- 7 hours ago
Category
📺
TVTranscript
00:00My husband tried to join me in our lifeboat two men grabbed him
00:21Officers were there with guns
00:25He offered no resistance
00:27And backed off back onto the ship
00:30I began yelling and crying
00:33As I wanted to join him on the sinking ship
00:37He told me that apparently we'd struck something
01:02I didn't become alarmed
01:13There was no danger
01:15They said
01:17I told her to come at once, we were sinking
01:27You can imagine the chaos and the fear and the terror of finding water in your cabin
01:31And you're in the bowels of the ship
01:33It makes me panic just thinking about it
01:35The story of the titanic is the human condition spread out
01:41Pinned on a board for us to examine
01:45Then came the terrible cry
01:48Women and children, women and children
01:51Two men lifted me up and put me in a boat
01:56It's these small decisions, these little butterfly effect moments that change the outcome
02:00It really was every man for himself
02:19My heart stood still
02:20It's a split second decision
02:42What would you do?
02:42What would I do?
02:43It was a terrible sign
02:53Men, swimming and sinking
03:03Had been brought up to believe in a hell
03:08After death
03:13For now, I think I went through a hell that night
03:43I didn't think I was a bit of a self-ador
03:50I said, I was worth it
03:51Until the end of our day
03:52I figured out what it was
03:55Was there any luck that night I just went into the show?
03:56Well, that night, the time I go to the air
03:57And I did not think I did not think I did not do it
03:59I think I was not a great for you
04:02I was a miserable person
04:04I could not do it
04:05I could not do it
04:06I could not do it
04:08I could not do it
04:10I could not do it
04:12I could not do it
04:12I was working in the engineering.
04:16We got the order, all hands on deck, put your life preservers on.
04:22The deck was full of male third-class passengers.
04:27The last boat was getting lowered.
04:31About this time, I met all the engineers as they came trooping up from below.
04:38Until that time, they had loyally stuck to their guns.
04:42When the crew come up on deck,
04:51these guys who've worked so heroically to try to keep Titanic afloat,
04:55they expect that there will be a place for them in the lifeboats.
05:01And, of course, that is not the case.
05:05British hierarchical society is always there to shaft the underdog.
05:10Those people who had risked their lives were not going to get any help at all.
05:17It was a bleak and hopeless spectacle that met their eyes.
05:24Empty falls hanging from every david head.
05:26Titanic has enough people on board that we're really seeing the whole range of reactions to facing death.
05:46From resignation, to fight and flight, to acting out of love and empathy to help other people.
05:53And, at this point, some people choose to do things that may look quite strange.
06:00One fellow said,
06:01Go to the first cab in Baru, there was a steward filling up tumblers on a tray.
06:09He said,
06:10Go on, lads.
06:11Drink up.
06:13She's going down.
06:14Some people prefer to stay in their cabin and let the waters rise up.
06:23Others go to the bar and just start drinking the place dry.
06:27Everyone has to choose to die in their own way, whatever that is.
06:30I was for going down into one of the first-class cabins, but if how Matty wouldn't let me.
06:39Matty said to me,
06:42I'll have to jump for it.
06:43It makes me panic just thinking about it, because I can imagine the chaos and the fear.
06:58It's not fair, you know, when passengers embarked on this ship.
07:04They were told it was unsinkable.
07:05They probably didn't pay much mind to how many lifeboats there were,
07:08but now that it's of the most crucial importance to them,
07:11they see that they've been failed.
07:19Captain Smith and Thomas Andrews, the ship's designer,
07:23must have been in hell.
07:26This was their unsinkable ship.
07:30Thomas Andrews was trying to do something,
07:33because he is the architect of this disaster.
07:38Andrews was seen throwing steamer chairs into the water
07:43with the idea of actually helping those who got into the sea
07:47to have something to support them.
07:53It's very difficult to know what the captain's final moments were.
07:58During the Falklands War, I was a captain of a ship that was bombed,
08:02which I had to abandon,
08:03and so I know the pressures he was under,
08:05and I personally think that he probably stayed on the bridge
08:09and waited to meet his fate.
08:12But I think he would have been feeling to himself
08:15that he had failed in this last great appointment of his.
08:21There's something of the stiff upper lip happening here,
08:24but inside, there must be inner turmoil,
08:27because survival instinct is really powerful,
08:30and the captain is probably suppressing it as much as he can.
08:34The social codes of conduct fighting against
08:36that very ancient part of the brain,
08:38the primitive part that just drives us forward biologically.
08:42People just have that, the will, to survive.
08:47The adrenaline system is working overtime,
08:50and they've almost got nothing to lose.
