00:00Welcome to English practice stories.
00:08Hey, I've been thinking for a long time whether I should share my story and ask for your opinion,
00:15and I've decided to do it now.
00:18When I was two years old, my biological mother had a serious motorcycle accident
00:25and suffered severe brain injuries.
00:28She went directly into hospice care and was in a coma.
00:33I don't know if you've ever seen someone in a coma,
00:37but she looked very different afterward, and as a child, I found her scary.
00:44Well, after my mother's accident, I initially stayed with my grandparents,
00:50who had already lost their first son and were deeply affected by my mother's accident.
00:57My grandparents were unable to care for me,
01:00hoping that my mother would magically recover if she saw me, her child,
01:06so they repeatedly took me to the hospice.
01:09I don't remember it anymore, but whenever I see a picture of my biological mother,
01:16I get a terrible fear that I can't explain to myself.
01:20Anyway, my grandparents eventually realized that they couldn't take care of me
01:26and handed me over to my father, who also couldn't take care of me,
01:31so I was passed on to my aunt, I was about three at the time,
01:37who already had a biological daughter and neglected me severely.
01:42Eventually, the authorities found out about this and took me out of the family
01:49and placed me in foster care.
01:51However, because I was traumatized and screamed in the new families,
01:57I was quickly passed through about ten foster families who all didn't want me
02:03until I finally ended up with my parents, who went through hell with me.
02:08I had nightmares every night about my mother, wet the bed, and couldn't trust anyone.
02:16Now, over twenty years later, everyone notices that I'm different.
02:23Due to the trauma in my childhood, I have extreme difficulty trusting people,
02:29I have almost no friends, and I am bullied heavily in school because I'm just different.
02:37That's my story.
02:39My biological mother died five years after her accident in hospice,
02:45and my grandfather died in 2013, which means my grandmother is the only one left.
02:54I've always tried to visit her once a month, but during these visits,
03:00she always has pictures of my mother in the kitchen from when she was in a coma,
03:06and I'm just afraid.
03:08Also, during these visits, my grandmother never asks how I'm doing.
03:15She just cries and talks about how she's lost everyone and how terrible her life has been,
03:23and she brings up all the old stories from my childhood that I just want to forget.
03:30Now, my question is, am I the asshole if I cut off contact with her?
03:37Now that she's old, she says I have to visit her because I'm all she has left,
03:43but when I was a helpless little child and she was all I had left,
03:49she used me and traumatized me for life.
03:53So, am I the asshole?
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