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Hazy Little Thing Full Movie
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00:02:01Hey, Bill. Give me a call when you get this.
00:02:17I'm just trying to see what your weekend looks like.
00:02:19You could always come here. See Lily for a change.
00:02:22We'd love to have you.
00:02:23Hey, Billy. Just another friendly reminder from your agent
00:02:35about that $50,000 you'll have to get back if we don't have pages soon.
00:02:39Okay. Okay. Okay. Okay.
00:02:41Just do it. Just write it.
00:02:53Fucking piece of shit.
00:03:14Billy, if we don't have a fucking book in two weeks, we're screwed.
00:03:18I know how you work, but I need your pages.
00:03:20Just fucking saying.
00:03:23I know how you work, but I know how you work, but I know how you work.
00:03:26We did the EQ and it was me, but I appreciate it.
00:03:31Whist every week I've got you.
00:03:40We're killing one, the way they'reishing it.
00:03:43We simply did the same thing and it did the same thing on the thing.
00:03:46Alongsideumba, it started to fred.
00:03:48They thought it happened and it um, it twIFesty.
00:03:50I've been feeling like I never had before
00:03:58Like I can't take anymore
00:04:00Like I'm taking back control
00:04:02I've been feeling like I never had before
00:04:06Like I heard it all before
00:04:08Like I'm rolling up the score on you
00:04:10It could happen, it could happen
00:04:12I can tell now it could happen
00:04:14We could turn it, we could turn it
00:04:16We could turn it into something good
00:04:18We got the right to be
00:04:20Right to be, clear and focused
00:04:22Got the right to be
00:04:24Right to be in my home
00:04:26Right to be in my home
00:04:28Right to be in my home
00:04:30I don't know.
00:05:00I don't know.
00:05:30I don't know.
00:06:00I don't know.
00:06:30I don't know.
00:07:00I don't know.
00:07:30I'm not a Gabriel.
00:07:34I'm not a saint.
00:07:36I say just someone who'll turn the page for you.
00:07:40I'm not a trophy.
00:07:51I'm not a trophy.
00:07:52I'm not a trophy.
00:07:53I'm not a sweet treat.
00:07:59Jumping from my feet to my knees.
00:08:01I don't know.
00:08:02I don't know.
00:08:03I don't like big names.
00:08:06But I like a little mystery.
00:08:09I like the kids who give a little bit of lift to the mistress.
00:08:16Will?
00:08:17I don't know.
00:08:30I don't know.
00:08:30Bill?
00:08:42Holy shit.
00:08:47Billy Bob? You home?
00:08:53It is alright, Patrick.
00:08:56Here for some sick festivities.
00:09:01Hello?
00:09:16Millington?
00:09:31Bill?
00:09:40Oh, my God. Billy! Billy! Bill, Bill, Bill! Oh, my God! Bill, wake up!
00:09:44Get off of me!
00:09:47Oh, my God!
00:09:49I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry. I thought...
00:09:53Oh, I'm sorry. I'm sorry.
00:09:55Oh, my God! I'm taking a fucking nap!
00:09:58Yeah, yeah, I know. I know.
00:10:02What are you doing here?
00:10:04Surprise!
00:10:06Surprise.
00:10:08Wow.
00:10:10Yeah, happy birthday.
00:10:12Happy birthday.
00:10:13Okay, okay, okay.
00:10:14Okay.
00:10:16Um...
00:10:19I'm just... I'm just gonna take a couple seconds.
00:10:22You, uh...
00:10:24You take... you take some seconds.
00:10:26Hey, it's me. Okay, look, I don't know where you are right now, but...
00:10:45I don't know what to do, alright?
00:10:47I don't think it was a good idea to just show up here without telling her.
00:10:50This is crazy. I mean, look, uh...
00:10:53I'm gonna need some help here, because, uh...
00:10:57I found her.
00:10:59She's not okay, alright?
00:11:01And, uh...
00:11:02I can't do this.
00:11:04Look, you better be in a cab.
00:11:05Look at what I found!
00:11:07Whoa!
00:11:09Awesome!
00:11:11This room is crazy.
00:11:13What's all this stuff?
00:11:14Oh, you know, just classic dad replacement shit.
00:11:18Oh.
00:11:19Okay.
00:11:20I'm kidding. I'm kidding!
00:11:21No, I came fully furnished.
00:11:23Okay.
00:11:24Nice.
00:11:26You want a cigar?
00:11:28Um...
00:11:30No, I'm good.
00:11:31Well, say it yourself.
00:11:44What's that?
00:11:50That is for you.
00:11:53Happy birthday!
00:12:02Can I not get another hug?
00:12:04Hug him.
00:12:05Um...
00:12:12Okay, fuck it. Let's open it. Come on!
00:12:15Wait, wait, wait!
00:12:16Okay, wait, wait, wait.
00:12:17What?
00:12:19Can you...
00:12:20get a boom?
00:12:22Okay.
00:12:24Um...
00:12:26What?
00:12:27Nothing. Come on. Ready?
00:12:28Okay.
00:12:29Alright.
00:12:30One...
00:12:31Two...
00:12:32Three...
00:12:33Go!
00:12:35Awesome.
00:12:36Okay, thank you.
00:12:42Pat!
00:12:43Hmm?
00:12:44My face!
00:12:46Try to tell me...
00:12:58We're drowning in here.
00:13:21Oh, my God.
00:13:25Oh my god, what the hell are you wearing?
00:13:28What?
00:13:29Jesus, what is this place?
00:13:31Yeah, yeah.
00:13:33Yeah.
00:13:34Ah!
00:13:35It's so good to see you!
00:13:36Oh my god, where's Kelly?
00:13:38Kelly!
00:13:39She couldn't make it because of work.
00:13:42Oh, bummer.
00:13:43Well, I will be damned if this weekend is not fun.
00:13:46I only get like three days off a year.
00:13:51Three?
00:13:52Yeah, that's not legal.
00:13:54You should know that.
00:13:55Take three.
00:13:56Where is she?
00:13:57Hey, hey, hey, hey!
00:13:59Oh, look at you!
00:14:01Look at this place!
00:14:02Oh my god!
00:14:03Man, writer's life looks good on you!
00:14:06Guys, gang is all back together!
00:14:10Oh, hey!
00:14:12Hey.
00:14:13Oh.
00:14:14Hey, Patrick.
00:14:15Nice to meet you.
00:14:16Yeah.
00:14:17Wait, I thought you guys met.
00:14:18No.
00:14:19Hey.
00:14:20What's up?
00:14:21Happy birthday, Billy.
00:14:22Nice to see you.
00:14:23Yes.
00:14:24Okay.
00:14:25Welcome to the birthday...
00:14:27Weekend!
00:14:28Surprise weekend!
00:14:29Woo!
00:14:30Your message was so dramatic.
00:14:36Okay, but I mean this big house aside though.
00:14:37Yeah?
00:14:38Yeah.
00:14:39So?
00:14:40So...
00:14:41So...
00:14:42So...
00:14:43So...
00:14:44So...
00:14:45So that's why we're here, isn't it?
00:14:46Mm-hmm.
00:14:47God, just act normal.
00:14:48You're making me anxious.
