#476. No one is coming to save you. 7 Diabolical Lessons Learned, Part 1

Alesha Peterson

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00:00hey y'all so just a heads up i do curse in this video and i talk about some not so easy things so

00:21if you don't want to watch that's okay i'm starting to put these at the beginning because

00:25i just speak my mind and just keep it for real you know i'm the friend in the group who's not

00:31going to talk about you behind your back i'll come to you directly and i just say what's on my mind i

00:37say what i feel and there's been people who don't like that and i don't care but when i do curse i

00:46will put a little disclaimer hey i'm cursing in this i know everybody don't like cursing so if

00:52you don't want to watch don't watch i appreciate you for watching up to this point thank you

00:57hi it's this scarlet she makes a couple appearances in my videos

01:04hi my name is alicia with the noise and if this is your first time visiting my channel welcome

01:12all righty so we're just going to go with it here's i think i'm going to split this up

01:25amongst two different videos so we're going to start with five diabolical lessons that i learned

01:31hey cicada how you doing

01:35so number one i have a couple of notes but i'm going to mostly like just speak on the top of my

01:54mind see what we can come up with the help that i look for don't exist so i stopped looking so

02:02at many different periods of my life when people passed away i noticed people disappeared said you

02:11know why are you expecting us to help you we don't care you're not invited to this event you're not

02:20welcome at this event this bar is ours not yours i think at different periods of my life people made

02:27worse and with me being the only child i had no problem figuring it out for myself and i'm one of

02:36those type of people i like to see things for what it is not for what i wish for it to be and people

02:42were clearly showing me who they were and are and so i literally and figuratively started to see that

02:54people wasn't showing up people wasn't literally and figuratively showing up for me at all so

03:01instead of playing victim and saying what was me and talking about how bad people were treating me

03:07i just literally just learned how to sit alone in my thoughts be in nature like this and figure it

03:13out myself and that's been my goal to just sitting in nature and i started showing up for myself my little

03:24notes keep going away and i just literally just stopped looking for what's not there and that's it

03:37number two just because your friends and family members get that support doesn't mean the same

03:41thing's gonna happen for you i know that a lot of my friends and family members are getting married

03:48having kids all that stuff and while people show up for them and i want to be the auntie and show

03:55up for them i just don't think that people will show up for me in those ways and see i'm a giver

04:01i'm the type of person that likes to give without expectations and if it were me like what would

04:07this person want and how can i surprise this person but throughout the years i've given people so many

04:13chances and they just kept letting me down and i don't want you to do it like me i just want you to

04:21get it done you know and since it's so hard for people to show up why don't just stop depending on them

04:28and so i had to learn the hard way that i had to be the change i want to see in the world for me

04:38i would look in the mirror and say hey like we should we're the only one we got so let's just figure

04:43this out on our own i had to really start limiting who i show my giving side to for that reason because

04:53i'm gonna talk about this in a later point people mistake my kindness for weakness and took me for

04:58granted and started taking advantage so i limit who i show this giving side to and i'm also not

05:08the jealous type while i will be giving to a very small few i also don't get jealous of those who

05:16get support and get people showing up for them like if you don't have to go through some of the

05:20things i've been to i think that's amazing and i hope i can just see the person that can show up for

05:27them as well just being the support and love that i never received that's kind of like in my auntie

05:34mantra so going on to number three being a nice person a lot of times means getting used taking

05:41advantage of or thrown away car noise and cicato like i said in the last point people mistake my kindness

05:49for weakness too much so i just naturally started cutting back because if people don't appreciate

05:56it why keep doing doing it and you can't keep doing stuff for people if they don't appreciate it

06:03right so if you keep doing it and they don't appreciate it or they don't say thank you or anything

06:07it's like why keep doing it and i'm not a huge thank you like i don't have to have a written thank you

06:13know then you don't have to post about it all over social media but hey like every once in a while

06:20i just want to know that you used it or hey i found this useful because if you don't like it

06:25i need to simply get you something else but if i don't know if you like it or not how can i know

