00:00First off, how excited were you to finally, you know, talk to your daughter this week and reunite with her?
00:04What was that like? Oh, my God. I cried when I saw her the first time.
00:08It was the first time I called. She was asleep because of the time difference.
00:12And her dad flipped the screen. I'm like, I saw her sleeping and I just was bawling my eyes out.
00:17Like I didn't speak to her yet. And I was just bawling my eyes out.
00:20And like I could wait till the next day to like talk to her on the phone.
00:22And I finally did. I just like was crying. I was just like, baby, like she misses me so much.
00:27She's like, mommy, I miss you. I'm like, I miss you, too.
00:30And it just it gave me so much like reassurance.
00:32So like she misses me and she loves me. I'm a good mom.
00:36Like she she she knows that. And like she loves me to death.
00:39And it's like it's just the biggest reward ever. Like I love her so much.
00:43Like that is my best friend. That is my twin. She's my writer.
00:47I like I love her so much.
00:49I had so many videos come up on my TikTok of you singing.
00:52And we will never, ever, ever be part of our way and island.
00:58Girls don't play again.
00:59Why was that not more in the villa or was it we just didn't see it?
01:04Oh, I sing all the time in the villa all the time.
01:06Like the people on the mics would always be like, you sing so well.
01:09I'm like, thank you. Like I would be in the shower just like singing my heart out.
01:13There'd be times where like, you know, we would have times where like we would have to be separated and stuff.
01:17And we would I would sit in I think I was sitting in the bathroom for like because that was my location of where I had to sit.
01:23And like people were walking past in the hallway and I would sing and people would be like, like, you can sing.
01:30I'm like, oh, like I didn't know you were walking past.
01:32Like I would sing all the time in the dressing room.
01:35Me and the girls would always do like sing alongs, like especially on chill days and stuff like that.
01:39We would play music. We just sing our hearts out.
01:41We used to do like dance offs. It was it was a fun time.
01:44Like I'm such an arts kid. So like it was really fun for me.
01:46You began in a couple with Jeremiah and then that came crashing down when America voted to split you guys up.
01:53Jeremiah.
01:54What?
01:56Okay, that's messy.
01:58What the?
02:04Now that you have your phone, do you feel like you've gotten more clarity as to why that vote went the way it did?
02:10And how do you feel about that?
02:12Yes, I do. I think there's also a lot of things that weren't shown as well.
02:15So it's like, you know, I know my narrative and I think, you know, things might have been played out in a way where I looked a lot worse and that's okay.
02:24I think there's a lot of factors that, you know, kind of made me act certain ways in situations like you're out of your routine.
02:31You like there's a lot of factors that play into your emotions when you're in the villain.
02:35I'm sure a lot of people know that.
02:38And, you know, like I didn't have my alone time.
02:40I couldn't work out like I wasn't eating enough.
02:42Like there was a lot of things where it's like I needed to be in my routine and I wasn't in my routine.
02:47And all of those things, they play a factor into your mental health and like how you react to certain things.
02:53And, you know, there'd be times I would cry all night.
02:55Like I wouldn't sleep.
02:56Like there's there's a lot of things that play into it.
02:58And, yeah, so I obviously there's things that I reacted of emotion, but there's also a lot of things that weren't shown in terms of like why I reacted to certain things.
03:08What exactly happens to make me feel that way?
03:10Like and I I'm telling you right now, like there's I don't act that way in the real world.
03:14Like that's not that does not define me as a person.
03:16Like I'm a chill bitch.
03:18Like I don't give a flying fuck if my man's at the club.
03:21I don't care.
03:22Like I'm not like freaking the fuck out.
03:24But there's things in there was like you feel threatened.
03:27You're you know, you're out of your routine and you act on emotion in certain situations.
03:31You have a million people in your ear 24 seven, a million people that have opinions on a relationship.
03:35It's like it's all of these things where it's like, OK, how could you not react in some type of way?