00:14:49What is Kelly feeding you these days?
00:14:50What?
00:14:51I'm normal.
00:14:52You act normal.
00:14:53This is so disgusting.
00:14:54Oh my god.
00:14:55Oh my god.
00:14:56I can't...
00:14:57I can't...
00:14:58I can't...
00:14:59I can't...
00:15:00I can't...
00:15:01I can't...
00:15:02I can't...
00:15:03I can't...
00:15:04I can't...
00:15:05I can't...
00:15:06I can't...
00:15:07Oh...
00:15:08I can't...
00:15:09We can't...
00:15:10Oh my god.
00:15:27Oh my god...
00:15:29Bye...
00:15:35I really, yeah, I really appreciate this, uh, I really, I think this weekend, you know,
00:16:00great idea, great, great, great, great, great, yeah, I really, I think,
00:16:05this has been, I think, maybe, you should all just fuck off.
00:16:22There's a million condiments in here, not a fucking thing to put them on.
00:16:27Think she can afford some fucking food.
00:16:29Birthday girl!
00:16:31You eat anything other than Chinese food?
00:16:33Oh, did you drink all this?
00:16:37No.
00:16:38Did you go to the store to buy that one pineapple?
00:16:40No, I ordered it.
00:16:41What do you mean you ordered it?
00:16:43Like on an app, I ordered it.
00:16:46Just the one pineapple?
00:16:48What, I was craving pineapple.
00:16:50Okay.
00:16:51You're stepping on my toes
00:16:57You're tripping up my feet
00:17:01Holding me with ground control
00:17:06Spilling our brains into the street
00:17:10Anxiety grows
00:17:14And it's called my friends
00:17:18This woman's heart
00:17:19Put it in the pan
00:17:20Okay.
00:17:21She's been eating
00:17:22Ready?
00:17:29To get her
00:17:31I think she's a kid
00:17:33Who's so cool?
00:17:33And so I'm gonna eat
00:17:34And so I'm gonna eat
00:17:36And so I'm gonna eat
00:17:37I think she's a kid
00:17:37She's a kid
00:17:38Who's a kid
00:17:39And so I'm gonna eat
00:17:40And so I'm gonna eat
00:17:41Haven't you learned that you can't eat cereal for every meal yet?
00:17:55Haven't you learned that being a vegan doesn't erase all the party drugs you've done?
00:18:02Hey!
00:18:03Whoa!
00:18:04You're gonna squish all the chips!
00:18:08Good.
00:18:11I love you.
00:18:13Bye!
00:18:14Yeah, thanks, Billy.
00:18:16Pat, what the hell?
00:18:34You bought enough booze for a small house?
00:18:37You bought enough booze for a small army.
00:18:41It's... What?
00:18:44Why did you buy so much booze? She's not even supposed to be drinking.
00:18:47Why not? You said...
00:18:50You said we were supposed to act normal, okay?
00:18:53This is normal for Billy.
00:18:56That's like the opposite purpose of a shake.
00:19:08You can make a whole meal out of chips, though.
00:19:10What?
00:19:11Like an appetizer chip.
00:19:12Yeah, but what about like the Hellcats?
00:19:14Oh my gosh!
00:19:16Christ, Karen!
00:19:18I thought I would do a little, you know?
00:19:22Hi!
00:19:24A little warning might have been nice.
00:19:26Are you okay?
00:19:27A little warning.
00:19:28I'm pretty sure that's literally the opposite of a surprise.
00:19:31Double surprise!
00:19:32Where's the kid?
00:19:33Oh, she's with mom.
00:19:35Oh god, she's not coming, is she?
00:19:37No.
00:19:38Thank fuck for that, at least.
00:19:43Thanks for getting all these.
00:19:44Yeah, no problem.
00:19:46Sorry.
00:19:47It's okay.
00:19:54I just...
00:19:58I don't even feel like I know who she is anymore.
00:20:03I don't know.
00:20:09Maybe she doesn't really know who she is anymore.
00:20:11I don't know who she is anymore.
00:20:41It's okay.
00:20:43Sorry.
00:20:47It's all his name.
00:20:48You're so sorry.
00:20:50I just feel like a heart can help me because I can see you alone.
00:20:53I gotta share a new accent et cetera.
00:20:55It really isn't the latest year.
00:20:58Oh, what makes you better do?
00:21:00Talk to me again.
00:21:04Sorry.
00:21:05After this!
00:21:06It happens to your tuning for me.
00:21:07I'm gonna call.
00:21:08You don't know what my name has been.
00:21:09Oh, my God.
00:21:39Okay, is everyone ready for our walk?
00:21:41What are we looking at?
00:21:43That fucking phone.
00:21:46You know what?
00:21:47I'm done.
00:21:48What are you doing, Priya?
00:21:49Oh, no, no, no.
00:21:51I wouldn't say anything.
00:21:52We're going to go for a walk.
00:21:54You want to come?
00:21:56Yeah, sounds good.
00:21:58Okay, great.
00:21:59Let's go.
00:22:00What are you doing?
00:22:02Oh, she moves.
00:22:03Priya, stop it.
00:22:04Really, look at those blue eyes.
00:22:06I haven't seen them all day.
00:22:07Priya, give it back.
00:22:08You can't live a second without this thing.
00:22:11Oh, is this what you want?
00:22:11Give me the phone.
00:22:17Oh, my God.
00:22:20Fucking idiot.
00:22:22I got it.
00:22:23I got it.
00:22:24Oh, my God, you weren't supposed to.
00:22:25Fucking kidding me.
00:22:28Billy.
00:22:29Smooth move, Sensei.
00:22:40Wait.
00:22:41So fucking stupid.
00:22:52Wow.
00:22:53That is pretty cool.
00:22:54Okay.
00:22:55Okay, I love you.
00:22:57I love you so much.
00:22:59Miss you.
00:23:02Mom, it is so late.
00:23:04Why is she still up?
00:23:06Oh, no.
00:23:06She's going to be completely thrown off tomorrow.
00:23:08Just you wait.
00:23:10I know.
00:23:11I know.
00:23:12And I appreciate it.
00:23:13I do.
00:23:16It's going pretty well, I think.
00:23:18As well as could be expected, I guess.
00:23:22Okay.
00:23:23Yeah.
00:23:24I'll keep you posted.
00:23:26Love you, too.
00:23:38Babe.
00:23:39Hot water.
00:23:40Hot water.
00:23:40I've been thinking.
00:23:51Oh.
00:23:52Have you?
00:23:53Mm-hmm.
00:23:53So dangerous.
00:23:54I know.
00:23:56What have you been thinking about?
00:23:58I've been thinking that we should get lost.
00:24:07You brought mushrooms.
00:24:08Yeah, I thought we could do some bonding.
00:24:11Babe, this is extremely inappropriate.
00:24:14Why?
00:24:15What?
00:24:16Hey.
00:24:17Hey.
00:24:19You want some tea?
00:24:24More milk?
00:24:25Water?
00:24:27Bill, listen.
00:24:29I'm...
00:24:30I believe the word you're looking for is sorry.
00:24:36Put that shit away.
00:24:38No.
00:24:39I don't know.
