- 13 hours ago
New friends Erin and Alex discover a mutual attraction that neither of them have ever felt before. While Alex tries to navigate her feelings, Erin refuses to acknowledge that HD ( Drama, Romance )
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00:00:00You made it.
00:00:04I did.
00:00:06Hey.
00:00:07Hey.
00:00:09Good to see ya.
00:00:10Me too.
00:00:13Erin, Alex, Alex, this is Erin.
00:00:17Hey.
00:00:18Hi.
00:00:21Looking good out there, girl.
00:00:23Yeah, I know.
00:00:25I'm gonna, I'm gonna grab a beer.
00:00:27Did you want anything? Can I?
00:00:29I don't drink.
00:00:31How about a Coke?
00:00:32They're free for me.
00:00:33Save your five dollars.
00:00:36You got it.
00:00:37I'll take a, uh, big, big, okay.
00:00:43Hello?
00:00:44Did you hear me?
00:00:46I got my final mark on that major paper I wrote on Paradise Regain,
00:00:50which I have now read for the third time, by the way.
00:00:54The fucking instructor says that my interpretation of Milton doesn't fully explain his continuing role in Western literature.
00:01:04Dick.
00:01:06What was your grade?
00:01:07A fucking minus.
00:01:09Oh, did she show?
00:01:14Erin?
00:01:15What, does everybody know this girl but me?
00:01:18Uh, no, I barely know her.
00:01:20She was in our philosophy of literature class with me and Zach.
00:01:24And I think he kind of asked her out.
00:01:27Kind of?
00:01:28Well, I think he thinks he did.
00:01:31Yeah.
00:01:33So, he's into her?
00:01:34Uh, well, she's a female, so, yeah.
00:01:42Is she into him?
00:01:45Oh, hey, how are you?
00:01:47Oh, she's devastated.
00:01:48She got an A minus on a paper.
00:01:50Oh, buddy.
00:01:52Oh, shut it.
00:01:54You know, I think I want to go dance.
00:01:56Is there anybody I can convince to join me?
00:01:59Zach, let's go!
00:02:00Absolutely.
00:02:01How are you?
00:02:02Show me your moves.
00:02:04Yes, ma'am.
00:02:09You sure I can't tempt you?
00:02:11Uh, no, I mean, the table.
00:02:15I should watch the table.
00:02:16I don't want someone to take me.
00:02:19No, we won't.
00:02:26Yeah.
00:02:39Hey, baby.
00:02:40Oh, you're a little feisty.
00:02:43All right.
00:02:44Okay.
00:02:49Come on, it's just a little dance.
00:02:50I'm a good dancer.
00:02:51Ha, yes.
00:02:52Really not.
00:02:56Hey, how's the table?
00:03:20Fine.
00:03:21I just wanted to make sure you're okay.
00:03:22Oh yeah.
00:03:23Just the perils of the dance floor.
00:03:24Did you come to dance with me?
00:03:27Uh, no.
00:03:28I don't think I can keep up.
00:03:30I just wanted to check you're okay, that's all.
00:03:33Well, you did.
00:03:35And I am.
00:03:37Okay.
00:03:40And now I need to be making sure that you're okay.
00:03:45Jeez.
00:03:47Yeah.
00:03:48Have a good night.
00:03:49I'll see you later.
00:03:50Uh, wait.
00:03:51What's up?
00:03:52Um, do you want to share a cab or something?
00:03:54I live pretty close, so I won't be catching a cab.
00:03:58Uh, do you want to share a sidewalk?
00:03:59Uh, do you want to share a sidewalk?
00:04:03Oh, shit.
00:04:04Oh, shit.
00:04:05Oh, for fuck's sake.
00:04:06Oh, shit.
00:04:07Oh, shit.
00:04:08Oh, for fuck's sake.
00:04:09What is this fuck?
00:04:10What the fuck.
00:04:12Do you want to share a sidewalk?
00:04:29Oh, shit.
00:04:31Ah, for fuck's sake!
00:04:37Fuck.
00:04:39Good morning, sunshine.
00:04:41Julia, what the fuck?
00:04:44Don't take that time with me.
00:04:46Beach, let's go!
00:04:48Dude, you literally just woke me up.
00:04:50I am not ready for the beach and it is really early for your cleavage.
00:04:54First off, it is not my fault that you slept in.
00:04:57And secondly, it's never too early for my cleavage.
00:05:01Let's go!
00:05:05God, I am so glad I went from a comfortable laying down position
00:05:09to an uncomfortable laying down position.
00:05:12Okay.
00:05:14Try to think of it as full body exhalation.
00:05:18But I'm more thinking of it like a sunburn and sin in my crack.
00:05:23Are you ever happy about anything?
00:05:26Hardly happy.
00:05:27Yeah.
00:05:29Room for one more?
00:05:31Oh, hi.
00:05:32Hi.
00:05:33Yeah.
00:05:34Sure.
00:05:36Good.
00:05:38I didn't know you were joining us.
00:05:40Is that alright?
00:05:42Absolutely.
00:05:43Of course.
00:05:44Zach likes you.
00:05:48Tell you're stuck with us.
00:05:50Could be worse.
00:05:57I think I'm going to go through a dip.
00:06:03So, do you just like our friend now?
00:06:05I don't know.
00:06:06Why?
00:06:07You don't like it?
00:06:09Yeah, I'm...
00:06:11I don't know her.
00:06:13I think she seems nice.
00:06:16She's polite and friendly and...
00:06:18Alex, you don't have to convince me.
00:06:21I don't care if you like it.
00:06:23I didn't say I didn't like it.
00:06:28Oh.
00:06:29Oh, thank you.
00:06:38Oh, no, I'm good.
00:06:46It's for me.
00:06:48If you don't mind.
00:06:50Oh.
00:06:54Yeah.
00:06:55Oh, okay.
00:06:56Well, let's just cover all the bases.
00:06:57No.
00:06:58None of us are into Zach.
00:06:59He's like...
00:07:00An annoying younger brother.
00:07:01Hmm.
00:07:02But, you know.
00:07:03Wouldn't do life without him.
00:07:04Though, don't tell him I said that.
00:07:05What's your seal?
00:07:07So, is he not your type, or...?
00:07:09I don't know.
00:07:10I hadn't really thought about it.
00:07:12I don't know.
00:07:13I hadn't really thought about it.
00:07:15I don't know.
00:07:16I don't know.
00:07:17I don't know.
00:07:18I don't know.
00:07:19I don't know.
00:07:20I don't know.
00:07:21I haven't really thought about it.
00:07:23I don't know.
00:07:24I haven't really thought about it.
00:07:26What is your type?
00:07:28Confident.
00:07:29Attractive.
00:07:30Smart.
00:07:31How about you?
00:07:33You.
00:07:34What?
00:07:36Oh, I mean...
00:07:37Same as...
00:07:38As you...
00:07:39Same as you said.
00:07:40Just...
00:07:41Ow!
00:07:42Are you okay?
00:07:43Yeah.
00:07:45You're bleeding.
00:07:46Yeah.
00:07:48Come on.
00:07:49No, it's fine.
00:07:50Let me take care of it.
00:07:51It's totally fine.
00:07:52It's...
00:07:53Yeah.
00:07:54No.
00:07:56Have a seat.
00:08:03Wow.
00:08:04It's a real happening place, huh?
00:08:07We're closed on Sundays.
00:08:11Have you worked here for a long time?
00:08:14Uh, yeah.
00:08:15Had it for a while.
00:08:17We?
00:08:18My family owns it.
00:08:19Yes.
00:08:20I kind of own it.
00:08:21Oh.
00:08:23Wow.
