00:00I think of Ally Rose as my very first love song.
00:03It's not a song about hating someone.
00:05It's very much a song where I look at something that happened and I'm really grateful.
00:10I could go through anything.
00:11As long as I write a good song about it, it's chill.
00:20I wrote Ally Rose right after I got dumped.
00:24I've never been dumped before and I was in my first relationship.
00:28And it was devastating.
00:3010 out of 10, recommend.
00:32It's really fun.
00:33It's really formative.
00:34It really changes you as a person.
00:35I was flying to London in order to see this person that I was dating, at least I thought
00:42I was.
00:43I landed in London and then got dumped immediately over text message on the airplane.
00:50It was hilarious.
00:52Like of course, that's what happened for my first breakup ever.
00:55Then I was just in London with no one to see and nothing to do.
01:00And so the idea for Ally Rose popped up in my mind.
01:04Essentially in my mind, I was like walking on Abbey Road.
01:07So the song was originally called Abbey Road, but then I figured I probably shouldn't name
01:12my favorite song off of my new album, Bound Heaven, after the most famous album of all
01:17time.
01:26When you're in a relationship, there are these weird things where you feel like you can't
01:40really talk about them.
01:41The biggest problem that can arise in any relationship, whether it's a friendship or
01:46family or you're dating someone, is just miscommunication.
01:50It was just this situation where I could tell a ton of shit in life was being held onto
01:55this person and I knew that there was so much more than I could really understand because
02:00they were never going to tell me.
02:18I think in every relationship, you have this moment, it's so hard to explain.
02:22You don't know why, but you just know deep in your heart that for whatever reason, it's
02:28the end.
02:28I remember this moment so clearly.
02:31I could just feel something in the air and I called my best friend the next morning and
02:35I was like, I just have this weird feeling that that was the last time I'm ever going
02:38to see that person.
02:39And she was like, no, no, what are you talking about?
02:41It's fine, you're just being paranoid.
02:43And then I got dumped.
02:53So I came up with the name Ally Rose because I wanted something that you didn't really
03:06think too hard when you heard the name.
03:08The beauty of music, which goes against genius in every way, is it can mean whatever it means
03:14to you as a person, you know?
03:16So I mostly just wanted it to make people just think but also not think at all.
03:20It's a name that makes you think of somebody in particular, but also of nobody.
03:42The quote in the second verse is something that this person used to say to me all the
03:46time where they were always like, oh, why are you so nervous?
03:49Why are you so freaked out?
03:50I was really scared because I was really close friends with this person and my biggest
03:54fear in our relationship was that we'd stop being friends and then life happens, love
03:59happens, and then you stop being friends.
04:02More than even losing someone to date, I couldn't care less about that because I'd never even
04:07dated people in my life.
04:08The thing that was most devastating to me was losing a friend.
04:11So that's why I wanted to say in that verse, this is why I was nervous.
04:14Of course, this is how I feel.
04:16But you're probably not going to be friends with your ex, let's be real.
04:21I always thought that if I were to end up going through a breakup, that I was going
04:45to be the person who just like dumped this person because I'm so afraid of true and
04:50intimacy, which is just like something I've always dealt with.
04:53I thought necks were made for bruising.
04:54I thought lips were made for lies because every experience of love that I'd grown up
04:59with or witnessing my friends or witnessing my family growing up and things, I'd never
05:05really seen love work out.
05:06So I figured since that was all I'd ever known, I would probably just end up doing the same.
05:11So in a way, getting dumped was like a really nice surprise for me because I was like, oh,
05:17okay, so like, it's fine.
05:18Maybe I'm not going to commit the sins of my parents.
05:20Yeah.
05:44I used to always think of everything as so black and white.
05:47Life isn't like that.
05:48Nothing is black and white.
05:49There can be good things that happen along with the bad and they come together.
05:52So this whole bridge is me saying, I thought all of these things, but actually you're the
05:57first person who's ever proven me wrong and shown me that it doesn't always have to be
06:01that way.
06:02And even though things ended bad, there's still so much good that came out of it.
06:18So I'm like a huge fucking loner.
06:24I have like three friends and they're super close and they mean everything to me.
06:30This person was one of them.
06:31I wanted to end the song with like, I thought that I was your only friend because it's just
06:35one last moment where I was like, that was sad because we were really close friends.
06:39And hopefully every relationship that you experience in life is someone that you would
06:43consider a friend because you'd be surprised.
06:45Some people are not dating their friends and that's not a good thing.
06:48I think you should date people that you like.
06:52There's nothing better to do in life than to be heartbroken listening to really depressing
06:58music walking around in London.
07:00It's actually my favorite activity on earth.
07:03I've been doing Genius interviews since I was 18 or 19 and I'm 25 now.
07:09It's weird.
07:10This little time capsule of my entire life as an adult is just here and it's very nice
07:16to be back.
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