00:25:09I don't know.
00:25:39I'm making eggs. Everyone likes eggs, right?
00:25:42I do.
00:25:43How'd you sleep?
00:25:45Should I make them poached, scrambled, sunny side up, frittata?
00:25:49Poached easy?
00:25:50Not really.
00:25:51Whatever's easy.
00:25:52No, whatever's special.
00:25:53Whatever makes her feel special today.
00:25:55Okay, I'm doing poached.
00:25:57Let's just hope she doesn't sleep in and miss all the eggs.
00:26:01Hey, Bellini? Anyone Bellini?
00:26:03Okay, well, I'm going to make one because I...
00:26:05Good morning.
00:26:06Oh, early.
00:26:07Morning.
00:26:09I'm making eggs.
00:26:10Thrilling.
00:26:18I'm vegan.
00:26:19Just for future reference.
00:26:20I love eggs.
00:26:32Are you kidding me?
00:26:35There's some snacks over here.
00:26:36I can't reach.
00:26:37Kelly doesn't mind that.
00:26:38This is a totally normal I'm out of chestnuts.
00:26:43Voila.
00:26:47Oh, mom says hi, by the way.
00:26:50Mmm.
00:26:51Yeah, I bet she does.
00:26:52So, how are you?
00:26:59I mean, yeah, I can't complain, kind of.
00:27:02Living the dream out here.
00:27:04Mmm.
00:27:06And, uh, your writing's going well?
00:27:10Fuck yeah.
00:27:11Yeah.
00:27:13Good.
00:27:14You're, like, taking your meds and all that?
00:27:16Oh, my God.
00:27:21It was so disgusting.
00:27:23It's good when you put the whole thing in your mouth.
00:27:25Is it good?
00:27:26Yeah.
00:27:30Ooh.
00:27:31That's pretty good.
00:27:32Oh, pretty happy with yourself, aren't ya?
00:27:35I made eggs.
00:27:36That's how the hour is going to be a martini, um, dry, extra olives.
00:28:01That looks like a chino.
00:28:03Woo!
00:28:04Oh, my gosh, you have to stop.
00:28:09It's so good.
00:28:10Oh, my gosh.
00:28:11Damn, girl.
00:28:12Right?
00:28:12Woo!
00:28:21Hey, you good?
00:28:25Good.
00:28:26You good?
00:28:27Yeah.
00:28:27Oh, yeah.
00:28:29Yeah.
00:28:30Jen Hilly, can you imagine being rated on that shit?
00:28:32They are not rating their citizens.
00:28:34You guys need me to do anything?
00:28:37Uh, yeah, you can chop that.
00:28:40Do you mind?
00:28:41They are.
00:28:42It's literally called a social credit system.
00:28:44Oh, yeah, Karen, you should totally move to China.
00:28:47I think a single mom would rank really high in that system.
00:28:51Ha-ha, Billy.
00:28:52Very funny tonight.
00:28:53When Priya asked me to come to this surprise birthday party, this wasn't exactly what I
00:29:15was expecting.
00:29:22I won't lie to you.
00:29:23I had no idea what we're doing.
00:29:27I wish we could go back, you know?
00:29:31Or rewind and restart.
00:29:34Yeah.
00:29:36We all have our toolbox.
00:29:38Uh, I don't know what that means.
00:29:40We all have our coping mechanisms.
00:29:43You know, to fight the depression.
00:29:47Do you think, uh, you think she's depressed?
00:29:50Don't you?
00:29:51So, so, what's my tool?
00:30:03I don't know.
00:30:04I don't know you that well.
00:30:06What's your first impression?
00:30:08Um, okay.
00:30:11Um, well, I think you're really nice.
00:30:17And I think you make Billy feel really safe.
00:30:23Maybe you enable her a little bit.
00:30:26Enable?
00:30:29That was kind of shitty.
00:30:35And it is, like, a continuing, ongoing cycle.
00:30:39Like, can we not find a way to sustain ourselves without eating meat?
00:30:42Priya, stop trying to recruit my sister to the dark side.
00:30:45You cook with those veggies, or?
00:30:47Yeah?
00:30:47Good.
00:30:49Killing it.
00:30:51All right.
00:30:52And what's yours?
00:30:54My tool?
00:30:55Mm-hmm.
00:30:57I use psychedelics to get to the core of what's really going on, you know?
00:31:00I like to face my demons.
00:31:04Look them straight in the eye.
00:31:07Okay.
00:31:09Why?
00:31:10Because I was depressed.
00:31:11Yeah, I was a completely different person from who I am now.
00:31:18I was paranoid, frightened, delusional.
00:31:23I locked myself away in my house for months.
00:31:26And my mom got so scared.
00:31:29She came to check on me, and I was cruel to her.
00:31:35It was like I completely dissociated from anything or anyone that loved me.
00:31:40So you went and you took drugs to try to get past that?
00:31:48No, I went and I took psychedelics to try and dislodge that idea from my head that the world was out to get me.
00:31:54And that there was no hope.
00:32:00The first time I did mushrooms, I was staring at this spider and its web, and it was like, I understood the universe in its entirety in that moment, you know?
00:32:11It's hard to explain.
00:32:14Hey, are those steaks almost ready?
00:32:17Yep.
00:32:17Coming right up.
00:32:18Perfect.
00:32:18Perfect.
00:32:18Perfect.
00:32:18Perfect.
00:32:24Okay, are you good with those veggies? I could just do the rest real quick if you want.
00:32:29Jesus, Karen.
00:32:31You know what? I'm going to go set the table, and you can come redo it in five minutes.
00:32:35Okay, how does that sound?
00:32:36Great.
00:32:39Yeah, these are kind of a thick, messed up cut.
00:32:43Right.
00:32:46Oh, so...
00:32:47Oh, great. Thank you.
00:33:03Oh, you have a match.
00:33:04Great.
00:33:05Do you want these on the table?
00:33:06I'm just kidding. I don't know.
00:33:08Um, what do you think?
00:33:10Do you want some peppers?
00:33:12I'm sure.
00:33:12Okay.
00:33:12Okay.
00:33:15Okay.
00:33:15And I'll take some on mine as well.
00:33:20I'll follow them.
00:33:20Yes.
00:33:21Great.
00:33:25Would you like some salad?
00:33:26Bill, can you get a corkscrew?
00:33:27Yeah, are you sure you trust me with one of those?
00:33:31Do you want some salad?
00:33:32Yeah.
00:33:33You want some rice?
00:33:34Yes.
00:33:34Yes.
00:33:45I just don't see the point.
00:33:54They say the earth is going to be gone, like, explode in 50 years.
00:33:57That's not explode.
00:33:58More like be swallowed by the sun.
00:33:59So uplifting.
00:34:01That is no reason to not have kids.
00:34:03I can tell you one thing with absolute certainty that having kids is the most in love you will
00:34:07ever be.
00:34:08Oh, yeah, sometimes you're so in love you just walk out in the middle of the night.
00:34:10It's great.
00:34:12Billy.
00:34:12Wait, are you telling me that Kelly doesn't want to have kids?
00:34:16Because that is not a thing.
00:34:17We've yet to talk about that.
00:34:21Well, it's not easy, I'll tell you that.