00:08:24Yeah, my dad has this habit of buying businesses and he kind of left me in charge of these ones.
00:08:39Hey, that must be nice.
00:08:40Hey, that must be nice.
00:08:43Oh, I...
00:08:44Well, I didn't...
00:08:45I...
00:08:46I'm sorry.
00:08:47I didn't mean...
00:08:48I just meant it must be nice.
00:08:51Yeah.
00:08:52Yeah.
00:08:53Yeah, it's the nicest material things can be, I guess.
00:08:57What do you mean?
00:09:01I mean that my dad doesn't really get the whole feelings thing, so he uses his money instead.
00:09:07But hey, it's not like I'm just some complacent manager.
00:09:09I do actually work, you know?
00:09:14Okay.
00:09:16I mean, I wasn't suggesting that you were.
00:09:22I think it's very cool.
00:09:24You're the boss.
00:09:27I think so.
00:09:29Yeah.
00:09:34How about you?
00:09:35What's your story?
00:09:38Oh, it was just me and my mom growing up.
00:09:42She worked a lot, but she got the feelings.
00:09:47Sounds like you and me had completely opposite childhoods.
00:09:50You know, he's not all bad.
00:10:05Oh, your dad?
00:10:06Yeah.
00:10:08I'm not judging.
00:10:10I just...
00:10:12...lead my entire life story out on you, too.
00:10:16I guess that you just sort of...
00:10:19...can talk to him.
00:10:25How about you?
00:10:26What happened to your dad?
00:10:29He left when I was four.
00:10:33I didn't really know him.
00:10:35According to my mom, that's a good thing.
00:10:37Did you see your mom in the lab?
00:10:40Oh, no.
00:10:42No, she...
00:10:44She died.
00:10:47I'm sorry.
00:10:49Oh, it's okay.
00:10:53I mean, it's not okay, but...
00:10:57I'm fine.
00:11:03There's this, uh...
00:11:05There's this spot.
00:11:07Down by the beach.
00:11:09That I like to go to.
00:11:12It reminds me of her.
00:11:23Let me see your arm.
00:11:25Got some gravel in it or something.
00:11:28Yeah.
00:11:30It's okay, though.
00:11:31Just throw a bandaid on there or something.
00:11:34I'll be gentle.
00:11:36Okay.
00:11:45Are you ready?
00:11:47I don't know.
00:11:52Are you ready?
00:11:54I'm good.
00:12:04I'm good.
00:12:06I'm ready.
00:12:08Who's up?
00:12:10What is this?
00:12:12I'm good.
00:12:14I'm good.
00:12:16I'm good.
00:12:18I'm a good one.
00:12:20God, I don't know.
00:12:22I'm good, God.
00:12:24I'm good.
00:12:26I'm good.
00:12:28I'm good.
00:12:29Is it a little better?
00:12:44Yeah.
00:12:51So did I tell you about my movie idea?
00:12:53No.
00:12:54Yeah, so I've been writing this movie, and it's you and me, Lil' Leeds, and I've
00:12:58played a character named Robin Banks, okay?
00:13:02No, but wait.
00:13:03You're right away.
00:13:06We didn't tell.
00:13:07No, it's Jean.
00:13:11Hey.
00:13:12Hey, Al.
00:13:14Where's Erin?
00:13:16Oh, she had to work or something.
00:13:18Oh, we got her a Coke.
00:13:22Before you say anything, it wasn't you.
00:13:24I didn't scare her away?
00:13:26No, Zach.
00:13:27Thank God.
00:13:28But, like, what'd you say about me?
00:13:32Oh my God, get over yourself.
00:13:34What?
00:13:35You didn't know.
00:13:36I don't know.
00:13:37Nothing.
00:13:38Nothing?
00:13:40At all?
00:13:42Really?
00:13:44No.
00:13:45No.
00:13:46I mean, you're a good guy or whatever.
00:13:48Just keep doing that.
00:13:51I don't know about that.
00:13:52Good guy is just last.
00:13:55Unless that's what she likes.
00:13:56I don't know what she likes.
00:14:01If you want to ask her out, just ask her out.
00:14:03And if she says no, then you have your answer.
00:14:07Yeah.
00:14:07True.
00:14:10Oh, Zachary.
00:14:12Do you need me to ask her out for you?
00:14:15No, I do not.
00:14:16It's just, I don't know.
00:14:18If I ask her out and she says no, then she's not going to want to hang with us anymore.
00:14:23I kind of like her hanging with us.
00:14:25Good point.
00:14:29What?
00:14:29What?
00:14:30It's a good point.
00:14:31I mean, she's nice.
00:14:32It's nice to make new friends who are nice.
00:14:35Why do you need new friends?
00:14:39Jill, do you need to go to jelly school?
00:14:41Ew!
00:14:42Never touch me like that again.
00:14:45Never touch you like that again.
00:14:48So, Al.
00:14:50Can you talk me up to her?
00:14:51Please.
00:14:52Can we talk about literally anything else?
00:14:54I don't know.
00:14:55What makes you think that she would listen to me?
00:14:57Or that we even talk?
00:14:58I figured you guys became pals.
00:15:00Oh, she's nice.
00:15:19What time's happy hour?
00:15:20Oh, shit.
00:15:22I'm so sorry.
00:15:22I didn't mean to scare you.
00:15:26Oh, my God.
00:15:27Okay.
00:15:27Are you okay?
00:15:41Uh, yes.
00:15:43Yes.
00:15:44Hi.
00:15:45Hi.
00:15:46How are you?
00:15:47I'm good.
00:15:48I'm good.
00:15:49I, um, came by to see if you're coming out.
00:15:53I, to the club.
00:15:54Back to your shift.
00:15:55I mean, do you want to come out to the club to dance?
00:16:00Right, right.
00:16:01Um, I'm off work pretty late, so.
00:16:04Okay.
00:16:07Well, I mean, that was more of a, for your information than a no.
00:16:14Okay.
00:16:15So, it's a yes, then.
00:16:17It's a maybe.
00:16:19Probably.
00:16:19Probably.
00:16:20I mean, I was in the neighborhood.
00:16:29But that's why I'm here.
00:16:30Because Julia told me that you worked here, and I was passing by, and so I, I...
00:16:34Right.
00:16:35Um, it's really nice to see you, though.
00:16:38Yeah.
00:16:41Okay, so I guess I'll maybe, probably, see you later.
00:16:45I guess I'll maybe see you later.
00:16:46Yeah.
00:16:48Okay.
00:16:49Yes.
00:16:50Um, thanks for stopping by.
00:16:52Got it.
00:16:53Hey, before I forget, do you have a pen?
00:16:54Uh, yeah.
00:16:55Okay.
00:16:56Sure.
00:16:57Okay.
00:16:58Sure.
00:16:59Okay.
00:17:00Okay.
00:17:01Okay.
00:17:02Okay.
00:17:03Okay.
00:17:04Okay.
00:17:05Okay.
00:17:06Okay.
00:17:07Okay.
00:17:08Okay.
00:17:09Okay.
00:17:10Okay.
00:17:11Okay.
00:17:12Okay.
00:17:13Okay.
00:17:14Okay.
00:17:15Okay.
00:17:16Okay.
00:17:17Okay.
00:17:18We're gonna do it.
00:17:19Okay.
00:17:20Okay.
00:17:21Okay, she'll need me for anything.
00:17:24See ya later.
00:17:28See you later.
00:17:29You look good.
00:17:59You look fine, you're totally overthinking this because nothing is happening.
00:18:04Oh god, what if something is happening?
00:18:12Hey, what are we looking at?
00:18:14A very happy Zack.