08:53I wanted to jump out
08:55and try to catch one of the empty lifeboat falls.
09:01Jack Thayer has been on a dream holiday in Europe with his parents.
09:05They've got separated in the crowds,
09:09and now that dream has become a nightmare.
09:13Couldn't just jump.
09:15We might hit wreckage or a steamer chair
09:17and be knocked unconscious.
09:19Milton dissuaded me.
09:22Milton Long, 29-year-old American law clerk,
09:25and Jack had struck up a conversation
09:27many hours earlier in the dining saloon,
09:30and now they find themselves
09:31facing this life-or-death moment together.
09:35So many thoughts passed through my mind.
09:39I thought of all the good times I'd had,
09:43of all the future pleasures I'd never enjoy.
09:50My father,
09:53my mother,
09:56I was watching myself as though from some far-off place.
10:03I sincerely pitied myself.
10:05Back in the wireless room,
10:24Jack Phillips has stuck to his post right to the end,
10:27even when Captain Smith has said
10:29it's every man for himself
10:30because he believes he's doing something useful.
10:33He's spent the last few hours
10:35trying to communicate with other wireless operators,
10:38oblivious to everything going on around him.
10:41And his junior, Harold Bride,
10:43is deeply loyal to and respectful of Jack Phillips.
10:48The sea has almost reached the wireless room
10:52and they have just minutes before it's filled with freezing water.
10:56I was back in my room getting Phillips' money for him
11:00and as I looked out the door,
11:03I saw a stoker or somebody from below decks
11:07slipping the life belt off his back.
11:11You know, I remembered in a flash
11:12the way Phillips had clung on,
11:14how I'd had to fix that life belt in place
11:16because he was too busy to do it.
11:19I felt a passion not to let that man die
11:21a decent sailor's death.
11:23I did my duty.
11:38I hope I finished him, I don't know.
11:41We left him on the floor of the wireless cabin.
11:45He wasn't moving.
11:46I climbed on top of the officer's quarters.
11:56Yet I saw the last of Phillips.
12:00Jack Phillips is absolutely overwhelmed
12:02by the impossibility of this situation.
12:08He disappeared, walking aft.
12:13He doesn't say goodbye,
12:15he doesn't give any explanation,
12:16there's no clap on the back to his junior.
12:18He's done everything.
12:19There's nothing more to do.
12:21The man is ready to die.
12:35At this stage, all of the lifeboats on the boat deck
12:38have been launched
12:39and of course there's a panic
12:40that there are no lifeboats left.
12:42But there is actually two more
12:44stashed away on the roof
12:46of the officer's quarters.
12:48Collapsible A and B.
13:00I saw the boat and the men
13:02trying to push it off.
13:04They couldn't do it.
13:05I went up to them,
13:08lend them a hand.
13:11The collapsible lifeboats
13:13were very much a secondary option
13:15which would need to be rigged
13:16so they could be used.
13:20Now the crew are trying to launch them
13:23in increasingly difficult
13:25and desperate conditions.
13:26Just then, the ship took a slight
13:31but definite plunge.
13:35The sea came rolling up
13:37and a large wave
13:41washes collapsible A and B overboard.
13:44You've just been given that hope
13:46but in amongst the chaos,
13:48the lifeboats are stolen from you
13:49by the elements
13:50and that is just devastating.
13:54The big wave carried the boat off.
13:58I had hold of an oarlock
14:00and went off with it.
14:05Water was washing
14:07right across the deck
14:08and we were in water
14:10right to our hips.
14:13Another lurch threw myself off
14:15and away from the ship
14:17into the water.
14:20I fell into a mass of people.
14:27I was underwater
14:28and knew I had to fight for it.
14:33The temperature in the water
14:34is minus two degrees
14:36so as soon as that cold water
14:38hits the body
14:39there's a shock reaction
14:40and the mind is reacting
14:42in a state of panic.