00:34:23I did not think I would be a single mother with a toddler, but somehow it's worth it.
00:34:27Yeah, I'm really taking that becoming mom thing to a next level, hey?
00:34:32The whole sans dad life.
00:34:34Sans dad?
00:34:35Is that French?
00:34:36Oh, okay.
00:34:37Just to be, like, super clear, how long are we going to harp on my love life?
00:34:41Until it's not fun to harp on anymore.
00:34:44Oh, okay.
00:34:45How many kids do you have?
00:34:47One.
00:34:48Lily.
00:34:48Oh, my gosh, that's such a beautiful name.
00:34:50I love that name.
00:34:52Whoa, slow your ovaries, babe.
00:34:56How old is she now?
00:34:58Oh, maybe you would know if you sent her a birthday card and then added them all up.
00:35:02Or if you came and visited us.
00:35:04Ever.
00:35:10What's up with you, Priya?
00:35:11Or both of you?
00:35:13How's...
00:35:13Santa Fe.
00:35:15Santa Fe.
00:35:15Yeah, soon.
00:35:16We're going on a spiritual tour in my home van.
00:35:20Who are we?
00:35:21Well, I mean, I'm going.
00:35:22I'm trying to convince Priya to take some time off and join me, but...
00:35:26Good luck.
00:35:28It's a daily grind.
00:35:30It is hard to find time to take time off.
00:35:34Very.
00:35:34So hard when you work for yourself and make your own schedule.
00:35:37So hard.
00:35:41It's really nice to see you unwind, though, this weekend.
00:35:44What?
00:35:46I'm not wound.
00:35:47I don't know.
00:35:48No?
00:35:48No?
00:35:48No?
00:35:48No?
00:35:48No?
00:35:49What's the thing you used to do?
00:35:50The what?
00:35:51With the Coke.
00:35:52Oh, my God.
00:35:53The Coke in the app?
00:35:54No.
00:35:55What?
00:35:55Yes.
00:35:56No?
00:35:56Yes.
00:35:57Yeah, what's it called?
00:35:59What's it called?
00:35:59What's the name of it?
00:36:00What was it called?
00:36:01What was it called?
00:36:02Say it.
00:36:03Donatella.
00:36:05Oh, my God.
00:36:07Ew, why's it called that?
00:36:08It's so that the models, their noses wouldn't run on the runway.
00:36:11What?
00:36:11Yeah.
00:36:12Classy.
00:36:13Oh, my God.
00:36:14Wow.
00:36:14Babe, so classy.
00:36:15So gross.
00:36:16Oh, my God.
00:36:17You were such a mess.
00:36:18Yes.
00:36:19Yeah, well, it was another time, another life.
00:36:23Ugh.
00:36:24Yeah.
00:36:24God, look at you now.
00:36:26You know?
00:36:27Rubbing knots out of athletes' asses all day.
00:36:30Tell us, is the massage therapy, like, clean living life as fulfilling as it sounds?
00:36:39You know, I read your book.
00:36:40Oh, really?
00:36:48Yeah, front to back.
00:36:51I thought it was really good.
00:36:54You read it?
00:36:55Yeah.
00:36:56Why didn't you tell me?
00:37:01How's the second one coming?
00:37:04Did you read my book?
00:37:06Of course I read your book.
00:37:07How come nobody told me they read my book?
00:37:13I didn't read your book.
00:37:16That's okay.
00:37:17It must be really hard, hey?
00:37:19Trying to follow up that fucking thing.
00:37:20Yeah.
00:37:21Yeah.
00:37:22Do you know what you should write?
00:37:23Is a mystery novel.
00:37:25Yeah.
00:37:26Mystery.
00:37:27It was kind of a mystery, wasn't it?
00:37:28Oh, my friend is married to a detective.
00:37:31Yeah, and those things are always, like, high on the bestsellers' lists, right?
00:37:36So is mine.
00:37:37I think all she's saying is you could take a break from reading about your own life.
00:37:40I mean, it was...
00:37:42It was a fictional book.
00:37:48Okay.
00:37:49I'm sorry.
00:37:50I'm sorry.
00:37:51I'm sorry.
00:37:52Is that what you got from the book?
00:37:55You call it a fiction?
00:37:57Yes.
00:37:58Okay.
00:37:59Well, I guess that's one way of getting away with slandering your own family.
00:38:03I'm just saying, is this just a little close to home?
00:38:05Slandering.
00:38:06Yeah, you kind of made us all sound terrible.
00:38:09Well, it wasn't you, so...
00:38:11Oh, right.
00:38:12I've always...
00:38:13Fiction, non-fiction, fiction, not...
00:38:15It's like, which one's which?
00:38:16Did you think I was slandering my family?
00:38:18I mean, why is this directed at me?
00:38:20I'm sorry.
00:38:21I didn't think it was...
00:38:22I mean, it's not a secret, right?
00:38:28The book is about your dad.
00:38:31Right?
00:38:34What did you think?
00:38:37Well, wasn't it about your dad?
00:38:44Wow, cool.
00:38:45Yeah, I mean, come on.
00:38:47Okay, go on.
00:38:48What do you want to tell me?
00:38:50It was a good book.
00:38:52Well, now you can focus on new things with this second book.
00:38:57Yeah, and I'm not saying that it was bad.
00:38:58No.
00:38:59Right, of course.
00:39:02Yeah, you know what?
00:39:03This has been really great.
00:39:04Maybe tomorrow at lunch we can talk about Priya's failed career as an athlete
00:39:07or Patrick's titillating life in finance.
00:39:17Classic.
00:39:18Classic.
00:39:22You know, I read that 80% of women cannot reach orgasm through vaginal penetration alone.
00:39:30Isn't that tragic?
00:39:32I'll be right back.
00:39:34I'll be right back.
00:39:49Hey, are you okay?
00:39:51Yeah, just going to the bathroom.
00:39:53Okay, well, you know that that was super harsh out there.
00:39:57Hey, Bill.
00:39:59It wasn't easy for any of us.
00:40:01What wasn't?
00:40:03The book.
00:40:05What you wrote about us in the book.
00:40:07It wasn't just you.
00:40:08You made us all sound like we didn't care about you.
00:40:11Maybe you didn't.
00:40:16Please just tell me what to do.
00:40:18Just tell me what to do and I'll do it.
00:40:19I want to help you.
00:40:20Don't you think if I knew what to do,
00:40:22I would have fucking done it by now, Karen?
00:40:24If it was that easy, I wouldn't fucking be here.
00:40:27I just want you to be happy.
00:40:31Well, you know what?
00:40:35I really do see it now, the similarities I do.
00:40:39What similarities?
00:40:41The sister in the book.
00:40:45So fucking judgy.
00:40:46You and Mom both.
00:40:48You know what?
00:40:48Maybe if you hadn't been so shitty,
00:40:50Dad wouldn't have felt the need to leave.
00:40:53That's what you think happened?
00:40:55You've got it so wrong and you don't even know it.
00:40:57You're walking over and I can hardly breathe.
00:41:13My heart is racing as if I'm pacing,
00:41:17but I can hardly speak.
00:41:21And now you're feeling all right.
