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00:06Music
00:25Already this place feels like, like it's where I'm going to be
00:28Like I was there
00:30I need to gather food to feed my body
00:32The kayak is the only way to solve it
00:35It's got a feel I think
00:37Yeah baby
00:40It's pressing down
00:41Oh dear
00:43I have not seen a single thing alive
00:46This is really getting on my nerves
00:48No way
00:49Yeah
00:51I've got a bloody fish, it's me first trout too
01:01I'm officially tapping out, come and grab me
01:05We're halfway to the south pole
01:07We're gonna be totally alone
01:09It's Tasmania, it's cold, it's rain, it's snow
01:14We're all going to leave changed forever
01:19Holy fuck
01:21Yeah
01:22What is this place?
01:24It's like a camper from hell
01:26Mother nature is kicking my ass
01:27Oh, sinking
01:31This experience
01:32Oh you fucker
01:34Is just as much a mind game
01:36Oh my heart
01:37As it is a survival game
01:39Check it out
01:41Whoa
01:43It's been another way
01:45The $250,000 prize would change my life
01:48Yum
01:49I'm over it, fucking over it
02:10I have no idea
02:13If you're having to две
02:13When you're hungry
02:15Hut
02:16It's Lord
02:18When you're having to take a smaller fugitive
02:18You're having to go
02:18Trip
02:18Sleep
02:18Is definitely
02:18The end of the attack
02:19You have to give us
02:20The end of the attack
02:21The end of the attack
02:21The compressed air
02:39It's the middle of the night.
02:43Bodies remember anniversaries.
02:47Exactly 12 years ago.
02:51Right about now, I woke up with a weird pain in my very, very pregnant belly.
03:03Blaise's birthday.
03:05Happy birthday, Blaise.
03:09This fire is your candle, little chicken.
03:16It looks like I'm having a vigil tonight for you.
03:22My little spark.
03:26My only cub.
03:35When I was 38, I discovered I was pregnant.
03:40And then four days later, I found out I had breast cancer.
03:44I was told that I had to terminate the pregnancy or I'd die.
03:49And I said, no, I will not.
03:52This wild wolf mumma inside me just said no.
03:57And I just had this clarity inside of knowing what I needed to do.
04:03Chemo babies are usually tiny.
04:07When Blaise arrived, she was four and a half kilos.
04:10She was enormous.
04:14Getting her here healthily and being in remission taught me that I could trust that part of myself.
04:22And then three years later, Blaise got cancer.
04:30For any parent, the most terrifying thing to think ever is that your child can die.
04:40It's the biggest fear of a parent.
04:42It's like as long as they're breathing, you're afraid.
04:47Spent nine days in the ICU and then she died.
04:54Spent nine days in the ICU and then she died.
05:28It's like her absence is a presence.
05:32And it's an ache I carry close.
05:37Because it reminds me that she existed.
05:49Happy birthday, Blaise.
06:14I've been to the bottom of the bottom of the bottom of the bottom of the pit.
06:19And I've mapped every millimetre on the way down and on the way back.
06:25Having gone through that and come out the other side, not broken, for me means I can handle anything.
06:37I am under no illusion that it's going to be easy.
06:41In every possible way, this experience is going to push me to my edges.
06:46But for me, this isn't a struggle, it's a challenge and one I'm up for.
06:56I feel like I've popped the grief bubble last night.
06:59And now I just feel gratitude that today's her birthday.
07:07And I can just think about her running around with her fairy wings and her tutu barefoot in the dirt,
07:16eating witchery grubs.
07:19And I'm super grateful that I've had the experience of birthing and being a mum.
07:52I'm a black cockatazer back.
07:57Hello, cockatazer.
08:00They're just probably the same as me.
08:02They're just enjoying the blue sky.
08:06Woo!
08:11Ha ha!
08:12I reckon he copied me then.
08:15Oh yeah, see you later.
08:18Woo!
08:23Back to the silence.
08:25Back to work.
08:33Someone's got a nice natural bend.
08:36It's day four.
08:37I am going to keep going on my kayak.
08:41The kayak is going to solve my set line fishing needs, my ability to put out a gill net when
08:47I make one, allow me to find water and do my recce.
08:50That looks a lot more satisfying.
08:55I really haven't eaten anything since I got here, which I'm okay with because the way I'm playing it is
09:03I'll probably be hungry for maybe 20, 30 days with nothing much coming in.
09:09But around that mark, I'll start having some serious food gathering systems in place.
