johnny, and he said, am I right?
32:12Then he told me he had seen a flashlight some distance away and pointed out the direction.
32:21As I went off, I cried out, it was so long Johnny.
32:28Poor chap.
32:39He was drowned.
32:44It was a terrible sight all around.
32:53Men swimming and sinking.
32:55I saw a boat of some kind and I put all my strength into an effort to swim to it.
33:01It was like work.
33:03I was all done when a hand reached from the boat and pulled me aboard.
33:13The collapsible B that had been stored on the roof of the officers' quarters was washed off deck
33:18and is now the last hope of the men who jump from the Titanic.
33:24Among the 30 men on collapsible B, we have Howard Bride, Jack Fair, Eugene Daly, and Charles Lightoller.
33:33Others came near, nobody gave them a hand.
33:37The bottom-up boat already had more men than it would hold and was sinking.
33:42We were very low in the water, standing, sitting, kneeling, lying in all conceivable positions.
33:50People came up beside us and begged us to get on this upturned boat.
33:59Saving ourselves, we were obliged to push them off.
34:05One man was alongside us and asked if he could get up on top of it.
34:10We told him that if he did, we would all go down.
34:14His reply was, God bless you. Goodbye.
34:20To look another human being in the eye and say to them, you're going to have to perish.
34:29Like, that is an impossible thing, not just to live through in the moment, but then to have to live with.
34:35There are 1,500 people in ice-cold water in the Atlantic.
34:42And there are some lifeboats that are full to capacity, and there's nothing they can do.
34:48But there are many others that are even less than half full.
34:53There are less than 700 people in the lifeboats.
34:56Because the 18 lifeboats are not at capacity, there's still space for over 400 people.
35:03It could save them from almost certain death.
35:09Within the lifeboats, there's an intense dilemma.
35:12Do they go back and save people, or do they stay at a safe distance so that they don't get overcrowded
35:18and everyone in that lifeboat end up in the water?
35:23These boats are fragile. They're in the middle of this vast sea.
35:27There's already been tragic and terrible, huge loss of life.
35:31This is their one and only chance to survive.
35:36Three times an officer ordered his men to turn about.
35:41But each time they were prevented from doing so by some of the passengers.
35:47They grasped the oars so that the seamen were forced to give up turning back to rescue any of the unfortunates.
35:54In the Duff Gordon boat, one of the crew members says it's up to us to go back and see if we can pick anyone up.
36:04The Duff Gordons object. They say they'll be swamped, and they persuade the crew not to go back.
36:13At the later inquiry, Cosmo Duff Gordon said, it's difficult to say what occurred to me.
36:19I was minding my wife, and we were in a rather abnormal condition, you know.
36:26I find it chilling that the Duff Gordons are just openly hostile to letting anyone in their lifeboat.
36:31All along, they have been given privileges that other people haven't been given.
36:37And to die slowly in ice-cold water within earshot of people who might save your life,
36:44I think there's a particular cruelty to that.
36:46Men and women were going to their death beneath the icy waters of the Atlantic, but I noticed in a hazy, detached sort of way.
37:01I've gone through too much in those aisles to think clearly.
37:07Lucy's talking about trauma here.
37:09She's talking about going through so much emotion that she's effectively shutting down.
37:13She's so traumatized, she's not able to get out of her own experience enough to engage with what those people in the water are going through at that time.
37:29The partially-filled lifeboats standing by, only a few hundred yards away, never came back.
37:36Why on earth, they did not come back, is a mystery.
37:43How could any human being fail to heed those cries?
37:51I think it is extremely unfortunate the lifeboats didn't go in and start to rescue people.
37:56They were willing to sit with people screaming and dying in the water, and I find that quite surprising.
38:02We're highly attuned to other people's emotional expressions.
38:06Out on the lifeboats, it's dark and they're quite far away.
38:10So not seeing those faces may be one way of distancing themselves from that suffering.
38:15I became so numb I could hardly swim.
38:24My head was so queer.
38:26But when I was almost at my last gasp, I shouted,
38:35Boats are high!
38:39Only off chance that one might be near.
38:44I had room for a dozen more people in my boat.
38:48But it was dark.
38:50We didn't pick up any swimmers.
38:59We all like to think that we'd be the noble one that does the right thing.
39:03But that's not how survival works.