00:41:24Cause I just got so dizzy, dizzy, dizzy.
00:41:27I can't even see straight when you look at me like this,
00:41:43me like this, oh, now you're feeling all right.
00:41:49Cause I just got so dizzy, dizzy, dizzy.
00:41:54I can't explain.
00:41:55You walked out of the sea from my memory.
00:42:02Now every face is only feeling space.
00:42:06I'm holding you to me.
00:42:12And now your hands are coming closer.
00:42:16And I can hardly breathe.
00:42:18I can't even see you.
00:42:19I can't even see you.
00:42:20You know your lips are moving slow.
00:42:26I sing my name to you.
00:42:29And now you're feeling all right.
00:42:31Cause I just got so dizzy, dizzy, dizzy, dizzy, oh.
00:42:37And now you're feeling all right.
00:42:39Mm.
00:42:42Just follow your impulses.
00:42:44Um.
00:42:45My impulse is audience, remember?
00:42:49Come on.
00:42:51Come on.
00:42:52No.
00:42:53Shit.
00:42:54You're okay.
00:43:04Mm.
00:43:06Mm.
00:43:09Oh, my God.
00:43:18Mm-hmm.
00:43:19Mm.
00:43:20Mm.
00:43:21Mm-hmm.
00:43:22Oh, my goodness, baby.
00:43:25Oh, my God, baby.
00:43:26I'm Russi.
00:43:27I'm Russi.
00:43:33Oh!
00:43:34Oh, Man!
00:43:35I'm over here.
00:43:37Yeah baby.
00:43:39No.
00:43:41Is it good?
00:43:43No.
00:43:53I can't.
00:43:55Look at me like this.
00:43:57Oh me like this.
00:43:59Oh oh oh.
00:44:01Now you're feeling alright.
00:44:03Cause I just got so dizzy.
00:44:05Dizzy. Dizzy. Dizzy. Dizzy. Dizzy.
00:44:09Oh.
00:44:11Woo.
00:44:13Woo.
00:44:19May I have this dance?
00:44:21Oh. Oh madame.
00:44:23Oh madame.
00:44:41I used to love dancing.
00:44:45You still?
00:44:47Yeah.
00:44:49I mean.
00:44:51Can't dance when you're on the water.
00:45:11Yo.
00:45:13I don't usually smoke.
00:45:15I stole this one.
00:45:17I'm judging you.
00:45:19Good. Smoking is bad.
00:45:21Can I join you?
00:45:23Sure.
00:45:25God I'm sorry I'm not usually so.
00:45:35Yeah I don't think any of us are.
00:45:39I'm usually kind of fun actually.
00:45:41It's just that she is so.
00:45:43She's great.
00:45:49Billie is great.
00:45:51I mean how does she go through her life not realizing how many times she puts herself first.
00:45:55It's crazy.
00:45:57She just says what she wants.
00:45:59Does what she wants.
00:46:01No thought.
00:46:03Seriously she just goes to jump off a bridge and I am right there to grab for her shirt.
00:46:07Fuck.
00:46:09I just keep fucking falling in.
00:46:11Every fucking time.
00:46:13It's so stupid.
00:46:15You're trying.
00:46:16It's what matters.
00:46:19Is it?
00:46:21Look at me.
00:46:22Being the cool sister.
00:46:24Trying to make her happy.
00:46:26Get all you guys down here.
00:46:27Have a little chat.
00:46:28Play some board games.
00:46:30Yeah.
00:46:31Then she'll be happy.
00:46:32Stupid.
00:46:33Hey.
00:46:34It's not stupid.
00:46:35Okay.
00:46:37It's not stupid to be there for someone.
00:46:40Thank God I'm sorry.
00:46:42I'm sorry I keep complaining.
00:46:43It's so boring.
00:46:44I don't mind.
00:46:46I don't mind at all.
00:46:51but what?
00:46:59I think you're so beautiful.
00:47:03Oh my God.
00:47:05Oh man.
00:47:07I'm sorry.
00:47:08I.
00:47:09It's inappropriate.
00:47:10Yeah.
00:47:11Yeah.
00:47:12Awkward.
00:47:13Yes.
00:47:14Yeah.
00:47:15Okay.
00:47:16Just stop talking about it.
00:47:18You know, I used to think you were so cool.
00:47:23You used to.
00:47:26I mean, when I met you, I was so young and you were always so sure of yourself.
00:47:37You know, I was so cool and intelligent and like the beautiful senior.
00:47:49That's very sweet.
00:47:51Oh, that hurts.
00:47:57That's what people say when you offer them a drink and then they're like, I'm so not interested.
00:48:02No!
00:48:03I'll take the drink.
00:48:03No!
00:48:04I'll still take the drink.
00:48:05That is not what I meant.
00:48:08Okay.
00:48:12So why didn't Kelly come down with you?
00:48:18Look, we're getting a divorce.
00:48:25And then that security guard, I was the one that was like, uh, excuse me.
00:48:47Can you turn around so I can grab my clothes?
00:48:52Oh my God.
00:48:53Isn't that the worst?
00:48:55Oh my God.
00:48:56Terrible.
00:48:57Fucking terrible.
00:48:59That.
00:49:01Fuck.
00:49:02That summer was good.
00:49:06Fuck.
00:49:08What?
00:49:10I'm drunk.
00:49:11Oh man.
00:49:16That like, I felt like that was forever ago.
00:49:20Was it?
00:49:20Things change so fast.
00:49:24Yeah.
00:49:26Yeah.
00:49:28I'm sorry.
00:49:32I mean, I'm sorry about a lot of things.
00:49:35I'm sorry you're what?
00:49:36I'm sorry.
00:49:39Oh.
00:49:41That's okay.
00:49:42It's not your fault I can't write.
00:49:45Oh, well, I was talking about your phone.
00:49:46Yeah, you did fuck that up.
00:49:48Bill, look around you, man.
00:49:51There are so many people who love you so much.
00:49:55That is what matters.
00:49:58Mm-hmm.
00:49:59Fuck your book.
00:50:01Mm-hmm.
00:50:02Yeah.
00:50:03Yeah.
00:50:03Yeah, I really wish it was that simple.
00:50:06I mean, come on.
00:50:08Not only do you have, like, a gross amount of fans,
00:50:13but you clearly have a very strong support system.
00:50:16River was the only person who was there for me.
00:50:21And that is what is important.
00:50:23You know?
00:50:24Who cares about everything else?
00:50:26What if the only person I want to show up is never coming?
00:50:29You don't get it.
00:50:32You don't get it.
00:50:33This is what matters, okay?
00:50:37There are so many people who love you so much.
00:50:41Your sister.
00:50:42Your sister loves you so much, okay?
00:50:46When she called us and she said that we have to come down here because you needed our help,
00:50:51we were all there in an instant.
00:50:55Wait, Karen called you?
00:50:59Yes.
00:50:59She called us and she said that it was your birthday and that we should come here.
00:51:04She said that I needed help.
00:51:06Yeah, no, fuck.
00:51:07Patrick and I were...
00:51:08Karen called you and said I needed help.
00:51:12No, she didn't say that you needed help.
00:51:15She just said that we should be here for you because it's your birthday.