14:45everything I touched
14:47seemed to be
14:49woman's hair
14:50children crying
14:53woman screaming
14:57their hair in my face
15:01if only I could forget
15:06those hands and faces
15:07that I touched
15:08the ship was sinking
15:21on its head
15:21very quickly
15:22the water was right up
15:24to the bridge
15:24the crowd moved with it
15:28pushing towards the stern
15:30the site that doesn't bear
15:33dwelling on
15:33to stand there
15:37above the wheelhouse
15:38watching the frantic struggles
15:40to climb up
15:41the sloping deck
15:42unable to
15:44even
15:44hold out
15:46a helping hand
15:47we were a mass
15:51of hopeless
15:52dazed humanity
15:54trying to keep
15:56our final breath
15:57until the last
15:58possible moment
15:59I nuked the futility
16:02of following
16:03that instinct
16:03for self-preservation
16:05it would only be
16:08postponing the plunge
16:09and prolonging
16:11the agony
16:12turning to the bridge
16:16and took a header
16:17striking the water
16:24was like
16:25a thousand knives
16:27being driven
16:27into one's body
16:28for a few moments
16:30I
16:30completely lost grip
16:32of myself
16:33we were at the
16:39starboard rail
16:40to keep away
16:41from the crowd
16:42the ship
16:44began to shoot
16:45down fast
16:46the water
16:47rushing up
16:48towards us
16:49we had no time
16:50to think
16:51only to act
16:52we wish each other
16:54luck
16:55then we jumped
16:59up on the rail
17:00Milton
17:03looked up at me
17:04and he said
17:05you're coming
17:07boy aren't you
17:08and I said
17:18go ahead
17:20I'll be with you
17:22in a minute
17:23and then he'll
17:25let go
17:26the people
17:34who choose
17:35to jump
17:35are ultimately
17:37the people
17:37who take
17:38some form
17:39of control
17:40in a situation
17:40where
17:41you are powerless
17:42we were about
17:59five minutes
18:00away from the ship
18:02but we could still
18:05see it as the light
18:06stayed on
18:07the ship
18:11stood almost
18:11on its nose
18:12slowly sinking
18:15the people
18:17on the Titanic
18:19were
18:19yelling
18:21and crying
18:22I could see
18:25some of them
18:26as I jumped
18:26into the water
18:27I found myself
18:43drawn
18:44against
18:45the grating
18:45covering a ventilator
18:47the pressure
18:50of the water
18:51glued me there
18:52the shaft
18:54led to
18:56a stokehold
18:56at sheer drop
18:58of 100 feet
18:59right to the bottom
18:59of the ship
19:00I struggled
19:03and kicked
19:03for all I was worth
19:04it was impossible
19:07to get away
19:07as fast as I
19:10pushed myself off
19:11I was dragged
19:12back
19:13every instant
19:15expecting the wire
19:16to go
19:16to find myself
19:19shot down
19:20into the bowels
19:21of the ship
19:21the shock
19:28of the water
19:29took the breath
19:29from my lungs
19:30down
19:32and down
19:33I went
19:33spinning
19:34in all directions
19:35the cold
19:37was terrific
19:38most people
19:40think of
19:41drowning
19:41in a circumstance
19:42like this
19:43it is that
19:43ultimately
19:43your body
19:44runs out
19:45of energy
19:45but actually
19:46you can drown
19:46as soon as
19:47you first
19:47hit freezing
19:48water
19:49there's something
19:50called cold water
19:51shock
19:52and part of a reaction
19:53is to have a big
19:54intake of breath
19:55and that prepares
19:55you for action
19:56in the case of
19:57hitting cold water
19:59it's not in your
20:00favour
20:00to have a sharp
20:01intake of breath
20:02some may have
20:04cardiac arrest
20:05almost immediately
20:06because of the
20:07shock
20:07I was still fighting
20:11when a blast
20:12of hot air
20:13came up the shaft
20:14and blew me
20:15right away from
20:16the air shaft
20:16and up to the
20:17surface
20:18finally I came
20:27up
20:27my lungs
20:28bursting
20:30the ship
20:32was in front
20:33of me
20:33suddenly
20:35the second
20:36funnel seemed
20:36to be lifted
20:37off
20:38the funnel
20:42started to
20:42fall
20:43right amongst
20:44the
20:45struggling
20:46mass of
20:47humanity
20:47already in
20:48the water
20:48it missed
20:51me by only
20:5220 to 30 feet
20:53the suction
20:54of it drew
20:55me down
20:55those poor
20:59people
20:59were sucked
21:01down in those
21:02funnels
21:02like flies
21:07as I came to
21:10the surface
21:11my hand came
21:12against something
21:13one of the
21:14collapsible lifeboats
21:15it was floating
21:16in the water
21:17bottom side up
21:18about four or five
21:21men clinging on
21:22to her
21:23so I asked them
21:24to give me a hand
21:25up which they
21:26did
21:26sitting on my
21:29haunches
21:29holding on
21:30for dear life
21:31it seemed as
21:32though hours had