09:16Probably be a little wider, you know.
09:19I'm just grabbing one more straight sapling.
09:20Yeah.
09:22So the quicker I get this bloody thing together, the quicker I can eat.
09:43Something's been climbing up there.
09:45There's just scrape marks.
09:49There's a good one coming up.
09:52About there.
09:54So I assume that's like a possum or something trying to climb up this tree.
09:58That's a good sign.
09:59I know that there's at least some bloody animals around here.
10:02I'm going to set these trail cams and see if I can see what wildlife is around.
10:13Alright.
10:15If I was walking through here, which way would I go?
10:20And to be honest, I'd go this way.
10:21So this is probably the way that the animals would go as well.
10:31There's a bit of a fork here, actually.
10:35Once again, I think most traffic is going to be coming down here and doing that.
10:39So I'm probably better off having it here.
10:42Looking that way.
10:51Alright, that should do it.
10:56Alright.
10:57Just got to mark where that is.
11:00I'm looking forward to seeing if there's anything on them in the morning.
11:22I hope everyone else's shelter is better than mine.
11:30I've woken up like this and I need to get out of this wormhole.
11:38Yeah.
11:39I need to get under some decent shelter, especially with this wind picking up.
11:43So today is Chopmore Wood Day for my permanent shelter.
11:49Let's go.
11:51Whew.
11:54I want it to be spacey.
11:56I want to be able to fit my bed.
11:58I want it to be so comfortable that I can withstand any storm, any amount of rain, any wind.
12:07I want to be out here for a long time, so I need to do it.
12:12Okay.
12:13I need more trees.
12:19As an Aboriginal man, this experience will give me the chance to connect the country on a deeper level.
12:24And that's really important to me for self-growth.
12:33Okay, let's go finish this wall.
12:38Using way too much energy carrying these large logs around.
12:42Oh yeah, I got me.
12:44That's my first slip.
12:49I've just got to take it slow and get this done.
12:59Ooh, that was fucking close.
13:02Jesus cross.
13:05This experience is just as much a mind game as it is a survival game.
13:12Please work.
13:14I haven't eaten and I've probably dehydrated and my mind's starting to break down.
13:21I need to just switch back on because one slip up here, I'm going home.
13:32Ooh, no way.
13:35No fucking way.
13:42Fuck.
13:50Didn't get done as much as I really wanted to get done today.
13:54I've still got half a wall to go.
13:58The amount of cutting I've done is just far out.
14:01Non-stop.
14:03One more night in that bloody thing.
14:05And then I'll move into here.
14:27It looks foggy, but I think it's okay now.
14:32Day four.
14:34I was just doing my morning water collection.
14:36It looks like there's plenty there.
14:39But there's also a little turd of some kind of arboreal critter.
14:45We'll just pretend we didn't see that.
14:56Fresh water.
15:00Standing for the camera, please.
15:03My name's Michael Wallace.
15:05I'm 44.
15:06I'm a country vet and a bush regenerator from the Oaks, New South Wales.
15:09Oh, no, it's a shibazzo.
15:11We only got this many.
15:12I'm a Bible-believing Christian.
15:14My faith in God is very important to me.
15:17It's pretty much the anchor.
15:19It just makes my life easy and simple to have Jesus to follow.
15:24Don't miss this.
15:24We're not going anywhere.
15:25We'll still be you when you get back.
15:27Yeah.
15:27I would definitely describe myself as a family man.
15:30No offense.
15:30My kids are important to me.
15:32My church family's important to me.
15:33How do you think I'm going to go, Samuel?
15:36You're nice and stubborn.
15:37I reckon you'll lost a good amount of time.
15:39Might even make the whole way.
15:41My everyday life is a bit like it's alone.
15:45G'day.
15:46I've got my own bushland.
15:48I can trap.
15:49I can fish.
15:50I can hunt.
15:51I can make fire.
15:53My strongest skill set is problem solving.
15:55And just having a non-quick personality.
15:59I know it's going to be hard, but I'm not fearful.
16:03I'm doing this to represent the Christians out there
16:06and to show how I can be resilient in that struggle.
16:10In the past, my faith has helped me get through hard times.
16:13See you, Dad.
16:15Bye, I love you.
16:16Being a Christian out there is going to be my secret weapon.
16:22Today, we're going to go exploring up the hill to expand my diet
16:26because I'm not catching fish yet, so I'm actually feeling hungry.
16:33Here we go.
16:34There's the trail.
16:35Up, up and away.