00:51:18And I said, of course.
00:51:19I mean, she said that...
00:51:22Okay.
00:51:22Yeah.
00:51:23I'm just going to go.
00:51:24That shit's going to kill you.
00:51:31I'll fuck the cake.
00:51:32Oh, you've got to be fucking kidding me.
00:51:50No, no, no, just go with vibes.
00:51:53Happy birthday to you.
00:51:58No, make a wish.
00:51:59Wish this whole fucking weekend would go away.
00:52:00Billy.
00:52:01Hey, I'll cut it.
00:52:03Billy, can we please just talk about this?
00:52:05You know what?
00:52:05I was like cake after a good fuck.
00:52:08Billy.
00:52:08What?
00:52:08Can we please just talk about this in private?
00:52:10In private?
00:52:12Oh, why?
00:52:12So you can preserve your perfectly fucking crafted facade?
00:52:15This like, I give a fuck superhero fucking sister vibe you've got going on?
00:52:21What?
00:52:22God!
00:52:22Okay.
00:52:23That's a little...
00:52:24A little what?
00:52:25Did I...
00:52:26I'm sorry.
00:52:27Did you come here to help me?
00:52:28Did you think fucking my sister was going to do the trick?
00:52:31Or is that why you came?
00:52:32Because it sure seems like nobody actually wants to be here.
00:52:35Actually, we all came here to help.
00:52:37Kelly left me.
00:52:38Oh.
00:52:38Okay?
00:52:38What?
00:52:40Yeah.
00:52:41Where are you fucking going?
00:52:43Uh, home.
00:52:45Do you think I'm a child?
00:52:46Because you sure do treat me like one.
00:52:50Okay, what if everyone just took a step back?
00:52:51Oh, you know what?
00:52:52Maybe.
00:52:53Maybe I am.
00:52:54Ha ha!
00:52:55Billy, calm the fuck down.
00:52:57Billy.
00:52:58Oh my...
00:52:59Will you just calm down?
00:53:00Oh my God.
00:53:01Is this what you want?
00:53:02You look like you've got everything super under control.
00:53:04Oh, and you do?
00:53:06Living in your two-bedroom fucking apartment and your dead-end job, taking care of your oopsie
00:53:11baby that you didn't even fucking want?
00:53:15Isn't this what you wanted, Karen?
00:53:16Get everyone together, you know?
00:53:18Oh, rally the troops!
00:53:19Oh my God!
00:53:20Get to be the hero again?
00:53:22You know, you're fucking stifling.
00:53:26You know that?
00:53:26How are you going to fix me, huh, Karen, when you can't even be happy in your own fucking
00:53:31sad life?
00:53:32You know what?
00:53:33I'm going to stop trying because clearly you have got it all together.
00:53:36Oh yeah, okay, yeah, you can go.
00:53:38Everyone can go.
00:53:39That's fine.
00:53:40We good.
00:53:41We're fine.
00:53:43Yeah, because the last thing I wanted was this fucking pity party.
00:53:46Pity party?
00:53:47Wow!
00:53:48Okay.
00:53:49Okay, Bill, you want the truth?
00:53:51You want to be treated like a big old adult?
00:53:53Well, then stop living in this fucking fantasy you've created for yourself.
00:53:59These stories you have written about Dad, it's all a fucking lie, okay?
00:54:04It was a lie I told you as a kid so that you wouldn't get sad, okay?
00:54:08I tried to protect you, Sad Billy.
00:54:10She gets so sad.
00:54:14He hurt me, Bill.
00:54:17And he hurt Mom, too.
00:54:18And he's not coming back, thank fucking God.
00:54:20And guess what?
00:54:21He's not going to read your stupid book, okay?
00:54:24Fuck you.
00:54:26Who are you?
00:54:27Who is this person?
00:54:29This cruel fucking person?
00:54:30I miss my sister.
00:54:32I need help, too, sometimes, you know?
00:54:34I need someone to call when I'm having a bad day or I have a bad date or my kid is crying
00:54:41so hard and I don't want to drop her off at preschool.
00:54:46I want to shove cake in my face when I'm feeling sad, but that's not how it works for me, okay?
00:54:52Why is this about me?
00:54:53This is ridiculous.
00:54:55You are all hypocrites.
00:54:57None of us are threatening suicide online.
00:55:00You think I'm fucked up?
00:55:15You think I'm so fucked up, don't you?
00:55:21You want me to be fucked up?
00:55:24Everyone can just rest easy tonight.
00:55:25You know, I got just the thing, okay?
00:55:28Right here.
00:55:30Yep.
00:55:31Right here.
00:55:32Okay.
00:55:34That's really not how it works.
00:55:35There she goes.
00:55:36You are so fucking selfish.
00:55:38You know what?
00:55:40You are.
00:55:41Because this whole fucking thing, it was for you.
00:55:44Mm-hmm.
00:55:45Yeah, just so that you could say that you tried one more time.
00:55:50You know?
00:55:50Stop!
00:55:52Stop, Bill.
00:55:53Would you have even come here if she hadn't asked you to?
00:56:00Would you?
00:56:03Would anybody have come here?
00:56:06Because here I am.
00:56:07Um, you know, just thinking, wow, maybe I do have people, you know?
00:56:16And then, fuck.
00:56:20Why don't you try fixing your own shit before you swoop in on mine, huh?
00:56:23Okay.
00:56:24Oh, Jesus.
00:56:30Okay, it's really not good to do when you're this mad.
00:56:33I'm here for you.
00:56:34Do you have any of you guys are doing?
00:56:36Priya!
00:56:41Oh, my God.
00:56:41Oh.
00:56:43Oh, my God.
00:56:44None of you guys come crying to me tonight.
00:56:46Fuck.
00:56:58Okay, that was a lot.
00:57:00You guys just did, like, heroic doses.
00:57:08What the fuck is that?
00:57:10This is Sage, just an energy cleanser.
00:57:12Billy, as much as I love your impromptu rage-eating of mushrooms,
00:57:17this definitely calls for some positive space,
00:57:19so I'm just clearing your aura, clearing your energy.
00:57:24Yeah, I thought we were just getting high.
00:57:28Did you bring that here with you?
00:57:30Yeah.
00:57:30I travel with all my Sage and crystals.
00:57:33Mm-mm.
00:57:34Great.
00:57:35For protection.
00:57:38So I think we have a lot to explore on this journey.
00:57:41Journey?
00:57:42Mm-hmm.
00:57:44And a lot will come up.
00:57:46And I just want to let you know what we're doing here now
00:57:49is creating a safe space.
00:57:50We're creating a safe container
00:57:51for anything that comes up to come up.
00:57:55It's allowed.
00:57:56Anything you feel is allowed here.
00:57:58There's no judgment.
00:58:00This isn't exactly the mood that I would want to regularly
00:58:05do a journey in, but that's okay,
00:58:07because we're going to roll with the punches.
00:58:09We're going to roll with whatever happens.
00:58:11So I want everyone to take a deep breath in.
00:58:17Good.
00:58:18And out.
00:58:20Good.
00:58:20This is about opening the doors to your subconscious
00:58:25and letting the deepest and most wise parts of you
00:58:28bubble up to the surface.