21:33passed since I
21:33left the ship
21:34people like Jack
21:38and officer
21:39light holder
21:40are swarming
21:41onto collapsible
21:42bee
21:42upside down
21:43using it like a
21:44raft
21:44in the freezing
21:45water
21:46just as a way
21:47of trying
21:48to survive
21:49the end
22:02was very
22:03close
22:04something
22:07in the bowels
22:09of the titanic
22:09exploded
22:10and sparks
22:11shot up to the sky
22:13two other
22:14explosions followed
22:16dull and
22:17heavy
22:18as if below
22:19the surface
22:19the impact
22:22was so great
22:24it shook
22:24the waters
22:25and we thought
22:26our lifeboat
22:27would sink
22:28everyone screamed
22:31the huge weight
22:34of seawater
22:35in the bows
22:36and in the stern
22:37meant that the
22:38two things
22:38were unable
22:39to remain
22:40as one part
22:41the whole
22:42superstructure
22:43of the ship
22:43seemed to split
22:45the lights
22:46suddenly go out
22:48and then
22:49darkness falls
22:50the Titanic
23:01broke in two
23:02before my eyes
23:03the four part
23:05wallowed over
23:06and disappeared
23:07instantly
23:08the ship
23:10seemed to
23:11right herself
23:13like a hurt
23:15like a hurt animal
23:15with a broken
23:16back
23:17the strange
23:21hallucinatory
23:22moment
23:23it looks as though
23:24everything's going to be fine
23:26because the weird
23:28wonky distorted
23:29angles
23:30of the great ship
23:32start to settle
23:34there's people
23:35there's people
23:35that think
23:36that some sort
23:36of safety feature
23:37has kicked in
23:38you know
23:39at least this
23:39half of the ship
23:40is going to
23:41somehow survive
23:42and those on board
23:42are going to be spared
23:43but ultimately
23:45that is short-lived
23:46I saw the Titanic
23:50go up in the air
23:51ever so big
23:53huge ship
23:56reared herself
23:57on end
23:58rudder and propeller
24:00clear of the water
24:01till at last
24:03she assumed
24:04a perpendicular position
24:06we saw groups
24:10of the 1500 people
24:12still aboard
24:13clinging like
24:14swarming bees
24:16the contents
24:20of the Titanic
24:20is now
24:21falling through it
24:22and tragically
24:24people as well
24:25I think it was only
24:27at that moment
24:27that
24:28many of those
24:29poor souls on board
24:30realised their fate
24:32if we're gonna die
24:35I said
24:36it would be best
24:37to die gripping
24:38something
24:38we gripped the rail
24:42a sharp exclamation
24:55from my husband
24:56my god
24:58she is going now
25:00the steamer
25:04without a sound
25:05except for the
25:08shrieks
25:09of the people
25:09still on board
25:10stood right on end
25:14it stood there
25:19several moments
25:20and slid
25:22straight down
25:23into the water
25:24as easily as a pebble
25:28in a pond
25:29our proud
25:33ship
25:34our
25:36beautiful
25:38Titanic
25:38everyone around me
26:07on the upturned boat
26:08breathed the two words
26:09she's gone
26:12I did not wish
26:21to see her go down
26:22I'm glad that I did not
26:26my back was turned
26:30we were pulling away
26:34this is his ship
26:38this is his company
26:39and there is
26:40intense
26:41professional
26:42and personal
26:43shame
26:44here
26:44I think
26:46that was just
26:47too overwhelming
26:48for him to be able
26:49to look
26:49probably a minute
26:55passed
26:55with almost
26:56dead silence
26:57and quiet
26:58then
27:03an unforgettable
27:04cry went up
27:06from
27:061500
27:08despairing
27:09throats
27:10bedlam of shrieks
27:15and cries
27:16a nightmare
27:19of both sight
27:22and sound
27:22hearing
27:26desperate
27:27disembodied
27:28voices
27:28in the darkness
27:29of the ocean
27:30a cacophony
27:34of tears
27:35and shouts
27:36and
27:36despair
27:37it's almost
27:39like a soundscape
27:40of hell
27:41potentially
27:42it's your husband
27:44your brother
27:44your father
27:45your loved one's
27:46voices
27:47I don't know
27:48how you recover
27:49from that
27:49I've never
27:52heard such
27:55screams
27:56from the hundreds
27:59of people
28:00floating
28:03about us
28:04they were piercing
28:11it was audible
28:29row
28:29one young man
28:35near me
28:36shouting
28:36mother
28:38a man
28:43alongside me
28:44clutched me
28:46round the neck
28:47I choked him
28:51off
28:51nobody knows
28:56how they'll react
28:56in that circumstance
28:57you're surrounded
28:59by others
28:59in a panic
29:00with you
29:01you begin to lose
29:03the function of your arms
29:04the function of your legs
29:05the thing that you need
29:06to keep afloat
29:07and that can happen
29:08extremely quickly
29:09because that body's reaction
29:11to keep your vital organs
