00:00What does entering this new decade mean to you?
00:03Survival of the fittest.
00:07I hired a trainer.
00:09I went and got a new wardrobe.
00:12And I'm working on a bit of a makeover.
00:14And when I say makeover, I don't necessarily mean eyebrows.
00:18I'm just going through this thing
00:19where I'm getting rid of stuff.
00:21That feels so good.
00:23Yeah, the purge, yes.
00:25Purge, I'm purging.
00:26I'm purging, and I'm looking forward
00:28to new projects here on the farm,
00:31whether it's getting a pool or we're going to plant a garden.
00:34We're planning it right now, actually.
00:36And 60 means just trying to stay mentally fit and stable
00:44and just get out there and give everything
00:46I've got and have fun.
00:47That's the thing.
00:48Turning 60 for me is I'm so tired of worrying
00:53and so tired of being hard on myself to get better
00:56and do better and go, go, go, go, go.
00:59I'm just trying to learn how to have a conversation
01:01and be content.
01:03And that's the word for me is content.
01:05I try really hard at 60 now to just appreciate everything
01:10and see it as a gift rather than an obligation.
01:13What is life like for you on the farm?
01:16Is that like, I know you have, what,
01:18like 40 animals that you tend to.
01:20But what is like, when Wynonna's not on,
01:23what's a day in the life like?
01:26Big butt pajama pants, a really big t-shirt,
01:31and my Uggs, and my hair in a ponytail,
01:34and no makeup, and me walking through the kitchen
01:37thinking about what I'm going to make for dinner.
01:41I live pretty simply, believe it or not.
01:43I don't have this extravagant lifestyle at home.
01:46We sit out on the porch and I eat ice cream
01:48with my granddaughter.
01:50It's not a picture perfect world here,
01:54but I tell you what, the land is healing.
01:56Where are you now in your stage of grief?
01:58Because I know you've been open and honest talking about it
02:00and where you are in your stages.
02:02Two years later, where are you are in your stage of grief?
02:06I am in a really good place, I'll be honest.
02:09I have worked very hard at forgiveness and my anger
02:15and frustration with suicide.
02:16And so my grief comes and goes, but I see it as a gift
02:22in terms of the healing part of acceptance and surrender.
02:27Surrender is one of the biggest problems,
02:29challenges in my life, is to surrender
02:32and to say, I am not God.
02:34God, there is a God and I'm not it.
02:37Do you have conversations with your mom still?
02:39I do.
02:40I literally, when you see me on stage, I look up a lot
02:43and I always have because I see angels
02:45and I love, love, love looking up
02:48because I feel like I'm connecting with the heavens.
02:51I now do it with mom because I'm like,
02:53what the hell are you doing?
02:54And where are you and why are you not here?
02:57And why are we not singing together again?
02:59And I do go through that when I'm on stage.
03:02Probably that's the most I feel her when we're on stage
03:05or I'm completely by myself and I'm somehow
03:09in this wilderness where I just feel her
03:12and I feel like God, I feel like God is between our thoughts.
03:16God is what happens between our breath.
03:18And I feel like that's where heaven is,
03:20if that makes sense, I don't know.
03:22But I feel like that's where she is.
03:23So sometimes when I exhale
03:25and I get to that end of the breath, I feel her.
03:28I also loved seeing your sister Ashley's Instagram
03:31birthday message to you, her honey bunny,
03:35which I loved so much.
03:37How would you describe your relationship today?
03:40And do you have a special name for her?
03:42Or I know that she's your honey bunny,
03:44but what's her special name for you?
03:46Well, she just calls me sister.
03:50You know, I went from and I like it now
03:52because she calls me sister.
03:53She used to call me sister mommy
03:55and I felt like there was a little bit of in there
03:57because I was the one that kind of raised her really.
04:00And I think there's love and resentment
04:02in our parent parental exchange.
04:05And now that mom's gone, we're now sisters
04:07and it feels like there's more of a solidifying
04:11that grout between the stones, you know, is God
04:15and we're both believers.
04:17So we have such a strong connection now,
04:19especially now that mom's gone.
04:21So yes, she just calls me sister.
04:23Do you credit that?
04:24That like your strong sense of resilience
04:26has able to get you to where you are today?
04:29Yes, I will not take no for an answer.
04:31I'm one of those people that will raise my hand
04:34in church and go, tell me why.
04:37And I just am that way.
04:39I think because I was raised on a bus with my mother,
04:41I could ask questions and be who I am
04:44and I was able to use my voice.
04:47And I feel like I have that right more now than ever
04:50because I just have worked really hard
04:52at being willing and curious.
04:54I'm very curious.
04:55I want that on my tombstone.
04:57She was curious.
04:58I love that.
04:59Well, I'm always learning something.
05:00I'm always, I just find these next generation artists
05:05to be so fascinating.
05:06And now that I'm touring, I'm able to teach them.
05:09I've had, you know, Kelsey Ballerini, for instance.
05:12I've had her on stage with me and she's, you know,
05:15America's darling and I'm just listening to her
05:19and I'm learning something new with her
05:21and I'm going, yeah, but I'm 60
05:23and I'm supposed to be the smart one.
05:26Okay.
05:27Well, wait a minute.
05:27I'm the one learning here.
05:29You know what I mean?
05:29It was a teachable.
05:30Yeah, right.
05:31It's a teachable.
05:32You have to be willing to shut up and listen.
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