00:00I've convinced myself this is the room where I'm going to find my future husband.
00:09And if I don't, there is no hope for me at all.
00:30I feel like breaking out into Empire State of Mind, being like a real basic tourist.
00:43This is like the most New York thing I've ever seen in my life.
00:48It feels amazing.
00:49New York always feels like there is something, in the best way, a little bit auspicious in
00:55the air, like something could happen.
00:59And it's nice, it's fun.
01:03I feel scary coming here on my own, like I always have Romy and Jamie with me.
01:09But it's good to feel scared.
01:24I'm having feelings that I didn't think I would be able to feel again.
01:27I remember the first time we came here as a band, and it was terrifying.
01:34But it was like that naivety and that unknown of that first record, I just didn't think
01:39I would feel again.
01:41And I'm coming here with my first solo record, I have no idea how this is going to go.
01:50But it's a nice feeling, as terrifying as it is.
01:57Hello!
02:03How long was your hair before the cut?
02:06Like, my fringe I could put in my mouth.
02:09Oh wow, okay.
02:11I just want to meet people.
02:13I want to know what kinds of people would come to my show.
02:18Because that's like the most immediate way of getting a reaction.
02:22Being in the studio and making records is quite like a slow burn, kind of like satisfaction.
02:28But seeing people's faces is the most immediate thing.
02:32So I think tonight is going to be fun, because it's not necessarily going to be my crowd.
02:38I've got to win people over, and I will try my hardest to do that.
02:46It's good, I feel a little bit like a serial killer.
02:49Kiss the hand.
02:53How do you feel?
02:55I feel good, I feel good.
02:57You're such a back bumble.
02:59I know, right?
03:00I've got mirrors behind me, so hopefully that is not wasted.
03:05Let's hear it for the back of the dress.
03:22It was easy in return.
03:25Oh, I'm hideous.
03:29Performing hideous for the first time was really terrifying, but also really liberating.
03:36And this is much bigger than just my HIV status, or my sexuality.
03:44I'm just feeling a lot more at peace with myself.
03:52Hello.
03:58Hello, how are you?
04:02My name is Oluwosin.
04:06I normally play the band called The X-X.
04:11But this is my first ever American solo show.
04:17Celebrating, and being proud, and being around queer people,
04:23and being able to be your own cheerleader, I think is fantastic.
04:27But almost what I've done on my record is the opposite of that.
04:30Because it's with the same destination, but it's...
04:33I've made a record about fear and shame, and some self-loathing.
04:38But I haven't written about those things to make myself feel like shit.
04:41It's kind of the opposite, I think.
04:43Celebrating yourself and being proud is wonderful,
04:46but also expressing some kind of self-loathing to kind of free yourself of it,
04:51also has some merit to it.
04:54And playing that show in Paris two nights ago was a lot of kind of freeing myself.
05:02Some of that shame.
05:04And I think tonight will be as well.
05:14Tomorrow I'm going to think about that show, and it's going to seem like a dream.
05:19I've realised I don't think I've ever played a show like that.
05:23But it was very fun. Very, very fun.
05:27And strange in a good way.
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