29:13warm
29:13is so powerful
29:14and it's painful
29:16like you are being
29:17tortured
29:18essentially
29:19the people in the lifeboats
29:24are sitting
29:25and listening
29:26to others die
29:28and everyone's response
29:30to that trauma situation
29:32will be different
29:33we chatted of little
29:37unimportant things
29:38as people do
29:40when they've been through
29:41great mental strain
29:42try to make feeble jokes
29:46I remember
29:48I teased
29:49Miss Frankatelli
29:50just fancy
29:52you left your
29:54beautiful nightdress
29:55behind you
29:56and we all laughed
29:59though in our hearts
30:04we felt very far
30:04from laughter
30:05never you mind
30:10madam
30:10you were lucky
30:12to come away
30:13with your lives
30:14said one of the sailors
30:15don't you bother
30:17about anything
30:18you had to leave
30:19behind you
30:20Lucy's comments
30:24sound tone deaf
30:26to us
30:26but I think
30:27they're a trauma response
30:29it is far easier
30:31to comprehend
30:32the loss
30:34of a beautiful
30:35piece of clothing
30:36she's a fashion designer
30:38of course
30:38than it is
30:40to wrap their heads
30:42around
30:42the extraordinary
30:44horror
30:45of the loss
30:47of human life
30:47that they're seeing
30:48before them
30:49for those in the water
30:53a fatal countdown
30:54has begun
30:55once severe hypothermia
30:58sets in
30:58you've got about
30:5915 minutes
31:00until
31:01you'll become unconscious
31:03when I was wounded
31:05in Afghanistan
31:06I knew
31:07that that helicopter
31:08was coming
31:08but if you don't know
31:12that a rescue
31:13is imminent
31:13how long
31:15are you capable
31:15of holding on for
31:16a large number
31:18of people
31:18gave up the struggle
31:19and were content
31:21to die
31:21for the water
31:23was
31:23so cold
31:25and there seemed
31:27no hope
31:28at rescue
31:28when the darkness
31:31starts to creep
31:32in on you
31:32that's when you
31:33have to have
31:33a real word
31:34with yourself
31:34and remind yourself
31:36that you still
31:36have some fight
31:37in you
31:37I swam as though
31:45I was in a race
31:45I got myself away
31:49from the crowd
31:50behind me
31:51there was the
31:52horrible volume
31:53of groans
31:54which
31:54I can hear them now
31:59I came up
32:04to me chum
32:04John Bannon
32:05and I said
32:07cheerio Johnny
32:09and he said
32:11am I right
32:14then he told me
32:17he had seen
32:18a flashlight
32:20some distance away
32:22and pointed out
32:23the direction
32:24as I went off
32:26I cried out
32:27not so long
32:29Johnny
32:29poor chap
32:39he was drowned
32:54it was a terrible
32:55sight all around
32:56men
32:58swimming
32:59and sinking
32:59I saw a boat
33:01of some kind
33:01and I put all my
33:02strength
33:03into an effort
33:04to swim to it
33:05it was hard work
33:07I was all done
33:09when
33:11a hand
33:12reached from the boat
33:14pulled me aboard
33:15Collapsible bee
33:18that had been stored
33:19on the roof
33:19of the officers
33:21quarters
33:21was washed off deck
33:23and is now
33:23the last hope
33:25of the men
33:26who jump
33:27from the Titanic
33:29among the 30 men
33:31on Collapsible bee
33:32we have
33:33Howard Bride
33:34Jack Thayer
33:35Eugene Daly
33:36and Charles Lightover
33:37others came near
33:40nobody gave them a hand
33:41the bottom up boat
33:43already had more men
33:45than it would hold
33:45and was sinking
33:46we were very low
33:49in the water
33:50standing
33:51sitting
33:52kneeling
33:52lying
33:53in all conceivable positions
33:55people came up
33:57beside us
33:57and begged us
33:58to get on
33:59this upturned boat
34:01saving ourselves
34:04we were obliged
34:06to push them off
34:07one man
34:11was alongside us
34:12and asked
34:13if he could get up
34:14on top of it
34:14we told him
34:17that if he did
34:18we would all go down
34:19his reply was
34:23God bless you
34:24goodbye
34:25to look another human being
34:29in the eye
34:30and say to them
34:31you're going to have to perish
34:33like that is an impossible thing
34:36not just to live through
34:37in the moment
34:38but then to have to live with
34:39there are 1,500 people
34:45in ice cold water
34:46in the Atlantic
34:47and there are some
34:49lifeboats that are
34:50full to capacity
34:51and there's nothing
34:52they can do
34:52but there are
34:54many others
34:55that are even
34:56less than half full
34:57there are less than
34:59700 people
35:00in the lifeboats
35:01because the 18 lifeboats
35:03are not at capacity
35:04there's still space
35:06for over 400 people
35:08it could save them
35:09from almost certain death