06:31what you like and what you don't like so sometimes i feel like people have taken me for granted

06:36and that's when i started to pull back because there's these two quotes that i forgot to include

06:45in other videos you know lying to yourself might bring you comfort in the moment but the truth will

06:49set you free and at some point you have to be for real yourself about the gap between the life you want

06:54to live and the life that your daily habits are leading you towards um if people keep taking you for

07:01granted throwing you away like a piece of not appreciating you and what you bring to the table

07:07um just get out of their lives like they don't want you in their life just leave and so that's what

07:13i had to start doing i started to cut a lot of people out of my life and so going on to the next point

07:19if you disappear people will let you oh boy so i had a bunch of hard periods in my life and one of them

07:29was when several of my friends passed away especially from suicide and i disappeared on a group of

07:37friends just to see what they would do i poured my heart and spirit into them and none of them showed up

07:44for me and it got the wheels in my head spinning like did these people ever care for me because i'm not

07:54the type of person i don't want to burden you or take up your whole weekend or hey you got to spend

07:59every waking moment or holiday with me when something hard like that happens like i just want a little

08:05bit of your time just just for you to sit in silence with me i don't want the answers i don't want you to

08:11have the answers i'm not asking you to solve my problems i just wanted to know or want to know that

08:17you care for me and i just really felt like i wasn't cared for and so i also have been

08:26missing out on events on purpose just to see if people will miss me and since i just don't feel

08:34good and i just kind of want to try other things but i've learned that if you disappear enough people

08:40will let you and people will move on and just they just don't care unless they're just really good

08:45friends of yours or people who are just really good people they might reach out and say hey i didn't

08:49notice you at this event but i have noticed like most people just don't give a rat's ass and will

08:56move on and just forget that you were ever there so

09:02number five i understand why the successful don't always reach back

09:10i hear a lot of people say you know give back to your community don't forget where you come from

09:15that kind of stuff i used to think more like that when i was younger but after some recent successes

09:23i've had and people trying to cut me down so hard trying to get there i get why sometimes the successful

09:32or the people who are really really successful in what they do they sort of disappear and they

09:40keep their circles small they are very careful about who they include in their life i get it

09:47because the resentment that you get when you try to move to the next level is real and i've had people

09:54try to destroy me spread rumors on me get people to see me a certain way because i've had different goals

09:59dreams and a different i was just on a different page and they didn't get it

10:07i will be right back

10:10hey i'm back to continue so i'm starting to understand why a lot of successful people

10:21start to back off

10:25and they sort of hang out with other people who are kind of like them so

10:30you don't see a lot of famous actors and famous actresses hanging out with not so famous actors and

10:45actresses you kind of hang out with people in your same wavelength your same bubble same circle

10:52i'm at the beginning of my youtube journey i want to make that very clear i don't get hundreds of millions

10:56of views like my friends do and that's the goal i'm manifesting i'm at the beginning of my influencer

11:03journey now considering myself to be a mini influencer i have gotten more people reaching out about

11:11collaborating dm dm dm me about different things since getting to the millions mark

11:18where as when i was at my lower numbers nobody reached out and it kind of just makes you wonder

11:27if people really want to get to collaborate with you just for you or they just want to jump on your

11:33bandwagon because of the numbers and you should get to know somebody because of who they are not what

11:39they got like i said in previous videos and i already don't trust easily so it kind of makes me put my guard

11:49up so i i'm starting to see why a lot of successful people they don't reach back out i mean they reach

11:57out when they want to reach out and help somebody but it's far few in between i i'm starting to get it

12:03so just kind of a bonus point oh the noise what was that but anyways

12:16okay anyway a bonus point that i want to bring up

12:22i love my cousins and this is this don't have nothing to do with my cousins i'm just gonna say

12:29an immediate family member i was having a medical crisis and they yelled and talked about how come

12:38you're asking me to help you and you should get somebody else to drive you and

12:45they were just really mean and very like diabolical and said you shouldn't be asking me to help you