00:18:16Oh yeah? Is he making friends?
00:18:18Well...
00:18:29I have to go.
00:18:32Uh, yeah, sorry.
00:18:36Okay.
00:18:37Okay.
00:18:45Alex.
00:18:47Alex.
00:18:49Wait.
00:18:51I'm sorry.
00:18:53For what?
00:18:55I would usually drink and I was fancy and then...
00:18:59You don't owe me anything.
00:19:01I just don't want you to think that I was doing it to hurt you or something.
00:19:07I don't know what you mean.
00:19:11I was nervous.
00:19:13Nervous?
00:19:15About what?
00:19:17You made me nervous.
00:19:33Erin, where are you going?
00:19:35I'm all sweaty.
00:19:36I'm going for a swim.
00:19:37I thought I was walking you home, not brushing up on my CPR.
00:19:41So come in with me then.
00:19:43That doesn't make any sense.
00:19:47That doesn't make any sense.
00:19:57Are you coming?
00:20:09Hey, there you are. I was looking for you.
00:20:11Thought you left.
00:20:13No, I'm right here.
00:20:15Right here.
00:20:17Did you want to get dressed when I can wait?
00:20:19Are you sleeping with me tonight?
00:20:25Uh...
00:20:27I just meant that my bed's more comfortable than the couch, so...
00:20:33Right.
00:20:35Cool.
00:20:37No, I was just going to head home soon.
00:20:39Okay.
00:20:41Sure.
00:20:43Wait, I'm sorry.
00:20:45Oh my god, I am so sorry.
00:20:47Oh my god.
00:20:49It's okay.
00:20:51Hey, it's okay.
00:20:53Hey, it's okay.
00:21:07Listen, I don't...
00:21:09I don't know what's happening and I don't want to misread anything.
00:21:13I don't think that you're misreading anything.
00:21:15I don't think that you're misreading anything.
00:21:19Will you look at me please?
00:21:21Do you want me please?
00:21:45Do you want me?
00:21:47I don't think so.
00:21:49Erin?
00:22:13Shit.
00:22:18Alice, what are you doing here?
00:22:33Well, you weren't there when I woke up, so...
00:22:35I was, uh, leaving to get to work.
00:22:38Right.
00:22:40Uh, could we...
00:22:43Sure.
00:22:48Can we talk about what happened last night?
00:23:00No.
00:23:01Are you serious?
00:23:02Yeah, something happened.
00:23:04I don't know what, and I...
00:23:07You don't know?
00:23:08Erin, we slept together.
00:23:10Hey, can you please keep your voice down,
00:23:11because we are at my work right now?
00:23:13It's not freaking illegal, I mean...
00:23:15Hey, I need you to forget about this.
00:23:18What?
00:23:20No.
00:23:21No.
00:23:22No, Erin, it was amazing, and you were right there with me,
00:23:24and I know that you felt the same way.
00:23:26Alex, stop.
00:23:27You came onto me!
00:23:28I wasn't gonna do anything!
00:23:29I was gonna leave!
00:23:30I need you to fucking leave!
00:23:31Stop! I need you to...
00:23:32I'm gonna do something!
00:23:33Stop!
00:23:34Alex, can you please fucking...
00:23:35Stop!
00:23:39Can you please go?
00:23:42I need you to go, please.
00:23:48Please…
00:23:52Please, please.
00:23:57...
00:24:02You're pissed.
00:24:03I'm out!
00:24:06I'm out!
00:24:07My God!
00:24:08Hey Jewel, hey you. What's up? How are you? Yeah, I'm fine. Great, but how are you actually?
00:24:35What do you mean? Don't play dumb. You completely bailed last night. Where'd you go?
00:24:41Yeah, sorry. Well, don't be sorry. Just tell me what's going on with you. Hello?
00:24:49Can you just trust that I'll tell you when I'm ready? Okay. Should I be worried?
00:25:03No. Okay. Come for a drink tonight.
00:25:09Uh, yeah, sure. I'll meet you down there. Cool. See you soon, pal.
00:25:19Fuck.
00:25:25Where have you been? You almost missed happy hour. Sorry. Anyway, so as I was saying, I was on a date with this dude. And he asks me what I like to do for fun. I hate that question.
00:25:31So I start telling him about this book that I'm reading. Alex, have I told you about this?
00:25:37Book guy? Uh, yeah, sure. I think so. Anyway. So I'm telling him about this book that I'm reading. Alex, have I told you about this? Book guy?
00:25:47Uh, yeah, sure. I think so. Anyway. So I'm telling him about this book. And he gets this look on his face. Like, either he's never heard the word book before, or the idea of a woman reading is way better.
00:25:57to much for his tiny brain to comprehend. I really don't get it. I mean, guys say that they want a girl that's smart and interesting. But I mean, really, they actually don't. Right?
00:26:03Yeah. Hey, how's the weather where you are?
00:26:10Yeah, Hey, how's the weather where you are. What, where are you right now?
00:26:18How do you tell you that today's a phone number of ser jeep story, Chelsea.
00:26:24I have a phone number, but I'll call you a phone number. So come on your phone number, today. It's basically from where you.
00:26:33I think I'm gonna get a drink.
00:26:35Actually, you know, I should go.
00:26:37I have this thing that I gotta do.
00:26:39Uh, like what?
00:26:41It's Friday night during the summer.
00:26:43What do you have to do?
00:26:45Early inventory.
00:26:47Like you've never done inventory hungover.
00:26:51Erin, please explain to her
00:26:54why she needs to stop pretending to be so responsible.
00:26:57You really gotta stop it.
00:26:59Okay.
00:27:05Alex!
00:27:07Alex!
00:27:09What the hell?
00:27:11I just can't.
00:27:17Hey Al.
00:27:19Alright.
00:27:23What's wrong with her?
00:27:25I don't know.
00:27:26Are you sure?
00:27:27Yeah, Julia. I don't even know her.
00:27:31I don't believe you.
00:27:32Hey.
00:27:33What the fuck was that about?
00:27:35I have no idea.
00:27:37I should go after her.
00:27:39No.
00:27:40Stop mothering her.
00:27:41Okay?
00:27:42Storming off like that?
00:27:43She needs some time alone.
00:27:45She went to the beach.
00:27:46Just...
00:27:47She'll be fine.
00:27:48You know, I think I'm gonna head out.
00:27:51Honestly, I wouldn't worry about her.
00:27:53She seems like a really tough girl.
00:27:55I'm sure she's gonna be fine.
00:27:56So...
00:27:59Erin.
00:28:00Hmm?
00:28:01Alex has been through a lot of shit.
00:28:02If she is messed up in something, please tell me.
00:28:05Yeah, honestly, I'm sorry, but I don't know.
00:28:08Jewel.
00:28:09Why would she know anything?
00:28:11Well, have a good night, guys.
00:28:13Have a good night, guys.
00:28:15Let's go.
00:28:16Thanks.
00:28:26Hey, Alex?
00:28:34No.
00:28:35You don't get to come here and look at me like that.
00:28:38I didn't mean to hurt you.
00:28:39I'm sorry.
00:28:40Sorry.
00:28:45I don't understand.
00:28:48We didn't do anything wrong.
00:28:50You're acting like we've done this terrible thing.
00:28:53Are you in a relationship or something?
00:28:55I don't get it, do you?
00:28:58No, I don't get it.
00:28:59I need you to explain it to me.
00:29:02I fucking can't.
00:29:10Did you like it?
00:29:14Yeah.
00:29:21What are you so scared of talking about?
00:29:23Are you scared the way you feel?
00:29:25Do we really have to do this?
00:29:31Are you scared of being gay?