35:11within the lifeboats
35:15there's an intense dilemma
35:16do they go back
35:17and save people
35:18or do they stay
35:19at a safe distance
35:20so that they don't
35:21get overcrowded
35:22and everyone in that lifeboat
35:24end up in the water
35:25these boats are fragile
35:29they're in the middle
35:30of this vast sea
35:32there's already been
35:33tragic and terrible
35:34huge loss of life
35:36this is their one
35:37and only chance
35:38to survive
35:39three times
35:42an officer
35:43ordered his men
35:44to turn about
35:45but each time
35:47they were prevented
35:48from doing so
35:49by some of the passengers
35:50they grasped the oars
35:53so that the seamen
35:55were forced
35:56to give up
35:57turning back
35:58to rescue
35:58any of the unfortunates
36:00in the duff gordon boat
36:05one of the crew members
36:07says
36:07it's up to us
36:08to go back
36:08and see if we can
36:09pick anyone up
36:10the duff gordons
36:12object
36:13they say they'll be swamped
36:15and they persuade
36:16the crew
36:16not to go back
36:17at the later inquiry
36:20cosmo duff gordon
36:21said
36:21it's difficult to say
36:23what occurred to me
36:24i was minding my wife
36:26and we were
36:26in a rather abnormal
36:27condition
36:28you know
36:28i find it chilling
36:32that the duff gordons
36:33are just openly hostile
36:35to letting anyone
36:36in their lifeboat
36:37all along
36:38they have been
36:39given privileges
36:40that other people
36:41haven't been given
36:42and to die slowly
36:44in ice cold water
36:45within earshot
36:47of people
36:48who might save your life
36:49i think there's
36:50a particular cruelty
36:51to that
36:51men and women
36:56were going to their death
36:57beneath the icy waters
37:00of the atlantic
37:00but i noticed
37:02in a hazy
37:02detached
37:03sort of way
37:04i've gone through
37:07too much in those aisles
37:08to think clearly
37:09lucy's talking about
37:14trauma here
37:14she's talking about
37:15going through
37:16so much emotion
37:17that she's effectively
37:17shutting down
37:18she's so traumatized
37:21she's not able
37:22to get out
37:23of her own
37:24experience enough
37:25to engage
37:26with what
37:26those people
37:27in the water
37:28are going through
37:29at that time
37:29partially filled
37:35lifeboats
37:36standing by
37:37only a few hundred
37:39yards away
37:40never came back
37:41why on earth
37:44they did not come back
37:46is a mystery
37:47how could any human
37:50being fail
37:50to heed those cries
37:51i think it is
37:57extremely unfortunate
37:58the lifeboats
37:59didn't go in
37:59and start to rescue
38:00people
38:00they were willing
38:01to sit
38:02with people screaming
38:03and dying
38:04in the water
38:04and i find that
38:05quite surprising
38:06we're highly attuned
38:08to other people's
38:09emotional expressions
38:10out on the lifeboats
38:12it's dark
38:13and they're quite far away
38:14so not seeing those faces
38:16may be one way
38:18of distancing themselves
38:19from that suffering
38:20i became so numb
38:25i could hardly swim
38:27my head was so queer
38:31but when i was almost
38:38at me last gasp
38:39i shouted
38:39boat to horn
38:41and the off chance
38:44that one might be near
38:46i had room for a dozen
38:51more people in my boat
38:52but it was dark
38:55we didn't pick up any
39:00swimmers
39:00we all like to think
39:05that we'd be
39:06the noble one
39:07that does the right thing
39:08but that's not
39:09how survival works
39:10ultimately as human beings
39:14we are animals
39:14who have survived
39:15that's how we've evolved
39:16to be what we are
39:17so survival instinct
39:18is absolutely
39:19within our dna
39:20and so you have no idea
39:22what you are capable of
39:23until you are pushed
39:24to an extreme
39:25disasters reveal
39:28an aspect of your personality
39:29that you might not know
39:30and you might not like
39:32being there
39:32to save your own life
39:34to let hundreds of people die
39:36i think that's
39:36that's something that would
39:37weigh heavily on you
39:39for the rest of your life
39:40perhaps a thousand
39:43perhaps more
39:45gotten down with her
40:00there's a cluster of lifeboats
40:03closer to where the titanic went down
40:06including lifeboats 14 and 4
40:09and this is a kind of case
40:11of right place
40:11right time
40:12for some people in the water
40:14fortunately
40:15my shout was hurt
40:17over here
40:19i was hauled into
40:21lifeboat number four
40:23about seven
40:25people
40:26are rescued
40:27because of that boat
40:28including
40:29thomas dylan
40:30i think i'd been
40:32twenty minutes