12:52take you to the hospital and i'm like wait what it kind of made me question like

12:57could i really even trust anybody in my family if i really need it and if i had a family member or a

13:08friend go through something medical i would never scream never yell this is inconvenient this is stupid

13:16when my friends had suicide attempts i didn't say oh stop being suicidal for my convenience

13:23i stay with them and stuck by their side and love is showing up even when it's not convenient for you

13:37that ultimately made me change how i saw that person but it always makes me wonder like who would have my

13:46back in my immediate family if i really need it and so it kind of makes me not trust people or a lot of

13:55people in my family to be honest and i love them but when i needed people to come through for me

14:01too many times in my life they didn't and i basically went with what was shown to me and

14:09the diabolical lesson i learned here like honestly i probably would have been better to use an uber

14:16or lyft and that's sad i've had cousins ask me hey do you want a ride nah like that's all right i don't

14:23want to inconvenience you and that's why i don't because i feel like i've had people in my life say oh

14:29we're here to help you but then when you reach out you know they don't return phone calls they don't

14:34don't reach out back hey baby hi you want to say hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hi hey you say hi

14:52so anyways i can depend on my cats to treat me nicer than some people in my family or friends

14:56like i'm serious like that's why i have um several feral cat thank you areas i try to take care of as many

15:04cats as i can because i think animals are pure and they're nicer they don't spread rumors lies and

15:11gossip on you so that's why i always try to take care of my animals so you're going to be seeing cats

15:16in several of these videos like sorry i know so anyways getting back to my point i really feel like

15:26when i needed people to be there they wasn't and like i said when my friends were going through those

15:33hard times and they needed somebody to be there for them i wasn't going to tell them you know stop

15:39um stop being this way i was there to listen i didn't have the answers i'm not a mental health

15:45professional at all like i didn't know what the i was doing excuse my french but i felt like as a friend

15:54when i saw my friends have suicide attempts the best thing i could have done was just be there

16:03i hope they're okay

16:19in the airplane so i guess my experiences just teaches me how not to treat other people because i'm not

16:27perfect but i just wish that when i needed the help it was there and it wasn't and so i just

16:38tried to do the right thing and be the best person i could be and if i find myself in a situation like

16:44that again i'm just going to be there for my people but then get them the help that they need as soon as

16:49they can because i had no idea what i was doing i was just thrown in that situation i said hey listen

16:55i love you and i want you to stay and i want to get you the help that you need so anyways one more point

17:04and i'm just going to make this kind of like the finishing point i'm going to make a child free series

17:14on why i'm saying child free okay so let's just depend just believe that let's just pretend that we're

17:21long time friends in recent months i've been having like an uptick of some of my guy friends getting

17:27a little squirrely talking about we want you to be the mother of my kids and are you wanting to have

17:33kids in your future and you would be such a good mom to my kids and why don't you want to have kids

17:39kids after bonafide auntie in the group no i'm not having kids and one of the things i'm gonna bring

17:51up and one of the points i'm gonna bring up is i've had multiple medical issues and nobody showed up

17:58i've had multiple friends pass away from suicide nobody showed up i've had multiple friends attempt

18:05suicide no one showed up so i have to ask the honest question if i needed support as a parent

18:14or a mother or i needed self-care or i needed time to myself if people didn't show up in those other

18:22hard periods in my life why the hell do i think that's going to change if i became a parent

18:28people are showing me how they are right now and like dr phil said i've been saying this in several

18:34videos past behavior predicts future behaviors i look at what's in front of me and i see things

18:41for how they are not for what i wish for them to be and so i'm going to talk about this in a lighter

18:47video i don't want kids because i just don't think the support that i could use will never be there

18:54the support that i could use now and at different periods of my life doesn't exist and so i've had to

19:00really rally for myself and i'll so i'll reach out to my mom and stuff like that but it starts to get

19:09a little dicey on who i could really trust and rely and depend on what i need so anyways i'm gonna go

19:15ahead and cut this video now thank you for watching and see you later bye

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