00:00 supposed to be a get ready with me but I keep crying and it's embarrassing. I
00:03 hated my smile and now my face is half frozen and I can't smile. I can but it
00:14 looks so stupid. I have like maybe five photos of me. I have like maybe five
00:23 photos of me um in my adult life where I'm smiling which is so stupid. So
00:30 stupid. I keep thinking that if this doesn't go away I don't have any photos
00:37 to show my kids in 10-20 years of what my smile looked like and I might not be
00:44 able to smile on my wedding day. Just like a testament to how stupid it is and
00:53 how we put ourselves down. How are these things that no one else notices, no one
00:58 else cares about and it was so all-consuming for me that I never ever
01:03 did and the universe was just like if you don't want it and now now I'm doing
01:13 absolutely everything I can to get it back and I'm gonna get it I'm gonna get
01:23 it back I'm gonna get it back
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