39:06Ultimately, as human beings, we are animals who have survived.
39:11That's how we've evolved to be what we are.
39:12So survival instinct is absolutely within our DNA.
39:14And so you have no idea what you are capable of until you are pushed to an extreme.
39:20Disasters reveal an aspect of your personality that you might not know is there,
39:26and you might not like being there.
39:28To save your own life, to let hundreds of people die,
39:31I think that's something that would weigh heavily on you for the rest of your life.
39:34Perhaps a thousand.
39:39Perhaps more.
39:43I've gotten down with her.
39:44There's a cluster of lifeboats closer to where the Titanic went down,
40:01including lifeboats 14 and 4.
40:04And this is a kind of case of right place, right time for some people in the water.
40:09Fortunately, my shout was heard.
40:12Over here!
40:15I was hauled into lifeboat number 4.
40:18About seven people are rescued because of that boat, including Thomas Dillon.
40:25I think I'd been 20 minutes in the water.
40:30I was told afterwards I was unconscious for a long time.
40:35I was not properly right when I came to.
40:39Thomas Dillon survived because he's young and he's fit, but by the time he's picked up by the lifeboat, he's got early symptoms of hypothermia.
40:50I would rather die a hundred times than go through such an experience again.
40:58Mr. Lowe went in search of other lifeboats. He found four or five and took command of the little fleet.
41:10The whole of you are under my orders.
41:11Lifeboat 14 is very full, but Lowe realises that actually if this group works together, they have a chance of being able to launch a rescue mission.
41:20He ordered that the boat should be linked together with ropes to prevent any drifting away.
41:33They were able to redistribute those passengers and they actually free up an entire lifeboat, which allows them to go in and search for survivors.
41:51I went with just the boat's crew. No passengers. Of course, I had to wait for the yells and shrieks to subside. For the people to thin out.
42:09Officer Lowe is very aware of the potential risks. You can be capsized when trying to pull survivors into the vessel. The vessel can be swamped, but they choose to go back.
42:22They're not just survivors in this moment. They continue to be crewmen. Their sense of service, particularly those that had a military background, ultimately outweighs their sense of survival.
42:34Your training just kicks in and you have a responsibility to those around you, even before yourself.
42:41I searched the wreck thoroughly and found four persons. One was a Mr. Hoyt from New York.
42:52He was bleeding from the mouth. I listened to shirts as to give him every chance to breathe. But unfortunately, he died.
43:04I suppose he was too far gone when we picked him up.
43:15Most of those jumped in the seaside within a quarter of an hour. The awful moaning ceased after that.
43:23We saw nothing but ice and dead bodies.
43:25I remember the very last cry. It was a man's voice calling loudly.
43:40My God. My God.
43:43I think it would have been very haunting to slowly hear fewer and fewer voices. And that's one of the most traumatic memories that people had, is the sound of those screams.
44:00The air was leaking from under the boat, lowering us further and further into the icy water.
44:21Soaking wet, freezing. The pack of huddled men on Collapsible B have survived so many odds.
44:31But that's all for nothing if nobody comes to your rescue. And they don't know if that's coming.
44:35Some lost consciousness and slipped overboard.
44:46Every wave threatened to swamp us.
44:49The problem with trying to stay on an upside down boat, which you're now using as a raft, is that it's not stable.
44:54This is a balancing act, literally, to save your life.
45:00Every bit of strength and spirit from every one of those men on that boat raft was going to be about staying alive.
45:09Their class differences ceased to be important.
45:13We've got men from first class, men from third, crew members united by this will to survive.
45:19We prayed.
45:21And sang hymns.
45:25Harold Bride helped keep our hopes up.
45:28He said time and time again,
45:31The Carpathia is coming as fast as she can.
45:34The Carpathia is coming as fast as she can.
45:40Light Haller found his whistle.
45:42After desperate calling, we got the attention of the other lifeboats.
45:52Two of the boats realized the position we were in and drew toward us.
45:59They had a right side up boat.
46:03And it was full to its capacity.
46:08Yet they came to us and loaded us all into it.
46:10Officer Boxall took some green flares from the bridge and now he's lighting them, hoping that he will attract the attention of the approaching rescue vessel.
46:34Time will be standing still.
46:39All they can do is sit in the boats and wait.
46:44About this time, the edge of the sun came above the horizon.