00:29:33Okay, shut the fuck up.
00:29:34I'm not fucking scared.
00:29:36You're just wrong.
00:29:38There you go.
00:29:40Wrong?
00:29:41Yeah, you're just fucking wrong, Alex.
00:29:43I'm leaving.
00:29:45Erin!
00:30:10Hey.
00:30:17It's Erin.
00:30:21What are you doing?
00:30:22What are you doing here?
00:30:23Is that seriously what you want to say to me right now?
00:30:39Alex, what the fuck is going on?
00:30:43Just having a drink.
00:30:44You won't answer my calls and you won't talk to me.
00:30:46What's happening here, Alex?
00:30:47You're alone with straight A's.
00:30:48I'm sure you can figure it out.
00:30:49Why are you being a smartass?
00:30:50Look, I just came here to have a drink.
00:30:51Okay, alone.
00:30:52You don't get to come here and start yelling at me.
00:30:53Besides, no one else wants to fucking talk.
00:30:56Why the fuck should I?
00:30:57Why the fuck should I?
00:30:58Because there's obviously something going on.
00:30:59So?
00:31:00So I'm your best friend and I want to help you.
00:31:03Yeah, I bet you do.
00:31:04Alex.
00:31:05I bet you want to dance in here looking all pretty and fuck everything up and then pretend
00:31:13like nothing ever happened.
00:31:14What the fuck?
00:31:15Well, it did happen.
00:31:16It happened.
00:31:17What happened?
00:31:18Leave me alone.
00:31:19Don't touch me.
00:31:20I'm sorry.
00:31:21I'm sorry.
00:31:22I'm sorry.
00:31:23I'm sorry.
00:31:24I'm sorry.
00:31:25I'm sorry.
00:31:26I'm sorry.
00:31:27I'm sorry.
00:31:28I'm sorry.
00:31:29I'm sorry.
00:31:30I'm sorry.
00:31:31I'm sorry.
00:31:32Leave me alone.
00:31:33Don't touch me.
00:31:34You know what, Alex?
00:31:37Fuck you.
00:31:39You know I just want help.
00:31:49I'm sorry.
00:31:50I can't offer you anything fun to drink.
00:31:52It's okay.
00:31:53Are you alright?
00:31:55You sounded kind of upset on the phone.
00:31:57I didn't invite you over here to talk.
00:32:01I'm so done talking.
00:32:04Okay.
00:32:05Sorry.
00:32:06I thought that was more cute.
00:32:07Are you saying no?
00:32:08No.
00:32:09Uh.
00:32:10Okay.
00:32:11Just wait a minute.
00:32:12Just a sec.
00:32:14Okay, so you're saying yes.
00:32:15I'm saying yes.
00:32:16Just fuck me.
00:32:17Just fuck me.
00:32:18Okay, so you're saying yes.
00:32:19I'm saying just fuck me.
00:32:23Okay, so you're saying yes.
00:32:24I'm coming.
00:32:25I'm coming.
00:32:26I'm coming.
00:32:27Yeah.
00:32:28Oh, no.
00:32:29I'm sorry.
00:32:31No, no.
00:32:32No, no.
00:32:33No.
00:32:34No, no.
00:32:35No.
00:32:36No.
00:32:37No.
00:32:38No, no.
00:32:39No.
00:32:40No.
00:32:41No.
00:32:42I'm saying, just fuck me.
00:32:52Jesus, I'm coming.
00:33:03I'm sorry.
00:33:07I'm sorry.
00:33:09I'm an asshole.
00:33:10None of that was meant for you.
00:33:12Don't ever speak to me like that again.
00:33:14It was the whiskey.
00:33:16I'm serious.
00:33:19I know.
00:33:21I know.
00:33:22I'm sorry.
00:33:24I didn't mean any of it.
00:33:40What am I going to do with you?
00:33:50Fix my broken heart.
00:33:52What?
00:33:53What?
00:33:54Why do you have a broken heart?
00:33:56Why do you have...
00:33:57Alex?
00:33:57Alex?
00:34:03Okay.
00:34:08Okay, so...
00:34:09I am very drunk, so I think I'm going to tell you something right now that sober Alex definitely
00:34:14wouldn't tell you because sober Alex is scared shitless.
00:34:17Well, drunk Alex and sober Alex need to start trusting their best friend.
00:34:22They do.
00:34:23I mean, I...
00:34:23I...
00:34:24It's nothing to do with not trusting you.
00:34:28Then what is it about?
00:34:33I think I need a cigarette.
00:34:35Uh, nope.
00:34:38Speak.
00:34:38You love me, right?
00:34:47Like...
00:34:48Like, no matter what.
00:34:51Of course I love you, you idiot.
00:34:54Nothing you can say will change that.
00:35:02Dude, I will help you bury the body.
00:35:04I will destroy the evidence.
00:35:06It honestly can't be that bad.
00:35:10Whatever it is, man.
00:35:13It's me.
00:35:22I'm gay.
00:35:23Well, I mean, you weren't hiding that very well.
00:35:46I'm in love, too.
00:35:47I'm sorry you were so scared to tell me that.
00:35:56I'm so sorry I took this so long to tell you.
00:35:59No.
00:36:01You told me when you were ready.
00:36:05So, Romeo.
00:36:07Who's the lucky lady?
00:36:13Are you okay?
00:36:13Okay.
00:36:14Are you okay?
00:36:20Aaron.
00:36:21Fine.
00:36:23If you want to talk about...
00:36:25I don't.
00:36:27You just consider this a freebie.
00:36:29You're off the hook.
00:36:31What?
00:36:34Look, I know I may seem like I'm that kind of guy,
00:36:37but I'm not that kind of guy.
00:36:41Aaron.
00:36:41Look, Zach, it doesn't really matter what kind of guy you are, okay?
00:36:45Fuck, why is it that when a guy wants to have casual sex, it's totally fine?
00:36:50And when a girl wants to, there must be a fucking problem?
00:36:52I never said there was a problem.
00:36:54You just seemed upset.
00:36:56Sorry.
00:36:58Look, I know we may have done things a little backwards here,
00:37:01but I like you.
00:37:04I'd like to...
00:37:04No.
00:37:05What?
00:37:06Whatever you'd like to do is a fucking terrible idea.
00:37:10Taking you on a date is a terrible idea?
00:37:12Oh, yeah.
00:37:13Why?
00:37:15Fuck, I'm giving you an easy out here.
00:37:17I'm not looking for an easy out.
00:37:18This was just a distraction.
00:37:22Okay?
00:37:23This isn't going to turn into a whirlwind romance.
00:37:26It's just sex.
00:37:28Jesus.
00:37:33That's why I don't do this.
00:37:37Good night, Aaron.
00:37:38I used to wonder what it felt like.
00:37:54I looked at everyone's friends too.
00:38:00Chasing round and down like sure we're close in purpose.
00:38:05This is Alex.
00:38:20Leave me one.
00:38:21I'm so sorry.
00:38:27I tried to fill my gaps with heartbeats.
00:38:31I'm so sorry.
00:38:32I tried to fill my gaps with heartbeats.
00:38:35I'm so sorry.
00:38:51Whoa.
00:38:56I'm so sorry.
00:38:56Okay, I was not a dream.
00:39:06Okay.
00:39:08Not a dream.
00:39:10Okay.
00:39:13Cool.
00:39:18Oh.
00:39:20I need a shower.
00:39:22Mm-hmm.
00:39:24You stink like a dirty bird.
00:39:27Yeah.
00:39:29Probably because I was at a dirty bar.
00:39:33Mm-hmm.
00:39:38Okay.
00:39:42Yeah, I will be.