00:58:30The medicine will not give you anything more than you can handle.
00:58:34You are the co-creator of your experience,
00:58:37hand in hand with the sacred mushroom.
00:58:40I will be here as your guide.
00:58:42Should you go too far, I'll bring you right back to Earth.
00:58:44And the last thing I want to say to you
00:58:48is that your biggest fear has already happened
00:58:51and you've survived.
00:58:57That's intense.
00:58:58It's the expansion of your mind,
00:59:00if that's intense, then yes, it is.
00:59:03What now?
00:59:05Now we wait.
00:59:06And the last thing I want to say,
00:59:22I don't think I get this timing thing.
00:59:45I feel like it's been an hour.
00:59:47Yeah.
00:59:48I see some shit, you know?
00:59:50Patience.
00:59:50It's about the journey, not the destination.
01:00:00I guess the light does look really cool.
01:00:05I don't know, maybe it all looks like that.
01:00:13Last time I did mushrooms, I shat my pants for 30 minutes.
01:00:20I should change my pants.
01:00:22Oh, wow.
01:00:24It's like a filter.
01:00:29Why don't we all close our eyes and listen to this music?
01:00:34Okay.
01:00:35Let's get out of the way.
01:00:48Oh, my God.
01:01:18I'm going to take a shower.
01:01:20Is that code for a ticker share?
01:01:22We'll see.
01:01:48Wait.
01:02:01I think I need you.
01:02:02I'm going to shower inside your shower.
01:02:31Yours.
01:02:33Cool.
01:02:34Okay.
01:02:41So good shower.
01:02:42Oh, my God.
01:02:44Oh, my God.
01:02:45Oh, my God.
01:02:46Oh, my God.
01:02:50Oh, my God.
01:02:52Oh, my God.
01:03:22Patrick?
01:03:24Fuck!
01:03:30What are you doing here?
01:03:32What are you doing here?
01:03:38What?
01:03:39They're always pussyfooting around.
01:03:41Pussyfooting?
01:03:43So many couches.
01:03:47Doesn't make sense.
01:03:52Why do we need these?
01:03:57I just want you to be happy.
01:04:12I don't know what to say to you.
01:04:14What about me?
01:04:16What do I say?
01:04:18I'm sorry.
01:04:19Okay?
01:04:20I'm sorry.
01:04:21Okay?
01:04:22I'm sorry.
01:04:23I'm sorry.
01:04:24I'm sorry.
01:04:25I didn't want to hurt anybody.
01:04:26I just miss doing things for me.
01:04:27What is this?
01:04:28These aren't yours to open.
01:04:29What is this?
01:04:30Oh, is someone out there?
01:04:31I don't know what to say to you.
01:04:32Fuck!
01:04:33I don't know what to say to you.
01:04:34What about me?
01:04:35What do I say?
01:04:36I'm sorry.
01:04:37Okay?
01:04:38I'm sorry.
01:04:39I...
01:04:40I didn't want to hurt anybody.
01:04:42I just miss doing things for me.
01:04:43What is this?
01:04:44These aren't yours to open.
01:04:45What is this?
01:04:46Oh, is someone else right?
01:04:47That is not true.
01:04:48Because I did everything for you.
01:04:49Okay?
01:04:50I put you first all the time.
01:04:51You're the worst friend in the whole fucking world.
01:04:52You drove me to cheating.
01:04:53You just slept with me to feel something.
01:04:55No.
01:04:56No.
01:04:57No.
01:04:58No.
01:04:59No.
01:05:00No.
01:05:01No.
01:05:02No.
01:05:03No.
01:05:04No.
01:05:05No.
01:05:06No.
01:05:07No.
01:05:08No.
01:05:09No.
01:05:10No.
01:05:11No.
01:05:12Stop.
01:05:13Get out!
01:05:14That was super harsh out there.
01:05:16Why do we need all this stuff?
01:05:18Okay.
01:05:19Oh, God.
01:05:20My heart is pounding.
01:05:22Oh, my God.
01:05:23Oh, my God.
01:05:24No.
01:05:25I'm having a heart attack.
01:05:26That's what you think happened.
01:05:28You've gotten so wrong.
01:05:30You need to wait in the window.
01:05:31No.
01:05:32No.
01:05:33No.
01:05:34No.
01:05:35No.
01:05:36No.
01:05:37No.
01:05:38No.
01:05:39No.
01:05:40No.
01:05:42No.
01:05:43No.
01:05:44No.
01:05:45No.
01:05:46I know.
01:05:47Look.
01:05:48Look up.
01:05:50No.
01:05:51No.
01:05:52No.
01:05:53I'm just star dust.
01:05:55We're all just stardust.
01:06:10You're fucking stardust.
01:06:25He's not coming back, thank fucking god.
01:06:49And guess what, he's not gonna read your stupid book, okay?
01:06:55Stop living in this fucking fantasy you've created for yourself.
01:07:08Sad, Billy. She gets so sad.
01:07:25Oh, my God.
01:07:30Oh, my God.
01:07:34Oh, my God.
01:07:38Oh, my God.
01:07:51I don't know.
01:07:55I don't know.
01:08:25I don't know.
01:08:55I don't know.
01:09:25I thought we were going for a walk, not...
01:09:49I'm peaking a mountain.
01:09:51Summit.
01:09:53What?
01:09:55Summiting a mountain.
01:09:59Good. Nice.
01:10:05I got a promotion at work.
01:10:09Awesome.
01:10:11Can I get some water?
01:10:17Yeah, we're really close to the next lookout.
01:10:19I'll just bust it out then.
01:10:21Yeah, I can see that the thought of me perishing in the desert really bothers you.
01:10:25Oh my god, so dramatic.
01:10:27Yeah, you're really having a lot of fun on this walk with us, huh?
01:10:29Oh my god.
01:10:31Yeah.
01:10:37When did you get so fucking callous?
01:10:39Excuse me?
01:10:41Look at how we like walk together and like talk, you know?
01:10:45Bill.
01:10:49Bill, look, I'm sorry, okay?
01:10:53I'm sorry.
01:10:55I've had a really fucked up few months and I just needed some time to like find myself to be good with myself.
01:11:03You know what? You're forgiven.
01:11:05Come on, why'd you come if you didn't want to talk?
01:11:07No, I thought we were coming out here for the fucking view.
01:11:11Patrick.
01:11:13Awesome.
01:11:17You've got to be kidding me.
01:11:19That was for everybody.
01:11:21What the fuck is going on with you?
01:11:23Seriously, I thought we were having fun this weekend.
01:11:25I thought you came here because you wanted to be here.
01:11:27Why does everybody keep saying that to me?
01:11:29I am right here.
01:11:31Not you, okay? I don't know what the fuck is going on with you.
01:11:34You used to care about what was going on with me.
01:11:36More than anyone else.
01:11:37You said that I was lucky to have a friend.
01:11:39A best friend who was a girl because, because men can't talk through their feelings.
01:11:43Yeah, well that's problematic.
01:11:44Can you stop making fucking jokes?
01:11:47Okay, what, you, we talk, you got married, I don't know.
01:11:52Yeah, I got married and then I got divorced and you didn't even know about it, Bill.