16:42As we get further up the hill, it looks a bit less dense, which is nice.
16:49And I think I'm up to my lunchtime lemandra.
16:55There you are.
16:55There you are.
16:57From the roots.
17:04Kind of watery and juicy, but with a touch of sweetness.
17:08You know what?
17:09If you forgot about its shape, it could be corn on the cob.
17:13Let's push on.
17:16I think I'm heading south.
17:22Better do a quick check.
17:24Yes, it is south.
17:26Excellent.
17:31Just proper bush bashing now.
17:48Hmm, it's starting to close in a bit.
17:53Making the walk a bit more of a zig-zag than a straight line.
17:57Which is when it's easy to get lost.
18:12It takes this long to go one metre.
18:14It's not a good sign.
18:16Just trying to not break the do-not-sweat rule.
18:19Do not sweat in cold climates.
18:36Oh, crawling through the jungle.
18:40Is there another way?
18:42No.
18:44I'm really enclosed here.
18:47I'm ready to be back at camp now.
18:49Burning up too much energy.
18:58Direction check.
19:01Heading north-north.
19:04Heading slightly west-north-west.
19:07Better straighten up.
19:09The goal is to get home by nightfall.
19:19I'm exhausted.
19:25Oh, can't quite stand yet.
19:30Oh, no.
19:34I left my compass back there.
19:56I left my compass back there.
20:19After only a week, I kind of get this place a little bit now.
20:23Seems that it just rains every ten minutes and then it stops raining and then it rains again.
20:33All right.
20:34Yep, here comes the rain.
20:36It's okay.
20:37You've just got to manage that and have tasks ready to go inside.
20:41I'm working on my idea for a fishing reel.
20:46And I think that is the key.
20:48While you've got the strength, you need to keep going to get all of your systems in place.
20:55To start gathering food and not really take a rest.
21:00Because just resting burns energy.
21:02All right.
21:03I'll take a sink for a test run.
21:06Here we go.
21:11Yes.
21:13Beauty.
21:14Come on fishers.
21:16Being disciplined.
21:17I really think that is the way I'm going to stay out here the longest.
21:26Marine's picking up.
21:27I'm telling you to go inside.
21:28I'm going to go inside.
21:29I'm going to go inside.
21:49Ow.
21:50Kneecap.
21:53Come on.
21:58Yeah.
22:06There it is.
22:07Thank you, Lord.
22:09Black compass.
22:10Let's get some floral on that before I look at next.
22:15Ah.
22:18Okay.
22:19Direction check.
22:21The plan is to keep heading south.
22:25We'll be pretty close to the way I came up, hopefully.
22:27To get home as quick as we can before we run out of flight.
22:40There's got to be a faster way.
22:43Oh.
22:47Oh.
22:58I think I see some light at the end of the tunnel.
23:04Oh.
23:05Thanks, buddy.
23:06I think I'm heading downhill.
23:08I think I'm heading down the hill.
23:10To enter the water.
23:14Oh.
23:16Faith makes a big difference in getting through things.
23:19Knowing it's not all about the comfort that we have in this life.
23:23But there is something afterwards that's greater.
23:27Oh.
23:29Hallelujah.
23:33Hard times come and hard times go.
23:36I can be uncomfortable and that's okay.
23:43I was worried that I wouldn't be able to get back here tonight.
23:46So I'm really glad that I am.
23:48And I was exhausted.
23:51I did find Lomandra.
23:53But yeah, it wasn't worth going that far for it.
23:56See you guys.
24:11I've had a decent break in the weather.
24:12I'm going to go check out those trail cams.
24:18All right.
24:18Let's have a look.
24:21All right.
24:24All right.
24:28All right.
24:29Oh, yes.
24:31Hello.
24:32Hello.
24:34Hello little fella.
24:36I see your bottom.
24:38Right under that bush.
24:40That's his happy place.
24:43That's cool.
24:51I've got a definite paddy melon bouncing around back there.
24:57Maybe the smarter move is to stop what I'm doing.
25:02Make that trap now while the animal's there.
25:07Okay.
25:08Got a plan.
25:15I'm going to just switch to making that trap full time today.
25:22This is definitely my priority because there's dinner out there.
25:26And the quicker I finish this, which could be today,
25:28the quicker I could possibly be eating it.
25:32Check that out.
25:34It's starting to look like a net.
25:54Excuse me.
25:56Please don't put that on telly.
25:58I'm pretty happy that I did not catch another eel today.
26:03Oh, I just had eel all over everything.