00:39:48I love you very, very much.
00:39:51I have to pee very, very, very much.
00:40:01I am so hungover.
00:40:09I am so hungover.
00:40:10I am so hungover.
00:40:11I am so hungover.
00:40:17Oh.
00:40:19Oh.
00:40:20Oh.
00:40:21Oh.
00:40:26Oh.
00:40:26Aaron?
00:40:33Alex, what are you doing here?
00:40:46Nice.
00:40:47Wait.
00:40:48No.
00:40:49You made it quite clear that you don't want me to do that.
00:40:53Why did you call me last night?
00:40:55Were you...
00:41:00Were you apologizing for fucking someone?
00:41:03I don't know.
00:41:05I don't know why I called you.
00:41:07Sorry.
00:41:18What are you doing?
00:41:21I don't know.
00:41:24I don't know what I'm doing.
00:41:27Okay?
00:41:28I don't know what this means.
00:41:31Okay.
00:41:32I know what it means.
00:41:37Okay?
00:41:38Great.
00:41:39So I'm just supposed to pretend like this is normal.
00:41:43I don't know.
00:41:44I don't know.
00:41:45Aaron.
00:41:46But I mean...
00:41:48You should have some fucking idea of what you're doing.
00:41:51Do you give a shit about me at all?
00:41:53Yes.
00:41:54Yes.
00:41:55Yes.
00:41:58Okay.
00:41:59How could you have sex with someone else?
00:42:04I was just trying to...
00:42:09I needed to figure out whether...
00:42:14Yeah.
00:42:15Okay.
00:42:16I know what you needed.
00:42:19I hope you feel better.
00:42:24It's not like it was just someone random, Alex.
00:42:27I still wonder how it all turned out.
00:42:33If I'd done everything I wanted...
00:42:37Making the rounds, huh?
00:42:39No.
00:42:40Wait.
00:42:41Alex.
00:42:42You know what?
00:42:43Don't touch me.
00:42:45Ever again.
00:42:48And for the record, you can't fuck yourself straight.
00:43:00She fucked Zach.
00:43:05Why the fuck do you care about that snare?
00:43:10Alex!
00:43:13Alex, what the fuck?
00:43:17You fucked her and she let you because she's scared!
00:43:23What the fuck are you talking about?
00:43:29I'm in love with her, Zach!
00:43:31Alex, I didn't know.
00:43:33Yeah, well now you do!
00:43:39Can I help you?
00:43:55What are you doing?
00:44:00It just looks like I'm dying.
00:44:02What I didn't know is I wanted you to stay.
00:44:07Erin.
00:44:08Now I'm broke, bleeding left out on the curb and I'm dying for you.
00:44:14Throw the roses on me, throw the roses on me.
00:44:20You just be with me, Erin.
00:44:23There's nothing in the way.
00:44:24I'm all yours.
00:44:25Yeah?
00:44:27What am I supposed to do with that?
00:44:29Hmm?
00:44:30I don't know what to do with that.
00:44:32Hey, what does that even mean, Alex?
00:44:35You don't know what my life is like.
00:44:38Okay, so tell me.
00:44:41Yeah, I fucking can't.
00:44:44Yeah, so that's just it?
00:44:46God.
00:44:51You're so fucking void of emotion that you can't even see love when it's staring you in the face.
00:44:58God, your dad really did fuck you up, huh?
00:45:03I'm sorry.
00:45:04I'm sorry, I'm sorry.
00:45:05No, I mean, at least you're feeling something.
00:45:07Look, I, before I met you, I never, I would never have thought that this would be me.
00:45:22Okay?
00:45:24And I don't know how to, I don't know how to process this.
00:45:28I don't even know how to begin.
00:45:31Let's process this.
00:45:33Okay, well, let's process it together.
00:45:35I mean, you're not alone in this.
00:45:39Julia knows.
00:45:41Zach knows.
00:45:42God.
00:45:43I mean, who gives a fuck what anybody else thinks?
00:45:48I told them.
00:45:49Yeah, I needed to talk about it.
00:45:55Okay, Aaron, I know that you're scared.
00:45:57I know that this,
00:46:00that this derailed you a bit, and it took you by surprise, but you can't pretend like this doesn't exist.
00:46:05I, uh, I wish that you'd met somebody else that night on the dance floor, and I wish that she could give you what you need, because I can't.
00:46:17That's how you feel? You wish you'd never met me?
00:46:19Say something!
00:46:28Fine. Fine. Uh, alright, you want me to forget? Sure, let's forget. Let's put it all behind us. One big fucked up mistake.
00:46:35You can't believe you told them.
00:46:38Yeah, well, I had to. I can't just bury this like you can. God, it's like, it's like you, you're living in this fantasy land where you think you can fuck whoever you want and not have to worry about the consequences. It's like you don't think any of this is real.
00:46:57Well, whether we talk about it or not, and whether people know about it or not, the way that you're feeling is fucking real, Aaron, it's real!
00:47:07That's the part that scares me. Alex, it's my feelings.
00:47:22Okay, how am I supposed to just one day decide that I like women?
00:47:27It wasn't a decision, Aaron. It was a realization!
00:47:32It's always been there. You've just been hiding this part of yourself for so long, Aaron. This is, this is who you are. This is who you've always been before you ever even met me!
00:47:43Look, I'm here, okay? I'm here. We can do all of this together. Just, just let me love you.
00:48:00Sorry, but this just isn't me. Please, here. No, this isn't me. No, don't! Touch me.
00:48:13I'm sorry I came here today. Do you love me?
00:48:19Yeah, it doesn't fucking matter! Does it?
00:48:32I come in peace.
00:48:38Where's your face?
00:48:40You punched it. It hurts.
00:48:43Oh, uh, this is my cue.
00:48:55Don't fucking wreck the place.
00:48:56I'm really sorry.
00:49:09I was just... so mad.
00:49:14Yeah, I got that part.
00:49:19You didn't deserve that, though.
00:49:20You're right. I didn't.
00:49:28I'm sorry.
00:49:29I'm sorry, because I know that you were into it first.
00:49:38I don't think our feelings compare.
00:49:41I had no idea. You know that, right?
00:49:43Yeah, of course. Of course I know that.
00:49:49It was just one of those things. It was late. You were drunk. She told me to.
00:49:55Okay. No, I don't need any of those details. My imagination is on overdrive as it is.
00:50:03I'm sorry. If it makes you feel any better, I don't think I rocked her world.
00:50:10It doesn't make me feel any better.
00:50:13Are you okay?
00:50:14No. I'm not.
00:50:34Close.
00:50:35So, riddle me this. I have now found both of you separately, in your respective places of work, getting drunk alone over each other.
00:50:58I don't know what you're talking about.
00:51:00No problem.
00:51:01Okay.
00:51:03If we're going to get drunk in a cafe, let's have some glass, shall we?
00:51:06To Alex.
00:51:27Alex.
00:51:41So let's have a chat.
00:51:46You can wait all day.
00:51:52You don't fucking get it.
00:51:56Okay, do you have any idea what my father would say?
00:52:01Or even worse, what do you think?
00:52:06You can be affectionate with her in public.
00:52:10People would be looking at us and making comments.
00:52:15I don't know how to make this work, Jules.
00:52:23And I don't know how to love her without her either.
00:52:28I didn't realize that the entire world had such a big influence on who you love.
00:52:38I'm sorry, Jules.
00:52:42I know what I put her through, but I just can't let her go.
00:52:47Then let her go.
00:52:51How's Zach?
00:52:54Which part?
00:52:56His feelings, his ego, or his nose.
00:52:59His nose.