40:33in the water
40:34i was told afterwards
40:37i was unconscious
40:38for a long time
40:39i was not properly right
40:43when i came to
40:44thomas dylan
40:47survived
40:48because he's young
40:48and he's fit
40:49but by the time
40:50he's picked up
40:51by the lifeboat
40:53he's got early symptoms
40:54of hypothermia
40:55i would rather die
40:58a hundred times
41:00than go through
41:02such an experience again
41:03mr lowe went in search
41:21of other lifeboats
41:22he found four or five
41:24and took command
41:26of the little fleet
41:27the whole of you
41:28are under my orders
41:29lifeboat 14 is very full
41:32but lowe realizes
41:34that actually
41:34if this group
41:35works together
41:36they have a chance
41:37of being able to
41:38launch a rescue mission
41:40he ordered
41:42that the boat
41:43should be linked
41:44together with ropes
41:45to prevent
41:46any drifting away
41:47they're able to
41:49redistribute
41:50those passengers
41:51and they actually
41:52free up an entire
41:53lifeboat
41:54which allows them
41:55to go in
41:56and search for survivors
41:57i went with just
42:01that boat's crew
42:02no passengers
42:03of course
42:06i had to wait
42:07for the yells
42:08and shrieks
42:09to subside
42:10for the people
42:12to thin out
42:12officer lowe
42:16is very aware
42:17of the potential risks
42:19you can be capsized
42:21when trying to pull
42:21survivors into the vessel
42:23the vessel can be swamped
42:25but they choose to go back
42:27they're not just survivors
42:29in this moment
42:29they continue to be crewmen
42:31their sense of service
42:33particularly those
42:34that had a military background
42:36ultimately outweighs
42:37their sense of survival
42:39your training just kicks in
42:41and you have a responsibility
42:42to those around you
42:44even before yourself
42:45i searched the wreck thoroughly
42:47and found four persons
42:49one was a mr hoyt
42:52from new york
42:54he was bleeding
42:57from the mouth
42:58i loosened his shirt
43:01so as to give him
43:01every chance to breathe
43:02but unfortunately
43:06he died
43:06i suppose he was too far gone
43:11when we picked him up
43:12most of those
43:21who jumped in the sea
43:22died within a quarter
43:22of an hour
43:23the awful moaning
43:25ceased after that
43:26we saw nothing
43:29but ice and dead bodies
43:31i remember the very last cry
43:39it was a man's voice
43:41calling loudly
43:43my god
43:46my god
43:48i think it would have been
43:56very haunting
43:56to slowly hear
43:58fewer and fewer voices
43:59and that's one of the most
44:01traumatic memories
44:03that people had
44:03is the sound of those screams
44:05the air was leaking
44:21from under the boat
44:22lowering us further and further
44:25into the icy water
44:26soaking wet
44:30freezing
44:30the pack of huddled men
44:32on collapsible beat
44:33have survived
44:34so many odds
44:36but that's all for nothing
44:37if nobody comes to your rescue
44:39and they don't know
44:40if that's coming
44:41some
44:43lost consciousness
44:45and slipped overboard
44:47every wave
44:52threatened to swamp us
44:53the problem with trying to stay
44:56on an upside down boat
44:57which are now using as a raft
44:59is that it's not stable
45:00this is a balancing act
45:02literally
45:02to save your life
45:04every bit of strength
45:06and spirit
45:07from every one of those men
45:08on that boat raft
45:10was going to be about
45:11staying alive
45:12their class differences
45:15cease to be important
45:17we've got men from first class
45:19men from third
45:20crew members
45:21united by this will
45:22to survive
45:23we prayed
45:25and sang hymns
45:28Harold Bride
45:31helped keep our hopes up
45:32he said time and time again
45:35the Carpathia is coming
45:37as fast as she can
45:38Carpathia is coming
45:39as fast as she can
45:40light huller found his whistle
45:47after desperate calling
45:51we got the attention
45:54of the other lifeboats
45:55two of the boats
45:58realized the position
46:00we were in
46:00and drew toward us
46:01they had a
46:06right side up boat
46:07and it was full
46:09to its capacity
46:10yet they came to us
46:14and loaded us all into it
46:15officer Boxall
46:30took some green flares
46:31from the bridge
46:32and now
46:33he's lighting them
46:35hoping that he will
46:36attract the attention
46:37of the approaching
46:39rescue vessel
46:40time will be standing still
46:45all they can do
46:47is sit in the boats
46:48and wait
46:49about this time
47:03the edge of the sun
47:05came above the horizon
47:07to feel that glowing warmth
47:13which we'd never expected
