Strictly star John Whaite opens up about his struggle with steroid addiction

Strictly star John Whaite opens up about his struggle with steroid addictionJohn Whaite

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00:00I've been taking anabolic steroids illegally for five years now and these things have really

00:09really messed with my life. I first started taking them during lockdown because I looked

00:15in the mirror and as somebody who's got body dysmorphia and bulimia I looked in the mirror

00:20and I absolutely, I hated what I saw and I tried working out, I tried dieting, I was really

00:30really strict with myself and my diet but nothing changed, like I couldn't gain muscle, I had

00:36layers of fat that I wasn't happy with and looking back there was nothing wrong with me,

00:40I had a normal body and most importantly I had, I had the love and support of people

00:48who loved me for who I was, not for what I looked like. But I continued with my steadfast

00:57decision to take steroids and take testosterone and it led to some aesthetically very good

01:03results. I was getting noticed more for television when I got the job for Strictly because I was

01:10so muscular, my code name that they had for me was Hercules and the more that people acknowledged

01:16how I looked on steroids, the more I felt good about myself, I felt valid. But the reality

01:24is that steroids have shrunk my bollocks, I've got tiny balls now, there's your headline, I've

01:31got tiny balls, I've got an irregulated sex drive, sometimes it's very very high and I end

01:39up doing stupid things that don't respect my body and sometimes it's very very low.

01:46there's no one there. So that's it. I've got a drink and it can't do much more. There's

01:56no worries about anything, it's very low. You know, it's a little bit more, it's very

01:59good. So, I was I thought I wanted to get down and explain the