00:53:02Oh God, dude, Alex.
00:53:04Fuck, I'm such a fucking asshole.
00:53:06Yeah, I mean, you could have worked out your internalized homophobia literally any other way.
00:53:12Jules, I...
00:53:13Listen, I know you're going through a lot of shit right now, but try not to drag the people you care about through the shit with you.
00:53:26I'm sorry.
00:53:28I know two other people who deserve that much more than I do right now.
00:53:34We'll see you at school, okay?
00:53:38No, it was seriously inside the lettuce bag.
00:54:06Sorry, I'm sorry, what?
00:54:10Yeah, no, I'm serious.
00:54:13You ever think they're going to close this place down?
00:54:16No, Julia.
00:54:17It's blasphemy.
00:54:18Well, seriously, you can't work here forever.
00:54:21What are you going to do when you graduate?
00:54:23Ugh, I need to graduate first.
00:54:25Pardon me?
00:54:27I have this killer stats class.
00:54:30I don't think I'm going to survive it.
00:54:32Ooh.
00:54:33I have a friend.
00:54:34I'm so proud of you.
00:54:35Shut up.
00:54:37No, she's a science major.
00:54:39She TAs a lot and loves stats.
00:54:41I'll ask her to tutor you.
00:54:43That makes me sound like a real winner.
00:54:45Alex, it's okay to ask for help when you don't understand something.
00:54:49Help.
00:54:53Ugh.
00:54:55Let her do what she's going to do.
00:54:59She's going to walk into my bar with some dude.
00:55:05It's not your problem.
00:55:11Well, I never thought I'd say this, but I think I should go study before I get you drunk.
00:55:17Music to my ears.
00:55:19Funny.
00:55:20I'll see you later.
00:55:21Bye.
00:55:23Hi.
00:55:25What are you doing?
00:55:27Um, saying hi.
00:55:28In Alex's bar with a guy?
00:55:29He's my boyfriend.
00:55:30Super.
00:55:31Just trying to move on with my life, Julia.
00:55:33Wouldn't it be interesting if instead of moving on with your life, you actually just lived it?
00:55:37I just came to say hi.
00:55:38I'm not looking for a lecture.
00:55:39How do you talk to somebody?
00:55:40Like a counselor?
00:55:41Okay.
00:55:42I'm going to go get back to my date.
00:55:43Oh, he's your date now.
00:55:44I thought he was your boyfriend.
00:55:45Um, well, he's a man.
00:55:46Which is the only part of my life.
00:55:47I'm not looking for a lecture.
00:55:48Super.
00:55:49Just trying to move on with my life, Julia.
00:55:50Wouldn't it be interesting if instead of moving on with your life, you actually just lived
00:55:51it?
00:55:52I just came to say hi.
00:55:53I'm not looking for a lecture.
00:55:54How do you talk to somebody?
00:55:55Like a counselor?
00:55:56Okay.
00:55:57I'm going to go get back to my date.
00:55:58Oh, he's your date now.
00:55:59I thought he was your boyfriend.
00:56:00Yeah.
00:56:01Okay.
00:56:02Um, well, he's-
00:56:03A man.
00:56:04Which is the only part that actually matters, right?
00:56:09Listen.
00:56:10Just talk to somebody.
00:56:12This is not your life.
00:56:13It's not who you are.
00:56:21Hey!
00:56:22Are you Alex?
00:56:24Uh, yeah.
00:56:29Billy.
00:56:32Hi.
00:56:33Hi.
00:56:34Julia texted me and told me to meet you in the library.
00:56:37She said that you needed a tutor.
00:56:39And you have no idea what I'm talking about.
00:56:42Uh, no.
00:56:43Yes, I do.
00:56:44I do.
00:56:45God, she acts fast.
00:56:47What do you mean?
00:56:48Nothing.
00:56:49Yes, please.
00:56:50Uh, save me from the numbers.
00:56:52Okay.
00:56:53So, where are you at?
00:56:54Well, um, somewhere between, um, I have no idea what I'm doing and I want to quit school.
00:57:01Look.
00:57:02I find it easier to write out the whole formula.
00:57:17Does that make sense?
00:57:20Uh, yeah.
00:57:22Yeah.
00:57:23Yeah.
00:57:24I think it, I think it does.
00:57:25It's weird.
00:57:26Yeah.
00:57:27That's it, I think it does.
00:57:28Yeah, that's a lot.
00:57:29That's it.
00:57:30Oh, yeah, that's a lot.
00:57:31Oh, my God.
00:57:33Look at this.
00:57:35Oh, my God.
00:57:36I'm so nervous.
00:57:37Oh, my God.
00:57:38Oh, my God.
00:57:40Oh, my God.
00:57:42Oh, my God, so I like that.
00:57:43Oh, my God.
00:57:45Oh, my God.
00:57:46I'm sorry I made a mistake wait why do you think you've made a mistake
00:58:11I I uh just come in and listen meet some people I don't know what to say you don't have to say
00:58:22anything you can even sit in the back if you want to it's at your own pace and there's free coffee
00:58:27I don't have to say anything nothing
00:58:30just listen
00:58:31okay
00:58:41did you did you want to get a drink with me right now okay yeah actually I know the perfect
00:59:10place
00:59:17hello
00:59:21Billy
00:59:40sorry I was getting us refreshments
00:59:51this place is crazy
00:59:54pretty great right do you work here no I just live in the basement waiting for my Christine
01:00:02not a theater person
01:00:04oh no not at all
01:00:06Phantom of the Opera
01:00:07oh I know that one
01:00:09so did we just break in technically yes but I have a key so I can't prove anything I'm friends with the manager he owed me a beer what about you tell me all about Alex what are your aspirations
01:00:20business school it's a business school it's sexy thank you um I want to start my own business
01:00:27oh that's ambitious yeah I mean I work at this little dive bar across town and we have regulars and everybody knows everybody else and it's just this you know chill safe place for people to hang out and I don't know I just want to create something like that
01:00:34like a dyke bar
01:00:41like a dyke bar
01:00:42are you okay
01:00:43yeah
01:00:44have you never heard the word dyke before
01:00:45I mean not in that context
01:00:46what
01:00:47where have you been born
01:00:48oh
01:00:49oh
01:00:50that's ambitious
01:00:51yeah I mean I work at this little dive bar across town and we have regulars and everybody knows everybody else and it's just this you know chill safe place for people to hang out and I don't know I just want to create something like that
01:00:56like a dyke bar
01:00:57like a dyke bar
01:00:58are you okay
01:01:00have you never heard the word dyke before I mean not in that context
01:01:09what where have you been
01:01:11in the closet
01:01:12oh
01:01:13Alex have you never been to a gay bar
01:01:17I have not
01:01:19it is official I am now your tutor in stats and in being gay
01:01:25and
01:01:28I have a confession to make
01:01:32it's okay
01:01:33you don't even know what I was gonna say
01:01:36that
01:01:38Julia purposefully asked her lesbian friend who happens to be good at stats to tutor me in hopes of us hitting it off
01:01:46so
01:01:47did we
01:01:48well I followed you into a deserted theater so uh
01:01:52I would say yes
01:01:54do you want to follow me somewhere else
01:01:59how was that for you
01:02:04overwhelming
01:02:05that's okay
01:02:07you think you might want to come back
01:02:09possibly
01:02:10are you a one word woman
01:02:13I don't know I just never really
01:02:18that's okay
01:02:20it's baby steps
01:02:22you can sit at the back as long as you like
01:02:25I mean you can even sit on the floor if you really want to
01:02:28how do you know when to
01:02:35I think there just comes a point where it's harder to not say it than to say it
01:02:42I don't even know how to say it to myself
01:02:47well then that's a really good place to start
01:02:50because the only person who really matters in all of this
01:02:54is you
01:02:55so you've never been here before?
