00:24Let's get started.
00:44How was your trip?
00:49Fine. Uneventful.
01:00How are you? I mean, really.
01:14I'm okay. Not in a perfect way. Just steady.
01:32Are you still modeling?
01:39I did for a while. But not so much anymore.
01:44I stepped out. I work as a hostess.
02:03Do you like it?
02:06I do. It's quiet. People don't expect anything from me except to be polite and present. And you?
02:18How are you, really?
02:33I'm learning how to answer that question honestly.
02:38Some days are easier than others.
02:46I understand that.
02:55There's something I've wanted to say.
03:02But I didn't want to rush into it without knowing if you were ready to hear it.
03:18I don't think I ever understood how much silence can say.
03:23Not at the time.
03:26I thought if I stayed quiet, things would settle on their own.
03:33I've said this once, and I'll say it again.
03:39I am sorry, and I've carried that longer than I realized.
03:45I know.
03:48And that's not why I came for.
03:52There were stories, rumors even, that started.
04:00Others made it sound like something bigger than it was.
04:05What hurt was seeing quotes attributed to you,
04:10seeing things in print that seemed to decide who I was,
04:15and what I felt before I even knew what was happening.
04:27I...
04:27I didn't understand how those things traveled.
04:33And then there were the awards.
04:35B-R-E-S.
04:36I didn't insist on being there.
04:38I was told to.
04:40To have an opportunity to talk to you.
04:45I thought maybe...
04:47it would finally be the chance to speak and understand what happened.
04:59I didn't know how that must have looked to you.
05:03I didn't either.
05:04I just knew it felt wrong.
05:07Like I'd stepped into something that wasn't what it claimed to be.
05:25I even went through a phase where I hated being me.
05:29I hated questions like,
05:31aren't you that girl from the video?
05:37What's he really like?
05:47What's he really like?
05:51For a while, I wished I could disappear into a different identity.
05:56Because I was tired of being recognized, being typecast, being labeled for what I'm not.
06:12I was told not to speak to you.
06:26I was told not to speak to you.
06:33Michael, I don't need you to fix the past.
06:38To know I wasn't imagining things.
06:43I just needed to understand it.
06:46For us to understand it.
06:49You weren't.
06:50I see you.
06:52Not who people thought you were.
06:55Not whose circumstances tried to turn you into.
06:58Just you.
06:59I see you, Tati.
07:31I should probably let you get on with your night.
07:35Yes.
07:36I have an early shift tomorrow.
07:39So, if you're open to it, I'd like to stay in touch.
07:45Just as ourselves.
07:47No pressure.
07:50I think I'd like that.
07:52As long as it stays simple.
07:54Simple sounds good.
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