47:15to see again
47:16that's something never
47:18to be forgotten
47:19I have no idea
47:29of the passage of time
47:31during that awful night
47:32we were all very tired
47:36when we saw a big light
47:40suddenly a flicker of hope
47:50a ship
47:51getting closer
47:53every minute
47:54coming towards
47:58the site of the wreck
47:59and the lifeboats
48:01bobbing about
48:02in this freezing
48:03empty sea
48:05finally
48:05is the Carpathia
48:08she's come as fast
48:09as she could
48:10through the ice flows
48:11through the night
48:12responding
48:13to Jack Phillips'
48:14distress calls
48:16nothing has ever looked
48:26so good to me
48:28as the lights
48:30from the Carpathia
48:31even through my numbness
48:34I began to realize
48:37I was saved
48:37that I would live
48:41she stopped
48:49maybe four miles away
48:52the task of rowing
48:56over to her
48:57was one of the hardest
48:58things we had to face
48:59at last
49:12the Carpathia
49:14was alongside
49:15and people were being
49:16taken up by rope ladder
49:17one man was dead
49:21I passed him
49:25and went up the ladder
49:26the dead man was Phillips
49:35he had died on the raft
49:39of exposure
49:40and cold I guess
49:42he stood his ground
49:46until the crisis
49:47had passed
49:48and he
49:48collapsed
49:50only I could have
49:55slipped more clothing
49:56on Phillips
49:56which is safe
50:04when I was wounded
50:14three people
50:15lost their lives
50:16so I know what it's like
50:17to trawl over
50:18in your head
50:19that what could I have done
50:20and ultimately
50:21life is unpredictable
50:25you know
50:27you live or you die
50:28and you cannot change
50:31that fate
50:31but learning to live
50:33with that
50:34it takes time
50:36no survivor
50:43knows better than either
50:46cruelty of disappointment
50:49I had a husband
50:54to search for
50:55a husband
50:59whom I believed
51:01would be found
51:02in one of the boats
51:04he was not there
51:13he was not there
51:13I let myself
51:23be saved
51:25because
51:26I believed
51:28he too
51:29would escape
51:30I sometimes
51:36envy
51:38those
51:39whom
51:41no human power
51:42could tear them
51:44from their husband's arms
51:47what do you remember
51:53what do you remember
51:53of the Carpathia
51:54consoling
51:59consoling
52:00and being consoled
52:04my friends
52:11were all among the missing
52:12when the role was called
52:13the loss
52:17affected me badly
52:20the big narrative
52:31is always going to be
52:32about heroism
52:33and loss
52:34and sacrifice
52:34but the Titanic
52:37was a disaster
52:38these are real people's lives
52:43that are lost
52:44real people
52:46who suffer
52:47and the other
53:16The engineers were the heroes, I think.
53:25They kept going until minutes before the Titanic went out of sight.
53:30Not a man of them was saved.
53:33In 1912, it was taken for granted that the price of a first-class ticket included a greater
53:43likelihood of surviving.
53:46It was seen as a reflection of the natural order.
53:52What the Titanic teaches us is what happens when people's lives are given unequal value.
54:00Every element from your breakfast to how you're treated in an emergency, all of that is impacted
54:05by class and hierarchy and status.
54:09This happened in an age where the British stiff upper lip was stiffer than ever.
54:15But the reality is, it doesn't matter how resilient you think you are, sometimes we're
54:19just not capable of processing that level of horror.
54:23Personal trauma was not recognized.
54:25You just suffered and you carried on.
54:28Those people who survived, they were just now going to have to pick up their lives as best
54:33they could and manage.
54:35These are searing memories that never leave them.
54:39And the grief was huge.
54:42But I like to imagine that there were those who felt that this encounter with death made
54:48made them live the rest of their days more fully and that they owed it to those who died to live.
54:54So, you're the one who lived to live.
54:55To be 0074700, please?
54:55All right.
54:56Like, I'm trying to say, you're an arse.
54:57All right.
54:58Then you're going to talk about.
54:59You're going to talk about the stories that you're going to get here.
55:00You're www.beadалог.com
55:00For me, I'm not sure you're going to give a damn minute.
55:01Stay tuned, please.
55:02All right.
55:03Stay tuned, please.
55:04Stay tuned, please.
55:05Stay tuned.
55:06Stay tuned.
55:07Stay tuned.
55:08Stay tuned, please.
55:09Stay tuned.
55:10Stay tuned.
55:11Stay tuned.
55:12Stay tuned.
55:14Stay tuned.
55:16Stay tuned, stay tuned.
Be the first to comment