01:02:58no
01:02:59no I didn't know this place existed
01:03:02or that there were other lesbians in town
01:03:04oh honey
01:03:06you just wait
01:03:14hey
01:03:15you don't have to hide anymore
01:03:16thank you for not pushing me
01:03:34we're all here for whenever you're ready to find your voice
01:03:37I know it's in there
01:03:39trust it
01:03:40I'm really scared
01:03:42and that's okay
01:03:43that probably won't go away anytime soon
01:03:46but I promise that when you do find those words
01:03:49everything will change
01:03:59you know I appreciate the respect that you can't touch me
01:04:04you are so cute
01:04:06I'm nervous
01:04:07we don't have to do anything you don't want to do
01:04:10no I'm good
01:04:12really?
01:04:13yeah
01:04:21so you had fun then?
01:04:22yes oh my god I want to go there every week
01:04:24it was incredible it felt so weak
01:04:27yes
01:04:28like nobody cared what you were doing or who you were doing it with
01:04:31yeah it's called being inclusive and non-judgmental
01:04:34right
01:04:35yeah
01:04:36guess I haven't really experienced all that much of that
01:04:38you know that makes me really sad
01:04:41but it's probably because you've only ever been to straight clubs and
01:04:44you can't be yourself
01:04:46anyway
01:04:47this is me
01:04:49oh
01:04:50well
01:04:51thanks
01:04:52I had a really good time tonight
01:04:53good
01:04:54we should do this again sometime
01:04:59do you want to come up?
01:05:01like
01:05:02like
01:05:03to your apartment?
01:05:04like
01:05:05to my bedroom?
01:05:14what happens next?
01:05:16whatever you want
01:05:17so
01:05:18what's going on?
01:05:34sorry
01:05:35i just
01:05:36i needed to talk to you and i wanted to do it alone without your backup
01:05:38so
01:05:39thanks for coming over
01:05:40you know she's probably watching
01:05:53she's everywhere
01:05:54yeah
01:05:55so what do you need to say?
01:05:59i'm sorry
01:06:00i guess that's pretty long overdue
01:06:05i just didn't really have the courage before now
01:06:10but i'm not going to make excuses
01:06:12i
01:06:13that night that we
01:06:16uh
01:06:17yeah
01:06:18look what i did
01:06:21what i said
01:06:23it was wrong
01:06:25and i'm sorry
01:06:27you didn't deserve that
01:06:29i was a dick
01:06:31wow
01:06:32um
01:06:33thank you
01:06:36i appreciate it
01:06:38because you were a dick
01:06:40but
01:06:42i should have asked more questions
01:06:45i knew something was up
01:06:48so
01:06:49i'm sorry too
01:06:51i'm sorry too
01:06:52you needed a friend
01:06:53not a quickie
01:06:54i would take a friend though
01:06:58you got it
01:07:01you're such a nerd
01:07:06hey
01:07:10hi
01:07:11so
01:07:14uh
01:07:15last night was fun and spontaneous
01:07:18absolutely
01:07:19um
01:07:21and i think that we should talk about it
01:07:23sure
01:07:25okay
01:07:26okay
01:07:27so we
01:07:28um
01:07:29had sex
01:07:30yes
01:07:31and uh
01:07:32what does that mean
01:07:34it means that we had sex
01:07:37right
01:07:38right
01:07:39right
01:07:40but what does that mean
01:07:41like um
01:07:42like are we dating
01:07:44uh
01:07:45are you my girlfriend
01:07:46uh
01:07:47do we talk about it
01:07:49do you not want to talk about it
01:07:50okay okay okay
01:07:51you are so cute
01:07:53okay first of all
01:07:54we can talk about everything
01:07:55and anything
01:07:56okay
01:07:57and secondly i think that you might be panicking a little
01:08:01yeah
01:08:02we had sex last night
01:08:03and it doesn't have to be anything more than that
01:08:06it doesn't
01:08:07no
01:08:08two people can find each other attractive and just have sex
01:08:11i mean
01:08:12do you want a relationship
01:08:14no i i don't
01:08:17actually
01:08:18okay
01:08:19so are we just friends then
01:08:21absolutely
01:08:22and we can be whatever we want to be
01:08:24does that work for you
01:08:26yes that works for me
01:08:29i still really need a tutor though
01:08:31yeah
01:08:32you do really need a tutor
01:08:34okay where are you at today
01:08:36oh my god
01:08:39not much further than i was last time
01:08:41what is this
01:08:46you know you don't have to knock every time
01:08:49i wasn't really sure if i was going to go in
01:08:52well you showed up
01:08:53so that's a good start
01:08:54is it
01:08:55do you want to hang out here or you can follow me in
01:08:57i'll pretend not to notice
01:08:59i guess i could keep the back row warm
01:09:03grow warm
01:09:04you're very colored
01:09:05you're very colored
01:09:12here we have your premium back row seat
01:09:22hey how's it going
01:09:23thank you
01:09:30hello everyone
01:09:31thank you so much for coming tonight
01:09:34would anyone like to start us off?
01:09:40i would
01:09:42awesome
01:09:43please do
01:09:54should i stand up?
01:09:55you can do whatever you want
01:09:56you can do whatever you want
01:10:07okay
01:10:09um
01:10:10so i'm erin
01:10:11and uh
01:10:13this is all very new for me
01:10:18i guess i've never really allowed myself to feel these feelings before
01:10:24until i met this person that shifted my entire outlook on the world and on everything
01:10:41i tried really hard to bury it but i just haven't been able to keep ignoring it
01:10:46god i tried so hard to not
01:10:53you know to not be
01:10:56you know
01:10:59god i'm scared
01:11:03i'm so fucking scared
01:11:07i'm so fucking scared
01:11:10and i just haven't been able to even say the words or
01:11:18or be able to even really let myself be this way
01:11:24and i just can't do this anymore and i've never been able to admit this but i just
01:11:40god i feel like i'm suffocating i feel like i can't breathe
01:11:44like i can't keep up this lie anymore and i think this is it i think this is it i think this is my coming out story
01:11:59right now
01:12:01so i uh
01:12:18i can't keep doing this anymore so i'm gonna i'm gonna finally say this
01:12:23i'm gay
01:12:26I'm gay.
01:12:36I'm gay, Jack.
01:12:40Read em and weed, motherfuckers.
01:12:42I win again.
01:12:44I think you're making up the rules.
01:12:46Bullshit.
01:12:48Hey, y'all should be used to it by now.
01:12:50I win every time.
01:12:52I live in hope.
01:12:54Hey, give me more beer, please.
01:12:56Here.
01:12:58Yes, definitely.
01:13:02So...
01:13:04Any more sexy time rendezvous with Billy lately?
01:13:08Maybe.
01:13:10Now, you know, this is actually a really cool feeling.
01:13:14Not being heartbroken.
01:13:16No obligations.
01:13:18Not worrying about Aaron.
01:13:20I think I finally feel like myself, you know?
01:13:22Like, who I'm supposed to be.
01:13:24Does that make sense?
01:13:26Yeah, it makes a lot of sense.
01:13:28I'm happy for you.
01:13:32Alright, there you go.
01:13:34Thanks.
01:13:36I don't trust you.
01:13:38I want that one.
01:13:40What do you mean?
01:13:42You did something.
01:13:44I know it.
01:13:45Cheers, cheers.
01:13:46Drink your own sweat.
01:14:06Hi.
01:14:08What are you doing now?
01:14:10I needed to talk to you.