26:06Even my water container still stinks like eel.
26:09Good calories, but yeah, a bit of a trade off.
26:14You know, I'll try and catch a few fish or eels here and there,
26:17but I was super excited to get some bush foods happening.
26:22A few more food sources in the pot.
26:25As a wildlife biologist, I've spent a career learning about Australia's flora and fauna.
26:31Understanding what plant species are there that I can use.
26:35I think that'll be a real asset to me out on the land.
26:40Let's get some berries in your belly.
26:49So this little shrub is what's called coffee berry,
26:53and it has these little red berries on them that are edible.
26:57They're actually a really good source of vitamin C.
27:00I'm just going to crush it and put it there.
27:07And that's a really sensitive part of my body.
27:12And so I'll know if there's any reaction that I shouldn't eat them.
27:18But what I might do is collect any berries that I can find,
27:22take them back to camp, maybe have some for dinner.
27:29There's this imagined experience of what I'll be like out here, you know,
27:33versus what I'm actually like out here.
27:37I feel connected to the land,
27:40but I don't feel any inspiration whatsoever to hunt and kill,
27:44and I think I just need to sit with that and realise that's okay.
27:50Make sure there was no reaction.
27:53It looks great.
27:55It looks fine.
27:57Here they are.
28:03Hmm.
28:06Lots of little seeds in it, kind of like a...
28:09a raspberry.
28:11Hmm.
28:12Kind of sweet too.
28:14They're pretty darn good.
28:17Pretty happy with that.
28:18That was bloody delicious.
28:25Okay.
28:27Saturated backpack.
28:29This is the moment.
28:31Move my stuff in and put the tarp on.
28:35Today, with this beautiful weather,
28:38I've got the chance to stick to the plan of trying to get a roof over this
28:42and move into a bigger space, more room, and be a bit...
28:47just a little bit more comfortable.
28:49Ha-ha.
28:51Like my dad always said,
28:54you gotta have good eaves on a house.
28:59The shack is complete.
29:02I don't know if it's waterproof yet, but we'll find out.
29:06So, we'll go through the front door.
29:10Hello?
29:12Nope, no-one's home. Good.
29:14I reckon I'll put the king bed here.
29:17Probably the fridge in the corner.
29:19The microwave on top of the fridge.
29:22Yeah, I reckon that will do me for now anyway.
29:26Hmm-hmm.
29:30You don't know how good I feel to have this done.
29:34It's been such a journey the last five days.
29:38It's given me, um, great energy.
29:42All of a sudden, now that it's done.
29:46And I really look forward to the time ahead here
29:48where I can start to go fishing, finally.
29:53Just start enjoying this beautiful area.
30:03Oof, it is the rain.
30:16I really wanted to collect firewood, but it's way too wet.
30:20Like, I don't even know where to start.
30:24It didn't make that door too big.
30:27Whenever that northerly wind comes through.
30:32Woo!
30:35Breezing.
30:40My great-grandmother.
30:43She's, uh, a big part of the reason why I'm out here...
30:48doing this.
30:50It was part of the Stolen Generations.
30:53If she can go through what she went through,
30:56I can go through this.
31:00She was stolen at the age of five from her mother.
31:05She was just taken for her looks, whatever,
31:10the assimilation policy, and bang, off they go.
31:13We don't know what happened to her father.
31:16Her brother was dropped down a water well
31:21and drowned, obviously.
31:23And her mother was stolen and sent to a mental institution
31:27in Wiradjuri country in Orange.
31:32For 45 years, they thought each other were dead.
31:37And yet they were four hours away.
31:43You know?
31:44But yet, she never complained about the world whatsoever.
31:50She was so strong.
31:55I'll tell you what, you want to talk about resilience?
32:00You put a hundred of my ancestors lined up in a row.
32:07Within the first 50 years of colonisation,
32:10or whatever you want to call it in this country,
32:12it came down to three being left alive
32:16from either being murdered or died from disease.
32:21So, I'm a living member of one of those three members.
32:27And that I'm proud of.
32:30And that is what will help keep me out of here.
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33:30This is a happy sunshine song.
33:32Today, I am özell a happy sunshine song.
33:34I am making my bed.
33:35And when I say making my bed,
33:37I don't mean like putting my fine Egyptian cotton sheets
33:41on it, fluffing up the doona, no.
33:45When I say making my bed, I mean making my bed.
33:53My strategy is still not to even worry about food,
33:57just to work on this shelter.
