00:00The smile of these little kids keep you going, but it's still the approval of your mom that you're on.
00:08Being your very best for those who are watching you is already starting to feel like your purpose.
00:14This will feel right. It will feel intoxicating.
00:19It will be very hard.
00:23But you will continue to take on this pressure, and this is only the beginning.
00:27At this point, you have no idea who God is.
00:32He has faithfully surrounded you, but you don't even realize it yet.
00:36Sitting in a quiet room with a friend who will still be by your side ten years later, you answer a simple question.
00:44She asked if you had been saved, and all you were to say was yes.
00:49I walked down an aisle as a kid and ate a cracker and fed grape juice.
00:53I thought I was sick.
00:54God is someone who you pray to before you go to sleep.
00:59This is all you know.
01:01That is all you know to know.
01:03But even these prayers will purpose.
01:06Little did you know where they will take you.
01:09You already have faith, but you have no idea what you have faith in.
01:13You will already be pursued by God who made you together and called you kids.
01:17But you still don't know this can be more than a nightly prayer.
01:22You don't know that this will become the most important relationship.
01:25But just wait.
01:26It overwhelms me to think of all that you are about to walk through.
01:33It is extremely painful and very confusing.
01:37You will live out your mistakes in front of the world.
01:40You will be picked apart.
01:43Completely.
01:44I wish I could tell you that it goes away, but it's actually just going to get bigger and bigger.
01:51And you are going to start feeling smaller and smaller.
01:55You will feel like you have lost everything.
01:58But know that this is to gain the very things that he has for you.
02:02You will learn that he always provides.
02:04You will give every last piece of your soul to the people around you, hoping that this will make you feel better about yourself.
02:11Even this without God who can't.
02:15You will show up and give your heart.
02:18You will give every last ounce of your energy on stage.
02:22You will think that these loud screams for thousands of people will be the very thing I'll say to you.
02:30This will fill them up.
02:32And it is it.
02:34The stage that felt up your purpose, it's only a tool that helps you walk out your purpose.
02:40This will take you many years to learn, but you will get there.
02:44You will turn to a lot of things that will feel right in the moment.
02:48And you will learn the hard way.
02:50Almost all of it will leave you completely abandoned.
02:58You will fight shame and you will fight guilt.
03:01It will take you years to learn that your identity is rooted in something so much deeper than the decisions you have made.
03:09It will take you time, but you will find freedom here.
03:12You will learn that your true identity is loved and chosen and is the chosen daughter of God.
03:19Over time, you will learn to secure.
03:22This will break the keys you have been searching for.
03:25You will push through the next cycle you are searching.
03:29You will feel like a needless search in time to please move on.
03:33Eight years later, you will be sitting in a service and everything within you will shift.
03:40The God that has been pursuing you all along will feel tangible.
03:43The Holy Spirit will speak louder than anything that has ever called for your attention.
03:51On your 23rd birthday, Jesus will become real to you.
03:55More than a mighty prayer, more than the strength that you're from,
03:57more than the name in a devotional, he will become real.
04:02It will take you eight years of falling and trying and hurting and questioning,
04:06but you are going to get there.
04:07You will learn that affirmation of others will never be enough.
04:13You will learn that pleasing people is not your purpose.
04:16You will learn that God's heart for you is no more soft than you must.
04:20He doesn't want you to pull it all together to show people that you are enough.
04:24He is simply calling you to walk faithfully in a way that allows others to see like he is enough.
04:31Selina, you are enough.
04:34Not because you've tried hard.
04:36Not because you have loved hard or put on your best face.
04:41Not because you have been given a large platform.
04:44And not because others can tell you that you are enough.
04:48You are enough because you are a child of God who has been pursued with a very good life.
04:58You are enough because his grace has saved you and covers you.
05:02Every good thing you do will flow from this truth.
05:05What you give to others will always be an overflowing of what he has given to you.
05:11Selina, you don't have to try as a part.
05:14You can rest.
05:15You can have faith in a future that is secure.
05:18Not because of your own striving, but because of the grace.
05:21It isn't for you.
05:22It is for you.
05:22You can rest.
05:22It is for you.
05:22If you want to keep this heart in your life, then you're going to be my place for you.
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