03:41There's so many people that freaking crash out alone at home and then they'll sit there and be like, I don't really care.
03:48But God forbid I did it on national television.
03:51Well, in like a little bit of a lighter note, you know, I want to talk about you telling Nick that you're a mommy because that sound blew up.
03:58I'm a mommy.
04:01Mommy?
04:02I'm a mom.
04:03Mamacita.
04:06No, I'm a mommy.
04:08A mom of what?
04:10A dog?
04:11I have a daughter.
04:12Like in real life?
04:13Yeah.
04:13Like a daughter, like a real baby?
04:15Yeah, like a human child.
04:17What do you think of that?
04:18Did you ever think that moment would go viral the way it did?
04:21No, I had no idea.
04:22And you know, it's so funny.
04:23I walked into that conversation.
04:24I was like, OK, I know I have I want to have this conversation with Nick.
04:27Me and him are very goofy individuals.
04:29Like we both have this idea where it's like kind of like brother and sister vibes where we joke around a lot.
04:34We can't take seriously.
04:35It's kind of like the siblings that like we just act the same.
04:38And I don't know if much of my personality was shown at all.
04:41I haven't watched the show.
04:43But I know that me and him, we had a very similar like personality in terms of like goofiness.
04:49It's like, OK, I want to be lighthearted in this conversation.
04:51I don't want it to sound like serious because it's like it's not serious.
04:56It's like I'm proud of being a mother, but it's like I want to say it in a way where he's not like, oh, like, oh, do you know what I'm saying?
05:05And I just when I was like, hey, he's like, hey, I'm like, listen, he's like, what's that?
05:11Well, I wanted it to be like a funny, fun moment for us.
05:16And I did not expect to go right.
05:17I think we both forgot exactly what was said in that conversation.
05:19And when people were mentioning it, we're just like, I want to see it because I forgot.
05:23Like we just forgot that moment.
05:25And it cracked me up seeing how many people love that moment.
05:28I think it's just so funny.
05:30We're just being ourselves.
05:31I want to talk about that final date with you and Chris, because you guys are in the middle of breaking up.
05:37The singer comes out.
05:39I was dead as fuck.
05:40I was dead as shit.
05:41That shit was comedic as hell.
05:43Well, then that just sounds like you're not really confident in our connection and on keep going forward.
05:48Like he's not repeating myself, but I have to.
05:50And I'm still willing to do it.
05:52But it seems like you're scared to tell me where your head is at.
05:55I know where you're leaning towards.
05:56And if that's what it is, like, just tell me.
05:58Oh, I'm glad we were saying that.
06:00I sat there and I was just like, be so I see this woman walking up and I'm like, is that my sister?
06:13Mind you, I wear glasses.
06:13I cannot see very far.
06:14I'm like, is that my sister?
06:16Like walking up right now.
06:17She's about to save me.
06:18And I'm walking up.
06:19She's walking up and the light shines on her.
06:21I'm like, that's not my sister.
06:24I'm like, no.
06:25I was like, I don't know who that is.
06:26And I was just like, oh, and I see the microphone.
06:27I was like, is this really happening right now?
06:29I was like, I was like, are we really doing this?
06:32And I'm sitting there, I'm just like.
06:34Oh, my gosh.
06:36And it's just awkward silence between me because I'm just like.
06:41Like, we're, we're, we're, it was just such comedic timing.
06:44That shit had me dead on the floor.
06:48I was just like, what?
06:49I'm literally in the middle of crying and it's Moon River singing.
06:54I'm just like, y'all have me dead.
06:57You went to the finals.
06:58You're in third place.
07:00You guys are just broken.
07:01I mean, so much.
07:02And your whole trajectory on that show was just, you were carrying it, girlfriend.
07:06I mean.
07:08So I've heard.
07:09Everyone keeps saying they're like, girl, you carried this show on your back.
07:11I'm like, fuck.
07:12It feels like I broke my damn back in the show.
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