34:00So I have a home, because I want to be out here for 90 days.
34:09My body is 52, and there are things
34:13that my body can no longer do.
34:17And it just requires a complete adaptation
34:21of the way I go about things.
34:24I just have to be slow.
34:29It's taking my weight.
34:31That feels good.
34:33Oh.
34:34That's one.
34:37Now I've got to do the other one.
34:43I have to just keep dropping into earth time.
34:48This takes as long as it takes.
34:51Just keep going, even when it's snowing.
34:57Just keep going till you get there.
35:25I have a bed, and it's just the beginning of being actually on my bed.
35:31I have to be at home, rather than sleeping rough.
35:34So I'm very, very happy right now.
35:50My house is looking a bit like a house.
35:57Look at that.
36:05It's a very disheveled house, but it's kind of a house at the moment.
36:16Oh, what is that?
36:20Where is it?
36:22Oh, my God.
36:24My heart is beating.
36:27There it is.
36:36That's a platypus.
36:40That's so exciting.
36:48I'm glad you visited me.
36:55It all feels very doable right now, and I'm very glad to be here.
37:19Lots of knots, tying knots, never ends, just knotty knots.
37:25Oh, no.
37:26I've had a hiccup here.
37:28It's boring.
37:29I don't want to do you anymore.
37:31Just be finished.
37:38Let's go hunting.
37:39Let's go for a little, little hunt.
37:41What do you reckon?
37:46Can't fault this place at all.
37:48It's beautiful.
37:49The only one thing I'm missing is food.
37:52That's it.
37:53Let's go possum hunting.
37:57I just haven't seen much.
38:00Can't even see a set of eyes.
38:05I'm going to need to get some meat.
38:07Yeah.
38:10Come out and sacrifice thyself, young possum.
38:16That doesn't work either.
38:18Bloody hell.
38:20I'll be happy with a snake.
38:22I'll be happy with a snake.
38:22Just give me a snake.
38:23Give me something!
38:28Righto, let's crack on.
38:30I'm talking too much crap.
38:36I reckon, without a doubt, there's a possum in this tree.
38:39I'll be happy with a snake.
38:44Why, this is so creepy.
38:46I'll be happy with a snake.
38:51Oh, it goes so far.
38:56Oh.
38:58Can't even see.
39:02I don't know if it's a snake.
39:06Bloody hell, I'm on edge.
39:16That's crazy.
39:18I reckon there's definitely a possum in there, but
39:21there's no way he's going to be down here.
39:26You live another day, my friend.
39:38Everyone's gone home.
39:39Like, I'm literally alone.
39:42Like, it's like Noah's brought his ark down here and gone,
39:46hey, everyone jump on, let's piss off for a bit,
39:48while Chris hangs out here for,
39:51well, as long as it takes him to go nuts.
39:53Probably won't be too long.
39:56And then they all come back.
39:59Nice one, Noah.
40:00You and your stupid bloody ark.
40:02Alright, let's go fishing.
40:04I feel like I've got Buckley's chance of catching a,
40:07um,
40:08rodent possum.
40:09So, I'm just going to concentrate on the water.
40:12Oh, sunshine.
40:15Oh, thank you, baby Jesus.
40:23I've got hooks and plenty of line.
40:25So, modders will get him in the drink,
40:28get him working hard.
40:29It's one thing I can control.
40:36Fishing's what I know.
40:42One, two, three, four, five.
40:50Eat, eat thy bait, thy trout.
40:52Oh, my God.
41:13Ah.
41:14Ah.
41:22No rods are moving.
41:28It's not ideal.
41:39I wonder if anyone else is in, like,
41:41a really different spot,
41:43where they're just smashing possums and fish.
41:47Maybe I've been stitched up.
42:04Last night,
42:06I finished a big net for this trap.
42:08Today.
42:09If I get this trap set up,
42:11I could possibly need
42:13paddy melon for dinner.
42:16But,
42:16I'll have to just do two trips.
42:23Yes, got it.
42:25Paddy melons are active.
42:27Within an hour or two of sunset.
42:30It's going to be about that wide.
42:32I think there's a very good chance
42:33they're going to follow the trail
42:34that I'm setting my trap on.
42:37Oh, I think that's my trigger mechanism.
42:38Nine degrees to the tree.
42:44So,
42:45I'm trying another trip line
42:48toward the top of one of my nunchucks.
42:50So,
42:51the nunchucks go together.
42:54This piece goes under the fork.
43:00Alright.
43:02Plenty of weight on there.