01:11:55Why did you post that photo?
01:12:01What photo?
01:12:04You know what photo.
01:12:05Pat, I don't know.
01:12:06No, please don't be fucking real for once.
01:12:08Why did you post that photo?
01:12:09What do you want me to say?
01:12:10The truth.
01:12:11Why'd you fuck my sister?
01:12:12Why don't we even skirt around that?
01:12:13That is not what we're talking about here.
01:12:14I don't remember!
01:12:15I don't remember, okay?
01:12:16I blacked out.
01:12:17I blacked out.
01:12:18I've just been, I've been blacking out a lot lately and it's just like, it's just like
01:12:25really, it's really hazy, you know?
01:12:28And I don't, I don't know what's happening in my head.
01:12:31I just, I don't, I don't know.
01:12:34I just like, I just, I can't, I can't figure it out, you know?
01:12:41I'm just like in there and you didn't call and you didn't call and nobody called.
01:12:47Nobody, nobody picked up the phone and I didn't pick up the phone because, because
01:12:53I don't know how.
01:12:55And I just think I have no idea what I'm doing with my fucking life.
01:13:00I don't know.
01:13:01And I'm just like, I'm just, I don't know.
01:13:06I'm like in my head all the time, just like doing fucking circles, you know?
01:13:10And I don't, I don't think I've ever been this lonely in my whole life.
01:13:16Oh, that fucking book.
01:13:19I haven't written a fucking word of it.
01:13:21Not one word, not a single word.
01:13:23It's like I'm living in this nightmare I used to have where I would dive into a pool.
01:13:27And then when I tried to swim to the surface, I just like, I, it doesn't matter how hard
01:13:31I swim.
01:13:32I can't make it.
01:13:34I just can't.
01:13:35I just can't.
01:13:37And it just feels like, and it just feels like my, not even my best friends care.
01:13:43That's what it feels like.
01:13:45That's what it feels like.
01:13:46What?
01:13:47No, that's what.
01:13:48And you, you have been judging me since the second you walked in that door.
01:13:52You know what?
01:13:53I wish for a second that you could see yourself through our eyes.
01:14:03I didn't know you were so sad, man.
01:14:05I'm sorry.
01:14:09Yeah, neither did I.
01:14:11Did you pour out all the water?
01:14:18Yeah.
01:14:19You fucking ass is so stupid.
01:14:24You fucking idiot.
01:14:29I'm so sorry.
01:14:46I'm so sorry.
01:14:48I am too.
01:14:50I am too.
01:14:52I'm gonna start looking for a new place to live.
01:15:09I need a roommate.
01:15:11Oh my god, could you imagine?
01:15:14Is it too soon for me to say that I really didn't like her?
01:15:20Nope.
01:15:21Okay.
01:15:22Can we wait like a few months before we start trash talking my wife?
01:15:26Facts are facts.
01:15:27Excellent.
01:15:38I can literally feel you silent shit talking.
01:15:41I'm sorry.
01:15:42Okay.
01:15:43Is this thing?
01:15:44What is this thing?
01:15:45What is this thing?
01:15:46Oh my god.
01:15:47Wait, let me try it.
01:15:48I can't do it.
01:15:49It looks nice.
01:15:50It looks so good.
01:15:51Well deserved.
01:15:52I am.
01:15:53Yes.
01:15:54I'm here to be there, you too.
01:15:55Oh my god.
01:15:56Oh my god.
01:15:57It looks nice.
01:15:58Oh my god.
01:15:59It looks nice.
01:16:00Thank you so much.
01:16:01Well deserved.
01:16:02I am.
01:16:03Yes.
01:16:04I was here to be there, you too.
01:16:05Oh my god.
01:16:06I was here to be there, you too.
01:16:07Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh
01:16:37Hey guys, remember when we all did mushrooms and trip balls?
01:17:00Oh my god.
01:17:03There's still a bit.
01:17:06Yeah, none of you guys have shared about your dreams.
01:17:10Oh, I'm good.
01:17:11Yeah, I'm taking that to the grave, so.
01:17:13Me?
01:17:14I feel like I am 19 again.
01:17:16No, thank you.
01:17:18What am I talking about?
01:17:19You don't want to do coke off every toilet you see?
01:17:23Any establishment you go to?
01:17:25Can we please start pretending like I had a coke problem?
01:17:27I wasn't the only one who did coke in college.
01:17:30But you did a lot of coke.
01:17:33It's fine.
01:17:35Oh, shit.
01:17:40Oh, sorry.
01:17:42What's that?
01:17:44I didn't get a chance to give it to you yesterday, so.
01:17:48Wait.
01:17:50You look like you're having fun.
01:17:53Sure.
01:17:55Well, I gotta go.
01:17:58Gotta pick up Lily and do a bunch of stuff.
01:18:00Of course, Lily.
01:18:01Alright.
01:18:02She reminds me a lot of you, actually.
01:18:09The way you used to put on those wacky shows.
01:18:12She will dance in front of whoever will watch her.
01:18:15It's pretty amazing.
01:18:16She doesn't care what anyone thinks.
01:18:18I was never like that.
01:18:21Yeah, you were.
01:18:25Wait.
01:18:26Oh.
01:18:27Oh.
01:18:28I, um, I've been holding all of these for a while.
01:18:32Um, can you open them later?
01:18:34We're gonna be fine, you know that, right?
01:18:49You could stay, really.
01:18:54Um, I, I mean, we could talk and...
01:18:56I gotta go.
01:18:58But I'll call.
01:18:59And you won't answer your phone.
01:19:02I don't have a phone.
01:19:04Right.
01:19:05Well, when you get one.
01:19:19You're soaking wet.
01:19:21Sorry.
01:19:22I love you.
01:19:27I know.
01:19:28I love you too, Bill.
01:19:33SILENCE
01:19:43Dear Lily...
01:19:57Firstly, I promise I'm not as shitty as my silence may suggest.
01:20:02suggest. I've spent a long time feeling selfish for wanting to be held and I want you to know
01:20:12that's fucked. Bad. That's bad. I'd really like you to know. Well, I guess there's a
01:20:24lot of things I'd like you to know. It's hard to know when growing up really sets in.
01:20:32You know, hard to know what kind of person you will be or could be or are.
01:20:42It's hard to know if that squeeze you feel around your heart is something
01:20:46that's meant to be injured. Or soothed.
01:20:53Letting the right people touch the places you've kept so far from sunlight.
01:21:00Good love. Bad love.
01:21:08That's not the point.
01:21:10What's the point? The point is...
01:21:14I have no idea what the point is. And neither does your mom, and neither will you, and
01:21:22neither does anybody, really. But not knowing? I promise. That can be pretty fucking exciting.
01:21:38I have no idea what the point is. I will try to eat. But I know I can feel like it's not good at the end.
01:21:43I know .
01:21:48Remember when you were younger
01:22:02Maybe sin was a dream
01:22:07Sit and play a game for what kind
01:22:13Drinking game, lemonade, all the bad
01:22:21Ice cold in the summer
01:22:25Just a young soul, destiny to set you free
01:22:36The doors collide
01:22:46And I got one thing
01:22:52Absolutely
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