46:48To feel that glowing warmth, which we'd never expected to see again, that's something never to be forgotten.
46:49To feel that glowing warmth, which we'd never expected to see again, that's something never to be forgotten.
46:53To feel that glowing warmth.
46:54To feel that glowing warmth, which we'd never expected to see again, that's something never to be forgotten.
46:58I have no idea of the passage of time during that awful night.
47:05We were all very tired.
47:06We were all very tired.
47:07When we saw a big light.
47:08We were all very tired.
47:09When we saw a big light.
47:10We were all very tired.
47:11It was almost almost almost all the time.
47:12To feel that glowing warmth, which we'd never expected to see again.
47:13That's something never to be forgotten.
47:14i have no idea of the passage of time during that awful night
47:27we were all very tired when we saw a big light
47:35suddenly a flicker of hope a ship getting closer every minute
47:49coming towards the site of the wreck and the lifeboats bobbing about in this freezing empty
47:59sea finally is the carpathia she's come as fast as she could through the ice flows through
48:07the night responding to jack phillips's distress calls
48:20nothing has ever looked so good to me as the lights from the carpathia
48:28even through my numbness i began to realize i was saved
48:35i would live
48:44she stopped maybe four miles away
48:49the task of rowing over to her was one of the hardest things we had to face
48:54at last the carpathia was alongside and people were being taken up by rope ladder
49:12one man was dead
49:16i passed him and went up the ladder
49:21the dead man was phillips
49:30he had died on the raft of exposure and cold i guess
49:37he stood his ground until the crisis had passed and he collapsed
49:45only i could have slipped more crowding on phillips
49:52we're just saved
49:59when i was wounded three people lost their lives
50:11so i know what it's like to trawl over in your head that what could i have done
50:15and ultimately
50:17life is unpredictable
50:20you know
50:22you live or you die
50:23and you cannot change that fate
50:26but learning to live with that
50:29it takes time
50:31no survivor
50:38knows better than either
50:42cruelty of disappointment
50:44i had a husband to search for
50:50a husband whom i believed would be found in one of the boats
50:59he was not there
51:08i let myself be saved
51:20because i believed he too would escape
51:25i sometimes envy those whom no human power could tear them from their husband's arms
51:42what do you remember of the carpathia
51:49uh
51:52consoling
51:55and being consoled
52:00my friends
52:06they were all among the missing when the role was called
52:08the loss
52:12affected me badly
52:15the big narrative is always going to be about heroism and loss and sacrifice
52:29but the titanic was a disaster
52:33these are real people's lives that are lost
52:39real people who suffer
52:41real people who suffer
52:44real people who suffer
52:52The engineers were the heroes, I think.
53:19They kept going until minutes before the Titanic went out of sight.
53:24Not a man of them was saved.
53:31In 1912, it was taken for granted that the price of a first-class ticket
53:36included a greater likelihood of surviving.
53:39It was seen as a reflection of the natural order.
53:44What the Titanic teaches us is what happens when people's lives are given unequal value.
53:53Every element, from your breakfast to how you're treated in an emergency,
53:58all of that is impacted by class and hierarchy and status.
54:03This happened in an age where the British stiff upper lip was stiffer than ever.
54:09But the reality is it doesn't matter how resilient you think you are.
54:13Sometimes we're just not capable of processing that level of horror.
54:17Personal trauma was not recognised.
54:20You just suffered and you carried on.
54:22Those people who survived, they were just now going to have to pick up their lives as best they could and manage.
54:29These are searing memories that never leave them.
54:33And the grief was huge.
54:35But I like to imagine that there were those who felt that this encounter with death
54:41made them live the rest of their days more fully and that they owed it to those who died to live.
55:11That would imagine what you nay to do with blinking on an echo,
55:13you might see.
55:16There was some memories in various patterns.
55:18There was lots of images along the way that they looked at the grabbed into my eyes.
55:21You are cosewarm with the States and its music and the chosen imagination.
55:24You are always hanging out with this.
55:27We make sure you don't Kirsty Online anyone.
55:32Learn your favourite and humour.
57:37I lost my pipes, which I prided myself so much on.
57:46I lost all my clothes, and 98 pounds which had taken me many years to save.
57:53Here I am stripped of all I had, but thankful to God that he left me my life.
Be the first to comment