43:06I'm going to pull it out.
43:07I'm going to pull it out.
43:08And it releases.
43:18You just see how much pressure it takes to go through.
43:23Okay.
43:23Great.
43:24Good.
43:24Alright.
43:27So, now it's time to set the net up.
43:29In situ.
43:33Bang the stake in over here.
43:47Oh, I think I'm done.
43:49That's finally set.
43:51Obviously, the trip wire gets pulled.
43:53Net goes up.
43:54All four corners of the net.
43:56Log goes down.
43:57And can't hit the ground and hit anything else.
43:59Just in case there was something else underneath.
44:01I'm pretty happy with it.
44:03But I'll probably need to get out of here
44:04because it's getting dark
44:05and I don't want them to be waking up and hearing me.
44:09It seems like a solid trap.
44:12And I can't wait to get out of there
44:14and just listen out really carefully
44:15and it's a really quiet night.
44:17So, I'm going to be listening out like nothing else.
44:27Alright.
44:28It's probably about four hours after dark.
44:32It's probably the time that the Paddy Millans
44:34would have been through.
44:39Oh, I don't know whether to be hopeful or not.
44:43Like, it looks pretty good.
44:45But I didn't test it, you know.
44:50It's just, I don't know.
44:53I don't want to get my hopes up.
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45:43I haven't heard any noises in the bush till it
45:47and it's fading the quieter snow inside.
45:54Maybe.
45:56It's because one of them has got trapped.
46:06No, it's still set.
46:10It's still set exactly as is.
46:16I might just check the trail again.
46:23Are you kidding me?
46:27He's standing on the edge of the net.
46:31He's gone around the tripwire.
46:35And he's definitely prodding around everywhere
46:38because I've disturbed it.
46:42Wow, that was so close.
46:45So close.
46:50It's been a long day, but I'm happy.
46:55I've trimmed a lot.
46:58It's just time to start bringing in the bacon
47:00and I got quite close.
47:05I have to wait and see what happens.
47:09When I find a weakness,
47:11I tend to study it a lot
47:13to the point where
47:14I can almost consider it a strength.
47:17I'm going to apply myself 100% to this challenge.
47:31Well...
47:32It's fine, Rebecca.
47:38Showtime on roots and that is just flying.
47:51How did you get ganged?
47:53I think he actually came for that.
48:18It's starting to feel how harsh this place can be.
48:23It's like a camp from hell where you just can't leave.
48:57You'll catch a fish today, that's what's happening.
49:02Man, my brain is just scattered, it needs some nutrients.
49:09It's like fishing in an empty dam.
49:14I'm starting to lose a bit of hope on my abilities to catch food out here.
49:21I don't know guys, I don't know what to do.
49:28It's going to be a long day if I can't shake this feeling.
49:32My body and mind just won't operate on this diet.
49:40It's a fucking food situation, it's a fucking shit.
49:45I need to fucking eat, that's the problem.
49:49That's it.
49:50If I can't fucking eat, stop thinking.
49:55Stop thinking.
50:01I'm losing my shit, eh?
50:02I really am.
50:04I've almost had a gut fall.
50:07Wow.
50:11This GoPro can go fuck itself.
50:27Come on.
50:31I'm still going to fucking eat it.
50:47You know what?
50:48It's all fucking eat it.
50:49You can fucking burn the rest for all.
50:52I'll give a fuck.
50:54Fuck off.
50:57Oh, this is terrible.
50:59I fucking hate feeling like this.
51:11Fuck this.
51:12I'm fucking...
51:13I'm over it.
51:14I'm fucking over it.
51:27This food situation is halting me from achieving what I want to achieve.
51:33And it's now became a challenge of starvation, not a challenge of being out here alone.
51:42Suddenly going downhill very, very fast.
51:48If I can get that paddy melon, I've probably won.
51:51Yeah.
51:53It's the self-care that feels so nice and it makes this place feel more homely.
51:57Yeah, baby.
51:58I got bush soap.
52:00I came into this.
52:01Yeah.
52:02Thinking I was going to win.
52:04Fuck, what am I doing out here?
52:05It's not about that.
52:06If I can't fuel my brain, how do I continue this journey?
52:10I've definitely switched over into ketosis.
52:13One press of a button.
52:16You're fucking kidding me.
52:22I'm the first to know.
52:24I'm the one.
52:24I'm the one.
52:25It's the self-care.
52:25This is my brain.
52:26I'm the one.
52:30It's the self-care.
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