01:14:12Well, you could call me.
01:14:14I needed to see you as well.
01:14:20What's going on, Aaron?
01:14:22It's late.
01:14:24I missed you.
01:14:26Okay.
01:14:28Are you drunk?
01:14:30Okay.
01:14:32Come on.
01:14:34Come on.
01:14:52Okay.
01:14:53What's up?
01:14:54No.
01:14:55No.
01:14:56No.
01:14:57No.
01:14:58No.
01:14:59No.
01:15:00No.
01:15:01No.
01:15:02No.
01:15:07Just listen to me for a minute, please.
01:15:11Because there's something that I need to say.
01:15:13I've been thinking and learning a lot about myself.
01:15:20And I came here tonight because, because, because I needed to tell you something.
01:15:36I needed to tell you that I figured it out.
01:15:40Figure what out?
01:15:41That I can't hide anymore.
01:15:44I can't hide who I am.
01:15:46I came out today to complete strangers and it felt really good.
01:15:51I realized that this entire time I thought that I was afraid of you and of us.
01:15:59But really I was just afraid of things that I couldn't control.
01:16:03So I'm ready.
01:16:04I'm ready.
01:16:05I'm ready.
01:16:06I'm ready.
01:16:07I'm ready for us.
01:16:08I'm ready for you to give me all the things you wanted to give me.
01:16:12I'm ready for you to love me.
01:16:14Wow.
01:16:15That took a lot.
01:16:16I know that.
01:16:17But you can't expect that we can just pick up like nothing happened.
01:16:19No, I know.
01:16:20I know.
01:16:21I know.
01:16:22I was really selfish and unfair.
01:16:25And I'm so sorry.
01:16:26And if you'll just let me prove to you that I can-
01:16:27Erin, I'm not looking for an apology.
01:16:28Okay?
01:16:29And I'm not saying this to try and punish you.
01:16:30I'm genuinely happy for you.
01:16:31I know.
01:16:32I know.
01:16:33I know that.
01:16:34But you can't expect that we can just pick up like nothing happened.
01:16:35No, I know.
01:16:36I know.
01:16:37I know.
01:16:38I know.
01:16:39I know.
01:16:40I know.
01:16:41I know.
01:16:42I'm so sorry.
01:16:43And if you'll just let me prove to you that I can-
01:16:47Erin, I'm not looking for an apology.
01:16:50Okay?
01:16:51And I'm not saying this to try and punish you.
01:16:53I'm genuinely happy for you.
01:16:55Okay.
01:16:56So give me another chance.
01:16:59No, it's not about giving you another chance.
01:17:03Okay.
01:17:04Then what is it?
01:17:05What is it about?
01:17:10It's been months, Erin.
01:17:15You haven't spoken to me in months.
01:17:19Okay?
01:17:22A lot has changed.
01:17:27You still love me, right?
01:17:33This is what you wanted!
01:17:35I am giving you what you wanted.
01:17:37No, I wanted you to be yourself.
01:17:39For you.
01:17:41And you've taken this amazing step.
01:17:44But you need to do it for you.
01:17:47It's not because you think it's what I want.
01:17:49I mean, I'm not the one who suffers here if you can't accept yourself.
01:17:53I've been down that road.
01:17:55I'm not-
01:17:56I can't do that again.
01:17:58I don't understand.
01:17:59I don't understand.
01:18:00I thought that you'd be happy.
01:18:01I thought that you'd be happy.
01:18:02I thought that you would...
01:18:03be...
01:18:04waiting for you.
01:18:05I can't do it.
01:18:06I can't do it.
01:18:07I can't do it.
01:18:08I can't do it.
01:18:09I can't do it.
01:18:10I can't do it.
01:18:11I can't do it.
01:18:12I can't do it.
01:18:16I can't do it.
01:18:18I don't want to do this.
01:18:20I don't want to do it.
01:18:21I...
01:18:23I don't want to do it.
01:18:25I can't do you.
01:18:29I don't want to.
01:18:33I...
01:18:37I need you. I can't do this without you.
01:18:41I don't know how to do this without you.
01:18:45I'm sorry.
01:18:47No.
01:18:49I'm sorry.
01:18:51I'm sorry.
01:18:53It's okay. It's okay.
01:18:57It's okay.
01:19:13Good morning.
01:19:15Did you sit on the couch?
01:19:23Are you...
01:19:29Embarrassed?
01:19:31Sad?
01:19:33I wasn't embarrassed.
01:19:35Yeah.
01:19:37Yeah.
01:19:39That was, um...
01:19:43I'm...
01:19:45I'm sorry.
01:19:47Coming over like that last night, it was shitty.
01:19:51And, um...
01:19:53Do you think that maybe we could try and have that conversation again?
01:19:57Um...
01:19:59Erin.
01:20:01You may have been drunk and upset, but...
01:20:07The words aren't gonna change.
01:20:11I will...
01:20:21Never...
01:20:23Forget...
01:20:25That you're the first person that I ever loved.
01:20:29And you're the first woman that I ever slept with.
01:20:35But...
01:20:37I need to move forward.
01:20:43What we had, it was...
01:20:49Intense and, um...
01:20:51Terrifying.
01:20:53And unhealthy.
01:20:55And...
01:20:57And...
01:20:59Perhaps...
01:21:01Maybe...
01:21:03You think you need to be with me.
01:21:05Because I was your first, but it doesn't need to be that way.
01:21:07It doesn't need to be...
01:21:09You know, all or nothing.
01:21:11Or...
01:21:13Painful.
01:21:14Or dramatic.
01:21:15I think...
01:21:19That's me.
01:21:21I need...
01:21:23Stability.
01:21:25I need to explore.
01:21:29And I need to learn who I am.
01:21:33And...
01:21:35I just...
01:21:37I just don't...
01:21:39I just don't think that I can do that with you.
01:21:43I'm sorry.
01:21:45I'm sorry.
01:21:47I'm sorry.
01:21:49I'm sorry.
01:21:51I know that you wanted this to go a different way.
01:21:55No...
01:21:57No, I...
01:21:59I get it.
01:22:01Yeah.
01:22:03But, um...
01:22:05Maybe one day.
01:22:07Maybe.
01:22:09Maybe.
01:22:11Maybe.
01:22:13One day.
01:22:15Um...
01:22:17You know...
01:22:19I'm putting on now.
01:22:21Right?
01:22:27We're gonna be okay.
01:22:29Okay?
01:22:35You...
01:22:37Are gonna be okay.
01:22:39I have an issue.
01:22:41I...
01:22:42Trying to find some answers in the storybook.
01:22:45I am lies.
01:22:47It's like a dancer.
01:22:49Moving gracefully.
01:22:51But then it feels like I'm stuck.
01:22:53There's a door that I...
01:22:55I cannot seem to open up.
01:22:57I found the luck.
01:22:59I found the key.
01:23:01I found some reasons why.
01:23:03When I'm closest to my dreams.
01:23:05I don't want to znaj닥in.
01:23:07I found the way to begegge.
01:23:08What's next?
01:23:09Okay, do you do think we could meet up later?
01:23:11There's something I want to tell you.
01:23:13Step into the wild.
01:23:15ugh!
01:23:16Dear thanmund PRIMLE,
01:23:17hm!
01:23:18Do you think we could meet up later?
01:23:19Please.
01:23:21There's something I wanna tell you.
01:23:24nggak?
01:23:24rememberая Psalmist,
01:23:25несow Standalone,
01:23:27entlemanalist,
01:23:28Hey, Jewel.
01:23:30You think we could meet up later?
01:23:32Have something I want to tell you.
01:23:33Actually, Jewel.
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