00:00You know, we don't have to go into the whole viral video that you had, but I loved what Jennifer Coolidge said to you about the whole thing.
00:07She's like, who cares? Do you kind of keep that with you? And did that really resonate with you at the time?
00:12It's like two words that are so simple. Like, who cares? And it's important to remember.
00:19I do think it's something that I try to live by and try to remember because, I don't know, things feel so big in the moment.
00:27But then in two days, you completely forgot that it happened.
00:31So I think if I can keep reminding myself that it's not that deep, it's not that serious, that I'll be a happier person.
00:38Sure. Do you ever regret it, putting it out there? Or do you?
00:40I mean, no regrets. No regrets.
00:42No regrets. I mean, yeah, in the moment, there might have been, there might have been a time.
00:48Like a smile, Shannon?
00:48Yeah. No, no, no. It wasn't her fault at all. It was nobody's fault but my own.
00:52It was, it was my choice and my, but in the moment, it was maybe like I got scared how powerful the internet can be and that it's just a beast.
01:04But ultimately, no, it all led me to where I was supposed to be.
01:07Of course.
01:08No regrets.
01:08You talk about your relationships in the book as well and how you kind of go on these journeys and your marriage a bit.
01:13And I thought it was so interesting because you did say on like a TV show a while ago on Watch What Happens Live, this was a manic time in my life.
01:20And I don't think people maybe at the time maybe took that seriously, but it really was.
01:24Yeah.
01:24Yeah. I mean, you were diagnosed with borderline personality disorder.
01:28Yeah.
01:28And you were trying to figure out how to regulate that in your life.
01:32And you kind of had like this crystal clear moment being like, okay, now I can see things clearly again.
01:37Yeah.
01:37Yeah.
01:37Yeah. I mean, I think like you said, a lot of people thought I was making a joke or making a light of that situation.
01:44And of course, in a way I was, you know, like you have to make light of some of the dark moments.
01:49Which I like what you do in this book too, because you do laugh in this book.
01:52Oh, you got it.
01:53It's heavy, but like there were times that I'm laughing out loud because sometimes, you know, sometimes in your darkest moments, all you have to do is laugh.
01:59You have to. I think that's a coping mechanism.
02:01But also it's not that crazy.
02:03It's universally like people can connect with some of this, this dark stuff that has happened to me.
02:09And I think, you know, I made light of it and I always have humility with all things in my life.
02:16But, but in reality, like that moment, there was, you know, there was a trial and error with medications that I was on and,
02:25and being misdiagnosed and what comes with that sometimes is a manic hyper mania that was going on.
02:34And yeah, I, it was a very impulsive, crazy time.
02:41And, and, uh, but suddenly when, when I put things into perspective and I got on the right dosage and I, you know, got my mind clear,
02:50it just made sense that I made some of the decisions that I made and they weren't great.
02:57But like I said earlier, like no regrets because maybe I wouldn't have, wouldn't have figured it out.
03:02Sure. No, that's so true.
03:03I wouldn't have gotten on the right, you know, the right thing.
03:05No, totally. But I love that you write that, like you said, no regrets.
03:08I don't look back at that time and you know, like have regret from it.
03:14I learned something from it and move on. And I thought you wrote about it beautifully.
03:17Thank you. I really do. I think that you did it really well.
03:19And hopefully next wedding, no Siegfried and Roy's and no marriage on the Kardashians, right?
03:27Yeah. Maybe we'll keep it a little more low key the second marriage.
03:30Hopefully you get your rock of love goth wedding that you need.
03:34The rock of love goth wedding. Thank you for remembering.
03:36Of course. It's the little details.
03:38You'll be there.
03:39I will 100% be there.
03:41Do you find that it's hard to date now or do you want to keep things more private?
03:46Yeah. I think, um, I don't think everything should be such a exhibition for the world.
03:53I think some things should be kept for you and, and, and to be a little bit more personal.
03:59And, um, yeah, I just think there's some things should be sacred and, and, and that's okay that I wasn't.
04:09And I was very in, in people's faces in my last relationship.
04:12And maybe for the next one, we'll just keep it a little more quiet.
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